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charlie61
03-06-2011, 01:26 PM
Damn that's one lucky girl!!! You are beyond gorgeous Jade... I'd give my left tit to make out with you :D
We were all thinking it! :-*
kitinboots
03-06-2011, 10:01 PM
We don't have a cleaner to clean our dressing room, and so many girls come and go without giving a shit about dropping their rubbish everywhere that it ends up disgusting. I clean it sometimes when I'm bored, because I can't stand the state of the place, but my confession is that I really clean it because I hope one day someone will notice and actually thank me for doing it.
Ashly06
03-07-2011, 06:57 AM
YEA my cycle came today!! I swear I'm never having sex again...well until I get my iud :D
livingdeadgirl
03-07-2011, 07:27 AM
I confess...I think I have an addiction....
to COFFEE!! If I dont drink it, I get a headache...is that bad??
Oh well :)
Felons_Felony
03-07-2011, 11:59 AM
I confess...I think I have an addiction....
to COFFEE!! If I dont drink it, I get a headache...is that bad??
Oh well :)
Yep... that means you're a caffeine junkie. No, really -- headaches, fatigue, being "dazed" (you know what I mean), and irritability are symptoms of caffeine withdrawal.
DesuvsDeath
03-07-2011, 12:15 PM
I confess that I'm jumping on the "Want to make out with Jade" bandwagon. Lol
Vyanka
03-08-2011, 05:06 PM
Most strippers shouldn't have carpets in the home. That should be a rule. lol.
I spent hours trying to pick up hair, glitter, rhinestones up. AND I have some stubborn self tanner stains. Arrrgghhh
mjampet
03-09-2011, 03:15 PM
Confess:
First one:
Sometimes I hate my SO. She works in marketing. I work with computers. She NEVER has to work late or on weekends, gets to take 2, 3 hour lunches with clients AND gets reimbursed. I am REQUIRED to be ON-CALL every fourth weekend, get calls at least once a week at home.
Second one:
Sometimes I tell her I am working when I am in the office at home. I am really watching cam-girls. ;)
:P
charlie61
03-09-2011, 08:05 PM
Naughty!! :D
charlie61
03-09-2011, 08:06 PM
I confess that I experience empathetic stress for all my sistahs still out there working the clubs and hustling their asses off.
Solidarity.
Spankie55
03-11-2011, 10:01 PM
I'm so mad at my boyfriend/baby daddy today! I ATE A WHOLE FUCKING PIZZA. UGH. That's the last time I let him claim our son on taxes. Promised me he would give me $2000..but since we went to court today for child support(we aren't living together,and he hasn't paid for shit..),he refuses to give it to me! So much for a new car.
FML.
livingdeadgirl
03-12-2011, 07:00 AM
^ thats cool, let the courts handle him
They will rape his ass. $$$
Ashly06
03-12-2011, 08:10 AM
I'm so mad at my boyfriend/baby daddy today! I ATE A WHOLE FUCKING PIZZA. UGH. That's the last time I let him claim our son on taxes. Promised me he would give me $2000..but since we went to court today for child support(we aren't living together,and he hasn't paid for shit..),he refuses to give it to me! So much for a new car.
FML.
Wish I had the guts to put up with that kind of BS. For some reason I just don't want to be bothered with the whole child support thing. I'd rather just take care of my child myself without having to ask him for anything financially. Just the feeling of independance I guess.
Spankie55
03-12-2011, 08:30 AM
^^I can understand that. But he made a baby with you. He needs to man the fuck up and pay up. You can use the money for a college fund for your baby or something cool like that. Or maybe save it for him so he/she can buy a car when the time comes. Or you can save it for when times are rough. You never know. BUT with child support usually comes visitation-so I dunno where your stand is on that.
So Fine Divyne
03-12-2011, 09:11 AM
I still haven't forgiven my sister for moving money out of my account to pay a bill without telling me then moving it back like 9 yrs ago. I just don't trust her with money and deep down feel like she's sneaky because of it. I don't forgive my mom for being jealous of my relationship with my father my whole life (she confessed this to my last bf) and treating me like shit because of it. I am angry with myself for something I did to a friend, even though I made it right then years later confessed because I think it makes me morally weak and a shitty person all these years later.
Mindy Bares All
03-12-2011, 10:59 PM
I really miss having a crush on someone/ being in love.
And goddamn, am I tired of the stuck up guys on online dating sites. And the really ugly ones too.
Kellydancer
03-13-2011, 12:31 AM
One thing I hate about those online sites are the men being extremely picky when they shouldn't. I am 40 even though I look much younger and you'd think I'd have my share of men on those sites. After all there are still a lot of single men. however many of the guys my age who are never married, no kids (the type I want) are chasing after girls who are 25. Most of these guys aren't all that attractive even. Meanwhile when doing online dating I get contacted by the obese men, high school dropouts, the guys with 10 kids by 9 baby mommas, etc. I'd rather be alone than date a man with kids especially guys who sleep around. It sucks being alone at this age. Oh and the freaks. I had a profile on a free site and I keep getting messages from this guy that are really abusive. Dude, I don't want you, please leave me alone.
Girls, all of you who have children you need to go after these fathers (or sperm donors as the case may be)to pay. This is true in the cases where taxpayers are supporting the kids of these dead weight (not saying any of you are sponging off the system). I can't stand these types of men because my experience is they keep doing it.
4everresolutions
03-13-2011, 01:06 AM
^That sucks about the dating websites. What ones are you on? I know you mentioned okcupid didn't work that well, but what about match.com or plentyoffish or something?
Also, maybe list yourself in the nearest metro area - so instead of south of Chicago, put yourself as in Chicago. Theres more men to pick from in Urban areas usually, and you'll be moving out that way soon - so you'll be able to sample the fare before you arrive so to speak!
HollyInSeattle
03-13-2011, 07:24 AM
I confess I usually have to have drinks to deal with how I feel about myself when dancing now. I feel broken inside and past memories/feelings come back. I confess I feel like I put on a "show" that isn't the true me, but I feel like I am stuck and alone deep inside :(
kitinboots
03-13-2011, 11:41 AM
I confess I've just started having dreams about my ex. Every night. Nothing sexual, nothing romantic, I don't have those feelings for him anymore, bt he's ALWAYS in my dreams. Last night I dreamt he got a bar job in the club, the night before he sold my skis for €1....its annoying me.
Kellydancer
03-13-2011, 12:01 PM
^That sucks about the dating websites. What ones are you on? I know you mentioned okcupid didn't work that well, but what about match.com or plentyoffish or something?
Also, maybe list yourself in the nearest metro area - so instead of south of Chicago, put yourself as in Chicago. Theres more men to pick from in Urban areas usually, and you'll be moving out that way soon - so you'll be able to sample the fare before you arrive so to speak!
I'm about 45 minutes south of Chicago so when I look online I look in the city or the inner suburbs. That's where the decent single men are (and believe it or not, there are many single men in the 40's and even 50's near Chicago). Once my finances are in better shape I am moving closer to the city. Where I am now the guys are usually divorced with kids or much older.
I've tried both POF and Match and struck out on both. Match has a lot of quality men though so in a few months I'll probably get a subscription there again. I'm also trying a few Christian sites (though this is tricky since many men on these sites are way more conservative than I want).
kaiarose
03-13-2011, 01:14 PM
I like gay porn. Not like the young, skinny, teenager looking boy on boy kind though. The sexy, muscular, wish-he-wasn't-gay-because-I'd- totally-fuck-him type of porn.
charlie61
03-13-2011, 01:17 PM
I like gay porn. Not like the young, skinny, teenager looking boy on boy kind though. The sexy, muscular, wish-he-wasn't-gay-because-I'd- totally-fuck-him type of porn.
Trust me, you are NOT alone. }:D
I know a number of women who openly admit to loving gay porn...myself included.
Kellydancer
03-13-2011, 03:50 PM
I love male gay porn myself. I have downloaded several Jeff Stryker videos so I can "enjoy" the videos.
inThePine
03-13-2011, 07:22 PM
I am seriously falling in love with my bf and I reeeally don't want to mess it up. I'm going to try and not be such a spoiled drama queen and expect him to be perfect. Because the fact is that he's perfect for ME and that's all that really matters. I'm learning to yield in situations that don't really matter, while still standing up for what I think is right.
Mostly what I'm afraid of though, is that he'll lose interest. :-[
sananeko
03-13-2011, 11:05 PM
I'm ready to hurt someone today.. Just cause I don't have a dick doesn't mean I don't know how to build a house.. or even a simple stage.. I'm being stopped cause as I'm being told...I need a man to help use a saw.. really.. I need help with a hand saw... If I didn't hate cops so much I would be calling them to get my damn tools back.. I'm just going to buy some new and better ones in the morning and lie about what I'm going to do with my day..
I will get that damn project done..
Glamgirl
03-14-2011, 10:40 AM
I am seriously falling in love with my bf and I reeeally don't want to mess it up. I'm going to try and not be such a spoiled drama queen and expect him to be perfect. Because the fact is that he's perfect for ME and that's all that really matters. I'm learning to yield in situations that don't really matter, while still standing up for what I think is right.
Mostly what I'm afraid of though, is that he'll lose interest. :-[
Same here, i feel so lucky to have my bf. I worry that my insecurites will mess it up!
Kat w
03-14-2011, 01:49 PM
I have such a huge, innapropriate, hot nerd crush on my sociology professor.
I'm pasting part of an email he sent our class
"Lastly, I want to say something about discomfort. When conversations get heated, it can interfere with people’s ability to talk and listen. Thus, trying not to get too excited can pay off in better communication. At the same time, the subject of race in the United States is not a comfortable subject. We are discussing hatred and injustice and unearned privilege, among other things. Comfort itself is part of the privilege that Whiteness brings in the United States. In taking on the idea of White privilege, those of us who are White are engaging with the kind of discomfort that many Americans experience every day – that of highlighting the characteristics of our racialized social structure."
Love him!
The Contessa
03-14-2011, 02:39 PM
^^ Heated? Excited?? mmmm
_Avery_
03-15-2011, 05:52 PM
I confess:
I'm jealous of my cousin and one of my old friends.
Their lives are perfect.
Perfect house. Perfect husband. Perfect family. Perfect job. Never struggling. Never worrying.
Planning their perfect wedding...whatever...ugh...
And as awful as it sounds, it would make me smile to just see them struggling...just once...for a day....but that would never happen, because they have the "perfect" mommy and daddy to help them if shit ever got bad....
Gosh...that sounds bad....I know....but ughhhh....I can't even go look at their FB pages anymore because I just get too envious of their "perfect" lives.
It's just a mood right now....just because things suck for me right now, I want them to suck for everyone.
That is not cool.
Things will get better.
charlie61
03-15-2011, 07:34 PM
I confess:
I'm jealous of my cousin and one of my old friends.
Their lives are perfect.
Perfect house. Perfect husband. Perfect family. Perfect job. Never struggling. Never worrying.
Planning their perfect wedding...whatever...ugh...
And as awful as it sounds, it would make me smile to just see them struggling...just once...for a day....but that would never happen, because they have the "perfect" mommy and daddy to help them if shit ever got bad....
Gosh...that sounds bad....I know....but ughhhh....I can't even go look at their FB pages anymore because I just get too envious of their "perfect" lives.
It's just a mood right now....just because things suck for me right now, I want them to suck for everyone.
That is not cool.
Things will get better.
I'm not trying to force a silver lining on you...but one thing I learned from stripping is that perfect lives are NEVER perfect. And even if their lives are perfect, people living such perfect lives are rarely actually happy. Trust me, odds are they are secretly suffocating.
:hug:
4everresolutions
03-15-2011, 08:23 PM
I confess:
I'm jealous of my cousin and one of my old friends.
Their lives are perfect.
Perfect house. Perfect husband. Perfect family. Perfect job. Never struggling. Never worrying.
Planning their perfect wedding...whatever...ugh...
And as awful as it sounds, it would make me smile to just see them struggling...just once...for a day....but that would never happen, because they have the "perfect" mommy and daddy to help them if shit ever got bad....
Gosh...that sounds bad....I know....but ughhhh....I can't even go look at their FB pages anymore because I just get too envious of their "perfect" lives.
It's just a mood right now....just because things suck for me right now, I want them to suck for everyone.
That is not cool.
Things will get better.
This is why I can't go on facebook. I get to bitter.
I feel like they're so lucky. Their parents have money. Pay their tuition. Give them spending money.
Then I see their status updates: "FML - I got a D on an exam. Going drinking tonight at *random college hangout* to forget about it. Gunna be crazyyyyy!"
Yes, fuck your horribly hard life. You get all the financial and emotional support you could ever possibly want. Have a loving family who pay for your car and your clothes. You don't study or go to class and now you're saying "FML"?
I used to think "It's okay. I'm a hard worker. I get good grades. I'll get a better job/go to grad school and they'll be stuck". But now the people I know like that are graduating and guess what? Their wealthy, well connected parents find them high paying jobs for their lazy selves right out of highschool.
And hense - bitter me. They never have to stuggle. Probably never will.
I totally get it.
Kellydancer
03-15-2011, 11:54 PM
This is why I can't go on facebook. I get to bitter.
I feel like they're so lucky. Their parents have money. Pay their tuition. Give them spending money.
Then I see their status updates: "FML - I got a D on an exam. Going drinking tonight at *random college hangout* to forget about it. Gunna be crazyyyyy!"
Yes, fuck your horribly hard life. You get all the financial and emotional support you could ever possibly want. Have a loving family who pay for your car and your clothes. You don't study or go to class and now you're saying "FML"?
I used to think "It's okay. I'm a hard worker. I get good grades. I'll get a better job/go to grad school and they'll be stuck". But now the people I know like that are graduating and guess what? Their wealthy, well connected parents find them high paying jobs for their lazy selves right out of highschool.
And hense - bitter me. They never have to stuggle. Probably never will.
I totally get it.
I feel the same way. I stay away from Facebook when I am feeling down because I am tired of seeing the "perfect" lives of others. Even if it's not perfect it seems that way compared to my life now. I have a guy friend who loves to rub it in my face that he now has 4 kids and a great job while I am single and my job situation isn't that great now due to the economy (though I think this is changing). Then there's my judgemental aunt who loves to say things about how life is rough for me because I refuse to settle on anything. Oh and of course the people who got good jobs through someone they knew while barely graduating college.
Arianna419
03-16-2011, 12:21 PM
Their lives are never perfect. Trust me. My family was always looked at as "perfect" and I know that most people assume those things about me. I have a great BF, a cute kid, a nice house, and my parents would help me out if and when I needed it. But remember, everything comes at a cost. I am nowhere near perfect, my relationship isn't perfect, my kid drives me nuts sometimes, my house might look nice but every other day theres something breaking down, and my parents are a-holes that use money to exert pressure on everyone around them.
Those people might act like they're happy in their relationship, but maybe that guy is out every night cheating. Maybe they act like they love motherhood, but they might feel totally smothered by their kids. And their parents might help them out, but that might come with a lot of control issues and pressure to keep up appearances. My sisters look perfect from the outside, everyone always thought of me as the screw up. But oh my god, if people only knew how totally emotionally fucked up they are... A lot of people that broadcast how happy/perfect their lives are usually are just covering up something, or trying to convince themselves that they are happy.
I'm terrified I'm never going to do everything I want to do in life.
I want to try my hand at stripping, but I'm still jiggly in the middle and my boobs are atrocious. And I don't know how to dance worth a damn.
I want to get a published author, but I'm 200 pages into my manuscript and despite being declared "gifted" in narrative fiction by my school and winning a scholarship, I don't ever feel good enough.
I want to get into my register nursing program at school, I want to get my bachelor's degree and get a master's in midwifery. I want to open a birthing center in my area and change lives with my work.
I want to buy a small house so my grandma can come stay with me and I can make her feel better about the horrible way my aunts and uncles have treated her.
I want to put my daughter into a good catholic school, and I have 4 more years to save for the tuition, but I'm worried I won't have enough. I want her to get the best education possible.
I want a boob job so bad it's not even funny.
I want to go to Spain to see my family and learn more about my culture.
I want a doctor to find out what is wrong with my hips so I don't have to live in horrible pain. I woke up one morning when I was 13 and couldn't walk due to excruciating pain in my hips, like there was sand in my joints. They couldn't find anything wrong with my tendons or bones. The pain comes and goes, sometimes it doesn't flare up for weeks, and other times I won't be able to stand up after sitting or laying down. 4 doctors over 6 years still have yet to find out what's wrong with me.
I want all these things and I'm terrified I'll never get there. I lay in bed all night making plans over and over in my head on how to get what I so strongly desire, but every morning I wake up I feel overwhelmed with my life. I'm only 19 and I've accomplished more than most of my cousins and brothers with the added responsibility of a one year old, but I still feel like I'll never get where I want to go. =/
Mindy Bares All
03-16-2011, 06:18 PM
I am so disappointed of my friend who went to 2! strip clubs last night and only spent $35!
I mean, REALLY?!
inThePine
03-17-2011, 08:59 AM
^Ugh, I know what you mean, my ex was like that. We went to the strip club one time (on his dime of course) and I felt like such an ass because he was just sitting there watching like 5 or 6 girls on stage without tipping a single one! Luckily he had given me some spending money so I was able to tip my favorites.
Glamgirl
03-17-2011, 09:18 AM
My bf is on the verge of giving me the most intense orgasms but i have to stop as its all too much and im scared of letting go fully.
allison9990
03-17-2011, 09:31 PM
my boyfriend and i recently recently moved in with his cousin who is 14 years older than me, hes 32 im 18. and ever since we moved in with him ive have a little crush on him. not i want to have a relationship with him type of crush, just i wanna bone type of crush. well anyways i never thought that he would consider me due to our age difference but the first day my boyfriend left me alone with his cousin, he came in while i was camming at work and started telling me how much he wanted to fuck me but didnt want my boyfriend to find out since there family.. me and the cousin havent done anything yet... however thats only because my boyfriend hasnt left us alone since but i think im going to take my shot next time he leaves:)
Jessie_tinydancer
03-18-2011, 02:45 AM
I should be staying in studying and working hard this weekend. But instead Im going to run amuck! weeeeeeeeeeeeee
Kellydancer
03-18-2011, 09:54 PM
I admit this is my latest fantasy: I meet a guy who hits on me and won't take no for an answer. Then some guys comes up to him and either beats him up or rapes him. I laugh meanwhile. In my fantasy it's either my ex or one of my other exes, or even guys that rejected me.
DesuvsDeath
03-19-2011, 12:26 AM
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GlitterBexie
03-19-2011, 03:47 PM
I think I am an evil genius, either that, or im very very very stupid. But im thinking of opting for the former rather than the latter. I hope I don't get caught.
Anastasia Foxx
03-19-2011, 06:43 PM
My confession is that I'm becoming a pro-domme. After dealing with aggravating custies whose penises I want to stomp on - and even finding a few who pay me to rough them up - and talking with a dear friend of mine, I've decided to take the plunge and try my hand at building a stable of people I can take my frustration out on.
velvet
03-20-2011, 12:04 AM
my boyfriend and i recently recently moved in with his cousin who is 14 years older than me, hes 32 im 18. and ever since we moved in with him ive have a little crush on him. not i want to have a relationship with him type of crush, just i wanna bone type of crush. well anyways i never thought that he would consider me due to our age difference but the first day my boyfriend left me alone with his cousin, he came in while i was camming at work and started telling me how much he wanted to fuck me but didnt want my boyfriend to find out since there family.. me and the cousin havent done anything yet... however thats only because my boyfriend hasnt left us alone since but i think im going to take my shot next time he leaves:)
if you really love your boyfriend. DONT DO IT. been there, only it was his brother. in hindsight what kind of character did he have to fuck his brothers girlfriend? LOSER
Felons_Felony
03-20-2011, 03:09 PM
My confession is that I'm becoming a pro-domme. After dealing with aggravating custies whose penises I want to stomp on - and even finding a few who pay me to rough them up - and talking with a dear friend of mine, I've decided to take the plunge and try my hand at building a stable of people I can take my frustration out on.
HELL YES!!!!!!!!
I'd LOVE to be a pro domme! My niche at the club, since I have piercings & dark hair, tends to be "that tough chick in the boots." But I'm really tiny, so it'd be really awkward and horrible for everyone involved. Erg.
Mindy Bares All
03-21-2011, 06:11 PM
There's this thing that a friend wants me to go to, to support her. Unfortunately, my old flame will be there.
I want to go, for her. But I kind of want to set the record straight with him. Find some answers he never gave me.
GlitterBexie
03-22-2011, 09:08 AM
I drank a bottle of vodka, took drugs and got a tattoo last night.
I already regret the decision i just made, (not the tattoo/hangover combo)
kaiarose
03-22-2011, 09:55 AM
Ahhh.... sweet, sweet relief :) I have all my bills paid off and up to date and still plenty of money left over to spare. Now I don't have to worry about anything while I'm off of work for a month. I confess that this is this first time in my stripping career of 8 years that I have been saving my money, working my ass off and putting my all into dancing, and have all my bills paid up on time. Where has this work ethic been all this time?! I should get a boob job every year! LOL
Arianna419
03-22-2011, 10:49 AM
^OMG! The exact same thing happened to me. As soon as I knew I was saving for my BA, I started raking in waaaaay more money. And actually saving it. I thought I would need financing for my BA, but looks like I'll be paying for it in cash now. Its awesome.