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indiegirl
08-28-2022, 02:06 AM
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get married because I couldn't believe there would be someone willing to tolerate me for a lifetime and vice versa. LOL random thought!

miss.a.p1600
08-28-2022, 06:24 AM
Sometimes I avoid my partners calls simply because I don’t want to risk it being some long ass diatribe about how I didn’t do something he was expecting (then ensuing guilt trip), child care obligations he needs help with but won’t ask his ex wife (then guilt trips and passive aggressive behavior when I rightfully say no), or some rant about how “everything” is expensive (which I don’t want to hear anything other than how you plan to provide)

At this point IÂ’d rather text only.

whirlerz
08-28-2022, 06:33 AM
I confess I'm trying to tone down my spending, especially for groceries, and it's a little bit fun to try putting together new cheap recipes... but also eye-opening, like holy shit, I've been a crazy indulgent bitch this year on food!

I'm seriously thinking of. buying mostly protein bars..

whirlerz
08-28-2022, 06:35 AM
I might have screwed up, at a social event after work today I ended up giving my boss a bj and when I got home he messaged me to come to his office tomorrow.. Am I going to get fired now..?

Dying for the backstory/ followup if any:O

miss.a.p1600
08-28-2022, 01:06 PM
I am living my BEST life this weekend. Ladies only get togethers. Liquor, thc, and NO BAGGAGE OR OBLIGATIONS….. period.

Location off.

Text only.

#FNF

kimbe
08-28-2022, 01:08 PM
^ Enjoy! :)

carmen_b
08-28-2022, 01:36 PM
Damn. Since when did Movies change it so you HAVE TO use a kiosk?
You can suck my Dick megaplex.
I'll find somewhere I can buy a ticket from a person thx.
Fuck off kindly.

kimbe
08-28-2022, 02:01 PM
^ Enhanced service! For your convenience ;)

carmen_b
08-28-2022, 02:04 PM
^ I said I wanted a refund on the ticket.
I bought the fucking thing and then they wouldn't let me buy popcorn from a person.
I hate it but I'll probably end up going back too haha because it's the closest to me. :/

xxxGothBarbie
08-28-2022, 11:21 PM
Ugh crushie #1 turns me on soooo much eeesh :P
I'm convinced he knows this too LOL
He sends me pics of himself from events with his sexy ass goth makeup on *drool*
We are def on a flirting basis & I'm happy about that however I am aware he has a gf... he has literally never mentioned her to me not once..... I've seen her in pics, she's cute but not a real looker imo. I think we are just online flirty pals. I do hope to meet him someday <3

kimbe
08-28-2022, 11:57 PM
I confess I prefer going to the gym alone, although I had a good session today when my partner joined despite too much people.

miss.a.p1600
08-29-2022, 04:42 AM
I am living my BEST life this weekend. Ladies only get togethers. Liquor, thc, and NO BAGGAGE OR OBLIGATIONSÂ….. period.

Location off.

Text only.

#FNF


^ Enjoy! :)


I did enjoy and thankfully he didnÂ’t do his usual nagging and complaining afterwards.

indiegirl
08-29-2022, 11:27 AM
I confess I am so sick of these classes that I flat out chose not to show up today and slept in. LOL I got in so much trouble with this choice with my mom because I turned my phone off and she came over unannounced and started pounding on my door but UGHHH. I am fucking ready to graduate ALREADY. Why does class have to start at freaking 8:30am in the morning? It is a nightmare! Can't we start at 10am or noon ?!?

miss.a.p1600
08-29-2022, 11:33 AM
L has been dressing better, nagging/demanding less, moving into better career opportunities and better health

Makes him more tolerable

buttonpop
08-29-2022, 02:54 PM
my sister came to visit me. we went out for food/drinks/shopping around town and she kept asking me lots of questions about where I like to eat, if I ever go work at coffee shops, etc and seemed concerned when I said I barely leave the house. My apartment is so comfortable and lovely and staying at home is more appealing. Everything here is dirty and smelly, you have to walk in the streets to get around the homeless encampments taking up all the sidewalks with aggressive homeless people harassing you everywhere you go, there's NO parking or it costs $15+, 1 hour waits at every restaurant lately, everywhere is soooo crowded with the post-pandemic rush, and everything is insanely overpriced and expensive. It costs $7 for a latte here now and restaurants just started charging a 18% service fee on top of a tip and 10% sales tax here. I've also been really disappointed by my food the last several times I went out to eat, so I just prefer to stay home and cook. My sister seemed to think its unhealthy for me to stay home, but I'm honestly just happier. I love my house. Driving in the awful traffic and hunting down parking all weekend was so exhausting and the cost was not remotely worth the food/drinks/experiences we had tbh. I would rather just watch movies at home.

xxxGothBarbie
08-29-2022, 03:25 PM
Wow?! Service fees on top of tip?? Nope! That's stupid AF. I'd rather stay in & cook.

miss.a.p1600
08-29-2022, 03:58 PM
^i remember back in the days when I was REALLY in money saving mode I’d usually eat and drink before going out. Saves money cause im less likely to splurge when im full

Sometimes I’d carry liquor in my car (unopened of course), take shots in my car, then go inside the clubs with a good buzzy, look pretty, and let men lavish me with perks.

carmen_b
08-29-2022, 06:49 PM
I talked to my therapist about my fear of being " stuck " in the trauma from 2018 .
It was a bad break up with a lot of confusion ( a partner who was speaking to his ex and basically abandoned me for her ).
BUT ..... admittedly ...... I could see things wrong in the relationship too in the final year ( #7 ) that we were together.

When we " bottomed out " my instinct was to FIGHT for us .
He didn't even think I deserved honesty .
I told him I knew he was talking to her AND he swore it " wasn't a factor " in the break up.
We had the conversation on Aug. 20 2020 and this week ( rough time frame Aug. 20-27 ) has been hard every year since.

I am glad to talk it over with someone. I have fears that I will be stuck with thoughts that " my " person chose abandonment and therefore *I* can't deeply connect with another person. As humans though ...... we DO push through and find other options and opportunities !

carmen_b
08-29-2022, 07:00 PM
I don't feel ready to get on a plane again.
It might sound odd to say since I'm so travel gung ho.
:/

My partner is going to see a band in another city for 4 days and got this luxury package for it with some sort of access and this nice hotel room .
Gotta go to THAT right ? But I don't feel ready .
I wasn't home Aug. 14-21
We were only here 5 days of last week ( 22-28 ).
I wish we could have more time here ( a full week at home ).

Things lately also feel like I'm just *following* my partner.
We didn't actively plan this stuff together.

xxxGothBarbie
08-29-2022, 11:56 PM
^i remember back in the days when I was REALLY in money saving mode I’d usually eat and drink before going out. Saves money cause im less likely to splurge when im full

Sometimes I’d carry liquor in my car (unopened of course), take shots in my car, then go inside the clubs with a good buzzy, look pretty, and let men lavish me with perks.

Oh girl lol I still smuggle in a pint of vodka in my purse and make my own drinks in the bathroom lol no shame! These bartenders can be stingy with their portions too so why not. Mostly bf pays for my drinks so I only add to when he's too chicken shit to ask them to make a drink the way I'd asked for it.

miss.a.p1600
08-30-2022, 06:21 AM
I got high last night and slept like a baby.

I was going to offer L some sex but I’m still bothered by his recent antics (putting his needs above everyone else vs considering the needs of everyone - and this isn’t a 100%kids needs come first scenario this is just unnecessary selfish single divorced dad antics). Keep playing and you’ll find yourself single again right back with Bertha. You can be the full time SINGLE dad you’ve always wanted.

No apologies or anything from him so - I’ll let his mistress or whatever deal with him sexually while I take my own needs into my hands (literally lol)

Jucie
08-30-2022, 11:21 AM
^he probably wants round two


You were spot on, or rather he wants to make it a regular… In exchange for me continuing having Fridays off.

carmen_b
08-30-2022, 11:35 AM
Paid Fris with overtime off ?

I’m so curious about these details. Ha.

Jucie
08-30-2022, 11:47 AM
It’s pretty straight forward, I’ve had Fridays off since the pandemic hit, and have asked to continue. Now he seems willing to grant me that (without a corresponding reduction in my pay!) in exchange for a "service"……

buttonpop
08-30-2022, 12:04 PM
^^^^ girl you need to go in there with your phone in your purse secretly recording this conversation and get him to say all this on tape. what he is offering is a quid pro quo aka sexual harassment (even if it is wanted sexual contact, the fact that he's using it in exchange for work favors is sexual harassment). Then head straight to an attorney's office. I am not kidding when I say that you could sue him for hundreds of thousands of dollars right now.

Jucie
08-30-2022, 12:08 PM
Well, I’ve got no intentions of going into a conflict. And if that was the case, things weren’t exactly said with words in the way you could think ;)

indiegirl
08-30-2022, 08:23 PM
I'm praying to the Escort gods that I do well financially on this labor day weekend!!!! I need to save money. I had to spend a lot I didn't want to recently. I fucking hate that.

Dreamqueen
08-30-2022, 11:32 PM
I'm praying to the Escort gods that I do well financially on this labor day weekend!!!! I need to save money. I had to spend a lot I didn't want to recently. I fucking hate that.

How have Labor Day weekends been for you in the past?

moneybags
09-01-2022, 08:52 AM
How have Labor Day weekends been for you in the past?

Me too. I need a good weekend at the club.

indiegirl
09-01-2022, 04:16 PM
How have Labor Day weekends been for you in the past?

Holidays are usually great for me! :)

LoveyD
09-02-2022, 07:09 AM
I could no longer take the suspense, so I emailed the lady who interviewed me to follow up on a job opportunity that would really help me out. Hopefully she'll respond with some good news today.

Something needs to happen. This living out of my car and delivering groceries stuff is really wearing on me. And it's not really getting me anywhere.

carmen_b
09-02-2022, 08:27 AM
^ I think it's always best to er on the side of eager / more aggressive when job hunting.

kimbe
09-02-2022, 09:21 AM
I confess I could be better at recycling.. My partner sometimes comments on what I've thrown as general waste.. To be honest, I don't care, but I probably should.
On the other hand, he's the one driving an electric car while I'm driving a gas guzzling pick up truck so what to expect... }:D

Aurora_Sunset
09-02-2022, 09:34 AM
I'm glad to be back home. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. My father-in-law's funeral hit me harder than I expected, and I've just been in crisis mode for a week straight, making sure I was on top of everything since my husband was kinda "checked out."

I feel a little bad that he drove the entire 12 hours down and back, both ways. But he didn't have to. I never offered to switch, necessarily, but I did tell him several times that all he had to do was ask. He never asked, so I never offered lol I'm still tired of being in the car, either way.

I'm not thrilled that we've come back immediately into an extended kid-weekend (with the Labor Day holiday). I made plans to stay the night at the friend's who housed our cats while we were gone. I might offer to stick around and "help her clean and organize" tomorrow for as long as possible, just to avoid being at home most of the day... Hopefully working Sunday and Monday (if they offer holiday hours) in order to recoup some lost income and money from last and this week. I know my husband really wants to see the kids after everything that happened with his dad, so he can enjoy to the fullest this weekend, I don't care. I just want some peace. His family was driving me kinda crazy down there too.

Aurora_Sunset
09-02-2022, 11:00 AM
I dropped 50 bucks on a law of attraction/abundance course bundle. It would probably take me years to actually go through all these courses, so it's definitely a good price. I probably won't do all of them, but some of look really good.

miss.a.p1600
09-02-2022, 11:51 AM
^awesome I’d drop money on those course topics too

miss.a.p1600
09-02-2022, 11:57 AM
I'm glad to be back home. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. My father-in-law's funeral hit me harder than I expected, and I've just been in crisis mode for a week straight, making sure I was on top of everything since my husband was kinda "checked out."

I feel a little bad that he drove the entire 12 hours down and back, both ways. But he didn't have to. I never offered to switch, necessarily, but I did tell him several times that all he had to do was ask. He never asked, so I never offered lol I'm still tired of being in the car, either way.

I'm not thrilled that we've come back immediately into an extended kid-weekend (with the Labor Day holiday). I made plans to stay the night at the friend's who housed our cats while we were gone. I might offer to stick around and "help her clean and organize" tomorrow for as long as possible, just to avoid being at home most of the day... Hopefully working Sunday and Monday (if they offer holiday hours) in order to recoup some lost income and money from last and this week. I know my husband really wants to see the kids after everything that happened with his dad, so he can enjoy to the fullest this weekend, I don't care. I just want some peace. His family was driving me kinda crazy down there too.

This is how I feel At least one weekend a month when I just want a break from his kid obligations

i don’t want to be “hunkered down” at the house with him his kids and coronavirus

i may just make it a requirement that at least one weekend a month is MINE (no lazy whiny sick kids, no clingy partner, just me)

Hope y’all can’t take some time for grieving and self care.

Aurora_Sunset
09-02-2022, 12:07 PM
This is how I feel At least one weekend a month when I just want a break from his kid obligations

i don’t want to be “hunkered down” at the house with him his kids and coronavirus

i may just make it a requirement that at least one weekend a month is MINE (no lazy whiny sick kids, no clingy partner, just me)

Hope y’all can’t take some time for grieving and self care.


Yeah, normally I wouldn't care too much that they're here or staying an extra night. But I'm just burnt right now... Every night we were out of town and especially since yesterday as we traveled back, I have just been tired as fuck. Always being around people and being in caretaker/crisis mode for over a week is a drain for an introvert. Coming back to being around rambunctious kids is an extra whammy at the moment when my body and mind are begging for some personal space to come down off the adrenaline and do my own grieving and acceptance. I'd really like to have a full day just to myself, but I won't get that until late next week. So, hiding out at a friend's or even a mind-numbing day at work is the next best thing to be trapped at home around yet more people, who will be very close, and very demanding.

I get the whole him wanting to be around them after a family crisis though. So, I'm glad he'll get to enjoy some extra time with that. I just don't feel a strong urge to be a part of it right now. Maybe next time when I'm not fried.

LoveyD
09-02-2022, 01:30 PM
^ I think it's always best to er on the side of eager / more aggressive when job hunting.

She emailed me back and told me that they are still in the process of figuring things out. Hopefully it won't be for much longer. The suspense is killing me! At least I know I'm still being considered.

indiegirl
09-04-2022, 04:53 AM
I'm preparing for my slow descent into camming in the hopeful future. So far, I'm researching lighting. Ugh I'm fucking nervous but I want to do this correctly and professionally. I don't even know if I'm supposed to buy a camera myself or just use my laptop LOLLLLL! I sound like such a newb and the camming section is full of so much information that it is overwhelming. Kinda holding off on toys until I know which ones would be best. Wish me luck! LOL.

I just bought a pair of desio cosmetic contact lens to enhance my blue eyes and make this a little bit more fun.

Also, the new roomie fell through last minute and she flaked so I have to repost the ad online for a new roomie :(.

indiegirl
09-04-2022, 08:04 AM
On a sidenote, I got a free token gifted to me from someone random and I popped into chaturbate for more research and saw this group of 3 people. LOL. Clicked in and I legit feel bad. I was watching 2 cute women with this random guy walk around and talk with them with his clothes on (totally confused me if this was a couples cam)...and I tipped my one random token and laughed and said "This random guy walking around in the video with his clothes on hahaha!" he immediately sat down and apologized. I totally feel bad now. LOL!!!

charlie61
09-04-2022, 09:16 AM
Indie, i feel like you'd be wildly successful at camming with your personality. Like you could do pretty vanilla stuff, mostly just chitchat, and make $$$.

xxxGothBarbie
09-04-2022, 09:16 AM
I'm still denying bf any sex despite him begging me for it. I am not into him anymore pure & simple. I also got turned on when my u.k crushy sent me a few vids with his sexy brit accent of him in nature.

miss.a.p1600
09-04-2022, 09:22 AM
I confess.

I feel like if I have to live with a man who is only providing for the household then I would rather he be gone to work 97% of the time.

If I have to work to provide my own bills (which I am more than capable of doing but I’d rather not need to if I’m with a man) - that takes more time and energy from me that I could be putting on my partner. And if he is too clueless to pretend not to understand this then I don’t want him.

I don’t want a man who expects me to work full-time/overtime then also expects me to cook, clean, help him take care of HIS kids, fuck on demand, etc. with no regard to how all the work load depletes me from anything else.

Dealing with the average man out here making barely average salary makes me want to just be single. I don’t see where being with the average man would benefit me. In fact it drains me.

I don’t want to be pressured to have sex with a dude just because he did the bare minimum that he’s supposed to do ANYWAYS. WOW dude you paid rent and bought food. Thanks but I don’t owe you sex.

Never again.

miss.a.p1600
09-04-2022, 09:28 AM
^as soon as more money rolls in for me. I’m going to travel every weekend.

If he doesn’t take that second job (so he can stop clinging to me, get off his big ass, and make MORE money), he will not be blessed with my magnificent presence.

indiegirl
09-04-2022, 10:01 AM
Indie, i feel like you'd be wildly successful at camming with your personality. Like you could do pretty vanilla stuff, mostly just chitchat, and make $$$.

That's my goal! Nothing crazy! I dunno, I am also nervous about the whole roomie thing and being discreet if they are home as well as the aesthetics of the room. It's a lot of research I'm planning on putting in.

But I can talk an ear off for customers and most of these guys want company more than anything other than the multiple pop guys. Maybe?! I dunno.

I'm used to talking and making my money that way with a round of hard/rough sex. LOL.

Everyone has the pink vibrator on the cam sites and I think I need it. I dunno I'm so brand new. I don't wanna screw up on a camera.

Dreamqueen
09-04-2022, 11:32 AM
I'm still denying bf any sex despite him begging me for it. I am not into him anymore pure & simple. I also got turned on when my u.k crushy sent me a few vids with his sexy brit accent of him in nature.


Your crush seems amazing.
Love a British accent too.
Do you think you'll ever meet up?
I'm sensing good vibes from him ( compared to the dude you're with now).:meditate:

carmen_b
09-04-2022, 02:08 PM
My partner got some magic mushrooms for his last concert day .
I got into them and took a small portion. I'm going to head to this section of a botanical garden that is a large greenhouse and chill with the plants there hahaha .

Hmmmmm if I don’t wuss out haha.

carmen_b
09-04-2022, 07:26 PM
^ It was a chocolate bar.
I think he got scammed.
It was just weed and maybe the *smallest* touch of mushrooms I'm 95% sure haha.
I had fun at the garden but it wasn't " trippy ".
Immediately after leaving I began a hunt for a hamburger.

xxxGothBarbie
09-05-2022, 04:21 AM
Your crush seems amazing.
Love a British accent too.
Do you think you'll ever meet up?
I'm sensing good vibes from him ( compared to the dude you're with now).:meditate:

Doesn't he though? I get a sense of soft, sensual and very caring soul from him. Not to mention he's hot AF haha ;) I'm not sure if we'll ever meet honestly, I'd love to when I visit the U.K . He also has a gf that he lives with so ya I don't have too high of hopes of anything happening other than a friendship maybe? He obviously thinks I'm hot bc he is always complimenting my pics & is very interested in my life, etc. It's a lovely fantasy of mine, I must admit. I can't decipher whether he's just friendly or flirting with me. He's never mentioned anything of her to me in the 3 months we've been messaging each other so who knows.