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carmen_b
09-18-2022, 12:35 PM
^ Maybe even living with your Dad and then doing a cheapie hotel a couple nights for some privacy per week ?

Sending good vibes !

Staci
09-18-2022, 01:32 PM
^ Maybe even living with your Dad and then doing a cheapie hotel a couple nights for some privacy per week ?

Sending good vibes !

If she doesn't even feel safe in her own home alone at night, a cheapie hotel might not be a good alternative.

MissP, did you feel safe when you were living alone before?

miss.a.p1600
09-18-2022, 03:12 PM
^relatively safe when I was single because I could lock out the men who would try to cause me harm n distress. I live in a dangerous city and have been a victim of crime so I’m hyper vigilant nowadays

Can’t lock his ass out (well if I hired a locksmith I could) but it’s unsettling having to sleep next to someone who seems to be on a warpath of revenge against you and it’s like “how far will they go”??? Well I gotta leave his ass before I find out.

I also understood that if I was single then it was up to me to fill the protector role. Men who can’t /won’t protect is a huge turn off in my book. And why keep them around if they won’t fill that role.

I just got my income steady and here comes mr. Pissy petty fragile male ego dude hating on my parade and acting like an incel - Fuck him!

carmen_b
09-18-2022, 03:33 PM
^ It's so sad but at the end of a relationship men typically will not live peacefully ( even for just a few weeks just to give each person time to make plans ).
:(

It would be nice if he could be amicable for a couple weeks at least.

chanzep
09-18-2022, 10:04 PM
I would go stay at my dad's house and work all the time.Winter is coming so apartments will be cheaper. I stayed with my mother 6 weeks before I left the UK because my old roommates were assholes and always waking me up. I worked almost everyday. Anything was better than having my peace disturbed .

Aurora_Sunset
09-19-2022, 08:10 AM
I feel terrible I forgot my dad's birthday yesterday...

Like, I KNOW his birthday, but I haven't been keeping tabs on the date all week. I just didn't realize what day it was.

I always used to roll my eyes when my mom would send "reminder" texts that I needed to wish my dad a happy birthday - like, yeah, ok, mom, I'm an adult, I can remember on my own... But obviously I can't. I wish she would've sent one yesterday.

seashell
09-19-2022, 01:59 PM
I confess I watched my ex's Twitch stream yesterday, and he was on with his new girlfriend. She's hideous, but I'm trying not to be a bitch, and to be happy for him.

Ugh. Don't internet stalk your exes. I feel icky now.

carmen_b
09-19-2022, 03:21 PM
^ I've been there. I felt sure my ex would have had the relationship he left me for implode and was horrified to see pictures still like 6-7 months ago.
JUST DON'T DO IT . Really. Lol.
I'm glad I've had the strength since to not look. Just DON'T.

Why do we do this lol ?!?

Aurora_Sunset
09-19-2022, 03:27 PM
I can't wait for this wedding to be over and done with this weekend. It's been this weird pall hanging over my head as a bridesmaid. Worrying about my dress fitting, worrying about taking yet more weekends off work and spending more gas money to travel, trying to figure out how I'm gonna pay for a gift (a friend is actually gonna help me out with that, thank god).

I'm also not looking forward to needing to spend my ENTIRE Saturday there. She scheduled it super weirdly. The ceremony is 1-1:30 but cocktail hour doesn't even start until 4:30. Then dinner not until 6. What are people supposed to do for 3 hours between the ceremony and cocktails? Usually you have cocktail hour right after the ceremony so the wedding party can go do photos. On top of this, I have to be there at 7:45am to get hair, makeup, and such done. I'll already be on the heels of a 12-hour day before dinner is even served. Ugh, I just wanna be done with it.

carmen_b
09-19-2022, 04:05 PM
^ These events can be super super stressful !

indiegirl
09-19-2022, 11:32 PM
I'm not sure what to do. I'm realizing camming now may come up on a background check or an employment history check. Here I was buying all this shit for it and I am concerned I'm going to get turned away from working in a hospital because I will be judged. I already have a record that is against me. I don't know what to do for money once lab class starts. I was planning on leaving escorting at that time. Maybe I need to switch to massage only? I still can't drive for uber, lyft, instacart, etc. It is SOOO frustrating.

Aurora_Sunset
09-20-2022, 06:40 AM
^ These events can be super super stressful !

The more I keep thinking about this 3 hour gap, the more confused and annoyed I am. I have never seen someone have a multi-hour gap between the end of the ceremony and the beginning of cocktail hour. What does she expect people to do for 3 hours? I'm sure there will be plenty of people there who don't have a hotel room nearby, because they live close enough to drive - but not close enough that it would make any sense to go home in between and then turn around and drive back. I can't believe no one else involved in the planning process said something to her when she scheduled that.

She expects her ceremony to be at 1, but dinner not until 6. So dancing and actually celebrating won't be until 7 or 8pm, and she has the hall booked until midnight... Sorry, most people don't expect a wedding to be a 12-hour, all day affair...

WendiStarr
09-20-2022, 07:03 AM
I feel overwhelmed and cry so much every day lately. I feel like a terrible mom for it.

LoveyD
09-20-2022, 07:09 AM
I feel overwhelmed and cry so much every day lately. I feel like a terrible mom for it.

Wendi, you are an amazing mom! You just saved your daughters and yourself from an abusive monster. I don't think anyone realizes how difficult and challenging that is. You did such a wonderful thing for your daughters because now they're going to see that they should never settle for s*** when it comes to men. You're breaking a cycle and that can be exhausting. I'm angry for you that DV resources are disappointing. You're in a situation that's very frustrating and it's okay to cry and let it out.
Mom to Mom, I have a lot of respect for you.

Edit: I know someone who used to work for Haven. She said that they were pretty awesome when it comes to helping women. Here's a link. I hope this helps. https://www.havenhousing.org/

buttonpop
09-20-2022, 10:43 AM
I'm not sure what to do. I'm realizing camming now may come up on a background check or an employment history check. Here I was buying all this shit for it and I am concerned I'm going to get turned away from working in a hospital because I will be judged. I already have a record that is against me. I don't know what to do for money once lab class starts. I was planning on leaving escorting at that time. Maybe I need to switch to massage only? I still can't drive for uber, lyft, instacart, etc. It is SOOO frustrating.

unfortunately I do think that camming can be used against you in the medical field. out of all types of sex work, camming is probably the one thats hardest to erase. even a solicitation charge can be expunged in california. Even if you can make sure camming doesn't show up on a background check, all it takes is 1 hospital employee finding your videos reposted on a porn site and the hospital can fire you for 'unprofessional conduct'. I also found this thread on the subject: https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?170936-Camming-and-Nursing-School

you might make more money getting a vanilla tipped minimum wage job than driving for lyft/etc anyway. with gas prices so high, vehicle wear and tear, and having to pay 1099 taxes (especially in CA, ugh) those apps are often barely worth it. My gf makes $22 an hour as a coffee barista.

Genoveve
09-20-2022, 02:01 PM
I might see my ex-psychologist this weekend. As regular people I mean. Not a date but I think he might want to fuck me. I haven't decided yet.

Saw this late but I want an update!


I feel terrible I forgot my dad's birthday yesterday...

Like, I KNOW his birthday, but I haven't been keeping tabs on the date all week. I just didn't realize what day it was.

I always used to roll my eyes when my mom would send "reminder" texts that I needed to wish my dad a happy birthday - like, yeah, ok, mom, I'm an adult, I can remember on my own... But obviously I can't. I wish she would've sent one yesterday.

Honestly I don't think forgetting birthdays and anniversaries are a big deal. I understand that I'm pretty alone in this. But in this digital age with everyone being so fucking busy I think it only makes complete sense that people would lose track of this kind of stuff. I wouldn't be offended if anyone forgot my birthday or if a dude forgot our anniversary, I'd think it was funny.

indiegirl
09-20-2022, 03:15 PM
unfortunately I do think that camming can be used against you in the medical field. out of all types of sex work, camming is probably the one thats hardest to erase. even a solicitation charge can be expunged in california. Even if you can make sure camming doesn't show up on a background check, all it takes is 1 hospital employee finding your videos reposted on a porn site and the hospital can fire you for 'unprofessional conduct'. I also found this thread on the subject: https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?170936-Camming-and-Nursing-School

you might make more money getting a vanilla tipped minimum wage job than driving for lyft/etc anyway. with gas prices so high, vehicle wear and tear, and having to pay 1099 taxes (especially in CA, ugh) those apps are often barely worth it. My gf makes $22 an hour as a coffee barista.

I filled out the tax information but I never officially got paid/made money or went full blown doing a cam show live. Will this show up on a background check ya think that I filled out that information? I hope not. I just deleted the tax information and never got a check.

After seeing how that meteorologist got fired yesterday for being on cam, I didn't realize I would be busting my ass to not get hired or fired after all my hard work in school. It's not worth it.

chanzep
09-20-2022, 03:55 PM
Wendi you are the opposite of a terrible mother !, You are doing the best thing for you and your kids even with the odds against you. Don't let anyone tell you different.
I pray you get a safe place for you to restart your life. You deserve peace and happiness .

carmen_b
09-20-2022, 05:16 PM
Is it different locations ? The only thing I can think of is maybe they got a day time deal or something on ceremony location ?
The more I keep thinking about this 3 hour gap, the more confused and annoyed I am. I have never seen someone have a multi-hour gap between the end of the ceremony and the beginning of cocktail hour. What does she expect people to do for 3 hours? I'm sure there will be plenty of people there who don't have a hotel room nearby, because they live close enough to drive - but not close enough that it would make any sense to go home in between and then turn around and drive back. I can't believe no one else involved in the planning process said something to her when she scheduled that.

She expects her ceremony to be at 1, but dinner not until 6. So dancing and actually celebrating won't be until 7 or 8pm, and she has the hall booked until midnight... Sorry, most people don't expect a wedding to be a 12-hour, all day affair...

LoveyD
09-21-2022, 04:53 PM
I hope to experience a breakthrough soon career-wise. I'm really burned out on delivering groceries.

xxxGothBarbie
09-21-2022, 10:11 PM
I miss my u.k crushy :(
Haven't talked to him in 2 weeks now ugh :(
I miss our conversations. I really hope he didn't ghost me .....

moneybags
09-22-2022, 04:47 PM
Outed myself to a vanilla person and now they’re treating me differently. Ugh! Never tell vanilla people what you do.

xxxGothBarbie
09-22-2022, 05:55 PM
Outed myself to a vanilla person and now they’re treating me differently. Ugh! Never tell vanilla people what you do.


That is why my job in this industry stays top secret from everyone in my life mostly. Too many judgy ppl.

indiegirl
09-22-2022, 06:25 PM
Outed myself to a vanilla person and now they’re treating me differently. Ugh! Never tell vanilla people what you do.

I tipped one of my favorite youtubers (low level of subscribers) during one of his livestreams. I'm known with him to be kind and tip him for his time for like 2 years. Sure enough, I brought up how I work in the adult industry in his livestream and he privated the video last week. I felt so bad about myself like it was my fault. LOL.

carmen_b
09-22-2022, 06:36 PM
^ I doubt he switched it to private viewing just because of what you said.
He could just not want it to appear on the channel because without the " live " element those can be really boring to watch later.
He might want clicks on more relevant more dynamic vids.

indiegirl
09-22-2022, 07:23 PM
^ I doubt he switched it to private viewing just because of what you said.
He could just not want it to appear on the channel because without the " live " element those can be really boring to watch later.
He might want clicks on more relevant more dynamic vids.

He keeps all his lives for his membership site LOL! I went to check back later and he privated it.

smeca
09-22-2022, 11:54 PM
^it might be just extreme caution, youtube has got veey difficult for creators over the last few years demonetising videos with even hints of certain content/words?


I keep missing out on morning wood! I'm just so tired first thing. DX

indiegirl
09-23-2022, 05:51 AM
Me being told late last night he was referred to meet by a male friend of his for a date. YESSS! He was hot AF too in person!! Loved it. I have now acquired a new favorite custie. LOL

moneybags
09-23-2022, 06:18 AM
That is why my job in this industry stays top secret from everyone in my life mostly. Too many judgy ppl.

The same people be watching the content you make…LOL.

It’s their own issues sexuality I know, but it’s hard to not take it personally. To go from being the best thing in the world, to nothing is hurtful.

It isn’t me-it’s them. It’s their programming around sex. It’s their own sexual repression make them act like they have a stick up their butt. I don’t need to internalize it.

I do think I’m going to cut this person off. I don’t need that energy in my life.

The people I know who don’t judge are spiritual and are aware of the Matrix. People who are unconscious of their conditioning are never gonna be safe people for me to talk to.

miss.a.p1600
09-23-2022, 07:09 AM
I confess that if L took this higher paying job out of town it would improve our relationship because he’d be more focused on earning more money, couldn’t smother, I’d have this house to myself, and I wouldn’t have to worry about sexual “obligations” when I’m not in the mood.

indiegirl
09-23-2022, 10:24 AM
I confess that if L took this higher paying job out of town it would improve our relationship because he’d be more focused on earning more money, couldn’t smother, I’d have this house to myself, and I wouldn’t have to worry about sexual “obligations” when I’m not in the mood.

L sounds like a dead end for you IMO. I'd want someone who I didn't care about their issues in my life on that scale and only brought 85 percent joy. 15% issues

kimbe
09-23-2022, 11:40 AM
I confess I like driving longer trips. I have these +-5hr trips regularly and I actually enjoy them even though especially the return trips can be a bit exhausting. I listen to music, no one distubes me, and I generally like driving.

miss.a.p1600
09-23-2022, 02:19 PM
L sounds like a dead end for you IMO. I'd want someone who I didn't care about their issues in my life on that scale and only brought 85 percent joy. 15% issues

Agreed. I’m not holding my breath. The fact that I rant on here way too frequently means something. I just cannot deal with the kid baggage, the ex wife baggage, his baggage if he refuses to understand that he needs to be making MORE money NOW for me to put up with this.

I was just about to confess that I’m working overtime so I can stack as much as possible and be ready to move up and out.

The fact that he’s slow af to make more and acting like he’s entitled to a high quality woman without putting the effort in actually helps me hustle and prove to myself that I can do this without a dude slowing me down.

Really sad. When a dude has a Queen but can’t/won’t fulfill his masculine role in order to keep her.

chanzep
09-23-2022, 02:32 PM
He said he would sell the house and ask you to leave so how would your relationship improve? He really showed his cards there that he only cares about himself.

miss.a.p1600
09-23-2022, 03:30 PM
He said he would sell the house and ask you to leave so how would your relationship improve? He really showed his cards there that he only cares about himself.

I had another conversation about that and told him that was a dumb idea and a dickhead thing to say. Idk if he said that out of anger to rile me up or if he really thinks that.

Either way I’m going to make sure I have my ducks in a row so to speak. I realized being with him is too much work and not enough pay off.

chanzep
09-23-2022, 04:14 PM
When people show you who you are believe them. It was not a random anger thing to say to your fiance that you would kick them out and that they would cheat just because he's working out of town. People work out of town all the time no problems.
Anyway we can only learn from these things and move on to better. You already got your new job so things are improving they will continue .

whirlerz
09-23-2022, 06:37 PM
I feel overwhelmed and cry so much every day lately. I feel like a terrible mom for it.

You're a great Mom, & wonderful lady, you've dealt w/so much honey!
Hugs :hug:

indiegirl
09-23-2022, 07:37 PM
Been a dead ass 2 nights. I made 1200 minus all the fees associated. At the end minus costs and ubers I made around 500 bucks for 2 days. I am pissed. I hope it speeds up. I'm trying to save money. Meanwhile someone trying to book me is a "talker" aka he uses multiple different phone numbers to contact me under so when I block him he will find another just so he gets free conversation with me. He doesn't want to pay anymore which is totally fine with me. I'm totally okay with not talking to him anymore. It's that simple. LOL.

smeca
09-25-2022, 01:16 AM
Dreamt about restarting camming. It went better than i expected but i had no equipment and i was on for an hour before my job so my customer got no show and i felt bad but hooked them for another day. I think its a sign to get my self online again already

kimbe
09-25-2022, 09:29 AM
Been a dead ass 2 nights. I made 1200 minus all the fees associated. At the end minus costs and ubers I made around 500 bucks for 2 days. I am pissed. I hope it speeds up. I'm trying to save money. Meanwhile someone trying to book me is a "talker" aka he uses multiple different phone numbers to contact me under so when I block him he will find another just so he gets free conversation with me. He doesn't want to pay anymore which is totally fine with me. I'm totally okay with not talking to him anymore. It's that simple. LOL.

That’s ridiculous, I’d expect 1500 - 2000 a night…

indiegirl
09-25-2022, 05:54 PM
That’s ridiculous, I’d expect 1500 - 2000 a night…

Yep hahaha. It's why I was pisseddddd. It was the worst I have made in a while. My other issue is I couldn't work Saturday for this week. I have another midterm tomorrow. Like for me, midterms mean we are halfway done. However we have been blessed with another set of "midterms" tomorrow and Wednesday. I'm so over school.

Random confession, I'm so grateful I left real estate school many years ago. I watched an episode of Selling the OC on netflix and it was SO not for me at that point in my life. Walking around in PJ's aka scrubs fits me SOO much better!!

seashell
09-25-2022, 10:48 PM
Came out as a lesbian this weekend, to some friends and family.

I just broke up with my recent boyfriend, and had to kinda face the facts that I just don't like men, and I can't lead partners on anymore.

It feels like a huuuge weight off my chest. So much more relieved than I ever could have imagined.

buttonpop
09-26-2022, 10:28 AM
welcome to the club :)

I'm actually bi but I always knew I would end up with a woman long term. men are emotionally stunted.

LoveyD
09-26-2022, 10:43 AM
Congratulations seashell! I'm sure it's a huge relief. Very happy for you!

I'm thinking of moving come the new year. My son wants to move out of the state and once he does, I'm out of here too.

carmen_b
09-26-2022, 11:01 AM
It would have made this little mini trip with my partner Friday / Sat. easier if I would have left my dog up North.
I had no family members coming south for 16 days ! NO WAY !
I'll just pay whatever premium his babysitters want haha I'm not going without him for 16 days.

chanzep
09-26-2022, 03:24 PM
When I see people being selfish and entitled but they can't see it I get worried what if people think I'm like that. I don't think so but I guess nobody does?.
If I seem that way or horrible etc I don't mind people pulling me aside and nicely pointing it out.

Aurora_Sunset
09-27-2022, 06:17 AM
Is it different locations ? The only thing I can think of is maybe they got a day time deal or something on ceremony location ?

Yeah, they were different locations. I honestly think what it came down to was that she wanted the ceremony over early so we had good lighting for photos, but wanted the reception to go late, so it couldn't start too early. Honestly, though, she easily could have started the cocktail hour a couple hours earlier and ended everything at 10pm instead of midnight. That's when most people left anyway. She was pissed that about 50 people didn't even show up to the reception - but they were probably people who had nothing to do during the gap and decided to just go home...

It was a very nice wedding though. The reception was a lot more fun than pretty much any other wedding I've been to.

Aurora_Sunset
09-27-2022, 06:24 AM
I hope to experience a breakthrough soon career-wise. I'm really burned out on delivering groceries.

I had a tarot reading done on my career life this weekend. She actually did say very specific things about me that she wouldn't have otherwise known, rather than just throwing out a bunch of generic statements. It made me feel better when she said something would click for me soon.

indiegirl
09-27-2022, 08:27 AM
Sometimes I post something on here that I think is more "for ladies only" and don't realize a man can read it. When I did that recently and a dude posted in the thread afterwards, I remembered and deleted my post. At least things are not like how obnoxious it was when Raziel was around LOLLL.

carmen_b
09-27-2022, 08:43 AM
^ There are definitely a couple dudes pretending to be women here haha .
You'll always have a couple falling through the cracks. Whatever ha.