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moneybags
09-27-2022, 08:53 AM
Congratulations seashell! I'm sure it's a huge relief. Very happy for you!

I'm thinking of moving come the new year. My son wants to move out of the state and once he does, I'm out of here too.

I would tell you to move here. Except it’s too conservative. Where are we setting up our stripper retirement home.

my confession-is I’m embracing my inner Lilith. I’m so tired of the patriarchy. I’m sorry I post here all the time. It’s just even feminist spaces aren’t sex worker safe. So I don’t like to engage there. I’d like to create a sacred space for women and femme presenting people to deprogram from the patriarchy

LoveyD
09-27-2022, 08:58 AM
I would tell you to move here. Except it’s too conservative. Where are we setting up our stripper retirement home.

I told my kid as soon as he moves, I'm either heading up to LA to do some work in the film industry or I'm going to hightail it out to the Rockies, get a cabin, and write more books. And just get the hell away from everyone. I would love to live near a ski resort and go skiing a couple times a week. Doesn't that sound nice? Plus the heat is getting to me and I am wanting cooler weather again.

indiegirl
09-27-2022, 10:41 AM
^ There are definitely a couple dudes pretending to be women here haha .
You'll always have a couple falling through the cracks. Whatever ha.

I'm waiting for the day women care enough to infiltrate a mens only forum and pretend to be dudes just so they can talk to men....but none of us would hahahaha. We get paid for that. LOL.

carmen_b
09-27-2022, 02:02 PM
^ yes ..... just as I was about to do exactly that ..... lol

Dreamqueen
09-27-2022, 03:06 PM
I told my kid as soon as he moves, I'm either heading up to LA to do some work in the film industry or I'm going to hightail it out to the Rockies, get a cabin, and write more books. And just get the hell away from everyone. I would love to live near a ski resort and go skiing a couple times a week. Doesn't that sound nice? Plus the heat is getting to me and I am wanting cooler weather again.

Ah, that sounds wonderful.
It's 108 degrees here.
Still.
I've been inside since the end of April.
SO sick of sweating and feeling lethargic.
It's supposed to drop to 100 this weekend. :crossfing
For me that's sweater weather, because of how hot it's been.

LoveyD
09-27-2022, 03:10 PM
^^ I don't know how you do it. I would die. It's only 85 out here by the coast and I'm over it. I hope you're able to keep relatively cool. I don't blame you for being over it as well!

Dreamqueen
09-27-2022, 03:16 PM
^^ I don't know how you do it. I would die. It's only 85 out here by the coast and I'm over it. I hope you're able to keep relatively cool. I don't blame you for being over it as well!


Thank You.:-*
I don't know how I do it either.
There's a possibility that I might be dead, because how can a person sweat for 5 months straight and still be alive?:shrug::rip:

chanzep
09-28-2022, 06:21 PM
I don't know how you do it either. I thought Texas was bad but I always think of you when I think it's too hot. We are low 90s and cool at night. I would love fall weather now.

LoveyD
09-28-2022, 07:29 PM
I had a tarot reading done on my career life this weekend. She actually did say very specific things about me that she wouldn't have otherwise known, rather than just throwing out a bunch of generic statements. It made me feel better when she said something would click for me soon.

I read my own cards to save money and they keep telling me that I'm going to have success and recognition soon, my wishes are going to come true. I think when Mercury retrograde is over, that is when I'll hear good news. I think the job I am hoping to hear back about was delayed due to the inclement weather in Florida and surrounding areas. I hope something clicks for you soon!

xxxGothBarbie
09-29-2022, 12:39 PM
I read my own cards to save money and they keep telling me that I'm going to have success and recognition soon, my wishes are going to come true. I think when Mercury retrograde is over, that is when I'll hear good news. I think the job I am hoping to hear back about was delayed due to the inclement weather in Florida and surrounding areas. I hope something clicks for you soon!

I wish you the best girl! <3
This retrograde has fucked up alot of shit for everyone including myself this time ugh. Sat is it's last day.

LoveyD
09-29-2022, 01:25 PM
^Thank you so much! I'm getting really irritated because I've been living in my car and delivering groceries for a year, and I haven't gotten anywhere. Had some money saved I had to spend it on car repairs! Trying to find other work that doesn't involve driving. And I don't want to do cam stuff either, did that long time ago found it boring. I'm waiting to hear back about an opportunity that would help my whole life. Wish they'd hurry up and reach out!

indiegirl
09-29-2022, 04:32 PM
I confess I now send people a hotel address I know the hotwire hot rate is for and wait for them to cancel so I don't waste my money and pay for a room. It just happened today twice with cancelling and I am so thrilled I didn't spend any money.

I used to get so pissed when I just booked the room and they'd cancel. NOT TODAY SATAN!

whirlerz
09-29-2022, 05:11 PM
Sometimes I post something on here that I think is more "for ladies only" and don't realize a man can read it. When I did that recently and a dude posted in the thread afterwards, I remembered and deleted my post. At least things are not like how obnoxious it was when Raziel was around LOLLL.

He's still around, he goes under different names & pretends to be other people.

indiegirl
09-29-2022, 05:12 PM
He's still around, he goes under different names & pretends to be other people.

Oh jesus christ hahahahaha.

I also confess, I'm at a point in life where I would be content with removing my boob implants. Been really thinking about it for a month. They serve no purpose IMO other than getting in the way. LOL. But oh well, I will keep them.

kimbe
09-30-2022, 12:21 AM
I Confess I went shopping and spent two much on clothes and a pair of boots..

Dreamqueen
09-30-2022, 11:02 AM
I Confess I went shopping and spent two much on clothes and a pair of boots..

Pictures?

buttonpop
09-30-2022, 03:28 PM
My parents neglected me around age 11 on. They didn't provide me consistent food, clothes, or medical care and I moved out at 16 because I was already taking care of myself at a young age anyway.


From the outside, I didn't look like I was being neglected at all, so I think that's why nobody intervened. ... I was open about what was going on with friends, friends' parents, teachers, etc but nobody ever told me it was not okay or did anything to help me (except the discount lunch).

quoting myself because recently I found an essay I had written for my 10th grade English class where I mention that after my parents divorce I didn't have a bed and I slept on the floor, and that my mom locked herself in her room for weeks without coming out, leaving me alone to take care of myself. My teacher even corrected my spelling and wrote a grade on it, so I know she read it, and yet she did nothing. She should have called CPS.

I wonder how my life would have been different if she did. My dad (who had custody of my sisters after the divorce but not me) would probably have gotten custody and even though my dad was emotionally neglectful he at least provided my sisters with food and clothing, so I probably wouldn't have had to rely on relationships with older men to survive.

indiegirl
09-30-2022, 04:21 PM
My pit bull turns 13 years old in October. Lord knows that dog has no plans on dying. He behaves exactly like he did at 2 years old. This dog is built like a rock. I have no words How wild it is he shows absolutely no signs of aging. Lol.

charlie61
09-30-2022, 10:33 PM
Went down a rabbit hole of looking at Jessica Simpson's instagram. I couldn't stop. O_o

LoveyD
09-30-2022, 11:20 PM
^^She looks great!

charlie61
10-01-2022, 01:24 PM
^^She looks great!

Really??? I think she looks completely busted. Maybe she went through some major shit that I'm unaware of.

whirlerz
10-01-2022, 01:26 PM
Where the pic @?

xxxGothBarbie
10-01-2022, 01:33 PM
I went shopping on Shein earlier and treated myself to some new tops and a pair of jeans for winter.

Genoveve
10-01-2022, 02:09 PM
Really??? I think she looks completely busted. Maybe she went through some major shit that I'm unaware of.

She's struggled with alcoholism. I haven't seen her lately I gotta go look now.

Genoveve
10-01-2022, 02:31 PM
Okay I looked, I think she lost weight especially in her face, and people especially as they get older can look haggard when they lose weight in their face. I personally think she has too much lip filler too, but I still think she looks pretty good. My favorite look of hers was this brief super tan, brunette moment:

https://i2-prod.mirror.co.uk/incoming/article22515904.ece/ALTERNATES/s1200c/0_Poiret-King-of-Fashion-Costume-Institute-Gala-at-The-Metropolitan-Museum-of-Art-Departures.jpg

https://www.the-sun.com/wp-content/uploads/sites/6/2021/03/NINTCHDBPICT000643832166.jpg

LoveyD
10-01-2022, 02:33 PM
Really??? I think she looks completely busted. Maybe she went through some major shit that I'm unaware of.

She lost a lot of weight so her body looks better but lip fillers are not doing her favors.

kamiliam
10-01-2022, 02:39 PM
She lost that weight real quick a couple of times. She is way too hard on her body all the time and it shows on her face.

charlie61
10-01-2022, 07:35 PM
^^She looks great!

Her photoshopped ad campaign photos look fine. Her selfies and regular photos look pretty rough. It was just a little shocking to see those photos after growing up amazed by her beauty. If she had aged naturally and healthily, she'd look great, even with wrinkles. But it looks like she's been through some major stuff and has tried to correct it with bad fillers. Oof. And her weight loss makes her look strung out IMO, like she used meth to lose the weight. Just a little shocking.

Sorry for the threadjack, lol

indiegirl
10-01-2022, 09:53 PM
I got trapped with a customer during a random parade or protest in an upscale downtown LA hotel and it was the hi light of my day. We couldn't stop laughing. We called downstairs for his corvette and they refused to let him drive off hahahaha! Once police came, things leveled out.

Anyways, I've had only attorneys as customers all day. Super weird but I'm here for that "monet"

https://i.ibb.co/9n3wyfX/IMG-5829.jpg (https://ibb.co/gyFvtX1)

WendiStarr
10-02-2022, 07:52 AM
I fucking hate trauma bond feelings. I hate when I hear a song or see something that reminds me of the good times and I burst into tears. It makes no logical sense. I've talked to a therapist twice this week and I still have these damn annoying feelings. I made the mistake of checking a security camera that I still had access to and saw him looking at pictures of me from a photoshoot. He was just sitting there staring at them, not jacking off. I need to just delete the app from my phone.

LoveyD
10-02-2022, 10:53 AM
^^Going no/low contact on a narcissist is a very difficult thing to do because we think about those times when they seem nice and normal and we just want for things to be that way again. Are you speaking with a therapist who specializes in narcissistic abuse?
If you feel that the app triggers you, I would delete it. On the other hand, if it helps you keep tabs on him that's a good thing too. I really feel for you Wendi cuz I've been there before. At the point where I'm not dating any men anymore or anybody. I just want to give myself the love that I deserved but never got.

xxxGothBarbie
10-02-2022, 02:49 PM
^From my past experiences the trauma bond is what really fucks me up in the end of a breakup. I will hear songs or see movies or just anything in general that would remind me of that person and it would set me back to missing them almost wanting to be with them I do think it's a normal thing to go through it's just part of healing but once you're past it you look back and you're grateful that you're not in that situation anymore.

LoveyD
10-02-2022, 03:39 PM
^^^ Absolutely. I miss them but then I think about how they treated me like crap because that's what they are. Crap. Then I don't miss them anymore.

And I would never go back to any of them either. Why? Because if I did they would think that I don't respect myself, that I'm desperate, that I'm a loser, and instead of Behaving better they only get worse. They have such low opinions of themselves that they'll be disgusted by you if you come back to them! How crazy are these people??

kimbe
10-03-2022, 12:21 AM
Pictures?

Among other things, I bought a pair of boots, a black leather (vegan) skirt, a dress and a jacket.

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chanzep
10-03-2022, 01:57 PM
Sorry you are experiencing this Wendi. Hopefully it will get better with time therapy . Your still going through a lot and you are strong and doing the right thing. I pray your housing situation gets solved soon.

indiegirl
10-03-2022, 02:23 PM
I'm watching 60 days in aka the netflix jail tv show where people volunteer to spend 60 days in jail, and someone wanted to celebrate his birthday in jail by having 5 people fight him. I don't understand that logic. haha. He got his ass whooped.

SnuffleUffleGrass
10-03-2022, 02:53 PM
Confession- I internet-stalked my cousin's husband and I got the major creeps.

I mourn that she's not part of my life anymore but she changed when she got with him. They're both Christian fundamentalists.

Just ugh. I'm sorting through these things before I have to deal with the annual rituals of holiday card writing and gift buying. Life takes people to some strange places....

Grace108
10-03-2022, 04:15 PM
I was close to this 23Y girl at work.. work a lot with her as she is no much of a birth yet… but! After she fucked me up calling another girl with some customers we arranged to see outside (for a night to an upscale night club only for $$$) .. I cannot talk to her anymore. I been open and I told her for me is no the same anymore that’s why I am no interacting … She said she was confused and didn’t know what to do.. and bla bla. Ahh I remember my innocent 20years when sneakily was flirting with married man to confirm to myself I was pretty and hot etc. and I wasn’t mature yet to own my sexuality. Long story short she try to be nice .. and I avoid the sweet heart… sorry hun.. good bye

moneybags
10-04-2022, 01:40 PM
They talked in class about professionalism. I knew there’s a good side to professionalism, but the flip side is it can be used to oppress people. Like the black therapist on tic tok that told men they need therapy. She got fired for “being unprofessional” “professionalism” is also used to discriminate against sex workers and other minorities.

I don’t plan on hanging out with anyone from school. Im there to get me degree. Not make friends. Then I’m leaving the state. I just wanna make it through school and move on with my life.

I decided I’m not Camming. I think it’s too risky. At least in person, I can argue to high hell it wasn’t me. But if it’s on the internet anyone can see it and take pictures. I’ve made it this far in to my sex work career. I don’t want to mess things up now.

Aurora_Sunset
10-04-2022, 06:08 PM
Multiple times in the past couple months, I've had people comment on the volume of my voice or ask me "why I'm yelling." I'm not yelling. It's just my voice....

I realized that I spend so much time at work that yell-talking has just become the way I talk. The warehouse is so loud that you can be standing right next to someone and still have to YELL everything in order to be heard. Every conversation I have all day is at that volume. It's just my default now. I apparently can't talk like a normal person anymore.

miss.a.p1600
10-05-2022, 01:42 PM
The workplace is REALLY ramping up so no more just chilling in training. It’s about to get real.

The thing that always caught me up with employers is the endless rules and regulations (and someone lurking waiting to snitch).

I worry my imperfections will cost me and I guess I should think more positively because I’m just trying to perform as best as I can for the next few weeks. I know my information it’s just learning their systems and following regulations.

Pray for ya girl.

chanzep
10-05-2022, 04:22 PM
I hate the end of training at New jobs lol. This job it was for almost 2 months so was hard to adjust. I'm terrible in my job and do the minimum because I hate it.

Since I went Trader Joe's last week I put on 2lbs . Stuffing myself with treats ugh.
Now I'm eating Cinabon fml.

miss.a.p1600
10-06-2022, 01:48 PM
ughhhhh!!!! The dude is off work today. I’m going to ignore him until 8:30 pm

xxxGothBarbie
10-07-2022, 12:48 AM
I haven't worked all week and don't feel bad about it.

xxxGothBarbie
10-07-2022, 12:49 AM
I hate the end of training at New jobs lol. This job it was for almost 2 months so was hard to adjust. I'm terrible in my job and do the minimum because I hate it.

Since I went Trader Joe's last week I put on 2lbs . Stuffing myself with treats ugh.
Now I'm eating Cinabon fml.

Don't be so hard on yourself. Eating isn't a crime :) sometimes eating treats is the best form of medicine.

NitaBaby
10-07-2022, 02:50 AM
I don’t have a new apartment lined up and waiting for me - and my lease here ends in 25 days.

I don’t know why I thought I could do 8 hours of job training, pick my girls up from school, come home and do 8 hours of cam, and then wake up by 5am refreshed and ready to do it all again but I can’t.

And the consequences, if I don’t, are staring me in the face.

chanzep
10-07-2022, 11:33 AM
You will find somewhere I moved a year ago and has 3 weeks. Get a apartment locator they are free and make things so much easier.

NitaBaby
10-07-2022, 11:54 AM
You will find somewhere I moved a year ago and has 3 weeks. Get a apartment locator they are free and make things so much easier.


I tried this app called ApartmentList but I think they have a contract with the most expensive apartments available within a 100 mile radius or something because it COMPLETELY ignores the filters I set. I specified that I wanted a 2-3 bdrm apartment for no more than $1400 and it kept showing me places for like $2100 or $1900, which is egregious here in Texas.

I'll check apartment.com or rent.com again instead.

indiegirl
10-07-2022, 12:42 PM
I know when a returning customer is not gonna show up based on the space of time it takes them to respond back. Just got the hotel and double booked since I know he's not gonna show up. Why bother even emailing me if you don't want to show up?! Feels like it's a fucking chore for them. Anyways, anytime I am booked through the hidden hotwire hot rates at ANYTHING called renaissance or aryes, I'm fucking livid. I love modern hotels and renaissance means that shit hotel is gonna look ancient inside.

chanzep
10-07-2022, 01:54 PM
What part of Texas are you in?