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carmen_b
11-16-2022, 03:42 PM
^ Had a horrible experience with J brushing off my stress and depression in early Oct. ..... so yes ..... many men are not great with this. I guess he was checked out then though I didn't know until I bit later.

carmen_b
11-16-2022, 03:44 PM
So ...... I'm realizing I don't feel emotionally stable enough quite yet to travel .
I want to feel a little better I think.
I thought maybe just stay near family for a bit ?

carmen_b
11-16-2022, 03:48 PM
Confession 2 :
DON'T QUOTE PLEASE .....
I botched my club attempt .
I went in last night and the vibe was so bad ( it was like 4:30 ).
I'll spare the details but I left.

I realized that I would rather do almost ANYTHING else as long as it's during the DAY .
I just hate evening type work. I'm brainstorming. I thought maybe a bartending shift in the urban core or near the ski areas in the day time might be a possibility . It's not great tips like at night but I just don't think I can do evening work unless it's an emergency ( I could if I had to ). I kind of need to brainstorm on the easiest ( day time ) way to get just a 1k - $1500 monthly boost. The amount almost seems so small to not even bother chasing but I feel like it could get me out as well and meeting new people in person. Then as my day job sales came in I don't have to stress SO much if they close fast or drag. It's an idea I might explore a little.

I might need a break from the difficulty of sales temporarily. I need a more " gentle " way to make money ( v.s. clawing it out of customers at day job or the hands of men at the club ).

LoveyD
11-16-2022, 07:52 PM
Aurora , I hope you're feeling better. Depression is no joke and can have a profound effect on how we feel physically..I wish I had some advice on antidepressants but I've never taken any and I don't know too much about it. For my cptsd I take edible weed. I hope you're feeling better soon. Sometimes the changes in seasons and daylight savings can have an effect on our moods. This may sound weird but using a red light mask helps me. Not only does it give you nice skin, but being under red lights has a way of uplifting your mood."

I confess that I need glasses. I was thinking of getting ones like that therapist in the Johnny Depp trial. The blonde gal with those black glasses. Those are cute!

indiegirl
11-17-2022, 02:46 AM
I tried to play dead with my dog again as a test if he would be concerned if I died (lol watched a video on responses)....He didn't care and went back to being a leech while hogging my pillow lol!!

miss.a.p1600
11-18-2022, 04:40 AM
I confess.

I’ve been HIGHLY considering online adult work (in secret when the dude is at work or with his kids) in attempt to help me accrue more money to leave this situation faster.

I am looking forward to weekends/my off days to myself again

WendiStarr
11-18-2022, 06:06 PM
I'm finally kid-free tonight and it has been slow on cam so far. I was supposed to have a skype pvt scheduled but the person flaked. I made some new content and posted to my OF tonight at least. All week I was looking forward to my kid-free Friday, with all kinds of plans for new content, cam shows, and nf and I'm feeling blah now at the slowness. Where the heck are people on a cold, Friday night? I'm fighting the urge to call it a night and curl up in bed with netflix.

miss.a.p1600
11-18-2022, 06:40 PM
^speaking of kid free.

Idk what L has going this weekend nor do igaf

I need a day (tomorrow) kid free and I’m going to exercise my rights.

If he brings those kids tomorrow or fixes his lips to suggest they stay here while he’s at work, I will ditch all of them all day long. Hope Bertha is well rested from her alleged illness so she can figure out how to take care of her kids tomorrow

lucrezzzia
11-19-2022, 02:25 PM
My confession is I am so exhausted from my friend's birthday weekend... We've been partying since Thursday and I'm tired. Off to an escape room where my brain will surely melt...

indiegirl
11-20-2022, 08:37 AM
So so annoying when my roommate up and decides to turn the heat off in the middle of the night. Waking up when it is absolutely freezing is not cool. If she is that hot, she needs to sleep outside. I have been nothing but nice and accommodating when it comes to her needing it to be a colder temperature year round since she is a larger woman.

My fingers are literally numb as I type this lol!!!

JGB2009
11-20-2022, 11:10 AM
^^^^^^

She should close her vent and open a window instead of making everyone else cold.

indiegirl
11-20-2022, 03:20 PM
Question: Does venmo have chargeback? I thought they didn't?

moneybags
11-20-2022, 03:24 PM
^^^^they do. Last I heard. It’s not SW friendly.

My confession is I’m so say gay. The lady at the gas station was flirting with me and made me blush.

Staci
11-20-2022, 04:14 PM
Question: Does venmo have chargeback? I thought they didn't?
Venmo is owned by Paypal and like Paypal, doesn't allow high-risk transactions like gambling and adult entertainment.

As for chargebacks, I have no first-hand experience, but from what I have read I think it depends on what type of card the payer's Venmo account is attached. If funded by their debit card, they can't charge back. If funded by their credit card, they can.

miss.a.p1600
11-21-2022, 04:32 PM
I applied for a home loan (myself only no men allowed) but was denied.

I’m gonna try again here very soon.

Genoveve
11-21-2022, 08:04 PM
I've been eating really healthy for a while now, but last night PMS was making me crave cheap grocery store ice cream cake (which I've only had like once when I was 8) and Little Debbies. I bought and ate both today and I regret nothing.

miss.a.p1600
11-22-2022, 07:10 AM
The employer system is down.

I hate to be negative Nancy buuuuuut………I secretly hope they stay down so I can get paid to do nothing

WendiStarr
11-22-2022, 01:42 PM
One of my friends is coming to town from Chicago (he's originally from my state and his family still lives here). I was planning to visit him in Chicago next month. I haven't seen him in a few years. He's a tall, submissive man. I nick named him Tree when I first met him because he's very tall and skinny. I know a large part of it is the familiarity comfort factor, but since I know he's still single and he's safe/won't hurt me..I totally plan on fucking him.

Genoveve
11-22-2022, 03:59 PM
I've been eating really healthy for a while now, but last night PMS was making me crave cheap grocery store ice cream cake (which I've only had like once when I was 8) and Little Debbies. I bought and ate both today and I regret nothing.

Omg That is supposed to say 'like once when I was 8' but the 8+) made a smilie.

miss.a.p1600
11-22-2022, 09:38 PM
YES! I enjoyed *MY* delicious home delivered food …..

Stop judging me for ordering food delivery mf!! I like saving time even and supporting the local restaurants n drivers - if it means spending a little more for the luxury.

Aurora_Sunset
11-23-2022, 07:52 AM
One of my friends is coming to town from Chicago (he's originally from my state and his family still lives here). I was planning to visit him in Chicago next month. I haven't seen him in a few years. He's a tall, submissive man. I nick named him Tree when I first met him because he's very tall and skinny. I know a large part of it is the familiarity comfort factor, but since I know he's still single and he's safe/won't hurt me..I totally plan on fucking him.

And the incels complain that "nice guys finish last" - yet, here you are, proving that truly nice guys absolutely get laid.

carmen_b
11-23-2022, 08:34 AM
^ I want a " Tree " . Enjoy. :)

kimbe
11-23-2022, 08:59 AM
I confess I didn’t get much out of the meeting at the bank yesterday.. Pretty useless to be honest.

Aurora_Sunset
11-23-2022, 05:58 PM
This will be the first year that I've done absolutely nothing for Thanksgiving, and I honestly don't really care. I almost did nothing in 2020 because I had COVID, but we ended up in a hotel because of a fire anyway, and the Red Cross fed us Thanksgiving dinner, so I guess that still counts as something. Even if I was on my own on Thanksgiving in the past, I've always volunteered somewhere and gone to a friend's house later to "make a plate" of leftovers. I'm just gonna work tomorrow, get that holiday pay, come home, and maybe convince my husband to go get bar food if anything is open. Otherwise, it's corn dogs lol. I don't feel like cooking or celebrating anything. I would honestly skip Christmas this year if it weren't for the kids.

I'm just not feeling the holidays this year. They're honestly more of an annoyance than anything. It's like I'm trying to get my life in order, but the world goes on pause for a month for the damn holidays. I'd just like it to be New Year's and to feel like I'm shedding this crap-fest of a year.

Selina M
11-23-2022, 09:36 PM
^ I would have been totally happy to skip Thanksgiving. Honestly, I internally deflated a bit when my mom texted me at 8:30 pm to tell me where to be tomorrow... I was hoping she'd forget or something.

I'm not a big eater in general so it's always like "womp womp" when I'm over the food in 10 minutes. It's an hour drive each way. I feel like I have to bring my dogs so I'm not rushing home to let them out, so even going becomes a bit of a production. At least this year we are joining up with neighbors who are actually fun, instead of an awkward/boring group of just my mom, aunt & myself/SO.

I feel really bad for wanting to skip a holiday given my mom is 76 but blargh.

indiegirl
11-24-2022, 10:28 PM
I just got home from celebrating Thanksgiving and my god I am so grateful it is over. Dinner was 2.5 hours LONG and then dessert felt even longer. Everyone was a couple at the table too but me LOLLLL. Obviously I am not in a relationship place but man I felt like I was intrusive for some reason. Sometimes you have to take one for the team and suck it up. So at the 3rd hour mark, I busted outta there!!! I find celebrating this holiday with family to be exhausting.

indiegirl
11-25-2022, 12:36 AM
This will be the first year that I've done absolutely nothing for Thanksgiving, and I honestly don't really care. I almost did nothing in 2020 because I had COVID, but we ended up in a hotel because of a fire anyway, and the Red Cross fed us Thanksgiving dinner, so I guess that still counts as something. Even if I was on my own on Thanksgiving in the past, I've always volunteered somewhere and gone to a friend's house later to "make a plate" of leftovers. I'm just gonna work tomorrow, get that holiday pay, come home, and maybe convince my husband to go get bar food if anything is open. Otherwise, it's corn dogs lol. I don't feel like cooking or celebrating anything. I would honestly skip Christmas this year if it weren't for the kids.

I'm just not feeling the holidays this year. They're honestly more of an annoyance than anything. It's like I'm trying to get my life in order, but the world goes on pause for a month for the damn holidays. I'd just like it to be New Year's and to feel like I'm shedding this crap-fest of a year.

Feel you. When I'm not in a good mood, I don't want participate either.
I fantasize by the moment October month arrives that the day New Years day roams around. It will all be over.

kimbe
11-25-2022, 12:49 AM
I just got home from celebrating Thanksgiving and my god I am so grateful it is over. Dinner was 2.5 hours LONG and then dessert felt even longer. Everyone was a couple at the table too but me LOLLLL. Obviously I am not in a relationship place but man I felt like I was intrusive for some reason. Sometimes you have to take one for the team and suck it up. So at the 3rd hour mark, I busted outta there!!! I find celebrating this holiday with family to be exhausting.

My mom’s somewhat downscaled dinner suits me very well!

miss.a.p1600
11-25-2022, 10:31 AM
^speaking of thanksgiving

I did “NOTHING” too.

I opted out of obligations with L and his kids - didn’t feel like acting for 4+ hours

It was magnificent!

WendiStarr
11-25-2022, 12:34 PM
I am glad that I didn't go to my family's for Thanksgiving yesterday because every single one of them is sick with stomach flu. The last thing I need with my kids is that. No thanks!

carmen_b
11-25-2022, 12:44 PM
I had a fetlife account I put up a long time ago and never used.
I still had the password so I just re-activated it.
I'm officially looking for a worthy sub. :)

Dreamqueen
11-25-2022, 07:17 PM
I feel needy for saying this, but I'm so sad that none of my friends texted me Happy Thanksgiving.

I'm always complaining on here that they all want my attention and to talk every other day of the year, despite knowing that I'm working a lot.


They all know how shitty holidays are for me, ever since my parents died.
Just last Thursday I mentioned it in my grief group, ad nauseum.
Do you think any of the bitches that want to cry over their dead husbands ever checked in?
Nope. Not a one.

I've decided to block each and every one of them.

chanzep
11-26-2022, 12:07 AM
I'm sorry. I don't think that's needy at all. It takes nothing to send someone a text. I would be annoyed too

indiegirl
11-26-2022, 05:01 AM
I drove my repeat clients super fast corvette yesterday! He is such a blast lol!!! I was so nervous I would somehow damage his car during that drive hahahaha.

Dreamqueen
11-26-2022, 08:58 AM
I'm sorry. I don't think that's needy at all. It takes nothing to send someone a text. I would be annoyed too

Thank You :-*
That's what I think too. It's not like I expected a phone call.
A text takes 1 minute.
It just goes to show that not everyone has the same heart as me.

carmen_b
11-26-2022, 09:05 AM
^ Happy Thanksgiving to YOU Dream !
Holidays can be brutal when you have experienced loss.
Take good care of yourself !

WendiStarr
11-26-2022, 04:23 PM
I got invited by my bio dad to a family get together today via text. I intentionally ignored the text because I am still salty about how he ignored my struggles since leaving BD. He has $$$. He makes a ton of money, yet he didn't help me when I was homeless those couple months. He could've put us in an apartment. I had asked him to and all he did was tell me to ask BD, as if BD gave a shit that the kids and I were homeless. I really didn't want to be there with his gf bragging about how luxurious her life is because she doesn't have to work since my dad 100% supports her, while I'm over here financially struggling. She did that shit last time I went to a family function at his/their house and it was so annoying. I wasn't interested in subjecting myself to that again because my bs tolerance lately is extremely low.

LoveyD
11-26-2022, 08:27 PM
I confess that I am very relieved my son did not wind up going to a shooting range with his aunt and uncle he was supposed to visit for Tgiving. I hate guns, I've had childhood trauma involving guns, I've lost people who cared about me because of guns, and it would traumatize me beyond belief if the aunt and uncle did something stupid and wound up harming my kid accidentally. It turns out their household all had covid, so my son stayed with his grandma instead and didn't see his aunt and uncle. I'm sorry they got sick, but I'm glad to know that my kid won't be handling guns. Sorry but that stuff freaks me out. My son told me he went to a shooting range with them before and shot handguns and rifles, which of course freaked me out.

kimbe
11-27-2022, 12:50 AM
I confess I didn't enjoy so much having sex tonight.. I wasn't in the mood for it.

Dreamqueen
11-27-2022, 07:25 AM
^ Happy Thanksgiving to YOU Dream !
Holidays can be brutal when you have experienced loss.
Take good care of yourself !

Thank You so much.:-*
I'm going to be putting up my Christmas decorations this week.
I absolutely love this holiday!
Even though my parents aren't here physically, they will be here in spirit.

I've decided to turn off phone notifications until January.
Trying to keep the vibe up.

whirlerz
11-27-2022, 02:54 PM
Well.

I just saw crushie, (heard him upstairs, he rarely is home since he works 100 miles away, he drives a company truck).

Of course, being the pain I am, asked him about the part for my lamp.. I also insisted he spray for these bugs we get, stink bugs, & I gave him a can of natural bug spray..

He opened the door for a minute, he's as hot as ever, his room is the same kind of mess like mine (he said the same once) cause we're kindred spirits.
I didn't want him to think I was looking at his room so I glanced & looked away, gave him the spray & left.

I still have strong feelings for him, I tried not to but I do, this was well before seeing him today. :'(

Idk if he's going keep staying here or not, blg mgr had asked me to let him know what's going on which I did, (he's behind on rent, the mgr likes him) I gave him a link for rent assistance that thru our state, a newer program.

I just texted him that the couple moved out, & he should take their room.

moneybags
11-27-2022, 11:00 PM
^^^i have to admit I still have feelings for my crush too. Not much we can do. That’s why they call them crushes because they crush your heart.

I’m definitely more focused on living my best life. I can’t wait to get out of dodge and leave his ass in the dust.

The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman's love without the intention of loving her” -Bob Marley

whirlerz
11-28-2022, 08:32 AM
^^^i have to admit I still have feelings for my crush too. Not much we can do. That’s why they call them crushes because they crush your heart.

I’m definitely more focused on living my best life. I can’t wait to get out of dodge and leave his ass in the dust.

The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman's love without the intention of loving her” -Bob Marley

Thank you, great quote, you understand too.
I'm just gonna try to leave him be, & stop talking to him.

lucrezzzia
11-28-2022, 02:44 PM
Its so hard to do, but you will feel better by and by. Even crushes can be draining. And you deserve someone who fills your tank, not someone who siphons all your gas

Aurora_Sunset
11-28-2022, 03:56 PM
I got a lot done today, despite having no mental or physical energy. Kinda upset I didn't get my whole to-do list done, but I know I should take the win. Putting up the Christmas tree and decorations requires more than I have to give right now.

Aurora_Sunset
11-28-2022, 03:57 PM
Also, I have no idea why but I'm unnaturally horny today. I've masturbated 6 times. Honestly, that has to be a record for me.

lynn2009
11-28-2022, 08:04 PM
I think my outdoor Christmas decorations scream my parents didn't love me enough as a child.

seashell
11-29-2022, 01:49 AM
I keep making piles of things to sell on ebay, then one by one, deciding to just keep everything instead.

Dreamqueen
11-29-2022, 09:01 AM
Also, I have no idea why but I'm unnaturally horny today. I've masturbated 6 times. Honestly, that has to be a record for me.

Wow. That's impressive.

kimbe
11-29-2022, 09:32 AM
^^ Definitely agree! I often wish I was more horny..