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carmen_b
12-09-2022, 10:33 PM
The Aviator wrote back and we had a really great conversation.
He is not single. He got back together with his ex during covid july 2020 .
He said is was a very stupid move. I razzed him.

So .... yes ..... NO move will be taken.
I'm not like that.
I mean .... maybe if he has some cash and upscale flights to offer?
No .... answer changing..... NO move. ha

I guess he had moved out of state in Dec. 2019 ( shortly after I met him ) but then back in state to " covid bubble " .

Seeing his full timeline ( when I didn't have it before ) makes me wonder if he was doing that " feeling it out " thing where he might have STILL been with the ex ( he and I met in Aug. 2019 ) . I probably asked him when his last partnership ended ( I always ask that ) but I forgot what he had said back then. Anyway .... that's his drama. I told him freely about mine. Quarantining in the desert at the AirBnB but then meeting J and having him be a factor in staying.

moneybags
12-10-2022, 09:33 AM
People always want more than I can give and it makes me feel guilty.

My nursing student group went out for drinks. 1)I’m a recovering alcoholic so it’s not good to hang out at bars. My club doesn’t serve alcohol which is why I work there because I don’t get pressured to sell bottles or take shots.

2)I don’t want to invest my time and energy in relationships that won’t be around. I know I’m moving after school. There’s always a fear of letting people in and then they sabotage my dreams.

3)the older woman is really nice but she still a vanilla woman. I have a hard time trusting vanilla women. It’s like you’re nice to me NOW, but what if you actually knew me


After they all went for drinks. I got a text that said. “I wish more people came?”Does that sound like a guilt trip? It honestly pisssed me off. I hate being guilt tripped. It doesn’t work on me. It just pisses me off.

I guess I feel guilty because it’s my old good girl conditioning. But I’m just ignore their negativity and focus on me

They can guilt trip me and talk shit all the want because I don’t like to socialize outside of class. I’m there to get my degree and get to fuck out.

carmen_b
12-10-2022, 11:03 AM
^ You don't have to socialize if you don't want to.

I'm honestly pretty selfish with my time.
I often prefer to dine out and go to movies solo !
I think there is a special luxury in these AND not having to keep up with a conversation while doing them.
Same with galleries and museums . I love them solo.

I think it can be a delicate balance.

I wouldn't feel guilty. Ask yourself if you have the DESIRE for an evening out ?
Do you WANT new friendships ect. ?
^ If you don't want these things I wouldn't feel guilty !

indiegirl
12-10-2022, 02:31 PM
Super sweet regular bought me a 600 dollar piece of jewelry.

WendiStarr
12-10-2022, 06:07 PM
"Guy" said that he has told his family about me and has given me the girlfriend title. He invited the kids and I to his family holiday party and I'm just like, "Woa, this is moving so fast!"

Dreamqueen
12-11-2022, 09:29 AM
I confess that I'm really starting to hate my neighbor's cats.
I caught one of them in my car (my rag top is busted up).
They shit and puke in my yard because they are all very sick.
Her dog is left to roam around without a leash and barks nonstop at 2/3/4 in the morning.
I bought yet another car cover, and hope this one won't get stolen like the last one.
Rain is coming.

miss.a.p1600
12-13-2022, 12:28 PM
I wish I could abruptly end my vanilla work day so I can play with my pussy, bring myself to multiple orgasms, and film it in an artistic erotic high quality film that brings another orgasm as it produces income

Aurora_Sunset
12-14-2022, 10:21 AM
I'm officially starting Zoloft.

carmen_b
12-14-2022, 01:40 PM
^ Report back !

carmen_b
12-14-2022, 01:44 PM
I saw the " Tall Teacher " who drove me nuts in late 2018 on Bumble.
I clicked right just to say hello.
He wrote back and said he emailed me.
There was such much wtf in dealing with him back then.
But he also took me on my NICEST first date that year and curiosity sometimes gets the cat lol.

I'm almost scared to see WHAT the email has to say.

miss.a.p1600
12-14-2022, 02:08 PM
I love bumble. And being able to reach out to them first.

Dating is rough, online dating even rougher, and to have men be the gatekeepers to an already tough game just levels the playing field when we women can reach out first and chose them.

Maybe he’s matured ?!? Or maybe he’s the same and not worthy? Only the curious cat will know lol

carmen_b
12-14-2022, 02:13 PM
^ I have found that I LOVE the bumble platform.
The whole thing about the dude not even being able to send you ANYTHING until you make the first convo move is a game changer.
There is also NO sexting / ect. allowed on the app ( you can screen shot and report ).

charlie61
12-14-2022, 05:13 PM
Interviewing is so damn stressful, isn't it?? I find the process to be a little humiliating, honestly. Interviewed today for one of these internal promotions, and i think i did well, but I'm not sure i want the job. Just was not vibing with the manager. Job seems like it could be more stressful than what i do now, and I'm really not interested in feeling stressed at work.

The interview for the job i really want is next week. I hope i have a better feeling after that one.

But it's possible I'll just get nothing, of course. I trust that things will work out. There have been so many instances in my life where i REALLY wanted something, didn't get it, was so disappointed, but when i look back on those examples later, I'm so relieved that i didn't get what i thought i wanted at the time. Sometimes rejection really is protection.

We shall see...

trustfundkiller
12-14-2022, 08:45 PM
Something I really dislike about my mental state is that I can never truly seem to relax and stop thinking about work. Now that I'm camming, on my days off, I'll lurk on Streamate and see what's going on, if guys are tipping, if it appears to be a good night. When I was dancing, I'd constantly wonder what was happening at the club and how much money I was "missing" out on. I know this thinking is unhelpful and stressful but it's hard to shake. I wish I could just decide that I'm taking time off, relax and completely turn off thoughts of work until my next shift. Because obsessing over work still feels like I'm working. And I'm not financially hurting or anything, so it's not like I'm worried about bills. It's not that I'm not occupying myself with other endeavors either. Even when I'm on vacation, I think about work and making money or wonder about the strip clubs in that particularly area lol

carmen_b
12-14-2022, 09:34 PM
^ I think it's SO normal. I'll hear certain songs and think " I know everyone at the club is making great money " .
And who really knows ? It's probably DEAD in there at the times those songs trigger my memory !
I would sometimes add a day or two onto trips to a new city specifically to try a club for just 1-2 nights ! Ha.

charlie61
12-14-2022, 09:40 PM
TFK, that's exactly how i was when i was dancing as my sole source of income. Obsessive, non-stop thoughts. Budgeting, goals, thinking about outfits, sales strategies, researching clubs and drive times...i felt like i was constantly on the clock, even when i wasn't.

carmen_b
12-14-2022, 09:42 PM
This was the email :

C, it was nice to see your profile on Bumble and I’m happy you’re back in city xyz. Your pictures look great. I’d love to reconnect.


I saw the " Tall Teacher " who drove me nuts in late 2018 on Bumble.
I clicked right just to say hello.
He wrote back and said he emailed me.
There was such much wtf in dealing with him back then.
But he also took me on my NICEST first date that year and curiosity sometimes gets the cat lol.

I'm almost scared to see WHAT the email has to say.

carmen_b
12-14-2022, 09:47 PM
^ So ..... I'm not sure ? Thoughts?
He made SUCH a good impression on date 1 ( we had this amazing farm to table dinner thing and drinks ) .
We hugged and held hands in his drive way ( I dropped him off ha ).
Then on date 2 a more casual dinner. After that date I hinted it might be nice to cuddle or relax and watch a movie ( not in person but as a later suggestion via text ).
This dude would NOT give any affection at all .
Meanwhile .... I'm deep into my height fetish phase and wanting to climb him ( he's 6'8'' ).
A week later we are planning date 3 and he sends this email that he was seeing someone else and wanted to see how it progresses. Fine enough.
Then we met up later to go to a college basketball game. I figured he wouldn't have invited me if this other thing hadn't fizzled so I wasn't worried about it. I grabbed his arm to walk on the way out of the stadium and on the ride back invited him up for tea. He declines and am baffled again by why this man can not offer an ounce of affection .
I stopped speaking to him after that and that's the story as I remember it.

I was a little heavier in 2018 / early 2019 ..... about 18-20 past what I am now. Could that have been IT ? I also was suspecting possible Autism at one point.

Whatever is was ..... will this fool explain what his problem back then was please so I can *potentially* get over it lol ? OR even unlocking the mystery would be amazing !

WendiStarr
12-15-2022, 07:27 AM
Ugh, here comes the couple swap or ffm threesome request shit from "Guy". Why do men seem to always automatically assume that just because you're a camgirl, stripper, adult content creator, or whatever adult entertainer, that you're into that? I've been there, done that. Maybe I'm just getting old but I have no interest in that anymore. I just want someone who wants ME for once in my fucking life. Is that too much to fucking ask for? Am I not good enough? Maybe I should just date women only because I'm so over this type of bullshit. I notice that I only have jealousy and feelings of inadequacy when I'm dating men, not when I'm dating a woman only. I'm also bleeding/having my period right now so I'm already feeling all sorts of emotional, gross, ugly, and undesirable at the moment. Blah. I purposely am turning my phone off at work so that I don't get any more texts from him.

carmen_b
12-15-2022, 07:46 AM
OH yuck.
^ Really anything you are not into sexually .... he needs to let it go.

Men really don't get it do they ?
We are drawn to the adult industry for a reason ..... $$$$$$$.

carmen_b
12-15-2022, 07:50 AM
^ Alternatively ..... press back for the MMF or MFMM threesome or foursome lol.

" I need more DICKS " ..... see how he likes it.

carmen_b
12-15-2022, 10:02 AM
N :
" I bet you are still processing some things from the last relationship. "

Me :
" Not really ... he did some incredibly stupid things the last few months of it. My loyalty is gone entirely. "

I think he says this stuff to gauge and also to show he's listening or something.
Let's take a MOVING on attitude. Ha.

Dreamqueen
12-15-2022, 10:36 AM
Something I really dislike about my mental state is that I can never truly seem to relax and stop thinking about work. Now that I'm camming, on my days off, I'll lurk on Streamate and see what's going on, if guys are tipping, if it appears to be a good night. When I was dancing, I'd constantly wonder what was happening at the club and how much money I was "missing" out on. I know this thinking is unhelpful and stressful but it's hard to shake. I wish I could just decide that I'm taking time off, relax and completely turn off thoughts of work until my next shift. Because obsessing over work still feels like I'm working. And I'm not financially hurting or anything, so it's not like I'm worried about bills. It's not that I'm not occupying myself with other endeavors either. Even when I'm on vacation, I think about work and making money or wonder about the strip clubs in that particularly area lol


I do the exact same thing.
There's this cam girl who has copied everything about me, and will even log on within a few minutes of me.
I try not to let it bug me, but I'm only human.

The worst thing about it is that I see my clients in her room, tipping her, and taking her in for shows.
I see reviews on her page from my clients too.

Lots of nights when I'm not streaming, I sit and look at my computer/ring light/ toys and feel guilty for not logging in.

This has been a tough habit to break.

LoveyD
12-15-2022, 02:20 PM
Ugh, here comes the couple swap or ffm threesome request shit from "Guy". Why do men seem to always automatically assume that just because you're a camgirl, stripper, adult content creator, or whatever adult entertainer, that you're into that? I've been there, done that. Maybe I'm just getting old but I have no interest in that anymore. I just want someone who wants ME for once in my fucking life. Is that too much to fucking ask for? Am I not good enough? Maybe I should just date women only because I'm so over this type of bullshit. I notice that I only have jealousy and feelings of inadequacy when I'm dating men, not when I'm dating a woman only. I'm also bleeding/having my period right now so I'm already feeling all sorts of emotional, gross, ugly, and undesirable at the moment. Blah. I purposely am turning my phone off at work so that I don't get any more texts from him.

There's nothing wrong with you at all, it's these stupid men who always have to drag in a third party to purposefully make you feel that way.. they triangulate as a way of making you feel insecure. You probably don't feel this way with women because women probably don't pull that kind of crap I wouldn't know, I've never dated a woman before. But it's just a hunch. It's really frustrating how men think we f*** everybody because we're strippers. It's like they think that we couldn't possibly want monogamy or Romance. It's ridiculous. I would consider this a red flag with guy. Plus he seems to want to move really fast.

I confess also though that I'm really jaded anymore when it comes to men so there's that.

moneybags
12-15-2022, 03:43 PM
^^^i actually broke down and cried because I felt the same way about my crush basically using me as for female attention and basically cheating on his girlfriend with me. It didn’t get physical, but he shouldn’t have been flirting with me. I just felt like that’s all I’m good for is sex. It felt really good to cry it out. Source is the only source of love we should seek. It’s only human to want to be loved for who we are.

Speaking of karma. I think now he’s full of regret. It surprisingly doesn’t feel as good as I thought it would, but I’ve moved on. I’m done giving him my time or energy. He had his chance and he played himself. I’m not gonna be a weak women. He made his decision and now he has to live with the consequences. I deserve better than to be someone’s back up option.

Leveling up and making them regret not choosing you is the best revenge. Like I said I don’t necessarily feel good about it. He seems like he’s regretting his decision the closer his wedding date approaches l. He gave me no choice. I’m not sure what he expects? Was I supposed to just accept breadcrumbs of attention and cling on to a fantasy? I don’t have time for that. I’m living my best life. Sorry, not sorry. You choose that basic bitch over me. I can’t help you now.


Bob Marley Quotes - The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman's love with no intention of loving her.

I really can’t get over how full of regret he is. He’s been kissing my ass. Why now? You had an entire year to break up with her and ask me out. I’m not gonna be weak and keep give him chance after chance. It’s too little too late. He had his chance. I’m not gonna let him hurt me again like that. I’d have no one to blame but myself if I let myself catch feelings for him again. He’s shown his true colors and now I have to be strong and not let him suck me back into. Ugh.

I think he’s an avoidant. Those types always want what they can’t have. They don’t realize it till it too late. But they’ll just run away once you let them back it. It’s them same dysfunctional cycle over and over again. I’m sure he’d just “cheat” on me like he “cheated” on his girlfriend. Flirting with other women behind my back.

No thanks. I’ll protect my peace. Thanks for playing.

LoveyD
12-15-2022, 06:14 PM
I so feel you on this. I've been put in the situation by stupid selfish men more times than I can count, and one time I was nearly murdered over it! Stupid selfish man lies, makes me think that he's single and available only for that not to be the case. I'm so over it. Men, including my own so-called father, don't seem to understand the assignment that they are supposed to treat me with respect and understand that I have worth and value. We all do. Which is why I'm not dating anymore until they get it through their thick heads that just because I'm pretty doesn't mean you can just use me for sex and toss me aside. I'm telling all men from now on that I will not date them because my piece is priority. I love being single too much. And if some guy wants me, I'm going to make him work hard for it. As in, taking me out for five star meals. Taking me to the theater. Taking me on a trip where we have fun activities scheduled, like rafting or skiing. You have to drop some coin. And that's not even going to get you laid guaranteed. I have to make sure you respect me and my kid. That is a requirement. But sadly, like I said, stupid men are selfish and idiotic and they just don't seem to get it through their heads that they are supposed to respect us.

carmen_b
12-15-2022, 06:50 PM
I'm not interested in seeing Tall Teacher unless he explains himself.

carmen_b
12-15-2022, 06:52 PM
I think you sometimes need to really spell it out for men.
Some people think I'm too forward but I'm not afraid to say I want a relationship ( dating leading to that ) .
That way it's crystal clear. If planning dates and being " on the way " to boyfriend status is too much .... step aside then. Let other candidates step forward.

Men will " pretend " they thought you were fine with casual nonsense if you don't spell it out.
THEY know it's an insulting thing all around and enjoy pretending it isn't.


I so feel you on this. I've been put in the situation by stupid selfish men more times than I can count, and one time I was nearly murdered over it! Stupid selfish man lies, makes me think that he's single and available only for that not to be the case. I'm so over it. Men, including my own so-called father, don't seem to understand the assignment that they are supposed to treat me with respect and understand that I have worth and value. We all do. Which is why I'm not dating anymore until they get it through their thick heads that just because I'm pretty doesn't mean you can just use me for sex and toss me aside. I'm telling all men from now on that I will not date them because my piece is priority. I love being single too much. And if some guy wants me, I'm going to make him work hard for it. As in, taking me out for five star meals. Taking me to the theater. Taking me on a trip where we have fun activities scheduled, like rafting or skiing. You have to drop some coin. And that's not even going to get you laid guaranteed. I have to make sure you respect me and my kid. That is a requirement. But sadly, like I said, stupid men are selfish and idiotic and they just don't seem to get it through their heads that they are supposed to respect us.

LoveyD
12-15-2022, 07:45 PM
^^ the thing is, we will mutually agree that we're exclusive only for him to lie and cheat. It's all just a setup to abuse me and that's why I just don't trust men anymore. I now am forced to make the choiceless choice of spending the rest of my life alone because I'm not willing to bring yet another abusive idiot into my and my kids lives. My son doesn't need the drama either.

It's like I could speak slowly to them and spell things out as much as I want, but still they don't get it. I'm convinced that all men are really stupid at this point. A
Why would I want them then? I'm not having any more kids and I'd rather be financially independent and not rely on a man because they proved to be unreliable there too. They're kind of useless at this point in my life.

carmen_b
12-15-2022, 09:58 PM
^ Oh yeah I kind of forgot about the cheaters.
:/

Plus this other woman pointed out to me that you also can't always " spell " YOUR code out. Like if I tell a guy I enjoy 2-3 dates a week and a bf / gf thing formed within a month ...... then it gives them the power to JUST do that , get some sex, and bail weeks later. She pointed out to play with a more guarded hand and potentially WAIT for the "right " behaviors.

carmen_b
12-15-2022, 10:03 PM
I don't think I have the stomach for non exclusive dating.

I had cut N off yesterday ( last minute request ) ...... I want to make sure he knows not to do that.

I told him last night I had comedy tickets for tonight but I figured his practice ( singing ) would conflict as it's Thurs.
He said it would.
He texts me at 7:25 something about " I found out they cancelled rehearsal for this week " .
I'm IN motion to the comedy club ( with no makeup on ) ..... I'm not telling him to come over. Plus the show starts at 8 !
Get it together. haha
I feel like it was just disorganization on his part. I'm sure something would have been sent to him ?

Well ..... now I sent him a text and it says " N has notifications silenced ".
Ew. Gross. Must be on a date ? So gross. I just do not have the patience ha.

I'm so glad I didn't blow him or something ( yet ) and I kept things " over clothing " .
I would be even more upset if it had been sexual. That's why I need to have a convo with him about the whole " I want a relationship thing " . Not necessarily with HIM even per say but just that it's the scope of what I want.

carmen_b
12-15-2022, 10:08 PM
^ If you can't " decide " on me in three weeks ( that's how long it's been as of this weekend ) ........... let other candidates move forward and enjoy the NOTHING you will be getting. I think I'm running OUT of patience already even though I said to myself I'd wait three weeks for this conversation.

The whole " notifications silenced " thing is freaking me out.
WHY do phones tell that to the person sending something ? wtf

carmen_b
12-15-2022, 10:28 PM
^ He texted back in like 1 minute.
What is up with the " notifications off " thing coming up on my phone lol ?
wtf

Anyway ..... told him he missed a good show.
Hinted that snuggles after the show would have been nice. :)

We got chatting and I felt less agitated ( still don't know wtf is up with the notifications thing lol ). I told him I wished he was holding me.

moneybags
12-15-2022, 11:43 PM
I so feel you on this. I've been put in the situation by stupid selfish men more times than I can count, and one time I was nearly murdered over it! Stupid selfish man lies, makes me think that he's single and available only for that not to be the case. I'm so over it. Men, including my own so-called father, don't seem to understand the assignment that they are supposed to treat me with respect and understand that I have worth and value. We all do. Which is why I'm not dating anymore until they get it through their thick heads that just because I'm pretty doesn't mean you can just use me for sex and toss me aside. I'm telling all men from now on that I will not date them because my piece is priority. I love being single too much. And if some guy wants me, I'm going to make him work hard for it. As in, taking me out for five star meals. Taking me to the theater. Taking me on a trip where we have fun activities scheduled, like rafting or skiing. You have to drop some coin. And that's not even going to get you laid guaranteed. I have to make sure you respect me and my kid. That is a requirement. But sadly, like I said, stupid men are selfish and idiotic and they just don't seem to get it through their heads that they are supposed to respect us.

I’m waiting for the divine feminine rising. Until then I’m focusing on myself and not giving men anyone of my time or attention for free. Pay to play only from here on out. Because everytime I give a guy a chance at real love they exploit me. I’m done. I’m focusing on my goals and unless a guy is adding to my life I don’t care about him. The minute they aren’t adding value I’m cutting them off. It’s time to be a cold hearted bitch.

The masculines need to be held accountable. We’re terribly out of balance in the collective
it’s time for the feminine to step into her power-in her lightness and darkness.

You think I’m crazy. Looking at Iran. Women are fed up! I don’t know when, but eventually the feminine will fight back. Like I said before it’s not good or bad-it’s about balance. It’s the natural law of the universe to want balance. I’m not gonna take revenge. I’m just gonna focus on living my best life and helping other women do the same. Fuck toxic masculinity

This is only the beginning https://www.democracynow.org/2022/12/15/iran_protests_sussan_tahmasebi

carmen_b
12-16-2022, 11:00 AM
I wrote Tall Teacher back.
Why not ?

He planned NICE dates and was always a gentleman.
My main issue with him was no cuddle fest lol but maybe that's entitled. Just like how you don't owe a guy anything sexy .... he didn't owe me cuddles or anything either. I think it's a little different he turned down my snuggle offers ..... but it's a new time in life. My schedule is pretty open. :)
Conversations are better in person anyway. So I won't ask him much via email. If he is still doing his eccentric stuff ....... he also doesn't have a cell phone. So he will email and not text.

carmen_b
12-16-2022, 11:04 AM
^ Money .... in line with what you said ..... I wish all women would collectively cut men off from sex entirely until a relationship is in place. There is too much " oh it's ok to be casual " energy floating around and spoiling men . I HATE this vibe. I will stop before I go on a crazy rant.

I would also love to see two timing men openly shamed more . Like the two women showing up to meet him together and embarrassing him at the office in front of everyone. Like .... you think it's ok so why don't we ALL ( as in everyone you know ) have a chat about it lol ?

carmen_b
12-16-2022, 04:05 PM
From Hot For Teacher :

" I don’t have anything too particular in mind. I’m free tomorrow. Would you be interested in seeing ( show ) at the ( live theatre place ) I saw it a few weeks ago and was very impressed. I was hoping to get back to see it again. We could meet for dinner also. I’m headed out to ski in a few minutes, but I’ll be free later this evening and all day tomorrow.
I’m very single and haven’t dated for a while. I remember hugging you in my driveway and feeling very attracted to you. I’d love to feel that again. "

carmen_b
12-16-2022, 04:06 PM
Uh .... if he remembers feeling so attracted then why did he do nothing a week after the driveway hug when I sent a message over ( after dinner date #2 ) saying it would be nice to cuddle up sometime ?

Would ask that in person lol or over email ?

^ See what I mean ? He's really good at planning dates.

indiegirl
12-16-2022, 04:16 PM
I dunno what to do with my life.....but it is school xmas break!!!!

In four days I'm doing lab with a fellow student at my mothers since she is an instructor so the fun ends soon lol.

carmen_b
12-16-2022, 07:12 PM
ANY advice on teacher ?
I know I can spare the time for sure but I don't want to just BURN getting ready time.

?

Aurora_Sunset
12-16-2022, 07:51 PM
^^My thoughts on teacher so far is kinda meh - thumbs down. Seems emotionally unavailable - at least in person. I "kinda sorta saw" a guy like that for a few months once. He wasn't affectionate in person at all, would not ask me to stay over, wouldn't stay at my place - but then once he was home, and any other time, via text, he was super affectionate. Saying he missed me. Sending heart eyes emojis. Saying he couldn't wait to see me, or saying after the fact, "Oh I wish you would've stayed/I didn't want to leave" but wouldn't give me a good reason why he hadn't SAID something then. It was obnoxious. This guy doesn't seem like he fits your standards for physical connection or communication when it comes to emotions or conflicts.

I will say, I'm very impressed by his date-planning abilities. I completely understand wanting to go on the date, just for that aspect. It's very sexy to have a man plan a date well. But as a long-term prospect, if that's what you're looking for, I don't see him meeting your criteria long-term.

miss.a.p1600
12-16-2022, 07:57 PM
Ugh, here comes the couple swap or ffm threesome request shit from "Guy". Why do men seem to always automatically assume that just because you're a camgirl, stripper, adult content creator, or whatever adult entertainer, that you're into that? I've been there, done that. Maybe I'm just getting old but I have no interest in that anymore. I just want someone who wants ME for once in my fucking life. Is that too much to fucking ask for? Am I not good enough? Maybe I should just date women only because I'm so over this type of bullshit. I notice that I only have jealousy and feelings of inadequacy when I'm dating men, not when I'm dating a woman only. I'm also bleeding/having my period right now so I'm already feeling all sorts of emotional, gross, ugly, and undesirable at the moment. Blah. I purposely am turning my phone off at work so that I don't get any more texts from him.

well because men are notorious for not being able to handle the truth….especially when it comes to women working in adult industry



^ Alternatively ..... press back for the MMF or MFMM threesome or foursome lol.

" I need more DICKS " ..... see how he likes it.

And this too. Overly sexual men trying to push the envelope (so to speak) don’t like it too much when the tables are reversed on them.

miss.a.p1600
12-16-2022, 08:13 PM
^ Money .... in line with what you said ..... I wish all women would collectively cut men off from sex entirely until a relationship is in place. There is too much " oh it's ok to be casual " energy floating around and spoiling men . I HATE this vibe. I will stop before I go on a crazy rant.

I would also love to see two timing men openly shamed more . Like the two women showing up to meet him together and embarrassing him at the office in front of everyone. Like .... you think it's ok so why don't we ALL ( as in everyone you know ) have a chat about it lol ?

I’d like to go a step further and wish women would cut them off until marriage is in place. They’d act like better husbands when they know they have to in order to get married and consummate the union.

todays generation of men are casual about dating, lazy as shit (aka closet male sugar babies), cheaper than ever, overly dependent on women to help them financially, have a lot of baggage, and they’re highly promiscuous = worthless!

a lot of them lie to get what they want then bail asap once they got a few pumps of pussy. Not so easy to bail out of a marriage with a woman especially if said woman is marrying up, the man actually has something to lose, and divorce leaves her with more assets than before.

I’ve been celibate though so this would be easier for me than for most.

carmen_b
12-16-2022, 08:35 PM
^ I guess I also just don't get it in a way ?
Isn't it better to have a lover you see a few times a week v.s. just dating a woman twice and having sex once and then bailing ?
THOSE types are those grossest to me and I feel like I weed them out extremely well.
It's just *knowing* the low class grossness is out there ..... yuck.

carmen_b
12-16-2022, 08:44 PM
Aurora :
You describe seeing him " for a few months " .... how did that look ? Like ... just a once a week date in public with NO affection ? Did you get the impression he wanted a beard ? That is what I would have thought !
Like dude .... I'll beard !
Just give me nice dinners and a small allowance and it's done.

miss.a.p1600
12-16-2022, 08:54 PM
^ I guess I also just don't get it in a way ?
Isn't it better to have a lover you see a few times a week v.s. just dating a woman twice and having sex once and then bailing ?
THOSE types are those grossest to me and I feel like I weed them out extremely well but it's just *knowing* the low class grossness is out there ..... yuck.

Yeah to a rational mind it’s better but since when have egotistical men been rational?

most of these unsavory men are delusional af and would rather pump and dump because

1. Some/Any pussy is better than no pussy
2. They erroneously believe they’re so great they could treat women like they’re disposable / simply walk out the door and pussy is gonna be thrown at them.

carmen_b
12-16-2022, 09:18 PM
^ But I swear these types only actually get sex a couple times a month ?
That can not be remotely satisfying .

carmen_b
12-16-2022, 09:20 PM
I'm giving him an option to explain ..... if he chooses to.

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carmen_b
12-17-2022, 10:22 AM
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indiegirl
12-17-2022, 10:29 AM
Me being a hangry bitch waiting for my instacart delivery. Totally get it, but I am out of food and hungry. My fault!