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carmen_b
01-02-2023, 08:31 PM
Got a good start today with a movie out ( Babylon ). Omg long movie, I had no idea the running length.
So one checked off. Will head towards taco tues tomorrow I think. Then I'll come up with good solo plans for Wed - Fri evenings so I have it thought out ahead.
My time can be entirely mine ! I can hustle hard by day then fill the next 7 evenings with movies, dinners out solo , volunteer work , family stuff, yoga , meet up group outings, and the spa.
^ I could pick ONE of those for EACH evening and fill out my calendar in a incredibly positive way.
indiegirl
01-03-2023, 01:37 AM
I confess This is the first year my mom got me gifts that I would totally use daily. LOL I usually bag her gifts and throw them out.
charlie61
01-03-2023, 06:07 PM
Interview went great today! Really good vibe with the panel. I should hear back early next week. If i don't get one of these jobs, it's because they had more qualified candidates, which is fine with me. I feel like i did the best i could have done, which is all i have control over.
LoveyD
01-03-2023, 07:40 PM
I've been running around with sweet almond oil in my hair today. I have it slicked up in a neat little bun. Everyone just probably thinks my hair is wet though because it's raining outside.
charlie61
01-03-2023, 08:00 PM
I've been running around with sweet almond oil in my hair today. I have it slicked up in a neat little bun. Everyone just probably thinks my hair is wet though because it's raining outside.
YES GIRL!! I'm sitting here looking like this right now!! I think the slicked-back bun can honestly look quite chic!!
If you don't mind the smell, put some rosemary essential oil drops into your pump bottle of almond oil. Takes about six months to work, but rosemary is very promising for encouraging hair thickness and growth (when applied to the scalp, obvs). Just doesn't hurt to throw it in there (again, if you don't mind the smell). I have one bottle with rosemary (for scalp) and one without (for length).
LoveyD
01-03-2023, 08:09 PM
^^ Lol I actually have rosemary oil mixed in with it! Right after my shower I put some rosemary oil in my hair along with the sweet almond oil and I give myself a scalp massage. I love the way rosemary oil smells! It's fresh and earthy. Plus I also read somewhere that it helps with memory.
charlie61
01-03-2023, 08:11 PM
Have really been enjoying this girl's videos! Very relaxing inspo for fitness and lifestyle. Plus, she's a Dutchie! Love her accent.
https://youtu.be/HHzbaOXjoW8
carmen_b
01-03-2023, 08:26 PM
I'm embarrassed . I know I left this little bottle of lube at the house sit from Christmas week.
It was tucked behind the leg of the nightstand table. Lol. I hope they just don't notice it for a year v.s. noticing and knowing it was me.
THEN I forgot to change my address for my grocery delivery and it went to THAT house. :(
Like .... I can NOT face these people !
carmen_b
01-03-2023, 08:39 PM
Day two of " lets have a lovely time this week while giving men a 0% chance of ruining it " went off without a hitch.
Wonderful dinner out solo. :)
4 different tacos and a little serving of pazole.
I tipped really well.
The guy at the place was cute and had long hair.
Got a good start today with a movie out ( Babylon ). Omg long movie, I had no idea the running length.
So one checked off. Will head towards taco tues tomorrow I think. Then I'll come up with good solo plans for Wed - Fri evenings so I have it thought out ahead.
LoveyD
01-04-2023, 07:15 AM
I'm seriously considering going to a salon and having them color my hair a beautiful silvery white. I'm getting so tired of having to color my hair only for my grays to come through like 2 weeks later. Since I will be approaching my 50s soon, it may be time for me to morph into a silver fox. Something to think about for my next birthday lol
carmen_b
01-04-2023, 02:58 PM
^ I'll be honest on this one. I don't *love* this look on many people.
It seems super aging on a lot of people . I think for your acting jobs a more neutral color ( to play a range 7-8 years up and down ) would be more ideal. Just ONE persons opinion though and hell it's just hair. You could try it and see if you like it.
carmen_b
01-04-2023, 03:00 PM
Day three continues with the " no men on calendar " roll !
Once a good roll is started you must keep GOING .
I intend a 7 day roll of booking all my activities without factoring anyone else in the decision.
carmen_b
01-04-2023, 03:02 PM
TWO days ago I was determined to just get an apartment here in the city THAT day.
Basically .....find a building and get it done.
I'd get comfy v.s. waiting to buy a condo ect. !
NOW this women has tempted me with a 15 DAY Rover reservation.
Well damn ..... that's a GOOD offer. Good enough to potentially put the apartment hunt off until Feb. !
LoveyD
01-04-2023, 07:47 PM
^ I'll be honest on this one. I don't *love* this look on many people.
It seems super aging on a lot of people . I think for your acting jobs a more neutral color ( to play a range 7-8 years up and down ) would be more ideal. Just ONE persons opinion though and hell it's just hair. You could try it and see if you like it.
I did think of that, that I'm not really done with acting and that would be quite a color to pull off especially for my age range. Maybe when I retire retire. The thing is I have so much gray and I'm tired of coloring it. Maybe I'll stay brunette for a few years more, then switch over when I'm like 55 LOL.
carmen_b
01-04-2023, 09:08 PM
She just booked. One one hand ..... I was sort of targeting the Jan. 15-30 range to GET out of here and into warmer weather at least a couple weeks. On the other .... that's an incredibly good offer. One dog with a fenced yard ( so much easier than apartment where you have to get dressed for potty break ) . $550-$600 booking. I get to bring MY DOG too for the first time. I just feel like I can not turn down her offer.
The $ bonus kind of gives me options to be a tourist in my own town.
I need to start tanning and taking my light therapy seriously.
I'm feeling " eh " with the winter stuff.
On one hand ..... I feel like N might have judged my scramble back to town ( renting a cheap room in Dec. and then Rovering for some extra privacy ) . I am paranoid ..... like ..... will someone judge this too ? A good deal is a good deal though ha.
Also .... ok ..... just TWO days ago I was determined to just get an apartment here in the city THAT day. Basically find a building and get it done. Then I'd get comfy v.s. waiting to buy a condo ect. !
NOW this women has tempted me with a 15 DAY Rover reservation.
Well damn ..... that's a GOOD offer. Good enough to potentially put the apartment hunt off until Feb. !
carmen_b
01-04-2023, 09:15 PM
^ I'm going to create a better system for packing and unpacking similar to what I would do for my stripper trips.
I already have a kitchen box ( a big cooler ) .
I need a better dedicated bathroom bin ( straight into bathroom / pack up straight into it ).
Clothing needs to be gone through. After about 20 days of reservations and SO much moving around it's a mess ( think a pile I shoved into my case ha and there are stray items in the car too ).
Reg. life clothing and nice date night clothing needs separate sections.
I guess landing for 15 days will let me organize better IN the space as well.
It's hard to even fully unpack for less than a 7 day visit.
My laptop bag even needs a declutter.
I'm am worried about men judging this hustle. Oh well.
I do realize it would *look* better if I threw down the $ for a nice apartment.
I most likely will in Feb.
yaya_cash
01-04-2023, 09:35 PM
I'm really glad I live in South Florida, because I think the seasonal depression would be real for me if I didn't. It's been abnormally cold, raining and gloomy here all day and I'm hating it.
i'm grateful i have to deal with seasonal gloomy / depression even after only a couple months of the year.
indiegirl
01-05-2023, 01:37 AM
So I've started organic juicing again and my body is shocked it is not processing mac and cheese or something unhealthy. It is freaking out in the runs mode.
Turns out, that wasn't a fart.
LOLLL.
Dreamqueen
01-05-2023, 11:52 AM
I confess that I got turned on by a tree that has sprung up next to my bedroom.:O
Let me explain. Lol
A tree sprung up where it never gets water or Sun.
It's branches and pellet droppings keep landing on my wall a.c. unit.
It's been on my list to trim it down, but there's snakes back there, so I needed to wait until winter.
I received an email and 2 text messages yesterday informing me of a wind/rain storm incoming.
I went out there to cut the tree back.
This tree looks weak, but is soooo strong. It felt like it was arm wrestling with me.
It's now tall enough to be hanging on my roof.
I'm a nature and tree lover, so it hurt my soul to have to cut it back.
But I can't have it interfering with my a.c. unit.
Anyway.
I probably sound like a weirdo, but I knew this tree was communicating with me.
Has anyone else had this kind of experience with a tree?
Oh, edit to add: The previous landlord planted a lemon tree in front of my bedroom window a few years ago.
Within months that tree grew, and is now a thriving lemon sprouting tree.
It's branches have all reached over towards my window, probably because I talk to it daily.
It has completely avoided the neighbor on it's other side, who is out on her patio on her phone, chain smoking all day and night.
smeca
01-05-2023, 12:46 PM
I watched a video on journalling to work on the shadow self recently. I think maybe I should do some. I think I have some intimacy issues (though haven't always?). sex is a bit awkward for me lately, i dont feel very connected to my bf. Like he was holding me close and kissing my head a lot after we finished last and I nearly start crying (just a smush of emotions idk), but i just don't feel 'open', it's like I'm in my head the whole time.
Idk if this is shadow work or we need to work on some communication.
Should probably post this elsewhere but idk what I'm wondering clearly atm
indiegirl
01-05-2023, 06:58 PM
Since my mother is well liked in the hospital, she has a friend who was excited and willing to teach me doing Orthopedic surgeries on weekends starting in April. I'm gon' be in real surgery in a trauma 1 hospital soon! Wahooo! This is 2 months before our clinicals start. I'm excited/nervous. :D!!
carmen_b
01-06-2023, 06:19 PM
The man free week has been awful.
I experimented. I tried.
Gimme some DICK lol !
I feel like a dumb ass for trying to go on the 7 day diet.
Also ..... wtf was I thinking waking up at 6:45 a.m. 4 days in a row ?
I wanted to "show " the new gig I could be counted on !
Thankfully they had one afternoon thing next Tues. and a morning thing next Wed. !
I don't think I will take any other morning ones next week.
I feel relieved it wasn't an issue. I turned down some hours Sat. and Mon. as an attempt to self care.
Time to bring back the poly experiments and mid - Dec. slutapalooza.
This week = :(
carmen_b
01-06-2023, 06:52 PM
Juna Mustad is one of my fave shadow work practitioners.
I would give her a google.
I watched a video on journalling to work on the shadow self recently. I think maybe I should do some. I think I have some intimacy issues (though haven't always?). sex is a bit awkward for me lately, i dont feel very connected to my bf. Like he was holding me close and kissing my head a lot after we finished last and I nearly start crying (just a smush of emotions idk), but i just don't feel 'open', it's like I'm in my head the whole time.
Idk if this is shadow work or we need to work on some communication.
Should probably post this elsewhere but idk what I'm wondering clearly atm
kimbe
01-07-2023, 12:58 AM
My partner felt asleep with a big smile after getting head, he now actually sleeps with a smile..
miss.a.p1600
01-07-2023, 08:22 AM
I wish I could cheat.
Trying to be good and leave before I act unsavory like 90 percent of the men out here.
miss.a.p1600
01-07-2023, 10:43 AM
I confess, I’ve fallen off the wagon……..not gone lie - it feels good while I’m in the depths of thc induced euphoria but once it’s over the reality hits and I have to procure another supply.
I cringe thinking of the extra $120/mo that I could be investing if I can let go of this and use natural remedies.
I bought a supply just 2 days ago that I thought would last for at least a week and consumed it all in 2 days.
miss.a.p1600
01-07-2023, 10:49 AM
So I've started organic juicing again and my body is shocked it is not processing mac and cheese or something unhealthy. It is freaking out in the runs mode.
Turns out, that wasn't a fart.
LOLLL.
Isn’t that ironic how when you eat healthy after your body is used to eating unhealthy fats, unhealthy carbs, processed foods……….it feels like you’re doing something wrong but that’s probably a cleanse that you needed
I’m about to juice today. I confess that I used to be cheap and get regular fruits n veggies till I realized if I’m breaking down this product I don’t want to make it easy for my body to take in chemicals so I’ll pay the extra and get clean food
charlie61
01-07-2023, 11:24 AM
The body actually makes different enzymes for digestion to fit your standard diet! So pretty much any time you make a dramatic change suddenly, it takes the body a few days to adjust (literally changing the ratio of enzymes produced to fit your new diet). Pretty neat, but the delay can be intense haha
JGB2009
01-07-2023, 12:27 PM
Even though I know we will never talk again, I still have conversations with you telling you everything about my life. Although I know I shouldn't, I miss you.
kimbe
01-08-2023, 01:20 AM
I confess it bothers me form time to time that my partner doesn't know about the money I've got from selling the tanning saloon property.. I don't know why, I should have felt the same when I owned the place, but somehow it feels different now when it's materialized into $$.
indiegirl
01-08-2023, 02:43 AM
Welp, it's official. I think I lost the remaining brain cells I had left by watching Love Island on Netflix. lollll
carmen_b
01-08-2023, 09:14 AM
He knows you are an owner though right ? So he sort of " knows " .
I don't really get the vibes your partner would treat you differently knowing you had a windfall but I see the hesitation in sharing for sure. I would not want to do anything that impacts the level of spoiling ha.
If he finds out somehow you can always say " I didn't share this large decision with anyone because I wanted to make sure I was making the choice entirely on my own ".
I confess it bothers me form time to time that my partner doesn't know about the money I've got from selling the tanning saloon property.. I don't know why, I should have felt the same when I owned the place, but somehow it feels different now when it's materialized into $$.
carmen_b
01-08-2023, 09:21 AM
If anyone is thinking of leaving their partner who has a child or children ..... omg ..... just do it.
It's nothing short of glorious to not have a child taking up space in the house / time on the schedule ect. !
kimbe
01-08-2023, 11:07 AM
He knows you are an owner though right ? So he sort of " knows " .
I don't really get the vibes your partner would treat you differently knowing you had a windfall but I see the hesitation in sharing for sure. I would not want to do anything that impacts the level of spoiling ha.
If he finds out somehow you can always say " I didn't share this large decision with anyone because I wanted to make sure I was making the choice entirely on my own ".
No, he’s completely unaware of the fact that I owned the property.. He only knows about my little coaching business and that I take an occasional shift at the tanning salon every now and then.
carmen_b
01-08-2023, 11:12 AM
^ Hmmmmm only you can evaluate that.
Do you think he'd take it as " a big lie " ?
kimbe
01-08-2023, 11:19 AM
^ Hmmmmm only you can evaluate that.
Do you think he'd take it as " a big lie " ?
I’m really not sure, I like to think that he would say that it’s OK.. Based on how I feel I know him. But who knows, he might see it as a big lie and that I have lived on his $ for years. I wouldn’t blame him, to be honest.
If I knew we would be together for the rest of our lives, I’d definitely tell him right away. However, even though we both enjoy our relationship right now, it wasn’t my intention from the start.
Aurora_Sunset
01-08-2023, 11:31 AM
I confess that I haven't been 100% compliant with the diet that my husband and I have been doing, but I'm not telling him that.
I've only been slipping with the "no added sugar" rule. Not that I go out of my way to look for it, but if someone at works gifts me a piece of candy or brings me a Pink Drink as a thank you, I don't turn it down.
I needed the "sugar cleanse" far less than he did - he was BAD BAD about the amount of sugar he consumed every day. I just wanted to focus more on whole foods, not snacking on junk (like french fries or freezer waffles), cutting out alcohol, and losing some weight.
Aurora_Sunset
01-08-2023, 11:51 AM
Talked to my doctor, and she's switching me to Lexapro since I haven't noticed any real difference with the Zoloft. We'll reassess in another month.
I really just want the tiredness to go away. I've had more mental motivation, but I can easily sleep for 12 hours+ a day if given the opportunity. I've been getting myself up earlier or staying up later to accomplish things, but I yawn and drag myself through the rest of the day, just yearning for bed.
Aurora_Sunset
01-08-2023, 11:51 AM
I really want to go back to blonde, but I don't have the money to transition or even maintain once I got there.
Maybe in another few months.
carmen_b
01-08-2023, 12:06 PM
^ I have to say I'm surprised your Dr. hasn't tried Wellbutrin or prozac.
I'm a huge Wellbutrin fan since it has made a life changing difference for me.
It is the med known for the " energy " boost for depression that has the physical exhaustion symptom presenting strong.
I would ask about it . I would personally start a low dose ( 75 mg or 100 mg slow release ). I wouldn't touch the higher doses until you get some experience with it ha.
I used to have episodes of " losing " half the day ( mostly in winter ) due to just being upset and locked on the couch or bed . It's not that I *never* have them but they occur 90% less which is huge. A nap being 30 min. instead of 3 hours makes a pretty massive difference.
miss.a.p1600
01-08-2023, 12:57 PM
^when i had same symptoms I also used Prozac (which really helped at first but as I developed tolerance to it - it’s effectiveness fizzled out while it killed what libido I did have)
I like Wellbutrin and took it with cymbalta
That was the rx magic mood combo but the side effects was I had VERY high libido, extremely outgoing and talkative (sometimes too much) and I’d have these random tics (so I had to discontinue). I think it sent me into mania but honestly I enjoyed the rare sexual enjoyment that I never felt before.
carmen_b
01-08-2023, 01:13 PM
^ Yes, a side effort is " horn dog " mode lol.
charlie61
01-08-2023, 07:19 PM
Welp, it's official. I think I lost the remaining brain cells I had left by watching Love Island on Netflix. lollll
I have no self control when it comes to dumb shows like that. I legit don't have a TV or any streaming services because i think that's all I'd do if i had access.
I treated myself to hulu on my phone when i was recovering from the covid vaccine, and i watched Love Island Australia for like a week straight. I couldn't stop.
miss.a.p1600
01-09-2023, 08:16 AM
The man free week has been awful.
I experimented. I tried.
Gimme some DICK lol !
I feel like a dumb ass for trying to go on the 7 day diet.
Also ..... wtf was I thinking waking up at 6:45 a.m. 4 days in a row ?
I wanted to "show " the new gig I could be counted on !
Thankfully they had one afternoon thing next Tues. and a morning thing next Wed. !
I don't think I will take any other morning ones next week.
I feel relieved it wasn't an issue. I turned down some hours Sat. and Mon. as an attempt to self care.
Time to bring back the poly experiments and mid - Dec. slutapalooza.
This week = :(
Shit I wish I could trade and go dick free
Sex is pointless to me - especially if these cheap ass dudes are expecting me to help them get their rocks off for free
Slutapalooza sounds exciting though!
carmen_b
01-09-2023, 08:43 AM
^ It was fun.
It was a week where I saw N a couple times and the Tall Teacher a couple times in the week. :)
The pattern would be teacher then N the next day then a rest day lol .
Unfortunately they BOTH were complete jack asses over the Christmas holiday ( the season is perpetually challenging for me anyway ). They are both banned from my attention currently. It actually wasn't sexual with the teacher, just make out sessions but HOT hands over clothes stuff , I was still feeling things out a bit .
I feel like I get *annoyed* if a lover won't see me 2-3 times a week so I may need two in rotation in a somewhat ongoing fashion if I'm only seeing a person 1-2 times a week.
Just to go a little pro poly here I love that their touch is different and their smells are different.
I do stay better focused with work if I keep social stuff to a few nights a week ( 3 ) v.s. 4-5.
I like leaving three nights open for my self care adventures and one night a week I like to reserve for family.
indiegirl
01-10-2023, 12:06 AM
It's absolutely pouring down rain here. I am loving it!!!
So glad LA county doesn't look like Montecito does right now:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPX-I8Buuko
SnuffleUffleGrass
01-10-2023, 06:45 AM
It's absolutely pouring down rain here. I am loving it!!!
So glad LA county doesn't look like Montecito does right now:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPX-I8Buuko
California needs the precipitation.
LoveyD
01-10-2023, 07:50 AM
I'm loving the sounds of the rain while I relax in my car.
miss.a.p1600
01-10-2023, 09:17 AM
^ It was fun.
It was a week where I saw N a couple times and the Tall Teacher a couple times in the week. :)
The pattern would be teacher then N the next day then a rest day lol .
Unfortunately they BOTH were complete jack asses over the Christmas holiday ( the season is perpetually challenging for me anyway ). They are both banned from my attention currently. It actually wasn't sexual with the teacher, just make out sessions but HOT hands over clothes stuff , I was still feeling things out a bit .
I feel like I get *annoyed* if a lover won't see me 2-3 times a week so I may need two in rotation in a somewhat ongoing fashion if I'm only seeing a person 1-2 times a week.
Just to go a little pro poly here I love that their touch is different and their smells are different.
I do stay better focused with work if I keep social stuff to a few nights a week ( 3 ) v.s. 4-5.
I like leaving three nights open for my self care adventures and one night a week I like to reserve for family.
If I have to accept dick I’d rather do poly too
I feel like it can be a bit depriving to have just one dick for multiple months/years/decades.
ima need the sampler platter…….}:D
WendiStarr
01-11-2023, 02:18 PM
My boyfriend has been calling me Mrs. (His last name) lately and I don't hate it.