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charlie61
01-11-2023, 03:33 PM
Accepted a promotion today! Going to be a big change. Looking forward to a fresh start in a new department. Totally different job, different people. Big raise for a job with even less stress and fewer meetings...

So relieved to be done with the interview process.

LoveyD
01-11-2023, 04:11 PM
^ Congratulations! That is awesome news!

I confess that I need Botox and I'm getting it done on Friday. Yay! I love my Botox lady, she rocks!

miss.a.p1600
01-13-2023, 07:20 AM
I would give my left tit to get more time off/vacation time

I’m looking forward to working more independently so I can set my own days/hours

Thank goodness my training is easy today so I can multitask. I’ve been creating inventory for my personal online store while training for the new day job position. Shhhh! Lol!

neverendingkneebruises
01-13-2023, 08:17 AM
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carmen_b
01-13-2023, 08:34 AM
^ LOVE that attitude of your customer .
I imagine you'll get an offer that might tempt you. :)

carmen_b
01-13-2023, 08:36 AM
I'm SO nervous about the date tonight with ski resort hottie.

I'm telling myself NOT to fuck it up or just assume bad things because of N's " bleh " behavior.

I feel something *different*.
We both verbalized via text that we felt a strong connection.

I also gave him 47 min. talking on the phone which is SO not me lol !
I tend to hate phone calls.

Jucie
01-13-2023, 09:06 AM
This is going to be a profitable weekend. $$$, come to Mama ;D;D
If I count in the rental, my income from SD, shoe guy and some random stuff is now higher compared to my vanilla job.

carmen_b
01-13-2023, 09:47 AM
^ Yes ....
gotta love the " multi layer " hustle.

Jucie
01-13-2023, 10:02 AM
^ Yes ....
gotta love the " multi layer " hustle.

Lesson learned from Covid, I need multiple sources of income. The problem I always run into is time management but now I’ve managed to get a solution I can live with, at least for a while.

neverendingkneebruises
01-13-2023, 10:18 AM
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neverendingkneebruises
01-13-2023, 10:20 AM
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Jucie
01-13-2023, 10:23 AM
This is what I'm working on, I have dancing and another career I'm putting hours into, but I'm also writing some books under pen names and brainstorming other no effort (once the initial work is done) streams of income...

I recommend reading "The Millionaire Fastlane," he writes really condescendingly, but get past that and there's some lifechanging advice in there :)

THX!.

miss.a.p1600
01-13-2023, 10:28 AM
I am enjoying celibacy a lot right now.

I decided a few weeks ago that I will remain celibate and have sex again only in exchange for tangible benefit and my price is HIGH

I told one of my strip club regulars, "I'm celibate right now, voluntarily I mean" and he said "well duh, any man would give his left arm to have the chance to sleep with you"

I've been internalizing that. After all, what's a shit ton of money, investments or business deal compared to a left arm? haha :)

Due to the state of affairs regarding a lot of men out here acting like creepy strip club customers trying to get the most bang for their buck……..this is VERY wise of you!!!

carmen_b
01-13-2023, 10:32 AM
^ The multi layer hustle is SO me.
YEARS spent at day job stuff while chatting with sex work customers lining up evening stuff .
YEARS waiting for sex work customers while trying to close up day job sales ( doing emails and texts in the dressing rooms ).
HA. You've got to maximize your time or get left in the dust. No one wants that !

miss.a.p1600
01-13-2023, 10:38 AM
Thanks!! He spends at least 3k on me every time he comes in and refuses to be poached by other dancers so he puts his money where his mouth is LOL

Manifesting the lay that will change my life... and also give me more orgasms than any of my 50/50 boyfriends could ever give me }:D

I LOATHE 50/50 men because it’s never 50/50 it’s always men saying they’ll do their half then reverting into bitch made male sugar babies who want women to do majority of the work.

50/50 for men will usually turn into at least 75(the woman)/25 (the man)

carmen_b
01-13-2023, 10:51 AM
I put some lube and condoms in the grocery delivery cart for today.
Just in case. It isn't an assumption of anything.

I'm going to *try* to hold off a bit too.
Holding off is challenging when in the last 90 days only 8 have had affection / touch.

kimbe
01-13-2023, 01:49 PM
I put some lube and condoms in the grocery delivery cart for today.
Just in case. It isn't an assumption of anything.

I'm going to *try* to hold off a bit too.
Holding off is challenging when in the last 90 days only 8 have had affection / touch.

Well, if you say so.. ;)

carmen_b
01-13-2023, 02:07 PM
Yet the supplies arrived an hour ago lol ^^

indiegirl
01-13-2023, 04:10 PM
I quit drinking and weed day 1 of when I decided to leave the industry (I'm on week 2) and I feel great. Eating healthy foods only and I'm so much more productive. My lab skills are getting soooo good since I'm practicing daily now!

kimbe
01-14-2023, 01:10 AM
I confess I have issues buying a gift to my partner since he covers most of my expenses.. He will usually bring something if he's been gone, I feel it's not the same the other way..

carmen_b
01-14-2023, 12:30 PM
^ Even a small gift would be a great gesture.
I travel a lot and will typically pick up a sample pack of locally made beer ( usually from a brewery if nearby ) or a bottle from a distillery. That way you are bringing back the " place ".

miss.a.p1600
01-14-2023, 05:13 PM
I confess.

I have been under a constant state of anxiety knowing the dude doesn’t bring peace to my home so I broke down and called up my longtime male friend.

I found comfort in talking to a guy with no underage kids, owns his own house, luxury car, travels, makes good money and made me rethink my current situation again

I guess this was n emotional affair?

kimbe
01-15-2023, 12:56 AM
^^ Beer, or maybe a beer tasting where he could go with a couple of his friends would probably be appreciated. He needs to get out with his friends..

indiegirl
01-15-2023, 06:14 PM
Holy cheese and crackers!!!! I meant to get a small coffee for studying today and they misheard me and gave me a venti coffee. I feel like I can see through walls I am that alert. Hahaha. I'm going to study as long as this lasts for tonight and have no coffee the rest of the week hahaha.

charlie61
01-15-2023, 06:58 PM
I signed up for a meetup event this Saturday, and I'm already a nervous wreck. I never, ever socialize with anyone. I have major friend-intimacy issues. Really want to start working on that this year. The meetup is in downtown Portland, over half an hour away from where i live, and i just know I'm going to be so nervous on Saturday. But i think it'd be good for me. >_<

WendiStarr
01-15-2023, 08:21 PM
We had period sex again and he was so sweet to me afterwards. He told me to lay back and relax and he gently wiped me clean of the mess when I didn't ask or expect him to and then cuddled me to sleep. He didn't even get mad that I bled on his white blanket. I've never had a man not be totally disgusted and/or angry by my period. My boyfriend keeps making me fall more in love with him.

Aurora_Sunset
01-15-2023, 08:58 PM
I know I am my own worst saboteur.

Gonna work on that this year.

I've decided my only new year's resolution is to focus on managing my mental health (depression/anxiety). Definitely going to journal about it. Maybe post a public blog and/or start a new TikTok channel devoted to it since videoing myself adds another layer of introspection.

Really gonna work on myself this year.

kimbe
01-16-2023, 01:04 AM
^^ Wendi, that sounds very sweet :)

miss.a.p1600
01-16-2023, 08:28 AM
We had period sex again and he was so sweet to me afterwards. He told me to lay back and relax and he gently wiped me clean of the mess when I didn't ask or expect him to and then cuddled me to sleep. He didn't even get mad that I bled on his white blanket. I've never had a man not be totally disgusted and/or angry by my period. My boyfriend keeps making me fall more in love with him.

That’s awesome!

and you have a good point most men (but obviously your dude isn’t in this category) are totally grossed out/angry/jealous/etc of a woman’s period. I’ve noticed this with my dude. He can’t even say the word period he refers to it as “is THAT gone?”

it’s like some inconvenience for the average dude knowing they can’t get sex for a week.

He was also going through a phase where he wanted a baby (I didn’t because he seemed overly involved with helping his ex wife I feared I’d be like a single mother doing all the work while he’s overcompensating for his ex wife; he was stuck in denial and plowing forward so I started using morning after pill) and he would get disappointed knowing my period arrived.

they may have also had a woman who wasn’t great with hygiene or accidentally bled and freaked out by it

This is why I think it should be mandatory for all men to pass human sexuality courses and learn basics of female anatomy before even being allowed to have sex with a woman

part of the reason your dude is more understanding is probably because you’re willing to open access during your cycle and he appreciates that (even if it gets messy)

carmen_b
01-16-2023, 09:34 AM
^ Real men have NO problem fooling around on the cycle. :)
Separate the men from the boys.

carmen_b
01-16-2023, 10:12 AM
Dying to see my ski resort hottie again , squeeee ! :)
Our schedules today are just SO tight, probably both not done working until 7:30 bleh.
So I think I'll suggest being patient and waiting until tomorrow when a real date type evening will be easier to set up. He's off work and I can be done by 4:45 ha.

When I sent him a text yesterday saying I missed his hands he offered to bring them to me tonight even though he works a long day. His amazing attitude is going to pay off huge for him. :)

indiegirl
01-16-2023, 12:18 PM
I know 307 surgical instruments as of today. This bitch is going to annihilate in the OR in April!!!! Proud of myself. :)! I want to show up knowing 1,000 instruments that is my goal.

I've also lost all my covid weight by doing absolutely nothing! Cutting out sugar really helped though. I want to lose 2 more pounds so I'm back to my stripper weight lol.

kimbe
01-16-2023, 12:20 PM
I know 307 surgical instruments as of today. This bitch is going to annihilate in the OR in April!!!! Proud of myself. :)! I want to show up knowing 1,000 instruments that is my goal.

That sounds as an impressing number, do you know their use as well?

indiegirl
01-16-2023, 12:30 PM
That sounds as an impressing number, do you know their use as well?

Not all of them just yet haha. Some are so similar that either instrument will do and it is based on the surgeons preference (considered a specialty instrument)

chanzep
01-16-2023, 12:40 PM
Your doing well happy for you .

chanzep
01-16-2023, 12:41 PM
As much as I hated being sick , I enjoy being off work . Kind of sad to be going back to work.

LoveyD
01-16-2023, 07:28 PM
We had period sex again and he was so sweet to me afterwards. He told me to lay back and relax and he gently wiped me clean of the mess when I didn't ask or expect him to and then cuddled me to sleep. He didn't even get mad that I bled on his white blanket. I've never had a man not be totally disgusted and/or angry by my period. My boyfriend keeps making me fall more in love with him.

That is really sweet. I'm glad you found someone who's treating you well!

Since I'm in LA right now, I drove past my estranged Brothers apartment in North Hollywood. It's a crappy place in a crappy neighborhood. I wanted to cry though. My father did a great job pitting us against each other and gaslighting us about one another all growing up so that this way we would not be close as we grew older. I can't reach out to my brother and ask him for a place to stay, my family isn't like that. He's an abusive dick and it's sad that I could have a brother but because of the way my father groomed us I can't. I cried and drove away.

He's a flying monkey and a narcissist, so there is no such thing as working things out with him. I'm lucky that at least I have self-awareness and can heal. He can't.

Aurora_Sunset
01-17-2023, 10:10 AM
Today was supposed to be my first day of classes, but I dropped out yesterday. I've gone back to school a bunch of times, and I've always been excited about it, but I could not get excited about this. I feel kinda stupid not taking advantage of free school for a decent job, but it was going to take over my whole life for something I was not interested in. I knew I would be miserable. I considered trying it for awhile, but wanted to drop while I could still withdraw my tuition request without being on the hook for anything. Deep down, I do feel like it was the right decision. I'm not sitting here with a bunch of regret or anything.

I spent the last two days coming up with a new plan to just focus on my mental health and improving my life this year. I have what I feel is a pretty workable "plan" for getting things in order and taking care of myself in ways that should improve my health, mental health, and eventually income and overall lifestyle with baby steps and actually following and tracking all the advice that I never follow-through on. Of course, I failed Day 1 today. All I needed to work on this week was waking up earlier and sticking to my work schedule. Instead, I slept in an skipped work today...

Well, at least I know that not trying to get up for school was the right choice if I'm already this bad.

miss.a.p1600
01-17-2023, 12:36 PM
It’s taking everything I have not to fake an illness and leave for the day. I’m tired af and my adhd kicking in

GLAD AF the dude finally left for work

charlie61
01-17-2023, 12:39 PM
. He can’t even say the word period he refers to it as “is THAT gone?”


That is... unacceptable. Even the most sexually inexperienced, naive men out there have more respect for women's bodies than that. I'm not saying that every man needs to be cool with licking pussy during periods (though many men are!), but speaking about your body that way is beyond disrespectful. What the fuck dude. You need to ditch this guy (like, years ago).

I saw an ig reel the other day that said that if you were your man's mother, and you wouldn't be proud of who he is, then you shouldn't be in a relationship with him.

carmen_b
01-17-2023, 03:09 PM
He ended up driving down the mountain and over here after I reported having a " meh " day.
It wasn't meh it was garbage lol . He said he wanted " to hold me " .
A little more happened ha.


Dying to see my ski resort hottie again , squeeee ! :)
Our schedules today are just SO tight, probably both not done working until 7:30 bleh.
So I think I'll suggest being patient and waiting until tomorrow when a real date type evening will be easier to set up. He's off work and I can be done by 4:45 ha.

When I sent him a text yesterday saying I missed his hands he offered to bring them to me tonight even though he works a long day. His amazing attitude is going to pay off huge for him. :)

LoveyD
01-17-2023, 03:28 PM
I need to hunt down a dispensary in this area bc mama needs her meds.

xxxGothBarbie
01-18-2023, 01:20 AM
I lied to my friend today about having a cold so I wouldn't have to go to her place for her b-day. I knew that new idiot jerk she's dating would be there and how she'd be ignoring everyone bc he's there so I got out of it. I'm relieved. I mean she kinda did the same shit to me on my bday anyway.

indiegirl
01-18-2023, 08:20 AM
I'm a wild sleeper. Last night I woke up from my dream to me taking my pajama pants off. I sleep with no underwear lol. Thank god I sleep alone.

smeca
01-18-2023, 09:36 AM
^lol I woke up without my pj bottoms the other morning too, guess I learned to do that in my sleep ?

miss.a.p1600
01-18-2023, 04:04 PM
I had planned to refill my edibles but since it’s raining, I don’t feel like trekking out in this weather.

indiegirl
01-19-2023, 05:27 AM
My teacher along with the director have decided to give the answers on tests out to our class for the past two weeks because they are realizing nobody but both me and another student are able to pass at this point. I'm incredibly pissed off. Why am I up all night studying the book then? And on top of it, she gives them 30 minutes to an hour in the beginning of class to STUDY the answers yet they still take the entire test time to finish the test. How is that possible? Weren't you supposed to be studying ALL WEEK?!?! I've been to a non-private Cal State college before and trust me this wouldn't be going on AT ALL. Really shocked right about now.

charlie61
01-19-2023, 10:48 AM
My teacher along with the director have decided to give the answers on tests out to our class for the past two weeks because they are realizing nobody but both me and another student are able to pass at this point. I'm incredibly pissed off. Why am I up all night studying the book then? And on top of it, she gives them 30 minutes to an hour in the beginning of class to STUDY the answers yet they still take the entire test time to finish the test. How is that possible? Weren't you supposed to be studying ALL WEEK?!?! I've been to a non-private Cal State college before and trust me this wouldn't be going on AT ALL. Really shocked right about now.

You'll be the only one who will know how to do the job. That's all that matters. Keep up the incredible work!! You are killing it, and we're all rooting for you!! I'd be pissed too. I've had this happen.

moneybags
01-19-2023, 06:30 PM
^^^that's kinda scary Indie. We aren’t even allowed to get C’s because you don’t want a c nurse taking care of you. Ugh, I’d be half tempted to report the school, but you’re probably better off just focusing on school and graduating. Wow! I’d be pissed too! It really is a patient safety issue. You might want to call the accrediting agency and give them a tip. I know no one likes snitch’s, but what happens if a patient is adversely effected! If they did that in nursing school, I would leave an anonymous call to the accrediting center. It really is a patient safety issue. So many things can go wrong in surgery if someone doesn’t know what they are doing!


My doctor told me about a family member outing herself as a stripper . I know I shouldn’t care, but she sounded like a “stripper”. I hate when girls are the stereotypical stripper that’s got daddy issues and drinks too much. I feel like they make us all look bad. I’m not judging I’m a recovering alcoholic, and it’s not fair we get looked under the microscope. I’m working really hard to advocate for sex workers as normal people and this bitch has to fuck it all up. Lol.

i educated him about transactional relationships. I think I did a good job of reframing everything to make it sound more normal. Come on though.

I’m really proud of myself for advocating for strippers as professional work that should be respected and is also can be used therapeutically.

Hopefully he doesn’t meet anymore batshit crazy strippers to undo all the work I’ve done.

Vanilla people are just as crazy-they’re just better at hiding it is all. I know that for a fact.

charlie61
01-19-2023, 06:40 PM
^i hear you - it's easy to feel defensive about people's perceptions of strippers. Instead of trying to make it sound like we're a homogenous population, i try to emphasize to non-strippers that stripping is like every other industry. Good eggs, bad eggs, addicts, healthy PhD students, daddy issues, mental health issues, emotionally healthy women, single mothers, happily partnered women... it's as diverse a population as in any other industry.

Basically, i feel like whenever i try to portray strippers as a flawless population, it makes me sound defensive and unrealistic. The reality is that stripping attracts all types.