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anouk.oui
07-17-2011, 06:32 AM
just watched the movie 'secretary' with my BF
then i tied him to the bed face down, molested him with a dildo and whipped his ass with a studded belt.
i've been dying to tell someone it felt soo good but i dont have the balls to make this a facebook status
CherryonTop
07-17-2011, 07:00 AM
I'm infatuated with my ex's friend. Bumped into him last week and oh GOD the chemistry. He kissed me, and god it was good, and I resisted the temptation to sleep with him, but I swear it's made it worse. Now all I can think about is fucking his brains out.
All. I. Think. About.
Natalllia
07-17-2011, 08:46 AM
I am a recovering addict....
and I've been having some pretty bad thoughts lately.
noelle
07-17-2011, 10:07 AM
Today I have already been yelled at about waffles, medical bills, how much I'm eating, how I need to clean the kitchen after HE messed it up, how I need to do laundry... and I've been made fun of because I don't hear very well. He says I am faking it. It's a legitimate problem I have! Why would I pretend not to be able to hear???? I hate having to ask people to repeat things.
And it's only 1pm. Oh man, my marriage is AWESOME.
DesuvsDeath
07-17-2011, 03:15 PM
Dumped today. I mean... I know I was just staying with him to use him to work on my car... but still. Shitty.
I'm like the king of getting dumped.
charlie61
07-17-2011, 03:16 PM
^ Baaabe....I wouldn't break up with you... :flirt:
Kellydancer
07-17-2011, 03:27 PM
Dumped today. I mean... I know I was just staying with him to use him to work on my car... but still. Shitty.
EVERYONE dumps me. I don't think I've been the one to break shit off with someone since highschool.
I don't care about the loss of this guy... but it fucks me up that everyone breaks up with me.
I'm so sorry to hear this. I know it's hard to look at this positively (been there, done that)but this means a much better person is out there for you.
Kat w
07-17-2011, 03:27 PM
^^
Legit! It's not like hot nerds grow on trees.
*pictures that tree*
Zinaida
07-19-2011, 08:28 PM
My confession:
I have pretty small lips so I am always over-lining them, layering them in gloss and subconsciously pursing them in every photo I take... I have had more than one cam customer lately asking me if I've recently had some lip injections, I guess I'm overdoing it LOL. :D
Jessie_tinydancer
07-19-2011, 09:17 PM
My confession:
I have pretty small lips so I am always over-lining them, layering them in gloss and subconsciously pursing them in every photo I take... I have had more than one cam customer lately asking me if I've recently had some lip injections, I guess I'm overdoing it LOL. :D
LOL there is no way your lips are "small" thats some amazing smoke and mirrors if thats totally true. ;D
_Avery_
07-20-2011, 06:37 AM
I WISH I wouldn't have left work last night.
I was feeling so good and confident at home, but when I got there...I felt FAT.
Yes, I've been saying that I was home sick (which I was too), but seeing all the girls I work with...I just felt like I was the biggest girl there.
I KNOW that's not true (I mean, I may be the tallest lol) but I guess I dunno, I work with really pretty girls and just sometimes feel like I can't compare. I know guys like all kinds of different girls, but...I dunno....I guess that's why I use to always work at dive clubs.
(I mean, I look fucking FAT in that pic with me and kaiarose...and it's just the angle, but..I dunno...that's how I was feeling in general I guess.) Not only that, I have scars on my fucking ass (lmao..which sound gross, but I can cover them) but they still annoy the fuck out of me. And it's a NUDE club, so not like I can wear booty shorts to hide them. :(
I fucking love the club I work at and fucking LOOVVEEE the girls, but sometimes I feel like it's easier to make money working in shitty clubs with fat girls who have no teeth. Gosh, that sounds vain.
I won't be able to work a REAL shift again until next weekend since the stupid film crew will be here Tuesday and Wednesday and then my husband works the weekend. So...I won't be able to give it another try until Monday.
Not that we're DESPERATE for money, but I REALLLLY fucking wish I would have stayed and made SOME money. It would be totally awesome to take my kids and get them a toy or 2 right now. :(
I am totally regretting my choice to leave last night and I know it's going to bug me all day long that I made the wrong choice. BECAUSE I DID!
I should've stuck it out, got over my home sickness, got over my insecurities and rocked it.
So much easier said than done though.
Maybe I DO need this one more week to prepare myself. I feel ready, but as soon as I got there...I was like WTF...it became "real".
I sound psycho.
Zinaida
07-20-2011, 08:28 AM
I feel ready, but as soon as I got there...I was like WTF...it became "real".
I know exactly what you mean. No matter how pumped you manage to get yourself sometimes, as soon as you get in the parking lot it just goes away....
I had a mini breakdown at the last club I worked at, I got there and everything was normal but for some reason(well actually it was probably all the prescription drugs I was abusing at the time) as soon as I got out on the floor I kind of lost it! I looked pretty calm outwardly, but I remember turning to my girlfriend all of the sudden and being like: "Oh my god I can't be here, I feel fat, I feel like I look like shit, I can't do this...."
I'd like to give some advice, but honestly it's because of shit like this that I mostly cam now!
That was always my issue with club stripping, I can't control my mood. In any other job or situation I can always reign in any negativity, suck it up and be fine but not with stripping! If I'm in the club and in a bad mood it's all downhill from there for the rest of the night. :P
_Avery_
07-20-2011, 09:25 AM
I know exactly what you mean. No matter how pumped you manage to get yourself sometimes, as soon as you get in the parking lot it just goes away....
I had a mini breakdown at the last club I worked at, I got there and everything was normal but for some reason(well actually it was probably all the prescription drugs I was abusing at the time) as soon as I got out on the floor I kind of lost it! I looked pretty calm outwardly, but I remember turning to my girlfriend all of the sudden and being like: "Oh my god I can't be here, I feel fat, I feel like I look like shit, I can't do this...."
I'd like to give some advice, but honestly it's because of shit like this that I mostly cam now!
That was always my issue with club stripping, I can't control my mood. In any other job or situation I can always reign in any negativity, suck it up and be fine but not with stripping! If I'm in the club and in a bad mood it's all downhill from there for the rest of the night. :P
I hope this doesn't sound bad, (because I DO NOT mean this in a mean way at all) but it's so crazy to me that someone like you could feel that way. Just because to me, you are like PERFECT! If I looked liked you, I couldn't imagine having any insecurities..lol
I guess it just goes to show, that we all get insecure at times.
I'm gonna cam today as well and see how that goes. *fingers crossed* :)
Zinaida
07-20-2011, 09:57 AM
Well keep in mind that in the club I can't rely on cam tricks like lighting and angles....so every flaw is completely visible lol! I don't care who you are, everyone has had some sort of self-esteem malfunction at work at least once or twice. My best friends are all strippers and as levelheaded and professional as they(usually) are they've all had their own work breakdowns at some point.
I'm crossing my fingers and toes for your camming today!! ♥
Arianna419
07-20-2011, 10:23 AM
I feel for you, Avery. We have ONE girl at my club that is my height (5'9) and shes super skinny, like 110 pounds. So I am always one of the "bigger" girls at work. Yes, there are short little pudgy girls that are fatter than me, but being tall, we stick out more.
If you weren't feeling it, you weren't feeling it. It happens to everyone. My son will be 4 next month and I STILL have nights that I get the pit-in-my-stomach feeling and just want to go home to him. Goodluck next time.
Jessie_tinydancer
07-20-2011, 12:10 PM
Fark hurt my knee at work today.. Im a geriatric stripper :(
DesuvsDeath
07-20-2011, 12:21 PM
I hope this doesn't sound bad, (because I DO NOT mean this in a mean way at all) but it's so crazy to me that someone like you could feel that way. Just because to me, you are like PERFECT! If I looked liked you, I couldn't imagine having any insecurities..lol
This is basically exactly how everyone feels about you, too. LOL
You look so much better than you seem to have been feeling lately.
Kellydancer
07-20-2011, 01:09 PM
Avery, you are beautiful but I know how you feel. I was often the big stripper and often felt insecure. Yes I am attractive, but compared to some of the girls I felt like the fat ugly girl who had no business being there. I often had to remind myself that if I was truly ugly and fat I wouldn't be there or making money. I think in your case you have way more stress than you should and it's getting to you. Been there and it's not fun. You need a day for youself, maybe get a massage of go shopping. It'll be worth it.
I confess that I am starting to hate men. Yes I said it. I don't mean men in my life that have non sexual connections with, like my dad or brother. I'm talking datingwise. I am tired of men wanting to fuck me when they meet me. I am tired of men on online profiles not fitting what I want (namely dads)contacting me and telling me how wrong I am because I won't date them, I am tired of the losers and liars I'm meeting. Most of them remind me of the losers I met while dancing who refused to tip because "I'd rather fuck you". Honestly, I can see why many women give up dating or date women.
_Avery_
07-20-2011, 02:12 PM
This is basically exactly how everyone feels about you, too. LOL
You look so much better than you seem to have been feeling lately.
<3 <3 <3
lol, photoshop helps though...wish I could photoshop myself in real life :P
Zinaida
07-21-2011, 11:43 AM
I'm sitting at the laundromat waiting for my stuff to finish in the dryer. There's only one other person in here and when she leaves I'm gonna take this opportunity to pluck my eyebrows.
DesuvsDeath
07-21-2011, 03:03 PM
I wish it were more acceptable to be brutally honest.
I know someone having problems getting hired... and I want to just say "You're being turned away because you need to lose 30 pounds not because those clubs aren't hiring." ...but it's not a friend... so it's "mean" for me to tell her that. (But seriously, it's REALLY true... not me being a bitch or saying all strippers should be thin... she's "fat" for average, every day people who don't make a living off their looks.)
...I think it's worse to let her continue to waste her time and money trying for something that won't happen. :(
Kellydancer
07-21-2011, 03:48 PM
I wish it were more acceptable to be brutally honest.
I know someone having problems getting hired... and I want to just say "You're being turned away because you need to lose 30 pounds not because those clubs aren't hiring." ...but it's not a friend... so it's "mean" for me to tell her that. (But seriously, it's REALLY true... not me being a bitch or saying all strippers should be thin... she's "fat" for average, every day people who don't make a living off their looks.)
...I think it's worse to let her continue to waste her time and money trying for something that won't happen. :(
I had a friend like this. We were roommates and she saw how much money I was making dancing and modeling and she wanted to do it too. The only problem was she was like 5'2 and close to 250 pounds. She actually went to a lingerie modeling company and they told her "some guys like curvy women". I wanted to tell her that they meant curvy like me not like her.
PleasureVictim
07-21-2011, 09:53 PM
When I have sex with you, I wish you were someone else.
anouk.oui
07-21-2011, 10:38 PM
its almost like a gamble if he can get it up. i wonder what tonights winner gonna be boner or no boner?
4everresolutions
07-22-2011, 12:31 AM
^I got a boner for you baby....Chyea!!!
carmen_b
07-22-2011, 03:46 AM
Anouk: What do you think it is ? Stress or something? D's weiner was kind of 50/50 as well . I wasn't even sure what the solution was. I thought maybe Cialis, but I don't know!
I confess I am spoiled sexually speaking by men whose weiners only sort of work. D was amazing in bed ( my theory is because his peen didn't work all the time ... therefore he couldn't rely on on it ... he had to figure out how to be amazing without it in case if failed ). I am drunk and may edit this out tomorrow if I remember to.
_Avery_
07-22-2011, 04:59 PM
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sammii
07-22-2011, 09:41 PM
I'm leaving to visit my parents tomorrow for 2 weeks, but I'm crying my eyes out because I'm going to miss my SO so fucking much. I know I'm being over-dramatic, but I need him. I wish I could skip my flight and my parents' could be okay with it, but they wouldn't be, so I guess I'm going.
Fridays
07-23-2011, 08:11 AM
Im not going to confess.
Im scared..
:meditate:
_Avery_
07-23-2011, 03:57 PM
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noelle
07-23-2011, 04:45 PM
I'm sorry to hear about that Avery, but a lot of teenagers go through that! Your sister will likely end up being a well adjusted adult. Don't blame yourself for being a bad role model.
Things have been so bad with my husband... I haven't been talking about it with anyone really but it's so fucking hard, I'm not sure we can make it.
Jessie_tinydancer
07-23-2011, 05:17 PM
^ awwww *hugs*... I reached a low point in my relationship a little over a month ago. I was devastated thinking that something so amazing could fall apart so easily. Have you guys talked about it? We had 3 massive open conversations and even since then its been better than ever. We realised we both want the same things but were both being too selfish.
noelle
07-23-2011, 06:00 PM
Yes... I feel like all we ever do is talk about it. But nothing changes. He's really mean to me and hasn't worked at all in a year and a half except for a month when he was doing part time temp work. He's so radically different from the man I fell in love with. I am starting to wonder if I love him anymore, which is really scary.
I actually left after that last post and I'm staying at a friend's house for the night. I don't know what else to do. I just can't take it anymore.
Jessie_tinydancer
07-23-2011, 08:12 PM
^ Awww sorry hun :-( sounds like ur making the right decision. Must be hard though.
4everresolutions
07-23-2011, 08:39 PM
I am Steve Buchemi.
Also a loser who never goes to work.
YAYAYYAYAYY!
pixierocksonthepole
07-23-2011, 09:29 PM
I haven't danced in a few years cuz my husband dislikes it. I want to go back, and ...I never stopped taking care of myself. Still the same as if I was hittin' the stage every night.
4everresolutions
07-24-2011, 02:15 AM
I havnt eaten so much chocolate in ages... I missssssssss it... Gotta love comfort food.
I broke up with him, but mad he hasnt messaged me at all .. but what do you expect when you were a total bitch?
1. Chocolate is amazing
2. There's a difference between being a bitch and sticking up for yourself in your relationship. I doubt you were a total bitch. I don't think you could be a bitch if you tried. You're very assertive, but you're the sweetest, most forgiving person I know.
*hugs*
xoAnnaBanana
07-24-2011, 08:04 AM
I confess I like being lazy... maybe a little too much...
Kellydancer
07-24-2011, 12:51 PM
I should have taken a shower this morning but I decided I will tonight. I think I smell but I'm alone so no one will smell me.
I have been having dreams about my last guy lately and I think I still love him and want him back. This is not normal, he dumped me many months ago, and unfriended and blocked me on Facebook in March but I want him back. This makes no sense why am I still obsessed with him? Just when I think I am moving ahead he pops back in my head.
DesuvsDeath
07-24-2011, 02:33 PM
Kelly it's just because you haven't found someone new.
It's so easy to replapse when you haven't moved on/found better yet.
You just have to be aware of WHY you're feeling the way you are and ignore it. <3
Kellydancer
07-24-2011, 03:00 PM
Kelly it's just because you haven't found someone new.
It's so easy to replapse when you haven't moved on/found better yet.
You just have to be aware of WHY you're feeling the way you are and ignore it. <3
You are so right. I know this is why I'm relapsing, because I am striking out with online dating and it's frustrating me. People have told me that maybe I'm not giving these guys online a chance but really hard to give guys who are obviously mentally disabled (quite a few work at fast food or on disability)or just plain losers a chance. I am going to volunteer at a car show next week with my parents and they tell me those have lots of single men so who knows.
DesuvsDeath
07-24-2011, 03:18 PM
^It's harder than most people like to admit to find a good guy past a certain age.
Are there some out there? Absolutely. But it's not like there are hoards of NORMAL men past 30 who don't have kids and who've never been married by choice. ::)
It can be harder than it sounds... I'm sure you'll find someone... you just have to remember that your ex was a total loser and you're better off not focusing time and energy to find someone new than thinking about that fucko.
I think I might be dickmatized.... And it's not a bad thing because the person who the dick belongs to seems to be one of quality but time will tell
4everresolutions
07-24-2011, 07:20 PM
I confess I love the word Dickmatized. Haha!
anouk.oui
07-24-2011, 07:46 PM
eh prob weed. idk. sex sortof happens but im always scared if its gonna be any good and the anxiety aint helping.
in other news i confess i might start a fight with that dirty whore from work. she took my n my friends regular for an hour with her whorish friend to the vip [light touching on sides and back and lapdance] and turned our very shy reg who sortof just rests his hands on your back to somekinda grabby idiot who kept trying to stick his finger into places we dont allow him to but i guess whore &co. do. if he never pays for us again.......... ill fuckin snap her in half! my first reg in over a year!!!
Kellydancer
07-24-2011, 10:42 PM
^It's harder than most people like to admit to find a good guy past a certain age.
Are there some out there? Absolutely. But it's not like there are hoards of NORMAL men past 30 who don't have kids and who've never been married by choice. ::)
It can be harder than it sounds... I'm sure you'll find someone... you just have to remember that your ex was a total loser and you're better off not focusing time and energy to find someone new than thinking about that fucko.
Thanks and you are right, I will find a better guy. Yes it is harder to find what I want, but this is true at all ages. I've met some loser men in my 20's as well. He really is a loser who spends all his time playing video games and hanging out with his mom.
_Avery_
07-25-2011, 07:15 PM
I just had a coke (THE DRINK!)...and it was DELICIOUS!
Wonder how the other coke would feel about now.... :/
To be completely honest, I don't think it would be that awesome...unless I was out wasted with friends...then it would probably be pretty fucking great.
RoxyHart
07-25-2011, 07:41 PM
Dude, this SD-ness is getting pretty awesome and intense this past week.
I put good effort into my page, updating it and everything and offers keep pouring in.
Not complaining one bit. I just hope there are worthy ones within this mass.
I'm almost losing track of everyone that's contacting me.
Time for like an excel sheet or something!
The manic attention seeker in me is having a bloody fantastic time right now.
_Avery_
07-25-2011, 07:47 PM
Dude, this SD-ness is getting pretty awesome and intense this past week.
I put good effort into my page, updating it and everything and offers keep pouring in.
Not complaining one bit. I just hope there are worthy ones within this mass.
I'm almost losing track of everyone that's contacting me.
Time for like an excel sheet or something!
The manic attention seeker in me is having a bloody fantastic time right now.
Girl, I swear, I'm gonna need you to set me up a page. I have one set up, but I tell them all I can't meet them and that they can be my SD at the club...but they all think that sucks. :( lol
RoxyHart
07-25-2011, 07:50 PM
Girl, I swear, I'm gonna need you to set me up a page. I have one set up, but I tell them all I can't meet them and that they can be my SD at the club...but they all think that sucks. :( lol
Of course i would!
I charge though...one bikini pillow fighting session. }:D
But seriously, i'm game if you need me.