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4everresolutions
09-05-2011, 07:37 PM
I've been feeling guilty about being a stripper. My parents have been nice lately and I am starting to see how much they're willing to do for me - and they would be so disappointed if they knew what I was really doing -_-'

Same. My father has been really great to me lately, and I know it would break his heart if he knew what I was doing.

But he can't pay my bills and I have rent due...so I justify it.

Mind you, I am feeling more and more guilty lately....:(

Kellydancer
09-05-2011, 11:02 PM
I hear ya about the flaky guy thing!! A while back I had a flaky ex who later (long after the relationship fizzled due to his stupidity and flakiness) had the nerve to email my best friEnd and ask her for my phone number. she asked him why he'd think I'd want him to contact me after he was a "shitty bf". then I sent him a VERY detailed email, blasting him for all the things he did wrong...similar to kisca's post about how some guys are. I also told him I didn't need him becuz I found a much better guy who enjoyed being a family man and was looking to have a baby with me (my current partner). And ended the email with "good luck with ur next set of gfs i guess" (no hes not a player either so i knew thatd set him off haha). Lol needless to say neither me nor my friend got a response from the coward :D

I had the worst guy I ever dated beg to come back to me! Let's see, he scammed me, he was just an awful guy and he made money off other women (found out he was a pimp). Why would I take back a loser like that? Then another ex keeps trying to get back with me after 21 years. We broke up because he had another girlfriend and we lived 5 hours away. Months later he begged me for another chance, I refused, then 3 years later he showed up at my door begging for a second chance. Since then he's been married 2 or 3 times and has I think 4 kids, so exactly why would I take him back? He's unattractive and I literally kissed him with my eyes closed. Jobwise I doubt he's doing all that well considering he graduated high school at 21. I've told him he has no chance but I don't think he gets the hint. Almost every guy I date does eventually come back so I suspect my last guy to do it, but at this point won't take him back unless I can't find anyone. I mean he's unattractive and not an ambitious guy at all.

So now I am doing online dating again and am finding that it seems the guys who want to be husbands and fathers are ugly. I guess it's a good thing paper bags were invented, or I could close my eyes and fantasize they are hot guys. Hopefully one of these uglies is a nice guy and buys me presents because then it would be worth it to marry him. I've dated a few uglies because people told me to give them a chance and they were all jerks. Why would I date an ugly guy unless he's an amazing guy (and they rarely are because they have a chip on their shoulders).

I think I'm moody because I got 4 hours sleep last night and just watched a Danielle Steel movie, which often makes me depressed and angry. I don't even know why I watched it because those movies are so sappy.

Kat w
09-06-2011, 09:50 AM
That sounds like a great idea! I'm sure it will turn out fab!

You're the sweetest, thanks! Consider this an open call to the ladies : if you have ever wanted your portrait drawn send me a picture, it can have your face in it or not. It can be you in everyday gear or you all strippered out, PM me =].

Mindy Bares All
09-06-2011, 12:17 PM
Sometimes, being a virgin and being so inexperienced makes relationships and dating so much scarier.

Kisca
09-06-2011, 12:47 PM
It wasn't suppose to happen.

I wasn't suppose to get attrached to him, all of the men I met after my relationship ended there was no attraction, no spark...
It doesn't happen easily for me. This guy is engaged, I have a boyfriend, we both know this. Was not a smart move, we should have stayed friends instead of moving it to the next level. He is seems way too young to get married, but he shouldnt passed the line, I knew what was going to happen and wanted it to for my entertaing sake.

Men are cheats anyway, no pity either way from my side.

noelle
09-06-2011, 03:02 PM
Last night I wore the lingerie I wore on my wedding night for another man.

PleasureVictim
09-06-2011, 06:02 PM
I gave you a chance, and you used me. Im now left feeling like a fool again, but damn it felt good to have you for that short amount of time.

kitinboots
09-06-2011, 07:37 PM
2 weeks is enough work for me. I want to go home.

Spinnerette
09-07-2011, 04:23 PM
The CC area of this forum makes me facepalm hard with the sheer buffoonery that goes on there. If I had no evidence to the contrary, I'd believe most of the shit people say about cam girls. Just whiny, catty, and unbearably bitchy with no wits or business sense to justify most of it. I swear. Who cares what so and so is doing? And why are you here telling everybody and their lurking-ass mom what innovations you've undergone to bring in more money, hence spurring forth a flood of tag-a-longs? And then you get mad when your niche gets saturated? Site logistics are fine, that's practical because it's factual. But the bragging and ragging is nothing but a bunch of ill-conceived opinions and whack as shit.

I really do think the beginning to the end will start with some people getting some real self-esteem and accepting the reality of what this industry entails. We all have out insecurities and our bad days but how is whining or mudslinging putting cash in your pocket? Keep your feelings out of this if you're not going to take any action towards changing what you're dissatisfied with. Get your money and S-T-F-U.

Just had to get that off my chest.

Arianna419
09-07-2011, 06:58 PM
I confess: I am so fucking annoyed with my SO right now. I need a job (my club burnt down), the clubs around here suck and we both agree me finding a "straight" job would be fucking stupid (put my son in daycare for 700 a month so I can make minimum wage?) I'm kind of club hopping like a nomad and everywhere I've gone is either SUPER dirty or totally dead. We need money. Yet he has this HUUUUUUGE problem with camming. He doesn't want to find porn of me on the net. And doesn't understand thats not what it is, I'm not gonna get gangbanged all over google or something. The thing is, I really think I would like it. But he won't even let me bring it up. Like its somehow so different than dancing. Hes being a real tool. Ugh. Done venting now...

DesuvsDeath
09-07-2011, 08:14 PM
My ex is such a fuckin' moron it's amazing.
He just spent $850 on a new camera because he thinks he's a photographer and needs it to advance his career.
...he doesn't even understand basic camera settings/functions, lighting, or angles.

I occasionally let him take my picture in exchange for some form of financial/material compensation and he thinks that they're good pictures because they get a lot of views/comments. But it literally takes him 3-400 shots to get 5-10 passable ones (He's literally THAT BAD. I know what I'm doing and normally almost every single shot from my shoots is useable.) and even then... they only get the same amount of attention any random photos of a hot girl would.

It's such a fuckin joke.

kitinboots
09-09-2011, 05:10 AM
I want to stab my roomate with her fake gucci shoes.

She's a fat Italian stripper, with a huge nose and even bigger lips thanks to injections that make her look 35 not 25. She's the worst dancer I know (completelybutchering a fav song of mine onstage) and an even worse roommate.

She gets drunk at work, which makes her louder and more opinionated than usual, she argues with the manager about her money and bitches about the boss to all the other girls and makes snide comments about new girls despite being one herself.

When we get home she stays up talking loudly and eating, then puts on her laptop and types loudly while I have to try and fall asleep with earphones in. She wakes up early and continues loudly typing and crunching some sort of food until I wake up about 1pm. Then she goes back to sleep so I get to tip toe around until she wakes up an hour before work, starts moaning about how early we start, and makes us all late.

Aaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!! Driving me crazy!!!!!

sananeko
09-09-2011, 10:46 AM
I confess I think I whine too much.. I don't try to but its kinda hard to find anything positive with the family or with the ex.. I use to try to be positive but every time I get a back handed comment or told its a waste of time.. I started being negative just so I could get away from the your not going to make it nagging... I think I need to find some thing outside of my normal route.. I just hope I'm not so far gone that I can't fix this..

kitinboots
09-09-2011, 11:56 AM
I feel mean now. I was grouchy then.
I go back home in a few days.
I'm sure I annoy her too.
She's not a bad person.

kitinboots
09-09-2011, 01:04 PM
The Facebook wall of one of my Bulgarian friends (an acquaintance more than close friend) is filled with RIP messages. I have no idea what happened :(
He was a twin too, I can't imagine what his brother must be going through :(

Susan-Va
09-10-2011, 08:59 AM
I fell for my FWB.
He fell for me a while ago and we got it straight, now that he's interested in another girl I realized how I felt about him, and it's too late.

Kellydancer
09-10-2011, 01:00 PM
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't think anything is all that weird. I got banned from yet another website because of my orthodox views. The view being I don't feel you need to love a person you marry.

Basically, my feeling is while I'd love to marry a man I love, in reality this may not happen. I am realistic about it. However, I want a child and want a big wedding and want to do both while I still can. So basically I plan to marry the first guy who proposes who fits what I want as long as I LIKE him. Love though isn't all that important. Yes it is much better to marry someone you love, but this doesn't happen. I hope it does for me to be honest but it may not.

Anyway they banned me because I told a woman love isn't that important in a marriage. It's not. In fact arranged marriages have a higher rate of success.

Then again I am losing interest in dating anyway, at least online so the choice may already be made for me. Instead I'm concentrating more on jobs, which indirectly is why I put off dating for a while.

Anastasia Foxx
09-10-2011, 03:31 PM
I'm glad the drama has walked out of my life. Things are much easier now, hopefully it will stay that way.

Jessie_tinydancer
09-10-2011, 06:48 PM
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't think anything is all that weird. I got banned from yet another website because of my orthodox views. The view being I don't feel you need to love a person you marry.

Basically, my feeling is while I'd love to marry a man I love, in reality this may not happen. I am realistic about it. However, I want a child and want a big wedding and want to do both while I still can. So basically I plan to marry the first guy who proposes who fits what I want as long as I LIKE him. Love though isn't all that important. Yes it is much better to marry someone you love, but this doesn't happen. I hope it does for me to be honest but it may not.

Anyway they banned me because I told a woman love isn't that important in a marriage. It's not. In fact arranged marriages have a higher rate of success.

Then again I am losing interest in dating anyway, at least online so the choice may already be made for me. Instead I'm concentrating more on jobs, which indirectly is why I put off dating for a while.

That BS that they banned you for speaking your mind. I agree what you are saying is possible... Don't you think you'd grow to love the person though if you like them and they tick all the boxes anyway?

Kellydancer
09-10-2011, 07:17 PM
That BS that they banned you for speaking your mind. I agree what you are saying is possible... Don't you think you'd grow to love the person though if you like them and they tick all the boxes anyway?

I probably would, which is why I would be open to marrying someone I liked. I more than likely would fall in love right away anyway, but it would be a more mature love and not the chemistry lust that often fades. I would never marry anyone I didn't like though because that would be miserable.

anouk.oui
09-12-2011, 03:52 AM
i have ZERO sympathy for my whinging SO.
hes disappointed because he didnt get fired and now he has to work the day oh so depressed in his pretty little office being highly paid to do computer things. he said nothing motivates him to be there anymore

and i was like

duuuud you think im motivated to flash my vagina for $2 at work?

sweet victory of silence for the day =]

anouk.oui
09-12-2011, 03:53 AM
also i got some of my miss nude pics back and its either a poor photographer, or boy do i need to get into shape

firemaiden04
09-12-2011, 06:04 AM
I confess: every morning, I have the struggle of convincing myself to get out of bed instead of going back to sleep and missing all my classes. It's not even that I'm that tired, it's just that I want to go back to sleep...sweet sleep...

aussiebelle
09-12-2011, 06:06 AM
Just emailed in sick to my internship tomorrow because i have uni assignments to do. Gahh i hate having to fake sickies!

aussiebelle
09-12-2011, 06:07 AM
I confess: every morning, I have the struggle of convincing myself to get out of bed instead of going back to sleep and missing all my classes. It's not even that I'm that tired, it's just that I want to go back to sleep...sweet sleep...

I'm the same. its just that i can't be bothered but then feel guilty if i don't go!

Sia
09-12-2011, 10:39 AM
I confess: every morning, I have the struggle of convincing myself to get out of bed instead of going back to sleep and missing all my classes. It's not even that I'm that tired, it's just that I want to go back to sleep...sweet sleep...

I lost that battle this morning....woke up at 1 pm instead.

anouk.oui
09-12-2011, 04:52 PM
ditto firemaiden & aussiebelle
dunno why they call it 'good morning' when theres nothing good about mornings

kitinboots
09-13-2011, 06:51 AM
I haven't had sex for 3 months, and the past 3 weeks I've been sharing a bedroom with a girl who never seems to sleep, so I only got myself off twice.
I'm dying for a good fuck, but I don't want a 1 night stand. I also don't want a relationship.
Life is cruel.

RoxyHart
09-13-2011, 08:40 PM
I get all fascinated/excited with something and then panic/second-guess myself once i have it.

I have guys wanting to meet me for lunch {SDs} and i panic and want to cancel out/disappear.
WTF is wrong with me!
I basically mentally talk myself out of it with my evil perfectionism.
"Not attractive enough. I need a hair cut. Damn i should have worked out all week like i said i would. I need to do my nails. I have nothing to wear that's cute....etc.".

I don't ever know what i want and i'm never content.

I want it, get it, and then geek out.
Repeat with something new....
I'm getting so sick of it.

MistyRose
09-14-2011, 02:30 PM
I confess I want to kick my roommate in the ovaries now. I need to use the bathroom before getting on cam...and find out she's taking a half an hour shower, after which she proceeded to fugde around the kitchen for another 15 mins (so far), which means I still can't go to the bathroom because I have a full face of make up and stockings. So I lost an hour of work because she's hanging around. GTFO and to your room, woman!

4everresolutions
09-14-2011, 04:15 PM
^Inconsiderate Roommates are the worst!!!

MistyRose
09-14-2011, 04:55 PM
Haha, to be honest, she didn't exactly know I'm in full get up waiting to get nekkid for strangers... Still annoying! :D

whirlerz
09-14-2011, 05:59 PM
The CC area of this forum makes me facepalm hard with the sheer buffoonery that goes on there. If I had no evidence to the contrary, I'd believe most of the shit people say about cam girls. Just whiny, catty, and unbearably bitchy with no wits or business sense to justify most of it. I swear. Who cares what so and so is doing? And why are you here telling everybody and their lurking-ass mom what innovations you've undergone to bring in more money, hence spurring forth a flood of tag-a-longs? And then you get mad when your niche gets saturated? Site logistics are fine, that's practical because it's factual. But the bragging and ragging is nothing but a bunch of ill-conceived opinions and whack as shit.

I really do think the beginning to the end will start with some people getting some real self-esteem and accepting the reality of what this industry entails. We all have out insecurities and our bad days but how is whining or mudslinging putting cash in your pocket? Keep your feelings out of this if you're not going to take any action towards changing what you're dissatisfied with. Get your money and S-T-F-U.

Just had to get that off my chest.

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:
Luv this^!!!

kaiarose
09-14-2011, 09:25 PM
I can see everything on pink. EVERYTHING.....:-X

_Avery_
09-16-2011, 05:59 PM
I can see everything on pink. EVERYTHING.....:-X

????? :O

whirlerz
09-16-2011, 06:31 PM
I think she means the singer?

kaiarose
09-17-2011, 02:49 PM
Ooooh I'm being mysterious :P

4everresolutions
09-17-2011, 02:52 PM
I can see everything on pink. EVERYTHING.....:-X


..."Phenomenal cosmic powers! Itty bitty living space."

No idea why your statment reminded me of that, but....
:-\

tuesdaymarie
09-17-2011, 05:44 PM
First night tonight. Friends don't know; family doesn't know. So you, SW, shall know that I am scared shitless!

charlie61
09-17-2011, 06:09 PM
First night tonight. Friends don't know; family doesn't know. So you, SW, shall know that I am scared shitless!

Good luck!!!!

tuesdaymarie
09-18-2011, 01:23 AM
^^Thanks! I made it through, but I think I'm going to look for other clubs... This one refuses to let us leave before two at the earliest without written permission, drugs were everywhere, some manager tried to bitch me out/fine me for cigarette butts that weren't even mine, and we don't even get extra money if we get someone in VIP--they just pay the club and then think they don't have to tip unless you're fucking them. One guy got genuinely pissed whenever I said I wasn't going to fuck him and management didn't really see an issue. So, I'll call this try an "experience."

kitinboots
09-18-2011, 04:10 AM
My ex came round to mine to watch movies all night last night. When he left, he left his facebook signed in on my laptop so i had a snoop....not that I found anything interesting. Just that his more recent ex is being clingy.

Lea21
09-19-2011, 02:23 AM
i just started stripping and already i met this super sexy dude who ive been thinking about all nite..and day its like im anticipating work in hopes i see him there.i already told him i dont work OTC but secretly i wanted to take him up on his offer to lick me were only my BOYFRIEND should..the way he stared at me so sexy like i was so beatiful and sexy really got me to wanna break the rules already and have a wild sex thing with this guy..and the most fucked up thing about it all is that i dont even remeber his name..,just that he was the most suductive guy ive met and i want to fuck his brains out but have a boyfriend and daughter with my boyfriend who i love and supports me stripping..now to repay him ive been thinking about mrsexy all the time!

Lea21
09-19-2011, 02:58 AM
i secretly wish i could switch places with a really pretty girl with the perfect body and not plain old me!!

Mindy Bares All
09-19-2011, 01:07 PM
So, I'm quickly becoming obsessed with the Monster High Dolls, and their mini webisodes. XD

lokikola
09-19-2011, 04:29 PM
I said I wouldn't get breast implants while dancing because I didn't want my job to affect my decision to do this. But I made an appointment for a consultation at an office for next Friday. Nose and boobs. Someday, I'm gonna be real pretty.

kitinboots
09-20-2011, 02:26 PM
I just spent a small fortune Internet shopping.
3 new work dresses, 2 hoodies, 2 tshirts and 2 pairs skate shoes....
Oops!

Mindy Bares All
09-20-2011, 04:06 PM
I said I wouldn't get breast implants while dancing because I didn't want my job to affect my decision to do this. But I made an appointment for a consultation at an office for next Friday. Nose and boobs. Someday, I'm gonna be real pretty.

:-\

I'm sure you already are.

charlie61
09-20-2011, 04:51 PM
I just spent a small fortune Internet shopping.
3 new work dresses, 2 hoodies, 2 tshirts and 2 pairs skate shoes....
Oops!

Share links to work dresses! I wanna seee!!! :hyper:

_Avery_
09-20-2011, 06:54 PM
I confess:
I called into work today and used my kids as an excuse...said they're sick. :(
Feel bad for using my kids as an excuse, but realllly didn't wanna go to work and that was the first thing that popped in my head.
I was just way too angry to go in today.

and the reason I think I'm angry is because my husband's friend moved out here from Vegas...and he's staying with us. We've gotten into it before (FIGHTING) via FB...and he just bugs the fuck outta me. Says stupid shit...tries to hit on my friends...and then my husband works tomorrow and I'm forced to sit here with him all day.

I don't wanna talk to him. And he creeps me out...like I don't feel comfortable.
Can't even walk around in booty shorts or without a bra on in my own house because I'm not comfortable doing so in front of him.

and he really just pissed me off right now..I'm on here and he's all, "Oh, what's that?"
me - "it's a stripper site"....*stfu..don't talk to me*
"Oh, any of them hot?"
"Yeah, they're all hot"
scrolling down, trying to move my screen....
"Oh she had nice tits" - to kaia's avatar
"Yeah, she does" not looking up from the screen...getting up and going into the bedroom
him - "so what do you all talk about on there?"
"ABOUT HOW STUPID YOU MEN ARE!!!"

"OH, if it wasn't for us men, you all wouldn't have nothing...blah, blah,"

I'm in my room, biting my tounge...funny how he's the one sleeping in my son's bedroom because he has no place to go...OMGGGGG

I am taking my husband to work tomorrow and going to Milwaukee or something with the kids. I can not and will not be in this house all day with him forced to talk to him or look at him.

I'm completely fucking annoyed right now. Just told my husband and he said he's going to talk to him