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mediocrity
01-16-2012, 12:41 AM
So I have one guy I asked to come over passed out on my couch and the new FWB texting me wanting to come over, I chose poorly tonight.

Wake him up, kick him out and go see the new guy.

_Avery_
01-16-2012, 07:35 AM
/feeling emo

Jessie_tinydancer
01-16-2012, 02:27 PM
^ Not trying to be an ass but why can't you drive to go see them? I guess with work and the kids it would be very hard but if you made it your goal and set aside a little money each week into savings maybe it could happen?

_Avery_
01-16-2012, 05:47 PM
LOL, I wouldn't trust my truck making that cross country trip. :P
Maybe once my baby is a little older too, and we get a new car, then we can make it happen.
It would just be easier if they were able to visit here. MAYBE after income taxes....maybe. :(

Jessie_tinydancer
01-16-2012, 05:54 PM
^ Bummer :( Maybe you can help them come there... 3 years is too long

DesuvsDeath
01-17-2012, 01:34 AM
I intend to sexually harass my manager at work tomorrow for lulz.
Well. Really it's because he's hot.

But also because I think it'll be awkward and hilarious.

anouk.oui
01-17-2012, 08:37 AM
i want to stick his phone up his ass so he can actually feel it vibrate when i txt him
always gets my txts the next day n im like... im horny NOW?

kaiarose
01-17-2012, 09:56 AM
I hate spending money. I literally have panic attacks :( I'm soo happy to be going on my honeymoon (finally! A yr and a half later!) but it's going to cost around $3000 (hopefully less..lol) and I'm freaking the fuck out! I got all this money so I should be happy right?! Why have money if you can't spend some of it on something awesome, right?! Sigh..

Susan-Va
01-17-2012, 10:45 AM
Wake him up, kick him out and go see the new guy.

I would have but he's like my best friend and FWB. It figures cause I text the new guy Saturday night and he couldn't come over, had his kid. I'm on a mission to hook up with the new guy tonight!!!!

anouk.oui
01-18-2012, 09:28 AM
stumbled upon a thread on russian dancers in shop talk.
someone says they love eastern european girls because theyre usually not well off thus less likely to refuse p4p money... or something insinuating being happy about their misfortune so they make cheaper n more enthusiastic extras girls.

HE WILL SEE ME WITH A KNIFE OUTSIDE HIS WINDOW TONIGHT

sammii
01-19-2012, 04:40 AM
Fuck, I need to get out. I'm sick of my parents' nagging me about finding a job. I'm pretending that I'm going to an interview tomorrow, but I'm not. I'm too good for retail.

I wish I had the courage to tell my parents' that I'm moving out. I'm going to miss my mom and my puppy, but I can't webcam or film while living with them. I'm too paranoid.

LaurenAus
01-19-2012, 09:23 AM
^im in the same exact situation. I'm gonna dress up in work appropriate clothes and leave the house a few hours a week and pretend im going to work at my friends call center (that i made up) as my cover up. I also get nagged at to find a job everyday. She tells me to go back to finding work at restaurants--I'm too good for restaurants!! lol

sammii
01-20-2012, 04:15 AM
I'm with you, girl. It's a pain in the ass going to fake interviews and sending fake resumes to fake companies and working at a fake job. Especially when your parents are like mine and ask a lot of questions.

My boyfriends mom is the worst. She sounds like a broken record, "why don't you apply for Costco. I hear it's a great place to work." It's a great place to work? Seriously? Well, thanks for telling me for the hundredth time. I'm tempted to take her to Costco to ask the employees if they enjoy working there just to shut her up.

Susan-Va
01-24-2012, 01:14 AM
Horrible day,my best friend and FB found out today that his grandmother passed. He DJ's at another club in town, I went to see him when I got off work tonight to make sure he was OK cause he was drinking heavliy. He recently started hanging with a girl he works for who is aaliar and can't be trusted. She freaked out cause I stopped by ( no matter that I worked at this club for 8 years). I took his car keys cause he was way to dunk to dive and he got mad at me and went home with her.
Now I'm sitting her feeling like I've lsot him, realized my feelings for him too late. He's a great guy and I think I've driven him away. I swear my intentions were good, I was worried about my friend.
I think he hates me now and it breaks my heart.

Amareth
01-24-2012, 03:44 AM
I have a crush on a manager at work, been trying to ignore it and be professional but I swear he was text flirting with me today and I got all school-girl excited. I suck.

_Avery_
01-24-2012, 01:56 PM
I don't wanna work tonight.
I feel kinda jipped. Thought I was gonna do 2 days a week, but only doing Tuesday nights. The slowest night of the week.
How am I suppose to get better/faster if they don't throw me into "the fire"???

Then my birthday lands on a Tuesday, and I feel weird already asking someone to cover my shift, I asked 2 of the other girls and they can't. One girl left...I'm gonna be so fucking bummed if I have to work on my birthday. :/

glitzy
01-24-2012, 02:00 PM
i almost committed suicide this weekend. i played chicken with concrete walls near where i live. i looked at guns.
then i went out to the city just because i couldn't be alone even though i hate going out (especially SATURDAYS ew), had a friend of a friend so as not to drive intoxicated, and ended up 100 miles away from home stranded. hitchhiked. made it back.


my brain is not working right anymore. i am thinking about buying a plane ticket to india and just getting away from everything until april.

glitzy
01-24-2012, 02:01 PM
it also is scaring the shit out of me that being in the club is the closest thing i have to a home base at the moment and the place where i feel safest and most normal.

Susan-Va
01-24-2012, 04:27 PM
Then my birthday lands on a Tuesday, and I feel weird already asking someone to cover my shift, I asked 2 of the other girls and they can't. One girl left...I'm gonna be so fucking bummed if I have to work on my birthday. :/

I love working on my birthday! I tell everyone and I've always made killer money.

anouk.oui
01-24-2012, 07:14 PM
every going out weekend is a new excuse to buy dresses!

_Avery_
01-25-2012, 08:41 AM
I love working on my birthday! I tell everyone and I've always made killer money.

I don't mind working at the club on my birthday, but I'm still new at this bar, and it's sooooo dead on Tuesdays. :(
I'll see the 5 people that come in drinking, and I'll be bummed lol
At least at the club, I can drink there and treat it like a party. :D

kaiarose
01-25-2012, 02:18 PM
I STILL don't know how to multi-quote :/

LaurenAus
01-25-2012, 05:55 PM
i just ate two dogs from weinerschnitzel and i think im gaining weight

sananeko
01-25-2012, 06:31 PM
I STILL don't know how to multi-quote :/

It next to the reply with quote thing it looks like "+ in the bottom right corner.

kaiarose
01-25-2012, 06:40 PM
It next to the reply with quote thing it looks like "+ in the bottom right corner.

Then what?! Lol.. I'm a slow learner :P

_Avery_
01-25-2012, 06:47 PM
sdfadf

sananeko
01-25-2012, 06:50 PM
Then what?! Lol.. I'm a slow learner :P

no clue... I haven't found a use for it yet...

kaiarose
01-25-2012, 06:57 PM
Lol!! Well, goddamn it!

charlie61
01-25-2012, 09:02 PM
i almost committed suicide this weekend. i played chicken with concrete walls near where i live. i looked at guns.
then i went out to the city just because i couldn't be alone even though i hate going out (especially SATURDAYS ew), had a friend of a friend so as not to drive intoxicated, and ended up 100 miles away from home stranded. hitchhiked. made it back.


my brain is not working right anymore. i am thinking about buying a plane ticket to india and just getting away from everything until april.

I'm sorry. :grouphug:

anouk.oui
01-26-2012, 04:30 PM
forgive me lord for i may sin tonight :P

mediocrity
01-26-2012, 05:15 PM
I love that Avery said "alcoLOLS".

_Avery_
01-26-2012, 07:57 PM
I love that Avery said "alcoLOLS".

lmfao!
I didn't even notice that until now.
I guess needless to say, I was a little drunk when I typed that. :P

sammii
01-26-2012, 09:30 PM
Then what?! Lol.. I'm a slow learner :P
I'm a bad explainer, but click "quote +" for all the people you want to quote, then for the last person click "quote +" and "reply with quote."

Hope this made sense, lol.

kaiarose
01-27-2012, 03:12 PM
It next to the reply with quote thing it looks like "+ in the bottom right corner.


I'm a bad explainer, but click "quote +" for all the people you want to quote, then for the last person click "quote +" and "reply with quote."

Hope this made sense, lol.

Like this?!

kaiarose
01-27-2012, 03:13 PM
Yay!!!! Thanks Sammii!! :)

anouk.oui
01-28-2012, 04:02 AM
I dont know why i do this to myself. Like, everythi

Addison
01-28-2012, 07:37 AM
Went in to work a nice, easy dayshift... Got on the floor at noon, had two vodka/cranberries, 4 shots, and an entire bottle of champagne upstairs in VIP, all on an empty stomach. By 3 o'clock, I was passed out in the dressing room for the rest of the shift. I've never felt so stupid in my life smh I'm usually so much smarter than that... :(

GlamourRouge
01-28-2012, 11:10 AM
i almost committed suicide this weekend. i played chicken with concrete walls near where i live. i looked at guns.
then i went out to the city just because i couldn't be alone even though i hate going out (especially SATURDAYS ew), had a friend of a friend so as not to drive intoxicated, and ended up 100 miles away from home stranded. hitchhiked. made it back.



I'm sorry to read this. I've definitely had my far share of depression and anxiety in the past few years. If you ever want to grab lunch, send me a PM...I'd love to hang out with you.

Likewise & likewise. A threesome is always a possibility. No homo. Well, I mean I guess anything is possible, but that's not how I meant it...

Anastasia Foxx
01-28-2012, 12:05 PM
I'm exhausted and unmotivated and don't want to do ANYTHING today. I am tired of dealing with FMS every single effin day. wondering what part of my body am I going to be suffering with. It's ridiculous! I don't know what I've done to deserve this crap. And tomorrow night I have a gig hosting a dungeon at a nightclub here in town, so I have to be ready for that.

What made me really happy today is that my little sister sent me a handmade quilt! Just out of the blue! It's the best thing ever! I don't want to come out from under it, I am going to end up being like Linus in Peanuts, carrying it around with me every where!

Hope having a special blankie doesn't make me seem like a lesser Domme LOL

SativaBlue
01-28-2012, 12:15 PM
Ever since working as a Domme, the vanilla life is completely boring to me....I miss waking up every day not knowing if I would be piercing people for fun or ramming my arm up peoples bums as a days work......bah.......vanilla *shakes head*

kitinboots
01-29-2012, 05:30 AM
I'm unhappy working at my home club this year. I'll be leaving at the end of the Winter but until then I'm constantly tired, stressed, unhappy and grumpy. I take it out on my boyfriend and then get worried he's gonna leave me.

Kat w
01-30-2012, 01:15 PM
For the first time in six months I saw a guy I find attractive. I didn't strike up a conversation. I'm such a loser. Now I'm going to keep trying to find reasons to go back to that art supply store. I suck.

Miss_McKenna
01-31-2012, 12:17 AM
Everyone thinks I have this awesome glamorous life, and really I feel so down on myself for not being where I feel like I should be at this age :(

Kisca
01-31-2012, 04:39 AM
I think I am sick of stripping, either work at an high-end(stressful) club w/ lots of but rude clients, or stay at a low-key divey (dirty) club where money isnt great.. Either way Im sick of both, and sick of seeing strippers and assholes.

I rather focus on school 24/7.... and work only when needed. I cant wait till the end of Dec where my guy and I will be moving to his condo that will be ready by then. I wont be stressed with these unknown numbers and unstable pay, but I'll be rent free most of all, last thing I need is to drop out of school another time.

luscious sadie
01-31-2012, 05:06 AM
my regular broke up with me yesterday. I'm sadder than I think I should be but mostly because I'm sad that he feels the need to be so alone. It's like he's punishing himself. I understand that it's because he feels the need for self-preservation and I'm glad that he understands why severing is important. He knows that I will never feel the way that he does about me and knows that the only way that he can keep himself sane is by not seeing me in that context.

charlie61
01-31-2012, 08:57 PM
OCD sucks sometimes. I had this ingrown hair on my upper thigh, and I thought I could just flick it out of my skin with tweezers (so I could then shave it). Ten minutes later, still digging for said invisible hair. Did a bit of damage, too. Blah.

lopaw
01-31-2012, 09:10 PM
I'm getting just a wee bit too close to a dancer that I met last year. I feel like I'm on a runaway train that is going to jump the tracks and crash any minute.

mediocrity
01-31-2012, 09:36 PM
OCD sucks sometimes. I had this ingrown hair on my upper thigh, and I thought I could just flick it out of my skin with tweezers (so I could then shave it). Ten minutes later, still digging for said invisible hair. Did a bit of damage, too. Blah.

At least use sterile stuff so if you mangle yourself you don't risk infection. I've done it. I've also removed moles (easy but I don't recommend doing this). I don't have OCD though.

Jessie_tinydancer
02-01-2012, 02:01 AM
my regular broke up with me yesterday. I'm sadder than I think I should be but mostly because I'm sad that he feels the need to be so alone. It's like he's punishing himself. I understand that it's because he feels the need for self-preservation and I'm glad that he understands why severing is important. He knows that I will never feel the way that he does about me and knows that the only way that he can keep himself sane is by not seeing me in that context.

Bet he'll be back... the first time never sticks when they are in love :D

charlie61
02-01-2012, 07:58 PM
At least use sterile stuff so if you mangle yourself you don't risk infection. I've done it. I've also removed moles (easy but I don't recommend doing this). I don't have OCD though.

I don't do any of the normal stuff...no obsessive cleaning, checking, etc. I don't close doors five times or anything like that. I just have obsessive thoughts sometimes, and those occasionally manifest in compulsive actions (like picking acne or ingrown hairs). I've quit most of those habits, too, but they come back up when I'm particularly stressed.