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Eva Rose
04-02-2012, 05:51 AM
Had a threesome last night, not too sure how I feel about it. The girl was absolutely amazingly hot, but I really had a hard time getting into it because I had zero sexual attraction to her partner, that combined with the fact that he'd never been with another girl other than his girlfriend. Still glad I did it, she was amazing :)
(Please keep the details quiet Jessie! I know you know who it is!)

tempest666
04-02-2012, 08:38 PM
Ugh I think I'm up for FPA membership...I know my period is around the corner cause I had chips and salsa. I ate like a field hand and gobbled like a hog. :(

GlitterBexie
04-03-2012, 10:10 AM
I have no clue about hw to go about the next few weeks of my life.

He bought a house today, outright, at auction, he's excited about doing it up and moving into it. His parents have bought it and i have no input (cash or excitement) and im gutted. I know i should be happy, as it lookd to the outside "i just got bought a house!!" but its not mine. He wouldnt save up to add to the pot, and has had a house fall into his lap (sorry, i just made myself smirk with wicked witch of the west brain montage) with absolutely no hard work. Everything falls into his lap. He left uni, left the doors and got given a job doing photo editing and conning people into buying "modelling" photos. He has been doing this 8 weeks and now thinks he is a pillar of society because he has a day job and pays tax. He has made me choose between stripping and him because now i "should be a proper person, with a day job, stripping is easy/dirty money" it was fine when he was working the doors, it was fine when i was giving him money to pay rent and have his truck messed about with. Now its awful and he "cries himself to sleep" when im at work. I dont want a day job, i like stripping, i was happy. I didnt want to move into the house he has just bought but i thought because i had the safety net of the dancing money, i was going to be ok. He can be quite nasty and i know its going to get nasty when he comes home later and im quiet.

My friend has a room ready and waiting for me in a beautiful house, i can dance, live there and work on a new life if need be. Im worried and stressed and i know the next few weeks are going to be shit and i dont know how to go about it all, what to do, i love him but i really dont think this is what i want. But i dont know how to damage control. FML.

sananeko
04-03-2012, 10:24 AM
I have no clue about hw to go about the next few weeks of my life.

He bought a house today, outright, at auction, he's excited about doing it up and moving into it. His parents have bought it and i have no input (cash or excitement) and im gutted. I know i should be happy, as it lookd to the outside "i just got bought a house!!" but its not mine. He wouldnt save up to add to the pot, and has had a house fall into his lap (sorry, i just made myself smirk with wicked witch of the west brain montage) with absolutely no hard work. Everything falls into his lap. He left uni, left the doors and got given a job doing photo editing and conning people into buying "modelling" photos. He has been doing this 8 weeks and now thinks he is a pillar of society because he has a day job and pays tax. He has made me choose between stripping and him because now i "should be a proper person, with a day job, stripping is easy/dirty money" it was fine when he was working the doors, it was fine when i was giving him money to pay rent and have his truck messed about with. Now its awful and he "cries himself to sleep" when im at work. I dont want a day job, i like stripping, i was happy. I didnt want to move into the house he has just bought but i thought because i had the safety net of the dancing money, i was going to be ok. He can be quite nasty and i know its going to get nasty when he comes home later and im quiet.

My friend has a room ready and waiting for me in a beautiful house, i can dance, live there and work on a new life if need be. Im worried and stressed and i know the next few weeks are going to be shit and i dont know how to go about it all, what to do, i love him but i really dont think this is what i want. But i dont know how to damage control. FML.

I know how you feel. but you have to remember if he loves you, he has to love all of you. My ex get everything with little to no effort cause of his parents. they paid for everything and still do from what i hear. You want to dance cause it makes you happy, but it makes you worry about how he acts. You can't blame that on the stripping. You stop stripping for him, he will always act like that everytime he wants you to do something and you don't want to.

You love him but sometimes fear him.. How is that a healthy way to live?

I say move out. Have that friend with you when you tell him. There will always be damage but it will heal.

Kisca
04-03-2012, 10:55 AM
^ He seems like an asshole... Is this the same guy who slept with the whole town and you're still with him?

You can "quit" stripping for a bit and use him and then leave him, or move out ASAP. He's not going to change, and leeches off you when he has no money. If he is controlling now, wait till it gets further into the relationship. He was OK with you stripping and now since he got a "normal" job, he expects you to have one too? Low self-esteem and a lot of insecurities.

GlitterBexie
04-03-2012, 12:22 PM
You are both COMPLETELY right. He stopped sleeping around after we broke up last year, he broken his leg quite badly and i was the only one who would look after him. It was stupid (i was in the middle of a psychiatric evaluation at the time) but i did fall back in love with him and he seemed to change and have a complete personality overhaul. But now he is slipping back into his old ways. Not the sleeping around but the manipulation, and now im more clear headed, i can see it. I dont doubt that he loves me, but i know he loves me for how i WAS, meek, mild, stressed, worried etc. He doesnt like my "attitude" when im dancing. Im exactly the same, i just have confidence and stand up for myself now, it gives me cash and independance.

This is exactly my worry, if its going on the "you cant do this" list now, then what else is going to go on it in the future...you cant see youre friends who are strippers, you cant see youre friends (unless they are approved by him) you cant go out, i dont want children so we're not having them, you cant wear this etc...what next??

And theres no middle ground, there is never going to be a meet in the middle place, but because he would see it as "my fault" that we split up, it has always been "his fault" before now, i would be the evil bitch choosing stripping over him giving me a house, a life, etc, (this is his view, not mine.) all i can see if i stayed would be me being more and more trapped, with no job/shit job which payed nothing, no money, in a house that wasnt mine, with my savings ebbing away. I want to save, buy my own home, be in control of my own finances and life. His dad just left so i guess this is as good a time as any to have the conversation...

Im not telling him i already have a place to live etc, im sad cause i know im going to lose the dog aswell, its his dog, and short of kidnapping, i know im not going to be able to keep her.

Thank you for your continuing advice and support ladies, you are wonderful! xx

Electrum
04-03-2012, 02:51 PM
I have a confession to make! I'm falling in love with a guy who has a girlfriend :-\ I'll give a bit of a backstory because I would normally not fuck around with a taken guy at all, but here is my list of rationalizations lol.

First of all, I've never actually met this guy! I've known him for almost 10 years now all strictly online. I'm a gamer, so of course we met in Everquest and just kept on gaming together after Everquest became obsolete. I've gamed with his brother, mom, cousin, friends, and we've all talked and been interested in each others' lives for almost a decade. When I first met him I was 18 and quickly fell in love with him. Never actually decided to give it a try and go meet him, so after awhile we just stayed good friends.

Now it just so happens he moved very close to my best friend. I am going to go visit my best friend most likely over the summer, and I have a chance to finally meet this guy. I usually don't fall in love very quickly, but I can feel a lot of the old feelings coming up. Only thing is he has a fucking girlfriend! I told him I would absolutely not do anything with him when I come down there if he still has a girlfriend. I'm not willing to just be some "other" woman if I'm genuinely interested in dating a guy.

He supposedly agrees to this, but here comes the waiting part. We'll see if he really dumps her before I actually meet him. And I don't even care if we don't hit it off, I still really want to meet him, but I don't want any chance of me possibly enabling cheating. However, I'm probably a MAJOR hypocrit because I talk about sex with this guy all the time. I don't really cyber with him per se, but there have definitely been conversations about sex. He's seen my boobs once but that's only because he found me on here! Well and I do know what his penis looks like, but that might have happened when he was single. Might. But I don't count that really either since it was years ago and all I even remember is thinking it looked pretty nice size. So at least I know he doesn't have a tiny penis.

So yeah. I'm probably going to hell for this. Part of me acts like it's all fantasy anyway so what is the harm? It's just online fun. But I know once I meet him shit could get real quick, and I don't want other women around him once that happens! Maybe I'm delusional. It's not like I'm not looking elsewhere for boyfriends, I've just never met anyone from online (well romantically), so I think it just really excites me for some additional reason.

kaiarose
04-04-2012, 01:31 PM
Happy one year anniversary Boobies!!! I can't believe it's been a whole year... crazay!

Miss_McKenna
04-04-2012, 05:11 PM
I always decide that I need to lose weight, so I tell myself I'm going on a diet and all that stuff. Then I forget and don't remember I was supposed to be on a diet until I'm half way through a bag of cookies :(

And I think I have some kind of sugar addiction. My roommate challenged me to give up junk food for a week and in less than a day, I was reaching for candy and she was like "seriously, you can't even last a day??" and the sad thing was... I really couldn't :(

GlitterBexie
04-04-2012, 05:13 PM
^^^ i live off sugar, i have to actively stop myself from just easting sugary shit half the time. Im like a child, i love sweets :S "Sugar Anonymous" anyone??....wait, that sounds like a strip club as opposed to a kick the habit club...

DesuvsDeath
04-04-2012, 08:10 PM
Last night I very drunkenly hooked up with this cute, younger Ashton Kutcher(sp??) Looking boy... as he was dropping me off today I only just now remembered that I put my tongue in his ass and he loved it.
Bahahahaha

GlitterBexie
04-04-2012, 08:31 PM
i only miss him cause it feels different now.

mediocrity
04-04-2012, 08:43 PM
Sometimes I wish I had a super ditzy friend for entertainment value.

charlie61
04-04-2012, 08:49 PM
^ They're good in theory. In practice... O_o

Kellydancer
04-04-2012, 09:18 PM
I had a ditzy bimbo friend who did drugs and trust me it's not all that fun. She would drive me nuts with her stupidity.

anouk.oui
04-05-2012, 05:38 AM
fuckdoll gets back from touring in the states tonight and i kinda wanna punch him in the face

Su Su
04-05-2012, 07:43 AM
I just stalked my teachers through facebook and google out of boredem. I feel like a creep.

strippername
04-05-2012, 12:50 PM
Every time I get drunk I feel ridiculously depressed the next day. :( I guess it's time to stop.

_Avery_
04-05-2012, 06:13 PM
I'm good. :D

charlie61
04-05-2012, 06:40 PM
^ Dude...I've seen the pics you've posted recently, and you seriously have nothing to change. You're thin in all of the right places without looking like a walking stick. SERIOUSLY.

_Avery_
04-05-2012, 06:46 PM
Thank you, that means a lot.
I've been pretty okay with myself lately, then those stupid sites, and then I'll start looking at pre baby body pics....but considering I've had TWO kids, I'm okay. :)

Thank you. <3 <3

Electrum
04-06-2012, 01:08 PM
My confession right now is that I have a fuck buddy who is extremely hung over in my bed right now. And I just wish he'd leave already lol!!!

anouk.oui
04-07-2012, 08:43 PM
i fucked this really hot guy in fuckdolls bed and made sure he saw him leave! so fuckin happy right now!
fucker deserved wat he got

Jessie_tinydancer
04-09-2012, 01:59 AM
I feel jealous when I hear my friends are pregnant. I dont really know why. Im not in a position to be a mom... but I'm turning 30 in a couple months and starting to fear it will never be my turn. I refuse to bring a child into this world without a stable home and income... but how many more years is it going to take to build that? I guess if Im old by the time I get it together.. adoption might be an option.

Miss_McKenna
04-09-2012, 06:29 AM
^^ That's SO me, I could have written it myself

anouk.oui
04-09-2012, 06:50 AM
i cant go a day without my rock of love box set. i cant helf it its addictive! strippers hustling a rockstar! my life in a nutshell!

charlie61
04-09-2012, 05:52 PM
i cant go a day without my rock of love box set. i cant helf it its addictive! strippers hustling a rockstar! my life in a nutshell!

WANT. Where did you find it? I don't see it on Amazon... Or did you just buy all of the seasons individually? I love trash TV.

Spinnerette
04-09-2012, 07:04 PM
On my way to making peace with reality, but that just accents my nihilism. The only reason I'm not face deep in a pie right now is because I have lovely lovely music pumping into my ears. I can't believe I'm an emotional eater now. Blah.

Also, having a bit of a smirk window shopping for new toys/costumes for cams which lifts the gloom a bit and makes getting up for the gym an incentive. This job isn't supposed to be glamorous, but I'd be lying if I said I don't like getting dressed up. :)

Spinnerette
04-09-2012, 07:11 PM
P.S. (some actual confessions)

- I'm just a tad jelly of Miley Cyrus's build. Her abs are so fucking flat! WTH?

- I really hate thongs. My labia don't like them either. Boy shorts for life.

Kisca
04-09-2012, 08:45 PM
Dont be ^ Shes 19 thats why.

sammii
04-10-2012, 12:51 AM
My boyfriend acts like Coco from Ice Loves Coco is the best thing since sliced bread. He's like "Wow, Ice really hit the jackpot" and "Her body is so sexy. I wonder if she's been in Playboy."
Okay, now lets talk about how hot I am, because I'm never going to look like a blonde big ass barbie and his obsession about how hot she is makes me feel bad.

/is kind of jealous.

Edit: Okay, I'm not mad at him anymore.
Him: You'd look good in this dress.
Me: I'm too fat.
Him: You're not fat. You're beautiful.
I just remembered what boyfriends are for. To tell you that you don't look fat when you feel fat, lol.

anouk.oui
04-10-2012, 01:00 AM
WANT. Where did you find it? I don't see it on Amazon... Or did you just buy all of the seasons individually? I love trash TV.

addictive! so addictive...
i just walked into JBHIFI and bought the box set.... i dont know if you can order it from australia but i gots mine here
its lords of dogtown i cant find anywhere and its making me angry!
i dont like internet shopping. id rather physically walk into a store. im weird like that.

aussiebelle
04-10-2012, 06:14 AM
I can't stop watching YouTube videos of Felix Cane. That girl is amazing. I'm in love.

_Avery_
04-10-2012, 10:16 AM
Sometimes I don't know why I log in here.
It's not the same as it use to be.
I have made a lot of really great friends on here, but I feel like the topics are repetitive and (no offense, and nothing personal to any members), but I feel like camming connection has taken over SW.

Whenever I log in, all the new topics are in camming connection....

I realize I'm being no help by not doing anything or creating any new topics...so I really have no right to complain. It's a free site, and I still enjoy the picture threads and once in awhile, a good topic will pop up and a good conversation will happen, but it's not the same as it once was.

Spinnerette
04-10-2012, 11:50 AM
Dont be ^ Shes 19 thats why.

*whine* when I was 19, I was a straight up and down rail and STILL had a pooch. *pouts*

charlie61
04-10-2012, 04:37 PM
Sometimes I don't know why I log in here.
It's not the same as it use to be.
I have made a lot of really great friends on here, but I feel like the topics are repetitive and (no offense, and nothing personal to any members), but I feel like camming connection has taken over SW.

Whenever I log in, all the new topics are in camming connection....

I realize I'm being no help by not doing anything or creating any new topics...so I really have no right to complain. It's a free site, and I still enjoy the picture threads and once in awhile, a good topic will pop up and a good conversation will happen, but it's not the same as it once was.

I think once you've been in this business long enough and you've read a million threads about stripping, it's hard to find stuff that you don't already know or haven't already heard.

I think it also is a bit different when you're out of the biz. If you aren't checking for reviews of clubs, finding new outfits, etc...then you really have nothing to 'get' from any new threads that are started. So the site becomes more boring.

I would agree that the site has a greater camming presence than in the past...I think you're also seeing this because many women who have stripped before are moving to camming as stripping becomes more risky / dirty / not fun.

:)

sammii
04-10-2012, 10:56 PM
WTF coco?? That's like...the last person to be jealous of. Sammii, do you REALLY want to look like Coco? Because I sure as hell don't. Boyfriends are so retarded, I swear my bf does the same thing and I have to remind him on how to act. One time while we were having sex he said something along the lines of "I love your fat ass" and I almost cried. He thought it was a compliment...because he loves curvy butts I guess. ugh. I swear boyfriends can be so stupid and not realize it at all!
I know, I really don't want to look like her. I think I'm much prettier. But my boyfriend talks about her like she's the hottest woman on the planet, then when I get pissed he'll say "but you're hotter" (yeah, okay. Nice save). I can't help being jealous when he talks about her all the time, even though I don't think she's attractive at all.

My boyfriend says the same stupid things. When I was talking about losing weight he said "but I don't want you to lose your wide hips and your Coco booty" which he thought was a compliment too, but I was like "um, please don't tell me my ass looks like hers ... I know I gained weight, but my ass isn't that huge. And wide hips, wtf?" He doesn't even realize he's said something stupid until I get upset.

sananeko
04-11-2012, 01:58 PM
I'm thinking of getting a pair of those ballet heels.. I'm missing having some but I can't decide on a type.. I want a pair that is strong enough for me to walk in..

I also want to watch felix the cat...

Nicc
04-11-2012, 02:06 PM
I feel jealous when I hear my friends are pregnant. I dont really know why. Im not in a position to be a mom... but I'm turning 30 in a couple months and starting to fear it will never be my turn. I refuse to bring a child into this world without a stable home and income... but how many more years is it going to take to build that? I guess if Im old by the time I get it together.. adoption might be an option.


I feel ya on this one! Its not gonna happen in the next 5 years, at the least. That'll put me at 34.. And who knows what the future really holds. Adoption or stepmom, that is the plan that I've been considering. I want one, but I can't be a mom with my life as it is now. I have too many pots on the stove waiting to boil over into my future for me to have a child now.

Kellydancer
04-12-2012, 12:48 AM
I feel ya on this one! Its not gonna happen in the next 5 years, at the least. That'll put me at 34.. And who knows what the future really holds. Adoption or stepmom, that is the plan that I've been considering. I want one, but I can't be a mom with my life as it is now. I have too many pots on the stove waiting to boil over into my future for me to have a child now.

I can relate big time and I fear it. I am 41 and put my dating and baby plans on hold to build a career and you know what? I don't care about the career anymore. So now I am concentrating on finding a husband and having a baby before the clock shuts off forever. Granted the clock could already shut down or be close to shutting down or was never working to begin with and that is scary. One thing that woman aren't told is that if they put their ahead of everything else they will often become very bitter and you know those high powered career women? many of them regret never having kids. I know because I have talked to them. Talked to men too like a former coworker who regrets never being a husband and father. At least I may still have a few years left but if I waited longer I may not. Adoption though is an option. I know though when I get older and if I am still childless and single I will regret that more than not becoming CEO. I do get comfort in the fact I know many women including family members who had babies even older than me.

mediocrity
04-12-2012, 01:17 AM
I can relate big time and I fear it. I am 41 and put my dating and baby plans on hold to build a career and you know what? I don't care about the career anymore. So now I am concentrating on finding a husband and having a baby before the clock shuts off forever. Granted the clock could already shut down or be close to shutting down or was never working to begin with and that is scary. One thing that woman aren't told is that if they put their ahead of everything else they will often become very bitter and you know those high powered career women? many of them regret never having kids. I know because I have talked to them. Talked to men too like a former coworker who regrets never being a husband and father. At least I may still have a few years left but if I waited longer I may not. Adoption though is an option. I know though when I get older and if I am still childless and single I will regret that more than not becoming CEO. I do get comfort in the fact I know many women including family members who had babies even older than me.

Not to scare you or anything, but get your AMH checked. I'm 29, and I was going to donate eggs six weeks ago.. only to find out my AMH now is 1.4 . They won't take eggs unless your AMH is 3 or above. AMH relates to ovarian reserve aka how many eggs you have left. I don't want kids so I was pretty thrilled I had low fertility, but you may want to get that checked out now. I've been pregnant twice in the past whilst on BC (at 20 and 21) so this is a relatively new development and not something that I've always had. Mine was measured in ng/mL.

Here's a chart for reference:

Ovarian Fertility Potential pmol/L , ng/mL

Optimal Fertility 28.6 - 48.5, 4.0 - 6.8
Satisfactory Fertility 15.7 - 28.6 , 2.2 - 4.0
Low Fertility 2.2 - 15.7, 0.3 - 2.2
Very Low / undetectable 0.0 - 2.2, 0.0 - 0.3
High Level > 48.5 , >6.8

anouk.oui
04-12-2012, 04:22 AM
i havent had sex this often when i was in a relationship........ just fucked the hottest male model last night. i still cant believe all the severely crazy attractive guys ive been pulling of late!! he leaves for new york in a week though, see if i can dive back into getting me some of saturday nights drummer booty :P

i love being a whore

kaiarose
04-12-2012, 06:59 AM
Lately I've been coming to the conclusion that I'm a much better person without him. He doesn't seem to bring out the best in me. In fact, he brings out the worst. I'm a better mom when he's not around. I enjoy taking care of the house when he's not around. And my wallet is heavier when he's not around. But I love him and he's the father of my child and my husband :/

_Avery_
04-12-2012, 08:02 AM
One of my best friends is getting boobs today.
I should be happy for her, but I'm just fucking jealous.
I don't even want to hear about boobs jobs anymore...and honestly, just want to block all statuses and threads involving everyone's boob jobs.
(kinda hard to do that though when I first have to SEE what I need to block) :/

It's something I've ALWAYS wanted, but it will never happen...and I sometimes just cry about it because I'm that much of a fucking, jealous, insecure, baby. :*(

kaiarose
04-12-2012, 10:50 AM
^ I felt the exact same way when "A" was going to get hers done. That's most of the reason that I went and got mine done. I knew that my jealousy was going to overtake our friendship and that I was just going to be a spiteful bitch towards her because of it. Then I got lucky and one of my regs decided to buy them for me. I still owe him $3500 and I completely ignore him when he comes in the club now :/ Maybe I am a cold hearted bitch like some people say... Anyway, I can understand your frustration. Although if I wasn't dancing and she got them, I don't think I'd be as upset as I was. My issue was competing with her. So why are you so upset? Does J want you to get them?? Does he make mean comments?

Kellydancer
04-12-2012, 11:06 AM
Not to scare you or anything, but get your AMH checked. I'm 29, and I was going to donate eggs six weeks ago.. only to find out my AMH now is 1.4 . They won't take eggs unless your AMH is 3 or above. AMH relates to ovarian reserve aka how many eggs you have left. I don't want kids so I was pretty thrilled I had low fertility, but you may want to get that checked out now. I've been pregnant twice in the past whilst on BC (at 20 and 21) so this is a relatively new development and not something that I've always had. Mine was measured in ng/mL.

Here's a chart for reference:

Ovarian Fertility Potential pmol/L , ng/mL

Optimal Fertility 28.6 - 48.5, 4.0 - 6.8
Satisfactory Fertility 15.7 - 28.6 , 2.2 - 4.0
Low Fertility 2.2 - 15.7, 0.3 - 2.2
Very Low / undetectable 0.0 - 2.2, 0.0 - 0.3
High Level > 48.5 , >6.8

Thanks for the info. Oddly, I was going to check into it because yes if I have low to no fertility it might affect things. I know if by chance I am unable to conceive adoption is fine or maybe even being a foster parent. I know I did get checked for something like this a few years ago and the doctor told me that I had high fertility for my age (and late babies run in the family)but a few years makes a difference.

_Avery_
04-12-2012, 02:34 PM
^ I felt the exact same way when "A" was going to get hers done. That's most of the reason that I went and got mine done. I knew that my jealousy was going to overtake our friendship and that I was just going to be a spiteful bitch towards her because of it. Then I got lucky and one of my regs decided to buy them for me. I still owe him $3500 and I completely ignore him when he comes in the club now :/ Maybe I am a cold hearted bitch like some people say... Anyway, I can understand your frustration. Although if I wasn't dancing and she got them, I don't think I'd be as upset as I was. My issue was competing with her. So why are you so upset? Does J want you to get them?? Does he make mean comments?


I just seriously want them for me. To feel better about myself.
I think bigger boobs would make me a lot more proportioned.
Jay actually loves my small boobs. (Even though he LOVES big boobs and is a 'boob man') he has never, ever said anything negative about mine.
It's just all in my head. I think if I had bigger boobs, then he'd secretly be happier..and it's paranoia lol
But yeah, it's just really something I've always wanted.

I re read my diary's back from when I was 13 and I would "pray to God" (apparently I believed in God at that age..lol) for boobs. It sounds funny typing it, but it's really kind of sad lol.
Ever since some kid made some rude comment to me back in fucking middle school, it's always been stuck in my head that I NEED bigger boobs.

So if I ever did get them, it would totally just be for me and my own self esteem. :)

Until then, I got my $15 Wal Mart bra adding 2 cup sizes lmao . :P

missjzone
04-12-2012, 07:42 PM
So true. Sad that it takes years for us to realize this


I can relate big time and I fear it. I am 41 and put my dating and baby plans on hold to build a career and you know what? I don't care about the career anymore. So now I am concentrating on finding a husband and having a baby before the clock shuts off forever. Granted the clock could already shut down or be close to shutting down or was never working to begin with and that is scary. One thing that woman aren't told is that if they put their ahead of everything else they will often become very bitter and you know those high powered career women? many of them regret never having kids. I know because I have talked to them. Talked to men too like a former coworker who regrets never being a husband and father. At least I may still have a few years left but if I waited longer I may not. Adoption though is an option. I know though when I get older and if I am still childless and single I will regret that more than not becoming CEO. I do get comfort in the fact I know many women including family members who had babies even older than me.

BellaK
04-12-2012, 11:31 PM
One of my best friends is getting boobs today.
I should be happy for her, but I'm just fucking jealous.
I don't even want to hear about boobs jobs anymore...and honestly, just want to block all statuses and threads involving everyone's boob jobs.
(kinda hard to do that though when I first have to SEE what I need to block) :/

It's something I've ALWAYS wanted, but it will never happen...and I sometimes just cry about it because I'm that much of a fucking, jealous, insecure, baby. :*(

UH! I totally feel ya! I feel the same way, only the opposite. I want a bigger, firmer butt! I have got the boobs....I NEED MORE BOOTAY!
You are also right in regards to it being in our friggin heads.....the man I am dealing with thinks I am totally curvy and loves my figure, BUT I STILL WANT BOOTY! LOL.And it seems all these girls are getting butt shots and stuff for low, but its illegal and Im scared Ill be the one to die or something from it.Look If you have some BUTT to share, Ill share some BOOBIES OKAY?! Wouldnt that be nice. lol ranting now. Like I said....I FEEL YOU GIRLY. OH and Im in WI too! :)

Jessie_tinydancer
04-13-2012, 11:55 AM
One of my best friends is getting boobs today.
I should be happy for her, but I'm just fucking jealous.
I don't even want to hear about boobs jobs anymore...and honestly, just want to block all statuses and threads involving everyone's boob jobs.
(kinda hard to do that though when I first have to SEE what I need to block) :/

It's something I've ALWAYS wanted, but it will never happen...and I sometimes just cry about it because I'm that much of a fucking, jealous, insecure, baby. :*(

Why never??? You can do it lady!! How much are boobies in the states anyway? pretty cheap ya? Less than $7K? Save $50/week and their yours in 1.5-2.5 years. Or just get someone else to pay for em :D