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Kellydancer
04-13-2012, 11:56 AM
So true. Sad that it takes years for us to realize this
It really is and what we are being left with are women who scurry to have kids before the clock ends (like me)or women who don't have kids in time and are left childless. Then of course the women having kids early aren't usually the overly ambitious ones and often the uneducated and we wll end up in a situation where there are more uneducated people than anything else. The ambitious women are told to work on a career over everything else then they realize there is more to life but so many realize it too late. The bitter 50something unmarried career women we see are often women who resent putting their career above everything else and paid the price. Not to mention that we still don't live in an equal society where women have great careers and families. Yes some manage to have all of that, but all too often women have to make a choice between a family and a career. The corporate world is very anti mothers and if women want to get ahead they have to postpone having families. That is if they get that chance as that world is very anti women in general and women find themselves dealing with severe sexism. Not to mention many men still expect to be the breadwinner or at least co breadwinner and they often don't want to date women who make more. This is why women can be unemployed and find husbands but unemployed men are not considered husband material.
I never gave much of this thought until the last few years. I wish I had realized all of this years ago. Obviously not talking about the women who don't want kids, but the ones who do and repressed the desire.
_Avery_
04-13-2012, 12:02 PM
Why never??? You can do it lady!! How much are boobies in the states anyway? pretty cheap ya? Less than $7K? Save $50/week and their yours in 1.5-2.5 years. Or just get someone else to pay for em :D
Maybe if I win the lottery :D
but even if we had the extra $5000 or so, I would just feel selfish. I'd rather make sure my kids have everything THEY could ever want and everything they need.
I'll put my dreams/wants on the back burner until I either win the lottery or until they're 18!! lol :P
Jessie_tinydancer
04-13-2012, 12:15 PM
^fair enough... Im not a mommy so I didnt think of that :D But still... someone could buy them for you... you never know!!
kaiarose
04-13-2012, 01:15 PM
Maybe if I win the lottery :D
but even if we had the extra $5000 or so, I would just feel selfish. I'd rather make sure my kids have everything THEY could ever want and everything they need.
I'll put my dreams/wants on the back burner until I either win the lottery or until they're 18!! lol :P
Too bad my surgeon doesn't do the whole recommendation thing. I've sent 3 people, yes 3, to him in the last year!! He owes me. You should get a free boob job because of me! LOL
I also want to add that you do alot, more than enough for your kids. You deserve something too <3
Natalllia
04-13-2012, 06:19 PM
I feel ya on this one! Its not gonna happen in the next 5 years, at the least. That'll put me at 34.. And who knows what the future really holds. Adoption or stepmom, that is the plan that I've been considering. I want one, but I can't be a mom with my life as it is now. I have too many pots on the stove waiting to boil over into my future for me to have a child now.
Yeah, I've been saying that 5 years thing for the last 5 years or so, lol. I'm still saying, but with the modification that I need to decide whether or not I'm going to have kids by the time I hit forty - which is not that far past my current 5-year time frame.
michele11
04-14-2012, 02:43 AM
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glitzy
04-14-2012, 03:06 AM
I ate shrooms at work, tripped hard, and had to leave. So not like me but it was one of those days!!!
mediocrity
04-14-2012, 03:10 AM
I ate shrooms at work, tripped hard, and had to leave. So not like me but it was one of those days!!!
That must have been fun! How the hell did you drive home?
glitzy
04-14-2012, 04:01 AM
Taxi^^
I definitely was not cool to drive! But now I gotta get a ride back to my car...
_natasha
04-14-2012, 04:46 AM
I fucking love Taylor Swift...
kaiarose
04-14-2012, 09:37 AM
I ate shrooms at work, tripped hard, and had to leave. So not like me but it was one of those days!!!
OMG, I did that at work once. Ended up laughing so hard I peed on a customer's leg. (Thank god he was a local regular) Then I went onstage and some dude was laughing and his mouth was huge!!! Like he laughed and his jaw was touching his damn chest! LOL.. I'm very visual on shrooms so I saw alot of fucked up shit. Then I drove home and I took back roads to get home. The trees were hanging down into the road like little archways and the roads were extra curvy. One of the stupidest things I ever did was drive home that night :/
glitzy
04-14-2012, 02:55 PM
^^^ bwahahaaha thats how I felt onstage too! I was tripping off people's faces and how animated everyone was. I felt like I was in a fucked up mixture of AbFab meets a cartoon.
If I would've had it together a little more I should have told peeps I was on shrooms and tried to sells dances that way. If I was in a strip club and a girl told me that I would totally get a dance just for the lulz.
sammii
04-15-2012, 02:11 AM
OMG, I did that at work once. Ended up laughing so hard I peed on a customer's leg. (Thank god he was a local regular) Then I went onstage and some dude was laughing and his mouth was huge!!! Like he laughed and his jaw was touching his damn chest!
Lmao, omg, it sounds a million times better than weed.
I've heard a lot horror stories from people who have had bad trips while on shrooms so I'm too chicken to try it, but it's hilarious to hear peoples' stories.
Miss_McKenna
04-15-2012, 02:32 AM
I got totes drunk tonigt on champagen and my long-time regular told me he was in love with me, thoughjt i was his soulmate ad that he is going to leave his wfie for me. And I can't remember what I said... on account fo the champagen. I seriously hope I didn't encoutage it, omg.
And I went to mc donalds drive-thru and I got stuck behind a freaking hummer limo, way to order all the food people!!!! Ad I got a bunch of food but I just ate it all and I wish I'd got more hash-browns :'-( I wanna go back out for more food but that is probably a baddd idea
Miss_McKenna
04-15-2012, 02:53 AM
^^ I am soooo going to drink the shit out of my sprite rifght now!!!!
Also I'm watching some show on Aniaml Planet that's a bit like fear factor and so I had to message my sister and let her know that i'd never set her up for any crazy scary on-camera situations. Except it came out more liek "hey K whats up fyi if there's 5ft spiders its not coz of me cso if that happens you should be like hmm this was not mckenna's doing". In the morning I eed to explain it to her lol
anouk.oui
04-15-2012, 03:07 AM
sometimes i feel i love one of my brothers more than the other one. i cant help it, hes 14 yrs younger than me and i was always more of a second mummey for him than a sister. i doubt i even want kids of my own. i wanna love him and spend time with him but he annoys the shit out of me!
charlie61
04-15-2012, 07:38 AM
Lmao, omg, it sounds a million times better than weed.
I've heard a lot horror stories from people who have had bad trips while on shrooms so I'm too chicken to try it, but it's hilarious to hear peoples' stories.
Yeah, it's the only drug aside from alcohol I've ever tried...one of the worst experiences of my life. I was majorly looking forward to it, I was with people I trusted / loved...
I want to try it again in the future, but in a different situation. Maybe alone or something. You ladies have balls for doing it in the club...I think I'd freak the fuck out!
anouk.oui
04-16-2012, 08:53 PM
i picked an arguement with my stepdad this morning. hes a fucking loser who makes my mother depressed, doesnt look after his son and since he cant hold down a job we are constantly on the edge of our money. i went grocery shopping everyday this week and everyday i open the fridge its empty again!! and its stressing me out!
i dnt regret picking fights
i just dont wanna explain to my mum what happened
it would just make her sad
i think ill just go grocery shopping again...
kaiarose
04-18-2012, 10:32 AM
Yeah, it's the only drug aside from alcohol I've ever tried...one of the worst experiences of my life. I was majorly looking forward to it, I was with people I trusted / loved...
I want to try it again in the future, but in a different situation. Maybe alone or something. You ladies have balls for doing it in the club...I think I'd freak the fuck out!
Omg, don't do it alone! Maybe try doing it during the day (night time is so scawey :/ ) with one or two other people you really trust and can have a good laugh with. Besides the visuals, the main point of shrooms is to laugh your ass off!
Elektra Luxx
04-18-2012, 12:32 PM
i watch "Victorious" on Nickelodeon with my little brother and sister and i laugh more than they do. and i think i have a crush on Jade.
kaiarose
04-18-2012, 12:35 PM
^ LOL.. I looove I <3 Carly :-/
charlie61
04-18-2012, 07:21 PM
Omg, don't do it alone! Maybe try doing it during the day (night time is so scawey :/ ) with one or two other people you really trust and can have a good laugh with. Besides the visuals, the main point of shrooms is to laugh your ass off!
Good advice. I think I just have an intense, deep-seated fear of drugs that keeps me from enjoying them. The whole experience just felt very juvenile and silly, but in a bad way. I kicked my friend out because I couldn't stand him while I was tripping. I didn't want to look at my partner because I was afraid he'd look different, or that I'd look different to him. My cats were freaking out because they could tell something was wrong. I ended up bawling in my SO's lap with my eyes closed. Then I took a couple of Xanax my friend gave me to help me come down off of it quickly. I was losing my shit.
Kisca
04-18-2012, 08:53 PM
I had a great vacation with my boyfriend, but he's leaving for 4 days for work next week and I feel getting really depressed being home alone with the dogs. I dont want him gone.
Whether its being back in reality and going to work but I cant stress to think about it, stripping is really ripping me apart mentally. I cant wait till Sept to start fulltime school. The thought of him leaving is making me almost panic attack.. He supports me so well about work when I distress. The thing is I dont like him seeing me weak because he deals with enough stress at work that I feel selfish bitching to him about it.
mediocrity
04-19-2012, 12:34 AM
Good advice. I think I just have an intense, deep-seated fear of drugs that keeps me from enjoying them. The whole experience just felt very juvenile and silly, but in a bad way. I kicked my friend out because I couldn't stand him while I was tripping. I didn't want to look at my partner because I was afraid he'd look different, or that I'd look different to him. My cats were freaking out because they could tell something was wrong. I ended up bawling in my SO's lap with my eyes closed. Then I took a couple of Xanax my friend gave me to help me come down off of it quickly. I was losing my shit.
I used to be scared of drugs too, but not really of drugs more of causing myself permanent damage. It's something you have to want to do, not something to be coerced into. I've never taken shrooms, but my husband tripped every day for three months in high school (yep, you read that right) and a ton of times in his 20s so I've compiled a lot of knowledge on the subject. It sounds like you may have taken too many combined with not really WANTING to do it.
mediocrity
04-19-2012, 12:37 AM
I spent three hours on Skype with some of my favourite people and I still don't want to clean my house. I really need to get back on medication. My procrastination, time management skills and hyperfocus are at an all time high. I even annoy myself.
charlie61
04-19-2012, 05:36 AM
I used to be scared of drugs too, but not really of drugs more of causing myself permanent damage. It's something you have to want to do, not something to be coerced into. I've never taken shrooms, but my husband tripped every day for three months in high school (yep, you read that right) and a ton of times in his 20s so I've compiled a lot of knowledge on the subject. It sounds like you may have taken too many combined with not really WANTING to do it.
It's weird, b/c I felt like I was super excited to do it. I was in a silly mood and having a lot of fun that night... But maybe my inner brain just wasn't into it. I've watched way too many Intervention shows! Haha. And I know shrooms aren't like that, but it's something I've conditioned myself to fear.
sammii
04-19-2012, 06:25 AM
Me: *baby-talking to my dog* You're the nicest girl I know. You're my best friend in the whole world.
Sister: That's really sad.
Me: ... *continues talking with dog*
You know you're a loner/loser when your dog is your best friend ... and your 7 year old sister says "you need a life," lol.
anouk.oui
04-19-2012, 09:26 AM
^^ funny i was just telling facebook my cat is my number one man lol
on a different note, im still missing my ex. i havent thought of it since december when i broke up with him coz i was too busy being caught up with the whole fuckdoll and label launch things. now i cant stop thinking bout him non stop. maybe coz i got thrown all these curveball really really feminine type guys for me to fuck it makes me appreciate a real man??
Jessie_tinydancer
04-19-2012, 10:14 AM
Me: *baby-talking to my dog* You're the nicest girl I know. You're my best friend in the whole world.
Sister: That's really sad.
Me: ... *continues talking with dog*
You know you're a loner/loser when your dog is your best friend ... and your 7 year old sister says "you need a life," lol.
I totally disagree.. the only "person" who will always love you unconditionally is a pet. I tell my "bubbies" I love them about 8000x times/ day. I hope they understand...
luscious sadie
04-19-2012, 01:14 PM
I've slapped two guys at work recently. The first guy really deserved it, the second guy just pissed me off and disrespected me. The first guy said "can I cum in your mouth" and it was funny. The second guy just started getting in my face and giving me attitude. Even though he was being a dick (and probably smacks around his girlfriend... serious impression I got from him) I really shouldn't have slapped him.
I'm seeing a therapist on Monday to help me deal with some of my feelings. I feel anxiety, depression, and anger all at the same time. I've been smoking pot recently, as well, in an attempt to stop from wanting to do drugs. I truly miss doing them. I miss going on binges (ketamine... not coke or crack or meth). I miss traveling and being on my own and not having a super square boyfriend. I want to feel like I can do drugs every day responsibly and not have to answer to someone. I want to be able to be me (which means do whatever I want and not answer to anyone) but I feel soo smothered by my man sometimes. And it's not that he does it on purpose. He's just SO SQUARE. He grew up in a small town way further north than Toronto. He hasn't been exposed to a fraction of the things that I have been and because of that, he pre-judges some shit in a shitty way. Everything is soooo dramatic and such a big deal, too. It's frustrating for me to be like. I want to start smoking again. And him to be like "you were a smoker when we met so I couldn't say anything but I can now I don't want you to smoke".
first of all, you don't tell me what to do. Secondly, smoking keeps me from wanting to HIT HARD DRUGS so really I think it's okay - especially since I don't smoke THAT MUCH (less than 1/2 a pack a day).
I just feel so trapped sometimes.
sananeko
04-19-2012, 04:30 PM
I'm using wax strips for the first time.. I don't mind it but going to have to see if they last longer than shaving.
sammii
04-19-2012, 05:08 PM
I totally disagree.. the only "person" who will always love you unconditionally is a pet. I tell my "bubbies" I love them about 8000x times/ day. I hope they understand...
I get emotional when talking about my dog sometimes. She really is my best friend, and I kiss her and tell her I love her 8000x a day too!!
_Avery_
04-19-2012, 06:18 PM
I've slapped two guys at work recently. The first guy really deserved it, the second guy just pissed me off and disrespected me. The first guy said "can I cum in your mouth" and it was funny. The second guy just started getting in my face and giving me attitude. Even though he was being a dick (and probably smacks around his girlfriend... serious impression I got from him) I really shouldn't have slapped him.
I'm seeing a therapist on Monday to help me deal with some of my feelings. I feel anxiety, depression, and anger all at the same time. I've been smoking pot recently, as well, in an attempt to stop from wanting to do drugs. I truly miss doing them. I miss going on binges (ketamine... not coke or crack or meth). I miss traveling and being on my own and not having a super square boyfriend. I want to feel like I can do drugs every day responsibly and not have to answer to someone. I want to be able to be me (which means do whatever I want and not answer to anyone) but I feel soo smothered by my man sometimes. And it's not that he does it on purpose. He's just SO SQUARE. He grew up in a small town way further north than Toronto. He hasn't been exposed to a fraction of the things that I have been and because of that, he pre-judges some shit in a shitty way. Everything is soooo dramatic and such a big deal, too. It's frustrating for me to be like. I want to start smoking again. And him to be like "you were a smoker when we met so I couldn't say anything but I can now I don't want you to smoke".
first of all, you don't tell me what to do. Secondly, smoking keeps me from wanting to HIT HARD DRUGS so really I think it's okay - especially since I don't smoke THAT MUCH (less than 1/2 a pack a day).
I just feel so trapped sometimes.
Damn, that sounds a lot like me a few years ago.
My husband and I separated for 4 months and I dated a guy who was just like that.
Made me quit smoking, dancing, EVERYTHING. All because "he could take care of me."
Yeah, the guy had money, but I never felt comfortable around him and couldn't be myself. :(
Ended up leaving him and going back to my husband (I know, crazy).
but despite all the problems and vents I have about my husband on here, he's my best friend. I can party with him. I can have a good time with him.
I totally feel your pain. I could never be with someone who was "straight edge" and couldn't "let loose" once in awhile. :(
If you take care of your priorities, have your shit together, I see no problem in having some fun once in awhile. :)
Jessie_tinydancer
04-20-2012, 12:54 PM
I get emotional when talking about my dog sometimes. She really is my best friend, and I kiss her and tell her I love her 8000x a day too!!
hehe me too. I can honestly say my dogs are the best thing I ever had in my life... I get messed up in the head when Im morbid and think about what will happen when they are gone. Or even worse... that I might have to be the one to put them down when Im a vet :( Maddie my first dog is seriously my child. She changed my life. I can't imagine life without her. She has the most expressive eyes and she's so smart. My other dog is seriously the cutest dog in the world but she's very slow. She's a little sweetheart but I don't think she understands most of what I say haha. Maddie I wouldn't be surprised if she spoke back one day she's so smart. My favourite thing about them though is how much they love each other. They say you shouldn't have 2 dogs the same sex but these two love each other.
crystalize
04-20-2012, 01:03 PM
hehe me too. I can honestly say my dogs are the best thing I ever had in my life... I get messed up in the head when Im morbid and think about what will happen when they are gone. Or even worse... that I might have to be the one to put them down when Im a vet :( Maddie my first dog is seriously my child. She changed my life. I can't imagine life without her. She has the most expressive eyes and she's so smart. My other dog is seriously the cutest dog in the world but she's very slow. She's a little sweetheart but I don't think she understands most of what I say haha. Maddie I wouldn't be surprised if she spoke back one day she's so smart. My favourite thing about them though is how much they love each other. They say you shouldn't have 2 dogs the same sex but these two love each other.
this is making me really miss my old dog and wanting to get a new one. They are our best friends for real.
charlie61
04-20-2012, 04:09 PM
^And there's nothing more rewarding than rescuing an animal. Definitely take that into consideration before buying a puppy! Being an odd human being, I find it healing to be around animals who have their own idiosyncratic personalities (and shelter animals usually do). I've had a lot of luck with petfinder.com.
smeca
04-20-2012, 10:19 PM
^ I'm going to be working with rescue dogs soon, at a local shelter. Thought I'd do something useful with my days and help out. ^_^ I'm seriously looking forward to it, I think I'd rather do that than have a paying day job, I prefer animals so much more to people.
Jessie_tinydancer
04-21-2012, 11:50 AM
^ I'm going to be working with rescue dogs soon, at a local shelter. Thought I'd do something useful with my days and help out. ^_^ I'm seriously looking forward to it, I think I'd rather do that than have a paying day job, I prefer animals so much more to people.
I don't know if I said this already but thats how I got my 2nd baby. She was an inspector case which means she was taken. She came from an animal horder who had over 40 animals :( She was not de-sexed and had obviously had litters. She was only 2kg (4.4lbs) and now she is 6kg. She was seriously almost dead when she came to the shelter. I used to volunteer there once a week and when I saw her my heart was racing I knew I had to adopt her quick before someone else got her. She was so anti-social at first and sad and angry but within 2 months she became a whole other dog. She is the sweetest most affectionate and friendly girl now. One of my favourite ever dogs from the shelter was actually named Jessie :D I wished I coulda adopted her too. Its so rewarding volunteering and not really as sad as people think. The shelter I worked at almost all the dogs would get adopted within 2 weeks. I never saw one there longer than 3 months.
luscious sadie
04-21-2012, 03:22 PM
Damn, that sounds a lot like me a few years ago.
My husband and I separated for 4 months and I dated a guy who was just like that.
Made me quit smoking, dancing, EVERYTHING. All because "he could take care of me."
Yeah, the guy had money, but I never felt comfortable around him and couldn't be myself. :(
Ended up leaving him and going back to my husband (I know, crazy).
but despite all the problems and vents I have about my husband on here, he's my best friend. I can party with him. I can have a good time with him.
I totally feel your pain. I could never be with someone who was "straight edge" and couldn't "let loose" once in awhile. :(
If you take care of your priorities, have your shit together, I see no problem in having some fun once in awhile. :)
the thing is, he doesn't get that you can have fun once in a while and it's not like. EVERYTHING. Like, we did MDMA once and we're not allowed to talk about it with his friends... best friends... even though I talk about doing it with my parents and almost everyone I meet. People do drugs! It's okay! It doesn't change who they are!
I'm starting to see a therapist soon and hopefully that will help me work through a lot of this. I sometimes just feel like I'm not meant to be with someone in one place.
anouk.oui
04-22-2012, 08:00 AM
i feel fuckin pathetic. since im not getting regular sex i act like im pmsing all the time. and if i dont act like it, i eat like it. i transformed into a horrible couch potato eating 2-3 kinds of chocolate in bed with the movies. at this point im considering rostering on to work more nights just to avoid the pig out. i cant help i only crave junk food to compensate for not getting penis??
i have problems i swear. i post here every week about some sex related hang up
_natasha
04-22-2012, 07:04 PM
I just bombed some molly to try and get this sodding essay finished.
ROCKAPOTIMUS
04-22-2012, 09:01 PM
I like to hang out in crowds or a party just observe and study people. I also like play out in my head what people are going to do. I don't trust others easily..
I stalk my bf's ex on the web (I'm cool with his others,just not this one). It's become a hobby of mine to fuck with her. I've made fake profiles pretending to be a dude to lead her on, also just to gather all info on her to use at my disposal(and ohh does it come handy). I've used certain evidence to inform her bf and gf (ex bf and gf now) that she's cheating on them with one another. I've also sabotaged one of her friendships, and another relationship. Signed her up for stupid things online using her email address and phone number. I've stopped doing all this recently only because she seems really depressed...I don't want to kill herself or anything. I'm not a completely vindictive person, it is only on a rare occasion that I intenstily dislike someone enough to do this.
I really needed a couple of bucks to take the Amtrak home so I stole a twenty from my friends parents baby fund (they were saving money in a jar for when the baby comes). I couldn't take the guilt so I anonymously mailed them 100 bucks as a baby shower gift.
Every time my friend posts on facebook about her trying to lose weight and eat right with a picture of a small portioned healthy meal and how full she is, I just want to tell her to "stfu cuz I know you pounded McDonald's before you had that meal you deceiving bitch!"...
I know I'm a total weirdo with some of this..oh well.
tuesdaymarie
04-22-2012, 10:44 PM
I can look into the mirror and recognize that I am attractive, perhaps very much so. However, feeling that way without checking the mirror is difficult for me, especially when I'm around women in the club. A lot of the time, I just feel like I look too young or something; I'm not sure what it is, precisely. I'm thinking a haircut might help. I love my long wavy hair, but between that, my fair skin and very distinctive face, I feel like I look too... different? in a club setting, and I'm too insecure about/aware of it to make it work to my advantage.
sammii
04-22-2012, 11:36 PM
I must meet Matt Thiessen from the band Relient K. He's like my type exactly. *sigh* I love hot musicians.
Edit: I realize why I'm so attracted to him now. I was watching a music video of his and reading through the comments and people were saying "Matt looks like Frodo/Elijah Wood." Anyone who knows me remembers my 6 year Elijah Wood obsession phase, lmao.
luscious sadie
04-23-2012, 12:34 AM
I'm seeing a therapist tomorrow. Thank god. My regular is paying for it. Thank god.
Su Su
04-23-2012, 04:35 AM
I met an epic hot guy at work yesterday, his hotness got the best of me and I handed him my number.
He called me today and I lied that he got the wrong number.
Sigh, farewell hottie...
Natalllia
04-23-2012, 05:37 AM
I really hope this is the cliched "rock bottom", because I can't let it get any worse than this.
I need to just suck it up, and face head on the shambles I've made of my life, try to salvage what I can, and do damage control on the rest. I'm just too overwhelmed, too frightened, so I remain inert while it all falls apart because I can't keep it together.
I am not this person. I don't like or respect this person. I am better than this person. I can't seem to get a hold of myself at the moment.
charlie61
04-23-2012, 06:49 AM
Yep, I'm pregnant. And guess what? I live in a conservative state, so my insurance cannot legally cover abortions, and they can't offer them. What century is this??
Planned Parenthood it is!
Mindy Bares All
04-23-2012, 01:28 PM
^^^ OMG! (Is this good or bad?)
ROCKAPOTIMUS
04-23-2012, 02:06 PM
I had a huge crush on Elijah Wood...memories.