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_natasha
04-23-2012, 02:33 PM
I had a huge crush on Elijah Wood...memories.


I used to have a huge crush on Merry and Pippin the hobbits. I was about 13 or 14 at the time. What made it creepier was I didn't find them attractive 'in real life', just as hobbits.

luscious sadie
04-23-2012, 02:54 PM
I thought I was going to owe 10k for taxes. I owe 2.4k. Life is motherfucking good right now.

I also saw a therapist and again, life is GOOD. I feel so much less stress already and it was only one session!

LaurenAus
04-23-2012, 04:16 PM
i would die for a therapy sesh at the moment. My mom is so unsupportive and knocks anything I find self validating. Can't wait to move out so I can form my own opinions about myself!!!

sammii
04-23-2012, 07:09 PM
I had a huge crush on Elijah Wood...memories.
Lol, I remember crying myself to sleep because I felt so sad that I'd never meet him. It's no wonder everyone thinks I'm a drama queen. :P Nostalgic memories. :)

charlie61
04-23-2012, 07:21 PM
^^^ OMG! (Is this good or bad?)

Bad. Though it could be worse (I'm very well-off and have the undying support of my SO). I do not want a child right now! This'll be a good lesson for me though. It won't be happening again!

glitzy
04-23-2012, 09:34 PM
Whenever I feel like my mental health is in a questionable state I go on Erowid and read bad trip reports to feel better and saner by comparison. Heh

sammii
04-23-2012, 10:43 PM
I just told my boyfriend "I'm jealous of the girls on SW without boyfriends, because they don't have to deal with this shit." Now I feel like complete crap because I really hurt his feelings. He kept saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" over and over. He sounded so hurt and I feel terrible.
It just really pissed me off when he told me that he'd rather me find a normal job. His on/off support is really hard to deal with. I'm not about to break off a 6 1/2 year relationship, but he either needs to support me or leave me because I can't be happy working a normal job.

I woke up at 8am because I couldn't sleep and I felt so anxious about last night. Finally, at 2pm he calls me and asks me if I "made a decision." I told him it's not my decision, it's his decision. He can either support me or break up with me and he says "well I don't support you at this job." Then I said "I just can't be happy at a minimum wage job. I would come home miserable everyday and I would resent you, so if you can't support me in this, then I'm breaking up with you." He said "okay, well I love you and care about you very much and I hope you know that" and he hung up. I really hope he comes back to his senses, because the thought of us being over makes me so sad. After 6 1/2 years, I just can't imagine myself with anyone else. Every guy that has ever shown interest in me has only cared about fucking me or just hoped I would be their "arm candy." I just broke up with the one person who really cares about me and the one person who truly makes me happy and I'm miserable. I'm just so lost right now, and if he doesn't change his mind, I'll be even more of a wreck than I already am. This gives me an opportunity to work a lot without worrying about him annoying me to stop, but money isn't everything. I just don't understand. A year ago he was perfectly fine with everything. Why did everything have to change?

Natalllia
04-23-2012, 10:47 PM
Bad. Though it could be worse (I'm very well-off and have the undying support of my SO). I do not want a child right now! This'll be a good lesson for me though. It won't be happening again!


Sorry you have to deal with that. I hope you heal from both the procedure and the experience quickly.

sananeko
04-23-2012, 11:11 PM
I want to scream at all the girls in this group i'm forced into.. we are talking about one simple thing and then its top of the lungs "NO! that is too strippish.. or too hookerish.." we are just talking about normal t-shirts.. i'm about to walk out...

GlitterBexie
04-24-2012, 05:38 PM
I just told my boyfriend "I'm jealous of the girls on SW without boyfriends, because they don't have to deal with this shit." Now I feel like complete crap because I really hurt his feelings. He kept saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" over and over. He sounded so hurt and I feel terrible.
It just really pissed me off when he told me that he'd rather me find a normal job. His on/off support is really hard to deal with. I'm not about to break off a 6 1/2 year relationship, but he either needs to support me or leave me because I can't be happy working a normal job.

I woke up at 8am because I couldn't sleep and I felt so anxious about last night. Finally, at 2pm he calls me and asks me if I "made a decision." I told him it's not my decision, it's his decision. He can either support me or break up with me and he says "well I don't support you at this job." Then I said "I just can't be happy at a minimum wage job. I would come home miserable everyday and I would resent you, so if you can't support me in this, then I'm breaking up with you." He said "okay, well I love you and care about you very much and I hope you know that" and he hung up. I really hope he comes back to his senses, because the thought of us being over makes me so sad. After 6 1/2 years, I just can't imagine myself with anyone else. Every guy that has ever shown interest in me has only cared about fucking me or just hoped I would be their "arm candy." I just broke up with the one person who really cares about me and the one person who truly makes me happy and I'm miserable. I'm just so lost right now, and if he doesn't change his mind, I'll be even more of a wreck than I already am. This gives me an opportunity to work a lot without worrying about him annoying me to stop, but money isn't everything. I just don't understand. A year ago he was perfectly fine with everything. Why did everything have to change?

I just left my SO of two years, i thought id never be happy without him, but i defiently wasnt happy with him and his up/down relationship with my job. Turns out, it was the best thing ive ever done. I posted this in another thread too but Dont let anyone else be in control of your life compass. You can make you happy, you know whats best for you xxx

sammii
04-24-2012, 06:50 PM
Thanks, hun. It's just so hard to leave someone whose been your best friend and your lover for almost 7 years. We were so loving, affectionate, and romantic. Honestly, we had the best relationship of any couple I've ever known. It's just really hard ... and we have literally so many memories together that anything that reminds me of him will probably make me cry. I would do anything for him to call me and tell me that he supports me in this again ... sorry, rambling ...

Aslinn
04-24-2012, 09:59 PM
Just ate a whole thing of crescent rolls, which is 800 calories and now I feel like a fatty but I'm so hungry nothing seems to be filling me up. Logically I know that A.I'm pregnant and B. that was the only thing other than a bagel and a couple bites of ramen since I woke up, but I still feel bad damn hormones.

mediocrity
04-24-2012, 11:08 PM
I just told my boyfriend "I'm jealous of the girls on SW without boyfriends, because they don't have to deal with this shit." Now I feel like complete crap because I really hurt his feelings. He kept saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" over and over. He sounded so hurt and I feel terrible.
It just really pissed me off when he told me that he'd rather me find a normal job. His on/off support is really hard to deal with. I'm not about to break off a 6 1/2 year relationship, but he either needs to support me or leave me because I can't be happy working a normal job.

I woke up at 8am because I couldn't sleep and I felt so anxious about last night. Finally, at 2pm he calls me and asks me if I "made a decision." I told him it's not my decision, it's his decision. He can either support me or break up with me and he says "well I don't support you at this job." Then I said "I just can't be happy at a minimum wage job. I would come home miserable everyday and I would resent you, so if you can't support me in this, then I'm breaking up with you." He said "okay, well I love you and care about you very much and I hope you know that" and he hung up. I really hope he comes back to his senses, because the thought of us being over makes me so sad. After 6 1/2 years, I just can't imagine myself with anyone else. Every guy that has ever shown interest in me has only cared about fucking me or just hoped I would be their "arm candy." I just broke up with the one person who really cares about me and the one person who truly makes me happy and I'm miserable. I'm just so lost right now, and if he doesn't change his mind, I'll be even more of a wreck than I already am. This gives me an opportunity to work a lot without worrying about him annoying me to stop, but money isn't everything. I just don't understand. A year ago he was perfectly fine with everything. Why did everything have to change?

He didn't fight for the relationship at all? Or try and compromise with you? If he was ok with it a year ago, and this is all a new development, sounds like he was looking for an excuse to get out the relationship.

JayATee
04-25-2012, 04:25 AM
He didn't fight for the relationship at all?

Mine never does either... wow I'm starting to think he really is a shit.

tempest666
04-25-2012, 05:18 AM
I have sinned and went off my diet! :( I ate a flour tortilla :'(

glitzy
04-25-2012, 08:46 AM
Ate two chocolate bars my regular gave me last night consecutively for breakfast. Working 6 days in a row and moving to SF = diet + sleep fucked.

_Avery_
04-25-2012, 12:31 PM
I know I've talked about this before, but ughhh...why am I sooo jealous of my friend?!!
I can't help it, every time she posts on FB, I just get green with envy.
She's not even in the same state as me anymore, so I don't know why I care.
I AM happy for her, but just so fucking envious.

She has the perfect marriage, perfect husband, perfect house, perfect cars, perfect family, perfect friends, perfect job, just...the perfect (and MY IDEAL) life.

She's like my best friend too (well, the friend I've talked to and have known the longest)....but I can't help the fact that she has everything I want.

and she just got new boobs. :*(
She actually has the money to get them...and I just am so fucking jealous about it.
Every time she posts, she posts about something new and exciting she's doing. Someplace she's going. :(

It's so stupid and petty, but fuck, I'm jealous of her and her life!!

_natasha
04-25-2012, 12:40 PM
I know I've talked about this before, but ughhh...why am I sooo jealous of my friend?!!
I can't help it, every time she posts on FB, I just get green with envy.
She's not even in the same state as me anymore, so I don't know why I care.
I AM happy for her, but just so fucking envious.

She has the perfect marriage, perfect husband, perfect house, perfect cars, perfect family, perfect friends, perfect job, just...the perfect (and MY IDEAL) life.

She's like my best friend too (well, the friend I've talked to and have known the longest)....but I can't help the fact that she has everything I want.

and she just got new boobs. :*(
She actually has the money to get them...and I just am so fucking jealous about it.
Every time she posts, she posts about something new and exciting she's doing. Someplace she's going. :(

It's so stupid and petty, but fuck, I'm jealous of her and her life!!

It probably won't help, I know how horrible it is to feel like that. But it's usually the person with the 'perfect' life who has something not so perfect underneath it all. There's a reason she's making such an effort to display that openly perfect life, especially on facebook!

luscious sadie
04-25-2012, 12:50 PM
I was just going to say the same thing. It's easy to call someone's life perfect but you're not seeing the cracks... just what she shows you. I know people who think that I have a great life but I have horrible anxiety and have been depressed recently. Yes, I can make it seem like everything is perfect but I secretly want to run away from my perfect boyfriend, amazing apartment, good club....

Kisca
04-25-2012, 02:24 PM
^ I agree, no one has a perfect life, who knows maybe her marriage could have problems, maybe shes dealing with inner problems, no one puts up their problems up straight infront of others. Dont be jelous it wont help, be happy for what you have! Everyone is jelous of something and there is somebody who will think you have it perfect, when in reality everyone has a few cracks here and there.

mediocrity
04-25-2012, 02:33 PM
Yes, he did. He cried on the phone with me telling me that he will always still be there if I change my mind and that he loves me "more than anything". He's a true romantic and he wrote me songs all the time, and he bought me the most beautiful ring for Valentines Day. When he says he loves me more than anything, I believe him. This is why I know he wasn't trying to get out of the relationship.

I think he will eventually break down and tell me that he'll support me if I take him back. We'll see ... but even if he did, I would find it really awkward to work while living with him since he's now anti-camming/dancing.

I'm actually glad to hear that, because it sounds like SUCH a familiar song and dance. Maybe after you took a break from all of the adult industry work, he realized his feelings had changed. Either way, I hope things get better for you.

JayATee
04-25-2012, 03:34 PM
I just went through his fb. Which I feel beyond awful about because it's not something I've ever done before. I mean literally never. Pretty sure I know who he's been "sneakily" texting under the sheets at 3am, and if nothing has happened yet (which I honestly don't think it has) it's well on it's way to. Now I don't know what to do. Do I confront him? Her? She knows who I am (she was dating a friend of ours) and knows he and I just had a baby. I don't know what do, or whether or not I'm jumping to conclusions and should just take a step back for a minute...

_Avery_
04-25-2012, 04:11 PM
^^Girl, I've been in that exact situation way too many times before. :(
I always instantly confront him...and it alwayyyys gets turned into "why are you invading my privacy"??
They get mad because they get caught and try to twist it around.

you're much more calm than me, I would've been in there screaming and yelling already lol

Maybe try messaging the girl and ask her what's up?? Ask him if he's talking to her?? See if he lies about it to your face??
Make a screen cap of the messages, so if he denies it, literally throw it in his face!!

Sorry if this is terrible advice, I wish I knew exactly what to say or what to do. :(
You're way too fucking pretty to be dealing with this.

JayATee
04-25-2012, 06:05 PM
^^Girl, I've been in that exact situation way too many times before. :(
I always instantly confront him...and it alwayyyys gets turned into "why are you invading my privacy"??
They get mad because they get caught and try to twist it around.

you're much more calm than me, I would've been in there screaming and yelling already lol

Maybe try messaging the girl and ask her what's up?? Ask him if he's talking to her?? See if he lies about it to your face??
Make a screen cap of the messages, so if he denies it, literally throw it in his face!!

Sorry if this is terrible advice, I wish I knew exactly what to say or what to do. :(
You're way too fucking pretty to be dealing with this.

See here's the thing, when it comes to this shit, the analytical side of my brain kicks in. If he's just talking to her, technically I can't bitch him out for anything. I'm best friends with my ex-husband, he and I talk and see eachother regularly. Who the fuck am I to tell him who he can and can't talk to?

But then again, I KNOW there is NOTHING going on between me and my ex. This girl, I don't know. And I can't figure out what his obsession with her is. She's totally immature. She's definitely hot but that's it. That's literally the only thing she's got going for herself, not to mention that she's 19. Maybe that's what irks me so badly. I have TEN YEARS on this girl.

Anytime I leave the house I get the third degree. He hasn't even mentioned her in conversation let alone how much they talk, and then to wanna meet up with her after she gets off work? Seems really fishy to me.

Honestly, I'm more tempted to msg her than I am to confront him. I don't know why.

mediocrity
04-25-2012, 06:18 PM
In my opinion, if you're married or equally committed, there is no such thing as privacy. I have all my husband's passwords, he has mine. When one of us gets a text, often the other one will ask "Who's that babe?". WTF do they need "privacy" for? Privacy in this case is a synonym for "hiding shit".

Jay, I hope I'm wrong but I think in your case he's projecting.

Spinnerette
04-25-2012, 06:37 PM
:( I was going to say it sounds like projection too. Classic. My ex was always so much more paranoid about my friends/my whereabouts when he was messing around on me. This guy could go from ignoring all of my texts for a week to blowing up my phone 10 times over the course of a few hours if I showed even the slightest activity outside of sitting at home on my couch.

Anyway, confronting the other woman is never the answer, regardless of her knowledge of what you two have. It can be insulting, yeah, but ultimately the issue lies with your SO and he's the one who should deal with the consequences.

glitzy
04-25-2012, 08:20 PM
You're moving to sf?? Me too, I'm trying to find a place that's really central-The area surrounding the mall basically. I'd really like to get a one bedroom loft (or at least a regular 800 sq ft+ apartment, preferably with a balcony) with a parking space for $2500 or less. I wish I had more money so I could just buy one of those new lofts in SOMA, they are sooo nice, and right by my favorite sushi place, target, and trader joe's. Win!

Yeah! My guy is coming down for all of May and we're subletting a small spot in Hayes valley/lower haight. I'm not sure what's gonna happen after...it's kind of a trial to see how he likes it here and I think afterward I will either live in sf on my own or we will go to Barcelona for the rest of summer depending. But damn, $2500?! You're a baller! Lol I used to have a renovated warehouse apartment in soma for only 800, wish I would've held onto it...is you're favorite sushi spot called raw? Used to get takeout there a lot back in the 8th and Folsom days. ^_^

Susan-Va
04-25-2012, 09:57 PM
I'm thinking I should probably stop going to therapy all coked up.

charlie61
04-25-2012, 10:07 PM
I just went through his fb. Which I feel beyond awful about because it's not something I've ever done before. I mean literally never. Pretty sure I know who he's been "sneakily" texting under the sheets at 3am, and if nothing has happened yet (which I honestly don't think it has) it's well on it's way to. Now I don't know what to do. Do I confront him? Her? She knows who I am (she was dating a friend of ours) and knows he and I just had a baby. I don't know what do, or whether or not I'm jumping to conclusions and should just take a step back for a minute...

What's your deepest fear in this situation? Is it realistic? Would it be better just to let him off of the proverbial monogamous leash, let him have a bit of fun, and trust that he'll realize how superficial that sort of relationship is? Do you actually want him? Or do you just want him to want you?

No need to answer the questions...I'm just throwing them out there.

:grouphug:

Miss_McKenna
04-25-2012, 10:08 PM
^^ The one time I went to therapy drunk, it was one of the most fun sessions I'd ever had. Even the therapist was laughing.... with me or at me, I'm not sure which.

charlie61
04-25-2012, 10:09 PM
I know I've talked about this before, but ughhh...why am I sooo jealous of my friend?!!
I can't help it, every time she posts on FB, I just get green with envy.
She's not even in the same state as me anymore, so I don't know why I care.
I AM happy for her, but just so fucking envious.

She has the perfect marriage, perfect husband, perfect house, perfect cars, perfect family, perfect friends, perfect job, just...the perfect (and MY IDEAL) life.

She's like my best friend too (well, the friend I've talked to and have known the longest)....but I can't help the fact that she has everything I want.

and she just got new boobs. :*(
She actually has the money to get them...and I just am so fucking jealous about it.
Every time she posts, she posts about something new and exciting she's doing. Someplace she's going. :(

It's so stupid and petty, but fuck, I'm jealous of her and her life!!

Mo' money, mo' problems. Trust me, everyone's got problems. And people with perfect lives are the ones who are perfect at hiding their issues. TRUST me.

luscious sadie
04-26-2012, 12:40 AM
I'm going blonde tomorrow and this site has been a huge motivation for me!

tempest and Avery were the biggest ~you can go blonde~ moments (even though t666 got a wig). There's just SOOO many brunettes at my home club that I need something to make me stand out.

I modified a pic of myself using some online makeover thing and this is what I came up with. Obviously the brown is the original.

I'm going to lighten my eyebrows and thin them out a bit, too. I need to learn how to give volume to my hair, as well.

what do you ladies think?

sammii
04-26-2012, 12:40 AM
^ I think the blonde would look nice, particularly a brownish/dirty blonde.


I know I've talked about this before, but ughhh...why am I sooo jealous of my friend?!!
I can't help it, every time she posts on FB, I just get green with envy.
She's not even in the same state as me anymore, so I don't know why I care.
I AM happy for her, but just so fucking envious.

She has the perfect marriage, perfect husband, perfect house, perfect cars, perfect family, perfect friends, perfect job, just...the perfect (and MY IDEAL) life.

She's like my best friend too (well, the friend I've talked to and have known the longest)....but I can't help the fact that she has everything I want.

and she just got new boobs. :*(
She actually has the money to get them...and I just am so fucking jealous about it.
Every time she posts, she posts about something new and exciting she's doing. Someplace she's going. :(

It's so stupid and petty, but fuck, I'm jealous of her and her life!!
I know how you feel and I've definitely felt the same way, and I remember in High School being jealous of a girl for 2 years ... she had everything I didn't, she was a varsity cheerleader, blonde hair and blue eyes, a great looking boyfriend, rich parents, a ton of friends. My envy was an obsession and it consumed me. I hope I never feel that way ever again, because it was a horrible feeling. I agree with everyone else that everything usually isn't as perfect as it seems. I think everyone's family is dysfunctional in some way and you never know what goes on behind closed doors.

I'm actually glad to hear that, because it sounds like SUCH a familiar song and dance. Maybe after you took a break from all of the adult industry work, he realized his feelings had changed. Either way, I hope things get better for you.
Thanks. :) I think maybe my break from the industry is what changed his mind as well.

Kisca
04-26-2012, 01:13 AM
^ I think you'll look great with that shade of blonde, I thought it was your real hair before I read your comment!

Aslinn
04-26-2012, 02:22 AM
I love the blonde, but please don't thin your brows there so pretty just bleach them.

JayATee
04-26-2012, 04:45 AM
In my opinion, if you're married or equally committed, there is no such thing as privacy. I have all my husband's passwords, he has mine. When one of us gets a text, often the other one will ask "Who's that babe?". WTF do they need "privacy" for? Privacy in this case is a synonym for "hiding shit".

Jay, I hope I'm wrong but I think in your case he's projecting.

I think so too. Truthfully I guess I've never thought of the "privacy" thing. I've never cared. Something is/has been bothering me about him for forever now. That gut feeling isn't usually wrong. But he swears he's not hiding anything. The msgs on his fb were cut off. I don't fb chat so I don't know how to tell whether or not they were automatically deleted or if he specifically deleted the first half of the convo. He told her to txt him later that night, either she did and he deleted them, or she never did.... either way... maybe I'm still making a big deal about nothing, but a little voice in the back of my head tells me I'm not.


:( I was going to say it sounds like projection too. Classic. My ex was always so much more paranoid about my friends/my whereabouts when he was messing around on me. This guy could go from ignoring all of my texts for a week to blowing up my phone 10 times over the course of a few hours if I showed even the slightest activity outside of sitting at home on my couch.

Anyway, confronting the other woman is never the answer, regardless of her knowledge of what you two have. It can be insulting, yeah, but ultimately the issue lies with your SO and he's the one who should deal with the consequences.


I don't know if I'd confront her persay. I'm not ready to be accusing yet. I just kinda want to know what's going on, like from her end of things. But I don't know if I'd actually do this or not. I mean this isn't her fault anyway. I'm just trying to understand, more what he sees in her than anything honestly. Because even the friend of ours she was seeing stopped seeing her because he couldn't stand her.


What's your deepest fear in this situation? Is it realistic? Would it be better just to let him off of the proverbial monogamous leash, let him have a bit of fun, and trust that he'll realize how superficial that sort of relationship is? Do you actually want him? Or do you just want him to want you?

No need to answer the questions...I'm just throwing them out there.

:grouphug:

The answer is I don't know. To all of them. Honestly. I just have no clue anymore. I attempted to answer and started to say "My fear is that I'm losing" and then stopped and said, what am I losing? Or for that matter, what am I really afraid of? This is probably an even bigger problem... I do want him to want me. I have no problem "letting him off the leash" so to speak. I've told him countless times, I don't care, just don't fucking lie to me about it. But to be honest, at this point, while I've no problem with that, or with bringing someone in or any of it, I do have a problem with doing all that when the core relationship is in trouble. I don't think it will help anyone and I think it could make things much much worse.

_Avery_
04-26-2012, 06:27 AM
I'm going blonde tomorrow and this site has been a huge motivation for me!

tempest and Avery were the biggest ~you can go blonde~ moments (even though t666 got a wig). There's just SOOO many brunettes at my home club that I need something to make me stand out.

I modified a pic of myself using some online makeover thing and this is what I came up with. Obviously the brown is the original.

I'm going to lighten my eyebrows and thin them out a bit, too. I need to learn how to give volume to my hair, as well.

what do you ladies think?

I LOVE it girl!

Please let me know how lightening your eyebrows goes.

I haven't done it, because I'm scared, but no one seems to care that my eyebrows are darker than my hair lol.
It doesn't really bother me, but I think they'd look better a little lighter.

Did you use taaz.com?? Because your blonde hair looks real in that pic! Can't wait to see the final result. Good luck!! :) <3

anouk.oui
04-26-2012, 06:35 AM
sw is on its rags again
and i feel like i am too
every night im not at work seems to become a 'whinge whine on the internet to anyone who cares then stuff your face with chocolates and watch chick flicks' night.
i dont know why im unhappy.
i cant get used to so seldom getting laid.
yeah
that must b it!

_Avery_
04-26-2012, 06:40 AM
sorry...got all emotional and carried away.

Thank you ladies. <3 <3

Jessie_tinydancer
04-26-2012, 07:01 AM
^ this makes me sad.. :( I really wish I lived close to you miss because Id take you out everyday and show you, you can easily do better. I commend you for wanting to keep the family for your kids but don't let it compromise your own health. People will probably fire up at me for this but honestly if I were you, Id cheat on him. Whats good for the goose is good for the gander.

Jessie_tinydancer
04-26-2012, 07:03 AM
I'm going blonde tomorrow and this site has been a huge motivation for me!

tempest and Avery were the biggest ~you can go blonde~ moments (even though t666 got a wig). There's just SOOO many brunettes at my home club that I need something to make me stand out.

I modified a pic of myself using some online makeover thing and this is what I came up with. Obviously the brown is the original.

I'm going to lighten my eyebrows and thin them out a bit, too. I need to learn how to give volume to my hair, as well.

what do you ladies think?

I think it looks hot! Blonde is kinda out of style in australia... most girls are going dark brown or darker blondes vs the bleached look nowadays but if its rare where you are, I say go for it!

Kisca
04-26-2012, 07:11 AM
^ Im sorry to hear that, that must be so painful to go through.

Kellydancer
04-26-2012, 12:47 PM
Avery, you deserve much better. You are such a sweet person and everytime you post about all the things you encounter it saddens me. I'm only a few hours from you and Im hoping to come up there eventually and meet you.

Does it make me a bad person to see a poster I knew was a man get banned today? I knew this person wasn't a stripper but others thought "she" was.

kaiarose
04-26-2012, 12:51 PM
Frenchie?

Kellydancer
04-26-2012, 01:54 PM
Yep. That person drove me nuts and I blocked her (or him)for awhile.

luscious sadie
04-26-2012, 06:07 PM
thanks for the support guys. I went blonde and it's fucking ROCKING! I'll post a few pics in the pics of you thread later.

hope everyone else is good!

_natasha
04-27-2012, 08:33 AM
I said in january I was going to stay away from drugs this year and I've used twice in a week now...

I'm angry with myself for not being able to say no. I've never been a paranoid drug user but last night I was so anxious I was stuck with my back flat to the wall unable to move. It's hilarious now because I can see how ridiculous I was being, but at the time I was in such a state.

Spinnerette
04-27-2012, 05:55 PM
I don't know if I'd confront her persay. I'm not ready to be accusing yet. I just kinda want to know what's going on, like from her end of things. But I don't know if I'd actually do this or not. I mean this isn't her fault anyway. I'm just trying to understand, more what he sees in her than anything honestly. Because even the friend of ours she was seeing stopped seeing her because he couldn't stand her.


Guys will give just about any chick that shows them interest the time of day. It's a low opinion to have of the male half of the species, but it's fucking true. My husband has bedded some truly detestable (either looks or intelligence-wise) women just because of how aggressive they were in their approach. He misconstrues it as "confidence" and says it's a turn-on. *sigh*

I sincerely doubt your guy wants an actual relationship with that girl and probably finds a lot of her personality traits annoying too. But he's willing to overlook them at current for the prospect of sex (which is asinine, but again, most men do it. that's why so many "my ex is fucking crazy and I hate her!" anecdotes exist). His ego is all tied up in wanting to relive the thrill of bedding some barely legal hottie.

JayATee
04-28-2012, 07:53 AM
Guys will give just about any chick that shows them interest the time of day. It's a low opinion to have of the male half of the species, but it's fucking true. My husband has bedded some truly detestable (either looks or intelligence-wise) women just because of how aggressive they were in their approach. He misconstrues it as "confidence" and says it's a turn-on. *sigh*

I sincerely doubt your guy wants an actual relationship with that girl and probably finds a lot of her personality traits annoying too. But he's willing to overlook them at current for the prospect of sex (which is asinine, but again, most men do it. that's why so many "my ex is fucking crazy and I hate her!" anecdotes exist). His ego is all tied up in wanting to relive the thrill of bedding some barely legal hottie.

My sister gave me a little insight yesterday and now I feel like she's probably right. With me, he's younger, and there's a lot of "real world" experience he doesn't have, that I do. With this girl, he gets to sound big and smart and intelligent because she's an immature 19yr old. Which I guess, at the very least, makes me understand it better....

Kisca
04-28-2012, 08:02 AM
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