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Mindy Bares All
04-28-2012, 10:44 AM
I'm going blonde tomorrow and this site has been a huge motivation for me!

tempest and Avery were the biggest ~you can go blonde~ moments (even though t666 got a wig). There's just SOOO many brunettes at my home club that I need something to make me stand out.

I modified a pic of myself using some online makeover thing and this is what I came up with. Obviously the brown is the original.

I'm going to lighten my eyebrows and thin them out a bit, too. I need to learn how to give volume to my hair, as well.

what do you ladies think?

I think you look amazing! :D It's a great color on you!

LexyNYC
04-28-2012, 10:52 AM
I have never been so irritated in my entire life. This month has sucked balls.

_natasha
04-28-2012, 10:56 AM
I'm so miserable I'm about to commit carbicide. I want pizza and cookies and I don't care about the consequences.

sananeko
04-28-2012, 03:41 PM
going to a new club tonight and scared as hell...

Jessie_tinydancer
04-28-2012, 05:31 PM
^ good luck!

sananeko
04-29-2012, 01:49 AM
I went and i can start next week if i want.

Jessie_tinydancer
04-29-2012, 12:59 PM
Im about to get on a plane wearing a velour tracksuit... oh yes I did. Fuck man Im tired of freezing my ass off on plans so it seems the best solution. Plus Im going to be travelling 10 hours so I need comfort. Don't judge me. haha

DesuvsDeath
04-29-2012, 01:47 PM
^That's my go-to travel outfit, Jessie.
I like to borrow an expensive, name brand one from my friend Christine... to make it extra douchey.

JayATee
04-29-2012, 04:07 PM
Im about to get on a plane wearing a velour tracksuit... oh yes I did. Fuck man Im tired of freezing my ass off on plans so it seems the best solution. Plus Im going to be travelling 10 hours so I need comfort. Don't judge me. haha

Anytime my travel time is over 4 hours that's exactly what I wear too. Fuck being on a plane and being uncomfortable!

Miss_McKenna
04-29-2012, 04:26 PM
Anytime my travel time is over 4 hours that's exactly what I wear too. Fuck being on a plane and being uncomfortable!

Me too. If I'm going to be sitting long enough to get into that "ughhhh I'm booooooooooored" phase, I rock out the yoga pants and flip flops rather than something cute. The one time I tried to dress up, getting my boots off at Security was a nightmare and all my jewelery set off the scanners - I was the most hated person in the line.

Kisca
04-29-2012, 11:16 PM
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tempest666
04-29-2012, 11:55 PM
If a customer bought me a real fairy penguin I would so fuck them, even if it was a nasty old man. I looooove those things so much they are so cute!

mediocrity
04-30-2012, 02:12 AM
Today, he said "I love you" by accident after 7 months. There was that akward pause of a second.. and change of subject! It slipped out of him and I did not want to say it back, as much as I wanted to.

Seven months seems like a really long time to wait to me! If you love him, tell him. Don't y'all live together anyway? Obv he's serious.

Miss_McKenna
04-30-2012, 02:38 AM
If a customer bought me a real fairy penguin I would so fuck them, even if it was a nasty old man. I looooove those things so much they are so cute!

Whats a fairy penguin look like?? - pics!!!

Miss_McKenna
04-30-2012, 02:39 AM
Tonight I was out at dinner with this guy and he was being a total douche, so I ordered half the things on the menu and had my own little buffet mwahahahaha. I got to have a variety of things and brought home about 4 meals of stuff. And put my valet on his account on the way out :D

tempest666
04-30-2012, 02:49 AM
Whats a fairy penguin look like?? - pics!!!

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aussiebelle
04-30-2012, 05:24 AM
That 'Confessions of an Extras Girl' thread is kind of pissing me off..

DesuvsDeath
04-30-2012, 10:35 AM
That 'Confessions of an Extras Girl' thread is kind of pissing me off..

The idea that someone would suck dick using the excuse that they have to do so to make money because they're too nervous to audition at a nicer club blows my mind.

DesuvsDeath
04-30-2012, 10:43 AM
Someone I know is trying to be a model and it's... bad.
...I don't even really like her and am a total heartless bastard... but at this point. Even *I* ready to be like "Honey, please. Stop. Just stop. You're humiliating yourself."

Miss_McKenna
04-30-2012, 07:25 PM
I want a fairy penguin!!!

carmen_b
04-30-2012, 08:22 PM
Kisca: that's cute!! My dude said it around 6.5 months so about the same! You'll get the guts to say it back if you want to. It took me a few days. :)

noelle
04-30-2012, 11:23 PM
I miss my best friend. I don't know why she just stopped making the effort to talk to me. :(

_natasha
05-01-2012, 05:06 AM
I think I have reached stalker level.
I just rang a venue in a panic for tickets and they were like, 'first we knew about it... it's definitely not on the system yet... check back in a couple of weeks.'

And I'm dragging my mum along for this stalking extravaganza because I realised last night that she is my best friend and all the other people I hang around with don't actually give a shit. And she is such a good friend she agreed to come, even though she hates the guy's comedy.

I confess that I love my mum more than anything in the world and i'm petrified about what I'll ever do without her.

JayATee
05-01-2012, 05:38 AM
He brings out the worst in me. I can't take it. I don't know what to do, but I can't stand him.

JcMarch
05-01-2012, 01:12 PM
My boyfriend, who used to be the dj at my old club, cheated on me. Alot.while i was preggo with our son, while i was in jail after his mom had me arrested for for slapping him after i found out about just SOME of his little adventures. And a whole mess of other stuff i wont even get into, but has to do with my old manager (a gay guy). Well i told him, without any intentions on following thru with it, i wanted to work things out. So here i am, getting ready to go back to work, gonna save up enough money to leave his nasty disease ridden dick, and be on my merry little way. Oh, and if i get any sugar daddy offers, yea, im totallly taking it.


I want to make his life miserable. As childish as it is, i will more than likely cheat on him before i leave him. I refuse to have sex with him anymore since its a miracle i didnt get something incurable (but yes he did give me stds) from him.

This is a piss poor excuse, but i truly wasnt in any shape financially to leave him when it all happened since i had just given birth. Sweet revenge. Fuck karma, seems like no matter how good of a person i am, people always do me dirty. And im tired of being walked on. Vent over :)

Kellydancer
05-01-2012, 01:18 PM
The idea that someone would suck dick using the excuse that they have to do so to make money because they're too nervous to audition at a nicer club blows my mind.

I hate to say it but when I hear this I think the girl is not attractive enough to work in a better club. Sure there were times I was so nervous but knew I was better than the skanky clubs.

JayATee
05-01-2012, 01:22 PM
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OMFG cuteness overload!!!!!!!!!!

Kellydancer
05-01-2012, 01:52 PM
That isnt always the case. She could have strong aniexty issues on going to a new club, the fear of being hired or not, the first day at a new club is always stressful. But I do agree that she should try it either way - she has nothing to loose, in the end this is only a job. I worked in a dive and an upscale club, the dive had lots of extras but the upscale one didnt. Where would I want to go back? The dive one due to me being in my comfort level, not getting stress and the hustle is easier. But I am forcing myself to go back to the upscale one on my own so I get used to it. The girl just has to not worry so much and go in and see whether she'd get hired, if not then she'd have to consider other options, loosing weight, other clubs, other work.

True but I know if one has the guts to work in an extras club they should have the guts to audition in a more upscale one. I suppose that's just my experience though because dancing for me was easier than talking to the guys. I did work at a few dives and once I got more experience I went to nicer clubs having learned how to hustle. I do think though if dancers have low self esteem they shouldnt be dancing because it will destroy them. I just hope that she does get out of that club because I see more and more bad things happening, including her arrested.

mediocrity
05-01-2012, 04:51 PM
^^ If you're working as a stripper, anxiety issues are something you need to check at home. She obviously has no anxiety about sitting on a dude's cock for money.

Kat w
05-01-2012, 05:22 PM
I'm on birth control and always have my boyfriend pull out and according to my BC pack my period is 3 days late! Ack! I want to wait a little longer before I take a pregnancy test but I'm freaking out.

kleptomaniac
05-02-2012, 01:13 AM
I haven't gotten laid since June. I just realized that's almost a year. >:( Too bad all the dudes I meet repulse me. I must have issues.

kaiarose
05-02-2012, 06:05 AM
^ Great ass!

_Avery_
05-02-2012, 06:48 AM
I haven't gotten laid since June. I just realized that's almost a year. >:( Too bad all the dudes I meet repulse me. I must have issues.

lol, I'm in the same boat...like 17 months..almost 2 years! lol lol
and I'm married..lmfao

PleasureVictim
05-02-2012, 03:15 PM
By agreeing to stay with my ex temporarily for the past few months while I get a few things in my life straight, he's turned emotionally abusive. This is my last month living here with him, but it gets so tough sometimes. I can't get comfortable at night because I feel anxious.

I find myself leaving the house when we are alone together because I don't want to be here with him. Even after I do my errands or go driving around the neighborhood to kill time before he leaves for work- I get sad when I have to return. He doesn't even work everyday. He has 2 PT jobs so sometimes he's gone half a day and then home for the next 3 days. I hate it.

He tells me I am lucky because no other man would put up with what he does- I am lucky in certain ways because he really has helped in the past and he he is 'nice' when I do what he wants, but it is still so draining.

My doc upped my meds because my BP was so high- I have 11 different meds to take already on top of this- it gets so costly! I can't wait to be done and away from him. It's so bad that even though I will still live in this city, and in the neighborhood unfortunately, over the summer I'm going away and won't get an apartment until I return right before school begins again.

kleptomaniac
05-02-2012, 07:18 PM
lol, I'm in the same boat...like 17 months..almost 2 years! lol lol
and I'm married..lmfao

Nooo! I think we need to change this NOW. Not getting any sucks.

Kisca
05-03-2012, 12:28 AM
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Miss_McKenna
05-03-2012, 12:51 AM
^^ I just started watching Lost, I didn't watch it when the rest of the world was, and now I'm getting into it. I got Hulu plus just so I could watch it from start to finish. I'm almost at the end of the first season and I'm like whaaaaaaaa???

In fact I think imma go watch me some Lost right now...

JayATee
05-03-2012, 03:58 AM
I'm secretly sitting here waiting for him to leave. There is this crazy tension, even with him in the other room that I despise when he's here. He'll be home early and I'm upset about it because I will be losing the usual day I have with just me and my daughter. This is beyond fucked up. Most people would be excited if their SO was coming home early...

michele11
05-03-2012, 05:43 AM
^ I felt that way about my ex after a while. We both traveled for work and he would be gone for 4-5 months then home and in the house all the time with me because he did nothing in between sales and I traveled. I new there was something wrong when I was never excited for him to come home after being gone so long. Jut know it's not so ba betterd being a single mom. My daughters father moved out when I was 7 months pregnant as we fought all the time and his dad wa dying of cancer. I was always misserable and he did move back in when she was born but it was back and forth until she was 3 1/2. It was actually better for me because then he actually helped ( well his mother did) with caring for her instead of me doing everything. Anyways you'll do the right thing just know being a single mom isn't failing and you don't wat to be unhappy as the child gets older it will pick up on these things.

anouk.oui
05-03-2012, 06:03 AM
oh man i feel like i havnt been clothes shopping for months coz i was so fat today! i kept gettin stuck in [aus size] 8's dresses and my stomach is flabby and its depressing me! cant wait to move to the city and sign up to a gym obviously just pole dance aint gonna be enough from now on... or its the chocolates to blame!

ahh that extras girl thread pisses me off too. clearly the girl needs help but it also sounds like it has a huge 'feel sorry for me my life sucks so baaad' intention behind it when clearly the girl is not forced to stay at the club, be a dirty dancer, or even just a dancer in the first place. no sympathy. everyones a master of their own fate. there is a proverb in my country 'whoever makes choice to become a prostitute, must not cry when being fucked'. obviously its not meant to be literal, but in this case it may as well be!!

Natalllia
05-03-2012, 06:14 AM
I am halfway considering just giving up and getting really fat. Like, so fat I have to wash myself with a sponge on a stick. Maybe I can get people to pay to watch me eat.
Then I will be truly fulfilled.

aussiebelle
05-03-2012, 06:37 AM
^ gahh i feel fat too. It's so cold atm all I want to do is stay in bed and eat carbs urgh.

Aslinn
05-03-2012, 06:48 AM
I lost five pounds some how in two weeks, I don't know how, but now I feel guilty even though I have been eating more and just laying about... also I feel douchey for posting this now That I just read everyone elses post today :/

Elektra Luxx
05-03-2012, 07:59 AM
i feel like i don't want to be alone. my mom came over last night because i felt like i was freaking out. i think i was having an anxiety attack last night and i took Xanax to sleep. i wake up and my eyes feel puffy and my body feels heavy and tired. i feel so BLAH!

DesuvsDeath
05-03-2012, 10:15 AM
I am halfway considering just giving up and getting really fat. Like, so fat I have to wash myself with a sponge on a stick. Maybe I can get people to pay to watch me eat.
Then I will be truly fulfilled.
This sounds like a brilliant plan. Where do I sign up?

_natasha
05-04-2012, 08:23 PM
I want to answer someone's question brutally honestly but don't have the heart to do it, yet don't have the patience or brain power to do it tactfully...

MissSeraphim
05-04-2012, 09:14 PM
I'm now addicted to squirting. Squirters Anonymous here I cum.

Aslinn
05-05-2012, 02:34 AM
My bf is a dj and I helped him get a job at one of the clubs...I totally regret it. He's turned into the type of SC employee I ALWAYS bitch about at home, why doesn't he understand????? He complains all the time that girls don't "take care of him," 1st, I fucking hate that expression and I'm pretty sure I've gone on all the time about how it's not the dancer's job to fucking "take care" of the employees, 2nd, he works the shittiest shifts at one of the worst clubs so don't fucking complain that girls are being cheap when they tip $5-10!!!!! I've probably tipped the dj over $10 maybe 10 times in my life!!!!! Not only that, but he started to go off WHILE STILL AT WORK with other dancers and employees in the room about how cheap they were that night! I almost smacked him! He sucks at picking out songs, he has a great collection and picks out great songs but always plays them in the wrong order. It's not that hard to figure out that if you have 3 songs and 1 of them has a really long intro, it should be played first! Duh! And when I told him to never play slow songs first because it kills the energy of the dancer and the crowd he just rolled his eyes at me. UGH I KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT HERE! He also yells at the dancers and says inappropriate things. I told him that his behavior is just like the employees that I fucking hate and try to get fired (they usually end up getting fired on their own) and he tried to tell me that "it's different at this club." NO IT'S NOT! UGH! And he wonders why he was demoted to dayshift at his first club...

I'm just so angry because I had been dancing for almost a year before he started djing. He should know what is okay and what's not okay. It's like he's going out of his way to be the complete dj asshole that everyone hates. It's getting to the point that I really don't like him whenever he comes home from work because he's still in SC asshole mood and it puts me in a horrible mood-it's like bringing everything I hate about the SC back home but since he's on dayshift he's not bringing any $$ with him! Ugh this job has completely changed him and I hate it.


You know, when he complains about girls not tipping him I would respond with "Well I wouldn't give you any fucking money ether." Then i would probably follow that with a rant about how you really are starting to see him in a new light because you never realized how much of an ass he can be and tell him how your no different then the girls he berates at work. On top of that remind him he is a payed employee if he worked at a normal dance club or something nobody would tip his ass and the only reason to tip a DJ more is if they are doing a good job, which like you stated he's not.... sorry for this long reply that really pissed me off for some reason that he's acting like that and not taking your advice.

Spinnerette
05-05-2012, 08:07 AM
When I'm reminded of him via ladies going through similar situations, I can't beat back the urge to wonder how my ex is doing and hoping that it's awful. I hope his liver is failing, that he's fat, losing his teeth, that he's going blind, and has countless STDs that are making him regret having a dick. There really isn't any doubt in my mind that he's living (or trying to) live the same life he was when he was younger and it was more "acceptable", but suffering from it is key. I need him to suffer (and not just in the ways he drinks to hide from).

No doubt he's still a raging loser, even if he got cleaned up (doubtful).

tuesdaymarie
05-05-2012, 10:55 AM
^I feel you. Whenever someone makes an "I have an addict SO/ex" thread, I usually chime in to tell them I understand but to gtfo. However, I can't help but to think about my ex for at least half an hour after and I become so fucking angry. It's not even pity anymore. I waited for an explanation, an apology, ANYTHING for 10 months after he disappeared and I found him coked out and suicidal and it ended. I ran into him at the 10 month mark because his sister called me in an emergency situation and he ended up showing too. The motherfucker had the audacity to HUG ME, say it had been a long time, then refuse to look at me while he got high in the corner. I was fucking devastated. I felt so much love and pity for him for twelve fucking years, and now it's just this slow-burning anger that stays with me.

Because of him and another piece of shit I was involved with, I now often second guess my current relationship, even though the guy I'm with is wonderful. A few weeks ago, he had a bad week and apparently bought some cigarettes at the gas station without telling me. He quit smoking ~8 months ago and knew that it was a big deal to me. Well, we were in a group and I looked over and saw him with a cigarette in his hand. To anyone else, maybe that's a minor thing, but all I could think of after that was how my ex had started doing coke again and hid it from me. Coke is not on the same level of cigarettes at all, I know, but I was fucking furious and felt inordinately betrayed by the fucking cigarette in his hand. And wtf could I say? "I'm pissed off at you for secretly buying a pack of cigarettes because two years ago, someone I loved relapsed on my watch and now I'm paranoid for life!" Yeah, that's totally sane.