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michele11
05-05-2012, 02:29 PM
I probably will. I worked a few shifts with him and I gave him direct advice on what to play and how to play it and for the most part he rolled his eyes. I guess I was trying to be positive because I didn't want him to get even more aggressive about his job (and take that out at his job) but if he acts inappropriately again I will probably yell at him. I just don't understand why he's being such a dick- before he started working at the SC he worked at a pizzeria where there was a tip jar split up so it worked out to $20/shift on average but he didn't care, and he made I think a dollar less per hour than he does here. But he bitches all the time about "how shitty it is" etc. Occasionally his complaints are valid (like when a couple girls got 1.5 hour VIPs AFTER the club closed, forcing him to stay and they only tipped him $10 each)...but sometimes they don't seem valid at all. He's now working better shifts at a better club, but only 2 nights a week and he just got hired for a non SC touring dj gig that would pay $50/hr which is fantastic, so hopefully more $$ will put him in a better mood.

When you get a taste of making good money you always want more. Just like us djs are happy at first with 10-20 bucks then they see you make money and want more. I personally like to be skipped si I tip 30-50. I haven't worked in a club in years were tip out to the dj was that cheap 10 bucks??? In myrtle beach I was tipping that fucker 60-1000 cuz it's 10% and if you try to just give him say 50 and he sees you did like 3 half hours he will ask for 30-40 more and he has 100 girls tipping him out it's ridiculous. When I work in New Orleans sometimes the dj waits for me til 6-7am since Im usually one of the last girls to leave an I always tip at least 50. Those girls should have given him more but yeah he doesn't need to be acting in such a manner because remind him djs are a dime a dozen and there's million guys who would love to take his place. My daughters fathers a dj at a prominent club here 17 years and girls love him because he never bashes what he's given he's always grateful and he manages as well now.

michele11
05-05-2012, 02:33 PM
Lol I meant 60-100.

Kellydancer
05-05-2012, 04:49 PM
When I'm reminded of him via ladies going through similar situations, I can't beat back the urge to wonder how my ex is doing and hoping that it's awful. I hope his liver is failing, that he's fat, losing his teeth, that he's going blind, and has countless STDs that are making him regret having a dick. There really isn't any doubt in my mind that he's living (or trying to) live the same life he was when he was younger and it was more "acceptable", but suffering from it is key. I need him to suffer (and not just in the ways he drinks to hide from).

No doubt he's still a raging loser, even if he got cleaned up (doubtful).


Sometimes the revenge is sweet even if it makes someone a bad person for thinking so. The first guy who I slept with, who then dumped me for someone else got his. A few years later I discovered he is completely blind and in a wheelchair unable to walk. I felt like a douche wishing bad things on him then he got it bad.

sammii
05-07-2012, 03:04 AM
Best. Haircut. Ever.

And it was at Cost Cutters, no joke.

The length is perfect and the layers are all in the right places. I didn't realize how fried my hair looked until she chopped a bunch of it off. Basically, my hair was to my mid-back and now it lands right below my boob, but it looks so nice. I love it.

Aslinn
05-07-2012, 05:27 AM
I made my husband stay awake even though he hadn't slept more than a few hours in the past three days, so he could take me to avengers and then I fell asleep during the movie. I so feel like a douche now :(

zola
05-07-2012, 02:58 PM
I made my husband stay awake even though he hadn't slept more than a few hours in the past three days, so he could take me to avengers and then I fell asleep during the movie. I so feel like a douche now :(

The Avengers was amazing, at least you didn't drag him to Twilight. ;)

MissSeraphim
05-07-2012, 03:24 PM
I feel like I'm going crazy between cleaning up after the other 3 ADULT slobs I live with, my 2 k1ds, the last of my classes, and trying to get enough privacy/time for even just a half an hour to get on cam and make enough money to move out. The only hours I'm almost free to work (besides my few month old needing something here and there) is 11 pm - 4 am. Then I wake up at 8 am every morning to my oldest being ready to get up and start his day. 4 hours of broken sleep every night is definitely not enough.
>.> $500 away from my move out savings goal.
I WAS saving for a car...but I realized I can end up making so much more in a better house setting. Sure, I'll be spending more on rent,electricity, etc.. but at least I won't be pulling my hair out trying to figure out how I'll be able to work.

kaiarose
05-09-2012, 11:49 AM
Thinking about helping out a good friend in need <3

tuesdaymarie
05-09-2012, 10:50 PM
So, I picked up my boyfriend's phone because it was closest and I wanted to check the time... Just hit a button to light up the clock/unlock screen, but apparently, he has set his phone to where text notifications pop up now too... and one was asking about whether he looked at Jared's yet.

The amount of self-control this is taking to not read that chain of texts is overwhelming. I'm just sitting on the couch, staring at the phone while he sleeps. I'm like a fucking puppy trying not to eat the food that master left out. I know he *wants* to marry me... but saying you "want" to get married is way different than buying a ring and saying yo bitch, marry me.

One of you needs to come over here and wake him up, make him read his texts so the notification goes away, THEN LET ME FUCKING SEE THAT CONVERSATION BEFORE I DIE. Seriously, I don't have the self-control to make it through the night.

mediocrity
05-09-2012, 10:53 PM
^^ You could always read it and then admit it. I do that and my husband doesn't get mad. You might not have that kind of relationship though.

Miss_McKenna
05-09-2012, 11:14 PM
The amount of self-control this is taking to not read that chain of texts is overwhelming.

OMG I could soooo not handle that. I'm terrible at suspenseful things and having patience. Let us know how it goes either way!

tuesdaymarie
05-10-2012, 09:38 AM
I was sick and delirious with curiosity, so I took NyQuil and knocked myself out. I saw him reading the texts this morning but now I don't know where the phone is -.- I think it's in his pocket. Time to hug him and tell him he smells funny and should shower before his final... AND LEAVE THE PHONE OUT HERE, MOTHERFUCKER.

sammii
05-10-2012, 10:15 AM
^ Your self-control is better than mine. If someones texting my boyfriend and he's not around, chances are I'll read it.

kaiarose
05-10-2012, 11:18 AM
I wish I would've gotten silicone gel implants... I am so scared of my salines popping and deflating, every single fucking day :(

LAChloe
05-10-2012, 11:20 AM
I wish I would've gotten silicone gel implants... I am so scared of my salines popping and deflating, every single fucking day :(

I hear you. I wake up in the middle of the night and the first thing I do is check if both of my boobs are still there. WTF?

kaiarose
05-10-2012, 11:22 AM
I hear you. I wake up in the middle of the night and the first thing I do is check if both of my boobs are still there. WTF?

LOL, me toooo!! I don't even sleep on my tummy anymore :( You've had yours for like 10 years though, right?? That gives me hope :)

LAChloe
05-10-2012, 03:16 PM
Yesssss! It will be 10 years in October. I was never able to sleep on my tummy after I got them (I loved sleeping on my tummy, too). But sometimes I get really crazy and I don't even like to sleep on my side. I never was able to sleep on my back before but I try to do it now! When I say my prayers at night I ask God to "protect my boobs"! I know I just need to go get them redone but I love how they are. Sighhhhh....

Natalllia
05-10-2012, 05:21 PM
I need these people OUT of my house. They are triggering my addiction in a bad way, and I am not doing well. I don't blame them, exactly, but sharing a space with people who are indulging in my weakness is really unhealthy. I need to get control of my house, and my life, NOW.

velvet
05-11-2012, 06:12 PM
I wish I would've gotten silicone gel implants... I am so scared of my salines popping and deflating, every single fucking day :(
If it makes you feel any better mine are 14 years old. :)
I didn't have the option to get gels, in fact back in the day silicone was bad. So they do last :)

_Avery_
05-11-2012, 07:14 PM
/rants

charlie61
05-11-2012, 08:05 PM
^ You crazy, girl. I've seen the pics you've posted, and you look seriously good. I was actually wondering, while I was pregnant, if I could ever look as good as you look after having a baby...and you've had two! Glad I'm no longer pregnant...I don't think I could compete! :-*

tempest666
05-11-2012, 08:39 PM
I want bigger tits but I'm fucking scared after seeing this thing on TLC about Sheyla Hershey. She caught a staph infection. What if that happens to me???

LaurenAus
05-11-2012, 09:01 PM
I would really like to smoke a joint and then make sweet sweet love all night (or something like that) but I am sooo single right now so it aint happening

kitinboots
05-12-2012, 10:57 AM
I fell asleep on the kitchen table last night.

charlie61
05-12-2012, 01:57 PM
I would really like to smoke a joint and then make sweet sweet love all night (or something like that) but I am sooo single right now so it aint happening

Guuurl...get it on with tha self-luvv.

:D

kaiarose
05-12-2012, 03:03 PM
Rolled with my husband after work last night... Have yet to sleep and I have to go to work in about an hour and a half :/ We had amazing sex though :) Our hands, tongues, mouths and fingers were everywhere! OMG!

LaurenAus
05-12-2012, 07:47 PM
Rolled with my husband after work last night... Have yet to sleep and I have to go to work in about an hour and a half :/ We had amazing sex though :) Our hands, tongues, mouths and fingers were everywhere! OMG!

woahh not cool kaia especially after my last post in this thread

DesuvsDeath
05-13-2012, 12:25 AM
It's so completely stupid... but I've never had a man treat me as well and make me feel as important as the fucking international rockstar I had a fling with earlier this year.
...this is effecting my feelings toward my new relationship. I KNOW it's unfair to compare them... but in my head I'm like "Well xxxx blah blah and xxxx doesn't. /SADFACE"

I'd like to stop doing this now please.

Jessie_tinydancer
05-13-2012, 01:47 AM
I'm losing weight, and am down to 123lbs now.
I just still hate my body.
and I have to keep telling myself it will never be as tight and toned as it was before kids...not matter how much weight I lose.
Yet, I still want to keep dropping pounds and keep exercising just to SEE if it happens to get any better.
and I realize I'm the most critical on myself, yet...I just want to like what I see naked and the fact that I still feel like I look lumpy, I don't like it. AT ALL!
and the numbers on the scale make me happy, yet my reflection is making me depressed.

it's so fucking stupid and I wish I could just be satisfied that I AM losing weight and I AM sooo much healthier....but no matter what numbers I see, I don't see 123lbs in the mirror. I still see a fat, lumpy girl. No boobs, no ass, pudgy and like I would be made fun of or laughed at and its my paranoia...and boooo.. uuuggghghghghghg

I need to stop venting so much.
Why is venting on FB and SW therapy to me?? I'm pathetic.

1- you are not seeing yourself as you truly appear. Remember you had bub 1 really young. You compare yourself to pics under 20... No one looks like a teenager when they are a women, babies or not.

2- I know a lot of moms who have freaking hot bodies. One of my friends had her first baby at 30 and she's since had another and her body looks better than ever before. How? Through training 6 days a week and eating healthy. She never did that in her 20s. Another one of my friends is in her 40s and has 3 kids and the hottest body of anyone I know. She just has to work a lot harder to get it. I'm just saying this to motivate you. You can reach your goals it might just mean a little harder work to get there.

anouk.oui
05-13-2012, 02:44 AM
when i think back to the other night when my ex and i ended up sleeping together my brains just running circles around:

- the confusion of our emotional rollercoaster relationship and where to go from here
&
- wow i cant remember the last time i had sex this hot, cant even think about it without blushing [with embarassment...and self-indulgence]

when im good, im good. but when im bad, im better! meow! :p

mediocrity
05-13-2012, 02:53 AM
Rolled with my husband after work last night... Have yet to sleep and I have to go to work in about an hour and a half :/ We had amazing sex though :) Our hands, tongues, mouths and fingers were everywhere! OMG!

I remember last year, the last time my hubs and I did drugs together. I literally licked the sweat off of his neck. Sounds disgusting, but it so wasn't.

Aaaaand now I'm nostalgic.

noelle
05-13-2012, 10:45 AM
I am very jealous of women who have close relationships with their mothers.

charlie61
05-13-2012, 01:58 PM
1- you are not seeing yourself as you truly appear. Remember you had bub 1 really young. You compare yourself to pics under 20... No one looks like a teenager when they are a women, babies or not.


I love this statement. It reminds me of how creepy it is to see unhealthy, 40 year-old women at the grocery store wearing size 0 jeans from American Eagle. There's something intensely sexy about looking like a woman. I'm not dissing healthy, athletic, thin women at all by saying that...this has nothing to do with small breasts / large breasts, big hips / small hips. But as long as you're healthy and you treat your body well, then you probably look pretty damn good.

velvet
05-13-2012, 09:25 PM
I love this statement. It reminds me of how creepy it is to see unhealthy, 40 year-old women at the grocery store wearing size 0 jeans from American Eagle. There's something intensely sexy about looking like a woman. I'm not dissing healthy, athletic, thin women at all by saying that...this has nothing to do with small breasts / large breasts, big hips / small hips. But as long as you're healthy and you treat your body well, then you probably look pretty damn good.

Being that age and super skinny just ages you more. Most of all through the neck and cheekbones.

DesuvsDeath
05-13-2012, 10:56 PM
I feel like there's something I'm missing.

anouk.oui
05-14-2012, 06:05 AM
i used to feel like that all the time too when i was younger desu.
i found obsessing over finding whats missing made me feel more empty. like when you tell yourself on repeat at night 'fall asleep already think of sleeeeep' keeps you awake. i know this is probably bad advice but by living as recklessly and spontaneously as i could i found all the meaning i could possibly would have hoped for in the shape of friends, memories and experiences.

sometimes i miss those times. i felt a lot more free when i was on rock bottom and absolutely nothing to lose. remember the only way you can go from there is up.

just try not to get arrested kay? :]
xx

JayATee
05-15-2012, 05:52 AM
I feel like I am driving myself absolutely crazy over this entire situation. First I felt bad for his ex (who he fucked when I was 5mos pregnant) because of how much it must've fucked with her head. I mean, I didn't understand at the time why she'd gone so fucking insane after that visit, I mean they'd been split for 3yrs at that point, in my head I was wondering why she was acting like it was only yesterday. But once I found out, it made perfect sense and I really do feel sorry for her. I mean, truthfully, he doesn't want her. And honestly, she lives in Arizona, so it's not like I have to worry about them seeing eachother, plus she's got a kid with him too, so it's not like I can do anything about the fact that they need to have some communication. So as time has gone on, she's become less of the issue.

The other girl however (the 19 yr old who he fucked at a party when I was 8mos pregnant) has dominated my thoughts for the last week. I messaged her on fb when I found out, told her I knew yadda yadda yadda and asked that she at least have SOME respect for me and stop speaking to him. The bitch actually had the nerve to DENY she actually fucked him. However, in an effort to check my temper (something not easy for me to do) I decided she herself doesn't matter. The act itself is what the problem is. I told him what my ground rules were if I were going to stay. I said I was only willing to work on this if those conditions were met. He seems to be trying.

The problem is what's in my own head. Everytime he attempts to touch me, all I'm thinking about is her. Beause honestly, I know he didn't fuck her (either of them actually) any differently than he fucks me ((as much as I despise the term "make love") he's got one setting - porn star - and that's it) so what's the difference if he SAYS he loves me if the sex is no different between me and anyone else? So how am I supposed to have sex with him?

Besides that I don't trust him to actually stop talking to her. I just told him I want her blocked on fb. I'm also going to tell him I want her deleted from his phone. But all of this is eating away at me. I've NEVER been this girl. I've never gone through anyone else's shit. I've never been constantly wondering and caring about who my SO is talking to. I've never dealt with any of this because the one other person that cheated on me, I left. So wtf do I do? I know time etc. But still. Right now, how do I keep from going insane??

/rambling rant over.

mediocrity
05-15-2012, 02:41 PM
^^ Oh damn. I thought your baby was both of your only child. That makes everything so much more complicated.

I'm like you, I'm not a spaz when it comes to who my husband talks to etc (I've often told him "We don't have to like all of each other's friends") but if he cheated on me.. yeah. Contact with her CEASES. He broke the trust, he gets his "privileges" revoked if he wants you to stick it out.

I don't blame you for not wanting to have sex with him. Don't force yourself until you're ready. If he really wants to work it out, he will ride through the dry spell while you heal.

Somehow I doubt this is his first infraction. Did he do this to his ex as well?

JayATee
05-15-2012, 03:18 PM
^^ Oh damn. I thought your baby was both of your only child. That makes everything so much more complicated.

I'm like you, I'm not a spaz when it comes to who my husband talks to etc (I've often told him "We don't have to like all of each other's friends") but if he cheated on me.. yeah. Contact with her CEASES. He broke the trust, he gets his "privileges" revoked if he wants you to stick it out.

I don't blame you for not wanting to have sex with him. Don't force yourself until you're ready. If he really wants to work it out, he will ride through the dry spell while you heal.

Somehow I doubt this is his first infraction. Did he do this to his ex as well?

I don't know what to believe honestly. You ever notice how once you know the person you get kinda inside info and the ex is NEVER as crazy as they made them out to be? He swears he's never cheated before. Take it for what it's worth I guess.... that's not much right now.

luscious sadie
05-15-2012, 03:45 PM
I think that trust is earned. If he broke your trust, he should have to earn it back - if he wants it back.

your emotional needs aren't being met so maybe his sexual needs shouldn't be met... especially if the two are tied together as much as they are.

JayATee
05-15-2012, 04:41 PM
I think that trust is earned. If he broke your trust, he should have to earn it back - if he wants it back.

your emotional needs aren't being met so maybe his sexual needs shouldn't be met... especially if the two are tied together as much as they are.


I think that trust is earned. If he broke your trust, he should have to earn it back - if he wants it back.

your emotional needs aren't being met so maybe his sexual needs shouldn't be met... especially if the two are tied together as much as they are.

I don't feel bad about the no sex aspect right now. Everytime he puts his hands on me it's all I think about, so clearly, I'm not ready. However, I'm just trying to figure out how to, at some point, not feel sick by the prospect, if I've decided I'm going to attempt to work this out one more time, which I guess is where I'm at right now.


^^^My husband's ex is much much MUCH more crazier than he made her out to be. Like legit sociopath crazy. Really odd because I was prepared for the opposite based on the "my ex is crazy" word of mouth theory and that bitch fucking blindsided me. I'm supposed to make nice with her the next time I see her for the sake of the child, but that would require for me to be near her and I don't think I could keep my composure. I can handle a lot of things, but someone assuming I'm a dumb ass is not one of them.

Anyway...I believe the traditional path is valid in your case. Men call women crazy to dismiss their feelings. If he's messed around on her like he's messed around on you (definitely in the camp that says he has), she has a reason to be "crazy". And you do too, not that you are. You're having a rational response to a situation that calls for it and him trying to force his way past that stage is manipulative and shows a lack of remorse. Does staying away from him help a bit?

LoL, I thought as I was writing it that of course there's gonna be the exception. Geez honey, sorry you've gotta make nice. You must be a strong woman because I don't know that I could do it. I really do have quite the temper. I'm truthfully dreading having to meet his ex because I want to punch her in the face.

I wanted to go away or something for the weekend. It's not really possible. He was just finally arraigned for the DWI he got in March. His driving privileges have been revoked until the end of the month at least, which means I need to drive him to work etc. Plus he works a weird schedule, and I work the days he doesn't, so even if I wanted to disappear for a few days, he needs to take the baby one day and I have her the next.... it's not feasible. :(

Thanks for the suggestions, commiseration, and letting me just all out vent at you guys. I would really be losing it otherwise. :hug:

Kisca
05-17-2012, 12:38 AM
My boyfriend is the best, he folded the 2 piles of laundry when I came home.

JayATee
05-17-2012, 06:42 AM
I've decided to see a therapist, even though I hate them, because I don't think I can stop being angry on my own... I don't know how to stop being furious at him, or at the other women... so wish me luck.... I dunno what else to do...

sammii
05-17-2012, 04:03 PM
I'm so sad that I can't take my dog with me when I move. I know my mom will take very good care of her and I know I can visit, but I love my little girl more than anything and I'll really miss her. My boyfriend keeps saying "we can buy you another puppy." I don't want another puppy. It's not the same. I just want my baby. :(

Just finished singing "you are so beautiful to meeeee" to my puppy while snuggling her. I probably look like an idiot.

sananeko
05-17-2012, 05:07 PM
I'm so sad that I can't take my dog with me when I move. I know my mom will take very good care of her and I know I can visit, but I love my little girl more than anything and I'll really miss her. My boyfriend keeps saying "we can buy you another puppy." I don't want another puppy. It's not the same. I just want my baby. :(

Just finished singing "you are so beautiful to meeeee" to my puppy while snuggling her. I probably look like an idiot.
Why can't your dog come with you?

sammii
05-17-2012, 05:15 PM
She technically belongs to my mother, and she won't let me take her.

charlie61
05-17-2012, 06:23 PM
I've decided to see a therapist, even though I hate them, because I don't think I can stop being angry on my own... I don't know how to stop being furious at him, or at the other women... so wish me luck.... I dunno what else to do...

I'd recommend calling the psychology department at whatever hospital / clinic you choose, and asking if they have triage nurses around. If you can get someone who does triage on the phone, then they'll be able to set you up with a therapist who specializes in your area of concern. It's better than starting off with someone random.

sananeko
05-17-2012, 09:18 PM
She technically belongs to my mother, and she won't let me take her.

thats a shame.

kleptomaniac
05-17-2012, 10:54 PM
I was supposed to meet my friend at the bar tonight for his 21st birthday. I feel so bad but I'm home in bed eating cereal and snuggling with my kitty and I don't want to get dressed and go out into the world. Hopefully he forgets...

Bigsoftandwet1
05-18-2012, 08:51 AM
I found a new thing i like and i want 2 get into but i know it is sort of impossible to be profitable... its financial domination; plus it is soooooo many women in this industry, i would have never thought of taking it seriously but i lucked up last thursday without even trying, i was having a horrible week camming , like I literally made $3(freaking unheard of.. nobody could have that kinda messed up shit happening 2 them but me lol), I was just on the brink of breaking down and crying, I was so bored and pissed off by all the freeloaders and creepy watchers (but no body payin) that i decided to do other things like read my emails and surf the net while waiting for a worth while customer. I recieved a message from this guy that was not quite like the others i usually get ... offering me money weekly until the end of the year with no strings and that i wouldnt have to do anything but be myself. just for amusement, i contacted him back, he seemed nice enough , not really pervy or anything.. so as we talked a lil more he basically was ready to prove he was serious 2 me... any way a long story short he ended up sending me $4000 to my paypal account. i couldn't believe it the whole day i just kept going back looking at it. the next day i cashed it out lol just incase but any way now im hooked lol and i want to get into this... i wasnt even thinking abvout this kind of fetish, he just contacted me out of the blue... 2 say the least our contact with each other was over in 2 days because of some extra stuff which is another long story ... im just getting over the dissappointment of all that now(seriously)... but any how, it may not ever happen to me again but i dam sho hope so... so im willing to find out what i can do to find out more about this fetish. Thanks ladies 4 letting me vent and if any one wants to help guide me in the right direction or have tips for me please pm me if you like discretion.