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Jessie_tinydancer
06-10-2012, 06:47 PM
http://www.low-carb.com/atarfatfa.html

I really want to try this but my brain needs sugar too much for school, so I'll have to wait till I have a week off.

BOTM have u ever tried the anti-candida diet? Its literally no sugar... As in no fruit, extremely low sugar containing veggies, lots of protien and green veggies, water only and read every label... Literally if anything had any sugar - no! No sauces.

I did it for 6 weeks and it was really hard the first 2 days but after that really easy. I dropped around 20lbs without working out and had so much energy and felt amazing. I didn't struggle mentally at all... Although I would agree to not try it during exams are a heavy assignment period just in case. I did it for a candidia cleanse and the weight loss was just a secondary bonus. After I stopped I have always watched my sugar intake and try to keep it low where possible. I wish I had the will power to do it again but I can't give up alcohol and all my protien shakes/ bars have sugar...

Kat w
06-11-2012, 11:00 AM
That's an anxiety attack miss :( and it sucks. Mine used to be chest pain now I get a numb left arm...and respiratory distress... Fuuuuun :(

Oh shit ... womp. Thanks, maybe I should talk to someone about that.

luscious sadie
06-12-2012, 11:51 AM
I have enough Aeroplan points to get me and my man to Florida FOR FREE. I am going to save anywhere from 1-1.5k+ just by cutting out that expense!!!

_Avery_
06-15-2012, 08:20 AM
So jealous of girls with best friends.
I'm so lame, but I wish I had a best friend! lol

kaiarose
06-15-2012, 11:06 AM
So jealous of girls with best friends.
I'm so lame, but I wish I had a best friend! lol

:(
The thing about bff's is that they know all your dirty secrets and if one day you're not bff's anymore, you're usually worst enemies and they got a whole bunch of ammo. Plus in my situation with my bff, she is also my biggest competition at work...ugh

Kellydancer
06-15-2012, 11:17 AM
I once had a best friend but dumped her because she was friend from hell. She did everything bad and when I got her into stripping she became a stereotypical stripper who slept with many guys, did many drugs and had a life that was a soap opera. In fact the Jerry Springer Show wanted her on the show. I had to ditch her because what was acceptable at 20 was not at 40. My parents hated her.

kaiarose
06-15-2012, 11:21 AM
I've been wanting to confess this forever.....
I'm in love with my husband's best friend :/
I love my husband a million times more but a little piece of my heart wants his bff... sigh....

Kellydancer
06-15-2012, 12:36 PM
There is a new guy that I have been checking out for a few weeks and he's not my typical attraction I find him attractive because of his personality. Anyway he has a beard (which I generally hate on men)and all I keep thinking about is how it would feel for him to go down on me. I even had a dream about this last night and I think I had an orgasm in my dream.

glitzy
06-16-2012, 09:33 PM
my 22 year old sister had been a meth addict for a year, it's tearing my family apart and there's nothing we can really do. we've sent her to rehab, she's been locked up for stealing, abused by her boyfriend, homeless, now being pimped out for drugs and wearing rags with sores all over her face. last i saw her she was full blown hallucinating, her face was bleeding, and she had to be 105 lbs MAX (this girl is 5'11").

i was so emotionally invested but now i just feel like...she's died or something. like it's totally out of my hands. and i am worried about seeing her again because she's so different from my sister just two years ago that it feels like i'm looking at a stranger. it's fucked up.

charlie61
06-16-2012, 10:09 PM
my 22 year old sister had been a meth addict for a year, it's tearing my family apart and there's nothing we can really do. we've sent her to rehab, she's been locked up for stealing, abused by her boyfriend, homeless, now being pimped out for drugs and wearing rags with sores all over her face. last i saw her she was full blown hallucinating, her face was bleeding, and she had to be 105 lbs MAX (this girl is 5'11").

i was so emotionally invested but now i just feel like...she's died or something. like it's totally out of my hands. and i am worried about seeing her again because she's so different from my sister just two years ago that it feels like i'm looking at a stranger. it's fucked up.

Wow. That has to be incredibly difficult. :grouphug:

junigirl
06-16-2012, 10:52 PM
A customer came in his pants today. I was so tired from 5 hrs of lecture followed by an 8 hr shift, I didn't realize what was happening. I was basically half asleep during the "dance," which was basically me sitting in his lap and slowly moving side to side. Normally I don't do this but I was so tired, I could barely stand for the last hr of the shift (I'm also on a diet so I didn't have a whole lot of calories). I didnt even realize what happened till I turned around and he was giving me a weird look. I got up and realized my ass was wet :(. I have never felt so disgusted and degraded in my life. Im so depressed now. I immediately started crying and cried all through check out, driving home, and 40 minutes after that. I'm still crying now. I hate this job so much. I hate everything about it. I know the $$ is worth it but lately even when I do well I dont care. $$ doesn't mean anything to me anymore yet when I run out I also hate life and find new energy to work. I made $700 tonight and I wish I could give it all away for just a little bit more sanity. I wish I could take a lot of time off but I need $5000 for tuition ASAP. So off I go tomorrow to that fucking hellhole. :(


HUGGGGG for you! Sorry it sucks. Just keep focusing on your exit plan to get your education and get out of that. Eeks. That is a total mental mindf*ck. But just try to listen to relaxing music, think about the positives about you doing school.
By the way do you qualify for any student loans or fafsa? You'd be surprised that you might even be able to get grants. So you wont have to work as much or maybe can afford to try working at a different club if it's the club? Hang in there, get your education, and be proud of yourself for successfully using it as a stepping stone.
Also you need to treat yourself to an inexpensive spa or just sit in a steam room and relax.

_Avery_
06-17-2012, 06:50 AM
my 22 year old sister had been a meth addict for a year, it's tearing my family apart and there's nothing we can really do. we've sent her to rehab, she's been locked up for stealing, abused by her boyfriend, homeless, now being pimped out for drugs and wearing rags with sores all over her face. last i saw her she was full blown hallucinating, her face was bleeding, and she had to be 105 lbs MAX (this girl is 5'11").

i was so emotionally invested but now i just feel like...she's died or something. like it's totally out of my hands. and i am worried about seeing her again because she's so different from my sister just two years ago that it feels like i'm looking at a stranger. it's fucked up.

That's an extremely powerful drug. I was "in love" with that drug for 3 years from 16-19.
and I was in a lot of the same situations your sister is. I never had anyone telling me to stop though...I would get high with my parents.
It got to the point for me where it just wasn't fun anymore. I don't think anyone can tell her when to stop, you just gotta hope that hopefully she'll have enough..and hopefully soon before something horrible happens. (as if everything she's already been through/going through isn't enough.) :(

Hopefully she will realize that she has people who care about her and love her. I'm sorry you're going through this, and I hope everything will work itself out in the end.
Just, don't give up on her. Just let her know that you're still there....no matter what. <3 <3

junigirl
06-17-2012, 12:46 PM
^^i don't qualify for financial aid right now but I may in a year. And I'm definitely pampering, I feel a lot better. Got a new nice flat iron, new extensions, $200 shopping trip at Sephora, and I have 2 different types of facials scheduled for the next month, in addition to getting my hair lightened again this week. Im still saving $$ for tuition but this pampering is much needed and I feel so much better. I ended up having a great night last night (almost $1300) when everyone else did shitty so I definitely feel better. I think I was the top earner in paper, which is unheard of because im the cleanest girl there.
Woohoo! Glad you're feeling better. Always remember to nurture yourself after a disturbing experience to help yourself heal and get back to ok. Yes definitely try applying for financial aid. You might qualify for government loans which are low interest and some are subsidized which means you don't have to pay the interest while in school. So you might not get any grants, which are like loans you don't have to pay back , but you might qualify for the government loans. Stay away from sallie Mae their interest rates are crazy and these days I think its much harder to qualify(need very decent credit).
Oh and a yoga or Pilates class can be relaxing and help with natural endorphins. Good luck hun and keep saving that money!

smeca
06-17-2012, 04:13 PM
I confess I am still so embarrassed about a ONS/repeat casual thing that happened in the past. I occasionally still cross paths iwth the guy and a mutual friend, who still gives me jip for it. Even I don't know why I wetn with him - harsh but i was just young and crazy and learning the casual thing, and now i just can see why everyone would makes jokes/gossip. And I don't know how to get past this embarassment, when around the mutual friend and now to myself, i'm embarassed to myself, it's that bad lol :s Or is it that he's still around, or do you just ignore the bad sex choices forever? blergh

glitzy
06-17-2012, 04:19 PM
That's an extremely powerful drug. I was "in love" with that drug for 3 years from 16-19.
and I was in a lot of the same situations your sister is. I never had anyone telling me to stop though...I would get high with my parents.
It got to the point for me where it just wasn't fun anymore. I don't think anyone can tell her when to stop, you just gotta hope that hopefully she'll have enough..and hopefully soon before something horrible happens. (as if everything she's already been through/going through isn't enough.) :(

Hopefully she will realize that she has people who care about her and love her. I'm sorry you're going through this, and I hope everything will work itself out in the end.
Just, don't give up on her. Just let her know that you're still there....no matter what. <3 <3

thanks for giving me hope and that's incredible that you were able to kick it with minimal help! i hope your family is doing better as well.
she says she wants to quit sometimes and when she has come down she realizes how bad her situation is but it just seems that she's so caught up in the cycles and the lifestyle.

Vyanka
06-17-2012, 10:10 PM
Tomorrow I will be getting a tca peel. Hopefully I won't bump into hot men.....looking like a swollen red tomatoe.

anouk.oui
06-18-2012, 10:04 AM
i made a FB page for my fashion label today!
im gonna slowly start spreading the word.....
take a look/like/share

keeping the blues out of this for now coz..... its a label for chicks and i dont wanna get fb stalked.

so i may or may not delete this later

http://www.facebook.com/reformedsinner

<3

im putting 10-12 hr workdays into this hence why im tired as fuck and never around to do stripperweb lurkin =]

sammii
06-18-2012, 07:18 PM
^ The paper dress is so cool looking.

anouk.oui
06-18-2012, 08:34 PM
thanks hehe i made it in like 2 days for fuckdoll's [now current housemate's] band's gig to distract myself from mum's cancer scare.

now i feel like my life aint a total waste :D xx

aussiebelle
06-19-2012, 05:21 AM
i made a FB page for my fashion label today!
im gonna slowly start spreading the word.....
take a look/like/share

<3


Didn't want to quote the link in case you delete but I'm liking your page :) and loving that dress you made! You're so talented.

spf
06-19-2012, 05:28 AM
Tomorrow I will be getting a tca peel. Hopefully I won't bump into hot men.....looking like a swollen red tomatoe.

Oooo! Let us know how it turns out! I want one, but I'm scared.

anouk.oui
06-19-2012, 05:41 AM
Didn't want to quote the link in case you delete but I'm liking your page :) and loving that dress you made! You're so talented.

thanks hun<3
*quickly lurks*
you are babin' by the way :D

aussiebelle
06-19-2012, 05:58 AM
thanks hun<3
*quickly lurks*
you are babin' by the way :D

Aww thanks babes :) you're hot stuff yourself!

_Avery_
06-19-2012, 03:02 PM
delete

charlie61
06-19-2012, 05:56 PM
^ :grouphug:

I'm not going to say "that sucks" because I hate it when people say that (it's such a meaningless, disingenuous phrase). But I feel for you.

Vyanka
06-19-2012, 08:08 PM
Oooo! Let us know how it turns out! I want one, but I'm scared.

I didn't do it. I'm gonna wait til fall/winter. Instead I got restalyne injected into my smile lines. I hate it a lot. First and last time doing this. Getting it removed Friday.

glitzy
06-20-2012, 03:06 AM
That's always the weirdest feeling...when work becomes the "safe" place.

kaiarose
06-20-2012, 09:26 AM
Aww, Avery :( I feel bad for sending you that text about caveman and her friend yesterday :/ Especially since I know how shitty things have been for you, I go and make you feel worse. I just wanted to apologize for being such a petty friend..

michele11
06-20-2012, 11:08 AM
I didn't do it. I'm gonna wait til fall/winter. Instead I got restalyne injected into my smile lines. I hate it a lot. First and last time doing this. Getting it removed Friday.

If done right you should love it. What don't you like about it? Remember hylraunaise the stuff they use to get rid of it doesn't know the difference between the reatalyne and real tissue so you could end up looking worse. It's possible it's just bunched up( not sure because you didn't specify the problem) but if so they can break it up and fix it at least my doctor did mine.

Vyanka
06-20-2012, 01:30 PM
If done right you should love it. What don't you like about it? Remember hylraunaise the stuff they use to get rid of it doesn't know the difference between the reatalyne and real tissue so you could end up looking worse. It's possible it's just bunched up( not sure because you didn't specify the problem) but if so they can break it up and fix it at least my doctor did mine.

Ah. That's scary. I guess i'll leave it.

I got it done on Monday, so I don't want to judge too quick until all the swelling is gone. My left looks more poofy but then again that side was more pronounced(odd, I know). I loved it as soon as he did it though, he told me that would be the result. But when swelling happened that same night, I was hating it. I started icing yesterday and its helping. I have no bruising though. Just swelling.

_Avery_
06-20-2012, 03:33 PM
Aww, Avery :( I feel bad for sending you that text about caveman and her friend yesterday :/ Especially since I know how shitty things have been for you, I go and make you feel worse. I just wanted to apologize for being such a petty friend..

noo..don't worry at all!
I was being completely stupid that night.
Was buzzed, and just not caring. So it's a good thing you brought it up...especially before anyone else said anything.
It made me realize that even though I *thought* I was doing good not drinking as much, that I still am..so it made me realize that 1 and I'm done for now on lol.

No worries at all. <3

michele11
06-20-2012, 04:25 PM
Ah. That's scary. I guess i'll leave it.

I got it done on Monday, so I don't want to judge too quick until all the swelling is gone. My left looks more poofy but then again that side was more pronounced(odd, I know). I loved it as soon as he did it though, he told me that would be the result. But when swelling happened that same night, I was hating it. I started icing yesterday and its helping. I have no bruising though. Just swelling.

Yeah wait and see. I love mine the first few days , then I think I need more in certain areas, then it evens out. It settles and attracts water. It's weird because right now I'm 6 months out and some days I'm like I need to get it done now and other days it looks new?

Vyanka
06-20-2012, 05:30 PM
Yeah wait and see. I love mine the first few days , then I think I need more in certain areas, then it evens out. It settles and attracts water. It's weird because right now I'm 6 months out and some days I'm like I need to get it done now and other days it looks new?

Yeah, my first time so I freaked the fuck out. It's starting to go down a lot more & soften up. Thank God.

Jessie_tinydancer
06-20-2012, 09:35 PM
It pisses me off that some blue seems to have a personal crusade against being heathy and fit because it's "anorexia". Dude I have a degree in sport which covered nutrition and physiology and study medicine (all be it animals but it's exactly the same physiology) a BMI index is a guideline not the fucking bible. To be what he considers healthy I'd have to eat McDonald's 3 times a week and stop working out all together - but thank god I'd be eliminating my healthy risks... Retard!!!

Jessie_tinydancer
06-20-2012, 09:43 PM
Yeah, my first time so I freaked the fuck out. It's starting to go down a lot more & soften up. Thank God.

I get it and I love it... I don't really get swelling though but my girl uses juvederm ultra and she is seriously a master with a needle...never bruised or swollen.

michele11
06-21-2012, 05:50 AM
It pisses me off that some blue seems to have a personal crusade against being heathy and fit because it's "anorexia". Dude I have a degree in sport which covered nutrition and physiology and study medicine (all be it animals but it's exactly the same physiology) a BMI index is a guideline not the fucking bible. To be what he considers healthy I'd have to eat McDonald's 3 times a week and stop working out all together - but thank god I'd be eliminating my healthy risks... Retard!!!
I was the first one in that thread he called underweight/ unhealthy. Guys shouldn't even be allowed to post over there. it's bad enough we have to deal with that shit at work and as dancers we don't need it here and you have a perfect body, were about the same height and weight but you are more muscular than me because you workout more. Yeah he's annoying as fuck! My moms an R.N. and he doesn't know what he's talking about. This is mean but maube his wife is 300 pounds so he's hating on thin people to make himself eel better.....like of were unhealthy too?

Jessie_tinydancer
06-21-2012, 11:46 AM
^ughhh hes so misinformed but theres no telling him... I know he has no clue. I don't know why I let it get to me... Im not the best example of health I know I have my own vices but I do know what health is Ive spend thousands of dollars and hundreds of hours more than he has learning about it. grrrrrr douche...

MyButter
06-21-2012, 12:37 PM
I'm going through some major dancing withdrawals, lmao. Every time I listen to music all I can think of is being on stage and dancing! This suxor!!

In other confessional news I cabbage patched my way home from the grocery store last night--hahaha. Good thing it was dark :p

mediocrity
06-21-2012, 08:57 PM
I wish my brother would leave his wife. She's 100lbs overweight, has a shitty attitude, and they don't have sex. He says he loves her and while part of me admires him for sticking by her, the other knows he could do so. much. better.

Vyanka
06-21-2012, 09:18 PM
I get it and I love it... I don't really get swelling though but my girl uses juvederm ultra and she is seriously a master with a needle...never bruised or swollen.Swelling is gone and I like it now. :) that swelling freaked me the fuck out. If I decide to do this again, i'll use juvederm. I did restylane first since I'm a filler virgin. Even though I had a small amount put in my nasal folds, it makes my cheeks look fuller, natural, and healthy. :)

sammii
06-22-2012, 12:21 AM
A homeless guy was by my kiosk all day (8 hours at least), just standing at the rail and staring at the elevator. I didn't know he was homeless until my boss told me. I really wanted to offer to buy him food, but I was worried it would offend him, so I didn't say anything. I wish I would have asked anyway. I feel bad.

anouk.oui
06-22-2012, 03:59 AM
stupidly OCD over my clothing label. but it makes me SO EXCITED
i wish i had a solid and lucrative customer base so i could skip work tonight alltogether...

sananeko
06-22-2012, 04:16 AM
stupidly OCD over my clothing label. but it makes me SO EXCITED
i wish i had a solid and lucrative customer base so i could skip work tonight alltogether...

well i saved your link to keep watch. I love interesting clothes.

MyButter
06-22-2012, 07:31 AM
So after over 7 years of stripping full time without any vacations (sans during late pregnancy) I must confess that I am rather enjoying having a muff, lol.

anouk.oui
06-22-2012, 11:59 AM
ah so i havnt been updating my groupie ventures but those of you who kinda know stuff... i moved into fuckdolls house. strictly as housemates and friends. i used to sleep with him, but since he came back from tour the spark was just over.

before i moved i kinda always wondered what it would be like when i moved in and he had a girl over for the night. and he does tonight and i dont care! its great! whenever i think sex with him i just remember 10mins of begging not to use condoms, rubbing my clit so hard it almost falls off, 5 mins of hardcore thrusting in an awkward position then listening to him play guitar and sing songs about his ex gf for the rest of the night. fuck. that!

id rather just lie in bed and watch sex and the city thanks. i find it more fulfilling lol.

my [potsmoker] ex and i are kinda on and off atm.... i dont think i ever stopped loving him and spending more time with him lately reignited what was missing. i hope he takes an initiative instead of just waiting for me to make all the decisions and come to him.
honestly dont care as much about the pot smoking as i thought. my only concern is the changes i saw in him after heavier use i just dont want him to ruin his health and have his brain turned to shit. but i love him and i want to be with him. le sigh

anouk.oui
06-22-2012, 01:25 PM
LOL! Wow that's great. Do you pay rent? I hope not ;)

of course are you kidding? hes an unfit for life musician who lives off his unemployment checks. im lucky when he doesnt eat my food. at least hes vegan so i just put cheese on EVERYTHING lol.

but hes a good friend and i like him strictly as a friend i honestly never check him out even. he did get a hot new drummer for the band though :D and they all hang out at my house. WIN!

OliveJardin
06-22-2012, 04:02 PM
but i love him and i want to be with him. le sigh

^Sometimes I think it would be easier if we didn't lol. The bf CAN'T cope with dancing at all and I'm at a loss atm. I'm not the first girl to say that and I won't be the last. I knew what I was getting myself into and I refuse to complain about it, but you summed up what I was just thinking Anouk, "I love him and I want to be with him. Le sigh!" (especially the "Le sigh" part lol).

sammii
06-22-2012, 08:38 PM
Me: Do you like Katy Perry? My manager: Not really, but you kind of remind me of her. Me: What do you mean? My manager: You look like her. Your face just reminds me of hers.

OMG, best compliment ever. I don't look like her, but I'm still flattered. I hate it when people say I look like Lea Michele, but I'll take Katy Perry as a compliment any day. I love her.

anouk.oui
06-23-2012, 12:19 AM
^Sometimes I think it would be easier if we didn't lol. The bf CAN'T cope with dancing at all and I'm at a loss atm. I'm not the first girl to say that and I won't be the last. I knew what I was getting myself into and I refuse to complain about it, but you summed up what I was just thinking Anouk, "I love him and I want to be with him. Le sigh!" (especially the "Le sigh" part lol).

i dont know i mean both him AND you knew it was going to be an issue in the beginning and decided to be together anyway. but honestly, if i were you on one hand its like i wont know if i could tolerate a man tell me what to do with my life [and who knows how many other things you like/do he will have a problem with hed want you to quit afterwards], but at the same time if i knew this person and i could have a future together and i dont NEED to be dancing [like if i didnt go to uni/my business was fine/i had heaps of money saved up anyway/ he offered to pull his weight paying rent or something] i would honestly find something else to do. its about prioritising and i dont whilst i want to be financially secure for the rest of my life [you know how important that is for me] i wouldnt say no to a man i could be with coz i feel like i would regret it later when im old sitting around with my cats thinking what if?

just coz i know youve been torn about this for awhile....... but if i were you i would work my ass for for another 6 months, then quit alltogether and start/buy a business. [and if you hit a rough patch you could always seldom dance every now or then.... but at least you would have other things going to fall back on]

meh
anyway...
all i know is the second i begin to make enough money with my label i will cut down to working once or twice a week......till i could quit alltogether.
but yeh i knew dancing wasnt for me from the beginning maybe thats why im so desparate for a way out...

Jessie_tinydancer
06-25-2012, 01:29 AM
Ive seriously done nothing productive today... exam friday.. trip sunday. Wtf is wrong with me? Snap out of it and get shit done! Im not even going to go to the gym. So lazy!