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Vyanka
09-21-2012, 01:32 PM
Maybe you should go out dancing or work out with him to get in sync physically. You can feel each other out (so to speak). I like to do that so I know if the parts will work together. :D If they don't, there's not much hope.
I met him at a lounge and trust me, I did the dance/boner check. haha. When you're dancing and put your ass on him a little bit to feel the boner. He passed the test there. LOL. If I don't feel a boner to size up, i'll be afraid.
I'm gonna give him two more fucks & see.
Kellydancer
09-21-2012, 02:02 PM
If this latest guy doesn't work out I am going back to having FWBs because I will know that I will never marry and I can't be a saint who never has sex again. I can handle never marrying (though it would piss me off, but life isn't fair)but never having sex again? hell no. I see these people on the religious sites saying God commanded them to be celibate if they aren't married but I figure why should I be punished twice?
michele11
09-21-2012, 03:40 PM
Sounds like he has no patience to please a woman. That's terrible.
Yeah that seems the case with the guys I'm getting. Usually musicians are very passionate and good in bed......not this guy. He was big but couldn't stay rock hard so what's the point of wearing magnums if you can't fill them out and he wanted the lights on and he didn't like it slow and he was kinda clumsy come to think about it. Ugh I was happy when he passed the dick check but a big dick is only good if they know how to use it. Though my ex says most guys won't have the patience to do it the way I like it to make me come?? I've come before with guys before my ex? Idk. Maybe the fourth times the charm.
Vyanka
09-21-2012, 04:45 PM
Yeah that seems the case with the guys I'm getting. Usually musicians are very passionate and good in bed......not this guy. He was big but couldn't stay rock hard so what's the point of wearing magnums if you can't fill them out and he wanted the lights on and he didn't like it slow and he was kinda clumsy come to think about it. Ugh I was happy when he passed the dick check but a big dick is only good if they know how to use it. Though my ex says most guys won't have the patience to do it the way I like it to make me come?? I've come before with guys before my ex? Idk. Maybe the fourth times the charm.
Lol. Of course your ex would say that, so you can think he's the only best one. Haha.
That sucks with the musician with the big Dick that doesn't work.
michele11
09-21-2012, 06:11 PM
Yeah but so far he's been right.....unfourunately.
mediocrity
09-21-2012, 10:33 PM
Yeah but so far he's been right.....unfourunately.
Only because he is mind fucking you into being a self fulfilling prophecy.
Kellydancer
09-22-2012, 04:05 PM
I admit I am picky when it comes to men but would rather be alone than settle. Honestly, I have found when I am the pickiest is when I find exactly what I am looking for.
sammii
09-22-2012, 05:03 PM
Okay, just needed to vent. Still not sure what to do ...
CourtneyRaine
09-24-2012, 12:17 PM
Confession: every time I masturbate I end up crying hysterically afterwards because I always think about my ex that I still love when I am satisfying myself, and after the high of the O I miss him that much more and I weep like a baby. The only time I can masturbate without getting emotional is when I am camming for money, because then it's about the customers and making sure I'm putting on a good show. I fear I shall never feel true satisfaction again.
kitinboots
09-26-2012, 09:55 AM
I've fallen out of love with my boyfriend, but I'm staying with him because I have a huge crush on my boss and don't think I could stop myself if I were single (there are other reasons too, but that is the most important one)
Jessie_tinydancer
09-26-2012, 06:12 PM
^ that made me laugh... I don't know why.
MyButter
09-26-2012, 07:48 PM
I am so addicted to watching amazing auditions for all of the various talent competitions out there, lol x.X
Vyanka
09-27-2012, 12:54 AM
I've been looking at profiles on match. In the profiles, you're allowed to upload up to 20 pics or so. Why is it that men suck at posting pictures? Yeah, its cute when they put pics up of them with their pet but I dont need to see like 10 pictures of his pet alone. Dude. Trying to date you, not your cute dog.
Also, I don't get the picture with the ex in it. Ok, I see you have a type. Would be nice to see you entirely without the bitch in the way.
Other useless pictures....Hats with sunglasses on. Him doing something sporty but still cant see his face due to movement or a wave splashing over his face while surfing. Or, he's on his bike but he didn't remove his helmet to snap a picture. I wanna see your face!
Waste of image space.
kortneykay
09-27-2012, 08:52 PM
I swear he was wearing a tube sock because he passed the test but when his pants came off it was like an erect hot dog with the top sawed off.
http://i48.tinypic.com/hvxm3n.gif
LMAO
My confession is... my husband and I found an amazing video on youtube and I made a gif out of it. Secretly I'm giddy because I can post it randomly when shit cracks me up just like I did here lol.
luscious sadie
09-30-2012, 06:32 PM
two weeks until boobs in Florida with Dr. Revis!!
Kat w
10-01-2012, 04:20 PM
I'm so bored and lonely UGH.
sananeko
10-01-2012, 07:49 PM
I'm more bored and annoyed than bla for how this week has been.
Spinnerette
10-05-2012, 10:18 PM
I hate my brain. Whenever loved ones don't show up when they're supposed to, it automatically starts through the horrific "What If" scenarios (all of which involve them being dead). It makes me beyond anxious. My stomach and my head hurt from this.
Logically, I know he's probably just out there being a "nice guy" and helping his teammates with whatever the fuck and he talks A LOT because he's always searching for stimulating conversation...but it sucks that he forgot his phone so I can't even get a "everything is fine" text in response to the one I sent now so I can calm down and go to bed.
Su Su
10-06-2012, 03:11 AM
I feel like he's gonna be the boyfriend I never had when I was 16.
micio
10-06-2012, 07:42 AM
I hate being mentally ill...I look so normal on the outside with so much torment on the inside.
Arianna419
10-06-2012, 09:10 AM
Work last night was horrible. I returned to dancing 6 weeks ago and haven't had a bad night yet. Last night was atrocious. Left me feeling so depressed. I know everyone has bad nights. The club was dead, it was raining, there was a big football game... a million reasons why it sucked, but it still hits my self confidence.
DreamsInDigital
10-08-2012, 05:57 AM
Work last night was horrible. I returned to dancing 6 weeks ago and haven't had a bad night yet. Last night was atrocious. Left me feeling so depressed. I know everyone has bad nights. The club was dead, it was raining, there was a big football game... a million reasons why it sucked, but it still hits my self confidence.
Girl! I feel like you just EXACTLY described my night last night. Are you sure you work in Ohio?? Lol. I seriously think I left with $10 or less, and I swear I talked to every guy in the club who wasn't occupied with another dancer. I know I need to improve my hustle.....but damn, seriously??
kitinboots
10-10-2012, 03:23 AM
I did the dirty. I cheated on my boyfriend with a mutual friend.
I was planning on breaking up with him soon, but I never planned on cheating. Now I don't know how to act around him.
How did I become this person?
It's clear something is up, since I woke this morning to a note "Why are you being like this your breaking my heart. I love you xxx"
It breaks my heart too, since I hate to hurt him, but I know it's unfair to both of us to keep pretending.
I feel even worse because my second thought after reading this was about the bad grammar.
I'm beginning to think I'm incapable of real love.
_Avery_
10-10-2012, 07:57 AM
Was about to make something to eat, until I look down and see how fucking bloated I am!!
It's my fault, I broke down at work and ordered a bunch of greasy, fried food.
I'm disgusted with myself.
Going to pop some diuretics and laxatives and hope I can get this tummy gone before I go into work tonight...
papillonluvr
10-10-2012, 03:47 PM
Was about to make something to eat, until I look down and see how fucking bloated I am!!
It's my fault, I broke down at work and ordered a bunch of greasy, fried food.
I'm disgusted with myself.
Going to pop some diuretics and laxatives and hope I can get this tummy gone before I go into work tonight...
this makes me :'(
I've been there; I know how it is. All you see is ugly and the imperfections. But really You're such a great person and Mom I hate seeing you hurt yourself like this.
No judging, just empathy.
kitinboots
10-11-2012, 07:40 AM
I did it. I broke up with my boyfriend. He started asking loads of questions about why I was being weird with him and when I told him I didn't want to talk on the phone he realised I was about to leave him.
I broke his heart. I really did. Yesterday was one of the hardest days of my life and he still has to move out. With all the stress, guilt and anxiety since Sunday night I've completely lost my appetite. The past 3 days all I've eaten has been 2 small bowls of porridge and a chicken salad.
Vyanka
10-11-2012, 11:26 AM
Alright, I'm ditching the hottie. He made me go see him and right after sex that wasn't all of that, he fell asleep. I can't with boring in bed. I gave him enough time and still *yawn*. Sucks, he's beautiful and seems like a good guy...which is a hard combo to find. He'd give me beautiful children. I want pretty babies :)
Speaking of pretty babies. Last night i saw the most perfect man. Swedish, tall, tanned, perfect face, blond w blue eyes, perfect real teeth. I told him, he's give me some beautiful children. Lol. Omg.... Like an angel looking. He said the same back. Lol. Damn.... I should've gotten his number. He was candy for my pupils.
LaurenAus
10-11-2012, 05:43 PM
Vyanka I confess that you and me are both a big fan of beautiful men. Off to Europe we go!
Kat w
10-12-2012, 07:08 AM
I'm 5'4" and a dress size 2 and I'm skinny fat! I have lost all of my tone since I stopped dancing, I looove my job but I am a blob and I need to pull it together, I just feel like I don't have the time anymore. Must get motivated.
Vyanka
10-12-2012, 11:47 AM
Vyanka I confess that you and me are both a big fan of beautiful men. Off to Europe we go!
I am. Can't help it. :-D
micio
10-12-2012, 01:02 PM
Struggling with an eating disorder. I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel fat and ugly. I've hardly eaten in days, happy to see I lost 5 lbs but it is never enough. I'm a size 6 and I feel disgusting. Going to audition Tuesday, I need to get my shit together and start feeling somewhat good about myself.
Vyanka
10-12-2012, 01:09 PM
I never hustled a disabled person before. I feel kinda guilty. Why can't I just look at is as someone who enjoys my company in return for cash, instead it feels like i'm taking advantage. I prefer juicing the wallets of married men. It's much easier & I have no guilt trip.
micio
10-12-2012, 01:28 PM
I'm tired of being mentally ill. I hate that my childhood innocence was ripped away from me. I hate that it has caused me mental anguish/disorders, eating disorders and chronic pain. I hope my sob father is rotting in hell for everything he did to me and continues to do to me today. I'm so fucked in the head and yet no one knows a thing. Living behind a facade gets so very old.
_natasha
10-12-2012, 04:33 PM
I have spent far too much money in the last few days... I got my 'trust fund' and just spent more than £10,000 on a car and insuring it. I can't even drive yet. I need to put it away and save it for something worthwhile or I'll regret it so much.
papillonluvr
10-13-2012, 12:39 AM
Struggling with an eating disorder. I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel fat and ugly. I've hardly eaten in days, happy to see I lost 5 lbs but it is never enough. I'm a size 6 and I feel disgusting. Going to audition Tuesday, I need to get my shit together and start feeling somewhat good about myself.
You're not alone. *hugs* I have had an ED since I was 13. I've been recovered for about three years but I struggle very day. And I have a sneaky suspicion a lot of women suffer quietly with "disorders" whether they're eating disorders, depression, anxiety, etc. they're just very quiet about it.
micio
10-13-2012, 08:20 AM
@papillonluvr - Thanks for the support. :) What worked for you to get into recovery? I agree that there are too many people suffering in silence with their disorder/s whatever they may be. I also have Bipolar II and PTSD and it's a daily struggle to get thru the day. I'm just so fucking lost.
papillonluvr
10-14-2012, 07:19 AM
what worked for me, hobestly, was having a child. :/ not always an option for people. and some people with kids still struggle too (I know my Mom did). I was sick with my ED all throughout my pregnancy. After she was born, it kinda shocked me into thinking how I could have seriously harmed her in utero. I went to the doc, ate really really healthy, and gained the right amount of weight. The only time I purged was on days when I binged or ate something "off my list of approved foods", but still, I could have seriously harmed that defenseless baby. :(
So that shocked me into thinking about my ED and how that could really affect my baby girl. I decided I did not want her living and growing up with a Mom who has serious food issues. Even "Sheltering" her from it, she could still see or realize what's going on and internalize all that. That's probably part of what happened to me with my own Mom. I love my mom but still...... Anyways, I looked for a good psychologist/therapist and never found one I clicked with. I did, however, find a GREAT nutritionist who I really liked and went to for a year and who I credit with "curing" me.
So anyways, that's what's really helped keep me in check these past few years. But I still struggle. I still have those urges to binge, purge, starve myself. The psychologists and everyone I've talked to and most of the books I read all said that and ED is like any addiction and you're never truly cured. :(
As for my other issues, I meditate, do yoga, practice martial arts, and read. Those are my calming and coping methods. I also try to stick to a schedule or plan for any deviations from the schedule ahead of time. Even if it's just planning a day at a time, it helps me to know what my day will look like and when things will happen, etc etc. I try to be "spontaneous", but even them, the spontaneity is planned for. As in, "hey I've got three hours free at this time. I'll do something spontaneious and exciting!" hahaha Sometimes, though, Life gets in that way of that and THAT is when I do a 5 minute meditation to calm myself down and deal with any screwball that Life throws at me.
But that's me. Everyone deals with things differently. I've tried many many different methods and probably threw away about 3/4 of them. :)
LaurenAus
10-14-2012, 08:31 AM
omg period plz come..ur freaking me out
kitinboots
10-15-2012, 08:07 AM
If I'm not in love already I will be soon. I'm so happy with him I find it hard to believe. Every little thing he does makes me happy. I never want to lose this feeling.
strippername
10-15-2012, 11:03 PM
Most people annoy the shit out of me but I get nervous when I notice some people haven't posted in a while. I hope they are ok!
papillonluvr
10-16-2012, 06:03 AM
Strippername I feel the same way.
micio
10-17-2012, 05:28 AM
My period is seriously fucking late...I'm scared. I already have one beautiful little girl who's almost 5 but with her special needs (autism and adhd) I'm not sure I can handle another.
_Avery_
10-18-2012, 11:52 AM
Making up a Doctor's note since I walked out Tuesday......haven't been in all week. My first night back...so yeah, don't want to pay any fines (don't even want to fucking be there!!!!!! but have no choice!!!!), so yeah...forging up a dr note.
papillonluvr
10-18-2012, 05:30 PM
Your club makes u bring in dr notes? Wow...
_Avery_
10-19-2012, 03:02 PM
^^lol, yeah...they're psychotic and just want to fine the shit out of girls.
Then they kept it saying "we gotta keep it so girls don't make copies"
lol, that's fine, it's saved on my computer anyway! :D
papillonluvr
10-19-2012, 08:59 PM
LOL I used to forge DR notes when I was in middle and high school to keep out of after-school detention. I couldn't imagine having to do it as an adult.
luscious sadie
10-20-2012, 06:03 AM
I didn't think that new boobs would hurt as much as they do!!!
Vyanka
10-20-2012, 08:15 PM
^ Congrats on the knockers! Did you wind up getting a lift too?
luscious sadie
10-21-2012, 04:54 PM
I'm worried that I went too big with my BA
Jessie_tinydancer
10-23-2012, 06:41 AM
Im so drunk I have to read this with one eye. I feel like my hubby is pissed cause I went out tonight - OTC dinner with customer and 5 other girls. Ive been away working for a week. But damn I needed to blow off some steam. He said hes cool so hopefully Im just worrying. Im a people pleaser so never want anyone disappointed in me.