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Sia
08-03-2013, 09:34 PM
I retired from dancing 2 months ago and it is fucking glorious.

smeca
08-04-2013, 04:30 AM
visiting the bf tomorrow... better stop crushing on my course tutor before then hmmm

cherryblossomsinspring
08-04-2013, 08:53 AM
I'm a major communicator, and I say that you have no reason to tell your potentially-future-maybe boyfriend about your living situation. You guys have no obligations to each other yet. If you were dating, then I'd encourage you to tell him.

It's none of his business unless you decide to make it so. And I honestly think that if you were to bring it up, it'd seem prematurely overly informative. Like starting off a first date by saying "I've slept with 100 people in the last year!"

You should sleep guilt-free on this one.

I agree with charlie.

So this maybe-potentially- when it stops raining, you move closer etc etc and then he'll maybe make you his girlfriend? Eh If you're having to stay with an ex for survival this "maybe-one-day-in-the-future-character doesn't have a leg to stand on. He's not coming with things you need now then he doesn't need to know what you need to do to survive now.

Sleep guilt free.

tuesdaymarie
08-04-2013, 10:42 PM
I love my boyfriend. Because I love him, I am going to make him sit down with me and seriously discuss going to a doctor to treat his anxiety after his summer classes end Tuesday. He cannot handle stress, and I am afraid it is going to literally be the death of him. If one thing goes wrong, he panics and retreats. I have anxiety too, but it is mostly social, and I can function without medication. But I have to talk him through breathing when his anxiety hits. It is scary for both of us, and I truly need to know that I can trust my partner to be there for me when something stressful is happening. I really hope he will consent to treatment :/

strippername
08-04-2013, 11:17 PM
^Awww! You and your boyfriend are so similar to me and mine. We both retreat. Life ruiners!!! He gets all crazy and focuses on one thing and I tell the planet to suck it. Which only hurts me when it comes down to it. Life, life, life!!!

I need a confession...um..my son just came back from his dad's and he is driving me freaking insane. I don't want him to sleep in the same bed as me and I don't want him climbing all over me to snuggle 24/7.

and..I have been a very lazy hippo the past few months with work. I need to get my ass in gear even if it takes having a bit of the old mom juice to get me motivated. I am all done with my job sometime within the next two months. Then off to another venture that will suck but closer to what I want...I think.

LexyNYC
08-06-2013, 07:00 AM
I want to start a thread that would motivate me (and other strippers) to go to work cause right now, during a good month I'm working like 6-8 days. I'd like to work 5 days a week and that's always my intention but it never happens.

Anyway, my thread idea is to post a picture of the money you made last night.

I think it's a good idea because ;

* it would be proof that we actually went to work
* it would give me a reason to go to work, right now my reason of having bills and a lifestyle to maintain is not enough
* I would work more often so I can contribute to the thread
* I would hustle so I can post up pictures that I can be proud of
* It would piss me off if I stayed home one day, checked that thread and saw all the money I'm missing out on

But I don't think anyone else would like or contribute to it. I also think I'd have to post it in picture post (where no one but men go) when I want it in Stripping General so it's limited to stripping and not camming. I have nothing against camming of course but I doubt camming girls need motivation to turn on their computer. Whereas a lot of strippers need motivation to travel to their clubs.

PleasureVictim
08-06-2013, 08:56 AM
I need the motivation also. I'm in the middle of a move, so it will be a week or two before I can contribute anything. I'm not sure how many would join in on your thread Lexy, but I'm down!

tuesdaymarie
08-06-2013, 12:25 PM
@Lexy: I thought about posting a thread like that earlier this month. I would totally contribute! I need public shaming or imminent bills in order to have any work ethic.

LexyNYC
08-06-2013, 12:50 PM
^lol @ public shaming or imminent bills. I'm the same way

Do you all think it would be moved if I put it in stripping general?

tuesdaymarie
08-06-2013, 12:56 PM
I think it would belong there.

LexyNYC
08-06-2013, 12:58 PM
^ I like the way you think. I'll make it first thing when I come home from work later.

strippername
08-10-2013, 12:06 AM
When I am sitting in bed eating like a pig at night I use my boobs as a plate. "I'll just put a fewwww cracckkers herre!" I am so disgusting.

lynn2009
08-13-2013, 04:07 PM
I am eating my feelings hardcore tonight :(

Kellydancer
08-16-2013, 10:18 PM
I confess that I'm feeling like an asshole now. There is a guy that I like (I'll call him Bill) but he's apparently not into me like I am him. He's got other issues going on and I feel myself being drawn into a co dependent state for a guy I'm not even dating. Actually I feel like deja vu and it's like my previous relationship where I waited around for a year hoping he came back and he never did. I just feel it's going nowhere really and if he liked me he would make plans to get together (and no, asking me to join him and his mother and MY PARENTS for a concert is not a real date). I do like him though besides having a crush as we have shared interests.

Enter this guy I met a few weeks ago I'll call Bob. Bob is exactly what I want in a man like Bill is as well, but he has his act together. He really likes me and brought me a rose when we met recently for lunch after meeting a week before (we met through friends of mine). They say he's a great guy but shy. He's already asking me to get together and go on a date that sounds like a dream. However he's not my type at all. I don't find him attractive at all to be honest as he's the type that generally repulses me (big burly type). Part of me says to dump him now before he gets hurt, another part tells me to give him a chance but still another part of me says to date him then dump him if Bill comes along, but then I get sad thinking Bill may never come along. The mean part of me tells me to use him for all I can but then I feel bad about that. I should be interested in Bob because he's the one making an effort to date me (including making plans for a nice dinner downtown)but I still want Bill, who has problems (including a court date for a DUI). The funny thing is I generally avoid men like Bill who have problems but for some reason I really like him (and for his faults he is a good guy).

Life is so strange (and so am I)where the ones I like aren't into me and the ones into me make me go "meh". I know I deserve a man who will treat me like a queen but for some reason it is never the guys I like.

ladyambition
08-17-2013, 07:34 AM
I confess I will always love him even if we are no longer together anymore. It kills me to have to hold a bright smile on my face when the person I loved for 9 years can simply close our relationship without hurting. I miss him so much I can't text or call him because it hurts too much. I was not supposed to fall in love him in the first place. Now 9 years later, all broken promises, cold shoulders and painful nights was my punishment for loving someone who clearly only can love himself. He doesn't know I feel this way and might never but he will my reason to think before I like or love another man again.

Following my heart left me in shambles and I am not sure if I can do it again for another man :(

ava$
08-19-2013, 12:18 PM
^^ugh, been there!
Oh and Scratch my wanting the owner of my club for a bf, i am over it. I just want a rich guy who is smart, but nobody in the adult entertainment industr, screw that.

ava$
08-19-2013, 12:19 PM
^^ugh, been there!
Oh and Scratch my wanting the owner of my club for a bf, i am over it. I just want a rich guy who is smart, but nobody in the adult entertainment industr, screw that.

summerbre
08-19-2013, 12:41 PM
I ran into a customer at one of my best friend's conservative birthday brunch this weekend. Here I am in a room full of mostly engineers/PhDs, hungover with thick black eyeliner that wouldn't come off from a huge local Fetish party the night before, and in walks a man who got an hour of VIP time with me about 2 months ago... with his wife. Turns out, he and his wife work with a lot of my close friends. He looked incredibly uncomfortable during the entire event and I kept catching him staring at me. My confession? Even though I don't find him attractive, it totally turned me on. I love being a naughty little social deviant in the presence of vanilla overachievers. }:D }:D }:D

Kellydancer
08-19-2013, 02:27 PM
Scratch my previous confession as that guy admitted he wants to go back to a long time girlfriend. I am relieved to be honest as he was a nice guy, just not for me. However we are talking and he is a great guy. Meanwhile other guy I will see sometime this week and we'll see what he does then as this week is the fair and he will be there all weekend working as will I.

Selina M
08-19-2013, 03:38 PM
Did you ever end up going to Vegas? Or are you still trying to squeeze blood from turnips here in AZ?

HAHAHA I just read this. That is the best comparison ever. No, I am still here in AZ... I had some personal issues all summer so Vegas was out of the question.
I'm considering it now that it's nearing fall though. Are you still working here or did you quit?

Aslinn
08-20-2013, 05:25 PM
I'm really really debating running away, I'm starting to think it be easier to just let him have everything and I'll just go away. I'm frustrated and freaked out and can't understand why he won't let us break up quietly, why would you want to be with someone who blatantly tells you that they don't love you and don't want to be with you. I'm just so stuck, I have no money of my own, I have no car with my name on it, and I refuse to use my daughter as leverage. He's getting controlling and the only person who listens to me or believes me lives two states over and can't come get me. I can't even dance because it would jeopardize my chances of getting custody of my daughter. I just want this to be over, I'm probably going to end up spending the next 17 years with him till my daughter can't be taken away from me.

michele11
08-20-2013, 05:31 PM
^ I've had sole custody of my daughter for 17 years. I dance, we've been to court 4 times. If you pay your taxes, don't have a record, do drugs you'll be fine. Dancing's Legal!

Aslinn
08-20-2013, 05:36 PM
^ I've had sole custody of my daughter for 17 years. I dance, we've been to court 4 times. If you pay your taxes, don't have a record, do drugs you'll be fine. Dancing's Legal!


Do they bring it up in court? I'm just really worried because he seems hell bent on not losing her even though i'm the soul care giver. Also how do you pay taxes? Last time I danced I never paid them I just kept a day job.

michele11
08-20-2013, 07:28 PM
I never went to court. I was never married. I just paid a lawyer to handle everything and they go back and forth. By they I mean his attorney and mine. When child support is established you will both fill out financials and I listed entertainer. To file taxes you figure out your earning from dancing, keep receipts and go to an accountant and file. They'll help you if you get a good one.

charlie61
08-20-2013, 08:05 PM
HAHAHA I just read this. That is the best comparison ever. No, I am still here in AZ... I had some personal issues all summer so Vegas was out of the question.
I'm considering it now that it's nearing fall though. Are you still working here or did you quit?

Ah, I hear ya. I haven't danced much here - the $10 dances and lack of sane pricing structure for upselling just kills me. I was already burnt out, so going from making $20/song to $7-10/song was just too much of a hit for me to handle. Not to mention...the contact. Yikes.

I'm sure I'll dance every now and then, but it just feels humiliating to me now. I started stripping before this industry got really ugly (innocent dive bar circa 2006), so I got to see a glimpse of 'how it used to be.' I miss the days when things like pretty faces, conversational abilities, and actual dancing were valued more highly than one's ability to grind dick for 30 minutes straight. There's nothing wrong with the latter, it's just not my thing.

charlotte.
08-20-2013, 08:19 PM
Ah, I hear ya. I haven't danced much here - the $10 dances and lack of sane pricing structure for upselling just kills me. I was already burnt out, so going from making $20/song to $7-10/song was just too much of a hit for me to handle. Not to mention...the contact. Yikes.

I'm sure I'll dance every now and then, but it just feels humiliating to me now. I started stripping before this industry got really ugly (innocent dive bar circa 2006), so I got to see a glimpse of 'how it used to be.' I miss the days when things like pretty faces, conversational abilities, and actual dancing were valued more highly than one's ability to grind dick for 30 minutes straight. There's nothing wrong with the latter, it's just not my thing.

travel! $7 dances are bullshit! im sure wherever you are theres a city relatively nearby thats decent.

Selina M
08-20-2013, 08:27 PM
Ah, I hear ya. I haven't danced much here - the $10 dances and lack of sane pricing structure for upselling just kills me. I was already burnt out, so going from making $20/song to $7-10/song was just too much of a hit for me to handle. Not to mention...the contact. Yikes.

I'm sure I'll dance every now and then, but it just feels humiliating to me now. I started stripping before this industry got really ugly (innocent dive bar circa 2006), so I got to see a glimpse of 'how it used to be.' I miss the days when things like pretty faces, conversational abilities, and actual dancing were valued more highly than one's ability to grind dick for 30 minutes straight. There's nothing wrong with the latter, it's just not my thing.

Oh heck yeah. I understand that. *shakes head* I have a hard time dancing for the same customer twice... because they know I won't do the same level of grindage and 2-way contact as the other girls. We still get a few older men who genuinely want the conversation and GFE, but they're maybe 10% of the customer base.

Not to mention when I returned last week, there were a bunch of 18 year olds running around in mismatched Walmart lingerie, only 1 of whom was pretty enough to be dancing at all... at a freaking Christie's. We are supposed to be the "creme de la creme" of Phoenix. It broke a tiny piece of my heart.

So yeah, I think I'm gonna stick around a bit to get my hustle back to par, then head to Vegas one weekend a month. You're welcome to join if you want!

OliveJardin
08-21-2013, 12:08 PM
I know there's apparently no "scientific" evidence that a full moon makes people (sane or otherwise) go loopy. But, every time I work one I feel like it just makes that myth a reality!

tuesdaymarie
08-21-2013, 12:17 PM
^One theory is that the full moon makes it lighter outside for longer, thus influencing people to behave as though it is not as late in the night as it is. From there, they're more empowered to behave like idiots.

My confession is that I do not think anything but intense therapy could make my family functional at this point. Every time I come to my childhood home to watch my disabled little brother, I become inexpressibly angry. I just had to call my boyfriend and cry outside because I cannot control how upset I become here, and I usually just start punching walls. There are so many layers of shit that even when someone tries to be nice now, I don't believe for even a moment that it's going to last, even though I'd like to. It is so unhealthy, and nobody wants to deal with any of the underlying issues, so I genuinely just want to move to another country. I'm going to save up considerably, then I am taking my boyfriend and our pets, and I am putting as many international borders as I can between us and this place.

michele11
08-21-2013, 12:29 PM
^ I've heard during a full moon there's a gravitational pull on the brain that makes people act differently( like assholes) and studies say crime rates almost double? I can always tell( even when I don't see or now it's afull moon) by talking to a few people. I've always had a harder time making money during full moons.

michele11
08-22-2013, 09:39 AM
^ They say a moon has an effect on the tides and since our bodies are made up of 70% water they believe there's a gravitational pull that effects people but there's no real scientific evidence of it , though crime rates do rise as they've done studies on that.

michele11
08-23-2013, 04:14 PM
Fuck this shit 8 hours of rain in the last 2 hours. Ugh. I hope my ceiling in my rental doesn't fall in! Fuck I spent 20g on it , not to mention paid the mortgage, electric and water for 13 months. I finally get a tenant last month and the fridge breaks( 4 years old) then I get this franic call from my tenant( which lead me to believe my ceiling had caved in from all the rain and everything was ruined. Well it may if it keeps raining for now the ceiling is peeling away and dry walls on the floor and the drywalls exposed. I couldn't find any roofing companies who could come out for 3 weeks( since it's a repair and it's rainy season) I had water restoration companies because his call lead me to believe that's what I need. I look like an ass. Found 1 roofer to come out polish guy who was all you need new roof. No the water restoration company were perplexed since the roof looked fine. Can't any fucken contractor, roofer etc do not rip people off here ( or can they know what the fuck their at least diagnosing)The one fucker with his ghost buster thing. Omg. He kept putting it there and saying it was wet because it was beeping( I had just had another company out there who said it was not wet! He's like I've been doing this 20 years.I'm like since you were 8???? And with your ghost buster meter?? That detects any wetness since were in florida and it's 100 humididty and we've had 7 inches of rain every day since may! Get out. I'm sick of the fact that I'm a women these fuckers think they can take advantage of me!

anouk.oui
08-24-2013, 03:24 AM
ive had the flu for almost 9 weeks, been completely bedridden for over the past week. actually totally excited to go to work tonight and be out of the house and near my friends! yay!

GlamourRouge
08-24-2013, 03:33 AM
^ I've heard during a full moon there's a gravitational pull on the brain that makes people act differently( like assholes) and studies say crime rates almost double? I can always tell( even when I don't see or now it's afull moon) by talking to a few people. I've always had a harder time making money during full moons.

That's actually also the basis of astrology. It has to do with like planetary alignment, which in turn affects magnetic fields, which affect energy, and since we're all mass, we are essentially just made up of tiny energy particles, so we're affected by it. As far as astrology goes, for example, people born in different places at different times of the year (different astrological signs) tend to have different traits because of the way the energy affected them when they were born. And probably because their mother (while pregnant with the baby/you) behaved in certain ways at different times of the year when you were a fetus. So it would definitely ring true for a full moon.

And manipulating energy... Its the basis of physics. Its the basis of quantum mechanics. Its the basis of prayer. Its the basis of the law of attraction. Its the basis of wishful thinking & negative mind states. Its the basis of witchcraft & black magick. They are all the same thing, and they can all affect us.

Slightly OT, but I've always found it really funny that really religious people are SO AGAINST astrology, even though astrology can somewhat be explained (what I wrote above).

I probably explained this really bad but yeah.

michele11
08-24-2013, 02:45 PM
I'm religious but I totally believe in astrology. Last work trip I was so on. I Usually can talk to a guy for 10 minutes and tell them 2 out of 3 things.....their sign, what they do for a living and where they're from. Well most the guys are local but even the guys that didn't know their signs were impressed that I knew that and what they did for a living. One time in Denver ( I guessed all three) on this guy anmd he swore one of his friends told me. It's just something I'm really good at.

PleasureVictim
08-25-2013, 08:44 AM
I have such a love/hate relationship with Instagram. I get so many ideas, inspiration, see such great pictures on there. Then I see seemingly endless amounts of gorgeous, sexy women with designer clothes and shoes, nice cars, going on vacation, etc. I see dancers with seemingly perfect bodies and their piles of money night after night, and I can't deny that I get envious at times.

I know how easy it is for others to manipulate their lives online to make everything look a certain type of way, but it still makes me feel like I'm not doing something right in life.

Selina M
08-25-2013, 10:22 PM
I am wayyyyyyyyyyy too excited right now to go to the Backstreet Boys/Jesse McCartney concert next month.....

charlie61
08-26-2013, 06:35 PM
This is kind of mean, but my confession is that the inane comments made by the males in the picture post thread drive me fucking nuts. Like, no one cares that you're almost witty. Just thank the post, comment "DAYUMN!" (at the very most), and move on.

robotron
08-27-2013, 03:25 PM
Confession #1 my husband pretty much told me it was love at first sight (I was a face painter at his cheating girlfriend's family get together when I first met him) He was staring at me the whole time... But honestly I was really attracted to his gf and thought he was kinda creepy. She was stunning. I made up a really pretty eye design for her on the spot too that became one of my staple designs.. I never told him that though, he already thinks I'm a closet lesbian. :p

ava$
08-28-2013, 09:58 AM
I am wayyyyyyyyyyy too excited right now to go to the Backstreet Boys/Jesse McCartney concert next month.....

I love how they "rose up from the grave" recently, bsb and Nsync.lol. I was such a fan as a kid I would pretend nick was my husband,haha.

ava$
08-28-2013, 09:59 AM
I am wayyyyyyyyyyy too excited right now to go to the Backstreet Boys/Jesse McCartney concert next month.....

I love how they "rose up from the grave" recently, (bsb and Nsync.)lol. I was such a fan as a kid I would pretend nick was my husband,haha.

ExoticBeauty4U
08-28-2013, 11:01 AM
Backtracking to Michele post, I love astrology as well and recently have been getting into numerology. I think numerology is a more accurate way to predict who will spend money. From my personal experience 3 life paths are cheap but probably because they dont really have it lol. 4 life paths or people born on this day will spend but because they have to work so hard for their money they expect the same from you. I get ALOT of 33(master number)/6 life paths who have spent alot of money on me and helped me out with huge purchases (cars rent etc) or just anything, they loveeeeeee to help others definitely captain save a hoe type of guys lol. Ive also been learning that 8 is the number of money/karma and 28 is the number of wealth( two of the richest guys in the world are born on this date)havent met anyone yet born on the 28 yet so cant really say but on 8 days I will go in just to see how my karma is. When Ive done things for others I will have an awesome day but when Ive been selfish or hoarding my money ill have an ok day. Ive been tracking it the last few months and only on 8 days this happens to me, otherwise my earnings are consistent lol. Still learning though and its all in fun lol. Plus its hard to calculate someones life path in the club sometimes when when youre drunk but the guys love it when i tell them this stuff lol :p I had one guy pay me to sit there and tell him about his numbers l:p

michele11
08-29-2013, 10:12 AM
^ How does that work?

ExoticBeauty4U
08-29-2013, 01:33 PM
To get your lifepath # you add up all the numbers in your birthdate. For example 7/3/1983 , 7+3+1+9+8+3 = 31 3+1=4 So My birth number is 3, day im born and lifepath is 4. But your lifepath number is more important over your birthday numer although you will have traits of both. Master numbers are 11, 22, 33 which are not reduced unless the person is imbalanced. These people are supposedly sent with a special purpose/message during their journey. All my sugar daddies have had master numbers lol figures...

michele11
08-29-2013, 02:24 PM
^ Thanks. My ex was really into this and showed me how it works but it's been years. I'm scorpio and he's aries thus why it didn't work out. He'd always say that was his worst sign to have a realati9nship with and yes I guess it was. For me too as my daughters father was an aries too. They're great in bed with big aries heads on their dicks but no good for anything else. Lol.

Kellydancer
08-29-2013, 09:50 PM
Even though I am religious I do believe in horoscopes. No, not the "today you will inherit money" but rather the idea what sign you are born under and days of the month have a lot to do with things. I am an Aquarius and fit that sign to a T and supposedly my most compatible signs are Gemini and Libra and most of my ex boyfriends were one of the signs.

ExoticBeauty4U
08-29-2013, 10:48 PM
Yeah astrology is true to a point. Like Im a cancer and Im very drawn to and get along very well with scorpio men and women. But then Im also supposed to be compatible with pisces and taurus, which im not they all annoy me, i mean every last pisces Ive ever met. And my experience with taurus is theyre awesome in bed and they make great friends but I cant date them. Aries is supposed to be my opposite/enemy sign I believe but I absolutely adore the women I always have fun with them:) I had a couple of aquarius friends but you guys are some tough cookies emotionally very aloof at times lol

charlie61
08-30-2013, 10:00 AM
We should start a separate thread about astrology / numerology!

In the meantime, back to the thread. :)

Genoveve
08-30-2013, 01:20 PM
I love astrology!! I'm a Capricorn, rising sign Scorpio. I've had all my signs read but I forget the rest. I had someone do my numbers once and that shit was so spot on.

tuesdaymarie
08-30-2013, 03:24 PM
I get too sick to uncurl my pain-racked body when I drink most alcohols now, but after Wednesday's shift and having to see my family this morning, all I want to do is get wasted at work tonight and be a bitch to everyone. BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE I HAVE BILLS AND MY BODY IS 23 BUT ALREADY DYING.

First world (but with shitty healthcare) problems :(

If I didn't have my boyfriend in my life, I would probably be high as hell right now. A sincere yay for good influences.