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MsOfficer
12-07-2010, 01:33 PM
Ok I apologize for my last remark, it was a bit harsh.

I find it funny how you know both of her usernames being on this site for a month.
Very defensive of her as well.
There are nicer ways of giving people advice. You can honest and give out your opinion but being rude with it isn't a way to go, as you remember last time.

I am sick of defending myself. If you think I'm her Ok. Ok. Ok. Ok.

Kylea2
12-07-2010, 01:33 PM
wow, i didnt know that kayla/malaya was so hated on this site! where is she anyway?

re OP: have you considered taking a break? i have never escorted but the general rule of thumb when it comes to anything that burns you out is to take a break. do you dance? maybe try dancing for a bit for income before returning to escorting?


She was banned after the discussion on the extacy thread.

I also thought maybe she would have come back, but she hasn't. I don't know if anyone has been in contact with her?

rubyredlipsss
12-07-2010, 01:35 PM
wow, i didnt know that kayla/malaya was so hated on this site! where is she anyway?

me neither...i mean i get that she would get under people's skin but i just took it with a grain of salt, some people are just really blunt with their opinions. and i'm not trying to take sides either but it's really not that difficult to figure out that malaya/kayla are the same person, all you have to do is read through the other work posts. i know i was gone for awhile during the time when malaya became kayla...didn't take me long to figure it out...just saying. on the other hand, i can see why some question whether or not she has returned.

*quickly makes my exit from this thread*

MsOfficer
12-07-2010, 01:37 PM
*sigh* OP: Enjoy your vacation.

_Avery_
12-07-2010, 01:58 PM
Why don't you take a sign pic if you're that concerned about it? ::)

No one has even really mentioned it, but you're over there having a conversation with yourself.
Bringing it up AGAIN.

So if YOU'RE that concerned about what people think, then take a sign pic and just prove us all wrong.

MsOfficer
12-07-2010, 01:59 PM
Why don't you take a sign pic if you're that concerned about it? ::)

Would you like me to? really?

Why don't I call you and put her on the phone so you can tell her how you feel? smh.
If the mods wanted me to do this then I will. I will not do such because ONLY queen avery asked me to.

BustyAmeera
12-07-2010, 02:01 PM
"mzofficer: I'm just trying to figure out how you can piss a whole community off?"

HILLARIOUS!!!!!!!!

Everyone is NOT pissed off at you. Some of us really could care less about the drama here, really. You shouldn't assume. LOL. But that WAS funny!

This is one of the most dramatic and entertaining forums, besides Fucked Company, LOL.

Oh man, I at least hope that the Op has had a few laughs, and feels better now. I know I would. :)

_Avery_
12-07-2010, 02:03 PM
Would you like me to? really?

Why don't I call you and put her on the phone so you can tell her how you feel? smh.
If the mods wanted me to do this then I will. I will not do such because ONLY queen avery asked me to.

When did I ask you to do anything, Kayla?
I said if YOU'RE so concerned about it since you obviously can never let shit go.

MsOfficer
12-07-2010, 02:03 PM
I am laughing because you all really think I am her. That is funny. I don't think Malaya would deny herself ever. Especially not for this site.

MsOfficer
12-07-2010, 02:04 PM
When did I ask you to do anything, Kayla?
I said if YOU'RE so concerned about it since you obviously can never let shit go.

I have no clue who you are or what you are talking about. I swear I don't. You need to get a life because you sound crazy to me.

_Avery_
12-07-2010, 02:05 PM
"mzofficer: I'm just trying to figure out how you can piss a whole community off?"

HILLARIOUS!!!!!!!!

Everyone is NOT pissed off at you. Some of us really could care less about the drama here, really. You shouldn't assume. LOL. But that WAS funny!

This is one of the most dramatic and entertaining forums, besides Fucked Company, LOL.

Oh man, I at least hope that the Op has had a few laughs, and feels better now. I know I would. :)

I haven't seen that one, now I gotta go find it. LOL

BustyAmeera
12-07-2010, 02:07 PM
I haven't seen that one, now I gotta go find it. LOL

http://retro.f2bbs.com/bbs

I hope that's the link. It is a seriously twisted dramatic forum. Stripper web is angels compared to this one lol.

MsOfficer
12-07-2010, 02:07 PM
why am I still posting? LOL!

BustyAmeera
12-07-2010, 02:08 PM
Oops. Hope I'm not breaking a rule by posting a forum. Should have pm'd it I guess. I take it I will find out if I get in trouble or something lol.

BustyAmeera
12-07-2010, 02:08 PM
why am I still posting? LOL!

Girl you are funny. Just walk away from the computer. You are silly.

_Avery_
12-07-2010, 02:08 PM
I hope that's the link. It is a seriously twisted dramatic forum. Stripper web is angels compared to this one lol.

Ah ha, thank you!
I thought it was another thread on here.

I'm gonna check it out. :D

MsOfficer
12-07-2010, 02:12 PM
Girl you are funny. Just walk away from the computer. You are silly.

Why should I?

amazingjane
12-07-2010, 07:05 PM
Mmm! I just wanted to say that you're not a cumdumpster. That you're beautiful and that anyone who makes you feel less, including yourself is a big fat idiot. Well. Not fat, if they're yourself. Please don't feel like shit. Please take a break if you need one. If raising your rates scares away the fat men, I'd totally do it, too! But if it makes you a lot less- then don't- unless you're cool with less, then totally do that!

I also want you to get discounted hotel rooms, too! I love discounts. I'm sure there's a lot of security of booking in a hotel you know and trust- but maybe you could get to know several hotels and only book for the best deals?


I feel the need to note that I have not been on this forum for long, yet know a great deal of personal facts about Malaya - can spell both of her names, and know her yahoo names- despite the fact that I've never spoken to her.

Uhhh. I know this from reading her posts, which I'm VERY appreciative of. If she has returned as MsOfficer, excellent welcome back! If not, excellent! welcome! A forum this large should have a few "tough advice" folks.

DirtyLittleSecret
12-07-2010, 10:28 PM
The more you bring her name up the bigger the delusion gets, so i think its best if we just stop caring about it and wait and see.
If this MsOfficer is KaylaM then in no time will she go on her destroyer path given the right combination of posts. OR if she's not, then hopefully she could better her mistaken reputation by being a little nicer and helpful in the forums just like the rest of us.

Kisca
12-08-2010, 12:36 AM
^ Exactly. I love it how the "new girl" is saying it isn't her erhm. She's sure knows a lot about Kayla and mentioned her in every post almost!
A picture would be decent, wouldn't it? I think its better to ignore such things instead of being in denial.

DesuvsDeath
12-08-2010, 12:57 AM
Best of luck exotic, I hope this vacation helps pick your spirits back up.




obviously she is not a positive contributor to this forum...
Which is why she's still in the top 5 thanked on site even after that name hasn't been active in months.
When everyone jumped on the "I hate Malaya/Kayla" bandwagon it's like they forgot all of the information and advice she provided people with. ::) I'm not defending anything she did or said. I just think it's stupid to pretend like she was this terrible person never did anything positive around here.
That said. I'm going to very quickly exit this thread and not come back. :)

4everresolutions
12-08-2010, 12:59 AM
OP - darling you are NOT a cumdumpster! You have a challenging jib most people can't even dream of doing, and it's normal you get burnt out. This too will pass. Have a good vacation love.


Oh! And send me a PM about the credit card thing! I got a totally legit one from the bank, with an alright limit for a starter card. This particular branch was very sex worker friendly....(not trying to solicit, promise!).

Xoxo!!!!

Kylea2
12-08-2010, 01:02 AM
I'm just going to say that I don't think it is her at this point. I would hate for a bunch of people to be making comments to someone under the assumption that they are another person... so dropping "it" & being nice is a good idea. Just because a person has similar thoughts does not mean they are the same person... & it's particularly common for people who are friends to have the same thoughts - & MsOfficer already eluded to the fact that they may be friends or know each other but are in fact not the same person.

lilmisssunshine
12-08-2010, 01:37 AM
I would hope it's not her.

It would be pathetic and sad to create an alter ego just to come post on a board after being banned.

bill862
12-08-2010, 02:12 AM
It sounds like you have had it rough for a while and admittedly nearly all of the sex/adult professions do have a tendency to take a toll after awhile.

I think Kylea2 had the right idea. When you feel isolated and depressed, I think some of the best things to try may be to try find something different that may be fulfilling. Try volunteering, meeting up with friends and perhaps even trying to find a different job. I think taking some type of break from escorting or adult work may be worthwhile and may give you a needed break. If you do find yourself taking time off, please try not to spend most of your time coped up at home, you need to get yourself out there and hopefully with a different crowd that feel differently about you.

Please know that there is a lot of love and support for you here and many within this community have a unique ability to understand and relate to what you are going through. I have complete faith you are a lovely woman and a truly great person and in due time more will come to realize this.

Have you considered professional help? There is a plethora of services out there that may be of great assistance and some therapists and groups specialize in the needs and quarrels of sex workers. I know insurance may be an issue with your current employment, but you would be surprised how much is out there (there are even volunteer counselors that don't charge at all. I would really encourage you to consider exploring some of these options because it may help you find perspective and may help you feel better.

You have been through a awful lot and have had endured so far. That tells me that you have a strength and courage that many people do not and that in and of itself says alot about you. I wish you nothing but the best and I send much love and support. I hope at least some of this helps and if there is anything further I could suggest or assist with in some way, please feel free to pm me.

Best of luck and please feel better

MsOfficer
12-08-2010, 04:47 AM
I'm just going to say that I don't think it is her at this point. I would hate for a bunch of people to be making comments to someone under the assumption that they are another person... so dropping "it" & being nice is a good idea. Just because a person has similar thoughts does not mean they are the same person... & it's particularly common for people who are friends to have the same thoughts - & MsOfficer already eluded to the fact that they may be friends or know each other but are in fact not the same person.

Thank you Kylea.