View Full Version : The General Purpose "Camming Sucks Right Now" Thread
Panthera
07-21-2019, 12:30 PM
Man, I am trying to stay on, but this makes my 4th reg who came thru and didn't even say hi. They came in, stayed about 30 seconds, then left. DUDE, such a bummer. Then 2 guys have acted like they want a show only to disappear.
While I've gotten a show and plenty of $1 GOLD tips, my vibe is just shot. I've been overly tired since I woke this AM at 8am. SMH, it's so dead I don't know how much longer I can hold on.
Sheesh...I need Redbull and Vodka hahahaaaa.
LADIES, SOS! 911! HELP!!!
must. stay. the. fuck. on!!!
Yep, is slow as fuck and members acting all weird today but then it always happens during bonus weeks and contests. We can't say we weren't expecting this. We need to practice acceptance and watch funny cats :)))
I have 30 more mins to stay on and I'm 9 bucks far from my low goal but that's ok, I know I did my best, and that's what matters :)
Listen to your body and do what's best for you, cause pushing yourself over your well-being limits will not help a bit!
Miss_ShaSha
07-21-2019, 12:36 PM
^^Thank you. I'm not sure why I'm so exhausted. I slept 9 hrs, but you're right: I need to listen to my body.
I'm glad to hear you're near low goal even tho high goal is desirable. Doing your best is more than enough. I hope your last 30 is pleasant. Good vibes your way.
MissAliss515xx
07-21-2019, 12:42 PM
I'm sorry for you girls. Yeah, I have a lot of movement in my room too !
I also feel bad for a customer; I recognized him quickly, as when I first started 2 days ago, he would make me go into priv chat then quickly log off before the 30 sec time and made me loose the others customers. He did that twice so I was really mad about him. Well, when I saw him coming into my room, I quickly blocked him as fast as I could, just to realize he tipped me for tits ??? WTF lol. I felt bad for him and tried to reached it afterwards but wasnt able to.. :/
NitaBaby
07-21-2019, 01:27 PM
I'm sorry for you girls. Yeah, I have a lot of movement in my room too !
I also feel bad for a customer; I recognized him quickly, as when I first started 2 days ago, he would make me go into priv chat then quickly log off before the 30 sec time and made me loose the others customers. He did that twice so I was really mad about him. Well, when I saw him coming into my room, I quickly blocked him as fast as I could, just to realize he tipped me for tits ??? WTF lol. I felt bad for him and tried to reached it afterwards but wasnt able to.. :/
The last thing you should feel is bad. He proved himself to be a douche bag twice before so, the way I see it, he paid you for wasting your time. It's his loss, not yours.
NitaBaby
07-21-2019, 01:29 PM
Man, I am trying to stay on, but this makes my 4th reg who came thru and didn't even say hi. They came in, stayed about 30 seconds, then left. DUDE, such a bummer. Then 2 guys have acted like they want a show only to disappear.
While I've gotten a show and plenty of $1 GOLD tips, my vibe is just shot. I've been overly tired since I woke this AM at 8am. SMH, it's so dead I don't know how much longer I can hold on.
Sheesh...I need Redbull and Vodka hahahaaaa.
LADIES, SOS! 911! HELP!!!
must. stay. the. fuck. on!!!
Not sure if you're still logged on but, yeah, I'd definitely suggest stepping away for a sec and regrouping if you're feeling like that. And then re-assess if it's still a good idea to log back in or just stay off and enjoy your Sunday. The money will be there whenever you're ready to come back.
LaraLee
07-21-2019, 04:46 PM
wait, a week or a month? That's way over $100K..not bad...is that what everyone else is making?
I'm not, not even close
LaraLee
07-21-2019, 05:06 PM
I think what matter is readjusting to this industry. Playing it old school won't get you the same money as before. That's how every industry works. Things go in a certain direction and if you want to stay in business, you have to follow it, otherwise, people forget about you, cause you're not relevant for this time anymore.
Do I like making content? Fuck no. Do I still film amateur clips of my feet and tits? Yes, cause it keeps me stay in business and I make money out of it.
Do I like posting useless shit on Twitter? Again, fuck no, I hate it to the moon and back. But I get people on my affiliate links, so it all pays in the end.
Being a cam girl means your body will be forever on the internet, regardless if you do clips or not. You are already there, your intimicy it's dead and gone. You can't say you don't want your body all over google. It's probably there and on a shit ton of torrents, being downloaded for free by people. Can you do something about it? Not much. You can't keep guys from screen recording your show, from posting you all over the internet for extra clicks (so extra money for them). You just can't. So fuck with it. Watermark everything and use it in your favor.
All I'm saying is adapt. We're talking about your income and your happiness in here.
I agree 100% with everything you said about us being all over the internet no matter what we do. However my thinking is, if a guy buys a $20 video from me and watches it 10 times, that's 10 times he didn't log onto a site and do a show with me. If I sell videos the guys are going to jerk off to my videos instead of coming to see me on cam I just personally think its a bad business decision for me. If it works for other girls then that's great.
Holly_xoxo
07-21-2019, 05:29 PM
I agree 100% with everything you said about us being all over the internet no matter what we do. However my thinking is, if a guy buys a $20 video from me and watches it 10 times, that's 10 times he didn't log onto a site and do a show with me. If I sell videos the guys are going to jerk off to my videos instead of coming to see me on cam I just personally thing its a bad business decision for me. If it works for other girls then that's great.
I was on IMLive for awhile and forgot that members could record their privates with you unless you opted out of that. Anyway, a few guys that would see me weekly all of a sudden would only come in to chit chat in free. One of the guys finally told me that he would watch the recorded private while chatting with me in free and get off that way.
I assumed the others did as well.
Never could figure out how a site thought letting them record a show for free and keep it forever, would be good for business.
Marina Starr
07-21-2019, 06:50 PM
The best of both worlds would be have a site such as clip4sale for clips only and a site where you offer live shows only. Don't mix them. Don't tell guys that do live shows with you that they can head over to clip4sale to buy all your videos, LOL.
I agree 100% with everything you said about us being all over the internet no matter what we do. However my thinking is, if a guy buys a $20 video from me and watches it 10 times, that's 10 times he didn't log onto a site and do a show with me. If I sell videos the guys are going to jerk off to my videos instead of coming to see me on cam I just personally thing its a bad business decision for me. If it works for other girls then that's great.
magicgembliss
07-21-2019, 07:04 PM
I agree 100% with everything you said about us being all over the internet no matter what we do. However my thinking is, if a guy buys a $20 video from me and watches it 10 times, that's 10 times he didn't log onto a site and do a show with me. If I sell videos the guys are going to jerk off to my videos instead of coming to see me on cam I just personally thing its a bad business decision for me. If it works for other girls then that's great.
such a good point. i only want to make videos when i know im going to be paid well for them, for exactly this reason. you're decreasing your scarcity by putting content out there, so it should pay to make up for the decrease in value of your service.
caramelcraze
07-22-2019, 03:53 AM
Dude, where is everyone this morning?! i can't believe how slow it's been for me today.
Miss_ShaSha
07-22-2019, 07:57 AM
^^Tried 2:45am to 5:45am & dead AF. Man, doesn't matter what hrs: if no one is on you can't sell. My anxiety is high. I'm gonna try to relax. It's just a bad start to the week.
Holly_xoxo
07-22-2019, 08:20 AM
^^Tried 2:45am to 5:45am & dead AF. Man, doesn't matter what hrs: if no one is on you can't sell. My anxiety is high. I'm gonna try to relax. It's just a bad start to the week.
I always wondered if it would be busier during those times but i am soooo not a night person and never would be able to do it.
Try to relax if you can. You did a lot of hours last week to hit your goal. Need at least a day off for some self love and relaxation or you'll hit a wall fast.
NitaBaby
07-22-2019, 08:29 AM
^^Tried 2:45am to 5:45am & dead AF. Man, doesn't matter what hrs: if no one is on you can't sell. My anxiety is high. I'm gonna try to relax. It's just a bad start to the week.
I wasn't even about to attempt that one. Most of my money came from 3 people but majority of the day was dead asf and really, truly, felt like work. I feel like I jinxed the shit out of everybody by declaring we were gonna have an awesome Sunday.
magicgembliss
07-22-2019, 08:56 AM
^^Tried 2:45am to 5:45am & dead AF. Man, doesn't matter what hrs: if no one is on you can't sell. My anxiety is high. I'm gonna try to relax. It's just a bad start to the week.
Then it's a good time to start menstruating? Looks like it's time for me to Netflix and eat european chocolates in bed all day for the next few, ladies..Oh and I promised the bf a cuddling-horror movie marathon :P
magicgembliss
07-22-2019, 08:58 AM
I wasn't even about to attempt that one. Most of my money came from 3 people but majority of the day was dead asf and really, truly, felt like work. I feel like I jinxed the shit out of everybody by declaring we were gonna have an awesome Sunday.
Sunday is consistently hands down my worst day of the week. That's across all my sites.
Holly_xoxo
07-22-2019, 10:03 AM
Oh today is going to test my patience Lol...first 30 minutes on and nobody even says hello to me. Then someone I"ve known for years that used to be a reg but for the last two years only comes around about every 4 months comes in and I think "oh ok, well at least I"ll make a few dollars on him" and he just tries to flirt and get me to have a conversation in free with him.
I tell him he knows me well enough to know I don't have conversations in free chat and he says "shit, phones ringing..will be back" haha yeh right.
Next time he comes in my room (which I"m sure won't be today) I'll just kick him out. I hate when guys that were regs turn weird and act like douches.
NitaBaby
07-22-2019, 10:09 AM
Sunday is consistently hands down my worst day of the week. That's across all my sites.
:eye-poppi really?? Sheesh.
magicgembliss
07-22-2019, 10:35 AM
:eye-poppi really?? Sheesh.
Just saying for me, as comparisons go...I mean it makes sense...most people still work during the week... guys are resting up for the week, sleeping early, getting their kids in bed, and the young single guys usually don't party on Sunday anyway, sports games etc...Just my theory anyway. Monday is slightly better. Thursday is usually consistently amazing.
DahliaSimone
07-22-2019, 10:45 AM
Funny, cause im the polar opposite....Sunday is consistently my best day, by a lot lol.
NitaBaby
07-22-2019, 11:05 AM
Funny, cause im the polar opposite....Sunday is consistently my best day, by a lot lol.
I SWEAR TO GODDD. If I worked Sunday and no other day of the week my bills would still get paid. I wish today was Sunday tbh lol.
anonymous camgirl
07-22-2019, 11:13 AM
That's interesting!.. It's my best day of the week and I use that to gauge how the week will go and everytime if my Sunday is NOT on point the week is slow and not that great and remains a struggle.
Sunday is consistently hands down my worst day of the week. That's across all my sites.
Miss_ShaSha
07-22-2019, 11:24 AM
I always wondered if it would be busier during those times but i am soooo not a night person and never would be able to do it.
Try to relax if you can. You did a lot of hours last week to hit your goal. Need at least a day off for some self love and relaxation or you'll hit a wall fast.
I think that's what happened Sunday. I mean, these last two weeks have been very hard mentally and emotionally. STFO can be so fucking hard if you're not prepared. I self cared hard core, but still...it hit me.
Sat night I slept 9 hrs which is good and normal for me, but Sunday morning I had ZERO energy and felt REALLY irritable. Not myself at all. I tried to cam despite it, but it was bad. I was lazy all sunday literally in bed. It all hit me at once despite all the self care.
And then the anxiety today has been through the roof. I tried to cam, but I couldn't handle how dead it was, which...let's be honest, none of us need to be surprised about. It's the summer slow down. However, mentally, emotionally, and physically I just couldn't.
So here I am drinking kava tea and taking the rest of the day off to self care. I'm going to do nothing but eat right, hydrate, meditate, and think positively. I'll tackle the rest of the week fresh and healthy. Good advice girl.
I wasn't even about to attempt that one. Most of my money came from 3 people but majority of the day was dead asf and really, truly, felt like work. I feel like I jinxed the shit out of everybody by declaring we were gonna have an awesome Sunday.
No girl, this summer has been hard and the name of the game is STFO. That's been the only way I've made goals. You were right...you just need to STFO, but I wasn't mentally, emotionally, or physically able to. This job is seriously demanding. You didn't jinx anything. We are fisherwomen...we wait for those fish. If we aren't there for whatever reason we miss out. Or...if there just aren't any fish in the area there just aren't. Don't even trip.
Then it's a good time to start menstruating? Looks like it's time for me to Netflix and eat european chocolates in bed all day for the next few, ladies..Oh and I promised the bf a cuddling-horror movie marathon :P
Shit, I'm doing some real relaxing things today. And cuddling sounds like the perfect prescription for anxiety. Smart really.
Miss_ShaSha
07-22-2019, 11:29 AM
Oh today is going to test my patience Lol...first 30 minutes on and nobody even says hello to me. Then someone I"ve known for years that used to be a reg but for the last two years only comes around about every 4 months comes in and I think "oh ok, well at least I"ll make a few dollars on him" and he just tries to flirt and get me to have a conversation in free with him.
I tell him he knows me well enough to know I don't have conversations in free chat and he says "shit, phones ringing..will be back" haha yeh right.
Next time he comes in my room (which I"m sure won't be today) I'll just kick him out. I hate when guys that were regs turn weird and act like douches.
Girl, that's frustrating especially with how slow it is. I'm sorry. Sending you good vibes.
DahliaSimone
07-22-2019, 11:32 AM
Today was awful. I felt awful (slept like shit, pounding headache, moody af) and I KNEW I shouldn't have even attempted it. But I did. And made $0. And cost myself a good, long show (the only even potential one today) because of my shitty disposition. Happens every single time: I try to cam when I feel crappy and I self sabatoge and lose customers i can't fuckin afford to by pushing them away for the most minor of offenses. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF? The only one losing is me, dudes don't give a fuck and will forget you in seconds and move along, so the only one getting hurt is me. I just suck at turning off my emotions and taking $ where its at. I fucking hate my brain. I wish I could just be normal.
magicgembliss
07-22-2019, 11:43 AM
Funny, cause im the polar opposite....Sunday is consistently my best day, by a lot lol.
wow, weird.
magicgembliss
07-22-2019, 11:44 AM
I SWEAR TO GODDD. If I worked Sunday and no other day of the week my bills would still get paid. I wish today was Sunday tbh lol.
yeah that is weird...I don't have any explanation...
SuperPookie
07-22-2019, 02:37 PM
Funny, cause im the polar opposite....Sunday is consistently my best day, by a lot lol.
Mine too
SuperPookie
07-22-2019, 02:38 PM
My worst day is usually Saturday.
NitaBaby
07-22-2019, 02:43 PM
My worst day is usually Saturday.
Big Ole Fact! I can't make money on Saturdays if it meant saving my own life. It's a permanent off day.
Genoveve
07-22-2019, 04:32 PM
Sundays are very hit or miss for me; I'm either so busy that it's completely exhausting or it's my deadest day of the week.
Today was awful. I felt awful (slept like shit, pounding headache, moody af) and I KNEW I shouldn't have even attempted it. But I did. And made $0. And cost myself a good, long show (the only even potential one today) because of my shitty disposition. Happens every single time: I try to cam when I feel crappy and I self sabatoge and lose customers i can't fuckin afford to by pushing them away for the most minor of offenses. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF? The only one losing is me, dudes don't give a fuck and will forget you in seconds and move along, so the only one getting hurt is me. I just suck at turning off my emotions and taking $ where its at. I fucking hate my brain. I wish I could just be normal.
Well unfortunately I think your inability to just turn off or compartmentalize your negative emotion IS normal, I think it would be weird if you could just switch on a dime.
Sometimes if for whatever reason I'm getting on cam and I'm in a bad mood and I can feel that I'm probably going to be extra snippy to the guys I will give myself a little talk where I tell myself: "You're gonna act like you always do on cam, it's not these guys' fault that you're in a bad mood, you're not going to take it out on them.' And then I guess because I'm approaching it from a place of altruism I'm able to do it.
NitaBaby
07-22-2019, 07:07 PM
Not feeling the vibe today. I'll make a couple sex tapes instead.
izshadow
07-22-2019, 07:29 PM
I havent been on SM today but I will say all the Indy men messaging me tonight IM GOING TO FREAKING KILL. I'm in such a bad mood now.
laurielegs
07-22-2019, 08:18 PM
I agree 100% with everything you said about us being all over the internet no matter what we do. However my thinking is, if a guy buys a $20 video from me and watches it 10 times, that's 10 times he didn't log onto a site and do a show with me. If I sell videos the guys are going to jerk off to my videos instead of coming to see me on cam I just personally think its a bad business decision for me. If it works for other girls then that's great.
One thing I've noticed is that there is really not that much crossover in video customers and cam customers, at least for me. I've tried to upsell videos to cam customers but they rarely buy many and mostly want that live one-on-one interaction.
I have links to get cam shows on most of my vid sites but those guys just want something they can download and keep and don't really want to see me live that much.
It's odd to me but that's what I notice.
I do hate the fact that some will give away tons of video content for nothing for gold shows and things like that. It devalues all the hard work - video editing is time consuming and shooting videos is hard! I don't sell mine in bulk and don't give them away in bunches.
foxirox
07-23-2019, 07:17 AM
Woah is it completely dead AF for anyone else?!
freya_jade_
07-23-2019, 10:23 AM
One thing I've noticed is that there is really not that much crossover in video customers and cam customers, at least for me. I've tried to upsell videos to cam customers but they rarely buy many and mostly want that live one-on-one interaction.
I completely agree with this. I am on both ManyVids and live cam sites, and the two customer bases rarely rarely mix. At most i can get my clip guys to visit my MFC occassionally, but they're not HUGE MFC guys, ya know? They don't like the whole camsite song and dance, and they prefer the simplicity of buying clips. They really just pop in to see me cuz they found me on clip sites and like me. That's why i think it's smart to tap into both bases. Get the money from the clip guys, and get the money from the live cam guys. Cast that net as wide as possible!
MissAliss515xx
07-23-2019, 10:50 AM
Dead for me as well, just trying to be on to get my hours in !
izshadow
07-23-2019, 12:06 PM
Hopefully my new profile picture will help me on SM. Least there isnt a ton of girls on so I'm on page 4 instead of page 5. Its an older photo of me but I really havent changed much. But its kinda black and white so when I'm scrolling the pages, your eyes catch it cause it doesnt blend in to everyone else's colorful photos. Fingers crossed! I'm so tired of making nada on SM and being so far back in the pages.
MsJess
07-23-2019, 02:08 PM
Oh today is going to test my patience Lol...first 30 minutes on and nobody even says hello to me. Then someone I"ve known for years that used to be a reg but for the last two years only comes around about every 4 months comes in and I think "oh ok, well at least I"ll make a few dollars on him" and he just tries to flirt and get me to have a conversation in free with him.
I tell him he knows me well enough to know I don't have conversations in free chat and he says "shit, phones ringing..will be back" haha yeh right.
Next time he comes in my room (which I"m sure won't be today) I'll just kick him out. I hate when guys that were regs turn weird and act like douches.
that freaking line right there! ugh phone brb LOL
MsJess
07-23-2019, 02:09 PM
Dead room for me today :(
lula_xoxox
07-23-2019, 02:27 PM
tfw when a cheapskate takes you into a session when you're trying to hustle with a very generous financial sub in free chat and then the other guy gets disconnected after 5 minutes and the sub doesn't come back ARGHDVMDDWERN5YNJU6K7U
izshadow
07-23-2019, 02:44 PM
Kicked someone from the room for sitting and staring after giving them a 30 second warning to talk or get the boot.
Boot him
He comes back in and says hello and asks how I'm doing... I answer him.... he promptly leaves.........
FLIPPING MY DESK!!!!!! I'm so over people and I'm sure its all over my face. I even find myself on Skype with these Indy idiots.... typing to them and then erasing what I type and then typing again.... erasing.... reminding myself to be kind and stop reminding them how stupid they are. Like the whole, are you online? I dont know, am I? What does my profile say?!?!?! How much per min? I dont know asshole, what does it clearly say on my profile?!?!?!
SapphireXO
07-23-2019, 02:56 PM
I swear Mondays and Tuesdays are always hit and miss. I'm still making it but it's very slow and irritating today. NF is dead even with bidding. CMD is crickets. Only my diehards are showing me love today.
seicento
07-23-2019, 04:04 PM
Kicked someone from the room for sitting and staring after giving them a 30 second warning to talk or get the boot.
Boot him
He comes back in and says hello and asks how I'm doing... I answer him.... he promptly leaves.........
FLIPPING MY DESK!!!!!! I'm so over people and I'm sure its all over my face. I even find myself on Skype with these Indy idiots.... typing to them and then erasing what I type and then typing again.... erasing.... reminding myself to be kind and stop reminding them how stupid they are. Like the whole, are you online? I dont know, am I? What does my profile say?!?!?! How much per min? I dont know asshole, what does it clearly say on my profile?!?!?!
Had the same experience with skyprivate guys yesterday. With SM driving me crazy, stupid guys on Skype were the last thing I needed. For all the stupid questions I sent them all back to my profile, for a reading. I never blocked so many guys in a shift.
The most stupid guy award goes to the guy who asked me to lower my rate to $1/min and he will turn on his cam and rate me 5 in return. Like he was doing me a favor turning on his cam. Dude, how stupid can one be?
SomeTransgrill
07-23-2019, 04:27 PM
Sundays are very hit or miss for me; I'm either so busy that it's completely exhausting or it's my deadest day of the week.
Well unfortunately I think your inability to just turn off or compartmentalize your negative emotion IS normal, I think it would be weird if you could just switch on a dime.
Sometimes if for whatever reason I'm getting on cam and I'm in a bad mood and I can feel that I'm probably going to be extra snippy to the guys I will give myself a little talk where I tell myself: "You're gonna act like you always do on cam, it's not these guys' fault that you're in a bad mood, you're not going to take it out on them.' And then I guess because I'm approaching it from a place of altruism I'm able to do it.
I think its normal to be negative in the beginning, but if one doesn't start to mentally shift how they approach camming it will be detrimental long term to their success. Fundamentally, your job is just like working in sales and services. I just think of Streammate as its own free market and I am a product in that marketplace. So then the focus becomes fine tuning that product to exist within that space.
Your customers are coming for looks and stay for personality. When I first started I just looked around at different rooms in my section, identified all of the shortcomings of other models when it comes to their personality/presentation and worked at building my own brand around that untapped part of the market. That being said, there are other models who do the same that occupy a similar space, so in that context I'm just competing with them. It's all about framing the context of how you are camming. I literally lurk here in part to see how others are doing to help set my earning expectations for the day.
Some days are just going to be shitty and you'll be upset but by changing the way you approach it can save a lot of unneeded stress. And here is the sad truth about camming/adult work, a decent part of models and customers are dealing with varying levels of mental illness. Many customers know this and will try to use it to their advantage to gain emotional leverage over you. They see vulnerability and will exploit it.
When bad stuff happens analyze what went wrong and why. What the signs where. What sort of phrases are used.
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Those of us in the transgirl section are lucky because its a much smaller section to compete in with solid demand. That market is growing every year and the percentage of the population who is trans is very small (and those who are attractive even smaller). Lower supply and higher demand. Just keep in mind customer expectations of us are different from the rest of the market.
kendallkushxo
07-23-2019, 08:37 PM
i have to complete 25 hours on streamate and ive only been able to complete 3 so far x_x
Kileycorrupt
07-23-2019, 09:18 PM
i have to complete 25 hours on streamate and ive only been able to complete 3 so far x_x
Right there with you... we got this! Let’s get that summer bonus :D
magicgembliss
07-23-2019, 09:23 PM
Some days are just going to be shitty and you'll be upset but by changing the way you approach it can save a lot of unneeded stress. And here is the sad truth about camming/adult work, a decent part of models and customers are dealing with varying levels of mental illness. Many customers know this and will try to use it to their advantage to gain emotional leverage over you. They see vulnerability and will exploit it.
Good post. Luckily my mental illness is sociopathy so I'm a natural domme and take very little seriously LOL (j/k) I'm def not neurotypical though and I agree. Actually I think a lot of models have some physical ailments that can prevent us working 9-5 outside of the home as well which can be incredibly taxing on the body especially if you have a long commute.
magicgembliss
07-23-2019, 09:28 PM
i have to complete 25 hours on streamate and ive only been able to complete 3 so far x_x
What sucks so hard is I was at #138 in the ranking early on only because I literally got on cam exactly when the contest started, got back to back exclusives then passed out feeling sick (I have blood sugar issues) and next day, BLAMMO my period started two days early *shoots self* I've been organizing my house and making crepes for days now and I'll never catch up.. I did log almost 9 hours though so I still plan on hitting $500 and getting that bonus...
izshadow
07-23-2019, 09:54 PM
I dont even know why I bother with SM. I'm lost on page 5. Barely anyone ever comes in my room. I've made $70 bucks this entire month on SM and here I am logging in and sitting over and over. Sigh.
I know its cause I see these top model girls with like private show after private show and gold shows that bring in what I want in goal within one show and I'm like that could be me. But I'm me and not them and I dont know if I am even who these people on SM want since I'm basically a ghost out here. I'm so frustrated.