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^^^ How do u split SM with other sites pls? What software/ spitter u use and for sm, u work with sm connect - external encoder? Pls elaborate, ty! xx
XSelinex
12-10-2019, 08:18 PM
^^^ How do u split SM with other sites pls? What software/ spitter u use and for sm, u work with sm connect - external encoder? Pls elaborate, ty! xxI`m using my second webcam.
HooHaaHee
12-10-2019, 08:55 PM
ummm this week so far has been slow af. An hour in with rarely anyone popping in and $0 made. SMC disconnected me once already in the first hour.
I'm going to make some videos after this shift. I need rent $$$!
Is this week going slow for you all?
webcamcutie
12-10-2019, 09:55 PM
ummm this week so far has been slow af. An hour in with rarely anyone popping in and $0 made. SMC disconnected me once already in the first hour.
I'm going to make some videos after this shift. I need rent $$$!
Is this week going slow for you all?
So far this week I'm making about 1/2 hrly what I did for most of last week.
And tonight I'm almost 3hrs in and I could tell you exactly how many members have popped in and out of my room in that 3hrs and how much I *haven't* made.
Tonight is god.fucking.awful.
magicgembliss
12-11-2019, 12:00 AM
^^^ How do u split SM with other sites pls? What software/ spitter u use and for sm, u work with sm connect - external encoder? Pls elaborate, ty! xx
i don't see why any of that's necessary. I just um, click my links to open them, log in and use tabs side by side.
I use one crappy webcam built into my mac
magicgembliss
12-11-2019, 12:01 AM
ummm this week so far has been slow af. An hour in with rarely anyone popping in and $0 made. SMC disconnected me once already in the first hour.
I'm going to make some videos after this shift. I need rent $$$!
Is this week going slow for you all?
OMG I always forget that SM will disconnect you and that it's not always the custie leaving.
Super slow..unbearable.
xxxGothBarbie
12-11-2019, 12:04 AM
OMG I always forget that SM will disconnect you and that it's not always the custie leaving.
Super slow..unbearable.
Why do they do that?!?! I've had that happen during an excl the other night, I didn't realize they could do that. hmmmm.....
seicento
12-11-2019, 12:41 AM
^^^ How do u split SM with other sites pls? What software/ spitter u use and for sm, u work with sm connect - external encoder? Pls elaborate, ty! xx
You can split using verysoft, I remember you have bought it in the past so you must still have the activation code for it, unless you reinstalled many times and then the code won't work, I don't remember how many times you can use the code. The only free software I know of at moment is splitcam. You can split SM using both SMB or SMC web encoder just by choosing the splitter instead of your webcam in the settings. No need to use external encoder in SMC, that's for OBS. Same for Stripchat, when you hit broadcast button it gives you the options for devices and you choose the splitter. There's also the splitcamming guide thread here, if that helps more. Good luck.
^^^ Ty a lot! I reinstalled Windows yes and used the code 2 times already before reinstall (remember that making more user accounts for Windows the verysoft asks for the code like if u reinstall Windows all new? So i used it two times already and now after reinstall i assumed it wont work anymore and i also cand find the codes but will look up again cause i got my esca 2 toy today and wanna see if i can splitcam but was not sure how to do it on SMC lol. Ty xx
seicento
12-11-2019, 05:12 AM
^^^ Ty a lot! I reinstalled Windows yes and used the code 2 times already before reinstall (remember that making more user accounts for Windows the verysoft asks for the code like if u reinstall Windows all new? So i used it two times already and now after reinstall i assumed it wont work anymore and i also cand find the codes but will look up again cause i got my esca 2 toy today and wanna see if i can splitcam but was not sure how to do it on SMC lol. Ty xx
You're welcome. The code works again after a while, try it and if it doesn't work now try some other time, they have a 6 months restriction or something like that.
hellohellohello24
12-11-2019, 06:24 AM
Reading your last posts girls made me feel a little better. I've been having a terrible week so far. Average around $25 when i'm usually at $50. I'm only using sm because I need my daily pay this week but after this I'm DONE with them for a little while.
uglyblonde
12-11-2019, 06:24 AM
i don't even think it's worth it to go online till christmas is over, but i need money. mfc and cb is dead for me. i been online for 6 hours today and if not my generous regular i would have earned only 5 dollars.
hellohellohello24
12-11-2019, 06:34 AM
Gag I hateeeee free token sites. There's one that I'm really good on but it's so draining I had to take a break from it for the last two months. Entertaining 70+ people at a time when you can make 3x that with one customer for less effort on sm on imlive really killed it for me. ***sending good vibes and money gods your wayyy***
SapphireXO
12-11-2019, 11:09 AM
Gag I hateeeee free token sites. There's one that I'm really good on but it's so draining I had to take a break from it for the last two months. Entertaining 70+ people at a time when you can make 3x that with one customer for less effort on sm on imlive really killed it for me. ***sending good vibes and money gods your wayyy***
Its only good when I want to hustle the ENTIRE time I devote to camming. In between 1:1 sessions just log on until another call or session comes through where you charge by the minute. I totally get it. It is very exhausting at times.
Bananabunny
12-11-2019, 01:37 PM
I almost made a post yesterday asking how your surgery went but was like “maybe she hasn’t had it yet. give it two more weeks.”
so excited for you.
Aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww omg thats the sweetest thing I heard all year!! Thank you for thinking of me! I'm on my last shift now before I go to bed to go to my surgery. This message just made me lesser anxious for the surgery tomorrow thank you sweetheart! ♥♥
magicgembliss
12-11-2019, 05:25 PM
making less than minimum wage today online (3hrs deep already) and paying for babysitting at the same time and its sunday. I'm literally prob going to end my 5hr shift at negative money, i love working 5hrs for free! Lol. Whelp. I smell a bff contest brewing the week after this one - calling it here first!
aaaand HERE WE ARE lol
*you deserve an early christmas gift webcamcutie*!!!
52455
webcamcutie
12-11-2019, 10:05 PM
aaaand HERE WE ARE lol
*you deserve an early christmas gift webcamcutie*!!!
52455
hey I will take a bonus week over a BFF contest any day.
I've been back to doing 60+ hrs a week, and this week has been dismal for me earning wise, might as well challenge myself and see if I can squeeze even more hrs in that week and try to make up for this weeks (lack of) earnings (and not for lack of trying either!) I've never seen it this bad, esp the last 2 days, I knew some contest or something was floating about somewhere, its textbook. You can always 'feel' when one is coming because all earnings comes to a halt, but this time its like a DEAD stop. Hoping next week will be better but I'm definitely not going down this week w/o swinging, thats for damn sure!
webcamcutie
12-11-2019, 11:26 PM
When you think things possibly can't get any worse then:
52457
I don't understand what is happening here. I seriously want to just fucking office space my computer so I can quit, but tomorrow is a new day and my momma didn't raise no quitter! I'll get up and get online all damn day to hit my goal if I have to. I'm not done fighting yet, but this is some serious bullshit. 7 days of shitty earnings in a row and about 57 hours clocked but the last 2 days are REALLY getting to me.
Time to do some negative energy clearing and pray tomorrow is the day streamate will let me make some money again. I'm dying here. I don't get how I can go from my best week ALL year last week (of course with 65hrs streaming!) to prob one of my worst hrly weeks all year. The up/down/mindfuck is real. I'm stronger than it though. Not letting it beat me.
Esixxx
12-11-2019, 11:27 PM
Currently watching the dust settle in my room on SM. Feels like an eternity since someone has been in my room....
Esixxx
12-11-2019, 11:30 PM
When you think things possibly can't get any worse then:
52457
I don't understand what is happening here. I seriously want to just fucking office space my computer so I can quit, but tomorrow is a new day and my momma didn't raise no quitter! I'll get up and get online all damn day to hit my goal if I have to. I'm not done fighting yet, but this is some serious bullshit. 7 days of shitty earnings in a row and about 57 hours clocked but the last 2 days are REALLY getting to me.
Time to do some negative energy clearing and pray tomorrow is the day streamate will let me make some money again. I'm dying here. I don't get how I can go from my best week ALL year last week (of course with 65hrs streaming!) to prob one of my worst hrly weeks all year. The up/down/mindfuck is real. I'm stronger than it though. Not letting it beat me.
I feel you. I am taking a detox bath and burning sage like a mofo tonight after my shift
WendiStarr
12-11-2019, 11:57 PM
I've been on for 5 hours and it has been so dead for the past 4 hours. I did have a guy who gave me a nice sized tip earlier within my first hour on, so I should at least be glad for that and I am. It's just ever since it has been only lurkers sitting silently in my room and nothing going on. I'm tired. I was planning on putting at least 6 hours tonight but I don't know how much longer I can sit here, ready to fall asleep.
webcamcutie
12-12-2019, 08:45 AM
I feel you. I am taking a detox bath and burning sage like a mofo tonight after my shift
Its gotta get worse (lol?) before it gets better, or some shit.. *shrug* heres hoping for a better day!
KiaraK
12-12-2019, 12:18 PM
Camming doesn’t suck but SM does! Glitch after glitch. This is not typically my main site but I can do well on there if I spend a few hours on, especially after I massively upped my rates. But, the site has been nothing but a pain in my ass all week.
ravenskyy
12-12-2019, 12:47 PM
I'm not making anything today and the beggars are out of control. I'm really about to say fuck it to day shifts and just focus on nights.
DahliaSimone
12-12-2019, 01:07 PM
Fuck its dead af today
SapphireXO
12-12-2019, 04:45 PM
So dead today it was embarrassing. I stayed signed in to Indy all afternoon. Didn’t miss a damn request. Good thing I was procrastinating on several items and stayed busy otherwise. The past two weeks have been so good one dead day was kind of refreshing.
DahliaSimone
12-12-2019, 04:53 PM
So dead today it was embarrassing. I stayed signed in to Indy all afternoon. Didn’t miss a damn request. Good thing I was procrastinating on several items and stayed busy otherwise. The past two weeks have been so good one dead day was kind of refreshing.
That doesnt sound like it sucks at all lol. Not gonna lie, I wasnt super mad at the deadness, as I was tired af today
I was thinking the vibe toy will be of use on Stripchat but no, guess i need to masturbate in open room for all to see in order to get tipped same like most people do, what i saw there shocked me, i am not willing to do that.
Looks like i will stay with SM, we have such a karmic relationship! ;)
ETA: will i get tips/ pvt's on stripchat (like on any other tk site) if i dont do nude public shows and work the SM style there too?!
I wish to have this site as a second option cause having just SM is scaring me really, there are times when SM is slow/ dead and i am panicking which is not helping with my mental health.
seicento
12-12-2019, 10:13 PM
I was thinking the vibe toy will be of use on Stripchat but no, guess i need to masturbate in open room for all to see in order to get tipped same like most people do, what i saw there shocked me, i am not willing to do that.
Looks like i will stay with SM, we have such a karmic relationship! ;)
ETA: will i get tips/ pvt's on stripchat (like on any other tk site) if i dont do nude public shows and work the SM style there too?!
I wish to have this site as a second option cause having just SM is scaring me really, there are times when SM is slow/ dead and i am panicking which is not helping with my mental health.
SM style doesn't work for me, as it is a freemium site. I had my account for a few months, gave it a few chances but can't make a token there. I must look like some weird species in free chat with my clothes on and not spreading for everyone to see so I'm not getting guys in my room. But same like you, I am not willing to be nude and perform in free chat so I moved on.
SM style doesn't work for me, as it is a freemium site. I had my account for a few months, gave it a few chances but can't make a token there. I must look like some weird species in free chat with my clothes on and not spreading for everyone to see so I'm not getting guys in my room. But same like you, I am not willing to be nude and perform in free chat so I moved on.
I know right?! I had a pvt show on SM and kept stripchat open too while i did some softcore play in my show til i got ready to take my panties off, there were a few guys in my room including greens with tokens but nobody tipped!!
Before i got nude for my SM member i closed stripchat and did my show on SM.
I made 7tk on Stripchat tonite lol, 35 cents $ value, a guy buzzed my toy while i had it at minimum 1tk for low buzz but when i changed to 10 tk for low buzz he did not wanted to tip anymore and left.
WTF soo cheap!
By the way, i installed verysoft but could not find the license codes and went on to try and see if i can use my cam on both sites (SMC and stripchat) and surprise, it worked w.o a splitter, i simply selected the camera on both sites, somebody mentioned this above, to just select the cam, i did not know it was possible.
Yeah, i dont want to do public shows like people do there on Stripchat, i am not cut for this.
Ty! xx
seicento
12-12-2019, 11:16 PM
I know right?! I had a pvt show on SM and kept stripchat open too while i did some softcore play in my show til i got ready to take my panties off, there were a few guys in my room including greens with tokens but nobody tipped!!
Before i got nude for my SM member i closed stripchat and did my show on SM.
I made 7tk on Stripchat tonite lol, 35 cents $ value, a guy buzzed my toy while i had it at minimum 1tk for low buzz but when i changed to 10 tk for low buzz he did not wanted to tip anymore and left.
WTF soo cheap!
By the way, i installed verysoft but could not find the license codes and went on to try and see if i can use my cam on both sites (SMC and stripchat) and surprise, it worked w.o a splitter, i simply selected the camera on both sites, somebody mentioned this above, to just select the cam, i did not know it was possible.
Yeah, i dont want to do public shows like people do there on Stripchat, i am not cut for this.
Ty! xx
You can use spy mode when you get a pvt elsewhere. My friend works there and said give it time, she doesn't do public shows but not making much there either. Got a few regs in time so she makes something now and then. I'm not saying I've put enough time into it but I don't like it enough to put more time into it. Hope it works for you though!
As for using the webcam without a splitter, for me doesn't work and logically shouldn't work, weird that is working for you that way.
You can use spy mode when you get a pvt elsewhere. My friend works there and said give it time, she doesn't do public shows but not making much there either. Got a few regs in time so she makes something now and then. I'm not saying I've put enough time into it but I don't like it enough to put more time into it. Hope it works for you though!
As for using the webcam without a splitter, for me doesn't work and logically shouldn't work, weird that is working for you that way.
Spy mode, right!! Will do that! I totally forgot about this option lol and yes, is working w.o a splitter, that's a 'nice glitch' i guess.
Yeah will give it some time cause i have no other site anyway besides SM, at least with the Spy option i dont have to close it all the time and maybe make some money off it while busy on SM.
Thank you! xx
xxxthighhighs
12-13-2019, 02:11 PM
CB's sooooo slow for me today :( Nothing but freeloaders looking for a free show
laurielegs
12-13-2019, 03:29 PM
I was thinking the vibe toy will be of use on Stripchat but no, guess i need to masturbate in open room for all to see in order to get tipped same like most people do, what i saw there shocked me, i am not willing to do that.
Looks like i will stay with SM, we have such a karmic relationship! ;)
ETA: will i get tips/ pvt's on stripchat (like on any other tk site) if i dont do nude public shows and work the SM style there too?!
I wish to have this site as a second option cause having just SM is scaring me really, there are times when SM is slow/ dead and i am panicking which is not helping with my mental health.
I think it depends on your style. I show no nudity in free chat, not even tits for tips. I tell them to go private. I really like Stripchat but I don't work it for long due to the annoying grey users. I block them as soon as they speak. I plan to work it more if they do something about the greys which they keep promising, time will tell.
SapphireXO
12-13-2019, 05:05 PM
I was thinking the vibe toy will be of use on Stripchat but no, guess i need to masturbate in open room for all to see in order to get tipped same like most people do, what i saw there shocked me, i am not willing to do that.
Looks like i will stay with SM, we have such a karmic relationship! ;)
ETA: will i get tips/ pvt's on stripchat (like on any other tk site) if i dont do nude public shows and work the SM style there too?!
I wish to have this site as a second option cause having just SM is scaring me really, there are times when SM is slow/ dead and i am panicking which is not helping with my mental health.
I had 2 fans buy me the Lush 2 and the Domi wand. I am not a hardcore model, I don't do penetration, and I don't do cum shows typically. I tried my Lush 2 today in less than 50 mins I made $90.42 my cut. I just had the toy stuffed in my panties. It's a cash machine. Def get a tip vibe!!!
webcamcutie
12-14-2019, 05:40 PM
I ended my week on SM at 55hrs 15% paid over all.
Fucking kill me. Literally worse than my 65hr week last week..
Hope this week is a smidge better. That's the worst overall paid I've had (with a large amt of hours like that!) on SM for me I wanna say ever.. do.not.care.to.repeat.
Ms_Kristen
12-15-2019, 10:34 AM
Camming does not suck more then it ussually does, but I wonder how is Sha doing. Girl, if you are reading this...I miss you. Hope you are getting nothing but good vibes.:hug:
DahliaSimone
12-15-2019, 10:08 PM
12 fucking hours and i couldnt even make $100. Im so tired and emotional right now. Even good regs were stringing me along today. Ugh. I need a good fat cry because i feel so fuckin low right now. I hate men.
WendiStarr
12-15-2019, 10:19 PM
Ugh, how do fuckers create multiple screen names? Don't they need to have a credit card to create a premium account? I swear, for the past 3 hours, I keep getting what I think is the same guy bugging me under different screen names, telling me to twerk for him and then he will tip me 15000 tokens. Every time I ban him, he comes back under a different screen name telling me to twerk for him and he'll tip me 30000 tokens and so on and so forth(he keeps increasing the #). I don't know where this twerk request is coming from. I have no booty meat at all. I'm a flat assed Eurasian! I cannot twerk! I have nothing back there. I'm all belly. Leave me alone! 3 hours and at $30. I'm about to sign off for a few if this shit doesn't stop. My whale never showed up like he said he would.
magicgembliss
12-16-2019, 02:59 AM
You can use spy mode when you get a pvt elsewhere. My friend works there and said give it time, she doesn't do public shows but not making much there either. Got a few regs in time so she makes something now and then. I'm not saying I've put enough time into it but I don't like it enough to put more time into it. Hope it works for you though!
As for using the webcam without a splitter, for me doesn't work and logically shouldn't work, weird that is working for you that way.
I dunno, I've used three webcams and two computers so far camming on multiple sites at once w/o a splitter and haven't had an issue.
magicgembliss
12-16-2019, 03:03 AM
I had 2 fans buy me the Lush 2 and the Domi wand. I am not a hardcore model, I don't do penetration, and I don't do cum shows typically. I tried my Lush 2 today in less than 50 mins I made $90.42 my cut. I just had the toy stuffed in my panties. It's a cash machine. Def get a tip vibe!!!
Yeah I keep hearing a tip vibe is the key to making the $$$ on MFC too
uglyblonde
12-16-2019, 07:13 AM
i'm feeling sooo fucking burn out. seems like the more hours i put in, the less i earn. quiet room > bad mood > no tokens. it sucks that my mood depends on how much i earn that day, any ideas how to change it? lol. the only thing that works for me is booze, but i don't want to be drinking everyday on cam. changing the place where i cam is pretty exciting too, but i don't think hotels/airbnb is worth the invesment...
Glamourmilf
12-16-2019, 08:57 AM
Camming does not suck more then it ussually does, but I wonder how is Sha doing. Girl, if you are reading this...I miss you. Hope you are getting nothing but good vibes.:hug:
I really hope she's doing well too.
When I read that she wanted to move here to California to practice reiki, I got worried.
When I found out about this AB5 law in mid October, I decided to switch gears.
I'm 2nd degree reiki, ( have been since the late 90's).
I put an ad for reiki in the health and beauty section.
Holistic. Non sexual.
But, all I got were pervy men wanting sex.
I couldn't believe it!
Nobody knew what reiki was, and nobody cared to be enlightened.
Reiki was huge back in the 90's, and very early 2000's.
Now, not at all.
I hope she doesn't come to California, because if reiki doesn't work out, she will never be able to go back to camming.
Besides the fact that it's incredibly expensive to live here.
Maybe she will have better luck than the rest of us that live here.
seicento
12-16-2019, 09:03 AM
I dunno, I've used three webcams and two computers so far camming on multiple sites at once w/o a splitter and haven't had an issue.
Using multiple cams is possible of course. I was talking about using ONE webcam on multiple websites without a splitter.
izshadow
12-16-2019, 10:47 AM
I really hope she's doing well too.
When I read that she wanted to move here to California to practice reiki, I got worried.
When I found out about this AB5 law in mid October, I decided to switch gears.
I'm 2nd degree reiki, ( have been since the late 90's).
I put an ad for reiki in the health and beauty section.
Holistic. Non sexual.
But, all I got were pervy men wanting sex.
I couldn't believe it!
Nobody knew what reiki was, and nobody cared to be enlightened.
Reiki was huge back in the 90's, and very early 2000's.
Now, not at all.
I hope she doesn't come to California, because if reiki doesn't work out, she will never be able to go back to camming.
Besides the fact that it's incredibly expensive to live here.
Maybe she will have better luck than the rest of us that live here.
I'm a Level 3 Reiki Master and I agree, it used to be something back in the day (I used to have a business working on animals, even did lectures on it, attended shows set up with a booth, etc) but now, its nothing. Even my teacher has left the business. Cali is super expensive and the laws out there are ridiculous and the new ones trying to pass are even worse. Its like Cali is trying to separate from the rest of the US. Never mind the wildfires out there destroying lives. Ugh.
Ms_Kristen
12-16-2019, 12:11 PM
I really hope she's doing well too.
When I read that she wanted to move here to California to practice reiki, I got worried.
When I found out about this AB5 law in mid October, I decided to switch gears.
I'm 2nd degree reiki, ( have been since the late 90's).
I put an ad for reiki in the health and beauty section.
Holistic. Non sexual.
But, all I got were pervy men wanting sex.
I couldn't believe it!
Nobody knew what reiki was, and nobody cared to be enlightened.
Reiki was huge back in the 90's, and very early 2000's.
Now, not at all.
I hope she doesn't come to California, because if reiki doesn't work out, she will never be able to go back to camming.
Besides the fact that it's incredibly expensive to live here.
Maybe she will have better luck than the rest of us that live here.
I am sorry that you have to go through all this. Men can be so disgusting, always trying to take advantage of us, one way or another. And yes, I could not believe it when I read about the new laws in California. Maybe you should try to move? I know it is not that simple,when you build a life in a place, to just leave and start over,but it might be worth it. I dont know, I just wish life would be better, for all of us.
izshadow
12-16-2019, 12:37 PM
I am sorry that you have to go through all this. Men can be so disgusting, always trying to take advantage of us, one way or another. And yes, I could not believe it when I read about the new laws in California. Maybe you should try to move? I know it is not that simple,when you build a life in a place, to just leave and start over,but it might be worth it. I dont know, I just wish life would be better, for all of us.
Sometimes I feel like only good things happen to bad people. Karma is just made up word because the good people who should be swimming in good karma, are not. Yet the evil are swimming in it. For example, why does my narc ex get to live his best life abusing women but me who has done nothing but good for nature and rescued/fostered and saved animals for as long as I can remember (wild and domestic) and give my last breath for all of them.... yet here I sit. Struggling non stop and never ever catching my break.
SapphireXO
12-16-2019, 12:55 PM
I am sorry that you have to go through all this. Men can be so disgusting, always trying to take advantage of us, one way or another. And yes, I could not believe it when I read about the new laws in California. Maybe you should try to move? I know it is not that simple,when you build a life in a place, to just leave and start over,but it might be worth it. I dont know, I just wish life would be better, for all of us.
It is complicated to move. HOWEVER. Once I started camming full time, I had to move states to live where cost of living was lower and there was no state income tax. Let me tell you! Saving that 4% (Michigan to Texas) has helped me substantially. Plus the cost of living overall is much lower and the American dream is much more achievable. With it being the energy capital of the country, gasoline is at $2/gallon, much lower electric and gas rates, no state income tax, and I can buy a brand new house for $250K. In Michigan, a new house in a decently populated area was $450K, gasoline was easily $2.43/gal, and I gave them 4% of my income for literally no reason at all besides living there.
WendiStarr
12-16-2019, 01:10 PM
^
I agree with you. Michigan sucks. I live there.
i'm feeling sooo fucking burn out. seems like the more hours i put in, the less i earn. quiet room > bad mood > no tokens. it sucks that my mood depends on how much i earn that day, any ideas how to change it? lol. the only thing that works for me is booze, but i don't want to be drinking everyday on cam. changing the place where i cam is pretty exciting too, but i don't think hotels/airbnb is worth the invesment...
Can you cam from a different room from your home than usual? I usually cam from my bedroom but on days and times when my daughter isn't here, I cam from the living room. With it being Christmas time, I feel that the Christmas tree and lights add some cheer to the room. Plus, my tv is there so I can watch Netflix when it's a slow night and I'm dealing with a silent non-paying premium lurkers in my chatroom or annoying freeloaders begging. If I don't feel like watching tv, I open up another tab and read books on Kindle so that it appears that I'm looking at the screen. It always seems that just when I get into reading something, someone will take me pvt.
Ms_Kristen
12-16-2019, 02:41 PM
Sometimes I feel like only good things happen to bad people. Karma is just made up word because the good people who should be swimming in good karma, are not. Yet the evil are swimming in it. For example, why does my narc ex get to live his best life abusing women but me who has done nothing but good for nature and rescued/fostered and saved animals for as long as I can remember (wild and domestic) and give my last breath for all of them.... yet here I sit. Struggling non stop and never ever catching my break.
I feel you. I have a house and yard full of resqued animals. If it wasnt for them, I would not take all the bullshit from all these people. Whenever I want to just block someone who is draining my energy,and move on, I think about them and I keep working. I know that it feels like life is unfair, I feel just like you actually. But we cant let this shit get to us. No one is going to save us, and at the end of the day at least you do what really matters to you. You love those animals, and they love you back. And they depend on you. I sometimes panic thinking about the responsabilities. I wish I was alone, with no one to care for but myself. But you know, life is about more then just that. We are doing the right thing. And doing the right thing is never easy.