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XSelinex
01-19-2020, 08:25 AM
Sunday, 2 hours online, zero made and 2 hi. I just wanna cry.

Prussia
01-19-2020, 04:39 PM
I have a feeling cam is going to be extra slow this week bc this Monday is "Blue Monday" as they call it. I think that's also why SM is running a connect this week. It's been super dead for me the last three days as well... Fri, Sat, Sun. D:

MsJess
01-19-2020, 04:52 PM
I might be looking like poop cause this guys aren't even talking to me!

DahliaSimone
01-19-2020, 05:26 PM
fuck today

Prussia
01-19-2020, 05:30 PM
Also, there was some big football game on, just finished recently. It's picked up for me the last hour fwiw. But most of the day was just dragging oooooon.

JGB2009
01-20-2020, 12:42 AM
Hate these slow ass sites!!!! Can be on the front page and it don't do shit for you!!!!!

Bananabunny
01-21-2020, 04:15 PM
Ex regular asshole came into my room just to tell me that he's pissed that I kicked him after he stopped tiping me a long time ago. He started camping out in my room in silence and I didn't like it at all. He even didn't react to my "hello" 's anymore now he complained that I kicked him ""without any reasonings"". Bitch my reason was that you watched me struggle for MONTHS and didn't see it necessary to tip me anymore instead you stared at me and after you stopped tiping probably wanting to see a flash for free. Nope. Not in fucking 2020. No more cheapness and rudeness. Now after he told me that I kicked and banned him for life. That's what he gets for being a greedy little cunt.

This and because the month is extra slow I make up to 15 tokens a night for weeks and I'm honestly close to suicide as I'm in massive debts due to camming paying my bills barely and now as its super slow I have to lend money from my parents as a fucking 22 year old I feel so damn ashamed. These two things made my day today just worse. I hope I can retire as soon as I finish my diploma and find a job. Camming is not the same anymore to me as when I first started now that all these priviledged kids and adult men hang on their phones all day long its influenced camming a lot. The new generation of males suck and make me even more homosexual than I already am. I have lost the fun and desire to do camming a long time ago tbh. But this year starts out so bad that I really see no future for me in it anymore.

Sorry for venting but I'm really just sick and tired of this job soon 5 years in and I feel like I'm starting to be an empty shell it really robbed me from wanting to experience love with men as I see through them quicker by now. Camming ruined a lot for me in the past few years.

LoraDoll
01-22-2020, 08:10 PM
"Camming is not the same anymore to me as when I first started now that all these priviledged kids and adult men hang on their phones all day long its influenced camming a lot. "

This.

Capryce
01-23-2020, 03:33 AM
Worst. Month. Ever.

Fortunately December was really good so I've been able to save money, otherwise I'd be eating rocks today.

When is this desert going to end?

MsJess
01-23-2020, 03:31 PM
man is it me? cam sucks but i think i suck aswell :(

DahliaSimone
01-23-2020, 03:32 PM
man is it me? cam sucks but i think i suck aswell :(

Its not just you. SM has been horriblet his week....contest week is always bad, but this week has been a whole other beast altogether. Were it not for a few regs coming thru on NF and CMD my week would be fucked. Im not even at minimum payout to just get paid from SM yet and its Thursday and the minimum is only $100 lol. Its bad.

MsJess
01-23-2020, 03:53 PM
yeah it's so bad it's hurting my feelings

Cutie101
01-23-2020, 03:58 PM
Hmmm, a serious percentage my regs have all dissapeared. Life is dry and camming sucks without them. Ugh!!
Need to make new ones. If there was any traffic...

MsJess
01-23-2020, 04:19 PM
same, ALL of my regs dissapeared :(

Capryce
01-24-2020, 02:48 AM
same, ALL of my regs dissapeared :(

Mine too! Where did they all go?

I've been camming for a bit more than a year, but I don't remember last January to be so slow and empty!!! Is it like this every year? I have witnessed Tuesday is the worst day of the week for me, but is it safe to assume the same statement for January as well?

If almost everyone of us has the same issues, I'd like to know what are the causes (out of money after Christmas maybe?)

Can't wait for February to come, unless it's worse -_-

SapphireXO
01-24-2020, 09:47 AM
January has been average for me. Tuesday's are also my slowest day of the week. I notice that if you want to pull high numbers, you have to work longer shifts than usual that day. Every February/March I feel burnt out and take half the month off. However, yes historically the last two weeks of November are TERRIBLE!!!! Then holiday credit card bills/taxes are due in January causing lower spending.

The money is out there! Just you may have to be creative during those times to make your money.

gbjenna
01-24-2020, 12:32 PM
I'm doing well tonight but jeeeez where is all the abuse coming from?! Guys just coming in and hurling abuse at me!

What they're actually saying isn't bothering me but it's getting a bit draining looking up to see yet more abuse lol.

Worst thing is, I think I look a bit miserable if I start to zone out hahhaa and I looked at one of my chats and the guy seemed to think he'd upset me with this tirade of abuse I'd not even seen yet. No weirdo, I'm just bored.

XSelinex
01-24-2020, 01:12 PM
Asked would I rape him and then I got that:
Shanghai56:does your shitty attitude come naturally, or do yoy have to work at it?

gbjenna
01-24-2020, 01:27 PM
Asked would I rape him and then I got that:
Shanghai56:does your shitty attitude come naturally, or do yoy have to work at it?

I bet he’s racked his brains all day to think of that stupid insult and said anything he could to get a reaction just so he could use it.

BadBitch
01-24-2020, 07:33 PM
"camming is not the same anymore to me as when i first started now that all these priviledged kids and adult men hang on their phones all day long its influenced camming a lot. "

this.

absolutely this!

Miss_ShaSha
01-24-2020, 08:52 PM
My mood has been good & it's alarming in a good way cause this week camming has sucked royally.

20 hrs & $265 on SM. I think this week two regulars did short shows & the other shows were short too. Nothing on Skype. Thank fuck for savings.

This is why I invested in a new business. Camming just isn't right for me.

#GettingOutSoon

Ladybuggie
01-25-2020, 10:34 AM
My mood has been good & it's alarming in a good way cause this week camming has sucked royally.

20 hrs & $265 on SM. I think this week two regulars did short shows & the other shows were short too. Nothing on Skype. Thank fuck for savings.

This is why I invested in a new business. Camming just isn't right for me.

#GettingOutSoon

It's just SO up and down that you have to have the right brain to make it work without it costing you your mental health, isn't it? Way harder than most people think. I will be moving on to something different by the end of the year, something that suits me better, which is exciting but also very scary after 3.5 years! Until then tho I need to really make it count and save as much as possible. Hope next week is not as shit as this one!

xx

Miss_ShaSha
01-25-2020, 11:48 AM
It's just SO up and down that you have to have the right brain to make it work without it costing you your mental health, isn't it? Way harder than most people think. I will be moving on to something different by the end of the year, something that suits me better, which is exciting but also very scary after 3.5 years! Until then tho I need to really make it count and save as much as possible. Hope next week is not as shit as this one!

xx

Right, I think we all ride a rollercoaster in business, but this one is way too wicked and for being all over the internet naked or being sexual with my feet even $1K a week isn't really worth it for me. I've done the damage. All I can do is move forward.

Have you thought of joining any of the savings threads? They're super helpful for me. Might be for you too. I'm happy to hear you're making a shift too. You're too kind for this kind of mental and emotional war.

anonymous camgirl
01-25-2020, 01:29 PM
Guys goes to pvt and I am making the standard small talk, Answers none of my questions. Long pauses Guys says: " What are we waiting for"? fucking hell.. most of the cam customers on SM are like this these days.. I politely told him that this was NOT a gold show if that is what he was looking for and then asked him if he had ever been in pvt before...lol

KatM
01-26-2020, 02:12 AM
^^^ I know right?!?! One idiot gave me a one star rating saying it takes too long to get started, I mean we supposed to start drilling our holes right away now?! Yeah, maybe he was thinking he went into a GS which I don't do.
Yes, can be confusing for them why a girl starts a show right away and why others try to find out what he is into and what he enjoys seeing.

root
01-26-2020, 02:49 AM
Tonight was rough, barely broke a hundred after 4 hours online. Also had a guy try to scam his way through a private (kept logging on/off in and out of paid, trying to basically trick me into thinking he was paying when he wasn't) and the few dollars that I did get from him disappeared from my earnings statement suddenly. I'm assuming he disputed the charge with SM? Overall crap night, hopefully this coming week is better!

Miss_ShaSha
01-26-2020, 07:33 AM
^^First time that ever happened to me was a supposed footjob show. He logged in and out like 8 times. As soon as I put my feet on the dildo he left for good. Got scammed and I was pissed. Good on you for not falling for it.

DahliaSimone
01-26-2020, 12:08 PM
What happened to Sundays? They are almost always my best day but today and last Sunday have been completely dead for me....

NitaBaby
01-26-2020, 12:53 PM
I'm trying to be grateful but I really don't have time for the psychoanalytical bullshit. I've been on since 9am and all I've made is $250. Literally half of what I usually make on Sundays by this time. Why tf is it so dead today???? Everyone is asking for free shit. Everyone wants to know what my bra size is. Where am I from. Do I have oil. Will I flash my tits. No? What if they say "please"? Don't let the $250 fool you - $180 of it came from a skype reg. So sm is really pissing me off right now.

I'm going to give this shit until 6pm before I flip my dresser.

anonymous camgirl
01-26-2020, 01:46 PM
^^^ I know right?!?! One idiot gave me a one star rating saying it takes too long to get started, I mean we supposed to start drilling our holes right away now?! Yeah, maybe he was thinking he went into a GS which I don't do.
Yes, can be confusing for them why a girl starts a show right away and why others try to find out what he is into and what he enjoys seeing.

I make them tip me upfront for quick shows. some of them get annoyed but whatever.

SuperPookie
01-26-2020, 01:47 PM
I have made just a tad over $150 in three frigging days in between all my sites combined wth. This is stressing me right the hell out because I'm doing the hours but just seeing nothing for it

anonymous camgirl
01-26-2020, 10:25 PM
I have made just a tad over $150 in three frigging days in between all my sites combined wth. This is stressing me right the hell out because I'm doing the hours but just seeing nothing for it

RUN! RUN AWAY!l.. I WISH I COULD HAVE RUN AWAY A LONG TIME AGO.. soon I will be able to que you guys in a legit work at home job if anyone is interested. One of my best friends was a cam girl for 10 yrs and now she works at home doing legit work at home jobs.. My son is doing it now.. if anyone is interested PM ME.. currently my son is making $11 an hour base pay and $16+ max pay.. it's a 3 month job and you sign up for a different one.

Miss_ShaSha
01-27-2020, 06:19 AM
I have made just a tad over $150 in three frigging days in between all my sites combined wth. This is stressing me right the hell out because I'm doing the hours but just seeing nothing for it

Me last week. The Rollercoaster is difficult to deal with at times. You'll be back in $1k thread soon.

NitaBaby
01-27-2020, 07:46 AM
Every blue moon I convince myself that a wah job would be far better than any day on cam. Apply at the usual companies and check the wah job boards. Get hired.

Then I get my vanilla paycheck lmao.

Camming spoils the shit out of you.

Holly_xoxo
01-27-2020, 10:36 AM
Every blue moon I convince myself that a wah job would be far better than any day on cam. Apply at the usual companies and check the wah job boards. Get hired.

Then I get my vanilla paycheck lmao.

Camming spoils the shit out of you.

Yes!! so much yes about that comment Lol...I started another line of work that is non adult and it does't pay nearly as much as camming but I really don't want to go back to camming. It's just soooo tempting when I know how much more I could be making....sigh.

KatM
01-27-2020, 10:51 AM
My therapist said I should take a break from camming while under therapy, I told her that's not possible because it'll mean suicide money wise and I can't afford not to work for several weeks or even months, she doesn't understand how camming works and what it means. I gave up therapy because i felt she puts pressure on me to get another job even I told her I can't psychically do it cause I am not fit and have too many health issues I need to check with the doctors all the time.
She gave me an email address to apply for a position as a care taker for orphans but of course I was not called or contacted because my resume doesn't impress employers cause I cam for too long and have huge gaps of not working officially, it's 10 years from my last official job and that was a freelancer company I had.
Point is, I wanted her to help me deal with life, health issues and camming, not make me resent camming even more lol. Camming can save and fuck our lives the very same way .....

Ladybuggie
01-27-2020, 12:53 PM
My therapist said I should take a break from camming while under therapy, I told her that's not possible because it'll mean suicide money wise and I can't afford not to work for several weeks or even months, she doesn't understand how camming works and what it means. I gave up therapy because i felt she puts pressure on me to get another job even I told her I can't psychically do it cause I am not fit and have too many health issues I need to check with the doctors all the time.
She gave me an email address to apply for a position as a care taker for orphans but of course I was not called or contacted because my resume doesn't impress employers cause I cam for too long and have huge gaps of not working officially, it's 10 years from my last official job and that was a freelancer company I had.
Point is, I wanted her to help me deal with life, health issues and camming, not make me resent camming even more lol. Camming can save and fuck our lives the very same way .....

I find the misunderstanding about camming and sex work in general is HUGE in the therapy world. I made sure from the beginning that my therapist was 100% non judgmental and understood my choice of work as valid. Otherwise I would not be able to work with her. I understand that getting a new therapist is a lot of emotional stress, but you might really benefit from talking to someone who actually respects your lifestyle and is willing to meet you where you are, not where she thinks you should be. Look for sex-positive therapists, there might be a directory where you live. The last thing in the world you need is your therapist to tell you you're living your life wrong imo. xx

MissViolet
01-27-2020, 01:10 PM
My therapist said I should take a break from camming while under therapy, I told her that's not possible because it'll mean suicide money wise and I can't afford not to work for several weeks or even months, she doesn't understand how camming works and what it means. I gave up therapy because i felt she puts pressure on me to get another job even I told her I can't psychically do it cause I am not fit and have too many health issues I need to check with the doctors all the time.
She gave me an email address to apply for a position as a care taker for orphans but of course I was not called or contacted because my resume doesn't impress employers cause I cam for too long and have huge gaps of not working officially, it's 10 years from my last official job and that was a freelancer company I had.
Point is, I wanted her to help me deal with life, health issues and camming, not make me resent camming even more lol. Camming can save and fuck our lives the very same way .....

I completely agree with Lady! You can't possibly feel safe and validated if your therapist is constantly trying to redirect you out of your financial survival. Also, therapists are supposed to meet you where you are, so if you're not ready/unable/don't want to leave something, a good one won't keep pushing that. I think she might have a stigma and seeing your job as a root/part of this or that. Even if she/he doesn't and simply thinking you need a change or whatever, again, she should NOT be pressuring you to change if you're not ready.

My therapist is great about really asking me questions about camming so she has a baseline understanding, enough to have a context for related issues I bring up. I myself have been thinking about transitioning out of it for awhile - well actually that's been recent, it took a long time to come to that, and I'm STILL unsure. But at no point did she ever make me feel pressured. Therapy should feel like a a truly safe haven.

I found my therapist on a directory for Kink Aware Professionals. It's the closest thing I could get to looking for a sworker friendly directory. I made sure when I emailed, after looking at the website and seeing that she seemed safe to mention it, that I'm a sworker and wanted to make sure my job wouldn't be 'pathologized'.

So yeah, you definitely deserve a therapist who accepts this part of you. It really informs so many other areas of the working relationship, honestly.

Here's the directory I used. You can narrow it to health professionals, maybe mental health.

https://www.kapprofessionals.org/business-directory-2/

MissViolet
01-27-2020, 01:15 PM
Oh! And also I think Pineapple Support offers mental health services for sworkers. pineapplesupport.org

KatM
01-27-2020, 01:41 PM
I find the misunderstanding about camming and sex work in general is HUGE in the therapy world. I made sure from the beginning that my therapist was 100% non judgmental and understood my choice of work as valid. Otherwise I would not be able to work with her. I understand that getting a new therapist is a lot of emotional stress, but you might really benefit from talking to someone who actually respects your lifestyle and is willing to meet you where you are, not where she thinks you should be. Look for sex-positive therapists, there might be a directory where you live. The last thing in the world you need is your therapist to tell you you're living your life wrong imo. xx


I completely agree with Lady! You can't possibly feel safe and validated if your therapist is constantly trying to redirect you out of your financial survival. Also, therapists are supposed to meet you where you are, so if you're not ready/unable/don't want to leave something, a good one won't keep pushing that. I think she might have a stigma and seeing your job as a root/part of this or that. Even if she/he doesn't and simply thinking you need a change or whatever, again, she should NOT be pressuring you to change if you're not ready.

My therapist is great about really asking me questions about camming so she has a baseline understanding, enough to have a context for related issues I bring up. I myself have been thinking about transitioning out of it for awhile - well actually that's been recent, it took a long time to come to that, and I'm STILL unsure. But at no point did she ever make me feel pressured. Therapy should feel like a a truly safe haven.

I found my therapist on a directory for Kink Aware Professionals. It's the closest thing I could get to looking for a sworker friendly directory. I made sure when I emailed, after looking at the website and seeing that she seemed safe to mention it, that I'm a sworker and wanted to make sure my job wouldn't be 'pathologized'.

So yeah, you definitely deserve a therapist who accepts this part of you. It really informs so many other areas of the working relationship, honestly.

Here's the directory I used. You can narrow it to health professionals, maybe mental health.

https://www.kapprofessionals.org/business-directory-2/


Oh! And also I think Pineapple Support offers mental health services for sworkers. pineapplesupport.org

Thank you for input ladies, i very much appreciate it xx
Me and my son picked her because she is young (27 yo) and we believed she will be ok with my cam work but i figured out she is way to young to have the experience and understanding of what it really means to be in my situation (i raised my kid as a single mom camming, he was 7 yo when i started and now he is 25 yo).
Camming saved our lives here but did a lot of damage also so 'my case' is a heavy one that involves a lot of mixed feelings about everything, health issues and financial issues plus a lot of traumas from the far and recent past.
When she mentioned that i go online to cam because 'i might need to be abused'... that was the moment i decided she is not the right therapist for me, i told her "no, this is not the case, i go on cam cause i need money!"
Right now i dont feel like i wanna open up to another therapist again cause it's too difficult for me to talk about all the issues i have and i dont even think somebody in this world could 'sort me out', that will mean to be born again in good conditions in the right family and have my life rewritten completely.
She is a good human being just not experienced enough and here in this country in eastern europe where i live people are really judgmental, even the therapists; she tried not to be judgmental but i felt she wanted to redirect me indirectly to get out of camming cause she 'understood' camming 'is doing me bad'; yes is doing me not good but having no money at all would do me worse so i pick the 'less evil' so to speak.
Right now i dont have the will or even financial resources to go to another therapist, they not used to camming work here and dont know how to deal with it and even i could find another one, i am too sensitive to handle therapy, i cried like a baby almost every time i was there (6-7 sessions in total), is too much for me, i need my peace to be able to handle myself and to be able to work, when back from there i was emotionally shaken, was not doing good to me.
Ty for reading about my experience with therapy and again, ty for input xx

ravenskyy
01-27-2020, 01:51 PM
It took me a whole hour to make $6. If it wasn't for a regular, I would have $47, for 3 hours on cam. I seriously can't rely on camming alone anymore. This is bullshit.

XSelinex
01-27-2020, 02:02 PM
Thank you for input ladies, i very much appreciate it xx
Me and my son picked her because she is young (27 yo) and we believed she will be ok with my cam work but i figured out she is way to young to have the experience and understanding of what it really means to be in my situation (i raised my kid as a single mom camming, he was 7 yo when i started and now he is 25 yo).
Camming saved our lives here but did a lot of damage also so 'my case' is a heavy one that involves a lot of mixed feelings about everything, health issues and financial issues plus a lot of traumas from the far and recent past.
When she mentioned that i go online to cam because 'i might need to be abused'... that was the moment i decided she is not the right therapist for me, i told her "no, this is not the case, i go on cam cause i need money!"
Right now i dont feel like i wanna open up to another therapist again cause it's too difficult for me to talk about all the issues i have and i dont even think somebody in this world could 'sort me out', that will mean to be born again in good conditions in the right family and have my life rewritten completely.
She is a good human being just not experienced enough and here in this country in eastern europe where i live people are really judgmental, even the therapists; she tried not to be judgmental but i felt she wanted to redirect me indirectly to get out of camming cause she 'understood' camming 'is doing me bad'; yes is doing me not good but having no money at all would do me worse so i pick the 'less evil' so to speak.
Right now i dont have the will or even financial resources to go to another therapist, they not used to camming work here and dont know how to deal with it and even i could find another one, i am too sensitive to handle therapy, i cried like a baby almost every time i was there (6-7 sessions in total), is too much for me, i need my peace to be able to handle myself and to be able to work, when back from there i was emotionally shaken, was not doing good to me.
Ty for reading about my experience with therapy and again, ty for input xx

I think if traffic was the same as 3-4 years ago when 1 hour in average was 50-70$, we would feel about it much better, but now with all these money issues, empty room, 0$ for a few hours online, no one come in and lack of interacting with members camming brings a lot of stress.
Members nowadays not active at all. Well my ex was narcissist, he used a silent treatment as a punishment so I`m stressed when instead fun online I have a silence from everyone, even in goldshow or in pvt they stay silent, I feel myself so neglected, 2 years ago my room and chat were full with nice chatty guys, now its not the same at all. I have to sit and wait in silence and its makes me sad, I remember how it was back to back shows and lot of members activity.

Miss_ShaSha
01-27-2020, 02:04 PM
It took me a whole hour to make $6. If it wasn't for a regular, I would have $47, for 3 hours on cam. I seriously can't rely on camming alone anymore. This is bullshit.

4 hrs streamed on SM & it's very bad saleswise: $37. Keeping my vibe up despite it is a challenge for sure, but I have a high goal this week to meet to cover business expenses.

I'm left with no choice. I must cam despite it. Gotta say: totally feel you.

Miss_ShaSha
01-27-2020, 02:09 PM
Thank you for input ladies, i very much appreciate it xx
Me and my son picked her because she is young (27 yo) and we believed she will be ok with my cam work but i figured out she is way to young to have the experience and understanding of what it really means to be in my situation (i raised my kid as a single mom camming, he was 7 yo when i started and now he is 25 yo).
Camming saved our lives here but did a lot of damage also so 'my case' is a heavy one that involves a lot of mixed feelings about everything, health issues and financial issues plus a lot of traumas from the far and recent past.
When she mentioned that i go online to cam because 'i might need to be abused'... that was the moment i decided she is not the right therapist for me, i told her "no, this is not the case, i go on cam cause i need money!"
Right now i dont feel like i wanna open up to another therapist again cause it's too difficult for me to talk about all the issues i have and i dont even think somebody in this world could 'sort me out', that will mean to be born again in good conditions in the right family and have my life rewritten completely.
She is a good human being just not experienced enough and here in this country in eastern europe where i live people are really judgmental, even the therapists; she tried not to be judgmental but i felt she wanted to redirect me indirectly to get out of camming cause she 'understood' camming 'is doing me bad'; yes is doing me not good but having no money at all would do me worse so i pick the 'less evil' so to speak.
Right now i dont have the will or even financial resources to go to another therapist, they not used to camming work here and dont know how to deal with it and even i could find another one, i am too sensitive to handle therapy, i cried like a baby almost every time i was there (6-7 sessions in total), is too much for me, i need my peace to be able to handle myself and to be able to work, when back from there i was emotionally shaken, was not doing good to me.
Ty for reading about my experience with therapy and again, ty for input xx

Well , good for you. If your gut says she isn't a match follow it. Sending you calm energy.

Ladybuggie
01-27-2020, 02:14 PM
Thank you for input ladies, i very much appreciate it xx
Me and my son picked her because she is young (27 yo) and we believed she will be ok with my cam work but i figured out she is way to young to have the experience and understanding of what it really means to be in my situation (i raised my kid as a single mom camming, he was 7 yo when i started and now he is 25 yo).
Camming saved our lives here but did a lot of damage also so 'my case' is a heavy one that involves a lot of mixed feelings about everything, health issues and financial issues plus a lot of traumas from the far and recent past.
When she mentioned that i go online to cam because 'i might need to be abused'... that was the moment i decided she is not the right therapist for me, i told her "no, this is not the case, i go on cam cause i need money!"
Right now i dont feel like i wanna open up to another therapist again cause it's too difficult for me to talk about all the issues i have and i dont even think somebody in this world could 'sort me out', that will mean to be born again in good conditions in the right family and have my life rewritten completely.
She is a good human being just not experienced enough and here in this country in eastern europe where i live people are really judgmental, even the therapists; she tried not to be judgmental but i felt she wanted to redirect me indirectly to get out of camming cause she 'understood' camming 'is doing me bad'; yes is doing me not good but having no money at all would do me worse so i pick the 'less evil' so to speak.
Right now i dont have the will or even financial resources to go to another therapist, they not used to camming work here and dont know how to deal with it and even i could find another one, i am too sensitive to handle therapy, i cried like a baby almost every time i was there (6-7 sessions in total), is too much for me, i need my peace to be able to handle myself and to be able to work, when back from there i was emotionally shaken, was not doing good to me.
Ty for reading about my experience with therapy and again, ty for input xx

I really understand how you feel about this, it must be really tough, but also I do encourage you to seek help from someone else if you ever feel you have forces for it. The strength that unconditional support can give you is immense. I'd look into the website that was recommended by MissViolet , https://pineapplesupport.org , cause it's a support service that's specially designed for sex workers, it's free, and maybe being able to do "chat" counselling instead of face to face would be easier for you? Good luck with whatever you do! xx

Cutie101
01-27-2020, 02:21 PM
Maan, even tho, camming rocked yesterday and I made a nice amount, it was because of regulars who shown up out of nowhere. Because, without that, there's no traffic! Wtf...

MsJess
01-27-2020, 03:24 PM
is SM dying? holy fuck!

XSelinex
01-27-2020, 03:30 PM
is SM dying? holy fuck!

Most models online having a black screen with downloading circle, I hope SM will fix it soon.

Miss_ShaSha
01-27-2020, 03:34 PM
is SM dying? holy fuck!


I dunno. I think I may have died tho. I must be a ghost as no one can see me evidently. LOL


Maan, even tho, camming rocked yesterday and I made a nice amount, it was because of regulars who shown up out of nowhere. Because, without that, there's no traffic! Wtf...

Same, SAME. No regs today at all and I'm entering hour 6. Ohhhh, must do EFT again soon as my frustration is starting to rise haha.

Holly_xoxo
01-27-2020, 03:45 PM
4 hrs streamed on SM & it's very bad saleswise: $37. Keeping my vibe up despite it is a challenge for sure, but I have a high goal this week to meet to cover business expenses.

I'm left with no choice. I must cam despite it. Gotta say: totally feel you.

You got this, Sha! Nothing can stop you when that stubbornness comes out. Yeesh! that stubbornness lol