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eagle2
03-12-2014, 06:40 PM
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Kaylak
03-13-2014, 01:23 PM
Please do not despair
Go to a meeting and ask for help. sometimes you need to ask, not that it is easy.
If you want a copy of the big book, hell, I will get you one, and I am sure I am not the only one who would
Ask for a big book and you'll be showered with them!
TheWeirdOne
03-13-2014, 01:31 PM
Im looking up meetings for today. I seriously stopped to going to the gym all week. Ill update on my meeting for today
Kaylak
03-13-2014, 01:39 PM
I did!! I went in there an spilled my guts on my first day of sobriety when I was a fucking wreck. Shared all my things, although sober ppl advise against sharing early on I did it. I felt great. I cried, was pretty dramatic. I shared everything, all the bad about why I wanted to quit. I then went and everything was going great.
There are all sorts of meetings. They range from supercharged with lots of strong sobriety and plenty of people who will reach out and make you feel welcome. Then there are the meetings where AA means "Assholes Anonymous."
You're not the only one who has experienced body image issues, hopelessness and despair. That is not a snide put down. It is a recognition of everyone here's journey. Confronting addiction and surrendering it sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks.
Your are ok! You are not alone in these experiences. Love and Hugs!!
TheWeirdOne
03-13-2014, 01:45 PM
Assholes anonymous! or like that old man at my old aa who thought he was an AA GOD!!
Fionaver
03-15-2014, 05:56 AM
Ok, so I may totally come off as an asshole and my experience may be TOTALLY irrelevant.... But honestly.... I drink, but not at work. Not anymore. I'm on restriction, and-frankly- it's probably the best thing that could happen to me. Work is HARD now (after over a decade of dancing) but I was always able to make the vast majority of my cold, hard cash from conversation and stage.
My social insecurities play out now - Waaaaaay more so than before-but- that's how you play the game.
slowpoke
03-20-2014, 02:29 PM
How is it going?
TheWeirdOne
05-12-2014, 08:25 AM
Hi, wow a lot has happened since my last post here. I had been drinking heavily, very heavily. In other posts I wrote I haven't been working. Well I haven't been drinking as much because I haven't been working. I don't blackout anymore but honestly I know myself and ill slowly get back to buying bottles before work, getting smashed at work and driving home, etc. My husband is drinking again as well. Although he does not drink as much as me he is also an alcoholic.
Lots has happened, lots of bad.
I have so much fun when I drink with my husband. I want to tell him that I was us to do the program together. Lately when I drink I feel guilty after the first drink. It's strange because I usually wouldn't feel guilty until the morning after.
Everything is going great with my life at the moment. I couldn't be happier. I don't know where to begin. I quit before because it was ruining my life. Right now, drinking isn't but I know it can and will. You know, I actually have noticed my husband reaching for beers way to early, or drinking without a "reason" I mentioned it to him a few days back. I was like,"dude im making breakfast, do you need to drink a beer?" In a way it's turning me off but I feel that I've been much crazier and out of control so I shouldn't even talk. It usually was me buying the alcohol or ordering drinks at dinner but now it's him.
He got promoted, and he has a really stressful job. He works a lot. Maybe hes drinking for stress relief. Im not sure how to approach him, but I know im ready to give it a shOt. Lately we've been blowing money going out like crazy. We are trouble together =( he's my best friend and I don't want to be a buzzkill no pun intended to tell him I want us to get sober. I guess since "nothing bad" has resulted from drinking I don't have ammunition to tell him why it's a good idea.
Sorry about the long post. Siiigh. Ok I got that out. Thanks in advance for your responses.
Aniela
05-12-2014, 11:23 AM
Hi, wow a lot has happened since my last post here. I had been drinking heavily, very heavily. In other posts I wrote I haven't been working. Well I haven't been drinking as much because I haven't been working. I don't blackout anymore but honestly I know myself and ill slowly get back to buying bottles before work, getting smashed at work and driving home, etc. My husband is drinking again as well. Although he does not drink as much as me he is also an alcoholic.
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Everything is going great with my life at the moment. I couldn't be happier. I don't know where to begin. I quit before because it was ruining my life. Right now, drinking isn't but I know it can and will. You know, I actually have noticed my husband reaching for beers way to early, or drinking without a "reason" I mentioned it to him a few days back. I was like,"dude im making breakfast, do you need to drink a beer?" In a way it's turning me off but I feel that I've been much crazier and out of control so I shouldn't even talk. It usually was me buying the alcohol or ordering drinks at dinner but now it's him.
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=( he's my best friend and I don't want to be a buzzkill no pun intended to tell him I want us to get sober. I guess since "nothing bad" has resulted from drinking I don't have ammunition to tell him why it's a good idea.
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'No ammunition'? You have your own precious experiences as ammunition, as proof of how bad things can get for you. Believe me, I sympathise w/ the uphill battle that can be mastering your own addiction & trying to help sm1 you love master theirs. I have been on both sides of it. Does he just choose to ignore what happened to you previously? I would think your health is important to him, & you recognised that your health was suffering or you would not have taken the steps you did to get sober. He has to understand that his own health is important to you as well. If you are looking for 'ammunition' this is where I woûld start.
TheWeirdOne
05-12-2014, 11:28 AM
You're right. I guess when us alcoholics get into a temporary phase where were able to drink without blacking out we forget. I will sit down and have a conversation with him. He's very supportive. I know if I ask him to not drink because im getting sober he won't but I just feel like im forcing him.
oldster
05-13-2014, 11:04 AM
Remember that this is a process. Don't be embarrassed that you are not living up to some imaginary standards.
Hey, if the guy cares for you you are not forcing him not anything. Parts of recovery can be, or seem to be, selfish.
If you do not focus on you there will not be a you around to care about him.
slowpoke
05-13-2014, 11:10 AM
You can’t save him.
You can’t even save yourself.
Do not let your sobriety be contingent on anything another person does.
Get back to your meetings.
pinups4
05-13-2014, 04:40 PM
Good for you!!! It's a HUGE step/
maybe bring it up to him in a few weeks....after he sees you're still fun sober. If he goes for it, cool. if not, maybe he will in time. Just be careful not to let him pull you back, and make sure you're not the preachy born-again sinner who is all high and mighty.
you'll get it. Awesome first step!
TheWeirdOne
05-14-2014, 11:55 AM
Last night we finished one of those huge wine bottles, one small one and lots of vodka. He didn't sleep, left to work like that. Siiiigh. It is getting worse. The born again, ughhh!! One of my old co worker, biggest drunk I've ever met...literally. I guess she went sober which is fantastic, good for her but I ran into her after many months. She then began to make jokes about drunk ppl, speaking as if alcoholics suck, etc. She went on about how good she is now that she's sober. Im not knocking her down but hearing her speak only made me more depressed and want to keep drinking. Its like ummmm do you remember you used to pee on yourself in public??? Yea drinking sucks, and yes sobriety is awesome, I've tried it but failed =(
Idk how my husband left to work, he didn't sleep all night and I know he's still drunk and probably reeks of vodka and wine. Im doing it tonight pinup, I don't think it can wait a few weeks. Im just going to come out and say it. We can't drink anymore.
oldster
05-14-2014, 03:55 PM
You have not failed.
You simply have not yet reached your goal.
slowpoke
05-14-2014, 04:09 PM
Keep going to meetings.
Don't drink. If you feel the urge to drink, call your sponsor.
pinups4
05-23-2014, 08:01 AM
Just checking in. Keep working at it
Flickdreams
05-31-2014, 04:16 AM
Keep going to meetings till you hear the message, how will you know when you've heard what you need to hear- you'll know. I can hear that that sounds trite but the funny thing is that a lot of those trite sayings are truth.
SativaDiva3
06-04-2014, 06:51 PM
Don't give up. I was reading your older posts in this thread for the first time just now... I don't have a sponsor for the same reason as you but wish I could find one. Don't be afraid to go to a meeting and don't be afraid to tell them everything. "To thine own self be true."
Vackra
06-07-2014, 05:03 PM
I'm going to go out there and post something very personal because I feel it may help you, WeirdOne.
My father is a very old school, hardcore alcoholic. Never been violent or mean, he's actually a good time when he's drunk. However, he comes home about 5pm, drink until 8:30 when he goes to bed. Then he wakes up at midnight to drink more, goes back down about 2am, and is up at 5am for work. He normally goes to work drunk but has such a high tolerance he doesn't feel it.
In November, my father went to work drunk and collapsed in front of his desk. He was hospitalised with alcohol poisoning. You would think it would deter him but it didn't. He was a highly paid executive, and now has recently lost his job. He did not tell me why, but I suspect it's from going to work drunk.
Your husband, as the main provider, can NOT go to work drunk. If he is, this is a serious problem, and unless he stops drinking you are on borrowed time until he loses his job. Having seen it in my own family now, it really is a very severe thing. And on no sleep, being drunk, your husband could easily fall asleep at the wheel.
I would have a conversation about it today, pour all your booze down the sink and think up a game plan. If AA isn't working for you (it didn't for my father) then I suggest seeking out individualised addiction counselling ASAP, because it sounds like the spiral has begun.
slowpoke
06-07-2014, 06:01 PM
Hospitalization will dry someone out and help him a lot, but when he is released, he will be told to go to AA. There appears to be a co dependency problem here. It is not uncommon. Chemical abuse councilors are familiar with the situation.
charlie61
06-08-2014, 03:30 PM
I'm also worried about the relapse - clean phase - relapse cycle. Of course, relapsing may be a part of most people's recovery process, and you should always strive to pick yourself right back up after it happens...there is no sense in punishing yourself or spinning off into a shame spiral that leads to intensified alcohol abuse.
That said, I believe that the more often someone relapses, the less seriously they take relapsing. The first few times may feel jarring, but after a while, you may start to see relapsing as an "oops!" moment rather than something gravely / deadly serious. Just be aware of that possibility!
:grouphug:
slowpoke
06-08-2014, 03:42 PM
Yes.
Perhaps twenty five to fifty percent of alcoholics relapse ONE TIME. A relapse is like a traffic accident that didn’t kill you – it happens, but there is no guarantee you will survive if it happens again.
TheWeirdOne
06-15-2014, 04:11 PM
Tomorrow I am sober 8 days. Back to the sick breakouts =( I have the cyst looking pimples on my face now. I feel uneasy and bored. I have a bottle of vodka in my cabinet and craved a drink with my family yesterday but haven't. My husband is now 12 days sober. Friday night, I went swimming and realized how much alcohol affect people, after even two drinks. The beautiful women having a party belching, cursing, and talking without making sense. They weren't nearly as tanked as I get when I drink. Makes me think about what the bartenders must think when hubby and I drink 160$+ worth of drinks.
On Thursday night, I was bored and sad. I got my first grey hair and took it very hard. I almost went to fix a little drink but decided to Google
Effects of alcohol and aging
Well, I didn'T have the drink. Lol.
Hope all of you are having a good father's day. Happy father's day to all the mommies who are daddies too.
slowpoke
06-15-2014, 04:35 PM
I hate to waste things, but get rid of the vodka. Give it to someone who is not alcoholic, or pour it out. You don't need the temptation.
TheWeirdOne
07-02-2014, 06:23 PM
Still sober. Today, I had a crazy urge to drink. I couldn't understand why but I finally realized. I made a new friend and I suspect she's making me depressed!!! She makes passive aggressive comments all the time and talks about how much money her husband has, etc etc. She's one of those ppl that posts on social media how "blessed, lucky, perfect" everything is. I think I might feel envious, if all she says is true. However, everything she brags about I have too, except I don't broadcast it on social media everyday. Its weird. Am I not being happy enough?
She makes suggestions about EVERYTHING. Whatever I say is always followed by a thing about her life that is better than mine. Its that bitch who always has something to say.
So today, I was talking to her about a recipe. 2hrs later she posts something related to the recipe I shared, tearing it down as being unhealthy etc.
She constantly gives me diet and fitness advice but she's overweight... maybe she isn't but im in better shape.
Sorry for bitching but she talks shit on everything I say or do, I told her I wanted to take a pole dancing class (she dsnt know I used to dance) ... She then said, oh these little pop up places are so ratchet.
I mentioned I hated escalades after she told me her hubby had two bmws one Porsche and one escalade.. She goes
You hate a lot of things.
Grrrrr!!! Anyway I couldn't figure why I wanted to drink but it makes sense, this bitch is fckng with my head.
I drove to one liquor store, and two bars.
Im at the spa now, getting my nails and toes done instead.
Hopefully this craving passes.
Sorry for the negative post, and "hating" everything
Aniela
07-02-2014, 06:58 PM
Still sober. Today, I had a crazy urge to drink. I couldn't understand why but I finally realized. I made a new friend and I suspect she's making me depressed!!! She makes passive aggressive comments all the time and talks about how much money her husband has, etc etc. She's one of those ppl that posts on social media how "blessed, lucky, perfect" everything is. I think I might feel envious, if all she says is true. However, everything she brags about I have too, except I don't broadcast it on social media everyday. Its weird. Am I not being happy enough?
She makes suggestions about EVERYTHING. Whatever I say is always followed by a thing about her life that is better than mine. Its that bitch who always has something to say.
So today, I was talking to her about a recipe. 2hrs later she posts something related to the recipe I shared, tearing it down as being unhealthy etc.
She constantly gives me diet and fitness advice but she's overweight... maybe she isn't but im in better shape.
Sorry for bitching but she talks shit on everything I say or do, I told her I wanted to take a pole dancing class (she dsnt know I used to dance) ... She then said, oh these little pop up places are so ratchet.
I mentioned I hated escalades after she told me her hubby had two bmws one Porsche and one escalade.. She goes
You hate a lot of things.
Grrrrr!!! Anyway I couldn't figure why I wanted to drink but it makes sense, this bitch is fckng with my head.
I drove to one liquor store, and two bars.
Im at the spa now, getting my nails and toes done instead.
Hopefully this craving passes.
Sorry for the negative post, and "hating" everything
No apologies necessary, it is a normal part of recovery. Sm times the goddamnedest things can set you off.
If you look at one of my recent posts in the Annoyances thread you will get let in on a similar episode I had just last wk. The crawling-out-of-your-skin feeling when you are fighting that urge -- those instances when you are triggered may not ever go away *completely* but I promise you they do get easier to deal w/. You already scored a GINORMOUS victory this time when you almostAlmostALMOST slipped but went & got your nails done instead! Bc of that I am so happy for you.
oldster
07-03-2014, 05:51 AM
You did great
1st_samurai
07-10-2014, 08:16 PM
I think clubs should let dancers drink healthy beverages like juice or tea. I don't believe customers really care what dancers drink from their perspective.
Aniela
07-10-2014, 09:19 PM
I think clubs should let dancers drink healthy beverages like juice or tea. I don't believe customers really care what dancers drink from their perspective.
You'd be surprised then. Many customers have no fks to give abt what dancers drink(provided they don't get sloppy or vomit-y), but I have lost more than one customer's favour the moment 'Thnx, but I don't drink at work' left my lips.
slowpoke
07-11-2014, 02:26 PM
"Keep Coming Back"
SativaDiva3
07-12-2014, 12:52 PM
AA=Attitude Adjustment
781 days sober
slowpoke
07-22-2014, 01:37 PM
Progress report?
TheWeirdOne
08-31-2014, 07:55 AM
Waste of money. I poured out a brand new bottle of fire ball. Its probably in a sticky but
I start off with one shot to loosen up at work then keep going. I've always had stage fright. How To loosen up?
I like aa, I don't know if im ever going to want a sponsor. Can I ever get sober without one? Told you guys I was working on the big book, I was also writing. It's the sponsor that gives me a hard time. I know it's for my own good but I HATE being told what to do.
slowpoke
08-31-2014, 09:28 AM
It is not recommended but it has been done.
BB Authors, 3rd edition -- Author unknown, "Lifesaving Words."
From: They Stopped in Time
Lifesaving Words -- author unknown, Lucknow, India.
(p. 342 in 3rd edition.)
Heading: "For this officer in the Indian Army, going on the wagon
was not enough, attempts at control failed. The answer came to him
by mail."
This man is believed to have stopped drinking in January of 1973. He
attended high school in an American-sponsored Methodist public
school, known as Philander Smith College, and eventually became a
schoolmaster. He left that to join the Indian Army and was soon a
commissioned officer. It was after he joined the Army that his
alcoholism made itself known.
Eight years before writing his story, he and his wife spent a
vacation in sixty-day leave in Naini Tal, the mountain resort. That
was his first long vacation since joining the army. It was during
this vacation that he decided to stop drinking, and he succeeded in
this attempt for approximately fifteen months with only a couple of
slips. But being an alcoholic, he always looked forward to the day
when he could drink again.
At Christmas time the next year he convinced his wife that he had
alcohol under control and could do controlled drinking over Christmas
and the New Year. In a short time it became uncontrolled drinking.
For the next three years he tried often again to stop, but failed
miserably.
Then he saw an A.A. advertisement in a newspaper and wrote to the
address it
gave. The reply came putting him in touch by mail with an A.A.
member in New
Delhi. This man sent him literature which he read systematically
since then, and A.A. literature kept him sober.
The year before writing his story he took another vacation in Naini
Tal. He made this one an A.A. vacation. He read, studied, and
meditated on every bit of A.A. literature in his possession, studied
the Big Book again, and took down notes for reference purposes.
"The difference between the two vacations was this: On the first,
though on the water wagon, I looked forward to my next drink. I went
on the wagon more to placate my wife than anything else. On the
second, I knew -- as I know now -- that if I remained away from the
first drink, then I had not to worry about the hundredth one. And I
knew this: Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic. I owe everything
to A.A."
slowpoke
08-31-2014, 09:32 AM
"Another pioneer of the AA movement outside Mumbai was Trevor K., an Army Officer who also responded to one of the ads from New Delhi. He sobered up on 24th October 1957 and stayed sober till his death on 31st December 1986. The story of Trevor K. appears in the Big Book entitled – “Life-saving words”. Trevor’s service postings took him to new places in India and he became a roving ambassador of the AA movement in India sowing the seeds of the fellowship at Bangalore, Kanpur, Lucknow, Allahabad, Calcutta and other cities."
http://www.aawmig.org/about/aa-india-history/
TheWeirdOne
08-31-2014, 04:35 PM
I agree with the first, and hundredth drink. I have been drinking but "keeping it under control"
My husband took me out dancing a few weeks ago, I was still sober, I danced and laughed and flirted with him sober. I ordered a fizzy water, and didn't miss alcohol.
Luckily, I made a friend who rarely drinks. In fact, she refuses to go to bars, and we often have coffee dates =)
Thank you for checking in on my slowpoke
LadyFionaStar
08-31-2014, 08:43 PM
Hi,
Congratulations on your first step to recovery! Keep it simple. One day at a time. But you have to want it like you have never wanted anything else or it won't work. You have to want it to work and be totally done. Good Luck to you!
Just a little experience here. No matter what you do for a living or where you work, NEVER..and I mean EVER let anyone know something so personal about your life. Addiction, even alcoholism is still viewed by many as a moral deficiency and weakness. And in an environment where many people are Wasted and many of the girls are sniffing blow, drinking, and doing other drugs, they will think of you as an ass! And your customers want a "party girl" to hang with. Many of these guys are alkies because they are lonely. If you tell them, your custies that you are in AA, they may think your a drag and no fun to be around because many people equate drinking=fun...for "normies" that is true.
I am 49, a retired stripper and current camlady. I have struggled on and off with drugs and alcohol for 25 years or more. I am now sober for a few and keep a lid on it. Just pat yourself on the back every day for not picking up a drink or a drug and keep moving forward. YOU can do it if YOU want it bad enuff.
Good Luck..Fiona
I have been in and out of recovery, including 7 trips to rehab. I used to think it was a badge of honour getting clean. And what you are doing is great and very brave.
TheWeirdOne
08-31-2014, 11:00 PM
The concept of one day at a time dsnt sink in yet. I begin to imagine the celebratory toast I can't participate in. I need to worry about one day, then tomorrow, about tomorrow. Looking at it like ill never ever drink again seems so difficult and scary. I agree with the keeping alcoholism to myself. Ppl are judgemental sometimes. Today I am home alone. I googled, bars, nightlife, And even movie times. I decided not to go to a bar. I also decided not to go to a movie. Im staying in tonight and will be sleeping about 12+ hrs hehehe, a luxury I rarely get
oldster
09-01-2014, 07:03 AM
Of course it is difficult and scary.
I like to remember a dumb saying from a picture on the gym wall
"if you want something you have never had you must do something you have never done"
[forgive me if I am repeating myself]
keep working toward your goals
slowpoke
09-01-2014, 07:19 AM
See the big book, third edition, pages 99-101 there is a discussion, https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?193132-Single-girl-RANT&p=2666397&viewfull=1#post2666397
TheWeirdOne
09-08-2014, 05:01 PM
So I made it through my first week of working without drinking. I know you guys advice against it but I want a few months of sobriety under my belt before I get a sponsor. I have absolutely no craving for alcohol, especially at work, ironic right? I've put on a new pair of glasses and everything is beginning to look different. I don't even think my husband wanted to bring it up but this last shift I worked he told me he was very proud I wasnt coming home drunk.
A few friends I used to dance with, and drink with are working with me again. I did feel a slight bit of sadness because our relationship is different, since were not drinking together. I also feel sad for all the women like me, that are living the same cycle I was living. Showing up to work and getting a drink to keep the hangover away. The chugging away of booze, the sloppiness, the vulgarity that comes out of our mouths when we're intoxicated. Siiiigh. I hope I stay strong and not relapse. I was going into aa head first but I've come to realize that won't work for me. Like I mentioned, a few months of sobriety is what I need, before im ready to become an active aa member.
To anyone who clicked this because you're questioning the severity of your habit, trust me, no one will save you. It will continue into a downward spiral to your demise. It may seem like you're not that bad but I was once there, then I went to the darkest days, now, I am here, just taking it one day at a time.
blairish
09-20-2014, 11:50 PM
Have you visited the soberrecovery forums? (http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/)
They are an excellent online support group for alcoholics and addicts alike. Helped me through many a wavering moment - best thing is, they're 24/7, around the world - somebody is ALWAYS on there to reply. :)
Kellydancer
09-30-2014, 10:26 AM
The Weird One, I am so glad you are doing well. It'll be hard but I have faith in you. I read your postings and have saved a few to show a friend of mine suffering from alcoholism. I hope he'll be successful like you.
Sonja Swordofwords
10-02-2014, 08:06 AM
In Casper, Wyoming; we have a Club called 12-24 Club. It is a facility that acts as a conduit for various recovery: NA, AA, AL anon, SA (Sex Addicts), GA (Gamblers), and some Native American Groups. It was funded, built, and maintained by us: People seeking, or engaging in recovery. Its a beautiful place and somewhat symbolic in the fact that the power of recovery, though tough, is dark yet beautiful all at the same time.
I am a member on the Family Plan: Father, mother, brother, sister, and myself. I joke about the family plan, but there are walking miracles in that building. My brother says if he "got what he deserved" he'd be dead, now going into his 20th year.
slowpoke
01-26-2015, 08:16 AM
How is it going? We haven't heard anything on this in a while.
Sonja Swordofwords
01-26-2015, 11:51 AM
steps, traditions and slogans . Its is not your job to live up to anyone's expectations . You love yourself enough to do the right thing. From a multi family 12 stepper.
TheWeirdOne
03-09-2015, 08:45 PM
4 months sober today. OMG if I only could tell you guys all the craps thats happened to me. You know, its something Ive heard at meetings before as well as read it in the big book. Once youre getting sober for good, its like youre entire life falls apart. I swear, I felt like I got away with so much while i was out there. Now that I really am sober everything that could possibly go wrong has gone wrong. I began camming but Im struggling. I still dont have a car so going back to dancing isnt an option, and I still need to get back in shape after the pregnancy loss. I was 20 weeks pregnant when I lost the baby. I also lost primary custody of my son because the father used my hotel situation and carless situation as well as my on going health problems. I just feel so fckng fcknd. I am going to court tomorrow to request another hearing, I missed the court date because, well I was having surgery to remove the pregnancy. I am living with my mom and shes being really supportive but I cant trust her with camming. She knows I danced and I kinda mentioned I might have to dance again and she just shrugged and said that I was compromising my sobriety. All in all, I am still having urges to drink, more often now that all of this is happening. I have court on 2 alcohol related cases coming this months. I meant its A LOT for me right now. Also, since I am OCD I am on a cocktail of mood stabilizers and benzos and something to "sedate" me to go to sleep. Although my life is literally falling apart, there isnt a god damn think in this world that will make me drink. Like one AA member said,"whoever is born or whoever dies, you dont drink cabron!" Its the truth, it was funny when I heard it over a year ago but it means so much to me right now. I am back in school, taking online courses and I quit my job since I couldnt get there, my mom lives 100s of miles away, I am going to start going to the gym again. Sorry ladies so much crap
oldster
03-10-2015, 09:06 AM
Thanks for the update, sounds like you are having a tough go of it.
While maintaining your sobriety in the face of all this is difficult, it seems to me that in the end, it will be your sobriety that gets you through
Keep up the good work
charlie61
03-10-2015, 11:20 PM
That's often how it goes with recovering addicts. Your sober self is left to pick up the pieces from your alcoholic self's actions.
You sound strong. Just keep going - once you clean up this mess, you'll have your life back.