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EvaDarington
05-09-2014, 10:24 PM
But now I have a second guy in my life now telling me that he doesn't understand why I work so little, and that if he had my job he would be on cam 12+ hours a day making all of the money possible. And I'm starting to feel useless again. And I want to cry, and go back to being a little lump on the bed because I tried so hard and I worked and I'm being told once again that I'm just not doing good enough...
#sexworkerproblems

I have the same problem with certain people in my life. I sometimes go weeks without working because of panic attacks, depression, etc. I already know it's bad, and that we're broke...but sometimes I just can't do it. The pressure that is put on me (I pay all the bills) doesn't help. I can't just go on and have fun...I HAVE to make that money. I get overwhelmed. The worst part is when I'm told that I'm faking it to get out of work, or that I'm just being lazy. It hurts.

People don't get that this isn't an "easy" job. It's mentally and physically tiring. You are NOT useless because you put your mental stability over money. Please don't let anyone tell you that EVER. I deal with it personally every day, and I know how it wears you down. This job seems all sunshine and bubbles on the outside, but doing it day in and day out, for hours a day...it gets to you. Maybe not to everyone, but I'm sure we've all felt it at least once.

Just know you aren't alone Pearl, and that you are amazing - inside and out <3

laurielegs
05-10-2014, 05:35 PM
But now I have a second guy in my life now telling me that he doesn't understand why I work so little, and that if he had my job he would be on cam 12+ hours a day making all of the money possible. And I'm starting to feel useless again. And I want to cry, and go back to being a little lump on the bed because I tried so hard and I worked and I'm being told once again that I'm just not doing good enough...

#sexworkerproblems

Camming is extremely challenging the same as any other performer. What performer is on stage 8 hours a day?

My guess is your guy friend wouldn't last one day. I DARE him to try it - and by himself as a solo performer just like you.

chloemonet
05-10-2014, 06:00 PM
Lately I've been feeling down anxiety wise. Like a lot of you I've been having panic attacks a lot lately. Most of them have been small and I can just cry about it and let it run it's course. But today it just has been getting to me a lot. I had a really bad one earlier and then another like 20 minutes afterwards. I worked five days in a row this week despite being super depressed so I'm proud of myself, but it's taking everything in me not to take just one more day off instead I getting on cam for a late night shift... And my fucking body hurts, thanks a lot to chronic pain and no weed left... I woke up today and my whole body was aching and my knees have been bothering me all day. I just feel so blah, I don't wanna get online :(

JaneBurgess
05-10-2014, 06:39 PM
He just doesn't understand your job. I swear everyone thinks it's so damn easy and it isn't. I would go insane if I worked twelve hour days all the time. Plus my crotch would be so pissed off.




Hi, I'm Pearl. Some of you already know me and know me well. I suffer from depression. The debilitating, unmotivating, what is the purpose of life why am I doing this, shit I didn't work yesterday, or the day before, or the day before... Oh, I'm getting evicted? Well, fuck them. Zero fucks here. Depression.

I moved to Vegas from Seattle and I've been feeling so much better, I worked FOUR days in the last week and a half. Isn't that amazing? I was so proud of my little scant $300ish that I got from it.

But now I have a second guy in my life now telling me that he doesn't understand why I work so little, and that if he had my job he would be on cam 12+ hours a day making all of the money possible. And I'm starting to feel useless again. And I want to cry, and go back to being a little lump on the bed because I tried so hard and I worked and I'm being told once again that I'm just not doing good enough...

#sexworkerproblems

SweetJulia
05-10-2014, 07:44 PM
I would go insane if I worked twelve hour days all the time. Plus my crotch would be so pissed off.
Can I PLEASE use this as a signature???

Marina Starr
05-10-2014, 08:06 PM
It seems like he's bringing out the stress instead of the best out of you! I would have a talk with him or show him the door! fuckanythingthatdoesntmakeyouhappy.com
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Hi, I'm Pearl. Some of you already know me and know me well. I suffer from depression. The debilitating, unmotivating, what is the purpose of life why am I doing this, shit I didn't work yesterday, or the day before, or the day before... Oh, I'm getting evicted? Well, fuck them. Zero fucks here. Depression.

I moved to Vegas from Seattle and I've been feeling so much better, I worked FOUR days in the last week and a half. Isn't that amazing? I was so proud of my little scant $300ish that I got from it.

But now I have a second guy in my life now telling me that he doesn't understand why I work so little, and that if he had my job he would be on cam 12+ hours a day making all of the money possible. And I'm starting to feel useless again. And I want to cry, and go back to being a little lump on the bed because I tried so hard and I worked and I'm being told once again that I'm just not doing good enough...

#sexworkerproblems

JaneBurgess
05-10-2014, 08:39 PM
Sure :)



Can I PLEASE use this as a signature???

Magical_Hoohah
05-11-2014, 02:41 PM
hey, anybody who's got attention deficit? What do you do when you have to focus really bad on something? The more I need to focus the less I'm able to. I start thinking in all the dramas I've had lately for instance, ugh. Then the clock is ticking, deadlines, etc. Then I stress, and I indulge myself with something else to relax a bit and end up doing just nothing until I have a panic attack which lead to fever and vomits. How the hell am I suppose to focus on anything when I'm like this?

It's like a vicious cycle and it never ends. Same with work and money. I've learned how to save up and everything so I don't have to worry that much but when I need to focus on other things... Sometimes I feel my efforts are useless; I find myself having read 40 pages of something and realizing I didn't *really* read anything at all.

Caffeine is good/bad? Any advice? =__=

I find myself adrift.

Yep, all of that sounds just like me. And when I was a student, I agree that it was way worse, or at least seemed that way. Primarily with research papers, because they take so much time, and my usual "wait to start until the night before" routine really doesn't work. I'd just panic more as the deadline loomed, and then I'd distract myself more, and then nothing would get done.

On the other hand, when it's the very last second, the adrenaline kicks in, I feel a sort of rush, and I get focus-super-powers and can work like a maniac. Have you noticed that, too? There have been studies that show that many ADD people focus really well under the influence of adrenaline. That's why the vast majority of ADD meds are stimulants - the drugs sort of approximate the chemistry/feeling of adrenaline. For the same reasons, caffeine (a REASONABLE quantity) can help with ADD, too. I had been taking Adderall for years, but stopped taking it entirely a few months ago, and now I just have a couple cups of coffee through the day, and I find it's a decent, mild substitute.

If you're trying to get a sharp burst of focus - like you can feel yourself drifting off track and need to get back on course right now - I like to do 3-5 minutes of high-intensity kickboxing. It gets my heart rate up, and because it's martial arts related and I'm imagining beating up an attacker, it helps give me a small fight-or-flight type adrenaline rush. Basically, it tricks your body into feeling the same rush that it would feel when you're down to the last minute before a deadline. Thus, you can sort of get yourself into that very-last-minute-super-focus, even though it's not actually the last minute.


Another thing I do, is break the task down. For example, get paper and pen. Get passwords and bills. Pull up account to see money available, etc. I break it down in the simplest, most non-threatening pieces possible, and usually complete the task that way.
^^^This is great advice, and as a long-term coping strategy I do this, too. I have a to-do-list app that I used to make a gigantic daily/weekly/monthly to-do list. Everything repeats as needed. It's broken down to the smallest details - it really looks ridiculous if you just read it. For example the task for "getting ready to get on cam" includes sub-tasks like "turn on the lights," "pee before you start," and "turn down your phone volume." Obviously, I can remember to do these things on my own, but if I'm relying on my own ADD brain, I'll also remember other shit like "when was the last time you watered the plants?" and "I really need to trim the dogs' nails," etc. If all the most basic things are written down on a list, I can tell myself to stop thinking about things I need to do, and just do whatever is next on the list. Of course, creating the list required some major effort to start out, but I consider it time well spent since it helps me out every day.

Magical_Hoohah
05-11-2014, 03:10 PM
^^ I have attention deficit disorder when I'm camming. Any suggestions for that?
I have to just keep looking at the cam screen, because my custies are like children that need my full attention every minute, or nobody goes prvt. Uggh! they even comment if I'm looking away, or down, heaven forbid!
What sorts of things are distracting you from giving your room more attention? Could you eliminate some of them?

The biggest reason that I stopped taking ADD meds was that I realized that ADD really works for me on cam. When I'm online, I try to focus on the screen, being present, and interacting with my room. I don't let myself watch TV, read SW, or do anything else that could distract me for more than a few seconds. I talk to pretty much anyone that says anything. If the guys aren't talkative, I really let the ADD run wild and just keep talking about anything and everything that comes to mind. I keep the dirty talk for private, but if I feel like talking about sex, I just take an intellectual sexologist type approach. I can keep talking for quite a while thanks to the ADD, but it usually doesn't take long before someone joins the conversation, asks a question, or goes private.

I also like ADD on cam because the bouncy ADD brain can really handle and enjoy the variety. A lot of people seem concerned about how I can go straight from sub to Domme or vice versa, but it's not really a big deal. My brain was going to jump around a fuckton anyway, so why not use it to transition between different fantasies?

Magical_Hoohah
05-11-2014, 03:21 PM
Of course, I wrote all that as I'm waiting to see if this migraine "aura" actually turns into a real migraine. *smh* If it's not one thing, it's another.

violet_14
05-11-2014, 05:36 PM
This is awesome!

Its nice to not feel so alone with these issues. I have diagnosed PTSD, dysthymic disorder, hypothyroidism, have had back surgery, an eating disorder and horribly traumatic things happen to me which makes camming very difficult for me. This past year ive worked really hard to get through it all... was on xanex, seroquille, Effexor, and god knows how many other meds. While its a hot topic to some after a stint in the psych hospital where they had me so doped up I was unable to function and started having seizures from the meds they added I went home and just said fuck it no more meds. I had to take a few weeks off from everything school, work etc. and regroup. But I worked through it. I joined a few little groups around town to at least get me outta the house once or twice a week (vegan health group, animal volunteering), made a goal board and made sure to cut out every negative person from my life. Including my own mother. It was hard! I also went through withdrawls from the heavy meds I was weaning off of BUT once I did I got really into herbs and researching homeopathic cures. For my anxiety I take kava root, sleep I drink valerian tea and take melatonin, I bought a juicer to help detox, and for pain I started to do bath soaks with different herbs and salts. While my issues still plague me sometimes I feel like I finally have some control over my situation. Camming causes super huge panic attacks for me which sucks BUT I did find a nice balance. I started working for Secret Friends which pays hourly... so even on my sickest days I can have some income even if its not HUGE it beats a slow day on the other sites and at least you have something steady and reliable. You only do what your comfortable with and you can ban abusive guys. It can be slow but either way your getting hourly. I have a lot of respect for those big money making gals who can hustle and make a shit ton in a few hours... im not one of them tho. I stress out about being recorded with a dildo or something and then my mind goes crazy... I like camming, I just think every girl has to know her level of comfort with it.

I really love that this thread is here! When I came back to school from the hospital my best friend Im in school with told everyone I was camming... they all totally shamed me, called me dirty, sent nasty emails, etc (I live in a very conservative area, I however am not). I was SO devastated and embarrassed, but then I found this site and decided they can go fuck themselves. You gals helped me not feel so terribly alone and more comfortable and proud of myself. So thanks!

MissQuirk
05-11-2014, 05:40 PM
This is awesome!

Its nice to not feel so alone with these issues. I have diagnosed PTSD, dysthymic disorder, hypothyroidism, have had back surgery, an eating disorder and horribly traumatic things happen to me which makes camming very difficult for me. This past year ive worked really hard to get through it all... was on xanex, seroquille, Effexor, and god knows how many other meds. While its a hot topic to some after a stint in the psych hospital where they had me so doped up I was unable to function and started having seizures from the meds they added I went home and just said fuck it no more meds. I had to take a few weeks off from everything school, work etc. and regroup. But I worked through it. I joined a few little groups around town to at least get me outta the house once or twice a week (vegan health group, animal volunteering), made a goal board and made sure to cut out every negative person from my life. Including my own mother. It was hard! I also went through withdrawls from the heavy meds I was weaning off of BUT once I did I got really into herbs and researching homeopathic cures. For my anxiety I take kava root, sleep I drink valerian tea and take melatonin, I bought a juicer to help detox, and for pain I started to do bath soaks with different herbs and salts. While my issues still plague me sometimes I feel like I finally have some control over my situation. Camming causes super huge panic attacks for me which sucks BUT I did find a nice balance. I started working for Secret Friends which pays hourly... so even on my sickest days I can have some income even if its not HUGE it beats a slow day on the other sites and at least you have something steady and reliable. You only do what your comfortable with and you can ban abusive guys. It can be slow but either way your getting hourly. I have a lot of respect for those big money making gals who can hustle and make a shit ton in a few hours... im not one of them tho. I stress out about being recorded with a dildo or something and then my mind goes crazy... I like camming, I just think every girl has to know her level of comfort with it.

I really love that this thread is here! When I came back to school from the hospital my best friend Im in school with told everyone I was camming... they all totally shamed me, called me dirty, sent nasty emails, etc (I live in a very conservative area, I however am not). I was SO devastated and embarrassed, but then I found this site and decided they can go fuck themselves. You gals helped me not feel so terribly alone and more comfortable and proud of myself. So thanks!


*hugs*
so many hugs, <3
you sound like one strong person. that is so much to go through, and it seems like you're doing a beautiful job keeping your chin up <3 if camming brings up or triggers things from your past, please please be careful and good to yourself. NO amount of money is worth a huge break down, and setting yourself back in all the progress you have made. <3

SweetJulia
05-12-2014, 07:46 AM
I finally have the balls to post on this thread, my apologies for the lateness. Physically, I have anemia and a hernia from years of heavy lifting. Mentally, MDD, BDD, EDNOS, anxiety, and PTSD(partially from dancing, thanks for ignoring boundaries, asshole patrons). I do well on cam when I actually get on, it's just really a struggle to get on at times.

anonymous camgirl
05-12-2014, 08:05 AM
First of all, a huge breakdown catapults you to the top .. so i disagree cuz my viral video had over 1 million viewers and that's how i got to the first page and stay there...lol.. but i was just trying to get you to laugh but it's true.


*hugs*
so many hugs, <3
you sound like one strong person. that is so much to go through, and it seems like you're doing a beautiful job keeping your chin up <3 if camming brings up or triggers things from your past, please please be careful and good to yourself. NO amount of money is worth a huge break down, and setting yourself back in all the progress you have made. <3

AliceFun
05-12-2014, 04:25 PM
I got a muscular leg cramp while playing in pvt, my muscle was stuck & very painful & i barely was able to perform, hate this! It still hurts awww :(

SweetJulia
05-13-2014, 06:59 AM
So, this thread motivated me to get back on my antidepressant. I was on it when I was a teenager and from 2009-2013. I got lazy about coming in for check ups and have been miserable. I took the first one last night-technically,my BFFs', but I'll pay him back for that one and those for the next few days when I get a prescription on Friday. The appointment is three times the cost it used to be, I don't even care. These are supposed to be fun years and I won't spend them with a black cloud hanging over my head that won't let me do much more than roll over in bed and be miserable.

lunalacelove
05-13-2014, 06:03 PM
Hi friends. I saw this thread and thought I'd hop on. I've had iron-deficiency anemia thats gone untreated for about 10 years. I'm finally treating it and should start to feel better in the next month and a half or so, though I'm already a month and a half on treatment and still have some pretty bad days, like today. I woke up groggy and tired and dizzy and still don't feel any better even several hours after waking. I have hypothyroid which is being treated as well. I'm really hoping I start to feel better soon... if I'm not better in a month and a half, I'll have to chat with my doc...

Mentally, I have PTSD and anxiety... every once in awhile I get stints of depression but since I've been taking St Johns Wort, they're fairly infrequent. If anything, its a very low-level depression.

I'm pretty new at camming and I find its really slow going because of dealing with all of this physical and mental stuff... I've been participating in the $1000/week thread to motivate me... but I thought it would be nice to come here and find sick folks to be in solidarity with b/c while the motivation is there most of the time, sometimes its just not gonna happen. Today I ended up spending some time that I planned to cam watching Xena: Warrior Princess in the living room. I actually feel pretty okay about that choice lol.

justanothercamgirl
05-13-2014, 06:26 PM
I am getting a little better at actually allowing myself to rest.....but I still have such a long way to go.

At least I finally understand that busy work is not profitable work and that I am better off trying to take a nap instead of telling myself that I am going to push through it and keep working and then find myself just procrastinating and not really doing anything because I am too tired to think and find myself doing 'busy tasks' that aren't going to immediately make me more money.

violet_14
05-13-2014, 11:40 PM
I think I'm going to have to join this club. My anemia has been bad lately and there's no way I can dance when I'm like this.

Also, I really wish people would refrain from saying things like "just power through it" or "don't use it as an excuse". That's really insensitive and one of the worst things you can say to a person dealing with an illness. I have pernicious anemia. Basically my blood doesn't have enough oxygen in it. There is no "powering through" that. Frankly, when people say that, I want to duct tape their nose and mouth shut and then poke a couple pinholes in the tape and send them off to run a marathon with the motivation of "Power through that bitch."

Agreed! It makes me feel like I should feel some sort of guilt, or like im lazy when its not that simple. Cam girls have to have an amazing inner strength to make it! Go ladies!

housewench
05-14-2014, 09:34 AM
I can mostly deal with my anxiety, but some days xanax doesn't help enough for camming. Camming usually cheers me up, so it's an anti-depressant in its own way. but the fucking fibromyalgia :I all that's stopping me. when they had me on the SuperEffective meds I was working every hour possible but since they took me off of them

D<

justanothercamgirl
05-14-2014, 04:51 PM
Okay, I've decided. I am only going to work three hours a day. But, I am going to make them three GOOD hours a day.

I need to start keeping a regular schedule and then freaking stop working after that time has passed. I am not doing myself any favours working 8 hour days where I am only half-assed doing things.

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AliceFun
05-14-2014, 05:23 PM
What made u think u can do 8 hrs a day when ur health condition is soo poor JAC?! Please, just please, let the healthy girls do long shifts & u log off when u feel ur body & mind wont function properly anymore.
I dont stay online more than 4 hrs a day 5 days a week, it's not worth, if i am in pain i am not able to perform anyway so what gives? Better shine for a few hrs then log off & shine again next day. Staying online long hrs does not equal making double money. Hugs!

Magical_Hoohah
05-14-2014, 07:30 PM
Okay, I've decided. I am only going to work three hours a day. But, I am going to make them three GOOD hours a day.

I need to start keeping a regular schedule and then freaking stop working after that time has passed. I am not doing myself any favours working 8 hour days where I am only half-assed doing things.

You've mentioned before that you need to learn to rest, but I think this is the first time that has really sunk in for me. Every time I saw you say something like that, I kept thinking "My health isn't that bad, it's all just mental stuff, plus a few other minor things. But no one would ever accuse me of overworking myself. I need to get off my lazy ass and get it going. I should be working hard enough that I have to *force* myself to take a break, too."

But today for some reason, it finally hit me - I work a LOT. Just because I'm not physically on cam that much, doesn't mean I'm not working!
~ I think about camming about 95% of my waking moments. I think about camming while I eat, while I watch TV, while I work out, in the shower, on the toilet, and sometimes even during sex. I think about camming as I try to fall asleep at night.
~ I've been working really hard on building up my marketing and setting up multiple streams of income.
~ I think, plan, and adjust constantly, trying to direct traffic to myself and especially to my highest % sites.
~ I'm doing my damnedest to interact on social media, and return guys' emails, and all that extracurricular communication.
~ I spend time on researching fetishes and new toys and new camroom stuff and anything else to add just a little something extra to my shows.
~ I try to eat reasonably and get some exercise.
~ I go through what seems like an endless litany of beauty maintenance routines (why does having nice feet require so much effort?).
~ I read erotica.
~ I come read and post on CC.

Today, I spent the WHOLE day on CC, emails, social media, working on my website/blog, and learning how to set up C4S, including figuring out WTF html is and how to write it (after I ranted about it at length in Verified). That's a lot of work, and this is after very few hours of sleep, because I stayed up extra late with a reg in an amazing, LONG session last night!

Ironically, today was my day off.

WTF, self? No wonder I feel like I have no energy! You're absolutely right, JAC. People need rest, and a lot of us "sick girls" need extra rest. We have to take care of ourselves, work hard when it's work time, and rest hard when it's not.

EvaDarington
05-14-2014, 10:24 PM
But today for some reason, it finally hit me - I work a LOT. Just because I'm not physically on cam that much, doesn't mean I'm not working!
~ I think about camming about 95% of my waking moments. I think about camming while I eat, while I watch TV, while I work out, in the shower, on the toilet, and sometimes even during sex. I think about camming as I try to fall asleep at night.
~ I've been working really hard on building up my marketing and setting up multiple streams of income.
~ I think, plan, and adjust constantly, trying to direct traffic to myself and especially to my highest % sites.
~ I'm doing my damnedest to interact on social media, and return guys' emails, and all that extracurricular communication.
~ I spend time on researching fetishes and new toys and new camroom stuff and anything else to add just a little something extra to my shows.
~ I try to eat reasonably and get some exercise.
~ I go through what seems like an endless litany of beauty maintenance routines (why does having nice feet require so much effort?).
~ I read erotica.
~ I come read and post on CC.


THANK YOU so much for this! I forget how much we work off camera. Between social media, emails, exercise, research... It all adds up.

Until I saw this, it didn't really register with me that all of that is work. I often feel lazy if I don't get on camera...meanwhile I am doing ALL of those things EVERY day, sometimes for 12+ hours at a time. It is exhausting - even if I'm not logged on I too am constantly thinking about camming. It's kind of like a job I never get to go home from.

Now if only the non-cammers in my life could understand this and stop making me feel like shit because I'm not in front of the camera every day all day ;)

http://i.imgur.com/AyJUVCW.gif

justanothercamgirl
05-15-2014, 04:43 AM
What made u think u can do 8 hrs a day when ur health condition is soo poor JAC?! Please, just please, let the healthy girls do long shifts & u log off when u feel ur body & mind wont function properly anymore.
I dont stay online more than 4 hrs a day 5 days a week, it's not worth, if i am in pain i am not able to perform anyway so what gives? Better shine for a few hrs then log off & shine again next day. Staying online long hrs does not equal making double money. Hugs!

Hugs right back at ya, AliceFun!

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What made me think it? My stubborn streak (or should I say my stupid streak. LOL!) Sadly, I've been sick for so long and I've had people tell me to "Suck it up Princess" for so long and part me of actually started to believe them and to believe nothing was wrong with me and that I am just a lazy slacker.

I am my own worst enemy for sure! Every time I push myself too hard in one day it leaves me to tired to do anything for the rest of the week. :/

justanothercamgirl
05-15-2014, 04:51 AM
You've mentioned before that you need to learn to rest, but I think this is the first time that has really sunk in for me. Every time I saw you say something like that, I kept thinking "My health isn't that bad, it's all just mental stuff, plus a few other minor things. But no one would ever accuse me of overworking myself. I need to get off my lazy ass and get it going. I should be working hard enough that I have to *force* myself to take a break, too."

But today for some reason, it finally hit me - I work a LOT. Just because I'm not physically on cam that much, doesn't mean I'm not working!
~ I think about camming about 95% of my waking moments. I think about camming while I eat, while I watch TV, while I work out, in the shower, on the toilet, and sometimes even during sex. I think about camming as I try to fall asleep at night.
~ I've been working really hard on building up my marketing and setting up multiple streams of income.
~ I think, plan, and adjust constantly, trying to direct traffic to myself and especially to my highest % sites.
~ I'm doing my damnedest to interact on social media, and return guys' emails, and all that extracurricular communication.
~ I spend time on researching fetishes and new toys and new camroom stuff and anything else to add just a little something extra to my shows.
~ I try to eat reasonably and get some exercise.
~ I go through what seems like an endless litany of beauty maintenance routines (why does having nice feet require so much effort?).
~ I read erotica.
~ I come read and post on CC.

Today, I spent the WHOLE day on CC, emails, social media, working on my website/blog, and learning how to set up C4S, including figuring out WTF html is and how to write it (after I ranted about it at length in Verified). That's a lot of work, and this is after very few hours of sleep, because I stayed up extra late with a reg in an amazing, LONG session last night!

Ironically, today was my day off.

WTF, self? No wonder I feel like I have no energy! You're absolutely right, JAC. People need rest, and a lot of us "sick girls" need extra rest. We have to take care of ourselves, work hard when it's work time, and rest hard when it's not.

I do the exact same thing! I used to think that if I wasn't physically on cam than it didn't count as working. But I've been using Toggl.com lately to track the time I am working and I will blow through four hours straight without a break on working on C4S stuff and then wonder why I am so damn tired the next day. Four hours of hard mental focus on C4S stuff plus four hours of camming just way too much for someone with my health condition.

The worst part was I had a REALLY hard time not working yesterday. I kept feeling like I was going to get behind somehow (which is stupid because I've already made the minimum I need for this weeks bills.)

anonymous camgirl
05-15-2014, 08:16 AM
Going on 4 weeks with this shoulder injury.. It's not JUST a shoulder injury, It is affecting my other shoulder which was broken 2 1/2 yrs ago.both my wrists feel bruised on the inside my elbows ache.. uggh. I hope it heals soon because I have reached the point of only camming with my morning coffee.. OMG do you know how hard it is to cam like this.. with NO good shoulders.. It's miserable existence.. I fear because I am responsible for so much and so many people.. thank god I do have money saved up but it will set me back.. I am going to now be known as the ARMLESS camgirl.. SCARY!... I can barely do anything on cam really.. just trying to do my best .. gonna make up a batch of bone broth today, ordered more fastt patches going on number 5 and bought my bone and tissue pills but STILL not fricken better yet.. camming is a such a fucking cruel mistress sometimes.

~Carmen~
05-15-2014, 08:37 AM
Going on 4 weeks with this shoulder injury.. It's not JUST a shoulder injury, It is affecting my other shoulder which was broken 2 1/2 yrs ago.both my wrists feel bruised on the inside my elbows ache.. uggh. I hope it heals soon because I have reached the point of only camming with my morning coffee.. OMG do you know how hard it is to cam like this.. with NO good shoulders.. It's miserable existence.. I fear because I am responsible for so much and so many people.. thank god I do have money saved up but it will set me back.. I am going to now be known as the ARMLESS camgirl.. SCARY!... I can barely do anything on cam really.. just trying to do my best .. gonna make up a batch of bone broth today, ordered more fastt patches going on number 5 and bought my bone and tissue pills but STILL not fricken better yet.. camming is a such a fucking cruel mistress sometimes.

I can't even imagine how hard that would be. I think getting into positions would be hard or impossible, right? I sure hope it gets better!

justanothercamgirl
05-15-2014, 08:45 AM
Argh, I have never had to ask this in my entire camming career.......

Tell me to STAY OFF MY CAM, bbs! I need motivation to STOP camming today. How crazy is that!?!

http://media.giphy.com/media/oGzFZek2lszlK/giphy.gif
^^^^
What JAC currently looks like at her computer

justanothercamgirl
05-15-2014, 08:52 AM
Going on 4 weeks with this shoulder injury.. It's not JUST a shoulder injury, It is affecting my other shoulder which was broken 2 1/2 yrs ago.both my wrists feel bruised on the inside my elbows ache.. uggh. I hope it heals soon because I have reached the point of only camming with my morning coffee.. OMG do you know how hard it is to cam like this.. with NO good shoulders.. It's miserable existence.. I fear because I am responsible for so much and so many people.. thank god I do have money saved up but it will set me back.. I am going to now be known as the ARMLESS camgirl.. SCARY!... I can barely do anything on cam really.. just trying to do my best .. gonna make up a batch of bone broth today, ordered more fastt patches going on number 5 and bought my bone and tissue pills but STILL not fricken better yet.. camming is a such a fucking cruel mistress sometimes.

I feel so bad for you right now. :(

Please forgive my stupid suggestion, but maybe you could do some PSO work while your shoulder is messed for the next while?

anonymous camgirl
05-15-2014, 10:06 AM
I am on NF.. that's the only one but I always do cam with that.


I feel so bad for you right now. :(

Please forgive my stupid suggestion, but maybe you could do some PSO work while your shoulder is messed for the next while?

Nocturnelle
05-15-2014, 12:06 PM
Ugh, I want to cry. I've been feeling awful lately and the dr's don't know what's going on. I'll try and get on cam and then just start feeling so tired, nauseus and dizzy that I can't even accomplish anything.

Blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

justanothercamgirl
05-15-2014, 12:34 PM
Jinkies, bbs! I feel fantastic!

http://media0.giphy.com/media/S41q9kED4uVYA/giphy.gif

Don't get me wrong, I am stressed out about all the things I didn't get done today that needed to get done....but I was actually dancing in the shower today while listening to the radio while washing my hair because resting half the day had put such a spring in my steps.

Moral of JAC'S story: You gotta rest to be your best! :D

justanothercamgirl
05-15-2014, 12:37 PM
Ugh, I want to cry. I've been feeling awful lately and the dr's don't know what's going on. I'll try and get on cam and then just start feeling so tired, nauseus and dizzy that I can't even accomplish anything.

Blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

http://media.giphy.com/media/4SFsgPrMrGkW4/giphy.gif

~Carmen~
05-15-2014, 12:40 PM
Jinkies, bbs! I feel fantastic!

http://media0.giphy.com/media/S41q9kED4uVYA/giphy.gif

Don't get me wrong, I am stressed out about all the things I didn't get done today that needed to get done....but I was actually dancing in the shower today while listening to the radio while washing my hair because resting half the day had put such a spring in my steps.

Moral of JAC'S story: You gotta rest to be your best! :D

That is so great to hear;D

anonymous camgirl
05-15-2014, 12:48 PM
Yea that happens to me all the time.. I feel great then get on cam.. ( when my shoulder is not injured I mean).. and then i feel awful , sick and depressed.. You are allergic to cam customers.. that's what it is... I am dead serious.. I always feel ill when i get on cam.. no lie!..


Ugh, I want to cry. I've been feeling awful lately and the dr's don't know what's going on. I'll try and get on cam and then just start feeling so tired, nauseus and dizzy that I can't even accomplish anything.

Blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

chloemay
05-15-2014, 01:49 PM
Going on 4 weeks with this shoulder injury.. It's not JUST a shoulder injury, It is affecting my other shoulder which was broken 2 1/2 yrs ago.both my wrists feel bruised on the inside my elbows ache.. uggh. I hope it heals soon because I have reached the point of only camming with my morning coffee.. OMG do you know how hard it is to cam like this.. with NO good shoulders.. It's miserable existence.. I fear because I am responsible for so much and so many people.. thank god I do have money saved up but it will set me back.. I am going to now be known as the ARMLESS camgirl.. SCARY!... I can barely do anything on cam really.. just trying to do my best .. gonna make up a batch of bone broth today, ordered more fastt patches going on number 5 and bought my bone and tissue pills but STILL not fricken better yet.. camming is a such a fucking cruel mistress sometimes.

Not sure if this is the place to post this, but, you inspire me more than I can say. To deal with, and take on those DICKS at the other site attacking you, continue camping and taking advantage of the exposure: I want to be you when I grow up. I hope you can figure out things with your body, your mind is strong as hell. Your posts are appreciated, you are a cam war-hero.

aqua
05-15-2014, 01:54 PM
Things are going just great for me. My contact dermatitis has healed up, and guess what?
I now have a huge rash on my butt due to some unknown fungus + can't put any kind of coverup on it until it's healed.
And my period just started.
AWESOME.

I could be really pissed, but I'm learning to just laugh it off at this point + cope as best I can using clever angles + sponges.

SimoneGray
05-15-2014, 02:27 PM
I'm so glad I found this thread :) I'm busy recovering from bronchitis and the past few weeks have been miserable because I've been anxious about being broke and I beat myself up constantly for not getting on cam despite not being well. I have not been kind to myself at all...I need to learn to calm down and not be so hard on myself because it stresses me out when I don't make money etc and then affects my on cam attitude...its a vicious cycle. Its either that or i workout crazy hard because I feel like my body isn't sexy enough to make the money that I need to make. Sigh.

On another note, any advice about working during "that time of the month"? Is it even possible? I hate losing a week of every month due to inactivity.

aqua
05-15-2014, 03:55 PM
On another note, any advice about working during "that time of the month"? Is it even possible? I hate losing a week of every month due to inactivity.

Period sponges: http://jadeandpearl.com/sea-pearls-sea-sponge-tampons/#.U3VFwShuBOg

And if that doesn't work, I use small tampons, cut off the string, jam them far up there, and use small toys that week.

Glamourmilf
05-15-2014, 04:00 PM
^^Anonymous, I don't even know how You cam sitting up like You do! It would kill my back in 2 minutes

AliceFun
05-15-2014, 05:29 PM
Sadly, I've been sick for so long and I've had people tell me to "Suck it up Princess" for so long and part me of actually started to believe them and to believe nothing was wrong with me and that I am just a lazy slacker. :/

I can relate very well as i been/am in both situations myself, i sometimes felt not understood when complaining & moaning about how unfit, poor or lonely/ sad i am or i was not able to understand others completely when they did the same thing, moaning & complaining for how hard things are on them. Is not that we as humans are not sensitive or compassionate but we sometimes just get tired when others around us bring their problems on our plates that are filled up already, it's in the human nature to seek harmony, we just dont like disturbance.

I am aware of the fact that sometimes people around me are just getting tired or they dont care too much honesty, they can understand to a certain point but then is too much for them, if it's about close family or friends or colleagues, people u are in closer contact with.

Then i been in the situation to have others moaning about their issues & i sometimes felt overwhelmed, it can get tiring & stressy especially when u cant help, at the end everyone is carrying it's own cross & nobody but You (general you) feel what it means to be in ur shoes, nobody else can, u feel the pain, weakness, sickness, desperation, so on. We can tell others about it but it's still us only who actually live & feel our issues.

Saw ur last messages, Glad u feeling better, well done & congrats, Much love, Hugs!

Candy_Woman
05-15-2014, 08:34 PM
This work is really hard for me because I am a survivor of incest and child abuse. When I was young I had to work as a prostitute because it was the only way I found it to leave home. Now my country is in the midst of a great crisis and this is the only job I can find. This makes me feel like "oh, my God, will I be a sex toy all my life?".

On the other hand, normal work did me very happy neither. I study nursing assistant caring for the elderly and work twelve hours a day cleaning shit for a little over six hundred euros for month. Also, I suffer post-traumatic stress and social phobia because of my past. I find it hard to deal with people, especially with people who are angry and screams. I have suffered bullying at school and mobbing at work because they simply did not defend myself. When someone treats me badly panicked, I just want to crawl into bed, cover my head, cry and stay there. I've done a lot of overtime for free just because I am unable to say no. I went to work with my coworkers fear, or I've fired when I could not take it anymore.

I'm happy when I'm alone, but I have a lot of anxiety when I'm around people. I'm used to all treat me like trash. The good thing about this job is that I do not see customers, they see me. I can pretend they are not there, I'm just playing and being silly.

So I really need to give a chance to cam. Not only because it may be the only way to earn a decent wage, to live without suffer needs and save for the future; also because it can be a way to work without enduring mistreatment of bosses and colleagues. I love the idea of staying home all day with my cats and work a few hours on the pc. Meet once a week with friends and maybe a few hours volunteering at the animal shelter are all social relations I need.

I want to thank all of you for your advice and encouragement for partners. You have helped me see the good side and not feel a victim again. I build the life I want. The power is in my hands.

Hugs!

anonymous camgirl
05-16-2014, 05:44 AM
Wow thanks!.. I never knew there was so much admiration for a crazy old lady like me!.. LOL.. Well?? I was on a roll last nite.. All my guilting, manipulation and making men feel bad .. wasn't working that well.... they must be broke as fuck all!.... Anyways, I was listening on the national Beachbody call yesterday (I'm a BeachBody Coach) and apparently the cause of all my injuries is the lack of flexibility.. I used to be super flexible before my broken shoulder and then after it took me awhile to even working up to be able to walk without limping..thank you bone broth!! so can't wait for PIYO to come out I am gonna make that workout my new bitch.. when my shoulder heals.. Back to hard times and being attacked.. You dig your heels in and recite to yourself. This to shall pass, everything in life is temporary and ever changing.



Not sure if this is the place to post this, but, you inspire me more than I can say. To deal with, and take on those DICKS at the other site attacking you, continue camping and taking advantage of the exposure: I want to be you when I grow up. I hope you can figure out things with your body, your mind is strong as hell. Your posts are appreciated, you are a cam war-hero.

anonymous camgirl
05-16-2014, 05:51 AM
Yea I have completely given up on toys on my period.. I am just rebelling against it.. I have had enough of shoving tampons up there and trying to fuck myself..mmm soo good...NOT!. It just makes me so angry these days to have to suffer for no damn reason other than to please some lil bitch on the other end of my cam. I just play with the outside and barely inside not to get icky... just boycott insertions.. you can do it BB!!



Period sponges: http://jadeandpearl.com/sea-pearls-sea-sponge-tampons/#.U3VFwShuBOg

And if that doesn't work, I use small tampons, cut off the string, jam them far up there, and use small toys that week.

~Carmen~
05-16-2014, 05:51 AM
Wow thanks!.. I never knew there was so much admiration for a crazy old lady like me!.. LOL.. Well?? I was on a roll last nite.. All my guilting, manipulation and making men feel bad .. wasn't working that well.... they must be broke as fuck all!.... Anyways, I was listening on the national Beachbody call yesterday (I'm a BeachBody Coach) and apparently the cause of all my injuries is the lack of flexibility.. I used to be super flexible before my broken shoulder and then after it took me awhile to even working up to be able to walk without limping..thank you bone broth!! so can't wait for PIYO to come out I am gonna make that workout my new bitch.. when my shoulder heals.. Back to hard times and being attacked.. You dig your heels in and recite to yourself. This to shall pass, everything in life is temporary and ever changing.

Crazy old ladies unite!!! I just had a vision of you and me in 25 years. Camming from our wheelchairs. Standing up for 20 gold in our walkers. Shaking our artificial hips :D

anonymous camgirl
05-16-2014, 05:56 AM
omg I had that for MONTHS.. it drove me crazy..I put baking soda paste on it for the intense itching.. I swear for all my healthy living I sure do have a lot of damn problems...Maybe try a baking soda /water paste on butt rash.. and when it dries it just flakes off.. no big deal. Baking soda is awesome for a lot of things..


Things are going just great for me. My contact dermatitis has healed up, and guess what?
I now have a huge rash on my butt due to some unknown fungus + can't put any kind of coverup on it until it's healed.
And my period just started.
AWESOME.

I could be really pissed, but I'm learning to just laugh it off at this point + cope as best I can using clever angles + sponges.

anonymous camgirl
05-16-2014, 05:59 AM
I do it for you BB!!.. IT does get uncomfy sometimes but I have been camming like that for 11 1/2 yrs haha.. I can't change.. I tried and I cant lay down... I have a type A personality most days and I need be on the ball.. I feel lazy laying down and I can't accomplish anything... it's like I can't let go and relax...I used to sit in an office chair or flush up against the bed on a stool...


^^Anonymous, I don't even know how You cam sitting up like You do! It would kill my back in 2 minutes

anonymous camgirl
05-16-2014, 06:01 AM
That's my worst fucking nitemare!.. I keep telling my oldest keep saving that college money you get to invest in real estate.. and hurry up and get a degree I need HELP!


Crazy old ladies unite!!! I just had a vision of you and me in 25 years. Camming from our wheelchairs. Standing up for 20 gold in our walkers. Shaking our artificial hips :D

~Carmen~
05-16-2014, 06:07 AM
That's my worst fucking nitemare!.. I keep telling my oldest keep saving that college money you get to invest in real estate.. and hurry up and get a degree I need HELP!

I have the same nightmare, believe me. My daughter has a new business and she wants me to be her assistant once it gets going well. Here's to our future hopes:drink: