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anonymous camgirl
05-08-2016, 06:51 PM
Checking in again.. been on my mineral protocol for a month... doing a parasite cleanse for the last 3 weeks.. still feel like crap all the time
Glamourmilf
05-13-2016, 04:20 PM
I cracked a back, bottom tooth when I bit into a really hard potato chip, and a small piece of my tooth broke off.:toothache
The sharp edge of the tooth scrapped my tongue, and made it hard to eat/swallow. I got a fever and made an emergency dentist appt yesterday.
It's a new dentist in the new town I'm living in.
Dentist filed The sharp edge down, gave me antibiotics and ibuprofen......BUT insisted that I need to have the tooth pulled. Huh?
My tooth seems fine. No pain, has a filling already in it.
I'm taking my xrays to another dentist for a second opinion.
Has anyone had anything like this happen?
And does anyone take any supplements for healthy gums, bone?
EdithOutlier
05-13-2016, 06:07 PM
Vitamin D is important for healthy bones, and it's a common deficiency especially amongst people who work indoors. Soups made from a bone broth base are good for bones, connective tissue and skin.
Glamourmilf
05-14-2016, 12:51 AM
Vitamin D is important for healthy bones, and it's a common deficiency especially amongst people who work indoors. Soups made from a bone broth base are good for bones, connective tissue and skin.
Thank You. I felt it was a d deficiency. I sat in the sun by my pool today for about 20 minutes. I'm sun sensitive, but you're right..I work indoors, so I'm probably going to also need to eat the bone broth.
Market tomorrow..to buy it.44941
EdithOutlier
05-14-2016, 05:12 AM
I'm in Australia, and despite everyone getting skin cancers from sun exposure, we also have an epidemic of Vit D deficiency, it seems to be nearly impossible to keep it up naturally these days.
I should have also mention Oil Pulling. After brushing your teeth, take a small tea spoon of coconut oil, let it dissolve in your mouth and spend the next 15 minutes pushing it back and forth through your teeth and around your mouth with your tongue. Then spit it out and rinse. It cleans all the sticky bacteria off your teeth and gums and helps heal gum disease. Your mouth will feel amazing and it keeps your lips soft too.
IvyRose
06-10-2016, 09:13 AM
After 5 years of chronic backpain I am close to getting a "real" diagnose (in stead of the diagnose "aspecific chronic backpain")
my chiropractor unofficially diagnosed me with joint hypermobility syndrome (ive scored myself with the beighton 9-point scoring system, and rank very high on hypermobility).. Going to viist an reumotologist the 16th for an official diagnose
I felt the urge to write about it in the hope i can help someone else, esp since the syndrome is not well known... Ive been visiting my own doctor a lot of times over the years and he never mentioned this syndrome; never thought about it.
The hardest process for me is accepting the pain and accepting the fact I cannot do/work as much and as long as someone else (accepting i cant do a lot of things others can.. like dancing, running, intens sports, sitting for long periods at a time, without facing a lot of pain afterwards). It sucks to see eveyrone else around you building up their life, having fun, goin gon vacation etc while I can barely work atm and have to force myself to even move because I feel pain right now constantly.. Esp a lot of pain when sleeping and when I am just awake
Its tirering not only my body but also my mind, because I have to deal with my anger and feelings of hopelessness
^^^ I am sorry for the way u feel Ivy cause i feel the same here, i feel disabled simply, it's just terrible, it's also depressing.
On the MRI it shows i have four herniated disks, two on the lower back and two at the middle spine PLUS arthritis on my spine bones, these all gives me pain same like u say, all the damn time when awake. I avoid surgery here but my life is difficult cause of the pain, i cant do much either.
I'll read about the syndrome u mentioned, see what it says on the internet, ty for posting this, wish u the best there xxx
Glamourmilf
06-10-2016, 09:57 AM
After 5 years of chronic backpain I am close to getting a "real" diagnose (in stead of the diagnose "aspecific chronic backpain")
my chiropractor unofficially diagnosed me with joint hypermobility syndrome (ive scored myself with the beighton 9-point scoring system, and rank very high on hypermobility).. Going to viist an reumotologist the 16th for an official diagnose
I felt the urge to write about it in the hope i can help someone else, esp since the syndrome is not well known... Ive been visiting my own doctor a lot of times over the years and he never mentioned this syndrome; never thought about it.
The hardest process for me is accepting the pain and accepting the fact I cannot do/work as much and as long as someone else (accepting i cant do a lot of things others can.. like dancing, running, intens sports, sitting for long periods at a time, without facing a lot of pain afterwards). It sucks to see eveyrone else around you building up their life, having fun, goin gon vacation etc while I can barely work atm and have to force myself to even move because I feel pain right now constantly.. Esp a lot of pain when sleeping and when I am just awake
Its tirering not only my body but also my mind, because I have to deal with my anger and feelings of hopelessness
Same as what KatM has also.
Thanks for sharing the diagnosis. I'm also going to look it up online.
My insurance doesn't kick in until next month, so I'm making a list of things to ask the new Dr. Who specializes in pain management.
The only thing that helps me not beat myself up about how bad I feel about being tired from the pain, are the 2 other roommates I live with. (But it bugs me that they don't work because of it, and here I am plugging away).. I must look into disability, because everyone I know out here in this country town is on it.
anonymous camgirl
06-10-2016, 10:39 AM
Hon have you tried taking magnesium? I know it sounds so simple.. but have you tried? like an easily absorbable kind like Magnesium Glycinate..
After 5 years of chronic backpain I am close to getting a "real" diagnose (in stead of the diagnose "aspecific chronic backpain")
my chiropractor unofficially diagnosed me with joint hypermobility syndrome (ive scored myself with the beighton 9-point scoring system, and rank very high on hypermobility).. Going to viist an reumotologist the 16th for an official diagnose
I felt the urge to write about it in the hope i can help someone else, esp since the syndrome is not well known... Ive been visiting my own doctor a lot of times over the years and he never mentioned this syndrome; never thought about it.
The hardest process for me is accepting the pain and accepting the fact I cannot do/work as much and as long as someone else (accepting i cant do a lot of things others can.. like dancing, running, intens sports, sitting for long periods at a time, without facing a lot of pain afterwards). It sucks to see eveyrone else around you building up their life, having fun, goin gon vacation etc while I can barely work atm and have to force myself to even move because I feel pain right now constantly.. Esp a lot of pain when sleeping and when I am just awake
Its tirering not only my body but also my mind, because I have to deal with my anger and feelings of hopelessness
IvyRose
06-10-2016, 11:07 AM
Hon have you tried taking magnesium? I know it sounds so simple.. but have you tried? like an easily absorbable kind like Magnesium Glycinate..
No I havent really (I did very briefly in the past for my never ending fatigue)
I do drink a lot of milk though- around 1,5 liter a day and eat a lot of dairy products(because i dont eat a lot of meat i try to compensate drinking milk, eating cheese and beans)
I dont have a problems with my bones though or with my muscles; the problrms lies in the ligaments (the tough bands of connective tissue that link two bones together at a joint) - it is fragile/to loose and cannot support the joint correcty (wich causes overstreching and unstableness)
Do you think it will help?
Thanks for your input!
IvyRose
06-10-2016, 11:12 AM
Same as what KatM has also.
Thanks for sharing the diagnosis. I'm also going to look it up online.
My insurance doesn't kick in until next month, so I'm making a list of things to ask the new Dr. Who specializes in pain management.
The only thing that helps me not beat myself up about how bad I feel about being tired from the pain, are the 2 other roommates I live with. (But it bugs me that they don't work because of it, and here I am plugging away).. I must look into disability, because everyone I know out here in this country town is on it.
In my country they dont cover anything related to reuma, because the costs became to high. It sucks
I hope the specialist will be able to help you and the pain gets more manageable Hugs!
I can barely motivate myself to work, proud of you that you can- esp with your roommates!!
IvyRose
06-10-2016, 11:22 AM
^^^ I am sorry for the way u feel Ivy cause i feel the same here, i feel disabled simply, it's just terrible, it's also depressin
On the MRI it shows i have four herniated disks, two on the lower back and two at the middle spine PLUS arthritis on my spine bones, these all gives me pain same like u say, all the damn time when awake. I avoid surgery here but my life is difficult cause of the pain, i cant do much either.
I'll read about the syndrome u mentioned, see what it says on the internet, ty for posting this, wish u the best there xxx
Hugs Kat!
It sucks to ahve pain and you know there is no solution..
Even if i get my diagnose there are no medication available and I know i will have this syndrom for the rest of my life. I did find a physiotherapist though who is specialised in joint hypermobility and pelvic instability ( i also have pelvis instability and a slight scolyose which arent rare when you have hypermobility syndrom), its my only option for getting the correct excercises to strengthen my body.
Did you ever try out a chiropractor Kat? I have a gf and dhe has a neckhernia which cannot be operated because it would be to much of a risk. She says her quality of life is so much better bec of the chiropractor. I also went to the chiropracvtor a lot when my pelvis was out of place again, he could help me in 1 session (only problem for me is that my pelvis stays unstable, so its only a matter of time before its out of place again, pressing against nerves and muscles)
I hope you will find something that helps manage the pain
HUGS
IvyRose
06-10-2016, 11:42 AM
BTW when looking into joint hypermobility dont be fooled by the bendyness of the pictures you will see;
take a look at the symptoms and how it develops itself from baby to adult...
Two chiropractors had to call me hypermobile when I looked beyond the first pictures..
I saw a lot of highly bendable people, and I thought to myself "i can never have that, that chiropractor must be crazy". Because my back is my main problem and I can barely bend it at all
What happens is that over time the muscles can become really tight because ligaments are to fragile/loose... and may cause extreme stiffness instead of being extra mobile
anonymous camgirl
06-10-2016, 12:09 PM
That's not enough .. you need like 4700 mg of mag a day.. so with food and supplements... Pain in bones is related to mag deficiency
No I havent really (I did very briefly in the past for my never ending fatigue)
I do drink a lot of milk though- around 1,5 liter a day and eat a lot of dairy products(because i dont eat a lot of meat i try to compensate drinking milk, eating cheese and beans)
I dont have a problems with my bones though or with my muscles; the problrms lies in the ligaments (the tough bands of connective tissue that link two bones together at a joint) - it is fragile/to loose and cannot support the joint correcty (wich causes overstreching and unstableness)
Do you think it will help?
Thanks for your input!
IvyRose
06-10-2016, 12:14 PM
That's not enough .. you need like 4700 mg of mag a day.. so with food and supplements... Pain in bones is related to mag deficiency
Thanks! will look into it and see how I can get enough of it by eating the right things (luckily I also eat a banana every day and nuts which also holds magnesium =)... so i am a bit on my way)
I dont like taking supplements though because when I take a supplement pill and my body has enough% because of the pill it will not take in any magnesium anymore from food (dont know if I explained it well enough- english is not my native language)
thatgingercamgirl
06-10-2016, 12:45 PM
After 5 years of chronic backpain I am close to getting a "real" diagnose (in stead of the diagnose "aspecific chronic backpain")
my chiropractor unofficially diagnosed me with joint hypermobility syndrome (ive scored myself with the beighton 9-point scoring system, and rank very high on hypermobility).. Going to viist an reumotologist the 16th for an official diagnose
I felt the urge to write about it in the hope i can help someone else, esp since the syndrome is not well known... Ive been visiting my own doctor a lot of times over the years and he never mentioned this syndrome; never thought about it.
The hardest process for me is accepting the pain and accepting the fact I cannot do/work as much and as long as someone else (accepting i cant do a lot of things others can.. like dancing, running, intens sports, sitting for long periods at a time, without facing a lot of pain afterwards). It sucks to see eveyrone else around you building up their life, having fun, goin gon vacation etc while I can barely work atm and have to force myself to even move because I feel pain right now constantly.. Esp a lot of pain when sleeping and when I am just awake
Its tirering not only my body but also my mind, because I have to deal with my anger and feelings of hopelessness
Hello Ivy,
I have this too, and I can completely relate. It's hard to get used to the reality of living with this in a world that has very little awareness of what living with this kind of hyper-mobility is like. But it is possible. What we do makes it so much easier - for the first time in my adult life, I never have to worry about losing my job because of hms/eds health issues. I can work around them, and still have energy for the things I enjoy doing.
If it is okay with you, I'd like to PM you with what has worked for me. Hugs to you lady, I hope you're having a good day today ~
I have a lot on my plate right now Ivy but i'll take more care of my health when my time/ finances will allow me, being sick is not easy cause u cant do/work that much so u dont get enough income especially if u single and u have nobody to look after you, i am doing my best but there we can only do what situation allows us to.
In my case the docs suspect i have a genetic condition/syndrome too but is not confirmed cause the genetic tests are too expensive for me here, all i know is it fucked up my whole body since i was born and in time is getting more & more difficult to deal with all the issues that come from it but it is what it is.
Healthy people dont really understand what it means NOT to be healthy, some will call us lazy or so but again, not their fault for being not aware, it's just better for them to not know actually.
Been a shock for me to find out about my condition but not a surprise as i always knew my health was never the best, i just did now know why.
Anyway, all i can do is carry on and thank God/ the Universe it's not worse, if i am still alive and able to walk (still), move and think then i am all good, if i can work as little as i can then it's all good, if i can still function then i am good.
Good luck there urself with all Ivy, hugs xxx
blueJewel
06-10-2016, 01:15 PM
Sending love n healing vibes to you ladies *hugs*
IvyRose
06-10-2016, 01:19 PM
Anyway, all i can do is carry on and thank God/ the Universe it's not worse, if i am still alive and able to walk (still), move and think then i am all good, if i can work as little as i can then it's all good, if i can still function then i am good.
I think the exact same way. Esp when I feel getting in a depression or anger bec of the syndrome I remind myself there are so many people who have more pain than I have right now, and I should be thankfull for being able to function even if its a small part of the day. A lot of people arent able to even walk so I shoudnt complain.
I have been called lazy SO many times, its really hurtfull. Thats why a diagnose right now is helping me, because I have been in denial for a long time, trying to pretend i am healthy crossing to many lines and making myself even sicker by not respecting my boundaries and limits.
Your right, people without chronic pain will never understand fully what its like, they cannot feel how we feel, they cannot help it.
I am proud of you that you are still able to support yourself through all of your pain, while not having a partner. That must be really hard.
Hugs and best wishes!
IvyRose
06-10-2016, 01:30 PM
Hello Ivy,
I have this too, and I can completely relate. It's hard to get used to the reality of living with this in a world that has very little awareness of what living with this kind of hyper-mobility is like. But it is possible. What we do makes it so much easier - for the first time in my adult life, I never have to worry about losing my job because of hms/eds health issues. I can work around them, and still have energy for the things I enjoy doing.
If it is okay with you, I'd like to PM you with what has worked for me. Hugs to you lady, I hope you're having a good day today ~
Gingercamgirl, I would love to hear about what worked for you, looking forward to your pm =)
I too am very gratefull for this job, luckily I starting camming early (right after getting my bachelor) so I was never forced into a "real schedule", it would have been impossible and I know I would have disrespected my boundaries.
I have been doing that while camming too, only with camming you can do that a limited time before you cannot work at all anymore because of the physical aspect of camming. It made me realise my boundaries
Bodywise I am not having a good day, but I am thankfull to have this forum and you girls around me. Gives me more strength. I am glad I shared it here.
I am managing to stay relatively calm today (instead of stressing out bec of finances, and the not knowing of how tomorrow will be) so thats a great goal to accomplish
anonymous camgirl
06-10-2016, 03:31 PM
Can I tell you something? I have been sick for the last 4 years of camming.. so sick hardly working even 3 hours some days.... some days better than others.. I hired someone to run a Hair mineral analysis on me.. started doing intermittent fasting, taking my minerals he prescribed to me.. did a 30 day parasite cleanse.. 1 liver flush.. feeling great now.. not the best but getting better and I lost 7 pounds since the beginning of May.. and you want to know the greatest part of all of getting healthy? My income ROSE over 50% more than I was making.. Getting healthy is what you need to do now.. not later when finances and time allow.. Please do not get offended by me saying this.. take it one step at a time as finances allow.. try a parasite cleanse.. hire someone to help balance your body.. do a liver flush ( simple and VERY cheap to do )... do something!... then you will start feeling great and making more money on cam you ever thought possible.. I KNEW that this was the key to doing better on cam.. if I wasn't so achy and tired and having short of breath.. these are some of the things I have been dealing with for over 4 yrs.. depressed, moody, anger, anxiety.. raging.. just a terrible attitude I could not control.. Take the time to take care of yourself and the money will follow on cam.. I am in serious AMAZEMENT at how well I am doing.. granted I got a new computer and all.. but I was NOT doing this good on cam til beginning of MAY when I started really digging deep on my health.. the fasting and parasite cleanse really catapulted me.. to feeling just awesome.
I have a lot on my plate right now Ivy but i'll take more care of my health when my time/ finances will allow me, being sick is not easy cause u cant do/work that much so u dont get enough income especially if u single and u have nobody to look after you, i am doing my best but there we can only do what situation allows us to.
In my case the docs suspect i have a genetic condition/syndrome too but is not confirmed cause the genetic tests are too expensive for me here, all i know is it fucked up my whole body since i was born and in time is getting more & more difficult to deal with all the issues that come from it but it is what it is.
Healthy people dont really understand what it means NOT to be healthy, some will call us lazy or so but again, not their fault for being not aware, it's just better for them to not know actually.
Been a shock for me to find out about my condition but not a surprise as i always knew my health was never the best, i just did now know why.
Anyway, all i can do is carry on and thank God/ the Universe it's not worse, if i am still alive and able to walk (still), move and think then i am all good, if i can work as little as i can then it's all good, if i can still function then i am good.
Good luck there urself with all Ivy, hugs xxx
Glamourmilf
06-13-2016, 10:17 AM
After 5 years of chronic backpain I am close to getting a "real" diagnose (in stead of the diagnose "aspecific chronic backpain")
my chiropractor unofficially diagnosed me with joint hypermobility syndrome (ive scored myself with the beighton 9-point scoring system, and rank very high on hypermobility).. Going to viist an reumotologist the 16th for an official diagnose
I felt the urge to write about it in the hope i can help someone else, esp since the syndrome is not well known... Ive been visiting my own doctor a lot of times over the years and he never mentioned this syndrome; never thought about it.
The hardest process for me is accepting the pain and accepting the fact I cannot do/work as much and as long as someone else (accepting i cant do a lot of things others can.. like dancing, running, intens sports, sitting for long periods at a time, without facing a lot of pain afterwards). It sucks to see eveyrone else around you building up their life, having fun, goin gon vacation etc while I can barely work atm and have to force myself to even move because I feel pain right now constantly.. Esp a lot of pain when sleeping and when I am just awake
Its tirering not only my body but also my mind, because I have to deal with my anger and feelings of hopelessness
I read up on this.ouch!
Question: How do you sit/stand while you are camming ?
Back/ spine problems are just part of my day, and even sitting in certain positions causes my muscles to ache.
Thanks in advance.
thatgingercamgirl
06-13-2016, 12:37 PM
I read up on this.ouch!
Question: How do you sit/stand while you are camming ?
Back/ spine problems are just part of my day, and even sitting in certain positions causes my muscles to ache.
Thanks in advance.
I sit in a comfortable office chair, and I have to take a break and walk around every 25 minutes or so, personally. I've been using the Pomodoro timers that someone else suggested in another thread. Otherwise my hips (and everything else) just start sliding out of joint :)
heyho
06-16-2016, 03:03 AM
Depression's really taken a leap up this past week. Meh meh mehhh. I don't know how to snap out of it. Every low-earning hour on SM hits me like a brick to the nuts. Haven't even been online much. I feel the self-destructiveness enveloping my mind. Snap out of it! Gogogogogo
Just need to remember that nice things DO happen on cam. You gotta be there for them to happen.
^^^ Yes, i feel depressed myself cause of how SM is working lately for me, cant help it sometimes to feel down but then i somehow manage to regroup and get on cam, u just never know what a new shift can bring u, we just have to keep going. xx and all the best
Glamourmilf
06-16-2016, 11:51 AM
My neck and around my scapula have been so sore and achy for the past few days. My new health insurance doesn't kick in until another month or so. Even the lidocaine patches don't help much. Must be from all of those odd positions I get myself in while Camming.
To top it off, I woke up with food poisoning. No cammy for Glammy today.:'(
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^^^ Sorry Glam, i too woke up with extreme neck and left shoulder pain the other day, i could not move out of bed simply, my son had to go downstairs to the pharmacy and buy me a gel and pain killers when he came home from work, he massaged the painful area so then i was able to move. I think it was from the sitting position at the pc the nite before cause i had to turn my head to the right to watch the screen, now i moved pc a little so i look straight at the screen and not turn my head to the right always. Still have to pay attention how i move in shows. It's a pain in the ass indeed especially when they wanna see our backs and we need to turn head to read the screen too omg! Sorry for the food poisoning also, that is nasty too! Not easy indeed, i too deal with two delicate situations here myself that are affecting my work. God bless and all the best xxx
Prussia
06-16-2016, 08:04 PM
After 5 years of chronic backpain I am close to getting a "real" diagnose (in stead of the diagnose "aspecific chronic backpain")
my chiropractor unofficially diagnosed me with joint hypermobility syndrome (ive scored myself with the beighton 9-point scoring system, and rank very high on hypermobility).. Going to viist an reumotologist the 16th for an official diagnose
I felt the urge to write about it in the hope i can help someone else, esp since the syndrome is not well known... Ive been visiting my own doctor a lot of times over the years and he never mentioned this syndrome; never thought about it.
The hardest process for me is accepting the pain and accepting the fact I cannot do/work as much and as long as someone else (accepting i cant do a lot of things others can.. like dancing, running, intens sports, sitting for long periods at a time, without facing a lot of pain afterwards). It sucks to see eveyrone else around you building up their life, having fun, goin gon vacation etc while I can barely work atm and have to force myself to even move because I feel pain right now constantly.. Esp a lot of pain when sleeping and when I am just awake
Its tirering not only my body but also my mind, because I have to deal with my anger and feelings of hopelessness
IvyRose, I'm pretty sure I have the same illness as you. You mean ehlers danlos syndrome (EDS) correct? Did you have a test to see which type you have? (Is that what the doctor appointment is for?) Once I was diagnosed with EDS it was such a blessing because before that everyone thought I was a hypochondriac and I thought I was going nuts. Now it all makes sense. I highly recommend you get a test to see which type(s) you have. It's rare to have more than one type but if you have vascular type then you need to have your veins & heart checked out.
My main symptoms/manifestations from EDS include hyper-mobility, joint pain, insomnia (because my adrenal glands are messed up), arthritis, asthma, cysts (the worst are the ones behind my knees (bakers cysts) because I always hyper extend my legs too much and the fluid drains). I also have snapping joints, and my bones tend to dislocate. For example, if I sleep on my stomach and hold my arm over my head my shoulder blades pop out during the night and it really hurts/sucks come morning time. I have osteopenia porosis and my back is now developing mild scoliosis (I am terrified I will have to get a back brace eventually! But I've been doing home routines to try to correct it myself for now). Which the nerve at the top of my neck is pinched due to the curve in my spine, and it causes me terrible pain at often times including cluster headaches. Oh and a side note, the weirdest thing about my EDS is that I have blue sclera, so basically the whites of my eyes have a faint blue tint to them. And that's just the short list of my problems!
It is so hard to relate to this, but I understand where you are coming from. Hyper-mobility sucks! And if it does turn out you have EDS, know this: anyone who has EDS has different symptoms battling the same illness, that's why people with EDS call each other zebras, because our ailments are all different like zebra stripes. If you (or anyone else reading this) have any questions about EDS feel free to PM me! :heartbeat :hug:
And just because I'm super cheesy here's the hyper icon because hyper-mobility, get it? ::) :hyper:
foxxxydiva
06-17-2016, 03:42 AM
This is a cool thread. Im honestly only about 10 pages in. I dont want to skip any because I want to read everyones story. I'm a lupie and normally I do really well managing it, but, as always, weather changes wreck my flow. This is part of the reason why I chose to do cam. Its something I can do on my time schedule thats viable. Past few weeks have been really tough though. Today is a low spoons bitch im sleeping 27 hrs type day. Im setting my alarm and going to try to force myself to put ina few hrs before every single one of my cam sisters in the galaxy logs on lol.
justanothercamgirl
06-17-2016, 04:50 PM
Every one here in 'The 'Sick Girls' Camming Club' Thread have known that I have been sick for a very long time. Those of you camgirls on the forums that follow my post or who are closest to me know that a year ago and a half I had to quit camming because of the intensity of my symptoms that were attached to my illness prevented me from doing it anymore. You also know that I had high hopes of taking some time off to get my health in order and then returning to you all.
In the last year the intensity of my symptoms have not gotten better and have gotten worse instead. This means that there will be no great comeback in my future. At the rate that my symptoms have been progressing, having a camming career is now completely out of the question. I can not express the sadness that I feel over this. I know that many women dislike this occupation but despite all the headaches, freeloaders and scams - I've always adored it. It really sucks to have to be closing this chapter of my life.
I have not talked publicly at length about my illness so consider the video below a kind of confession by proxy or a snapshot on what my life has been like during my hiatus from camming work.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuLyqyYKEWo&feature=youtu.be
Not to worry, I am not going anywhere and not leaving the forums. I'll be still doing sex work when I can but it will mainly be clips and PSO.
I just didn't want to disappear on all my fellow sick girls. You've all shared so much with me in this thread about your illness that I figured that I owed you all some sort of explanation.
Stay strong my lovelies, we might all be sick and suffering in our own unique ways but this is the only life we got. We've got to play the hands we've been dealt...whether they are unfair or not. <3
thatgingercamgirl
06-17-2016, 05:47 PM
^^Hugs to you JAC!
Thank You for sharing JAC, this illness looks terrible, i wish u all the very best there, pls know i feel for you, hugs and kisses and lots of strength to deal with this nasty illness xxx
pinklemonade0
06-18-2016, 07:48 AM
Yes, hugs to you too.
What you wrote here "We've got to play the hands we've been dealt...whether they are unfair or not. <3" strck a chord with me. I used to get so upset that it wasn't fair... and I just realised life isn't fair... it just isn't. And we have to do the best we can because what's the alternative? I don't want to think about the alternative.
These past few weeks I've felt very down because the amount of pain I've been in has been really bad and it's been limiting even trying to do normal stuff like empty the bin or do the washing up. No one on cam has a clue - I look so healthy and I smile... what else can you do but cover it up? I look happy to them.
But deep down it's just been horrible... I worry about the future and if things get worse - at the moment I'm barely managing.
Struggling to find any position to sit or stand in that doesn't provoke pain and it comes on so fast now.
So all of my camming is limited by this.
Then in my head I sometimes get angry that I'm putting myself in pain for them.
If I had a regular job I'd be fucked because at least with this there's flexibility.
I think also what Ivy said struck a chord too - that friends don't get it unless they've been there. I was talking to one of my friends about wanting to go to a city near me to see a friend and she said "you could go if you want to, I guess it depends how much you actually want to go". I felt like screaming... it's a 4 hour journey involving lots of walking between modes of transport and no it's not as simple as how much you want to go... when getting there would take that long and I'd feel destroyed by the time I got there and in a lot of pain from walking. If everything in my life depended on how much I wanted to do things my life would be perfect. So yeah people don't get it, or really understand what it's like day to day to live with restrictions and pain.
End of my rant.
caramelcraze
06-20-2016, 02:39 PM
On day three of a terrible tummy bug. Couldn't even make my dad father's day dinner because I was too out of it to drive an hour and a half. Thankfully he's super understanding, but still... definitely still feel bad about it.
TheOutlier
06-28-2016, 09:32 AM
I agreed with a total stranger that I was drunk at 8:30 in the morning rather than admit "No, I'm disabled, and my balance is off today because of that". And I refuse to use mobility aids on days when I probably need them because I'm worried I'll look "weak"+I know people will be like "Oh you were fine on x day why are you using that this day".
Yay for internalized ableism. -.-;
anonymous camgirl
06-28-2016, 01:15 PM
That's awful you are going through this, I miss seeing you and talking to you from time to time.. What treatments have you tried? alternative or otherwise? was it the mold you think that caused this? I don't know much about ME.. but I know a guy on facebook who has ME and he said it happened after mercury amalgams were drilled out improperly... he had like 6-8 of them... I hope you can find some relief with something.
Every one here in 'The 'Sick Girls' Camming Club' Thread have known that I have been sick for a very long time. Those of you camgirls on the forums that follow my post or who are closest to me know that a year ago and a half I had to quit camming because of the intensity of my symptoms that were attached to my illness prevented me from doing it anymore. You also know that I had high hopes of taking some time off to get my health in order and then returning to you all.
In the last year the intensity of my symptoms have not gotten better and have gotten worse instead. This means that there will be no great comeback in my future. At the rate that my symptoms have been progressing, having a camming career is now completely out of the question. I can not express the sadness that I feel over this. I know that many women dislike this occupation but despite all the headaches, freeloaders and scams - I've always adored it. It really sucks to have to be closing this chapter of my life.
I have not talked publicly at length about my illness so consider the video below a kind of confession by proxy or a snapshot on what my life has been like during my hiatus from camming work.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuLyqyYKEWo&feature=youtu.be
Not to worry, I am not going anywhere and not leaving the forums. I'll be still doing sex work when I can but it will mainly be clips and PSO.
I just didn't want to disappear on all my fellow sick girls. You've all shared so much with me in this thread about your illness that I figured that I owed you all some sort of explanation.
Stay strong my lovelies, we might all be sick and suffering in our own unique ways but this is the only life we got. We've got to play the hands we've been dealt...whether they are unfair or not. <3
RaeRae
06-30-2016, 11:09 AM
This keto flu is kicking my ass. I feel just like I did when my thyroid hormones were super low after my ablation. Hopefully getting my electrolytes built back up takes care of it, as I don't want to quit my keto diet (already lost 6.8lbs even though I'm sure most of it is water weight).
anonymous camgirl
06-30-2016, 11:21 AM
Sounds good, I have been doing intermittent fasting for 2 months now.. I have lost 9 pounds .. I haven't been super strict with it either.. some days I drink alcohol, some days I eat pizza.. etc etc.. but I always stick to fasting for at least 14-16 hours a day.. after todays liver flush I should lose another 2 pounds by tomorrow.. water weight or not I don't care.. water weight makes you look fat!.. I have a slow thyroid, overactive adrenals, estrogen dominance, high cortisol, prehypertension, and insulin resistance since I gained this weight 4 yrs ago.. so I need to lose it!.. I am doing ALOT of different things .. liver flushes, IF, parasite cleanse.. other cleanses.. custom mineral protocol.. etc etc..
This keto flu is kicking my ass. I feel just like I did when my thyroid hormones were super low after my ablation. Hopefully getting my electrolytes built back up takes care of it, as I don't want to quit my keto diet (already lost 6.8lbs even though I'm sure most of it is water weight).
VioletSM
07-01-2016, 10:44 AM
Thank you so much for this thread! I have been looking for something like this for a while now. I love webcamming but was diagnosed with PTSD a few years ago and have had severe anxiety and depression for years. It adds a bit of stress to working and being able to keep my composure on the bad days. I am lucky enough to cam with my girlfriend, which is a big help. But for anyone who is familiar with PTSD sometimes it can just sneak up on you. I have developed a sort of system to make sure my struggles do not show through to the other side of the camera, and have been pretty successful. Does anyone else struggles with these problems? I really enjoy webcamming and do not want some diagnosis to take away from that.
I'm still reading through the thread, but thank you to everyone who posted, you ladies are all so incredible <3
avalon_rose
07-02-2016, 09:51 AM
Thank you so much for this thread! I have been looking for something like this for a while now. I love webcamming but was diagnosed with PTSD a few years ago and have had severe anxiety and depression for years. It adds a bit of stress to working and being able to keep my composure on the bad days. I am lucky enough to cam with my girlfriend, which is a big help. But for anyone who is familiar with PTSD sometimes it can just sneak up on you. I have developed a sort of system to make sure my struggles do not show through to the other side of the camera, and have been pretty successful. Does anyone else struggles with these problems? I really enjoy webcamming and do not want some diagnosis to take away from that.
I'm still reading through the thread, but thank you to everyone who posted, you ladies are all so incredible <3
I haven't gotten through ishe entire post yet, either, but felt unsure about posting because my illness isn't physical either. I have bipolar disorder and bad anxiety, and I can understand where you're coming from about your struggles and things sneaking up on you.
That being said, as much as the struggle is there (and yes, it is real - haha), the freedom camming, et al, affords me has so far markedly improved my mental health overall, in spite of some individual struggles. <3
VioletSM
07-02-2016, 01:49 PM
I completely agree. I have been so much happier since I started broadcasting full time. I was unable to function properly at a full-time vanilla job due to my anxiety but have been able to do very well broadcasting, despite my personal struggles.
ladyabby
07-03-2016, 09:53 AM
Something I find really hard (since I have connective tissue issues) is not letting customers know I have a chronic illness, but still managing to take the breaks (from making custom videos or camming) that I need. I usually just explain it as though it's a routine injury/cold/whatever.
1) I don't want to explain what's really going on.
2) But since I don't explain it, it is confusing to them, and sometimes they take it personally and think I just don't like their request.
3) I still don't want to explain that it's a chronic and that I'm not just a regular person getting like 50 injuries/colds a year.
I don't really mind when illness is invisible. I mind when it's misinterpreted, and I am unable to explain myself for professional reasons.
Kaya_x
07-06-2016, 07:34 AM
I'm not on webcam today because I've recently had an injury :( gradually got worse so resting in bed, however IM and phone chat are still on the cards, so still working, however attempting to put on act on cam really isn't for me atm!
moongirl
07-10-2016, 01:02 PM
mental illness makes camming very hard at times, but it's still a lot easier than getting a regular job...
pinklemonade0
07-11-2016, 01:15 AM
I don't want to speak for anyone else but in reference to what was said a few posts back by avalon_rose, this thread is for everyone with an illness, whether it be mental or physical or both, please don't be afraid to post because it's not a physical illness, they can both be as debilitating as each other.
I've found recently I do better when I don't think about it as much, I kind of wrote out that massive post to get it off my chest... and I guess because I knew here people would understand the reality of it as well... but on an everyday basis I've been trying not to think about it (easier said than done) or to think about the future and that seems to have actually helped.
heyho
07-11-2016, 02:22 AM
After a week of not working I hauled ass to a therapist. Turns out I don't just have depression, I have anxiety as well. Boyfriend's blaming camming for itand wanting me to get a vanilla job. My pup's poos resemble coconut curry for some reason. Everything sucks.
FayeValentine
07-11-2016, 10:27 AM
My period started early, dropping my already short cycle down to 17 days. I thought PCOS was supposed to give you long cycles? I missed all those days of potential work because I haven't figured out a way to cam while bleeding.
jovannacherry
07-11-2016, 11:18 AM
My period started early, dropping my already short cycle down to 17 days. I thought PCOS was supposed to give you long cycles? I missed all those days of potential work because I haven't figured out a way to cam while bleeding.
raffles
custom photos
song/dance
titty flash
make it a non-nude day and put a really high tip to make it nude (if someone tips it ….do a shower show)
FayeValentine
07-11-2016, 12:19 PM
raffles
custom photos
song/dance
titty flash
make it a non-nude day and put a really high tip to make it nude (if someone tips it ….do a shower show)
I only do private based sites so those don't really work but thank you :)
justanothercamgirl
07-16-2016, 06:14 PM
I don't want to speak for anyone else but in reference to what was said a few posts back by avalon_rose, this thread is for everyone with an illness, whether it be mental or physical or both, please don't be afraid to post because it's not a physical illness, they can both be as debilitating as each other.
Feel free to speak for me as you are 100% correct. :)
This thread has always been meant for any camgirl who is struggling with any sort of issue and is need of a safe place to vent to others who will not judge.