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JaneBurgess
07-26-2018, 10:22 PM
I'm on Xanax, but my doctor decided that the decrease in my panic and anxiety attacks due to my BP2 meds finally working was enough to take away my prescription for them. I don't see this ending well. I may ahve had decreases, but I'm still waking up in the midst of panic attacks - which isn't something my therapy and coping skills can fix.
I wake up in a panic attack a couple of nights a week. I have Ativan for it but I dont take it at night because once Im in a panic attack it wont help me at all. I get a glass of water and slowly drink it and focus on my breathing. Did your therapist teach you breathing techniques? It also helps to breathe into a small paper bag or close your hands together and breathe into them. Doctors always try to cut people off Benzos because they worry about addiction issues. Its annoying to those of us who need it and cant take other drugs
LunaJayde
07-29-2018, 01:37 PM
I am much the same -- Like right now, I'm reading stripperweb instead of putting on my makeup to get on cam -- Even though I've been camming for several years on and off, I still struggle to actually log on every single day. I love the way you described the layers, etc, that's interesting. I hope you get online today. I hope I do, too. Every day it's a battle but some days are so worth it. <3
Thank you for this! Though I'm sorry you struggle too, it's nice to know I'm not alone. I managed to do my first cam show last Sunday, and am prepping to do my second one today! The one last week went well, I felt... my goal was really to just sign on at all, not worried about the money for that day. It felt good to do it. This week I've been obsessing about things like pricing and what to do in free chat, for how much (I'm on MFC). I'm telling myself that it's okay if I don't have all the questions answered, I still need to get on cam and start with consistency.
We can do this!
caramelcraze
07-29-2018, 02:25 PM
I'm on Xanax, but my doctor decided that the decrease in my panic and anxiety attacks due to my BP2 meds finally working was enough to take away my prescription for them. I don't see this ending well. I may ahve had decreases, but I'm still waking up in the midst of panic attacks - which isn't something my therapy and coping skills can fix.
xanax didn't work for me. it was WAY too up and down. Klonopin lasts so much longer (one dose a day does it for me). Having something in my system to take the edge off has really helped. I agree with Jane: Breathing techniques do help. there are even youtube videos you can follow to soothing music that show when to breath.
SweetLilyRaven
08-02-2018, 08:55 AM
I used to be a social worker with a degree in counseling and therapy, so I think that's why most non-medication therapeutic tricks have little to no effect on me. I had a pulmonary embolism last year and while I was in the hospital, the admitting doctor put me on Klonopin and it was night and day difference from Xanax and it worked SOOOOO much better. However, my PCP said she didn't want to put me on it and that I needed to "learn how to get through my panic attacks without meds". Last week she also decided to stop my pain meds for severe and debilitating arthritis in my knees, despite the fact that I'm now on disability because I can barely walk and I'm on crutches. She told me to try over the counter meds to help with the pain. I was already taking twice the amount of Aleve and Ibuprofen along with the Tramadol, so this newest denial of meds has nearly bedridden me. I'm killing my liver, and she's suggesting I continue doing it...great care, doc. I'm not sure what to do now about my pain levels. I can't really afford CBD oils or pot (which is legal for recreational and medicinal purposes in my state!) and the strains I have tried don't really do much anyways. Any suggestions, ladies?
MsJess
08-02-2018, 09:35 AM
I'm breaking out like crazy idk what to do :( i went to the dermatologist this week but she gave me a few creams that are making me break out more, i can't look at the mirrow now without crying and hating my skin, i don't wanna cam or go out man this sucks
JaneBurgess
08-02-2018, 03:34 PM
I used to be a social worker with a degree in counseling and therapy, so I think that's why most non-medication therapeutic tricks have little to no effect on me. I had a pulmonary embolism last year and while I was in the hospital, the admitting doctor put me on Klonopin and it was night and day difference from Xanax and it worked SOOOOO much better. However, my PCP said she didn't want to put me on it and that I needed to "learn how to get through my panic attacks without meds". Last week she also decided to stop my pain meds for severe and debilitating arthritis in my knees, despite the fact that I'm now on disability because I can barely walk and I'm on crutches. She told me to try over the counter meds to help with the pain. I was already taking twice the amount of Aleve and Ibuprofen along with the Tramadol, so this newest denial of meds has nearly bedridden me. I'm killing my liver, and she's suggesting I continue doing it...great care, doc. I'm not sure what to do now about my pain levels. I can't really afford CBD oils or pot (which is legal for recreational and medicinal purposes in my state!) and the strains I have tried don't really do much anyways. Any suggestions, ladies?
I would find a new doctor. If we could get over panic attacks I guarantee you all of us that have them would. That's a terrible thing of her to say to you. Also if you need pain meds to function in life she shouldnt have stopped them and left you in horrible pain. If you're able to find a new doctor or see a specialist I would suggest that
anonymous camgirl
08-02-2018, 06:51 PM
Have you thought of stem cell therapy? I am watching a new documentary about it.. very promising. Sounds awful what you are going through.. that's quite inhumane.. but with maybe stem cells or cannabis you can overcome it.. .. I can barely walk myself these days.... I am trying to not get to total destruction yet.
I used to be a social worker with a degree in counseling and therapy, so I think that's why most non-medication therapeutic tricks have little to no effect on me. I had a pulmonary embolism last year and while I was in the hospital, the admitting doctor put me on Klonopin and it was night and day difference from Xanax and it worked SOOOOO much better. However, my PCP said she didn't want to put me on it and that I needed to "learn how to get through my panic attacks without meds". Last week she also decided to stop my pain meds for severe and debilitating arthritis in my knees, despite the fact that I'm now on disability because I can barely walk and I'm on crutches. She told me to try over the counter meds to help with the pain. I was already taking twice the amount of Aleve and Ibuprofen along with the Tramadol, so this newest denial of meds has nearly bedridden me. I'm killing my liver, and she's suggesting I continue doing it...great care, doc. I'm not sure what to do now about my pain levels. I can't really afford CBD oils or pot (which is legal for recreational and medicinal purposes in my state!) and the strains I have tried don't really do much anyways. Any suggestions, ladies?
caramelcraze
08-03-2018, 06:27 AM
I used to be a social worker with a degree in counseling and therapy, so I think that's why most non-medication therapeutic tricks have little to no effect on me. I had a pulmonary embolism last year and while I was in the hospital, the admitting doctor put me on Klonopin and it was night and day difference from Xanax and it worked SOOOOO much better. However, my PCP said she didn't want to put me on it and that I needed to "learn how to get through my panic attacks without meds". Last week she also decided to stop my pain meds for severe and debilitating arthritis in my knees, despite the fact that I'm now on disability because I can barely walk and I'm on crutches. She told me to try over the counter meds to help with the pain. I was already taking twice the amount of Aleve and Ibuprofen along with the Tramadol, so this newest denial of meds has nearly bedridden me. I'm killing my liver, and she's suggesting I continue doing it...great care, doc. I'm not sure what to do now about my pain levels. I can't really afford CBD oils or pot (which is legal for recreational and medicinal purposes in my state!) and the strains I have tried don't really do much anyways. Any suggestions, ladies?
definitely look for another dr. It took me a couple tries to find one who would listen to me about my various illnesses and actually help. possibly try a psychiatrist as well. the entire "let's wean you and you'll get over it" method does not work and, if anything, just makes people worse. So many drs right now are handling the pain killer issue so poorly because they're scared of losing their licenses... but the crack down over the opiate epidemic is seriously brutalizing those we seek to protect most. fun fact for those of you joining us at home: In many states, the max dosing limit for those with chronic pain is the same despite body weight. this means a 300lb male with chronic pain would only be prescribed as much as a 100lb woman maximum who suffers from the same. think about how messed up that is. The whole "let's put out this fire in the most irresponsible way possible" method is bad for everyone.
*rant over* I am sorry for all that you're going through. I know that when you're in serious pain, tramadol is basically sugar pills. Do you drink tart cherry juice? my ex's mother drank it for her RA and it did wonders for her mobility. Another option, if you can stomach it and if your state allows, is kratom which is an excellent and relatively inexpensive alternative to heavy duty pain meds. You can also get cbd oil for under $60 which should last you at minimum 2 weeks. I like to put a dropper per tank in my vape with o nic juice and it does wonders. *hugs*
BambiBarnes
08-17-2018, 08:58 PM
I have OCD and for an entire summer I couldn't look at the time due to this really grating compulsion so I literally just stopped using all tech. I've been back on my devices for a few weeks now and that obsession is gone but my health anxiety has ramped waaaaaaay up and I keep worrying I'll have to stop midshow to go ask my boyfriend for reassurance that I'm healthy lmao
lll99
08-20-2018, 12:05 PM
Hi, I appreciate this thread as I really need somewhere to vent. I have IBS (or chrohns.. undetermined), depression and anxiety. I've been living in a 4 star hotel and while its very comfortable I feel like its not healthy for me to be here long term. This morning I woke up sick and after drinking coffee I felt worse. I have back problems but I have this bad pang in the left side of my back and its really stressing me out. I really need to work today but I feel so shitty :( I get really bad anxiety when I feel physically bad cause my brain is like "omg this will never end".
SweetLilyRaven
09-07-2018, 07:55 PM
Have you thought of stem cell therapy? I am watching a new documentary about it.. very promising. Sounds awful what you are going through.. that's quite inhumane.. but with maybe stem cells or cannabis you can overcome it.. .. I can barely walk myself these days.... I am trying to not get to total destruction yet.
I just heard about this procedure two days ago! I'll be bringing it up with my ortho doc at my next appointment. If I could try it out and see what happens...I would be over the moon about lessening some of this pain. Thank you for the second opinion for the stem cell therapy!!
SweetLilyRaven
09-11-2018, 10:28 AM
So fun fact...ibuprofen can cause severe pitting edema. I've been without prescription pain meds for a couple weeks now, thanks to my asshole doctor. To deal with the pain, I've been taking ibuprofen like candy. Clearly, my liver and kidneys didn't like that, as my feet and legs swelled up to Macy's parade balloons. Tried bedrest and massive elevation, but the swelling didn't go away at all. So I stopped taking the ibuprofen, and they went back to normal.
Awesome.
This pain is fucking unbearable. Please just kill me now?
SweetLilyRaven
09-18-2018, 08:06 PM
I'd like to add insult to injury. After a wonderful Saturday night of deliciously rough and sensual sex with my partner, my bladder decided it was time for a UTI to start brewing. I finally got to the doctor today, confirmed it with labwork (because I clearly have no idea what a UTI feels like), and get my antibiotics. I'm sitting here waiting for an indy customer to show up for a private show and my lower back and kidneys are aching so fiercely that I want to just curl up and sleep until the antibiotics kick in tomorrow night.
However, in a spot of good news, my psychiatrist has come through. My PCP doc yanked my Xanax and Tramadol a few months back and I'm starting to wake up in the midst of a panic attack more and more frequently. After discussing this with my psychiatrist, she decided to put me on something longer acting than Xanax and if I respond well, she wants to move me to a med that will help with both my anxiety and my pain management!! Super excited and relieved to hear this because walking is fucking torture at this point.
How are the rest of you all doing lately? I'm hoping the summer slump is over for us all and that we're getting back to making $$!!!
caramelcraze
04-02-2019, 11:49 PM
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Idk which of my meds is causing it, but I have had two straight days of awful headaches. i'm killing it at work, but i just want my head to stop throbbing.
PurpleSquirrel
04-03-2019, 01:24 AM
I hope it's ok to join you ladies? I've just rently been diagnosed with Hemiplegic Migraines after spending months in and out of hospital with what they thought were TIA's (mini strokes) I've just started some new medication (proponolol?) this week and crossing everything it might give me some relief. An attack can leave me paralysed down one side and my words get very jumbled. I'm a cam girl and PSO and for the last few weeks I haven't been able to cam as my left side has pretty much given up and itsn't a pretty sight. Thankfully I work NF and I've been doing well over there so I've been able to keep earning - this week it's been chats only as after a weekend of auras I've spent the last few days with a massive migraine and nausea. Cue the holidays for the kids so I'm desperately trying to look after them with no help (hubby works full time) and keep myself going.
Anyhoo, just wanted to say this is an amazing thread, thank you but such a shame that so many of us are suffering.
Miss_ShaSha
04-03-2019, 01:22 PM
While it's hard to read through some of these posts as it pains me to know how hard it can be for you ladies, it's also of some comfort I'm not alone. I have suffered from anxiety and SAD (seasonal affective disorder) since my teens. It's difficult to live with at times.
My pill has been, for most of my adult life, a clean diet and exercise; most recently, however, in the last year...meditation has saved me. I used to take Gabapentin for anxiety. I stopped taking medication 6 months into my meditation practice. I've been meditating daily for a year now.
I have to fight hard during the winter months to keep depression from occurring. It's such a chore: eat right, exercise, hydrate optimally, get at least an hour of sunlight a day, practice CBT, engage in positive self talk, sleep right...oh goodness sleep right. And it all doesn't prevent an episode.
I try my best to engage in self care religiously. I mean hulk the shit out of physical care. But I am not immune. I still have anxiety attacks and the occasional panic attack.
Solidarity sisters. Solidarity.
caramelcraze
04-03-2019, 03:06 PM
While it's hard to read through some of these posts as it pains me to know how hard it can be for you ladies, it's also of some comfort I'm not alone. I have suffered from anxiety and SAD (seasonal affective disorder) since my teens. It's difficult to live with at times.
I've has SAD since my mid teens as well and sadly live in a rainy climate (can't wait to move!). I know how awful it is and you're definitely not alone here. self care goes a long way, but being able to have it properly treated if necessary is certainly something to do. hope the summer treats you better! xo
Miss_ShaSha
04-03-2019, 03:13 PM
^^Thanks for the support. You can fully relate. That is of comfort. Actually, I'm no stranger to voluntary hospitalization. I was inpatient for 6 days last Sept. I got the help I needed & 3 months of intensive therapy.
Yes, doll I know. & I lived in Seattle Washington for 2 years which was such a treacherous experience.
A move will be such a relief. I'm happy to hear :)
PixiieGirl
04-05-2019, 02:59 PM
Im coming off my antipsychotic and Ive felt great till today, I ended up lying in bed till 4 PM cause I felt so tired and drained and sick, I hope this doesnt last long
Miss_ShaSha
04-05-2019, 03:01 PM
^^Sending healing vibes. I hope you recover soon.
PixiieGirl
04-05-2019, 03:07 PM
^^Sending healing vibes. I hope you recover soon.
thank you as ever lovely, sorry to hear you suffer with MH stuff to - love your way <3
Miss_ShaSha
04-05-2019, 03:25 PM
^^Thank you. As a matter of fact my anxiety was so bad yesterday I couldn't cam. Literally girl, my Fitbit recorded 3.5 hrs of high HR in fat burning zone resulting in 961 calories burned.
Sometimes self care & positive talk work & sometimes it doesn't. I took the day off.
I'm just saying I feel you. You are not alone. (((hugs)))
caramelcraze
04-06-2019, 04:44 PM
Im coming off my antipsychotic and Ive felt great till today, I ended up lying in bed till 4 PM cause I felt so tired and drained and sick, I hope this doesnt last long
i've come off one before. it takes about a month before you're feeling normal-ish. week 2&3 were the hardest for me personally. Hope it goes more smoothly from here on out!
PixiieGirl
04-06-2019, 04:48 PM
i've come off one before. it takes about a month before you're feeling normal-ish. week 2&3 were the hardest for me personally. Hope it goes more smoothly from here on out!
thats not reassuring Im only on day 5 hahahaha
Im finding CBD is helping, and getting out for some fresh air - thanks lovely <3
caramelcraze
04-06-2019, 05:25 PM
thats not reassuring Im only on day 5 hahahaha
Im finding CBD is helping, and getting out for some fresh air - thanks lovely <3
awe, well it does depend on the drug. mine was pretty long lasting and typically stays in a persons system that long. look up how long typical withdrawal takes and the symptoms of it. some sites even have timelines of what to expect. :)
caramelcraze
04-11-2019, 05:04 AM
Ugh my new dr is an idiot. Like got his degree from the back of a cereal box level. I have years of regular medical tests showing no sign of high blood sugar and what does the dipshit try to have me retested for? Diabetes. he thinks my nerve pain is caused by diabetes even though the only risk factor I have is being mixed. It doesn't run in my family, I have an average to low BMI, cholesterol/blood pressure all are normal, and all of my glucose tests (including one he just ran) are normal. Can't wait to switch drs.
Miss_ShaSha
04-11-2019, 07:16 AM
^^Frustrating :(
PixiieGirl
04-11-2019, 07:27 AM
feeling rubbish again today but had some CBD and gonna do a very short shift
hope you are all doing better than me lol
Cookies96
04-11-2019, 08:17 AM
lol on my period and now i have the spring flu still working my hrs today fuck that !!!!
caramelcraze
04-17-2019, 03:28 AM
Fibro is kicking my but this week. every morning I've woken up and felt like I fell down a flight of stairs in my sleep.
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caramelcraze
04-30-2019, 09:27 PM
I have 4 biopsies tomorrow (one surgical) and tbh have the worst case of fomo regarding camming i've ever had. I just want to be able to work.
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Thankfully my friends have been keeping me company and pretty well distracted, but it's so frustrating having your body work against you.
Miss_ShaSha
05-02-2019, 12:29 PM
^^Sending you healing vibes all the way from TX <3
nattyfetish
05-06-2019, 01:53 AM
I hate this self-destructive behaviour of mine. I always think about the worst case scenario, have negative toguhts coming trough my mind ! And you know what's funny? Is that i do it to myself with this stupid brain. When do i do it ? When things are too good to be true (i am happy, everything is good). I start having a mini panick attack and think about: what if x, what if y. Anxietyyyyyyy GO AWAY !
p.s: Caramel good luck ! Fingers crossed to you !
Miss_ShaSha
05-06-2019, 10:21 AM
^^I hear you. I experience something called derealization when my anxiety and stress levels are high. It's almost impossible to think positive thoughts. I often catastrophize too and it's highly stressful.
The only thing that works for me is meditation at onset. I can distinguish when an episode starts. I still suffer though.
I'm sorry girl. I totally feel you.
PixiieGirl
05-06-2019, 10:50 AM
^^I hear you. I experience something called derealization when my anxiety and stress levels are high. It's almost impossible to think positive thoughts. I often catastrophize too and it's highly stressful.
The only thing that works for me is meditation at onset. I can distinguish when an episode starts. I still suffer though.
I'm sorry girl. I totally feel you.
You derealise? Jeez we seem so similar lol so do I! I can kinda deal with it but it’s scary when it lasts a long time, I always get terrified I’m having a psychotic break
Miss_ShaSha
05-06-2019, 11:15 AM
^^Then you totally know!!! It feels like, sometimes, I'm going to die. Not like I feel pain, but there's this fear that I'm not going to make it. Does that makes sense? And terrifying is a good word to describe it. The last major one I had lasted several hours and I burned almost 1,000 calories. I have to agree with you also on feeling like you're going to mentally break. Gosh, I'm glad I'm not alone.
I was, in the past, not able to pinpoint onset, but through therapy I've learned to recognize the beginning of one.
How do you cope with it?
PixiieGirl
05-06-2019, 12:22 PM
^^Then you totally know!!! It feels like, sometimes, I'm going to die. Not like I feel pain, but there's this fear that I'm not going to make it. Does that makes sense? And terrifying is a good word to describe it. The last major one I had lasted several hours and I burned almost 1,000 calories. I have to agree with you also on feeling like you're going to mentally break. Gosh, I'm glad I'm not alone.
I was, in the past, not able to pinpoint onset, but through therapy I've learned to recognize the beginning of one.
How do you cope with it?
I’ll be honest my episodes don’t tend to last more than a few minutes, so I generally cope by waiting it out, but a few times when it’s lasted longer it sends me into panic attacks, I tend to try and sleep it off then
I’ve heard grounding techniques can help? I can’t remember the exact one someone recommended but it was to do with senses? I’ll see if I can find it :)
Miss_ShaSha
05-06-2019, 12:37 PM
^^Thanks! If I do not meditate they can last anywhere from 30 min to a whole day: legit 8 or 9 hrs. Sleep also eliminates long ones for me too.
PixiieGirl
05-06-2019, 03:24 PM
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This was it, not tried it but I’m gonna start using it I think
Miss_ShaSha
05-06-2019, 04:57 PM
^^Thanks!
izshadow
05-20-2019, 10:59 AM
Sigh. I'm a long time Fibromyalgia and Lupus sufferer. I also have severe anxiety, social phobia, ptsd and ocd. Cant work, have been advised not to work but have to work. I'm sure everyone here knows how that goes. Been struggling for years. Lost my home in 2012 and feeling like its about to happen all over again here in 2019. My ex left me in 2017 and I've been trying to stay afloat every since. Though I landed an amazing job, only to still struggle and just have it taken from me, today. Now I sit in fear, knowing I've made zero on SM (NF and TTM have been slow to) and yet I need to make SM work for me in order to not become homeless. I can not work outside the home. I can not work for someone else and be on their time when my health changes literally every day, every hour. I'm just lost right now.
Miss_ShaSha
05-21-2019, 07:50 PM
^^Girl, you can do this. You can make it work. Repeat 15 min of positive affirmations a day for 30 days in the morning; eat healthy; hydrate optimally; do 30 min of yoga a day; greet all potential clients who enter your room with a smile.
You're scared. That's OK. Feel those feels for a set amount of time then forget it. You can do this. I'm pulling for you!
izshadow
05-28-2019, 06:35 PM
Well its do or die I guess. Got my internet upped yesterday by Frontier from 75/75 to 100/100 and took some time to freak out over the weekend but starting tomorrow, its camming full time and not just here and there anymore. I'm on page three of SM and I'm sure if I just push hard to stay on, I can move up the ranks and get people to see me more regularly. I think my biggest hurdles will be back pain, migraines and anxiety. Do you have any tips for those with severe back/body pain?
Miss_ShaSha
05-29-2019, 12:02 AM
^^Caramelcraze might: she has fibromyalgia (if I remember correctly). When I had back pain I took Gabapentin which also worked for anxiety & combined it with heat therapy every evening for 2 months (hot baths with Epsom salt & coconut oil) then stretched hamstrings (seated toe touch) while in the tub.
I'm sorry to hear it's so tough. I'm not sure what else to advise :(
caramelcraze
05-29-2019, 05:44 AM
Well its do or die I guess. Got my internet upped yesterday by Frontier from 75/75 to 100/100 and took some time to freak out over the weekend but starting tomorrow, its camming full time and not just here and there anymore. I'm on page three of SM and I'm sure if I just push hard to stay on, I can move up the ranks and get people to see me more regularly. I think my biggest hurdles will be back pain, migraines and anxiety. Do you have any tips for those with severe back/body pain?
Yeah I have fibro as well. feel free to dm me :) always here for moral support. it sounds like we have a lot of the same medical issues.
^^^ I was not diagnosed with fibromyalgia but i have the symptoms, muscle and back pain, tiredness, anxiety, etc.
I should see a doctor about it and have some tests done because it's getting more difficult to handle the pain.
I did a specific blood test for a hormone called IGF1 (is related to growing hormone) and the values are way to low than normal, this could explain the undeveloped muscles but could be fibro as well.
My pituitar gland produces too much of a hormone and too little of another one. It's difficult to live in pain most of the time
caramelcraze
05-29-2019, 11:19 PM
^^^ I was not diagnosed with fibromyalgia but i have the symptoms, muscle and back pain, tiredness, anxiety, etc.
I should see a doctor about it and have some tests done because it's getting more difficult to handle the pain.
I did a specific blood test for a hormone called IGF1 (is related to growing hormone) and the values are way to low than normal, this could explain the undeveloped muscles but could be fibro as well.
My pituitar gland produces too much of a hormone and too little of another one. It's difficult to live in pain most of the time
It's rough. by the time I sought help, I was so sick that even laying on the couch was excruciating. I would sleep 16+ hours per day, could barely work, had the worst brain fog, and everything hurt all the time. If it weren't for my pets, I would have stayed in bed all day. definitely get check out for it, though if all your blood work comes back normal, don't be surprised. I thought I had something terminal (yeah i was in that much pain) and everything came back 100% normal. they did the trigger point test on me and I had almost all of the other symptoms, so they diagnosed me. being properly medicated, despite the excessive cost, has been worth it. some supplements have also helped as well. Can't wait for lyrica to go generic later this year.
^^^ Thank you for input, i take Gabapentin mainly for anxiety (i had a severe panic attack because the doctor seeing me for tyroid issues said i neef a brain surgery because i have a small tumor on my pituitar gland so i freaked out, been hospitalized for it, i called the ambulance cause it felt i was having a heart attack); they say it works for pain too but i dont feel it helps too much with pain; what hurts most is that some of my family members dont believe or understand i am sick and think i am lazy and dont try harder, they blame me for camming instead of doing a 'proper job' (dad and one brother). I tried but i cant manage, the pain and brain fog wont help me do the job. Kisses to everyone suffering due to health issues!
caramelcraze
05-30-2019, 03:01 AM
^^^ Thank you for input, i take Gabapentin mainly for anxiety (i had a severe panic attack because the doctor seeing me for tyroid issues said i neef a brain surgery because i have a small tumor on my pituitar gland so i freaked out, been hospitalized for it, i called the ambulance cause it felt i was having a heart attack); they say it works for pain too but i dont feel it helps too much with pain; what hurts most is that some of my family members dont believe or understand i am sick and think i am lazy and dont try harder, they blame me for camming instead of doing a 'proper job' (dad and one brother). I tried but i cant manage, the pain and brain fog wont help me do the job. Kisses to everyone suffering due to health issues!
I understand how you feel. My family finally came round when I got a diagnosis and read some literature on it. once they realized what living with a chronic invisible illness was like and what my day to day was, they changed their tune. Some people will never understand, others will ask a million questions (I prefer the latter). Just make sure you read up on it and manage as well as possible. I've found that twitter has an AWESOME fibro/chronic illness community, so maybe make a separate account from your camming one and immerse yourself into that community. They're very supportive!
gabapentin turned me into a zombie, did nothing for my anxiety, and it is AWFUL to come off of. lyrica, despite the high cost, worked better or me. Nothing has been perfect though and I'm a tough patient because i refuse to take antidepressants (which is another first line defense for fibro patients). you also may also want to see if you're adhd... up to 45% of people with fibro have adhd https://www.mdmag.com/medical-news/fibromyalgia-patients-show-high-cooccurrence-of-adult-adhd having that properly taken care of did wonders for my productivity and general quality of life. inattentive adhd is what most women with adhd have (not the bouncing off the walls kind) so definitely get evaluated.
I've also found kratom to be very effective at treating the pain. it's a bit pricey (and some places have made it illegal), but it has saved me on so many occasions. I only take it when I'm having severe pain (& pill form is better than tea), but it nips it in the bud usually. Most drs won't give fibro patients any kind of pain medication sadly so be very prepared for that. There are a lot of supplements that help though.
My messages are always open if anyone ever needs someone to talk to :)
^^^ Thank you Caramel for all the valuable info, i'll have to get checked for these all, i can only do one thing at a time cause our health system here works differently.
I was put on antidepressants cause it was needed, i struggled way too long on my own til i broke, now i feel better but coming home from hospital was tough especially when i remained home alone and at night, i fear the panic attack will come back but i am ok, nothing happened in between.
I take Coaxil, is a mild one that works both on depression and anxiety plus the Gabapentin, i react very good on them, no side effects here, the doctor will let me know for how long i need them.
Reading here over the years about models working 10-12 hrs shifts and making great money was also painful for me knowing i can only work a couple of hrs shifts but i understand i have a specific health condition that makes me different so i dont compare myself with others anymore and do what i can.
By the way, i dont need brain surgery, a neuro surgeon saw my MRI at the hospital and said the tumor is small and the surgery is 'ugly' he said, it can be solved with pills if needed but no pills for me now, i'll need to keep an eye on hormonal levels time to time and have MRI done once a year; what an incompetent doctor can do to a patient when telling "you need surgery, pills have horrible side effects and can kill you", she talked about Dostinex that reduces the tumor; i think she was fired from that clinic cause more patients complained about her including a neighbor who was her patient too, that doctor did a bad job really! i went to another doctor after i came back from hospital and she said things are not that bad, i dont even need that Dostinex as of yet, the tumor is 5 mm only (is not cancer).
I am also scheduled for a brain MRI (general scan not only for the pituitar gland) because i have these vertigo attacks now and then and they ugly, might be the inner ear inflammation or a neuronal disease or something else; too many health issues really, is a lot to handle for one human being considering i had several surgeries in the past and the most recent was 2.5 years ago and affected me the most (total hysterectomy with anexectomy).
I wanted a career & to succeed at a vanilla job but i understand my health wont allow me so having camming as an option was and is a life saver.
Thank u and i wish u all the very best healthwise and moneywise xxxx