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caramelcraze
07-25-2019, 12:08 PM
Fibro fog is kicking my ass today. i got in bed and totally forgot to turn off my nf lines. woke up to a call and had a moment of panic. oops!

magicgembliss
07-25-2019, 04:48 PM
i got in bed and totally forgot to turn off my nf lines. woke up to a call and had a moment of panic. oops!


I hate that...yeah you're not seeing me with unbrushed hair, no moisturizer and in my granny panties, probably covered in cat hair and crepe batter LOL

caramelcraze
07-26-2019, 01:48 AM
I hate that...yeah you're not seeing me with unbrushed hair, no moisturizer and in my granny panties, probably covered in cat hair and crepe batter LOL

lmao add dog hair + no makeup and you've got it!

I <3 crepes! Really need to start making them again.

PixiieGirl
07-26-2019, 02:01 AM
Im in the process of completely coming off my meds, only on 20mg of my SSRI now. Im enjoying not having the side effects anymore but my energy levels seem to have dropped again - its like I cant win either too much so I cant sleep right, or not enough so Im always tired lmao

Glamourmilf
07-26-2019, 07:55 AM
Oh yes. This thread...for sure this is me. I have health problems for sure..not neurotypical..ADD&OCD, hypoglycemia, scoliosis and a heart defect. Dry skin, a history of extreme vitamin deficiencies.. I need to work out every few days or I literally feel my body falling apart. Mostly, I get overstimulated easily. I sort of love high stimulation but then I become exhausted quickly. Luckily, I do have a man who cooks and cleans..just not as well as me :/ LOL

I could have written this, because these are the aliments I struggle with.
Add to it degenerative disc in my neck ( which causes really extreme headaches) and arthritis and the list is complete.
I wonder if the exhaustion from overstimulation is caused by our scoliosis. :thinking:
It would make sense. Because the curvature of the spine presses on nerves, you know what I mean?
I don't have health insurance. Meaning that I don't go to doctors. So I'll never really know for sure.

magicgembliss
07-26-2019, 05:10 PM
lmao add dog hair + no makeup and you've got it!

I <3 crepes! Really need to start making them again.

Duuuude I'm literally becoming a crepe chef. My crepe game is becoming strong AF. They melt in your mouth..and I haven't even begun the Michelin chef Michel Roux's double-creme recipe.

This is an addiction..I can't stop. HELP

}:D

Miss_ShaSha
07-26-2019, 05:23 PM
^^LOL sounds like a good addiction to have...for someone at least :)

magicgembliss
07-26-2019, 05:49 PM
I could have written this, because these are the aliments I struggle with.
Add to it degenerative disc in my neck ( which causes really extreme headaches) and arthritis and the list is complete.
I wonder if the exhaustion from overstimulation is caused by our scoliosis. :thinking:
It would make sense. Because the curvature of the spine presses on nerves, you know what I mean?
I don't have health insurance. Meaning that I don't go to doctors. So I'll never really know for sure.

Wow we really have so much in common!!! For years I've wondered that- I would always hunch and hold my shoulders tightly and along with my hyperactivity and acting nervous, always got diagnosed with "generalized anxiety disorder" (dumbasses it's obviously ADHD...they used to rarely diagnose women back then) and "you seem really nervous right now" etc at like job interviews or whatever, just awful. I was never sure if it was a result of anxiety or the way that you know, I'm *just mostly always in pain* from wearing heels for work or studying for school and sitting sedentary for hours and hours?!!! Stupid modern academic/corporate life, ugh. The way the muscoskeletal system, nerves, tendons, muscles in my upper back are compressed and stressed throughout the day..My boyfriends gives good deep tissue massages and always tells me he can feel knots and stuff and I can feel extremely tender, tense spots in the same places where I literally moan in intense pleasure from them being rubbed (it's better than sex LOL). I think it's technically "kyphosis" not scoliosis though, my spine is straight up and down just has a deeper curve than others and it's towards the top so I get a lot of weird ear popping, slight nausea, belchiness and shallow breathing problems sometimes too.

I had a messed up childhood too, which I think created a really obsessive perfectionism where I can't let certain things go and I mis-prioritize a lot, where it doesn't "feel" so much like ADHD but a compulsion to finish everything perfectly or else...the consequences will be dire, it's like a deep feeling of angst or "I.have.to.do.this.this.way.OR.ELSE." Even if more important things in my life goes to shit in the meantime! Weird, right?! Don't know how much of it is unmedicated ADHD or OCD/cognitive problems, complications from an abusive childhood...Cuz after all, survivors basically have learned day after day that their basic needs don't matter, so that whole brain pathway has gotten kind of fucked up and it's a hard fucking daily job to rewire it and prioritize your NEEDS over compulsions..That's a huge thing all across the abuse survivor , mental illness and neurodiverse communities. Remind yourself to take care of yourself in direct opposition to what you were either taught at the knee or what your own brain is telling you as default...

I'm sorry, sounds like you have it worse than me! You really should go to healthcare.gov, there's I PROMISE something for everyone there. It may take a bit to get approved since you have to show them income or tax statements. But I got it, and I'm the ultimate procrastinator. Stay strong!

Glamourmilf
07-27-2019, 05:18 AM
Wow we really have so much in common!!! For years I've wondered that- I would always hunch and hold my shoulders tightly and along with my hyperactivity and acting nervous, always got diagnosed with "generalized anxiety disorder" (dumbasses it's obviously ADHD...they used to rarely diagnose women back then) and "you seem really nervous right now" etc at like job interviews or whatever, just awful. I was never sure if it was a result of anxiety or the way that you know, I'm *just mostly always in pain* from wearing heels for work or studying for school and sitting sedentary for hours and hours?!!! Stupid modern academic/corporate life, ugh. The way the muscoskeletal system, nerves, tendons, muscles in my upper back are compressed and stressed throughout the day..My boyfriends gives good deep tissue massages and always tells me he can feel knots and stuff and I can feel extremely tender, tense spots in the same places where I literally moan in intense pleasure from them being rubbed (it's better than sex LOL). I think it's technically "kyphosis" not scoliosis though, my spine is straight up and down just has a deeper curve than others and it's towards the top so I get a lot of weird ear popping, slight nausea, belchiness and shallow breathing problems sometimes too.

I had a messed up childhood too, which I think created a really obsessive perfectionism where I can't let certain things go and I mis-prioritize a lot, where it doesn't "feel" so much like ADHD but a compulsion to finish everything perfectly or else...the consequences will be dire, it's like a deep feeling of angst or "I.have.to.do.this.this.way.OR.ELSE." Even if more important things in my life goes to shit in the meantime! Weird, right?! Don't know how much of it is unmedicated ADHD or OCD/cognitive problems, complications from an abusive childhood...Cuz after all, survivors basically have learned day after day that their basic needs don't matter, so that whole brain pathway has gotten kind of fucked up and it's a hard fucking daily job to rewire it and prioritize your NEEDS over compulsions..That's a huge thing all across the abuse survivor , mental illness and neurodiverse communities. Remind yourself to take care of yourself in direct opposition to what you were either taught at the knee or what your own brain is telling you as default...

I'm sorry, sounds like you have it worse than me! You really should go to healthcare.gov, there's I PROMISE something for everyone there. It may take a bit to get approved since you have to show them income or tax statements. But I got it, and I'm the ultimate procrastinator. Stay strong!

Thank You for sharing.
We could definitely be twins, because everything you talked about, is my story too.
( Except the massages from the boyfriend). He sounds like a caring individual. Very rare. A keeper, for sure.
I know what you mean about massages being better than sex. That's how I feel about massages too.. It makes sense.
How can we enjoy ourselves​ if we are in pain, and not relaxed?
*For which I've invested in a massage chair, foot massager, portable neck massager, etc.
I'm sure the abuse that happened to us in childhood plays a big part. I've had all kinds of therapy to help deal with it. But, some scars are too deep on my psyche. I'm sure you know what I mean.
Thank You for the health insurance information.
The reason I don't have it, is because most doctors that I've seen in the past just wanted to do surgery, or prescribe medicine.
My parents, thank God, had the best insurance at the time that I was diagnosed. Because of the scoliosis, I spent WAY too much time at the doctor's office, and hospital. I had X-rays taken every few weeks for over 10 years straight! Jesus, if the radiation hasn't killed me, nothing will. Lol!
Doctors freak me out, and I avoid them like the plague.
I started researching holistic ways to heal myself about 25 years ago.
So far, it's been serving me well.
The bottom line, is that I've learned to know, and honor my limits.
With how much energy I put towards work, play, dealing with friends and their constant need for attention. Even something as simple as errands. I have to pace myself, and not take on too much at a time.
Dealing with chronic fatigue has been the biggest challenge, to be honest.
I never know if I'm doing too much, until it's too late.
Then, I crash and burn.
Camming is more stressful than I honestly thought it would be.
But, with all of my health issues, it's the lesser of two evils. Do you know what I mean?
At least with camming, I can be home, and stop to rest when I need to. No boss breathing down my neck. No insanely long hours to keep.

caramelcraze
07-28-2019, 08:23 AM
I'm battling some of the worst fatigue i've ever had. all I want to do is sleep.

Miss_ShaSha
07-28-2019, 10:22 AM
^^Times like that are so hard to cope with. I remember a week long battle I had like that when I was teaching Spin full-time; I was incredibly exhausted day after day. It was the most upsetting & confusing time for me because I was eating healthy plus hydrating.

I'm sorry to hear. Sending you good vibes.

Sweet_Sadie
08-03-2019, 10:25 AM
Fibro/Chronic Fatigue girls: Do you ever wake up kinda feeling...a level of fatigue where all you want to do is eat a good breakfast, then go back to sleep, and maybe watch streaming videos or TV shows all day, but then you realize you REALLY need to work?

I really had to pull up my big girl pants today because the everything is so prime for me to take a personal day. The climate is just right inside my shitty insulated apartment - not too humid, not too dry. Not too hot, not too cold. You know how climate and temperature can affect your body's ability to function, right?

My inner child was like, "But I DON'T WANNA work!" Then the grown up was like, "That's okay that you don't want to work. Now put on your lipstick, set up your camera, and sit your ass down in front of the camera!"

But seriously, there's times when I have to listen to my body and I just can't, but there are times in my getting my shit together journey when I have to acknowledge that I don't wanna, but I do it anyway. Still, I have to check in with myself that I'm not pushing/punishing myself. I am a slave to my body, you know!

izshadow
08-03-2019, 08:05 PM
Fibro/Chronic Fatigue girls: Do you ever wake up kinda feeling...a level of fatigue where all you want to do is eat a good breakfast, then go back to sleep, and maybe watch streaming videos or TV shows all day, but then you realize you REALLY need to work?

I really had to pull up my big girl pants today because the everything is so prime for me to take a personal day. The climate is just right inside my shitty insulated apartment - not too humid, not too dry. Not too hot, not too cold. You know how climate and temperature can affect your body's ability to function, right?

My inner child was like, "But I DON'T WANNA work!" Then the grown up was like, "That's okay that you don't want to work. Now put on your lipstick, set up your camera, and sit your ass down in front of the camera!"

But seriously, there's times when I have to listen to my body and I just can't, but there are times in my getting my shit together journey when I have to acknowledge that I don't wanna, but I do it anyway. Still, I have to check in with myself that I'm not pushing/punishing myself. I am a slave to my body, you know!

Its a daily struggle. The only reason I get up is the dogs have to go out and pets have to be fed. Otherwise, I'd give up in general and just be done with life. I can not self care at all due to needing to work practically around the clock to pay my bills, literally 25 hours a week at the farm on top of camming/phones (not paid out at the farm, they are my own animals I have to care for) and do all this alone. If given the chance, I could honestly sleep for 20 hours a day, everyday. I dont have friends. I dont go out. No one calls me, texts me or invites me anywhere. Why though? I cant. I'm either busting my ass to make money or I'm passed out. I dont date since my ex left 2 years ago. I did have an interest a few months back but I pushed him away cause I'm a mess. I regret it now but oh well, story of my life. I hate that my mind wants to live but my body has given up.

nattyfetish
08-04-2019, 09:26 AM
I skipped one set of my blood tests (for thyroid and hypocalcemia) and also started again to "forget" to take some of my calcium. It's like I am asking for trouble. I am in a bad place mentally, I look for every little thing I can find that went bad and I catastrophize it. It's like I am tryin to harm myself by purpose. Why can't I see the bright side of things instead *hitting head against wall* . I need to redo my blood tests asap (my mood could be because them beeing off) and also come back into my routine and self care (working out, reading, sleeping enoguh, listening to motivatiional stuff). Also, another thing, I need to stop thinking about the future and live the moment. I catastrophize it also, evan if it did not happen yet. YUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.

All this shit affects my work like fuck also, I need to take control againnn.

Glamourmilf
08-05-2019, 08:07 AM
Fibro/Chronic Fatigue girls: Do you ever wake up kinda feeling...a level of fatigue where all you want to do is eat a good breakfast, then go back to sleep, and maybe watch streaming videos or TV shows all day, but then you realize you REALLY need to work?

I really had to pull up my big girl pants today because the everything is so prime for me to take a personal day. The climate is just right inside my shitty insulated apartment - not too humid, not too dry. Not too hot, not too cold. You know how climate and temperature can affect your body's ability to function, right?

My inner child was like, "But I DON'T WANNA work!" Then the grown up was like, "That's okay that you don't want to work. Now put on your lipstick, set up your camera, and sit your ass down in front of the camera!"

But seriously, there's times when I have to listen to my body and I just can't, but there are times in my getting my shit together journey when I have to acknowledge that I don't wanna, but I do it anyway. Still, I have to check in with myself that I'm not pushing/punishing myself. I am a slave to my body, you know!

Yes, everyday.
The worst part, is that I can't sleep during the day.
As tired as I am. If the sun is up, so am I.:'(
I have blackout curtains, and use an eye mask, but I still can't sleep.
I'm just now realizing that stopping work to just sit with my eyes closed for a while, makes a world of difference.
It's rejuvenating, even if the energy only lasts for an hour or more.

seicento
08-05-2019, 10:20 AM
I skipped one set of my blood tests (for thyroid and hypocalcemia) and also started again to "forget" to take some of my calcium. It's like I am asking for trouble. I am in a bad place mentally, I look for every little thing I can find that went bad and I catastrophize it. It's like I am tryin to harm myself by purpose. Why can't I see the bright side of things instead *hitting head against wall* . I need to redo my blood tests asap (my mood could be because them beeing off) and also come back into my routine and self care (working out, reading, sleeping enoguh, listening to motivatiional stuff). Also, another thing, I need to stop thinking about the future and live the moment. I catastrophize it also, evan if it did not happen yet. YUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.

All this shit affects my work like fuck also, I need to take control againnn.

Are you working nights? If you do, you should definitely make sure you are getting enough sleep/rest and work out but even then, it might not be enough to keep anxiety low. I noticed when I was working only nights, my anxiety was always present. For a few months now I've been working days and got very good night sleep. My anxiety was not there, even for a day. I lost a couple of nights of sleep and here I am, all anxious and panicking for no reason. I am now sure that night sleep plays a huge role in anxiety disorder.
It's annoying for me now, although I know how to control my anxiety, when I am tired, is like I have no power over it. I also plan to start exercising again, I exercise at home and hate it during summer so I didn't exercise since may but it might be about time to get back at it since it seems like I am slowly fucking my sleep schedule and so my anxiety will be all over the place again until I get my shit together.

magicgembliss
08-06-2019, 03:09 AM
Thank You for sharing.
We could definitely be twins, because everything you talked about, is my story too.
( Except the massages from the boyfriend). He sounds like a caring individual. Very rare. A keeper, for sure.
I know what you mean about massages being better than sex. That's how I feel about massages too.. It makes sense.
How can we enjoy ourselves​ if we are in pain, and not relaxed?
*For which I've invested in a massage chair, foot massager, portable neck massager, etc.
I'm sure the abuse that happened to us in childhood plays a big part. I've had all kinds of therapy to help deal with it. But, some scars are too deep on my psyche. I'm sure you know what I mean.
Thank You for the health insurance information.
The reason I don't have it, is because most doctors that I've seen in the past just wanted to do surgery, or prescribe medicine.
My parents, thank God, had the best insurance at the time that I was diagnosed. Because of the scoliosis, I spent WAY too much time at the doctor's office, and hospital. I had X-rays taken every few weeks for over 10 years straight! Jesus, if the radiation hasn't killed me, nothing will. Lol!
Doctors freak me out, and I avoid them like the plague.
I started researching holistic ways to heal myself about 25 years ago.
So far, it's been serving me well.
The bottom line, is that I've learned to know, and honor my limits.
With how much energy I put towards work, play, dealing with friends and their constant need for attention. Even something as simple as errands. I have to pace myself, and not take on too much at a time.
Dealing with chronic fatigue has been the biggest challenge, to be honest.
I never know if I'm doing too much, until it's too late.
Then, I crash and burn.
Camming is more stressful than I honestly thought it would be.
But, with all of my health issues, it's the lesser of two evils. Do you know what I mean?
At least with camming, I can be home, and stop to rest when I need to. No boss breathing down my neck. No insanely long hours to keep.


I definitely prefer camming to what I've done before for so many reasons. I often wonder how people used to cope with chronic illnesses before the internet where they can work from home..then I think romantically back to all the famous reclusive writers or artists who corresponded by writing alone. I think Julia Child cowrote her famous first book with a woman in France while she lived in the US. Anyway we have a wider variety of things and resources now available online though, so I'm super grateful to live in our times where we have more options. Could be worse for sure.

Sorry about your struggles, I wish I could magically take away all the pain and fatigue we suffer for no reason... but it sounds like you've got a handle on it. Better than me for sure! I'm off in my own world most of the time.... I love that you figured out better ways to treat yourself. So much of healing is your needs being listened to and unfortunately many doctors arent great at that.

By the way, do those back and neck massagers work? Never had one!

Glamourmilf
08-06-2019, 08:20 AM
I definitely prefer camming to what I've done before for so many reasons. I often wonder how people used to cope with chronic illnesses before the internet where they can work from home..then I think romantically back to all the famous reclusive writers or artists who corresponded by writing alone. I think Julia Child cowrote her famous first book with a woman in France while she lived in the US. Anyway we have a wider variety of things and resources now available online though, so I'm super grateful to live in our times where we have more options. Could be worse for sure.

Sorry about your struggles, I wish I could magically take away all the pain and fatigue we suffer for no reason... but it sounds like you've got a handle on it. Better than me for sure! I'm off in my own world most of the time.... I love that you figured out better ways to treat yourself. So much of healing is your needs being listened to and unfortunately many doctors arent great at that.

By the way, do those back and neck massagers work? Never had one!

Thank You for your kind words.
Everything you said about being able to work from home is so true.
Back in the day, I had to suck up the pain, and go outside of my home to work.
Stripping at the club, private party dancing, a corporate sales job.
I know that wearing high heels everyday and night did permanent damage on my neck and back. Thankfully my feet are fine.
Yes, the massagers work great.
These are the ones I have, along with a massage chair.
Oftentimes I'll have the foot massager and the back massager ( on my lower back), going while I'm camming. No one can tell. They have a heat option too.
They're not that expensive either.
Please let me know when you get one, and how much you love it. Because you definitely will.
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nattyfetish
08-06-2019, 08:23 AM
Are you working nights? If you do, you should definitely make sure you are getting enough sleep/rest and work out but even then, it might not be enough to keep anxiety low. I noticed when I was working only nights, my anxiety was always present. For a few months now I've been working days and got very good night sleep. My anxiety was not there, even for a day. I lost a couple of nights of sleep and here I am, all anxious and panicking for no reason. I am now sure that night sleep plays a huge role in anxiety disorder.
It's annoying for me now, although I know how to control my anxiety, when I am tired, is like I have no power over it. I also plan to start exercising again, I exercise at home and hate it during summer so I didn't exercise since may but it might be about time to get back at it since it seems like I am slowly fucking my sleep schedule and so my anxiety will be all over the place again until I get my shit together.

I am not working nights. But i have been in a roadtrip in vacation recently and my sleep schedule got screwed up (most of the nights i did not get proper sleep). That is why my self care routine got broken aswell. Now that I came back it seems that everyday i need todo something or something comes up and it cannot get enough hours of sleep either (for example todaymy electicity was off for 4-5 h because of a scheduled maintanance , and i woke up early so i can work just to find out i can't. Now i gotta work untill later hours and wake up early tomorrow aswell cause i gotta take my dog to the vet). And when i am tired i don't do well either. I belive it is my health problems that make my body not cope well with beeing tired. My anxiety goes torugh the roof when I am tired, I shut myself down and cannot stop negative toughts. So it does make sense what you are saying. Working out helps for sure. As an advice for girls with anxiety and panik attacks, working out is a blessing. One year ago I had a stupid combo of anxiety, panic attacks and insomnia (had all those because of another helth problem- not mental related) and the only moment when my body would stop shaking it was when I worked out or when I did breathing exercises (i belive it is some sort of meditation?). I think I have read that when you eat or work out your brain does not think it is in danger anymore (thinking in an animal type of way: if a deer is eating; it means she is not in danger- she considers the field to be safe of wolfs lol).
Now I just need to pull it back together and apply my own advices to myself HAHA ! Yesterday I did some garden work and it felt so good !

caramelcraze
08-06-2019, 02:49 PM
My most expensive medication just went generic (yay)
https://media2.giphy.com/media/Eg3TqBTfzOlzO/giphy.gif

that's over $700 per month i'm now able to put into savings :D

EvelynPink
08-07-2019, 01:33 AM
My most expensive medication just went generic (yay)
https://media2.giphy.com/media/Eg3TqBTfzOlzO/giphy.gif

that's over $700 per month i'm now able to put into savings :D

OMG that is such great news, I'm so happy for you!!! aaaah!!

Miss_ShaSha
08-15-2019, 11:37 AM
Having a really bad day. My anxiety is through the roof and I'm in a derealization episode. I'm trying hard to be positive, but my thoughts keep bringing me down. I'm catastrophizing in a major way. And since it's super slow, I just keep thinking I won't be able to pay my bills this way. I'm also thinking of the worst case scenarios: I'll end up homeless. Ugh, this is really fucking up my ability to make money.

Can someone offer some advice to help me calm down?

Panthera
08-15-2019, 11:44 AM
Having a really bad day. My anxiety is through the roof and I'm in a derealization episode. I'm trying hard to be positive, but my thoughts keep bringing me down. I'm catastrophizing in a major way. And since it's super slow, I just keep thinking I won't be able to pay my bills this way. I'm also thinking of the worst case scenarios: I'll end up homeless. Ugh, this is really fucking up my ability to make money.

Can someone offer some advice to help me calm down?


Girl, is because of the Full Moon! I felt the same yesterday and all morning today. It will pass, just stay in the present moment and try not to believe your thoughts. You are NOT your thoughts.

Watch cat videos. Eat something yummy, drink lots of water, do some yoga (especially an inversion or two). Watch a crazy funny movie. You know it's not helping to stay online when you are not in a good mood, to me that is the worst thing I can do to myself.

I promise you that tomorrow you will feel much better, and OF COURSE you will be able to pay your bills. You have a whole Universe behind you, that only awaits for you to feel better and tune back in to the frequency of abundance! But you deserve a bit of time off today!

Sending you a big hug and lots of good energy. Oh and if you have a selenite Crystal, or even better, an Onix one, keep it close. It will help!

Miss_ShaSha
08-15-2019, 11:52 AM
Girl, is because of the Full Moon! I felt the same yesterday and all morning today. It will pass, just stay in the present moment and try not to believe your thoughts. You are NOT your thoughts.

Watch cat videos. Eat something yummy, drink lots of water, do some yoga (especially an inversion or two). Watch a crazy funny movie. You know it's not helping to stay online when you are not in a good mood, to me that is the worst thing I can do to myself.

I promise you that tomorrow you will feel much better, and OF COURSE you will be able to pay your bills. You have a whole Universe behind you, that only awaits for you to feel better and tune back in to the frequency of abundance! But you deserve a bit of time off today!

Sending you a big hug and lots of good energy. Oh and if you have a selenite Crystal, or even better, an Onix one, keep it close. It will help!


Thank you so much. I think I'll take today off and watch a funny movie. I might even watch The Secret again. Sister, I appreciate you offering such good advice and the good vibes.

I'm going to eat healthy and do a couple yoga inversion poses too. I'm going to follow your advice.

I did read about the full moon. I didn't even think that might have something to do with how I feel. You're right...I'll feel better tomorrow.

Panthera
08-15-2019, 12:00 PM
Thank you so much. I think I'll take today off and watch a funny movie. I might even watch The Secret again. Sister, I appreciate you offering such good advice and the good vibes.

I'm going to eat healthy and do a couple yoga inversion poses too. I'm going to follow your advice.

I did read about the full moon. I didn't even think that might have something to do with how I feel. You're right...I'll feel better tomorrow.


The moon has the power to move the waters of the seas and oceans. The human body is 70something % water. So, of course the moon affects us too, and if you would see the astral chart of this particular Full Moon, you would understand why you feel like you do. Lots of fire, a few heavy planets, oppositions and all kinds of aspects that I don't even understand myself, in this chart. But they will move on soon.

On a good note, this configuration helps us with our goals. The idea for everyone is that if you have a goal set, or a plan, you should NOT give it up in the next few months, till the end of December, even if there will be challenges. If you stick to your plan, you will be rewarded after December, as your plans will come out better than you hoped for. That is what this planet configuration means now.

I am logging off now too.

Kisses, I am happy to be here for you whenever you need an advice, as long as I am able to help!

seicento
08-15-2019, 12:08 PM
Having a really bad day. My anxiety is through the roof and I'm in a derealization episode. I'm trying hard to be positive, but my thoughts keep bringing me down. I'm catastrophizing in a major way. And since it's super slow, I just keep thinking I won't be able to pay my bills this way. I'm also thinking of the worst case scenarios: I'll end up homeless. Ugh, this is really fucking up my ability to make money.

Can someone offer some advice to help me calm down?

Breathing exercises. Get some electrolites or at least a magnesium. And definitely try decatastrophizing whatever thoughts you might have, even if you don't believe in the afirmations you'll make during the decatastrophization, just do it. It's just a bad day, you know you'll be fine, hang in there. :-*

NitaBaby
08-15-2019, 12:14 PM
Having a really bad day. My anxiety is through the roof and I'm in a derealization episode. I'm trying hard to be positive, but my thoughts keep bringing me down. I'm catastrophizing in a major way. And since it's super slow, I just keep thinking I won't be able to pay my bills this way. I'm also thinking of the worst case scenarios: I'll end up homeless. Ugh, this is really fucking up my ability to make money.

Can someone offer some advice to help me calm down?


"People look at their current state of affairs and say, "This is who I am." That's not who you are. That's who you were. If you look at your current state of affairs, let's say you don't have a lot of money in your bank account. That's not who you are. It's the residual outcome of your past thoughts and actions. So we're constantly living in this residual of the thoughts and actions we've taken in the past. When you look at your current state of affairs and define yourself by that, then you doom yourself to have nothing more than the same in the future. " -James Arthur Ray, 'The Secret'


Remember your plan, Sha. Positive energy and watching The Secret every night sounds like a damn good one. Keep note than any negative energy from this hard ass month may have manifested itself today - and that's okay. But if you stay in that negative head space then you'll just put the same bad vibes out there AGAIN to be manifested later on. Keep your head up and know that you're on the right track. You don't have to smile in spite of today but do it in expectation of the rewards tomorrow.

Miss_ShaSha
08-15-2019, 12:21 PM
The moon has the power to move the waters of the seas and oceans. The human body is 70something % water. So, of course the moon affects us too, and if you would see the astral chart of this particular Full Moon, you would understand why you feel like you do. Lots of fire, a few heavy planets, oppositions and all kinds of aspects that I don't even understand myself, in this chart. But they will move on soon.

On a good note, this configuration helps us with our goals. The idea for everyone is that if you have a goal set, or a plan, you should NOT give it up in the next few months, till the end of December, even if there will be challenges. If you stick to your plan, you will be rewarded after December, as your plans will come out better than you hoped for. That is what this planet configuration means now.

I am logging off now too.

Kisses, I am happy to be here for you whenever you need an advice, as long as I am able to help!

I appreciate you explaining. I'll stay positive & focus on my goals. I really appreciate your support!


Breathing exercises. Get some electrolites or at least a magnesium. And definitely try decatastrophizing whatever thoughts you might have, even if you don't believe in the afirmations you'll make during the decatastrophization, just do it. It's just a bad day, you know you'll be fine, hang in there. :-*

I'll do that. I'll keep repeating positive affirmations. I will also eat & take my vitamins. I don't have magnesium, but it'd be a good idea to take my vitamins. Thank you for the advice. I'll be good to myself today.

Miss_ShaSha
08-15-2019, 12:28 PM
"People look at their current state of affairs and say, "This is who I am." That's not who you are. That's who you were. If you look at your current state of affairs, let's say you don't have a lot of money in your bank account. That's not who you are. It's the residual outcome of your past thoughts and actions. So we're constantly living in this residual of the thoughts and actions we've taken in the past. When you look at your current state of affairs and define yourself by that, then you doom yourself to have nothing more than the same in the future. " -James Arthur Ray, 'The Secret'


Remember your plan, Sha. Positive energy and watching The Secret every night sounds like a damn good one. Keep note than any negative energy from this hard ass month may have manifested itself today - and that's okay. But if you stay in that negative head space then you'll just put the same bad vibes out there AGAIN to be manifested later on. Keep your head up and know that you're on the right track. You don't have to smile in spite of today but do it in expectation of the rewards tomorrow.

Girl, that's so helpful. I'll keep thinking positively so I can get through this. You're right...I've got to remember the energy & feelings I have been experiencing & turn them around otherwise I'll manifest the opposite of my intentions.

Thank you <3

Miss_ShaSha
08-15-2019, 02:04 PM
Ladies, I can't thank you enough for the support. After I responded I took your advice: ate healthy (vegetable spaghetti with power greens), drank 40 oz water, took my vitamins, did some inverted yoga poses, then engaged in an hour long guided self hypnosis to cleanse my Chakras.

I'm ok! I feel like myself again & all of the catastrophic thinking is gone.

Thank you all for caring enough to share advice on how to cope. I feel incredibly better.



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nattyfetish
08-16-2019, 02:41 AM
Having a really bad day. My anxiety is through the roof and I'm in a derealization episode. I'm trying hard to be positive, but my thoughts keep bringing me down. I'm catastrophizing in a major way. And since it's super slow, I just keep thinking I won't be able to pay my bills this way. I'm also thinking of the worst case scenarios: I'll end up homeless. Ugh, this is really fucking up my ability to make money.

Can someone offer some advice to help me calm down?

I love you girls ! It feels so good to have each other ! I have a tendency to catastrophise. But tht is because of anxiety. I relly on the secret aswell, tough i forget about it too many times. I had a dark period too. I try to rewire my brain to think positive: what is the point? What is the point to make ourselfs suffer, when we can be happy and embrace ourselfs with positive toughts. If something is meant to happen, what is the point to suffer twice ? When you can suffer just once (when it actually does happen?). That is it evan happens at all. All our worst case scenarios? There have been studies made that say it is a 99% chance they won't happen. It is just our minds playin tricks on us.
We are so busy suffering, thinking about what COLD happen , worst case scenarios; that we miss on the beautiful parts of life. At one point we might regret that.
It is hard, I struggle myself, that is why i write this. I am aware. I try to change.
It is funny cause now I do so well on cam but i still think I could end up homeless LOL. That fucking annoying: animal instincts and brain together; ARE haha !
Breathe in , breathe out, everything will be fine.

Glamourmilf
08-16-2019, 07:17 AM
I was so desperate to stop my pain. I've been dealing with neck, lower back, and knee pain. Arthritis.
I bought a medicated rub on with capsaicin ( chili peppers) as the main ingredient.
I must've touched my knee while camming, then rubbed my vagina.
Because the next thing I knew, my vagina was burning like crazy! It felt like it was on fire!
OMG! :yikes:
Naturally, I was in the middle of a long show, which focused on my vagina.
I logged off and googled how to stop this intense pain.
Coconut oil helped.
I read that olive oil would too.
*I found it interesting that some people even use capsaicin purposely in the bedroom. ( BDSM)
Yeah, not me honey.
I hate pain of any kind.

Miss_ShaSha
08-16-2019, 07:43 AM
I love you girls ! It feels so good to have each other ! I have a tendency to catastrophise. But tht is because of anxiety. I relly on the secret aswell, tough i forget about it too many times. I had a dark period too. I try to rewire my brain to think positive: what is the point? What is the point to make ourselfs suffer, when we can be happy and embrace ourselfs with positive toughts. If something is meant to happen, what is the point to suffer twice ? When you can suffer just once (when it actually does happen?). That is it evan happens at all. All our worst case scenarios? There have been studies made that say it is a 99% chance they won't happen. It is just our minds playin tricks on us.
We are so busy suffering, thinking about what COLD happen , worst case scenarios; that we miss on the beautiful parts of life. At one point we might regret that.
It is hard, I struggle myself, that is why i write this. I am aware. I try to change.
It is funny cause now I do so well on cam but i still think I could end up homeless LOL. That fucking annoying: animal instincts and brain together; ARE haha !
Breathe in , breathe out, everything will be fine.

Right! When my anxiety is so bad I have derealization my thoughts become dark. But when the anxiety is gone, I have positive and optimistic thoughts. And breathing did help. That hr long guided self hypnosis to cleanse my chakras involved lots of deep belly breathing, and legit...afterwards I was fine. Anxiety does trick the brain, and it is a shame that I wasted my time entertaining those horrible thoughts. It was a waste of time.

I agree that it's wonderful to have ladies that care. I was so scared, but the ladies helped me out and I got through it.

seicento
08-16-2019, 07:58 AM
I was so desperate to stop my pain. I've been dealing with neck, lower back, and knee pain. Arthritis.
I bought a medicated rub on with capsaicin ( chili peppers) as the main ingredient.
I must've touched my knee while camming, then rubbed my vagina.
Because the next thing I knew, my vagina was burning like crazy! It felt like it was on fire!
OMG! :yikes:
Naturally, I was in the middle of a long show, which focused on my vagina.
I logged off and googled how to stop this intense pain.
Coconut oil helped.
I read that olive oil would too.
*I found it interesting that some people even use capsaicin purposely in the bedroom. ( BDSM)
Yeah, not me honey.
I hate pain of any kind.

Auch! My mom has arthrosis, coxarthrosis, etc. Used capsaicin on her hip once and then somehow rubbed my eyes before washing my hands, it was burning! I imagine how it would feel on vag. Sorry you're going thru all those pains, since my mom has them, I know how much it sucks and how bad it's affecting the life quality when you're every day in pains. And worse thing...nothing seems to be helping, not even the meds doctors are prescribing.

seicento
08-16-2019, 07:59 AM
Hope you're feeling better today, Sha!

Miss_ShaSha
08-16-2019, 08:14 AM
Hope you're feeling better today, Sha!

Sis, it's like night and day. I slept 9 hrs well and I'm ok. I'm planning an 8 hr shift. I appreciate you checking up on me <3

Panthera
08-16-2019, 10:04 AM
Sis, it's like night and day. I slept 9 hrs well and I'm ok. I'm planning an 8 hr shift. I appreciate you checking up on me <3


I am so happy to hear that, hun! Big hug from me too! I wish you the best of luck today!

Oh, and I wanted to add, that I get derealization (which leads to anxiety) too when I get all up in my head from reading too much on the computer, being concentrated too much on my chat room (plus my other 11 tabs where I read all kinds of shit), writing, thinking and forgetting to stay grounded and to breathe properly. Grounding to me means to "stay in my body" not just in my head, to do some kind of mindful physical activity and to breathe right. Happens when I am tired, as well. I luckily learned how to fix it. Grounding techniques really do help! That's why I told you inversions would help, because a change of perspective moves you right out of the current train of thoughts ;-) Focusing on breathing does that too, but slower.

Miss_ShaSha
08-16-2019, 10:12 AM
^^Sister, I'm so glad I'm not alone. You're right, I was in my head too much & forgot mindfulness & awareness. You know, while I was inverted I was able to use positive affirmations which did calm me down plus deep breathing assisted. But what really brought me back was that hour of positive visualizations & Deep breathing.

You were right: today I'm much better. I said like night & day & it's true. Cleansing Chakras, watching The Secret, & resting completely transformed me.

(((hugs))) I appreciate you.

Sweet_Sadie
08-16-2019, 12:38 PM
On a good note, this configuration helps us with our goals. The idea for everyone is that if you have a goal set, or a plan, you should NOT give it up in the next few months, till the end of December, even if there will be challenges. If you stick to your plan, you will be rewarded after December, as your plans will come out better than you hoped for. That is what this planet configuration means now.

You know, I've had repeat dreams about elevators. I'm in them, and they're going up, way beyond where I'm trying to go. But they're always shaky and unstable. They rattle and once, it kinda turned on its side on the way up. One of the elevators flew out of the top of a roof, like a rocket!

It's funny that you mention this timeline, because my goal is to leave my present apartment and city. I need serious money to do it, and my current lease is up this coming February. Right now, I have too many obstacles to make it happen, but I'd still love to try. So I'm doing my best. I'm tracking my income sources, and of course, I'm on top of my spending habits. But mostly, I just need a lot more income. :-\

seicento
08-16-2019, 03:54 PM
Today is NOT my day. Started feeling lightheaded on cam and I had to throw up. Now I've got a headache. I hope it's an indigestion, although I had my last meal 8 hours ago, kinda late for an indigestion. But I really hope it's an indigestion and that I didn't intoxicated myself vaping. I don't think I vaped more than usual but... I freak out a bit now. Damn oral fixation, I should start sucking on lollipops or keep a dildo in my mouth during my whole shift coz sometimes I forget to stop vaping while I'm at my computer. If I'm in bed or do anything else I'll puff now and then, when at computer my oral fixation is activated. Ugh.

Miss_ShaSha
08-16-2019, 04:12 PM
^^I vape too and notice if I haven't eaten much I'll feel sick to my stomach. I try to drink water and relax. It could be indigestion too. I'm sorry. I hate when that happens. Sending you good vibes.

Glamourmilf
08-17-2019, 07:31 AM
Auch! My mom has arthrosis, coxarthrosis, etc. Used capsaicin on her hip once and then somehow rubbed my eyes before washing my hands, it was burning! I imagine how it would feel on vag. Sorry you're going thru all those pains, since my mom has them, I know how much it sucks and how bad it's affecting the life quality when you're every day in pains. And worse thing...nothing seems to be helping, not even the meds doctors are prescribing.

Thank You my darling. Your empathy means a lot.:-*
We all know that trying to act sexy for what seems like endless hours on cam, is no picnic.
Sorry to hear about your Mom.
I'm returning the capsaicin rub to the store today.
It's just too dangerous to use.

MissAdriana
08-17-2019, 10:53 AM
Just popping in to post this for anyone who doesn't know about it

acupressure points (https://www.smarterhealing.com/acupuncture-points/)

It helped me yesterday thought it might help somebody here

Panthera
08-17-2019, 11:35 AM
Today is NOT my day. Started feeling lightheaded on cam and I had to throw up. Now I've got a headache. I hope it's an indigestion, although I had my last meal 8 hours ago, kinda late for an indigestion. But I really hope it's an indigestion and that I didn't intoxicated myself vaping. I don't think I vaped more than usual but... I freak out a bit now. Damn oral fixation, I should start sucking on lollipops or keep a dildo in my mouth during my whole shift coz sometimes I forget to stop vaping while I'm at my computer. If I'm in bed or do anything else I'll puff now and then, when at computer my oral fixation is activated. Ugh.


I had to stop vaping altogether because I was getting sick like that. I could not stop doing it either when working, I kept vaping non stop when not in private and at times in private too. I think it was stress mixed with extreme boredom, in my case, cause I don't have an oral fixation..

seicento
08-17-2019, 01:25 PM
I had to stop vaping altogether because I was getting sick like that. I could not stop doing it either when working, I kept vaping non stop when not in private and at times in private too. I think it was stress mixed with extreme boredom, in my case, cause I don't have an oral fixation..

That sucks, I love vaping and I don't want to ever quit. What percent nicotine were you vaping? I vape 3% and while it's a low percent, it could have been vaping causing my sickness last night. With a hystory of anxiety and hypochondria and so many anti-vaping things I see on TV here, I freaked out for a bit although I vape for 3 years and never made me sick. I vaped way less today and as soon as I finish the 6 e-liquid bottles that I have now, I'll lower nic percent to 1.5%. I'm not even getting the whole 3% coz I vape MTL and not DL but just to not stress again, I will lower it. But I really tend to believe that it was the food I had early in the day coz something felt off today as well, I had no appetite.

Panthera
08-18-2019, 10:32 AM
That sucks, I love vaping and I don't want to ever quit. What percent nicotine were you vaping? I vape 3% and while it's a low percent, it could have been vaping causing my sickness last night. With a hystory of anxiety and hypochondria and so many anti-vaping things I see on TV here, I freaked out for a bit although I vape for 3 years and never made me sick. I vaped way less today and as soon as I finish the 6 e-liquid bottles that I have now, I'll lower nic percent to 1.5%. I'm not even getting the whole 3% coz I vape MTL and not DL but just to not stress again, I will lower it. But I really tend to believe that it was the food I had early in the day coz something felt off today as well, I had no appetite.


I did not use nicotine at all. I quit smoking while ago and I did not feel the need to use nicotine when vaping, luckily. But to me, vaping for a long time is definitely not good. Now I don't do it at all, maybe only when I am playing pool. I can't feel like a significant pool player if I'm not producing some kind of smoke LOL.

In your case, could have been the food, too, I have intolerance to hydrogenated oil, for example, so when I eat some of that shit I get drained of energy and nauseous and if it was a lot of oil i the food, I get a full blown migraine, for 2 days. But then again, I am weird. ;-)

seicento
08-18-2019, 01:21 PM
I did not use nicotine at all. I quit smoking while ago and I did not feel the need to use nicotine when vaping, luckily. But to me, vaping for a long time is definitely not good. Now I don't do it at all, maybe only when I am playing pool. I can't feel like a significant pool player if I'm not producing some kind of smoke LOL.

In your case, could have been the food, too, I have intolerance to hydrogenated oil, for example, so when I eat some of that shit I get drained of energy and nauseous and if it was a lot of oil i the food, I get a full blown migraine, for 2 days. But then again, I am weird. ;-)

From what I know is nicotine that can get us sick so yeah, that's weird. Here I am vaping only 4ml a day now lol. Maybe tomorrow I'll make an e-liquid with lower nic so I don't stress when I forget to stop vaping. Since it's a contest this week, I might be in free chat forever doing nothing but vape lol.

Sweet_Sadie
08-19-2019, 09:56 AM
Have you ever been afraid to eat, but you really need to? My insides decided to rebel on me last night. I have IBS anyway, but between anxiety, infrequent eating habits, a fried chicken lunch, lactose intolerance, and a little ice cream...well, ya know....

I'm doing BRAT diet all today. Blargh!!! And I missed my shift this morning because I needed to rest, and I needed to wait for my BRAT diet delivery to come to me from Amazon. I'll see how I feel in a few hours, and I'll try to do an early evening shift.

Panthera
08-19-2019, 10:02 AM
Have you ever been afraid to eat, but you really need to? My insides decided to rebel on my last night. I have IBS anyway, but between anxiety, infrequent eating habits, a fried chicken lunch, lactose intolerance, and a little ice cream...well, ya know....

I'm doing BRAT diet all today. Blargh!!! And I missed my shift this morning because I needed to rest, and I needed to wait for my BRAT diet delivery to come to me from Amazon. I'll see how I feel in a few hours, and I'll try to do an early evening shift.


I feel you. Been there for years, before knowing about my hydrogenated oil intolerance. Because that shit is in pretty much everything that you buy from the supermarket (except for fresh produce of course), I was getting sick every few days and would miss working at least 1-2 days a week and feel miserable and no one knew what the heck was wrong with me. I had lost so much weight too, I was not looking good on cam anymore either. So happy I finally figured it out (by myself, cause doctors were useless, of course).
Now I cannot eat 90% of the things I used to love but that's ok, I am 40 so... my metabolism is not as fast as when I was 20, when I could eat like a pig and not gain a kilo. So I am grateful for the forced diet. And I feel much better too, my mind is clearer and I have more energy.

Sweet_Sadie
08-19-2019, 02:13 PM
Now I cannot eat 90% of the things I used to love but that's ok, I am 40 so... my metabolism is not as fast as when I was 20, when I could eat like a pig and not gain a kilo.

Tell me about it! When I was first living on my own (late teens/early 20s), I could eat whatever, and when I wanted to drop a few pounds, then just skip a meal or two! Then into my 30s, eating what I wanted, but gaining weight, but no bodily problems.

Now I'm WELL into my 40s, and since last summer, I've had the feeling that certain foods are rebelling against my body! Or probably, my body is rebelling against them. I enjoyed my fried chicken lunch on Sunday, but I was also thinking, I really want to invest money into eating cleaner foods. Yeah, fast food is cheap, I get coupons galore, but...I guess my belly and my taste buds are finally growing up!

But I still need a good burger every week or so. And the odd cold beer. :P

ETA: I don't think I should do an evening shift. Part of this issue is anxiety related, so I think I'll take the day to calm my nerves down, and then the rumbling will stop with a good day and night of rest.