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Esixxx
11-04-2019, 12:50 PM
I just remembered this.

I learned about this in Kundalini Yoga classes I went to.

This breath work helps for sleep


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jb_iVAjE-No

Miss_ShaSha
11-04-2019, 12:52 PM
Do you have Epsom Salts? The super cheap unscented ones from the Dollar Store work well. Anyway pour a crapload (at least 3 cups ) into a hot bath,turn off any lights and either complete silence or some quiet meditation music. Epsom Salt is magnesium so it will physically help you relax and the peaceful environment of the tub will help mentally.

I just saw this. Yes, I have epsom salt & coconut oil bath. I'll run the water now. Thanks!

Miss_ShaSha
11-04-2019, 01:02 PM
I just remembered this.

I learned about this in Kundalini Yoga classes I went to.

This breath work helps for sleep


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jb_iVAjE-No

I did this for about 5 minutes. Doing it with my eyes closed is calming me down. I even feel like I can nap now. I'm going to try it again.

Miss_ShaSha
11-05-2019, 08:58 AM
Thanks ladies for all the help & suggestions. I applied them and slept from 6:30pm to midnight, ate, then back to sleep from 1am til 9am. Shit I feel better.

Taking today off.

Esixxx
11-05-2019, 09:15 AM
Thanks ladies for all the help & suggestions. I applied them and slept from 6:30pm to midnight, ate, then back to sleep from 1am til 9am. Shit I feel better.

Taking today off.

Glad it helped!

Wishing you a relaxing and rejuvenating day off!!!

andreaxchanel
11-05-2019, 09:33 AM
Is this a place for mental health disorders as well? I've never really posted here because I didn't know if it was for more physical ailments. However, my mind is completely out of whack. Has been for almost a week now. I can tell because instead of being productive (like I was), I've been stuck in this "work night shift or day shift" bullshit spiral. And it's annoying because I literally JUST told myself days are better. For some reason I can't shake my anxiety and.....now idk...I honestly don't feel like it's really "me" that has an anxiety of not banking during the day. It's clearly possible, hell I was doing it and I was happier in all honesty with days, but idk I've allowed my worry to overpower my will to even log online. I've missed days and still haven't cammed at night. I'm gonna take a nap and listen to some sleep meditation and then work on some scripting, prayer, and yoga...hopefully that gets me back on track. I honestly realllllllly want to make days work and I knowwwwww they can/will/are. It's like when I'm doing it, I know it's worth it...but having a panic disorder and bipolar disorder really warp reality sometimes.

So with that, I'm sorry for the posts that have brought y'all into my mental roller coaster ladies.

Miss_ShaSha
11-05-2019, 10:31 AM
^^You're in the right place. It's perfectly fine to post here. I do when my anxiety & dissociative episodes get bad.

I think you'll just have to see what happens with consistency. But in the mean time your self care plan sounds legit.

Holly_xoxo
11-05-2019, 10:49 AM
Is this a place for mental health disorders as well? I've never really posted here because I didn't know if it was for more physical ailments. However, my mind is completely out of whack. Has been for almost a week now. I can tell because instead of being productive (like I was), I've been stuck in this "work night shift or day shift" bullshit spiral. And it's annoying because I literally JUST told myself days are better. For some reason I can't shake my anxiety and.....now idk...I honestly don't feel like it's really "me" that has an anxiety of not banking during the day. It's clearly possible, hell I was doing it and I was happier in all honesty with days, but idk I've allowed my worry to overpower my will to even log online. I've missed days and still haven't cammed at night. I'm gonna take a nap and listen to some sleep meditation and then work on some scripting, prayer, and yoga...hopefully that gets me back on track. I honestly realllllllly want to make days work and I knowwwwww they can/will/are. It's like when I'm doing it, I know it's worth it...but having a panic disorder and bipolar disorder really warp reality sometimes.

So with that, I'm sorry for the posts that have brought y'all into my mental roller coaster ladies.

I completely relate to this. I'm not sure what happened a month or so ago but my mind has been stuck down the rabbit hole with the "when should I work" "how many hours" "what site" "maybe I should just stop camming altogether" "that's it! I'm quitting" "oh wait, maybe I haven't tried hard enough" Then the panic/anxiety and disassociation hit which makes it even worse.

The mind has ways of taking simple situations and making them catastrophic in our heads. I'll have a few moments of lucidity and can see things clearly and think "oh ok...this is a simple fix" then a half hour later all those questions I mentioned start whirling again.

My logical mind says to just do my 20 hours a week and treat it like I would have any other part time job. It's just a matter of getting my mind/body to calm down which can be tricky after weeks of chaos.

I have a history of panic disorder and depression so a job that is so unstable can trigger a lot of things.

Hopefully the self care you mentioned helps :)

caramelcraze
11-06-2019, 11:38 AM
Idk if i've asked this, but has anyone here tried ketamine treatments?
I'm on so many meds and i'm just sick of making my life revolve around taking pills constantly. It has great reviews for pain management, depression, anxiety, & OCD. It's pricey, so i'd love to hear some first hand experiences.

Erika_Xstacy
11-06-2019, 12:20 PM
Idk if i've asked this, but has anyone here tried ketamine treatments?
I'm on so many meds and i'm just sick of making my life revolve around taking pills constantly. It has great reviews for pain management, depression, anxiety, & OCD. It's pricey, so i'd love to hear some first hand experiences.

most ketamine patients do it in a Drs care
as you become use to it you will require high doses more frequent
its highly unlikely ketamine will solve anything -
most ppl i know that take special k dont need it and abuse it but none of them asked their dr about it
hallucinations are real.
Ive picked up one girl twice from the hospital- both ketamine so her new name "ketamine Kara" =
I was given special k as a date rape drug. it will paralyze you



i use cbd

caramelcraze
11-06-2019, 12:33 PM
most ketamine patients do it in a Drs care
as you become use to it you will require high doses more frequent
its highly unlikely ketamine will solve anything -
most ppl i know that take special k dont need it and abuse it but none of them asked their dr about it
hallucinations are real.
Ive picked up one girl twice from the hospital- both ketamine so her new name "ketamine Kara" =
I was given special k as a date rape drug. it will paralyze you



i use cbd

I was talking about having it done under a doctors care! I would never try it on my own!!!
cbd definitely helps, but my pain is starting to spike again (I have fibromyalgia) and I really don't want to up my medications more. My dr won't give me anything for the pain spikes and it's getting harder and harder to deal with on a day to day basis.

~Carmen~
11-06-2019, 02:59 PM
Idk if i've asked this, but has anyone here tried ketamine treatments?
I'm on so many meds and i'm just sick of making my life revolve around taking pills constantly. It has great reviews for pain management, depression, anxiety, & OCD. It's pricey, so i'd love to hear some first hand experiences.

Ketamine was recently added to my pain pump in small increments and it is working wonders, not only for my pain but also my anxiety. They started with a minuscule dose to see how I tolerated it and bumped it up every month. I'm pretty happy with where it's at now but they will bump it again if I need it.

I think it's definitely worth a try for your fibromyalgia pain.

izshadow
11-07-2019, 12:34 PM
I wish I could figure out where I'd be the most comfortable camming. I hate having such anxiety with it. The bed gives me more room and freedom but the couch gives me less pain. I also am already getting anxiety over the coming months of cooler weather, even in Florida I turn the central heat on and the living room will be the warmest when I do that. For some reason the back bedrooms never warm up. I usually put an electric blanket under the comforter on the side I sleep on. I wish I didnt make things so much more difficult then they need to be.

caramelcraze
11-07-2019, 07:06 PM
I wish I could figure out where I'd be the most comfortable camming. I hate having such anxiety with it. The bed gives me more room and freedom but the couch gives me less pain. I also am already getting anxiety over the coming months of cooler weather, even in Florida I turn the central heat on and the living room will be the warmest when I do that. For some reason the back bedrooms never warm up. I usually put an electric blanket under the comforter on the side I sleep on. I wish I didnt make things so much more difficult then they need to be.

I'm personally a couch cammer. yes there's less room but man of man does my back thank me for the support.

i second the electric blanket. love using mine in the cold winter months. they have heated mattress pads as well!!

izshadow
11-07-2019, 07:55 PM
I'm personally a couch cammer. yes there's less room but man of man does my back thank me for the support.

i second the electric blanket. love using mine in the cold winter months. they have heated mattress pads as well!!

Nice to meet a fellow couch cammer! I had no idea they made heated mattress pads. I'm freaking looking this up right now! I want one!

caramelcraze
11-19-2019, 02:54 AM
Has anyone with light sensitivity tried acuvue oasis transitional contact lenses? I'm thinking about trying them out

janeuk
11-19-2019, 06:44 AM
Big shout out to all the 'sick girls', this thread helps me a lot even the simple solidarity of knowing there are others who are doing camming work and balancing that with health issues. I was supposed to hit and early afternoon shift but having done chores in the morning I am exhausted. gonna take a nap and try for an early evening shift instead.

Miss_ShaSha
11-19-2019, 07:26 AM
^^Solidarity sister <3. Sounds like a good plan. Sending calm energy.

nattyfetish
01-21-2020, 06:23 AM
Did any of you had arm pain ? And how did you fix it? I think from using the mouse in a wrong position, sitting on my arm, now it hurts. It is my right arm. At first my elbow hurt when i extended it to max. After using some cream my elbow does not hurt anymore but it is more like a nagging pain that i know is there. Any tips on this ? I will go see a cariologist tomorrow to rule out any heart issues but i am kind of 90% sure it is because of my camming bad position i tried lately (resting on my right arm my body weight). I used to have wrist pains before because of the mouse but they would pass eventually, this pain is nagging and won't go away !
Any tips regarding poses on cam or any solutions are apreciated.
I am getting old, FUCK (i am in my laate 20's haha).

Miss_ShaSha
01-21-2020, 07:05 PM
^^I woke up Sunday morning & almost cried. The pain in my knee, from sleeping in the position too long, hurt so bad I could barely move it. I had to go to the bathroom but couldn't move my knee it was in so much pain. I laid there for a couple moments then as slow as a praying mantis moved my right leg off the bed. It was excruciating!

Managed to make it to the restroom just 5 steps away, but sitting was another huge hurdle. Finished, baby stepped to my bed, & laid there for an hr sipping water & listening to 432hz healing tones.

It finally cleared up. Rest your arm, drink water, & it'll be ok.

Sending healing vibes.

Stephanie1000
01-23-2020, 09:54 PM
anxiety, staying awake and depression! i am being treated for narcolepsy and was given adderall XR by my doctor, it makes it a bit better but its hard trying to keep my happiness.

caramelcraze
01-23-2020, 10:38 PM
anxiety, staying awake and depression! i am being treated for narcolepsy and was given adderall XR by my doctor, it makes it a bit better but its hard trying to keep my happiness.

If the xr doesn’t work, I found that quick release adderall works well, as does Ritalin (though it made my anxiety worse). It’s hard being happy with severe fatigue rules your life... but I hope the meds help! Maybe try finding a new hobby of some sort as well. Recently took sewing back up and I’ve noticed a huge improvement in my mood.

izshadow
02-16-2020, 09:21 PM
Anyone else suffer from Piriformis syndrome? Goodness its worse then back pain. I wanted to cam tonight but just cant. I cant even sit on the toliet without crying out from the pain of my butt cheeks pushing down on to the hard toliet seat. On the couch, I've had my butt out to the side or I've just gone ahead and laid down on my side. Walking hurts my butt, bending hurts my butt, every moment my butt cheeks just yell out in pain. I overdid it yesterday. I know I did. I usually space out the dogs grooming routine over the course of a week and I went ahead and stuffed all of it in to a few hours. I have no choice but to cam tomorrow. I cant take anymore time off but I'm worthless tonight. I cant push through this pain.

Miss_ShaSha
02-17-2020, 12:03 PM
^^That sounds horrible. Sending healing vibes.

caramelcraze
02-17-2020, 08:51 PM
Anyone else suffer from Piriformis syndrome? Goodness its worse then back pain. I wanted to cam tonight but just cant. I cant even sit on the toliet without crying out from the pain of my butt cheeks pushing down on to the hard toliet seat. On the couch, I've had my butt out to the side or I've just gone ahead and laid down on my side. Walking hurts my butt, bending hurts my butt, every moment my butt cheeks just yell out in pain. I overdid it yesterday. I know I did. I usually space out the dogs grooming routine over the course of a week and I went ahead and stuffed all of it in to a few hours. I have no choice but to cam tomorrow. I cant take anymore time off but I'm worthless tonight. I cant push through this pain.

I had never hear of it before now! my gosh, that sounds awful... I hope you are feeling better today! idk if this helps, but my mother gets sciatica often and has found that the thc/cbd icy hot ointments work well to numb the pain a bit and muscle relaxers help if you can find a dr who will prescribe them (fair warning, they can make you sleepy).

izshadow
02-17-2020, 09:25 PM
Thanks guys. Hugs. Goodness I didnt even think of using something like an icy hot ointment but I sure will put some on tonight before I get back on cam! Its not as bad as last night but it still hurts. I'm glad my butt cheek flares are few and far between but yah, it sucks so bad. Somebody needs to invent a butt massager for at home use! I'm going to get in for a massage soon. I'm desperate for a butt and foot massage.

caramelcraze
02-17-2020, 10:12 PM
Thanks guys. Hugs. Goodness I didnt even think of using something like an icy hot ointment but I sure will put some on tonight before I get back on cam! Its not as bad as last night but it still hurts. I'm glad my butt cheek flares are few and far between but yah, it sucks so bad. Somebody needs to invent a butt massager for at home use! I'm going to get in for a massage soon. I'm desperate for a butt and foot massage.

I second the need for a medical massage. everyone was booked this week though because of vday and I was PISSED!

caramelcraze
02-18-2020, 04:51 AM
Got my nails done, worked for a little bit, and went on a 2 hour date for v-day... was basically stuck in bed for 2 days afterwards. I've been starting to experience back flare ups on and off. very scared to get another chronic flare up. the knees I can deal with after 3 years of unrelenting pain, but I can't even work with my back flares. Hell, breathing is hard! I'm thankful for texting sites and having content stocked up for clip sites and whatnot, but even phone sex is difficult to focus on when it hurts to inhale & all i can think is
https://thumbs.gfycat.com/LiquidVillainousFiddlercrab-size_restricted.gif

izshadow
02-18-2020, 09:33 AM
Got my nails done, worked for a little bit, and went on a 2 hour date for v-day... was basically stuck in bed for 2 days afterwards. I've been starting to experience back flare ups on and off. very scared to get another chronic flare up. the knees I can deal with after 3 years of unrelenting pain, but I can't even work with my back flares. Hell, breathing is hard! I'm thankful for texting sites and having content stocked up for clip sites and whatnot, but even phone sex is difficult to focus on when it hurts to inhale & all i can think is
https://thumbs.gfycat.com/LiquidVillainousFiddlercrab-size_restricted.gif

Ugh girl I feel you. Pain can be so overwhelming. I had to stop after 4.5 hours last night, even though I wanted to go all night because my head and back started to hurt. The pain we get, you just cant work through and if you keep trying, you just make it worse and then your bed ridden. Even though you had to endure the pain afterwards, its good to hear you did something for yourself. Just wish we didnt have to worry about what was to come based on our actions.

gorgeousbbw
03-04-2020, 01:22 PM
I am having the hardest time camming. Reason being a month and a half ago my left hand went completely numb/tingling and its constant. I have seen my pcp, and a chiropractor who was doing adjustments on my neck yet my numbness has gotten worse. Seeing a neurologist tomorrow hoping someone can help me. I tested negative for diabetes as I thought it was neuropathy but the diabetes test was negative so I have no idea. I thought it all started from sleeping on my left side so much maybe a compressed nerve but everything the chiro does makes it worse. I am at a loss and my pcp is clueless too. I am left handed so typing, dildo use, driving, writing, has all been super difficult. just wondering if anyone might have any ideas or similar issue happen? I have been sleeping on my opposite site to avoid more compression but its just getting worse every day and I am afraid it being something serious.

KatM
03-04-2020, 04:41 PM
^^^ I am sorry for ur health issue, to me it sounds like u had a minor brain stroke?
Maybe the visit to the neurologist and a MRI can tell more, wish u good luck and good health!

izshadow
03-08-2020, 10:17 AM
My anxiety has been so bad lately, my cheeks keep going numb/tingly. I guess I'm just not breathing correctly. I'm so tired to. I feel like its the chronic fatique that is ruining everything for me. I can push through the pain but you cant push through the fatique.

nattyfetish
03-09-2020, 06:31 AM
Anxiety makes calcium go low. Take some supliments :). The tingly/numb feeling can be from low calcium. In my case it's always that.

izshadow
03-09-2020, 11:02 AM
Anxiety makes calcium go low. Take some supliments :). The tingly/numb feeling can be from low calcium. In my case it's always that.

Oh wow, did not know that! Thank you! Will get some then and see if it helps.

nattyfetish
03-09-2020, 11:35 AM
Oh wow, did not know that! Thank you! Will get some then and see if it helps.

It has to do with cortisol going up which blocks the absorbtion in the intestine of the calcium. Cortisol is the stress hormone. I am not sure 100% it is that. But I have hypocalcemia due to other health problems. When i am anxious, super stressed or having a panick attack my calcium goes straight DOWN. I would have to take a fist full of calcium pills to manage the calcium drop without going into the ER (this is tough because i have this particular health problem, yours is most surely at a smaller scale). That is how i learnt that anxiety/stress causes that. On my own skin.

"Symptoms of hypocalcemia are those of overactive nerves and muscles and include tingling, numbness of body parts (especially around the mouth and I fingertips) as well as muscle twitching."

I hope it is just that and taking some calcium will help ! Kisses !

magicgembliss
04-03-2020, 09:59 AM
oh we're still chatting on this thread I see :D :D :D

KatM
05-18-2020, 04:41 PM
Do any of u ladies who take antidepressants happen to experience breathing issues?
Like for example i breathe normally then all of a sudden i have the need to take a very deep breath like i have no air anymore, it's happening all the time and i am worried about it; i talked to my doctor today and she said is anxiety related but i dont think it's that, i think it's the medication doing it to me.

Did not happen before but in the last 1.5 - 2 months and i am taking medication for a little over a year now. She reduced my doses a little so shall see, just wanted to check out with u guys if u have the same side effects when under medication. ty xx

izshadow
05-19-2020, 10:40 AM
Do any of u ladies who take antidepressants happen to experience breathing issues?
Like for example i breathe normally then all of a sudden i have the need to take a very deep breath like i have no air anymore, it's happening all the time and i am worried about it; i talked to my doctor today and she said is anxiety related but i dont think it's that, i think it's the medication doing it to me.

Did not happen before but in the last 1.5 - 2 months and i am taking medication for a little over a year now. She reduced my doses a little so shall see, just wanted to check out with u guys if u have the same side effects when under medication. ty xx

I do this and I'm not on any medication. I have very very very very high anxiety to the point I notice my cheeks go numb from not breathing properly. If its recent like you said, its 100% anxiety over the pandemic and being stuck at home, etc. I'm now experiencing suffocation at times where my anxiety rises so high, my throat muscles start to tense to the point I swell my throat almost shut. Its crazy but I'm more aware of it now and focus on my breathing when that happens.

KatM
05-19-2020, 02:38 PM
Thank you!! Then the doctor is right and this can be anxiety related, is the first time happening to me so i thought it may be medication related.
If i think better it started with the pandemic, watching all that news took the toll on me as i am a very sensitive person. Good health to you xx

AuroraJade
05-20-2020, 01:32 AM
Yes, dont worry. That is textbook anxiety/hyper ventilation. When starting an antidepressant your symptoms can worsen. Since antidepressants can work as a stimulant, some kinds of antidepressant are not the best choice for anxiety. Or your dose is too high.

Be mindful of your breathing patterns and maybe try some meditation. That can help you to get more aware of the way you breathe, and you can learn to stop yourself from hyperventilating. The feeling of needing to take a deep breath comes from mild hyperventilation. I have been having this for years now. Try to resist the feeling and keep breathing normally :)

Good luck!

KatM
05-20-2020, 07:22 AM
^^^ Thank you!! xx

caramelcraze
05-21-2020, 07:44 AM
Do any of u ladies who take antidepressants happen to experience breathing issues?
Like for example i breathe normally then all of a sudden i have the need to take a very deep breath like i have no air anymore, it's happening all the time and i am worried about it; i talked to my doctor today and she said is anxiety related but i dont think it's that, i think it's the medication doing it to me.

Did not happen before but in the last 1.5 - 2 months and i am taking medication for a little over a year now. She reduced my doses a little so shall see, just wanted to check out with u guys if u have the same side effects when under medication. ty xx

*raises hand* My anxiety/panic manifests this way all the time. If i'm not on anti-anxiety meds, I feel like there's a belt wrapped around my chest or an elephant sitting on it. was checked for heart problems and nada... Was originally diagnosed with general anxiety due to OCD. Went on a med used off label for OCD in hopes that it would alleviate some of my anxiety as well. Completely did a 180 on my OCD symptoms, but I was still panicking (at least 4 attacks ranging from mild (heart racing and the tightening of the belt) to "OMG the world is going to end" melt downs per week), felt like i constantly could not take a deep breath, and had other moderate to severe anxiety symptoms 100% of the time. May be worth discussing panic disorder as a diagnosis with your dr, especially if you've ever had a panic attack or panic attack like symptoms.
I didn't do well on antidepressants tbh. made me crazy apathetic, more lethargic, and also had worsening anxiety (it seriously felt like an elephant lived on my chest most of the time). Also could no longer feel an attack coming on and ramping up, which meant I'd go from fine to melt down in seconds, whereas without it or even on my current meds, I can feel it coming on and take steps to make it less bad. But back to the point, it turns out antidepressants don't work that well on panic disorder. Most dr's hate to prescribe them, but long acting benzo's gave me my life back. I may have 1-2 mild attacks per month and maybe 1 severe one quarterly. Before I couldn't leave the house alone, let alone drive anywhere without having a full blown snot and tears melt down. Completely got rid of the tightness i had in my chest except when I'm actively ramping up or having a panic attack.

KatM
05-21-2020, 02:56 PM
^^^ OMG u deal with a lot of health issues there, ty for taking the time to type all that, i highly appreciated.
I had a severe 'i am going to die' first panic attack combined with a mild psychotic episode last year and been hospitalized for it, i recovered pretty fast then i been put on treatment for panic combined with an antidepressant plus gabapentine, they say it helps with anxiety/panic attacks.
In between i had few mild panic attacks but none severe like the 1st one last year.
So now since maybe 1.5-2 months i am taking very deep breaths automatically, i cant control it, it happens instantly, dont know why it happens really.
I shall see how things continue, as my doc mentioned, it's anxiety related.
The meds i take make me a little sleepy and i feel like napping all the time but can manage myself well especially cause she reduced me the dose this week.
I go for a new check up in 2 months time and will see how i'll feel til then also what she decides about my treatment as i will come off these meds gradually but will probably need something as 'maintenance treatment', she said she wont leave me with nothing as i really feel not totally well on my own, i feel depressed and anxious w.o meds, i feel more in balance now.
Good health to you xx!

caramelcraze
05-28-2020, 04:31 AM
^^^ OMG u deal with a lot of health issues there, ty for taking the time to type all that, i highly appreciated.
I had a severe 'i am going to die' first panic attack combined with a mild psychotic episode last year and been hospitalized for it, i recovered pretty fast then i been put on treatment for panic combined with an antidepressant plus gabapentine, they say it helps with anxiety/panic attacks.
In between i had few mild panic attacks but none severe like the 1st one last year.
So now since maybe 1.5-2 months i am taking very deep breaths automatically, i cant control it, it happens instantly, dont know why it happens really.
I shall see how things continue, as my doc mentioned, it's anxiety related.
The meds i take make me a little sleepy and i feel like napping all the time but can manage myself well especially cause she reduced me the dose this week.
I go for a new check up in 2 months time and will see how i'll feel til then also what she decides about my treatment as i will come off these meds gradually but will probably need something as 'maintenance treatment', she said she wont leave me with nothing as i really feel not totally well on my own, i feel depressed and anxious w.o meds, i feel more in balance now.
Good health to you xx!

NP!
Gabapentin is probably the cause of the drowsiness. I was on 900mg per day at one point (which is a lot for someone as small as me) for fibro and i was a zombie. slept like a rock 15hrs per day and when I was awake, I didn't feel like I was really awake. Just tired and unrested 24/7. It did put me in a mildly better mood, but it wasn't worth it due to the amount I was sleeping and the fact that it didn't help my fibro.

fawnresponse
05-28-2020, 11:28 PM
I'm sorry if this is answered elsewhere in the thread or on the site, but I couldn't find it. :/

Does anyone have any tips about regaining momentum when you've lost your new girl status but you can't pull 8 or 10 or 12 hour days multiple days a week to build a following? I'm chronically ill (one of the reasons I started camming instead of dancing) and am only recently not using mobility aids, actually. I can't manage more than a couple hours a night with a day or two inbetween and I feel like I'm never going to get anywhere or make any money, let alone the sort I used to make. It's really hard and I'm struggling. Any ideas to build that momentum back up?

KatM
05-29-2020, 03:34 PM
^^^ Sorry i cant help with advice as i struggle myself as well, i only cam 3-4 hrs shifts a day and i barely manage cause i have back pain, migraine and what not. Is hard to raise & shine when u chronically ill and cam a couple hrs a day when others live on cam basically especially during contests. Maybe try to accept the fact u different? I had to do it here as i cant do more simply.
Wish u good luck!

caramelcraze
06-02-2020, 09:51 AM
idk what's wrong (fibro flare or something else), but I can't lift my right arm more that 45 degrees any way or leave it at my side without intense shooting pain in my shoulder (can't lay on it period). Picking up anything over a couple pounds is out. it's worse in the morning than at night. Haven't injured it, so i'm a bit stumped. it doesn't feel like any fibro flare up i've ever had. Anyone had shoulder injuries or shoulder fibro flares and can shed a bit of a light on what it was like? debating if i should go into the drs because it's causing nausea due to pain and making my life miserable (can't work comfortably and a decent sleep is out of the question as i've been waking up crying out in pain multiple times per night), but would rather not given the current pandemic and the fact that if it's a fibro flare up I could have just flushed money down the toilet, because they won't do shit for it. It's kind of looking like Bursitis of the shoulder but i haven't done anything to warrant getting that... ugh!

izshadow
06-16-2020, 11:57 AM
I'm sorry if this is answered elsewhere in the thread or on the site, but I couldn't find it. :/

Does anyone have any tips about regaining momentum when you've lost your new girl status but you can't pull 8 or 10 or 12 hour days multiple days a week to build a following? I'm chronically ill (one of the reasons I started camming instead of dancing) and am only recently not using mobility aids, actually. I can't manage more than a couple hours a night with a day or two inbetween and I feel like I'm never going to get anywhere or make any money, let alone the sort I used to make. It's really hard and I'm struggling. Any ideas to build that momentum back up?

Start doing phone sex work to. The days you cant even move but can at least pick up a phone are a lifesaver. Sometimes I can cam most everyday for a month and sometimes I wont cam for a few weeks cause I just physically cant. So the phone work helps take up that slack. I'm thinking of moving in to more photos/videos and just doing phone work and content but man I still hold on to hope I can sign on to cams one day and make a quick $50 bucks every time I do but sadly, I dont. And like KatM, I also cant do more then 2 to 3 hours at a time. My body can not physically do it and if I push it, I'll pay with a migraine for days.

KatM
06-16-2020, 04:51 PM
^^^ It's soo depressing to be chronically sick, i could do soo much more if my body would help me but i feel my body betrays me so to speak.
I have a list of health issues that all together makes my life hard, is difficult for a healthy person to understand what it means to be me and i am only 45 yo and people say "but u still young"....
Yeah right, these 45 feels like 90 or so if i barely am able to move and walk sometimes due to back pain, when i have stomach burn all the time, when migraine hits and so on and on.
It's soo frustrating being in this competitive cam industry where many models live on cam and bank while i barely can manage and every day i drag myself on cam hoping to make some money and sometimes i make very little or nothing cause what chances do i have to make decent money in 3-4 hrs max on cam when others cam for 8-10-12 hrs or even more?!
Just needed to vent, ty for reading xx

caramelcraze
06-16-2020, 08:05 PM
^^^ It's soo depressing to be chronically sick, i could do soo much more if my body would help me but i feel my body betrays me so to speak.
I have a list of health issues that all together makes my life hard, is difficult for a healthy person to understand what it means to be me and i am only 45 yo and people say "but u still young"....
Yeah right, these 45 feels like 90 or so if i barely am able to move and walk sometimes due to back pain, when i have stomach burn all the time, when migraine hits and so on and on.
It's soo frustrating being in this competitive cam industry where many models live on cam and bank while i barely can manage and every day i drag myself on cam hoping to make some money and sometimes i make very little or nothing cause what chances do i have to make decent money in 3-4 hrs max on cam when others cam for 8-10-12 hrs or even more?!
Just needed to vent, ty for reading xx

I'm going to apologize in advance for how long this post is...

KatM, you aren't alone in this struggle & I can relate in many senses. When people say "oh but you're so young"...
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i had to teach myself (and still have to remind myself occasionally) that other people's opinions mean very very little when they can't live in your human suit for a day. Invisible illnesses and chronic pain are hard enough to deal with on their own without the judgement of others and most of the time it's nievity and sheer thoughtlessness on their part, not so much malintent. they simply do not realize that their offhanded remark cuts so freaking deep when your body is betraying you. Oh and something I do if the person is actually being rude/trying to make you feel badly on purpose is either immediately walk away without another word or, if you're feeling up to it, make them extremely uncomfortable by simply telling them the truth. Usually they aren't expecting you to put on a big smile, make eye contact, and cheerfully say something like "Yeah I'm young, but 3 days last week i was bedridden and threw up multiple times because i was in so much pain! Doctors don't usually believe me or have no idea what's actually wrong with me so i'm consistently under medicated, retested for stuff i clearly don't have, and I have doors slammed in my face because of it. A few nights per week I even wake my partner and myself up at night because the pain is so excruciating that I start screaming in my sleep. being young is so much fun!" the look of horror, confusion, discomfort, and genuine speachlessness on their faces is a great convo ender and a perfect point to walk off. surprisingly I've found that if it's someone I have to talk to again (like a family member), without fail they either apologize or never bring it up again. People who are rude on purpose never expect the already hurting person that they've gone out of their way to kick while down to stand up for themself. Either way I figure they have done some reflection on the convo and will probably think twice before treating you or another chronically ill/hurt person the same way.

Sometimes camming is extremely depressing, especially if you're a competitive person on the inside. I like to tease that I'm a workaholic stuck in a chronically ill body... but it's the truth! I desperately wish I could have 20% more consistently good days so I could get done 100% more. for a long time it felt like I was stuck in a hole of despair that I didn't dig & had no way out of. It fucking sucks knowing that you're probably not going to get a contest bonus or an hours worked bonus because 20+ hours on cam in under a week feels like being asked to climb a mountain without enough gear. The hopelessness was all consuming at times. It takes a very strong person to be chronically ill and/or in pain. But the combo of being a competitive person and ill does make you extremely resilient!

I'll sound like a broken record, but diversifying is key. Relying on one or two sources of income when you regularly have days where you really can't work just isn't an option because realistically we can't work 10 hour days, 5-7 days per week. It's REALLY hard not to compare yourself to someone who can do those things and is a top model on your site and makes their living off one or two sites.

The first year I was really ill, I beat myself up constantly over this & ended up just making myself sicker & taking a huge financial hit because I was desperately trying to make it work that way. The next year I started diversifying like a mad woman because the bills were stacking up and I could not stay in the hole any longer. I signed up for like 3 texting sites, because if I couldn't get out of bed, at the very least I knew I could text and send sexy pics that i'd taken days or weeks ago when I did have energy. I signed up for a bunch of indie sites that I could use at the same time and got a tablet to run skype/discord on because on the days i had energy but couldn't comfortably sit/stand in one place for an extended period of time, I would then have the freedom to be anywhere in my house semi-comfortably until someone actually wanted a show & would then just have to be in my office until the show ends (then it's back to w/e the most comfortable spot in my house is lol). I started not posting a schedule because I knew deep down that there was no way i could actually commit to it and instead worked whenever I could... as a result, I build up at least a few regulars at different times throughout the day. I got on a load of clip/content sites and started making more fetish videos and photo sets of things I had to do anyways or were easier on my condition or simple to edit... because while naked dishwashing or vacuuming or putting on my makeup or dying my hair or drinking a soda or burping or trying on clothes or literally flipping off the camera and ignoring it for 10 minutes probably isn't going to pay all my bills on it's own, I know that even if each video sells a few times on this site and that I'm still making SOME money and potentially have the ability to make a few bucks even on days where i'm stuck in bed with the curtains closed not doing a damn thing except taking care of myself. On days that my legs hurt or can only commit to lower energy activities (like watching tv in bed) I get on a few phone sex sites, then edit & queue content between calls. I started pushing custom clips and gave myself a longer time frame to complete them. on live stream sites, I run multiple whenever I could. Hell, I even sold clean outfits from photo sets/clips and autographed pictures at a profit. Most importantly, when I had a really bad day or string of days where I could not work at all, I straight up didn't and focused on myself/feeling better. Is juggling so many things a pain in the ass? absolutely. Am I ever going to be top cam model on a single site? Probably not. Does it make taxes way more difficult? yep. Did I make money on every site I tried out? nope. But at the end of that year my earnings were substantially higher than any year i'd ever had sick or well and continue to only increase. I'm still learning, trying out new sites and am far from perfect... but now i have so many more avenues of revenue that I do not have to worry as much financially or drag myself on cam if i can't.

Idk if this has helped anyone & if it hasn't, I'm really sorry for the novel... but I want people to know that even if you have limitations due to your health, you can still be very successful in your own way.