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IvyRose
05-29-2014, 12:04 AM
My anxiety has gone up, and I dont know what to do about it, except fopr keep trying to go online and just sitting it out while I feel really uncomfortable and dont want to get close to that cam at all. I really think I do have Body Dysmorphic Disorder and combined with the social fear I have right now it is really hard to work. I feel so grossed out about myself, I dont know if I am even making sense right now. I just feel like laying in my bed covered up with my blankets. I dont even want to leave the house bec I dont want people to look at me, and I feel so stressed out about having to work right now. I just cant do it

IvyRose
05-29-2014, 02:11 AM
^doing better allready, had a breadlown and went to bed. Slept 1.5 houre and felling a bit calmed down. Was stressed out and beating myself up. I feel so tired now that I feel more at ease

AliceFun
05-29-2014, 02:43 AM
I am sorry u feel this way Ivy, u are gorgeous baby, what a hot woman, i wish i could look like you i tell you! All the best, take care!

justanothercamgirl
05-29-2014, 05:27 PM
I have a 30 fucking minute Skype show to do tomorrow.

I haven't done a private in months since they exhaust me to the point of tears. The last time I tried I hardly could make it through the 10 minute show.

I am sick & cranky & tired & fucking miserable & don't want to do the fucking show --- but I am behind on my taxes the government want their money ASAP.

I am so frustrated. No matter what I do I am damned if I do and fucking damned if I don't. I will like I am always running as fast as I can just to stay in the same place.

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Magical_Hoohah
05-29-2014, 05:37 PM
Why, WHY! is it that on the days when my mind is motivated and ready to totally kick ass, my body fucking betrays me, and I end up laying around in pain thinking about how much I want to work?

*Scream*

justanothercamgirl
05-30-2014, 04:35 AM
I have decided. I am throwing that show today. I just can't. I will just have to come up with a way to make money that takes less of my energy.
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sammii
05-30-2014, 05:08 AM
I'm anemic (iron deficiency) but I take my iron vitamins and I'm still tired ALL the time. I'm starting to think there's something else ... As a 23 year old - I should have a lot more energy. All I want to do is sleep :/ and eat ... my appetite is INSANE. I'm ALWAYS hungry and tired. I was checked for my thyroid awhile ago and it came back normal but maybe I should have it checked again. I've kinda always been this way. I know I have depression but the tiredness isn't related to depression. Sometimes I think I have chronic fatigue syndrome because no matter how much I sleep, I want to sleep more. Like physically, I just feel exhausted all the time ... If I could, I would sleep 15 hours per night which is what I used to do when I lived with my parents and was un-employed. I've been frustrated for years with this tiredness thing, and although I'm anemic, I've been taking my vitamins so it has to be something else :( :/ So frustrating ... My DR's just always say it's due to the depression and they won't consider anything else.

I was kidding myself with this 12 hour goal. I'm lucky if I get 4 hours online without passing out ... :( I'm still going to try for the 12 hours. My signature pretty much sums it up, lol.

reversecowgirl
05-30-2014, 09:04 AM
I worked my ass off yesterday. I did 19 pvts and a happy hour. Today I am laying on the couch like a hairball. That is all.

justanothercamgirl
05-30-2014, 01:03 PM
Sometimes I think I have chronic fatigue syndrome because no matter how much I sleep, I want to sleep more. Like physically, I just feel exhausted all the time ... If I could, I would sleep 15 hours per night....

I am so sorry you've been suffering Sammi. It breaks my heart to know that your health has been so frustrating lately. :(

I don't know if this will be helpful information to you but I did want to pass on that the majority of the people who have chronic fatigue syndrome actually have insomnia that stops them from sleeping. More often then not they are unable to sleep for long periods of time.

JaneBurgess
05-30-2014, 09:00 PM
I am so sorry to hear this. If you can, make an appointment with an endocrinologist and see if they can help diagnose your illness. Thyroid issues can be tricky to find unless you see a specialist. Don't be so hard on yourself. No one can help if they are sick and it isn't fair that doctors won't really help you. I swear they blame everything on depression.



I'm anemic (iron deficiency) but I take my iron vitamins and I'm still tired ALL the time. I'm starting to think there's something else ... As a 23 year old - I should have a lot more energy. All I want to do is sleep :/ and eat ... my appetite is INSANE. I'm ALWAYS hungry and tired. I was checked for my thyroid awhile ago and it came back normal but maybe I should have it checked again. I've kinda always been this way. I know I have depression (which is my biggest battle) but the tiredness isn't related to depression. Sometimes I think I have chronic fatigue syndrome because no matter how much I sleep, I want to sleep more. Like physically, I just feel exhausted all the time ... If I could, I would sleep 15 hours per night which is what I used to do when I lived with my parents and was un-employed. I've been frustrated for years with this tiredness thing, and although I'm anemic, I've been taking my vitamins so it has to be something else :( :/ So frustrating ... My DR's just always say it's due to the depression and they won't consider anything else.

I was kidding myself with this 12 hour goal. I'm lucky if I get 4 hours online without passing out ... :( I'm still going to try for the 12 hours. My signature pretty much sums it up, lol.

SweetJulia
05-31-2014, 01:25 AM
Samii-I'm sorry-I suffer from insomnia as well. I know what it's like to get no sleep followed by sleep full of nightmares. Are you on any meds that could be making things worse? Cuz I'm taking penicillin and it seems to make things worse. My mom swears by Valerian and it seems to work, but the smell's gonna take some getting used to.

justanothercamgirl
05-31-2014, 04:17 AM
I've totally suck at the clip thing but I seem to be getting a little more hang of it. I didn't realize how much the timing of uploads are important.

If I could just make a few hundred dollars a month off clips it would really take the pressure off of me money-wise. Cross your fingers for me. :)

BustyAmeera
05-31-2014, 04:26 AM
I didn't read this whole thread so I'm not sure if anyone mentioned this...But I have asthma. I rarely have any problems with it, but this morning I woke up at 4am not breathing very well. I couldn't lay back down and go back to sleep, because hard to breath when laying down. I took some medicine and drank coffee. Caffeine helps open lungs...3 hours later I am feeling better, but missed out on some shows. I was logged on skype for niteflirt hoping I would feel better sooner, because people started messaging me to do a show. Luckily I do not have to go to the hospital. I get really anxious, and irritated when I can't breath well, so of course a show would be out the question. Well, at least I painted my nails and did my makeup while not feeling well. So that is taken care of for the day! Anyone else have asthma?

SweetJulia
05-31-2014, 08:08 AM
So not camming today. Saturdays suck for me, every girl is on, the cheapskates are out. I'm proud to say I made $1,011 this week while having horrible cramps only people with endometriosis can understand and having a swollen, bruised cheek from having a tooth pulled. I'm proud of myself for powering through, but I promised myself and you guys to do 40 hours this week. I did a little over half of that. I'm sorry, I feel like a huge failure but the pain was too much. Plus, my sorta bf is back on drugs and I'm seriously debating calling it quits. Sigh. Some words of encouragement?

TattooedBBW
05-31-2014, 08:19 AM
I know that feeling, I'm constantly drained. I find it hard to sometimes even get the energy to shower and stuff.
I fight with myself everyday to do the smallest of tasks and I really need to push through this cuz I'm broke and have to move soon.

TattooedBBW
05-31-2014, 08:21 AM
So not camming today. Saturdays suck for me, every girl is on, the cheapskates are out. I'm proud to say I made $1,011 this week while having horrible cramps only people with endometriosis can understand and having a swollen, bruised cheek from having a tooth pulled. I'm proud of myself for powering through, but I promised myself and you guys to do 40 hours this week. I did a little over half of that. I'm sorry, I feel like a huge failure but the pain was too much. Plus, my sorta bf is back on drugs and I'm seriously debating calling it quits. Sigh. Some words of encouragement?

Julia you've done amazing this week. I've read your posts in the camming rocks thread and was super impressed, for what it's worth. What kind of drugs is ur bf on if u don't mind me asking? U can PM me it if u feel better about not discussing it on an open forum. I have some history and experience with what you're going through so maybe we can chat about it, if u feel comfortable of course. Just know I know what you're dealing with and how hard that can be *hug*

JaneBurgess
05-31-2014, 04:11 PM
Has he tried rehab? Drugs can have a powerful hold over god people. If you really want to break up with him, than do it. You need to come first always.



So not camming today. Saturdays suck for me, every girl is on, the cheapskates are out. I'm proud to say I made $1,011 this week while having horrible cramps only people with endometriosis can understand and having a swollen, bruised cheek from having a tooth pulled. I'm proud of myself for powering through, but I promised myself and you guys to do 40 hours this week. I did a little over half of that. I'm sorry, I feel like a huge failure but the pain was too much. Plus, my sorta bf is back on drugs and I'm seriously debating calling it quits. Sigh. Some words of encouragement?

SweetJulia
05-31-2014, 04:41 PM
Has he tried rehab? Drugs can have a powerful hold over god people. If you really want to break up with him, than do it. You need to come first always.

That's just it, he doesn't see it as a problem, he's happy basically taking everything but crack and mushrooms. He just sees life as one big party and doesn't realize the physical and psychological damage hard drugs do.

justanothercamgirl
05-31-2014, 05:33 PM
That's just it, he doesn't see it as a problem, he's happy basically taking everything but crack and mushrooms. He just sees life as one big party and doesn't realize the physical and psychological damage hard drugs do.

I was with an addict for 10 years. I stood by his side that entire time like 'a good wife should' trying to support him and waiting for him to get better.

In the end my reward was that he just progressively got worse and worse until I had to leave him. It was a long and slow journey to the final end game but eventually he would terrorized me by becoming physically abusive.

The reason things were able to progress to this level is because for 10 years I had protected him from the consequences of his addiction.

When I finally left him because I couldn't put up with his abusive and addicted ass anymore he still didn't suffer any consequences because it didn't take long for him to find another women to swoop in and 'play mommy' again. I am sure he gave her the same song and dance that I had fallen for originally.

In summary, I am out 10 years of my life and have nothing but nightmares and regret to show for allowing an addict into my life.

This is a personal anecdote from my own life. Do with the information as you will.

JaneBurgess
05-31-2014, 06:30 PM
I'm sorry, that has to be hard on you. If he doesn't see it as a problem, than I would leave too. We all have to grow up and leave the party lifestyle behind.



That's just it, he doesn't see it as a problem, he's happy basically taking everything but crack and mushrooms. He just sees life as one big party and doesn't realize the physical and psychological damage hard drugs do.

SweetJulia
05-31-2014, 07:04 PM
Thank you ladies :) It's nice to know people I've never "met" would take time out of their day to help me and make me feel better. I just always feel like shit when relationships get turbulent cuz in my mind it's the beginning of me being alone forever. But I'm told I'm hot and can hopefully find someone eventually.

sammii
05-31-2014, 10:39 PM
I am so sorry you've been suffering Sammi. It breaks my heart to know that your health has been so frustrating lately. :(

I don't know if this will be helpful information to you but I did want to pass on that the majority of the people who have chronic fatigue syndrome actually have insomnia that stops them from sleeping. More often then not they are unable to sleep for long periods of time.


I am so sorry to hear this. If you can, make an appointment with an endocrinologist and see if they can help diagnose your illness. Thyroid issues can be tricky to find unless you see a specialist. Don't be so hard on yourself. No one can help if they are sick and it isn't fair that doctors won't really help you. I swear they blame everything on depression.
Thank you so much to both of you! Yeah, I must not have chronic fatigue syndrome then because my problem is sleeping too much. I agree. My DR. blames everything on depression and ADHD. I've been researching endocrinologists and once I have the money I'm going to go to one. I really think I have hypothyroidism. When I read the symptoms I pretty much have all of them. The last time I was tested, I was on the border of hypothyroidism but my numbers weren't high enough to be given medication which was really frustrating. My numbers are high enough to have symptoms but not high enough for medication, ugh. But then again, I haven't gone to someone who specializes in it which is my next step once I have the money for it. TY again bbs. Your replies seriously made my day. I don't feel so alone in this anymore. Us bbs deserve health and happiness <3 I'm
Glad you posted this thread JAC.

temptingmodel
05-31-2014, 10:48 PM
I don't know if this will be helpful information to you but I did want to pass on that the majority of the people who have chronic fatigue syndrome actually have insomnia that stops them from sleeping. More often then not they are unable to sleep for long periods of time.

^^ This is the definition of my life.
I sleep 3 hours max
I sleep walk, not sleeping, I just get up, take a shower, fall back to sleep and re do
I am tired but can stay awake... when I am super ill on cam, I am running off maybe a few hours in a few days. I call it 8balling, it honestly feels like Im on auto pilot
im the insomniac that sleeping pills d no justice
everyone knows Im a pothead
my life is awake, it sucks.
Maybe once a week I will sleep

justanothercamgirl
06-01-2014, 05:35 AM
^^ This is the definition of my life.
I sleep 3 hours max
I sleep walk, not sleeping, I just get up, take a shower, fall back to sleep and re do
I am tired but can stay awake... when I am super ill on cam, I am running off maybe a few hours in a few days. I call it 8balling, it honestly feels like Im on auto pilot
im the insomniac that sleeping pills d no justice
everyone knows Im a pothead
my life is awake, it sucks.
Maybe once a week I will sleep

I have the same sort of problem. The doctors could never could get me to sleep properly. I used to get kicked out of the sleep lab because I'd never go to sleep long enough for them to get a good reading from to figure out what was going on.

Eventually I got so frustrated that I asked the doctors if they couldn't make me have restful sleep if they could instead please make the time I was stuck being awake more productive so I wasn't walking around in a 'fog' all the time and got them to prescribe me provigil.

Not sure if that is helpful information for you in your situation but figured I'd pass it on on the off chance it was.

SweetJulia
06-01-2014, 05:35 AM
My anxiety has gone up, and I dont know what to do about it, except fopr keep trying to go online and just sitting it out while I feel really uncomfortable and dont want to get close to that cam at all. I really think I do have Body Dysmorphic Disorder and combined with the social fear I have right now it is really hard to work. I feel so grossed out about myself, I dont know if I am even making sense right now. I just feel like laying in my bed covered up with my blankets. I dont even want to leave the house bec I dont want people to look at me, and I feel so stressed out about having to work right now. I just cant do it

You're gorgeous, I'm so sorry you're going through that. I'll admit I have the same issue and it's been really bad all weekend.

justanothercamgirl
06-02-2014, 07:20 AM
I have been thinking a lot about a kick-ass camgirl I know (which I will not name because I don't want to to give out too many of her personal details) that I talk to occasionally about her life's goals and how she is working to get out of the industry not because she dislikes camming but just because she is ready for a new challenge of owning an vanilla business.

She inspired me and pick up my copy of 'The Four Hour Work Week' by Tim Ferriss again and while reading though it I've had a realization. My health is unstable and as I get older it will only continue to get worse. I can not be 'the product' that I am selling forever so I will need to come up with a physical product to sell instead.

I have been a camgirl for 2 years, 7 months, 2 days so I figured it would be only fitting for me to use the same amount of time I have used to get where I am now to figure my way out.

sammii
06-02-2014, 07:28 AM
I have been thinking a lot about a kick-ass camgirl I know (which I will not name because I don't want to to give out too many of her personal details) that I talk to occasionally about her life's goals and how she is working to get out of the industry not because she dislikes camming but just because she is ready for a new challenge of owning an vanilla business.

She inspired me and pick up my copy of 'The Four Hour Work Week' by Tim Ferriss again and while reading though it I've had a realization. My health is unstable and as I get older it will only continue to get worse. I can not be 'the product' that I am selling forever so I will need to come up with a physical product to sell instead.

I have been a camgirl for 2 years, 7 months, 2 days so I figured it would be only fitting for me to use the same amount of time I have used to get where I am now to figure my way out.
I have a good camgirl friend that makes good money in a side business (she still works in the industry though). You can do it bb. Camming is more physical than people think and takes a lot out of you ... Good luck on your vanilla business endeavors!!

reversecowgirl
06-02-2014, 07:32 AM
I think that's a fabulous idea JAC, anything that makes you money but doesn't drain you mentally/physically/etc is awesome. I wish you nothing but great luck with whatever you choose to do. I love this supportive group of ladies, I think we are amazing creatures lol.

SweetJulia
06-03-2014, 03:38 PM
<<<< is posting from the hospital. I'm not sure how much detail I went into on here, but I found out I had an hiatal hernia in October that was causing my stomach acid to come up and ulcerate my esophagus, to the point that I was throwing up tons of blood and passing out. Earlier today, the same thing started, so they're going to do an endoscope tomorrow and cauterize the ulcer or ulcers. I cammed earlier and made a hundred. Clearly, I can't cam from here lol. So I plan on doing twelve hours Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, cuz I should be out by Thursday if all goes well. Hope all of you are making great money :) Ugh, I can't look at SM from here, they have it blocked, but thank God this site isn't.

TattooedBBW
06-03-2014, 03:41 PM
<<<< is posting from the hospital. I'm not sure how much detail I went into on here, but I found out I had an hiatal hernia in October that was causing my stomach acid to come up and ulcerate my esophagus, to the point that I was throwing up tons of blood and passing out. Earlier today, the same thing started, so they're going to do an endoscope tomorrow and cauterize the ulcer or ulcers. I cammed earlier and made a hundred. Clearly, I can't cam from here lol. So I plan on doing twelve hours Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, cuz I should be out by Thursday if all goes well. Hope all of you are making great money :) Ugh, I can't look at SM from here, they have it blocked, but thank God this site isn't.

Best wishes and lots of love hun I hope you have a speedy recovery

TattooedBBW
06-04-2014, 06:57 AM
Julia how are you feeling/doing? :)

IvyRose
06-04-2014, 09:53 AM
Aww Julia , damn and that after your visit to the dentist =(. I hope the doctors will help you quickly and relieve you from your pain.
Just try to get rest! You are not missing a thing, only wankers who are trying a new technique "the death stare"... I bet they think it will make us take our clothing of adventually and obey them, if they keep staring long enough. Maybe it is streamate itself glitching, I dont know.
Hugs!

anonymous camgirl
06-04-2014, 11:11 AM
Sorry to hear.. hoping you have a speedy recovery.


<<<< is posting from the hospital. I'm not sure how much detail I went into on here, but I found out I had an hiatal hernia in October that was causing my stomach acid to come up and ulcerate my esophagus, to the point that I was throwing up tons of blood and passing out. Earlier today, the same thing started, so they're going to do an endoscope tomorrow and cauterize the ulcer or ulcers. I cammed earlier and made a hundred. Clearly, I can't cam from here lol. So I plan on doing twelve hours Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, cuz I should be out by Thursday if all goes well. Hope all of you are making great money :) Ugh, I can't look at SM from here, they have it blocked, but thank God this site isn't.

sammii
06-04-2014, 11:20 AM
Julia, I hope you update soon. So sorry to hear you're in the hospital.

SweetJulia
06-04-2014, 10:54 PM
Awwww, thank you guys. All is well and I'm getting discharged tomorrow morning, after the therapy dog visit lol. On the bright side, I wasn't allowed to eat for two days, so I probably lost some weight.

SweetJulia
06-05-2014, 04:39 PM
Hey guys, thanks for all your support, I got out of the hospital this morning and cammed a bit. I didn't want to overdo it cuz I was under anesthesia for the procedure, I'm perfectly content with the money I made. As good as that is, my BDD is getting worse. I'm 5'4 120 and have big boobs, wide hips, and a huge ass. I'm obsessed with getting my waist and stomach smaller and smaller.

anonymous camgirl
06-06-2014, 07:30 AM
Still going through hell with this shoulder injury, Just finally started feeling like i don't have crippling arthritis in my hands , feet and wrist and everything aches like an 80 yr old woman.. now i feel about 60.. so there is an improvement.. now i wake up with moderate pain but manageable.. before it was EXCRUCIATING!.. OMG!.. how can a shoulder injury cause so much problems in every joint in the body.. uggh.. almost better.. still not quite.. been stretching it out .. helps alot!

SweetJulia
06-06-2014, 08:24 AM
Oh boy...I made 150 yesterday......stupidly tried to pick up a 52 inch tv-which weighs 125. More than me. Stupid, I know. My arms, legs, and back are killing me. On the bright side, my antidepressants all of a sudden started making me feel the best I've ever felt. I'm seeing past situations in hindsight that I've felt stupid or bad for and managed to pluck something positive or a lesson learned out of them. Tip for the day: don't lift things that weigh more than you.

anonymous camgirl
06-06-2014, 09:48 AM
Oh I haven't lifted anything heavy in 10 yrs!.. I ask my 2 sons or hire someone...LOL.....none of that for me.


Oh boy...I made 150 yesterday......stupidly tried to pick up a 52 inch tv-which weighs 125. More than me. Stupid, I know. My arms, legs, and back are killing me. On the bright side, my antidepressants all of a sudden started making me feel the best I've ever felt. I'm seeing past situations in hindsight that I've felt stupid or bad for and managed to pluck something positive or a lesson learned out of them. Tip for the day: don't lift things that weigh more than you.

SweetJulia
06-06-2014, 11:18 AM
It didn't look that heavy lol^^^.

SweetJulia
06-10-2014, 10:38 PM
So, Saturday I fell in my friends' hot tub, bruised myself up, and knocked myself out in the process. I'm ok, no neurological changes, just a few bumps on the head and a few big bruises. Pic of worst one attached. It's all good though, I made almost 800 on Sunday, so now I'm enjoying a few well deserved days off.

IvyRose
06-11-2014, 04:16 AM
Hope you are enjoying youre days off Julia! =)
Hope you will feel better soon and that bruise is healing! Damn that is a big one

I keep having backpains, and I am 99% convinced it is stressrelated. I just cannot let my perfectionist side go, when I am working I have the feeling I should do better all the time, or that I am not doing enough/giving enough. It drives me insane, bec at the same moment I have to hold back, bec else I would not take notice of my body and I would be broke after one private/excl bec my back would be totally messed up again.
I am trying to let go, and to "just have fun" when working which is what it should be, and what the guys would probably like the most to see, but it is so hard for me even after doing this work for 1,5 years. I guess I am a slow slow learner. I constantly check my own stream bec I am afraid something (I- my face or body) will look bad...I still have an negative selfimage which makes my worry about little stupid things that shoudnt even matter.
I am so worried and concerned and beating my performance and myself up that it makes me so frigging tired. If I would let myself be, I would sleep for days, it is a constant struggle to stay positive, awake and to deal with my pain (backpains and stomachpains- stress related)

I wish I could just let it all go, but it isnt that simple. I will go in therapy and am on a waitinglist, I hope it will help me overcome my fears

Bitch
06-11-2014, 04:54 AM
Julia - Wishing you a fast recovery (not too fast though, it's nice to be able to just rest and relax while you heal). Hope you've ruled out the possibility of concussion.

SimoneGray
06-11-2014, 05:39 AM
Julia, those bruises look insane...you are amazing for still getting back up and camming on...you inspire me :)

SweetJulia
06-11-2014, 09:13 AM
Awww, thanks guys :) Yeah, they've ruled out a concussion, no personality changes. Ivyrose, have you joined a psych forum? I'm kind of hesitant to go to therapy as well, cuz that's the field I'm in school for and this isn't how I want to meet my future coworkers lol. There's a few major ones where you can anonymously talk to a therapist for free through private message or message boards. I can't remember if there's a sex worker specific one, but I'd imagine there has to be this day and age.

JaneBurgess
06-11-2014, 01:00 PM
I found therapy to be a huge help. I have bad anxiety to the point I would have panic attacks. I hope when you start to go you enjoy it and it helps. Have you tried some natural remedies?




Hope you are enjoying youre days off Julia! =)
Hope you will feel better soon and that bruise is healing! Damn that is a big one

I keep having backpains, and I am 99% convinced it is stressrelated. I just cannot let my perfectionist side go, when I am working I have the feeling I should do better all the time, or that I am not doing enough/giving enough. It drives me insane, bec at the same moment I have to hold back, bec else I would not take notice of my body and I would be broke after one private/excl bec my back would be totally messed up again.
I am trying to let go, and to "just have fun" when working which is what it should be, and what the guys would probably like the most to see, but it is so hard for me even after doing this work for 1,5 years. I guess I am a slow slow learner. I constantly check my own stream bec I am afraid something (I- my face or body) will look bad...I still have an negative selfimage which makes my worry about little stupid things that shoudnt even matter.
I am so worried and concerned and beating my performance and myself up that it makes me so frigging tired. If I would let myself be, I would sleep for days, it is a constant struggle to stay positive, awake and to deal with my pain (backpains and stomachpains- stress related)

I wish I could just let it all go, but it isnt that simple. I will go in therapy and am on a waitinglist, I hope it will help me overcome my fears

JaneBurgess
06-11-2014, 01:04 PM
If you have anxiety or panic attacks, this site is great http://www.bachflower.com

The products are all natural and I use the Rescue Remedy with good results

anonymous camgirl
06-11-2014, 01:32 PM
I always wanted to try that before but never did.


If you have anxiety or panic attacks, this site is great http://www.bachflower.com

The products are all natural and I use the Rescue Remedy with good results

SimoneGray
06-11-2014, 05:26 PM
I have now also got a series of savage bruises on my arms from my pole dance class. Not the best for cam...concealer to the rescue!

SweetJulia
06-12-2014, 05:05 AM
I have now also got a series of savage bruises on my arms from my pole dance class. Not the best for cam...concealer to the rescue!
Poor thing :( Concealer doesn't work on mine, but you might be using a better one.