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anonymous camgirl
06-15-2014, 10:45 AM
Well?? it's been 8 weeks now since I had this shoulder injury,... I thought i was getting better but I just don't know.. seems all my joints practically are super stiff.. takes hours for them to loosen up in the morning.. I am riddled pain all day.. Starting to wonder if something else is going on?? uggh.. well before I make myself an appt for a complete physical at the doc's.. ( haven't had one in almost 12 yrs now)... I am going all out with the herbs and what not... Dr Schulze to the rescue!!! I am on Liver/Gall bladder, Heart, Kidney/Bladder, Brain, Cayenne, Female tonic and the detox tea, also taking Green Pasture Cod liver oil, Shakeology, Turmeric and Ginger, ( all out of superfood).. also Dr Christopher's Complete Tissue and Bone and Joint Formula... and the comfrey ointment and complete bone and tissue ointment.. hope to tell ya how it goes.. I had a very bad episode yesterday of excruciating pain all over that made me cry.. it lasted for over 4 hours .. I could not get on cam til 2 pm it was so bad.

MellyMay
06-15-2014, 04:32 PM
If you have anxiety or panic attacks, this site is great http://www.bachflower.com

The products are all natural and I use the Rescue Remedy with good results

true story: back in 2010 with no insurance and insane anxiety when starting a new rad job, i used this like a madwoman (no pun intended, but...kinda). It's great. If it was somewhat psychosomatic for me, i'm ok with that too.

obvs doesn't magically rid us of anxiety, but helps nonetheless and super inconspicuous to take vs shoving pills in my mouth.

SimoneGray
06-16-2014, 04:25 AM
I have got mild bronchitis currently, so sometimes I sound a bit like a husky guy. The weirdest thing is, men are paying me to talk...literally to just sit there in my underwear and say a bunch of random things...LOL

ashley jane
06-16-2014, 08:45 AM
I'm so tired. Right now I am about to fall asleep sitting in this chair. In the day I'm so tired then around 8 pm I'm all wide awake. 3 days a week I have to be up at 4:30 am and I'll try and get in bed around 11 pm the night before and I'll sleep and then at 6:20 am I can go back to sleep till 9:30-10. Those nights I call them nap nights but last night I slept for like 8 hours. I've been up for 4 hours already and I want a nap! Even if I'm wide awake at midnight and don't have to be up early the next day I turn my phone off and lay in bed with my eyes closed and I go to sleep. I've always woke up in the middle of the night. I used to wake up at like 4 am and 6 am check the time then go back to sleep. Now I get up at 3 am. When I was real young I used to sleep walk. I never wanted to sleep in my bed room so I slept in my grandparents bed with my gram, on their bedroom floor, or living room floor or couch. I would start off on the couch and end up in her bed or start in her bed and end up on the living room floor. I would wake up with my feet where my head was. Maybe I'm sleep walking again? My grandparents now sleep down stairs and my pap says he hears a lot of walking upstairs. The bed creaks when I move but I usually wake up how I feel asleep and a lot of times when I move I wake up and adjust and fall asleep again. A few years ago I had some weird thing happen and my x said it sounded like a seizure and it happened to me in the middle of the night last year. So maybe I'm getting seizures in my sleep. I have a third cousin that had really bad seizures as a kid.

Nina_Den
06-16-2014, 09:10 AM
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SweetJulia
06-16-2014, 10:49 AM
I'm so tired. Right now I am about to fall asleep sitting in this chair. In the day I'm so tired then around 8 pm I'm all wide awake. 3 days a week I have to be up at 4:30 am and I'll try and get in bed around 11 pm the night before and I'll sleep and then at 6:20 am I can go back to sleep till 9:30-10. Those nights I call them nap nights but last night I slept for like 8 hours. I've been up for 4 hours already and I want a nap! Even if I'm wide awake at midnight and don't have to be up early the next day I turn my phone off and lay in bed with my eyes closed and I go to sleep. I've always woke up in the middle of the night. I used to wake up at like 4 am and 6 am check the time then go back to sleep. Now I get up at 3 am. When I was real young I used to sleep walk. I never wanted to sleep in my bed room so I slept in my grandparents bed with my gram, on their bedroom floor, or living room floor or couch. I would start off on the couch and end up in her bed or start in her bed and end up on the living room floor. I would wake up with my feet where my head was. Maybe I'm sleep walking again? My grandparents now sleep down stairs and my pap says he hears a lot of walking upstairs. The bed creaks when I move but I usually wake up how I feel asleep and a lot of times when I move I wake up and adjust and fall asleep again. A few years ago I had some weird thing happen and my x said it sounded like a seizure and it happened to me in the middle of the night last year. So maybe I'm getting seizures in my sleep. I have a third cousin that had really bad seizures as a kid.
Have you been to a sleep clinic by chance?

SweetJulia
06-16-2014, 10:53 AM
<<<<<<Broke a molar eating my own cooking lol. I guess it's a nice change from the food poisoning that usually follows. Oh wait, I have that, too :( Anyways, the stupid little fucker broke off right at the root and hurts BADLY-nerves exposed, maybe?-so I'm getting it pulled on Friday, just in time for my period. Sigh. I'm still gonna cam, just not today. I've already made 415 this week, so I'll probably do Wednesday or Thursday. Maybe both. Maybe if someone needs dentures, I can start on a set for you with all the teeth I've had pulled lol?

ashley jane
06-16-2014, 11:46 AM
Have you been to a sleep clinic by chance?
I've never been and I don't have insurance so I probably never will.


<<<<<<Broke a molar eating my own cooking lol. I guess it's a nice change from the food poisoning that usually follows. Oh wait, I have that, too :( Anyways, the stupid little fucker broke off right at the root and hurts BADLY-nerves exposed, maybe?-so I'm getting it pulled on Friday, just in time for my period. Sigh. I'm still gonna cam, just not today. I've already made 415 this week, so I'll probably do Wednesday or Thursday. Maybe both. Maybe if someone needs dentures, I can start on a set for you with all the teeth I've had pulled lol?

Ouch I cracked a tooth eating stale chips next to the last one. Luckily mine was just on top so a filling fixed it. I haven't been to a dentist in forever so at some point I chipped the same tooth on the other side with out knowing! The part that broke off was still there and always thought it was weird that floss kept getting stuck. Now that piece off tooth came out and I no longer eat on that side so far another filling will fix that one.

caramelcraze
06-16-2014, 02:17 PM
Guess who spent the night in the er?! this chick. I had an inner uterine cyst rupture again. looks like ill only be doing customs for a couple weeks.

anonymous camgirl
06-16-2014, 02:41 PM
Ya'll need some cod liver oil, raw milk and some bone broth for all these broken , cracked teeth.. good lord!

SimoneGray
06-16-2014, 03:04 PM
Oh, ladies, I discovered a great product today to cover up bruises etc. its called DermaBlend and its this amazing concealer, its marketed as a tattoo cover up, but it can be used for other things, going to get myself some and let you know how it pans out. In the meantime, here is a vid of what it can do:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9mIBKifOOQQ

SweetJulia
06-16-2014, 03:41 PM
Oh, ladies, I discovered a great product today to cover up bruises etc. its called DermaBlend and its this amazing concealer, its marketed as a tattoo cover up, but it can be used for other things, going to get myself some and let you know how it pans out. In the meantime, here is a vid of what it can do:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9mIBKifOOQQ

OMG thanks so much, God knows I need it lol.

SweetJulia
06-16-2014, 03:42 PM
Guess who spent the night in the er?! this chick. I had an inner uterine cyst rupture again. looks like ill only be doing customs for a couple weeks.

Oh God, I'm so sorry-I can't even imagine how painful that must have been.

caramelcraze
06-16-2014, 03:55 PM
sally hansen airbrush legs is the shit gone wild Simone... I'd try that. I have a blue birthmark on my ass that I can completely cover on cam when I use this.

caramelcraze
06-16-2014, 03:59 PM
Oh God, I'm so sorry-I can't even imagine how painful that must have been.
It's my 4th so I'm somewhat used to it. It hurts like hell.

SimoneGray
06-16-2014, 04:25 PM
sally hansen airbrush legs is the shit gone wild Simone... I'd try that. I have a blue birthmark on my ass that I can completely cover on cam when I use this.

Really? Thank you so much, I will totally try it out :D

EvaDarington
06-17-2014, 12:28 AM
I'm in a really bad place mentally right now, and I need to vent. (Might be long, I'm sorry.)

I think I've mentioned before that I have Bipolar Disorder. Usually it's manageable, I'm medicated and I was doing quite well.

The last few months have been one shit storm after another. My boyfriend is currently going through some legal stuff (not resolved yet) which is a constant strain on my relationship as well as everything else. He hasn't worked in a long time, and I've been paying the bills for the past four months. His current situation is making him scared to get a job.(It will show up in a criminal background check) So, basically, he refuses to try to get a job.

In the past couple of months, everything has just piled on. Someone came to my grandmothers house and tried to murder my brother (he lived with her at the time). Shot him two inches above his heart..he is very lucky to have survived. A month later, my stepdad hung himself. He was someone I loved dearly and thought of as a father figure. I was, and still am, devastated by his death.

All of this coming together has made me spiral into a deep depression as well as brought forth my anxiety. I'm finding it difficult to get out of bed, much less work.

I live with my BF, and it's not going well. All the bills are put on me (something I NEVER agreed to, we agreed 50/50), so that adds onto the pressure and stress. He's not a nice person to be around, and constantly yells at me, especially if I don't work or if the bills are late.

So...I decided I need to move out. I'm going to go live with my mother for a while so I can level out. When I'm with family I'm happy, and I feel loved and safe. It was either live with her or get checked into a mental hospital. She is very much supportive of me and has been telling me I need to come back for a while, I just never listened until now. I felt like a failure, running back to mommy as an adult.

I told him of this decision at the beginning of the month, and advised him to get a job ASAP so he can take over the bills. Which, of course, he hasn't done.

Now I've started packing, and he is not happy. He says I'm running away from my responsibilities and leaving him with all the bills. Basically making me feel like a piece of shit. He says that I use my illness as an excuse, or that I'm faking it and that I'm lazy because I'm not working enough. I try to explain to him that I'm not okay, and that everything that has happened recently has made me fall into a very bad place. I need to go where I feel safe and loved, and that is NOT with him.

I told him I'd do couples camming with him to pay off the utilities bills until I leave. But of course, nothing is ever good enough. I'm a terrible person because he has to now pay for the house he lives in.

I need to listen to my body and my mind, and take care of MYSELF for once. But it's hard, because when someone tells you how horrible you are over and over....you start to believe it. :(

Sorry for the novel, I just don't have a lot of friends to go to with this kind of stuff (yay camming hermit!).

I hope all you beautiful ladies are doing well! I'm so glad this thread exists, it is an inspiring and wonderful place. :)

Procrasturbator
06-17-2014, 01:10 AM
I live with my BF, and it's not going well. All the bills are put on me (something I NEVER agreed to, we agreed 50/50), so that adds onto the pressure and stress. He's not a nice person to be around, and constantly yells at me, especially if I don't work or if the bills are late.


He says I'm running away from my responsibilities and leaving him with all the bills. Basically making me feel like a piece of shit. He says that I use my illness as an excuse, or that I'm faking it and that I'm lazy because I'm not working enough.

How can he even say this stuff with a straight face!?

Anyway, I'm sorry that you're going through such a hard time, and good for you for getting out. Ignore his self-serving BS (not paying his bills makes you selfish and lazy? lol OK dude) and take care of you :)

caramelcraze
06-17-2014, 12:13 PM
Tell him your bank has been weird about how many transactions you can do on your and want to put one of the bills in his name. I'm sure he can figure out how to come up with $50 for power or water, especially if he knows it's in his name.
I'm in a really bad place mentally right now, and I need to vent. (Might be long, I'm sorry.)

I think I've mentioned before that I have Bipolar Disorder. Usually it's manageable, I'm medicated and I was doing quite well.

The last few months have been one shit storm after another. My boyfriend is currently going through some legal stuff (not resolved yet) which is a constant strain on my relationship as well as everything else. He hasn't worked in a long time, and I've been paying the bills for the past four months. His current situation is making him scared to get a job.(It will show up in a criminal background check) So, basically, he refuses to try to get a job.

In the past couple of months, everything has just piled on. Someone came to my grandmothers house and tried to murder my brother (he lived with her at the time). Shot him two inches above his heart..he is very lucky to have survived. A month later, my stepdad hung himself. He was someone I loved dearly and thought of as a father figure. I was, and still am, devastated by his death.

All of this coming together has made me spiral into a deep depression as well as brought forth my anxiety. I'm finding it difficult to get out of bed, much less work.

I live with my BF, and it's not going well. All the bills are put on me (something I NEVER agreed to, we agreed 50/50), so that adds onto the pressure and stress. He's not a nice person to be around, and constantly yells at me, especially if I don't work or if the bills are late.

So...I decided I need to move out. I'm going to go live with my mother for a while so I can level out. When I'm with family I'm happy, and I feel loved and safe. It was either live with her or get checked into a mental hospital. She is very much supportive of me and has been telling me I need to come back for a while, I just never listened until now. I felt like a failure, running back to mommy as an adult.

I told him of this decision at the beginning of the month, and advised him to get a job ASAP so he can take over the bills. Which, of course, he hasn't done.

Now I've started packing, and he is not happy. He says I'm running away from my responsibilities and leaving him with all the bills. Basically making me feel like a piece of shit. He says that I use my illness as an excuse, or that I'm faking it and that I'm lazy because I'm not working enough. I try to explain to him that I'm not okay, and that everything that has happened recently has made me fall into a very bad place. I need to go where I feel safe and loved, and that is NOT with him.

I told him I'd do couples camming with him to pay off the utilities bills until I leave. But of course, nothing is ever good enough. I'm a terrible person because he has to now pay for the house he lives in.

I need to listen to my body and my mind, and take care of MYSELF for once. But it's hard, because when someone tells you how horrible you are over and over....you start to believe it. :(

Sorry for the novel, I just don't have a lot of friends to go to with this kind of stuff (yay camming hermit!).

I hope all you beautiful ladies are doing well! I'm so glad this thread exists, it is an inspiring and wonderful place. :)

anonymous camgirl
06-17-2014, 12:41 PM
I am reporting back that in just a 24 hour period after doing all of these things, I made a dramatic difference in my joints and what not. It's like nite and day, I still have the aches and pains but way more bearable, in fact i wake up still stiff, but before the 24 hours I was waking up with my shoulders completely paralyzed and unable to move them.. will update again.. it's only been a few days but I am so glad that I decided to take the plunge and do all this... I have done it before and I cleansed my heart out and felt like a million bucks.. Ultimate Health.. that was 10 yrs ago... so i'll be cleansing til the break of dawn.. haha.. Until I feel like a million bucks again! BTW!.. I am feeling so much better that motrin and wine is not even necessary anymore.


Well?? it's been 8 weeks now since I had this shoulder injury,... I thought i was getting better but I just don't know.. seems all my joints practically are super stiff.. takes hours for them to loosen up in the morning.. I am riddled pain all day.. Starting to wonder if something else is going on?? uggh.. well before I make myself an appt for a complete physical at the doc's.. ( haven't had one in almost 12 yrs now)... I am going all out with the herbs and what not... Dr Schulze to the rescue!!! I am on Liver/Gall bladder, Heart, Kidney/Bladder, Brain, Cayenne, Female tonic and the detox tea, also taking Green Pasture Cod liver oil, Shakeology, Turmeric and Ginger, ( all out of superfood).. also Dr Christopher's Complete Tissue and Bone and Joint Formula... and the comfrey ointment and complete bone and tissue ointment.. hope to tell ya how it goes.. I had a very bad episode yesterday of excruciating pain all over that made me cry.. it lasted for over 4 hours .. I could not get on cam til 2 pm it was so bad.

JaneBurgess
06-17-2014, 04:04 PM
He's trying to guilt you to stay. Keep packing and move out like you planned. If you are happy with family, then try to be around them more if you can. Everyone deserves to have some happiness in their lives.



I'm in a really bad place mentally right now, and I need to vent. (Might be long, I'm sorry.)

I think I've mentioned before that I have Bipolar Disorder. Usually it's manageable, I'm medicated and I was doing quite well.

The last few months have been one shit storm after another. My boyfriend is currently going through some legal stuff (not resolved yet) which is a constant strain on my relationship as well as everything else. He hasn't worked in a long time, and I've been paying the bills for the past four months. His current situation is making him scared to get a job.(It will show up in a criminal background check) So, basically, he refuses to try to get a job.

In the past couple of months, everything has just piled on. Someone came to my grandmothers house and tried to murder my brother (he lived with her at the time). Shot him two inches above his heart..he is very lucky to have survived. A month later, my stepdad hung himself. He was someone I loved dearly and thought of as a father figure. I was, and still am, devastated by his death.

All of this coming together has made me spiral into a deep depression as well as brought forth my anxiety. I'm finding it difficult to get out of bed, much less work.

I live with my BF, and it's not going well. All the bills are put on me (something I NEVER agreed to, we agreed 50/50), so that adds onto the pressure and stress. He's not a nice person to be around, and constantly yells at me, especially if I don't work or if the bills are late.

So...I decided I need to move out. I'm going to go live with my mother for a while so I can level out. When I'm with family I'm happy, and I feel loved and safe. It was either live with her or get checked into a mental hospital. She is very much supportive of me and has been telling me I need to come back for a while, I just never listened until now. I felt like a failure, running back to mommy as an adult.

I told him of this decision at the beginning of the month, and advised him to get a job ASAP so he can take over the bills. Which, of course, he hasn't done.

Now I've started packing, and he is not happy. He says I'm running away from my responsibilities and leaving him with all the bills. Basically making me feel like a piece of shit. He says that I use my illness as an excuse, or that I'm faking it and that I'm lazy because I'm not working enough. I try to explain to him that I'm not okay, and that everything that has happened recently has made me fall into a very bad place. I need to go where I feel safe and loved, and that is NOT with him.

I told him I'd do couples camming with him to pay off the utilities bills until I leave. But of course, nothing is ever good enough. I'm a terrible person because he has to now pay for the house he lives in.

I need to listen to my body and my mind, and take care of MYSELF for once. But it's hard, because when someone tells you how horrible you are over and over....you start to believe it. :(

Sorry for the novel, I just don't have a lot of friends to go to with this kind of stuff (yay camming hermit!).

I hope all you beautiful ladies are doing well! I'm so glad this thread exists, it is an inspiring and wonderful place. :)

EvaDarington
06-17-2014, 11:07 PM
You ladies are fantastic <3 Thank you all!

MellyMay
06-19-2014, 12:49 AM
37940

i get the most painful, vomit inducing cramps ever. hello, next 5 days.

PinkGeisha
06-19-2014, 12:56 AM
I'm in a really bad place mentally right now, and I need to vent. (Might be long, I'm sorry.)

I think I've mentioned before that I have Bipolar Disorder. Usually it's manageable, I'm medicated and I was doing quite well.

The last few months have been one shit storm after another. My boyfriend is currently going through some legal stuff (not resolved yet) which is a constant strain on my relationship as well as everything else. He hasn't worked in a long time, and I've been paying the bills for the past four months. His current situation is making him scared to get a job.(It will show up in a criminal background check) So, basically, he refuses to try to get a job.

In the past couple of months, everything has just piled on. Someone came to my grandmothers house and tried to murder my brother (he lived with her at the time). Shot him two inches above his heart..he is very lucky to have survived. A month later, my stepdad hung himself. He was someone I loved dearly and thought of as a father figure. I was, and still am, devastated by his death.

All of this coming together has made me spiral into a deep depression as well as brought forth my anxiety. I'm finding it difficult to get out of bed, much less work.

I live with my BF, and it's not going well. All the bills are put on me (something I NEVER agreed to, we agreed 50/50), so that adds onto the pressure and stress. He's not a nice person to be around, and constantly yells at me, especially if I don't work or if the bills are late.

So...I decided I need to move out. I'm going to go live with my mother for a while so I can level out. When I'm with family I'm happy, and I feel loved and safe. It was either live with her or get checked into a mental hospital. She is very much supportive of me and has been telling me I need to come back for a while, I just never listened until now. I felt like a failure, running back to mommy as an adult.

I told him of this decision at the beginning of the month, and advised him to get a job ASAP so he can take over the bills. Which, of course, he hasn't done.

Now I've started packing, and he is not happy. He says I'm running away from my responsibilities and leaving him with all the bills. Basically making me feel like a piece of shit. He says that I use my illness as an excuse, or that I'm faking it and that I'm lazy because I'm not working enough. I try to explain to him that I'm not okay, and that everything that has happened recently has made me fall into a very bad place. I need to go where I feel safe and loved, and that is NOT with him.

I told him I'd do couples camming with him to pay off the utilities bills until I leave. But of course, nothing is ever good enough. I'm a terrible person because he has to now pay for the house he lives in.

I need to listen to my body and my mind, and take care of MYSELF for once. But it's hard, because when someone tells you how horrible you are over and over....you start to believe it. :(

Sorry for the novel, I just don't have a lot of friends to go to with this kind of stuff (yay camming hermit!).

I hope all you beautiful ladies are doing well! I'm so glad this thread exists, it is an inspiring and wonderful place. :)


Baby, I'm SO GLAD you're leaving that situation. <3 I don't mean to be out of line if this comes across that way... but we've brushed on this subject once or twice... and my personal honest opinion is that he's dragging and KEEPING you down. Would I dare to suggest that you dump his sorry ass since he's basically smooching off you for free, and then blaming you for not being able to pull 100% when you two agreed to 50/50?!?! You have my Skype, you have my number, you've listened to my sob story before. Do NOT hesitate to CALL me if you wanna talk. I love you!!!! <3 <3 <3

caramelcraze
06-20-2014, 09:04 AM
I'm in the same boat. Vicodin, Jello, and an electric blanket for me this week. blaw

37940

i get the most painful, vomit inducing cramps ever. hello, next 5 days.

SweetJulia
06-20-2014, 09:45 AM
I'm in the same boat. Vicodin, Jello, and an electric blanket for me this week. blaw

Me, too :) Luckily, I'm getting a tooth pulled today, so all the unpleasantness can happen at the same time.

JaneBurgess
06-20-2014, 04:29 PM
Me too, since Monday. My anxiety is going sky high from it. I am hot flashing and feel sick. Blahhh



37940

i get the most painful, vomit inducing cramps ever. hello, next 5 days.

SweetJulia
06-26-2014, 07:34 PM
This latest tooth extraction was a doozie. It took the oral surgeon ten minutes to get that stupid thing out. Had to pull so hard, I'm bruised. Shows through makeup, but since I wear so much of it, no one's noticed on cam-or at least not said anything cuz of the tits to bruises ratio. It's Thursday? now, I have no intention of camming again til Sunday. Now, where's my icepack and cocktail lol?

MissConceited
06-27-2014, 06:17 AM
I am so glad I found this thread. I have never wanted to admit that I'm "sick" in any way, but I have been running myself in the ground for the last couple of years most likely with some kind of CFS or fibromyalgia that's going un treated and just getting worse. I also have extreme anxiety and hate driving or pretty much going anywhere. LOL. Honestly my meds and smoking weed helps, but sometimes it's not enough. The last month has been really rough for me as I have just moved two months ago and I am exhausted from it. I haven't been able to get back into the groove of working, and have been sitting around doing nothing smoking cigarettes all day taking the occasional niteflirt call. I now have an upper respiratory infection in my lungs. I really don't want any sympathy from anyone, but damn it's been tough and I'm glad I found a place to vent.

I was reading through this thread last night and it really gave me the inspiration to push forward. I know I'm not going to be able to work 50 hours a week like a nut, but I really need to focus on making the best out of the productive hours I do have. I'm trying to work smart and not hard. When I have the energy, that's when I do cam sessions and make videos and then when I'm tired I take phone calls, work on social networking, edit videos, and other busy work. I have found a rhythm to it, now it's just getting back into it. :)

JaneBurgess
06-27-2014, 12:00 PM
I hate having anxiety. I really want to give Gold shows a good try but I freeze once I start them and cancel it. I am scared to death I will not hit goal and then feel like a failure. I know you dont hit goal sometimes and that you start them over again sometimes but it freaks me out. Anxiety sucks!!!!!!!

SweetJulia
06-27-2014, 12:46 PM
I hate having anxiety. I really want to give Gold shows a good try but I freeze once I start them and cancel it. I am scared to death I will not hit goal and then feel like a failure. I know you dont hit goal sometimes and that you start them over again sometimes but it freaks me out. Anxiety sucks!!!!!!!

Same here. My antidepressant keeps getting increased, which is what I want, but I don't know if I'll ever get brave enough for gold shows. I danced years ago, in totally full clubs, so not being able to perform online for a handful of guys at once makes me feel.....weak, I guess :( But I also remember how much I was drinking when I was dancing to get the courage to do it and can't do that to my mind or body again. Honestly, at my worst, it was like 20-30 drinks a night, five nights a week. At my, what my BFF calls "hummingbird" weight lol. It's honestly still a challenge not to drown my sorrows when things go badly, like so many have this year, but I've found my antidepressant and this website to be an amazing help :)

JaneBurgess
06-27-2014, 07:44 PM
I tried Paxil before and after three years it stopped working. Xanax was a nightmare so I am drug free now. If I could find something non addictive to work I would take it. I gave up drinking a long time ago, I was not a good drinker. I tried it once this year and it turned out badly.






Same here. My antidepressant keeps getting increased, which is what I want, but I don't know if I'll ever get brave enough for gold shows. I danced years ago, in totally full clubs, so not being able to perform online for a handful of guys at once makes me feel.....weak, I guess :( But I also remember how much I was drinking when I was dancing to get the courage to do it and can't do that to my mind or body again. Honestly, at my worst, it was like 20-30 drinks a night, five nights a week. At my, what my BFF calls "hummingbird" weight lol. It's honestly still a challenge not to drown my sorrows when things go badly, like so many have this year, but I've found my antidepressant and this website to be an amazing help :)

JGB2009
06-27-2014, 08:05 PM
I tried Paxil before and after three years it stopped working. Xanax was a nightmare so I am drug free now. If I could find something non addictive to work I would take it. I gave up drinking a long time ago, I was not a good drinker. I tried it once this year and it turned out badly.

I tried Paxil once and it didn't agree with me. The Doctor had me on a really strong dose and it made me ball up on the sofa and I just couldn't move. I remember feeling so jittery and it felt so scarey. I never tried Xanax, but I did try Lexapro and luckily that worked for me. I'm not on anything anymore. I still get anxiety but not as bad. Right now I am having anxiety about starting a new site. I agree anxiety suckssss!!!

JaneBurgess
06-27-2014, 10:30 PM
Paxil made me so sick the first month I was on it, my family doctor gave it to me. I saw a psych after I was on it and he said if it makes you that sick you should be taken off of it right away. I thought everyone was sick when they started, little did I know. I literally tired so many drugs in a 7 year period it isn't even funny. I still have anxiety but therapy was a huge help and I have been drug free for a little over three years.



I tried Paxil once and it didn't agree with me. The Doctor had me on a really strong dose and it made me ball up on the sofa and I just couldn't move. I remember feeling so jittery and it felt so scarey. I never tried Xanax, but I did try Lexapro and luckily that worked for me. I'm not on anything anymore. I still get anxiety but not as bad. Right now I am having anxiety about starting a new site. I agree anxiety suckssss!!!

SimoneGray
06-28-2014, 04:39 PM
This week has just been awful...pulled 3 all nighters for my vanilla job which has left me so tired and ill in terms of camming. Also had a heavy training week so my whole body is tired and sore...gonna just do what I can and then give my all for Sunday.

justanothercamgirl
06-29-2014, 12:36 PM
I am so fucking tired of just barely scraping by money-wise because I am too ill to do actually privates and too ill to find another job. This up and down cycle where I become severely ill with something, get better, become hopeful and then get severely sick with something else has been going on for over a year now and the fact there is no end in sight and it just keeps getting worse is really starting to depressing the fuck out of me.

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JenniferNorth
06-29-2014, 12:53 PM
I'm joining the little group here.... I have major issues, and I'm not sure what is going on. I feel drained a lot of the time for no reason. My boyfriend and I moved into a new apt. and we have the slumlord to end all slumlords. Long story short, we have found black mold growing on the garage a short distance from our building, and I am sure there is mold growing in the apt. We are looking at calling a building inspector in, because...just not healthy.

I'm also dealing with ADHD and depression from time to time. Trying to use armotherapy, exercise and improve my eating habits.

I'm trying to see if I can go back on SM a five days a week, but short shifts, and do maybe three days a week on MFC (not sure if those should be 3-5 hour shifts, doing longer is hard for me). And STAY on schedule. I just can't fucking do 6/week, 6 + hours a day, it kills me. Does that sound possible or am I crazy?

anonymous camgirl
06-29-2014, 01:00 PM
isn't it awful?.. i know the feeling and have known the feeling.. you gotta try out Dr Schulze's herbs if you can.. go to www.herbdoc.com.. I am back to being able to do 10 hours a day now if i wasn't so annoyed and fucking bored from numnuts.. trust me this guy has brought back AIDS patients from the brink of death also check out his blog, www.herbdocblog.com



I am so fucking tired of just barely scraping by money-wise because I am too ill to do actually privates and too ill to find another job. This up and down cycle where I become severely ill with something, get better, become hopeful and then get severely sick with something else has been going on for over a year now and the fact there is no end in sight and it just keeps getting worse is really starting to depressing the fuck out of me.

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JenniferNorth
06-30-2014, 09:35 AM
JAC, did you start a C4S thread? Mentally my mind is pretty fucked over these days, and I'm looking at videos/clips/pics/audio, plus my phone and texting eggs over camming.

justanothercamgirl
06-30-2014, 11:36 AM
JAC, did you start a C4S thread? Mentally my mind is pretty fucked over these days, and I'm looking at videos/clips/pics/audio, plus my phone and texting eggs over camming.

I didn't start the C4S thread over in Industry Insight but I was the last person to post on it lately. :D

https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?163549-The-Clips4Sale-Thread

SweetJulia
06-30-2014, 03:54 PM
Now that I'm seeing a new guy, my eating disorder is starting to come back. Not too severely, but like one meal a day. I got down to a 34C and don't want to get any smaller, but as anyone can tell you, the power of not eating is a total high. And scary. It just pisses me off that everyone wants me to eat.

RikaChu
06-30-2014, 04:03 PM
So, I'm having my tonsils removed on Wednesday and still plan on camming. I figure I can Wile E Coyote/Norma it.

pinkpink
06-30-2014, 10:21 PM
I hope it's okay to post about this here, I really don't know who else to talk to about it.....so I have ringworm. I feel so freaking gross. Anyway, I had a small circle on my side, saw my doctor, she gave me a creme. So weeks and weeks pass....finally the spot on my side is like 90% gone. yayy

So I wear a cloth mask when I cam, I just feel more comfortable behind the mask. I thought I had a pimple forming on my cheek but today I realized the ringworm spread to my face. Noooooo. :'( I'm using the same creme my doc gave me for my side on my face tonight, but I'm planning on calling my dr in the morning. Once I realized it was a spot of ringworm and not a pimple forming....my forehead and basically the area where I wear the mask feels tender and kind of itchy. When I perform, I put on a show, so I get all sweaty and goddammit it just all seems so stupid now. Fabric, sweat, I am terrible about touching my face, etc.

As I'm sure all the cam girls feel: I need to work. But I can't really work without my mask and I know I need to stop wearing makeup for awhile to stop the spreading. I also need to wash all my makeup brushes...debating whether or not I have to toss out my foundation and stuff....ughhhh so stupid, so expensive, so annoyed right now.....

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pinkpink
06-30-2014, 10:26 PM
So, I'm having my tonsils removed on Wednesday and still plan on camming. I figure I can Wile E Coyote/Norma it.

I kept reading this as "having my toenails removed" and was so confused. Guess I should go to bed! lol. Good luck <3

RikaChu
07-01-2014, 12:29 AM
I kept reading this as "having my toenails removed" and was so confused. Guess I should go to bed! lol. Good luck <3
Bless your heart! To bed, sleepy head :P
Thanks, love

justanothercamgirl
07-02-2014, 05:47 AM
I hope it's okay to post about this here, I really don't know who else to talk to about it.....so I have ringworm. I feel so freaking gross. Anyway, I had a small circle on my side, saw my doctor, she gave me a creme. So weeks and weeks pass....finally the spot on my side is like 90% gone. yayy

It is more then alright! This thread is here to help those who suffer from any form of 'sickness' that makes camming harder on them to be able to vent and get support from other camgirls.

The one thing that we all have in common as human beings is that we will suffer from some sort of health problems at some time or another that will make our camming life harder. Anyone is more then welcome to vent here even if they are just suffering from 'everyday sickness' such as PMS or the flu.

I am so sorry that you have to deal with ringworm. Being a camgirl is hard enough without having to deal with something like that too.

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justanothercamgirl
07-03-2014, 08:15 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Kbrb7Xer-Q

I know this video is selling something -- but if you have an anxiety disorder just skip over the sales closing ending and only listen to the story at the beginning.

It may be only marketing, but as someone who has had to deal with an anxiety disorder my entire life -- it made me cry to finally hear that someone, somewhere finally understood. :'(

MellyMay
07-03-2014, 06:12 PM
For all of us with depression: (something we already know, but..saying it)

Being in a positive living environment is soooo important. I mention this mainly because my depression has been intense for several months and it stemmed from hating even BEING around my roommate.

I finally made the decision to move. I'm giving up a LOT, including the freedom to cam on a schedule that works for me, and it seems like I may be taking a step back (ok, admittedly, i'm moving HOME). It's not ideal but the amount of happiness I've had since making that decision has been tremendous. Seriously. I even just start my day better. It's been a weight off my shoulders.

I know a lot of us here are not living in our ideal situations currently. But, yeah, if you can make a change, it will help a lot in relieving a whole sector of stress from your life.

pinkpink
07-03-2014, 06:42 PM
For all of us with depression: (something we already know, but..saying it)

Being in a positive living environment is soooo important. I mention this mainly because my depression has been intense for several months and it stemmed from hating even BEING around my roommate.

I finally made the decision to move. I'm giving up a LOT, including the freedom to cam on a schedule that works for me, and it seems like I may be taking a step back (ok, admittedly, i'm moving HOME). It's not ideal but the amount of happiness I've had since making that decision has been tremendous. Seriously. I even just start my day better. It's been a weight off my shoulders.

I know a lot of us here are not living in our ideal situations currently. But, yeah, if you can make a change, it will help a lot in relieving a whole sector of stress from your life.

You have no idea how much this resonates with me. I have struggled with depression for a very long time & the latest is that my doctor says i'm bipolar. Your comments about your surroundings and your environment having such a huge impact on your level of happiness are so my life right now. I need to move so badly. I am literally afraid the ceiling is going to crash in on me and kill me. It's just a shitty old apartment with shitty people who make my life hell. I only moved here as a temporary measure but i've been stuck here for 18 months looking for a new place to live. I'm so freaking paralyzed by fear and anxiety over what to do.

Good for you for making the decision that's best for you! I unfortunately don't have a home to move back into, otherwise I'd consider it. Cause ANYTHING is better than losing your sanity because of your living environment.

sweetgapeach
07-05-2014, 07:10 PM
I looked through the thread to see if anyone else suffers from this and didn't see it. The doctor diagnosed me with Dyshidrosis. I have blisters that itch and pop, and then crack and peel and will not heal all over my hands. Sporadically moving around all my fingers and the palms of my hands. I have been on a steroid cream since before Mother's Day. Thursday, he suggested only allowing my hands to get wet at bath time. So...now to cam with gloves on is the only idea I can come up with.

Hope this does not diminish my earnings, gloves on as if I was infected lol...but really!!