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justanothercamgirl
07-15-2014, 09:09 AM
It has definitely been a very Ani Difranco kind-of-day for me. :-\
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3U795nyAj0
anonymous camgirl
07-15-2014, 12:19 PM
HOLY FUCK!.. are you trying to make me throw up???. is this your way of getting me to go on a diet?? lol....I feel for your pain, life is quite the fucking struggle.. uggh.. I Haven't even been to the dentist in 20 yrs.. yes life was so bad that i could never fucking go .. luckily i have never had an emergency to warrant going.. NO teeth cleanining nothing.. Just feed the kids, put roof over kids.. live the struggle.. i thought one day things would change but they never did. and so i never went to the dentist... now i think I did something wrong and my life is my fault.. which i suppose so.. I coulda said NO and close my fucking legs the rest of my fucking life.. that would have been a start to freedom.. that's what true freedom is!.. close your god damn legs.. sorry i am ranting.. I feel really awful right now from so much stress even though i did everything right shit still shits on you.. even if you have the most perfect fucking budget and the bestest shit in life.. You still GET A FUCKING SHIT STORM.. and the shit storm is magnified cuz you fucking prepared for that fucking shit.. anyways.. love you girl but i am fucking CRANKY.. don't take it personal!..lol
WARNING!!!!GRAPHIC PIC!!!!Well, been almost a month since I had a huge molar pulled. The roots were so deep they practically reached my eye socket. They had to pull for ten minutes, the norm is one to five. The oral surgeon actually had to put his knee on my stomach and was pouring sweat. Almost a month later, I still have facial pain and bruising. Ladies, PLEASE take this as a warning to get frequent check ups and procedures so you don't reach the point of pain i was in for almost a year. The tooth had roots that went so high they almost reached my eye socket! Here's a pic so you guys can see what I've been bitching about for a month, I hope it's ok to post, if not can a moderator PLEASE let me know and I'll take it down immediately?
SweetJulia
07-15-2014, 02:48 PM
^^^^Sorry, wasn't trying to gross you out. I'd just spent a lot of time on here whining about the pain having that tooth caused me and how long and painful the recovery has been. I can remove the picture if you'd like?
SaraLaughs
07-15-2014, 05:44 PM
I appreciate that Julia. We JUST got dental insurance so this week I'm going for the first time in 7 years. I know I have at least 4 cavities and one wisdom that needs to be removed. Dental work is RIDICULOUSLY expensive if you don't have insurance. It's really a shame.
SweetJulia
07-15-2014, 06:47 PM
I appreciate that Julia. We JUST got dental insurance so this week I'm going for the first time in 7 years. I know I have at least 4 cavities and one wisdom that needs to be removed. Dental work is RIDICULOUSLY expensive if you don't have insurance. It's really a shame.
I deleted it. Yes, I realize I should have gotten dental insurance but I'm so against insurance in general, like it's wasted money.
PlayfulDesire
07-15-2014, 08:36 PM
I suppose I can join this club now officially. Last week I ate a grilled cheese and then because of it I burned my face. Big ole face burn...
Yesterday I fell sprained my ankle and messed up my knee on the other side. I hate relying on people :(
justanothercamgirl
07-16-2014, 08:56 AM
I suppose I can join this club now officially. Last week I ate a grilled cheese and then because of it I burned my face. Big ole face burn...
Yesterday I fell sprained my ankle and messed up my knee on the other side. I hate relying on people :(
Jinkies! You are just having one hell of a week, aren't you. I am sorry for all the suck.
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justanothercamgirl
07-16-2014, 09:00 AM
I am so exhausted. I've already slept half the day. I completely want to use it as an excuse to throw away the rest of the day -- but as long as there are hours left in the day there is always money to be made. Anything is better then zero.
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chloemay
07-16-2014, 09:06 AM
I am so exhausted. I've already slept half the day. I completely want to use it as an excuse to throw away the rest of the day -- but as long as there are hours left in the day there is always money to be made. Anything is better then zero.
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Absolutely. I'm just now logging in too on the thought that maybe shifting my usual work hours will be profitable. Your gif is great, looks like the beginning of hot homo-erotic action. Made me feel better!
justanothercamgirl
07-17-2014, 02:43 AM
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Katie0
07-17-2014, 01:38 PM
I am pretty sure that I have a abscess tooth. :( It hurts soo bad and my glands under by jaw hurt too and I have a mild cold. To top it off my little boy has pneumonia right now. :( I've spent so much time at the doctor with him this week! I'm tired and just want to sleep.. but I will be working in about a hour. BOOOO!
xxxdite
07-17-2014, 02:35 PM
Katie try icing throughout the day. It really helped me knock out the pain in record time. I know your pain and I'm sorry your going through it, the thought of camming through tooth pain horrifies me. But ice will help with the inflammation (which is causing alot of the pain) and it will also hold the infection in place so it won't spread. Your cold might be due to the abcess
SweetJulia
07-17-2014, 04:34 PM
I am pretty sure that I have a abscess tooth. :( It hurts soo bad and my glands under by jaw hurt too and I have a mild cold. To top it off my little boy has pneumonia right now. :( I've spent so much time at the doctor with him this week! I'm tired and just want to sleep.. but I will be working in about a hour. BOOOO!
Oh God, camming with tooth pain blows. Trust me, I've been there. All the advice I can give is to take as much pain medication as possible, ice that side of your face, and deal with/pull that tooth as soon as you can.
anonymous camgirl
07-17-2014, 05:50 PM
I also would suggest using cloves to anesthetize and sanitize the tooth area by swishing with peroxide or baking soda or salt and water.. Also would not hurt to do some oil pulling it pulls toxins out of the body.. use coconut or sesame oil or any oil really. Stop the infection. just don't ice and it and pain killers that is only temporary
justanothercamgirl
07-18-2014, 10:33 AM
I am so tired, but got to keep working.
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BlasianBytch
07-18-2014, 03:27 PM
I haven't been able to keep up a good schedule since being laid off in May. I'm going through a bought of depression like I've never felt before. I have no healthcare, no access to my doctor or medication. I hope I'm not stuck like this.
ashley jane
07-18-2014, 04:15 PM
Because of no insurance I haven't been to a dentist in like 7 years. I went last year because of a chipped tooth and learned I need a root canal and fillings. I'm just about to pay off the root canal almost $3,000 and that's with a dental discount I bought. I knew I had a chipped tooth and haven't eaten on that side and still flossed and brushed it. I go in for a cleaning, a birthday gift from my mom lol, and the dentist said it got worse needs a root canal. I just want to cry! Pay one off and charge it again. The first one was an abscess and had no pain, no swelling, nothing. Didn't even know I had an infection. Since I have no insurance pills are super expensive. I did the antibiotics and the pharmacy gave me a discount because my grandparents are a great customer but never got the pain pill filled. That root canal had no pain at all. This second root canal is killing me! She does it in 3 trips and even the first trip I was in so much pain couldn't even brush around there. I had the second visit today and even with the novacaine when they put the temp cap on that pressure made me tear up. I can barely eat on the other side because the chewing makes that cap hit off my top teeth and kills me. Thankfully my gram has vicodin that I can take. I went from never brushing teeth as a kid and no cavities to brushing and flossing 2 times a day and get 2 root canals and 6 cavities. Grrr
Ladies that need dental work with no insurance check out 1dental.com it's a dental discount program. I think I paid $100 last year for a whole year but it saved me $150 on my first filling and about 50% on my root canals with the permanent cap. I'm sure the plans and prices differ in states but if you're going to get a lot of work done it's worth checking out. I think it says you can use it with insurance too and they have ad ons like for prescriptions and eyes.
JaneBurgess
07-18-2014, 04:31 PM
I HATE anxiety. I move into my new house tomorrow and the stress is actually making my mouth hurt. My jaw muscles are pulling and even my teeth are hurting. I really hate this, I just want to cry and cry. Fuck you anxiety, I'm tired of your shit.
JaneBurgess
07-18-2014, 04:33 PM
Are there sliding scale clinics there?
I haven't been able to keep up a good schedule since being laid off in May. I'm going through a bought of depression like I've never felt before. I have no healthcare, no access to my doctor or medication. I hope I'm not stuck like this.
BlasianBytch
07-19-2014, 01:59 PM
Are there sliding scale clinics there?
I kinda feel like an asshole using it, I live in Newark and I know the resources are little to none. Its bad enough I came in gentrifyin' and sucking up the affordable housing. I just hope I snap out of it. Maybe I'll get a job interview and get some hope again. I'm going to concentrate on my radio shows and getting back on cam 40 hours a week. I keeping busy won't fix it but it will distract me from doing something stupid.
anonymous camgirl
07-19-2014, 02:25 PM
Congrats on the new house!.. You should take a pic.. haha...
I HATE anxiety. I move into my new house tomorrow and the stress is actually making my mouth hurt. My jaw muscles are pulling and even my teeth are hurting. I really hate this, I just want to cry and cry. Fuck you anxiety, I'm tired of your shit.
anoncamgirl
07-19-2014, 02:28 PM
I HATE anxiety. I move into my new house tomorrow and the stress is actually making my mouth hurt. My jaw muscles are pulling and even my teeth are hurting. I really hate this, I just want to cry and cry. Fuck you anxiety, I'm tired of your shit.
I have clinical anxiety too, Jane. This is from clenching your jaw. It can also be caused by grinding your teeth at night.
Don't worry! There's a time and season for everything. It will get better very soon. You have a lot to be excited about!
SweetJulia
07-23-2014, 05:10 AM
Ugh, fuck this period. I've made a whopping 200 since it started, the pain is so ridiculously bad. My BFF got sick of me suffering and gave me pain meds, those help but also make it super hard to concentrate and give me double vision. I'm seriously debating a hysterectomy at this point.
anonymous camgirl
07-23-2014, 05:17 AM
the last thing you want to do is that.. I advise you to research www.herbdocblog.com .. i REGRET everyday of my life having my gallbladder removed at 27.. life is never the same when you remove an organ.. you are handicapped.
Ugh, fuck this period. I've made a whopping 200 since it started, the pain is so ridiculously bad. My BFF got sick of me suffering and gave me pain meds, those help but also make it super hard to concentrate and give me double vision. I'm seriously debating a hysterectomy at this point.
SweetJulia
07-23-2014, 05:21 AM
the last thing you want to do is that.. I advise you to research www.herbdocblog.com .. i REGRET everyday of my life having my gallbladder removed at 27.. life is never the same when you remove an organ.. you are handicapped.
Thanks, I'll take a look. I'm a fan of alternative treatment :) As far as a hysterectomy, I know it's an extreme decision, but it's like NOTHING helps the pain.
PrincessWhooty
07-23-2014, 05:34 AM
Anxiety, depression, sheer laziness and oh yeah, tha herp?!
I'm really kinda outing myself here, but yeah, the herp sux if you forget to take the damn meds for it and you get a surprise outbreak. It's like having a second period and it can bring on UTIs and yeast infections if not carefully addressed! Ugh.
I can deal with anxiety/depression or bi-polar whatever the hell when I'm dancing but I always wonder how camgirls deal with va-jay-jay issues/paranoia!!
anonymous camgirl
07-23-2014, 05:41 AM
the only way i have ever found to deal with va jay jay issues is to give up my sex life.. yes that's the real reason I don't have sex.. i had more sex when i had a real job.. but this vagina means money and if it don't work I don't work... so i chose never to have sex again.. I am single so it's not like I have a man who is being denied sex...LOL
Anxiety, depression, sheer laziness and oh yeah, tha herp?!
I'm really kinda outing myself here, but yeah, the herp sux if you forget to take the damn meds for it and you get a surprise outbreak. It's like having a second period and it can bring on UTIs and yeast infections if not carefully addressed! Ugh.
I can deal with anxiety/depression or bi-polar whatever the hell when I'm dancing but I always wonder how camgirls deal with va-jay-jay issues/paranoia!!
reversecowgirl
07-23-2014, 08:16 AM
I have been so overwhelmed lately. Taking care of the house, camming, keeping my dogs from eating the new kitten in the house, keeping the new kitten from tearing the entire house up, picking up after myself, husband, both dogs and the cat. Dealing with shit for my neighbor while he's away. Even my phone ringing makes my skin crawl, I don't care who it is or what they need or want. I've decided to not cam again until my real bed gets here through ups, which won't be until Monday at the earliest, if it comes a couple of days later, that's fine by me too. And then the guilt comes in, inside my head, "you aren't making money", "you aren't even gonna try??", "yes a break is great, but come on, what you do isn't hard"......I don't know why it's never ok in my head for me to take a healthy break and just chill for a time. I feel like waiting til my bed gets here, and gets set up and all that, then when I do cam, it'll be new again and I will be refreshed also from this break. I feel nuts right now, for real. Idk why it's a struggle even, I just don't get it. I give myself permission to not work on any given day, and I end up working! Nobody is pushing me, or telling me to, it's ME. Idk, sorry for the rambling.
SweetJulia
07-23-2014, 09:31 AM
I can deal with anxiety/depression or bi-polar whatever the hell when I'm dancing but I always wonder how camgirls deal with va-jay-jay issues/paranoia!!
It's different for every one. For me, being on cam honestly HELPS cuz I'm seeing my pussy, day in and day out-so anything new would stand out. I'm also a bit paranoid about STDs, so I get checked very frequently.
SweetJulia
07-23-2014, 09:35 AM
@ PrincessWhooty:
It's different for every one. For me, being on cam honestly HELPS cuz I'm seeing my pussy, day in and day out-so anything new would stand out. I'm also a bit paranoid about STDs, so I get checked very frequently. I have a pretty good sex life when I'm dating, like I am now. Camming's kinda helped my satisfaction level in bed, I've learned a lot about my body from camming. Unfortunately, I'm also a bit spoiled, because I know my Hitatchi can accomplish an orgasm for me in a matter of minutes, while most guys can't do it in a half hour or longer.
anonymous camgirl
07-23-2014, 09:46 AM
I know what you say!.. it's impossible for me to enjoy any day off i have had in the last 12 yrs of camming.. I always feel guilty and think maybe my life would be better if i would have worked instead of not working.. uggh.. I think it's a struggle of the self employed. Honestly, most of the time unless something is wrong with me, sick or injured.. I only take maybe 1 day off per month .. which used to be reserved for my 1st day of menstruation but thanks to being back on dr schulze's female formula.. that's not a problem anymore!
I have been so overwhelmed lately. Taking care of the house, camming, keeping my dogs from eating the new kitten in the house, keeping the new kitten from tearing the entire house up, picking up after myself, husband, both dogs and the cat. Dealing with shit for my neighbor while he's away. Even my phone ringing makes my skin crawl, I don't care who it is or what they need or want. I've decided to not cam again until my real bed gets here through ups, which won't be until Monday at the earliest, if it comes a couple of days later, that's fine by me too. And then the guilt comes in, inside my head, "you aren't making money", "you aren't even gonna try??", "yes a break is great, but come on, what you do isn't hard"......I don't know why it's never ok in my head for me to take a healthy break and just chill for a time. I feel like waiting til my bed gets here, and gets set up and all that, then when I do cam, it'll be new again and I will be refreshed also from this break. I feel nuts right now, for real. Idk why it's a struggle even, I just don't get it. I give myself permission to not work on any given day, and I end up working! Nobody is pushing me, or telling me to, it's ME. Idk, sorry for the rambling.
reversecowgirl
07-23-2014, 01:55 PM
I must say, my first day of "no work", has gone great. I colored my hair, I've been watching reruns of Friends, and I'm getting ready to cook a fab spaghetti and garlic bread supper for tonight! Go me!!
JaneBurgess
07-23-2014, 04:43 PM
Thank you. I guess I grind my teeth and click my jaw when I'm sleeping. I'm going to have my dentist make a mouth guard. I'll have to wear it on cam and see if people find it sexy. :)
I have clinical anxiety too, Jane. This is from clenching your jaw. It can also be caused by grinding your teeth at night.
Don't worry! There's a time and season for everything. It will get better very soon. You have a lot to be excited about!
JaneBurgess
07-23-2014, 04:49 PM
Here's a pic of the outside of the house. When I'm done unpacking I'll post some pics of the inside.
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Congrats on the new house!.. You should take a pic.. haha...
justanothercamgirl
07-24-2014, 01:22 AM
I am getting to the point where my body is giving out on me and it is becoming near impossible for me to work. All I want to do is sleep.
I am not really sure what I am going to do, but I am too tired to even work up the ability to care at this point.
I pretty much am just waiting for some sort of miracle to appear so all the financial dominoes don't start falling down.
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Tigrillo
07-24-2014, 01:30 PM
hey everyone. I'm cross-posting from Life Support with this novel, because it mostly relates with my trouble with depression and anxiety right now at the suggestion of another member. It will serve a a new re-introduction, I suppose. Just to clarify I know my BF was a dick in this case but I'm not really looking for relationship advice right now, but only resources to overcome this paralyzing anxiety with the cam that is only getting worse. I've analyzed my reasons for camming and I realize I really want to do it; but I find myself more and more blocked. thanks in advance for reading and for any insights.
I'm a very new camgirl, I started working about a year ago but most of the time I've been offline. I have a lot of trouble with the anxiety and scenic panic I have when getting online, and it's getting worse.
I am not a knockout, but I was confident enough in my looks when I started last summer. I cammed for two months regularily --my longest stint-- and I was doing okay, not wonderful, but enough to know I was having fun and I felt my time was being appropriately rewarded. I had two or three people who showed often to tip, and a trickle of new small tippers here and there. it was okay.
One of the 'regs' was also somewhat of a troll, he was sometimes abrasive, aggresive, or intimidating, then he started trying to lure me out of the website so I'd talk only to him. I threw him off and started ignoring him more, he got angry and more rude, I blocked him.
Then around that same date, I casually find out at home that this troll is none other than my live-in boyfriend and the father of my child. Asshole. In the open he was nothing but supportive of my camming, and he still is, and he always said he didn't need to come watch me in my room (he wouldn't mod for me and I didn't insist), but somehow he got it into his head that it'd be fun to troll me, tip me, and in his words, 'I was actually watching out for you.' wtf?
He also mindfucked another camgirl who was my only real acquaintance-almost-friend in the camming world, and when she found out who he was --I told her, shouldn't have-- she didn't take it so well. She cut me off and what little guidance I had in the camming world I lost.
This put me off and started a depression, so I took a brake from camming and even though I want to, I have never been able to make it back and/or have fun, get a groove. I've never been able to get the money going again, be it because I'm not working on a regular schedule, or because my anxiety just doesn't let me stay on. I keep thinking I'm not going to make money, I'm not a good cammer at all, most of the money at first came from the troll and I'm good for nothing. That sort of stuff. I started drinking and I let myself go and obviously that didn't help either.
So I've been mostly offline this year and I'm always planning to start cammin again, like next week. Tomorrow. Only I never make it. I have quit drinking, started exercising again and eating right, but I still have to pay for +6 months of boozing and slacking and paralyzing depression. I have been trying to get back on cam, and today I actually logged in, but it's agonizing. I obviously didnt make any money. I need to change something in my mindset and I don't know where to start.
in my mind I know it's stupid, feeling this way, that I'm 35 and spent-up and I'm making an idiot of myself. But I can't seem to shake it off. Thanks for listening.
<3
anonymous camgirl
07-24-2014, 01:46 PM
Honestly, I read your post and you NEED relationship advice. Are you still with this guy?? I honestly feel in my heart that you shouldn't cam unless you need it to buy food and survive for your children.. you are in a bad way.. is there anything else you can do.. Don't do this.. you will sink further and further into depression , anxiety and alcohol.. you need to get your life under control before you can be an effective camgirl.. I used to love my life before cam .. i just wanted to make more money that's all.. and now it's been almost 12 yrs and I feel like you.. like a piece of shit of nothingness that no one fucking wants.. with no hope or promise.. cam did that to me.. that's my experience not the other girls.. but I never had anything else.. and i suppose it has lead me to things I wouldn't have had if i remained in vanilla jobs.. .. but I think if you are like this?? You should re-think it altogether.
JaneBurgess
07-24-2014, 03:06 PM
Dont cam unless you have too, its not a job for everyone. I have anxiety and panic attacks as well but online I am free of those. I'm not Jane the normal person on there, I'm Jane the dirty bitch that loves sex and fetishes. Camming is acting and you have to learn to be a new character in the moment. If you need someone to talk to I am around.
hey everyone. I'm cross-posting from Life Support with this novel, because it mostly relates with my trouble with depression and anxiety right now at the suggestion of another member. It will serve a a new re-introduction, I suppose. Just to clarify I know my BF was a dick in this case but I'm not really looking for relationship advice right now, but only resources to overcome this paralyzing anxiety with the cam that is only getting worse. I've analyzed my reasons for camming and I realize I really want to do it; but I find myself more and more blocked. thanks in advance for reading and for any insights.
I'm a very new camgirl, I started working about a year ago but most of the time I've been offline. I have a lot of trouble with the anxiety and scenic panic I have when getting online, and it's getting worse.
I am not a knockout, but I was confident enough in my looks when I started last summer. I cammed for two months regularily --my longest stint-- and I was doing okay, not wonderful, but enough to know I was having fun and I felt my time was being appropriately rewarded. I had two or three people who showed often to tip, and a trickle of new small tippers here and there. it was okay.
One of the 'regs' was also somewhat of a troll, he was sometimes abrasive, aggresive, or intimidating, then he started trying to lure me out of the website so I'd talk only to him. I threw him off and started ignoring him more, he got angry and more rude, I blocked him.
Then around that same date, I casually find out at home that this troll is none other than my live-in boyfriend and the father of my child. Asshole. In the open he was nothing but supportive of my camming, and he still is, and he always said he didn't need to come watch me in my room (he wouldn't mod for me and I didn't insist), but somehow he got it into his head that it'd be fun to troll me, tip me, and in his words, 'I was actually watching out for you.' wtf?
He also mindfucked another camgirl who was my only real acquaintance-almost-friend in the camming world, and when she found out who he was --I told her, shouldn't have-- she didn't take it so well. She cut me off and what little guidance I had in the camming world I lost.
This put me off and started a depression, so I took a brake from camming and even though I want to, I have never been able to make it back and/or have fun, get a groove. I've never been able to get the money going again, be it because I'm not working on a regular schedule, or because my anxiety just doesn't let me stay on. I keep thinking I'm not going to make money, I'm not a good cammer at all, most of the money at first came from the troll and I'm good for nothing. That sort of stuff. I started drinking and I let myself go and obviously that didn't help either.
So I've been mostly offline this year and I'm always planning to start cammin again, like next week. Tomorrow. Only I never make it. I have quit drinking, started exercising again and eating right, but I still have to pay for +6 months of boozing and slacking and paralyzing depression. I have been trying to get back on cam, and today I actually logged in, but it's agonizing. I obviously didnt make any money. I need to change something in my mindset and I don't know where to start.
in my mind I know it's stupid, feeling this way, that I'm 35 and spent-up and I'm making an idiot of myself. But I can't seem to shake it off. Thanks for listening.
<3
anonymous camgirl
07-24-2014, 03:09 PM
Oh Jane! you're the Tarzan to my jungle!..lol
Dont cam unless you have too, its not a job for everyone. I have anxiety and panic attacks as well but online I am free of those. I'm not Jane the normal person on there, I'm Jane the dirty bitch that loves sex and fetishes. Camming is acting and you have to learn to be a new character in the moment. If you need someone to talk to I am around.
SimoneGray
07-24-2014, 03:18 PM
I'm currently not in the US, so I'm missing out on the summer...my seasonal depression is literally kicking my ass all over the place. I have no motivation, couldn't care less about anything and sleep 13-16 out of 24 hours when I can. I hate myself like this and I hate the fact that in literally a month's time it'll be all over and I'll be back to normal. but will have to undo all the damage that this period of time has caused. I feel like an absolute failure, especially on cam. Sigh.
Tigrillo
07-24-2014, 03:41 PM
thanks everyone for your replies. I hope I'll keep checking in and contribute how I'm doing. I guess I shouldn't have been that anecdotical.
SimoneGray
07-24-2014, 03:44 PM
^^ Your post was absolutely fine lady :) this forum is here to give support, no matter the problem that you have. I hope that you can get out of your situation as soon as possible and find a happy place.
JaneBurgess
07-24-2014, 06:04 PM
LMAO!! I heart you girlie. I think sometimes we forget camming is a fantasy, even I forget it when its slow and I'm pissed. I wish the men were into no make-up and sweats.
Oh Jane! you're the Tarzan to my jungle!..lol
Pearl_Sugar
07-24-2014, 10:32 PM
Last week, I wanted to die because I was nearly evicted from my new apartment that I just moved into. Without the Church, I would certainly be on the streets with my husband and dogs.
The Church also offered to pay our August rent, so I have Sunday morning obligations from now until the rest of time.
It's a great opportunity to get caught up on bills since I'm about to lose my car insurance. While $470 before tomorrow at midnight wouldn't normally be too difficult, it's the stress of trying that does it. The anxiety creeps in, the chest pains and exhaustion come back... Thanks to my narcolepsy, the first onset of my depression is severe sleepiness. I just want to sleep. But I have to work. The men SMELL fear.
I need to go back to yoga classes. They put me right before.
pinkpink
07-26-2014, 08:36 AM
I am so sleepy & tired all the time. :( I woke up at 8am this morning. Had breakfast & a large coffee, now it's 11am and I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open. </3 I am always so tired. :(
justanothercamgirl
07-26-2014, 09:25 AM
I think my #1 issue right now is the fact that I don't make measurable and attainable goals with it comes to offcam stuff such as processing clips and editing stuff for my site. I just have this big long to-do list that I just try to plow through everyday which never seems to budge since there is so much stuff on it and things are always being forgotten about since there always seems to be a million things that always need to be done.
I've actually sat down and started estimating time for all little things that need to be done on my to do list and complete some of them is going to take a whole fucking year. No wonder I am so freaking tired all the time and my to-do list only gets longer. There just isn't enough time in a day!
So, I've prioritized my goals to the stuff that makes me money and have broken up the the rest to tiny a little amounts that can be done through the next year.
It is already driving me batty. I have an insane work ethic and things that are left 'undone' leave me with a compulsion to get it done RIGHT NOW!
I just have to suck it up. I've been doing way to much shit for a healthy person, let alone a sick one. Not having enough money is so nerve-wracking but always being a burnt out mess definitely hasn't been helping the matter either.
anonymous camgirl
07-26-2014, 10:59 AM
Yea i know JAC.. i was just talking to my older sister about how stressed out i am from all the things i need to pay for and it being slow on top of that and then she asked me if i was still taking 1 day off a week and i said no not really.. I will work 30 days before a day off...LOL>... but the thing is i do not know what is worse?? being stressed out because you are burnt out from cam?? or being stressed out cuz you don't have money?? I think it compounds my misery taking days off if you ask me.. i took tuesday off now i am short on the minimum to pay my bills so how do i feel about slacking?? no bueno
janeuk
07-27-2014, 06:38 AM
Damn it!! I've been trying to balance working hours and fatigue, logging in for just a couple of hours a day, then working during the weekend as much as I can. Yesterday this was going well, I made bank on AW and was averaging £25 an hour which I can live with. Today I'm just so exhausted, all I can do is lay down, I may try and turn my cam on later this eve.... but I'm also considering another week of low earnings so I can rest instead. AAARRGGHH!! Now to figure out how to balance the need to pay bills vs the stress of working/not working.
Hope this makes some kind of sense, I needed to share it where maybe some one will 'get' the struggle of 'too tired to get up vs camming from a collapsed position on the bed cos I NEED money'.
justanothercamgirl
07-27-2014, 09:36 AM
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AngeXx
07-27-2014, 09:48 AM
This looks like my new "home" in the camming community. Currently I'm not exactly camming per say, but I am filming clips. It's hard to work around the fam, school, lupus, anxiety, seizure disorder as well as other family stuff going on. Some days it's hard to get work stuff done.
I really look up to a lot of you ladies. I can't believe you are able to get so much accomplished! Hats off to you all!