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AChildOfBoredom
06-02-2019, 05:44 PM
Something really weird happened, and I’m not really able to wrap my head around it.
charlie61
06-02-2019, 05:52 PM
Something really weird happened, and I’m not really able to wrap my head around it.
Ooooh gurl. I hope you'll share with us! Maybe start a thread in LO?
AChildOfBoredom
06-02-2019, 06:44 PM
Ooooh gurl. I hope you'll share with us! Maybe start a thread in LO?
That might only be the tip of the iceberg. There’s been a lot of bizarre shit going on this week, none of it really related.
Where to start? My night of towing cars? Threatening to be sued for custody of my ‘refugee’ by a relative of hers who never was in the picture to begin with? A drunk dialing incident from my ‘husband’? Or weird tales of the home front? This past week felt like a Twilight Zone episode.
JGB2009
06-03-2019, 04:30 AM
School is out and its gonna be such a busy week.
WendiStarr
06-03-2019, 06:59 AM
I hope that vintage teddy bear comes by Friday of this week. It's a friend's birthday on Friday and he was telling me about a vintage teddy bear that he had as a child that was lost in a fire. I found one on ebay and I'm really hoping it comes by then.
JGB2009
06-03-2019, 04:47 PM
Well if ur at work and u cant talk....maybe you should leave ur phone in ur car or answer me later smh!!!
baer45
06-03-2019, 07:52 PM
That might only be the tip of the iceberg. There’s been a lot of bizarre shit going on this week, none of it really related.
Where to start? My night of towing cars? Threatening to be sued for custody of my ‘refugee’ by a relative of hers who never was in the picture to begin with? A drunk dialing incident from my ‘husband’? Or weird tales of the home front? This past week felt like a Twilight Zone episode.
That’s a lot! I feel you.
amberlly
06-04-2019, 03:42 AM
It's really really cold outside and constantly raining. My motivation to go out and meet new people is seriously zero.
JGB2009
06-04-2019, 04:32 AM
Don't FB message me and think I will talk to you at 2:30 am. You have a phone and ur lazy shady ass can text or call me at normal hours!!! Fuck you!!!
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-04-2019, 07:28 AM
I have a serious aversion to alcohol that i thought would dissipate over time, but it hasn't. It tastes like poison to me! I do like how it makes me feel temporarily, but even a small portion gives me aftereffects that make it clear how my body feels about the situation. I've stopped drinking completely aside from the occasional special event... and i've found that I'm getting more and more sensitive to it as i cut it out. I had three glasses of white wine at a family wedding last weekend, and it just made me feel shitty for hours afterwards. I'm not sure it's worth it to me anymore. I might go down to allowing myself one drink at special occasions. And the less i drink, the less i ever think about drinking. When i first cut it out, i was afraid I'd be so bored on the weekends without an evening cocktail to look forward to. But instead, i buy myself a special kombucha from Trader Joe's, or a nice green tea or golden milk. I treat myself to something that nourishes me.
I'm thankful for my aversion, like you, because alcoholism runs in my family, too. And i think it'd be way too easy for me to go in that direction considering my issues with depression and anxiety. By way of contrast, my younger sister has always loved the taste of alcohol and really has to keep an eye on her consumption.
I like reading through articles that support my direction, like this one:
https://www.byrdie.com/giving-up-alcohol
Luckily nowadays with weed getting legalized all over non-drinkers have an option for relaxation that does not involve alcohol.
WendiStarr
06-04-2019, 09:12 AM
Don't FB message me and think I will talk to you at 2:30 am. You have a phone and ur lazy shady ass can text or call me at normal hours!!! Fuck you!!!
It sounds like you either need to not waste any more time on this asshat and move on or you need to train him. If he doesn't act right, don't reward him with any attention. The only kind of guys who don't contact you all day until that hour of the night is someone looking for a booty call. I am going to guess that he's likely one of those flaky timewasting fuckboys. What those types do is contact as many women as possible, hoping to get a piece of ass. If they're unsuccessful they'll keep going through their contacts list with no consideration at all in regards to what time it is. Of course there are also the guys who will engage in that same fuckboy behavior but not actually try to hang out ever. They're just looking for the ego boost they get from you giving them attention, making them feel desired. I suggest you ignore him or suddenly be "busy".
carmen_b
06-04-2019, 01:41 PM
I don't want my day derailed so I have to focus.
My ex ( the 7 year one ) Aug. 2011 to Aug. 2018 is already married.
I made a mistake looking over at his FB ( ** learn from me and DON'T do this** ).
It was last week ( I knew something was up because he was in CA for 10 days ) .
I was in therapy for months last fall ( confused about why my long term partner was just leaving and not FIGHTING for us was the start and then finally realizing I had been replaced ). I will never know the full story so why even try to figure it out ?
But ...... I was lied to ( he would say he wasn't leaving me for her and that she wasn't a " good option " )!
This is an ex who LEFT him after 10 months 12 years ago.
I've made strides healing ( no more being distracted all the time and anger issues subsiding ).
I'm reminding myself to keep this about ME. What do I need ? How am I healing ? How am I growing ?
I do not look at life anymore and just see " huge loss " like I did last fall / winter.
I will keep moving forward.
carmen_b
06-04-2019, 02:16 PM
I worry a lot about the potential of needing to fight over the dog in court ( we share custody now and trade week by week ).
He said he would give me the dog if he moves out of state.
I hope he keeps his word.
JessaJade
06-04-2019, 02:32 PM
^ I hope you get your dog.
lynn2009
06-04-2019, 06:04 PM
Carmen, I hope you get your dog too!
My dog is cheating on me. The sitter emailed me "Hes being super cute! I sat down in the couch and he curled up next to me with his head on my lap. Adorable!"
Hmph.
carmen_b
06-04-2019, 06:29 PM
Thanks !
I have screen shots on his intention ( copies of texts ) to leave the dog .
I have receipts for food / grooming.
I looked up the info a few months ago in case it went to court ( courts look at a pet like a property case ).
I assembled the docs just for peace of mind.
carmen_b
06-04-2019, 06:30 PM
Everyone has been so helpful today !
B was so incredibly kind to me talking me through some things ..... I gauged first to see if he was ok with details related to an ex.
My mom called.
My friend V had me ROLLING in laughs talking about she found my ex boring and how " every time he opened his mouth in 2016 when I saw you guys I would have to pinch myself to stay awake ".
My other long term ex ( 2002 - 2009 ) who I still have a friendship with just called and said if I start to feel upset to call and he'll come get me.
EDIT : i'm not frozen. Slept and woke up without a melt down. Got the to do list done yesterday.
I will NOT back slide into obsessing. It's been nearly 9 months since he moved out. It hurts and it was horrible ( I read somewhere " replacement " hurts worse than any other break up ) but I WILL NOT just be " stuck " .
AChildOfBoredom
06-04-2019, 08:39 PM
Making friends at the gym has taught me not to make friends at the gym. I have two from the gym, I’m not sure how exactly that happened, and I dread encountering them at the gym. One is the woman who had the ankle monitor until recently, and she actually used to do some sort of semi pro wrestling. The other, she’s a firefighter. Now, I have my figure… I’m quite toned, quite athletic… they’re both still feminine, but quite built. And they want me to do the workouts they do, except I really don’t want their physique. But try explaining that to them…
WendiStarr
06-05-2019, 06:07 AM
I had something really freaky happen last night. I was almost asleep when the tv in my bedroom turned on. This was especially unsettling because I could see the remote sitting 3 ft away on the little table. I grabbed the remote and tried to turn it off. It wouldn't work. I know remotes operate on an infrared, line of sight range but there was no way I could've accidentally pressed it. I didn't have anything near it either that could've fallen and somehow hit the remote. I ended up having to unplug the tv from the wall to get it to turn off. All I can figure is either the remote's batteries are dying, causing the weirdness or there was a ghost in here who really likes the Late Night Jimmy Fallon show.
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-05-2019, 07:38 AM
I had something really freaky happen last night. I was almost asleep when the tv in my bedroom turned on. This was especially unsettling because I could see the remote sitting 3 ft away on the little table. I grabbed the remote and tried to turn it off. It wouldn't work. I know remotes operate on an infrared, line of sight range but there was no way I could've accidentally pressed it. I didn't have anything near it either that could've fallen and somehow hit the remote. I ended up having to unplug the tv from the wall to get it to turn off. All I can figure is either the remote's batteries are dying, causing the weirdness or there was a ghost in here who really likes the Late Night Jimmy Fallon show.
I'm glad you posted this, cause I have super relevant anecdotes that might explain what happened-
My dad's TV does this but we chalked it up to power going on and off (electricity and water service is spotty where he lives, so it has more to do with that than the paranormal. We laughed about it though.)
& Years ago a radio did that to me but the scary thing was 1) I had deliberately shut it off myself because someone TOLD me to make sure it was off (noise) and 2) this was in a super haunted house. I actually unplugged the radio and quit using it in that room.
My random thought- I am sabotaging my diet left and right and don't know why. Ugh.
Elektra Luxx
06-05-2019, 10:55 AM
My random thought- I am sabotaging my diet left and right and don't know why. Ugh.
Me too! ...and I'm not drinking enough water either.
Elektra Luxx
06-05-2019, 11:49 AM
I'm at work and bf is at work and we've been sexting (no pics) and now I have all this sexual energy. My legs are bouncing up and down, and opening and closing like I have to pee really bad. I can hardly stay in sitting down.
queenelayliah
06-05-2019, 02:28 PM
^ im jealous i dont have sexual engery anymore. I was always low libdio but after this industry & the digusting men in it i hate male to female sexual engery.
carmen_b
06-05-2019, 02:58 PM
Yeah for sexting !
+1
B and I got into it last night..... amazing again .
I love how he talks and what he comes up with.
He sent me a video. Uh ......whoa. Yes........
I think he has figured out how to times chats for my bed time. Haha
10:30 pm my time is 3:30 in the middle of the afternoon Sydney time .
I love that he takes time in the middle of the day there to perv with me.
WendiStarr
06-06-2019, 10:11 AM
I'm craving fish like crazy. I made some baked flounder with lemon, butter, and dill and I feel like I could eat more but it's all gone. I have salmon in my freezer and I'm seriously considering thawing it so that I can cook it. I don't know what it is with me and fish lately. It must be some of the Asian blood in me taking over. I was thinking maybe I need Omega 3 so I took an Omega 3 supplement and fish cravings are still here. This is an odd pms craving but I suppose it's better than my usual pms carb binge.
Ladycaxe
06-06-2019, 03:02 PM
I just got a hybrid lash extension set. Honestly I like classic better. Lot wispier IMO :)
What kind of lash extensions do u guys get?
Ladycaxe
06-06-2019, 03:56 PM
Another random thot... Hair relaxers. What many black woman use to make their kinky tresses straight.
TBH, I feel like the whole "If you dont wear your hair natural you dont love your hair/self". well yknow the fuck what. I went natural for a couple years and hated every second of it LOL.
I gave up appeasing to the whole stigma of chemically straightening ur hair. I'm a highkey lazy person already, I dont have the time or desire to deal w/ my 4b hair.
When my hair grew to about 1 inch after my THIRD big chop, I relaxed it. AND FUCKING LOVE IT. Finger Waves on fleek. I regret doing my 3rd big chop. I grew my hair natural for a year and.......yeah no. Not my dang style. I wish I had just relaxed it. Now I'm starting over.
But I'm happy. At least I know what I (emphasis on the EYE) like.
It's time to relax my hair again. Cant wait to see how long it's gotten. I love wigs and have a curly (probably 3c hair type wig). I'm not trying to kiss the natural hair journeys ass anymore. My hair is still my hair, and I still love it. I just like it manageable, sleek, and easy lol. Btw When I relaxed it, it was bleached, and my hair was SUPER SOFT afterwards. it did get dry the days after. But I just deep conditioned every other day. Since then I've also box dyed It blonde so I'm hoping it won't damage it severely.... but TBH my hair is STILL super soft after so many treatments.
That was my rant. Thanks <3
carmen_b
06-06-2019, 04:09 PM
I wish I would have gotten on the road for my weekend strip trip.
It's too late in the day to arrive without paying a crazy stage fee.
I feel so lost with what to do with the evening. ;/
Looking at the ex's FB and seeing the wedding photo ( obviously ) took a toll.
I feel like sticking to earnings goals will help. It definitely won't hurt. It's not even *him* really.
Domino effect. I was sad that B didn't grab the chance to link back up quickly with me.
It's kind of the unfairness that gets me. I'm debating on IF my out of country lover is even GOING to see me again. He is taking this huge step. It's only been 8.5-9 months. We were together 7 years.
I'd rather earn and be ahead at the end of this month ( flexibility for July !) than be frozen or fall behind.
I have the dog for my week now.
WendiStarr
06-06-2019, 08:15 PM
^ ^ I've been seriously considering getting eyelash extensions. I'm a glasses wearing nerd though. I think that somehow the lashes would shed faster because of that.
Ladycaxe
06-07-2019, 02:54 AM
^ ^ I've been seriously considering getting eyelash extensions. I'm a glasses wearing nerd though. I think that somehow the lashes would shed faster because of that.
Nope! I wear glasses. I just asked to make them the highest level of curve .
I didn't get a fill for 3 weeks, the tech was shocked at how many I still had left lol.
Just dont get them wet the first 48 hours ;P I wore goggles in the shower lmao
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-07-2019, 06:59 AM
I was wondering why I was feeling sad recently and realized the anniversaries of some very tragic events were coming up. Now I feel less nuts for not being able to pinpoint why I felt so uncontrollably sad.
WendiStarr
06-07-2019, 08:14 AM
I happened to have a digital pregnancy test laying around so I decided to take it since my period hasn't started. I was honestly expecting that it would say "not pregnant" seeing as how I took a break from fertility drugs last month and have fertility issues. I was surprised to see "pregnant". I took a picture of it. I am so excited and scared at the same time. I am still in shock. I'm only 4 weeks. I'm scared to tell people yet because of my past history of miscarriages.
Elektra Luxx
06-07-2019, 08:15 AM
^^^
Yay!!! Congratulations!!!
lynn2009
06-07-2019, 08:27 AM
Wendi, congratulations!
NitaBaby
06-07-2019, 08:38 AM
CONGRATS WENDI! I send positive vibrations your way!
Elektra Luxx
06-08-2019, 08:57 AM
My niece was visiting yesterday and this morning I open my fridge and find her little Peppa Pig figurine on the shelf next to the juice. I left it there because it was sooo cute!
baer45
06-08-2019, 10:24 AM
A few months of dancing in various places made my face recognizable in the local dance club. Strangers came to me to tell me that they are looking forward to dancing with me again. I Wish developing clients is that easy, especially when I don't need to remember their names or faces.
NitaBaby
06-09-2019, 06:54 AM
On everything I love and hold dear...I want to take today off. But I'd be a flaming idiot to willingly skip out on a Sunday shift.
NitaBaby
06-09-2019, 10:22 AM
Is anyone making money today? I'm trying to justify sleeping in and playing Sims for the next 12 hours.
AChildOfBoredom
06-09-2019, 02:21 PM
My niece was visiting yesterday and this morning I open my fridge and find her little Peppa Pig figurine on the shelf next to the juice. I left it there because it was sooo cute!
That makes me think of this…
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My friend two children just learned what a lemonade stand was, so they wanted to have one, and that’s what they’re doing now (supervised by my sister and my ‘refugee’, of course) out on my front yard. They seem like they’re having a blast.
WendiStarr
06-10-2019, 06:51 AM
Why can't there be a fast forward button in life? I wish I was past the first trimester already so that I can tell my family and friends. I'm annoyed with my ob/gyn. She won't see me until I am at least 10 weeks pregnant. You'd think that she'd want to see me sooner because of my past history of miscarriages. Every little cramp, twinge, or pulling sensation freaks me out and makes me worry that something bad is going to happen. I need you to stay put in there, bean!
Elektra Luxx
06-10-2019, 10:51 AM
Bf and I are texting...
Bf: I want to work at Little Caesar's Pizza.
Me: ???
Bf: Because I'm Hot and Ready.
*sigh*
I'm breaking up with him because of that joke.
miss.a.p1600
06-10-2019, 11:38 AM
Lol!!!!!
The joke is flirtatious but also ..... kind of cheesy (lol!)
charlie61
06-10-2019, 12:53 PM
My oldest cat (he's probably like 15-17, not sure since he's a rescue) has a tumor close to his right armpit. His quality of life is great, and he still plays and has his usual personality (he doesn't seem sick). I could take him into the vet to get a biopsy and (most likely) surgery, but i don't think i will. Every animal has to die of something at some point, and he's old enough that i don't feel like it'd make sense to put him through all of that stress. Am i crazy? I'd obviously take him in if he showed signs of pain / distress (e.g. not cleaning himself, not eating, not playing).
Aurora_Sunset
06-10-2019, 05:30 PM
Bf and I are texting...
Bf: I want to work at Little Caesar's Pizza.
Me: ???
Bf: Because I'm Hot and Ready.
*sigh*
I'm breaking up with him because of that joke.
lmao!
I miss very little about my ex, but if there's anything, it's 2 things:
-The overzealous way he poured my giant glasses of wine and always made sure it was topped off
-And his horrible, terrible, awful, amazing puns lol
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-10-2019, 05:40 PM
My oldest cat (he's probably like 15-17, not sure since he's a rescue) has a tumor close to his right armpit. His quality of life is great, and he still plays and has his usual personality (he doesn't seem sick). I could take him into the vet to get a biopsy and (most likely) surgery, but i don't think i will. Every animal has to die of something at some point, and he's old enough that i don't feel like it'd make sense to put him through all of that stress. Am i crazy? I'd obviously take him in if he showed signs of pain / distress (e.g. not cleaning himself, not eating, not playing).
I'd go with the vet recommendation. My dog has a large benign tumor that I thought was bad news but it actually ended up shrinking (it come back, I'm guessing it has to do with his anal glands.) It's obviously not cancer. Animals like people start showing their age at a point- but it's not always immediately fatal.
TBH vets are understanding of people's choices about treatment. I personally err on the side of caution as I'd hate myself if I put my pet in pain just to delay my emotional pain.
AChildOfBoredom
06-10-2019, 08:29 PM
That motherfucker…
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tina4u
06-11-2019, 08:50 AM
my cats name is mittens
carmen_b
06-11-2019, 10:43 AM
Do I stick to the " same as usual " ( location and club ) for late June or do MONTANA ?
I'm usually so good about picking the next place. ;/
indiegirl
06-11-2019, 11:43 AM
I had a job interview over the phone scheduled for a new job and they hired someone else early into the interview process. It’s tough out there with jobs it seems. I kept thinking “WHO was it! I need to know who took my spot!” Lol back to the job lottery process I go!