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lynn2009
06-11-2019, 05:46 PM
My dog curls up with me unprompted most times in the evenings and now and despite myself I love that dumb little asshole.
JGB2009
06-11-2019, 09:48 PM
I only will be able to do 5 hour on cam instead of 8. I need to learn to start on time :(
AChildOfBoredom
06-12-2019, 05:11 AM
I love how I look at clothes online and their ‘extra small’ is worn by a 5’10” model.
JGB2009
06-12-2019, 06:21 AM
Today someone related to my kids will have brain surgery to remove a cancerous tumor. Life can be so unfair.
miss.a.p1600
06-12-2019, 06:28 AM
I want to crawl back in bed
carmen_b
06-12-2019, 10:08 AM
I probably shouldn't have fished all day and smoked up with my old bf from 2002-2009. His partner ( he had a long term gf 2012-2018 ) cheated. My heart feels so bad for him. If we hang again , I'm putting a rule in to not talk about ex's. We wasted the whole day talking about tales of people doing us wrong.
It was nice to vent but I'm a phase of pushing FORWARD so I do not want to tell my story anymore of my break up last Aug.
Moving on means closing the story.
I feel for him too. He was admittedly not the best lover. I hope he is more resilient than he has been ( he has a long history of not dating / not trying for a year or two after break ups ). ;/
I assume he got better in the last 7-8 years and it does NOT justify cheating on her part. I was admittedly also really messed up when we dated. I wasn't having sex ( due to a religious past ). I was an " everything but " girl so I basically tortured this poor man for years. I think it's part of why I so heavily prioritize the sexual side of life now. I'm making up for SO MUCH lost time in my 20's.
carmen_b
06-12-2019, 12:37 PM
I think I figured out why I feel like hell.
I haven't had any time to myself at all. I had club customers pulling at me Fri . / Sat.
Then I drove three hours , had a small nap and went for beers with my friend M ( I limit my contact with him because he is high maintenance sometimes and I hadn't seen him in 6 weeks ).
I went to a get together with family Monday, slept like CRAP that night, then met with the old bf Tuesday to fish.
That was a lot of fun and socializing packed into a short time! I'm so happy to rest today.
I'm planning a massage at 3:30.
If anyone calls , I'm pretending I'm still in the forest without a phone signal even though I'm in the city enjoying strong AC.
lynn2009
06-12-2019, 05:07 PM
I'm kind of embarrassed about this now, but my dog is extremely dog reactive and worse since I was away for a night last week. Like constantly barking at other dogs and people even when they are out of sight and starting to growl a couple of times. So tonight a dog got away from their owner and bolted for us and I immediately panicked and picked up my dog and held him to me so he couldn't bite and when the owner finally got to us and was trying to wrangle her dog I was repeating "this is making me nervous" cause her dog kept trying to jump up. Anyway she finally got her dog and I put down mine without realizing he got out of his harness, so then he went over to her dogs (there were three total) and I shouted his name cause I thought for sure he would bite but all they did was sniff before I snatched mine up again. Maybe they could have met and been friendly but my dog is way too unpredictable right now and I was not about to risk anything.
BambiCutie
06-12-2019, 06:09 PM
Holy hell that is terrifying.. Thankfully your dog wasn't bit!
(Random Thought)
Do any cam girls feel like men stare or head turn in public? When I was active a long time back, I felt like all these guys would take notice or would stare for a while, like they've seen me somewhere. Now as I am no longer active, I don't notice this anymore.. Funny thought that has crossed my mind quite a few times.
lynn2009
06-12-2019, 06:14 PM
Holy hell that is terrifying.. Thankfully your dog wasn't bit!
I think her dog was probably friendly and just excited. I'm a worrier about everything. Everything ended ok though, I guess that is all that matters. I'm sure I'll run into them again and we can chat.
Ladycaxe
06-12-2019, 07:06 PM
I'm no longer calling the strip club "work". I have other things in life I want to do.
It's time for me to start using the strip club simply to fund my art career.
I dont want to be comfortable in being a solely an exotic dancer forever.
I have people that really believe in my talent
it's time for me to believe it also and not letting it go to waste.
I'm going to start spending less time at the strip club and more time working on my art.
I still will never forget or hate this industry I love it so much and wish to express it through my art anyway.
It's dope, that I can do both and always can if I need some quick $.
But yesterday was weird, and I spent so much time waiting for customers (there was a lot, mostly cheap tho)
even after I had already made a fair amount of $.
Next nights like this, instead of wasting 3 hours sulking, I'm gonna go home and get creative.
I hope one day I can use my art to make enough money that I dont NEED to be at the club.
I'm already counting the months.
I'm determined.
Ladycaxe
06-12-2019, 07:09 PM
I have to remember that not everyone in this world possesses the same talents that I possess.
I'm going to take advantage...
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-12-2019, 08:54 PM
..I just figured out a good friend of mine refuses to do a YouTube channel or blog because she doesn't want some of her relatives tracking her down, plus she also was aware of what Facebook was going to turn into, so she never put her info on there.
(I've been telling her for years to share about her life on the Internet- she grew up in 1960s San Francisco. HOWEVER her life has been hard enough that [in her mind] bringing all that up would just upset her and lead to violated privacy. It's so sad, the world is missing out on her wisdom.)
JGB2009
06-13-2019, 04:16 AM
Holy hell that is terrifying.. Thankfully your dog wasn't bit!
(Random Thought)
Do any cam girls feel like men stare or head turn in public? When I was active a long time back, I felt like all these guys would take notice or would stare for a while, like they've seen me somewhere. Now as I am no longer active, I don't notice this anymore.. Funny thought that has crossed my mind quite a few times.
I do......always makes me feel like they know who I am. Once I even thought a guy cashier called me by my cam name. I pretended I didn't hear him. To do this day I'm not sure if he said my name or not but still....
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-13-2019, 08:35 AM
I do......always makes me feel like they know who I am. Once I even thought a guy cashier called me by my cam name. I pretended I didn't hear him. To do this day I'm not sure if he said my name or not but still....
In those scenarios a non-response is the best response. Years ago a crackhead sociopath dancer told one of her out of the club tricks what my real name was (a food order mistake on my part resulted in people knowing it) and this fucking guy came in and tried having a conversation with me by dropping my real name. LUCKILY the DJ had the volume up on the music at that moment so I just played it off as "I didn't hear you" and I walked away.
IMO a lot of guys will try fishing for info (it's also called "cold reading" in some social settings, you throw out conversational feelers and see what sticks.)
carmen_b
06-13-2019, 09:12 AM
^ Exactly. Ignore. Act confused.
If someone is stupid enough to use an adult work name " out and about " ..... they deserve to be ignored anyway.
They can't 100% PROVE it's you anyway ! People do look similar ect.
lynn2009
06-13-2019, 10:11 AM
I am not going to quit my job, nope, nope. Everything is great. Totally great.
WendiStarr
06-13-2019, 07:50 PM
I'm so glad that tomorrow is Friday. Woohoo! Bring on the lazy weekend.
miss.a.p1600
06-13-2019, 08:06 PM
^ Exactly. Ignore. Act confused.
If someone is stupid enough to use an adult work name " out and about " ..... they deserve to be ignored anyway.
They can't 100% PROVE it's you anyway ! People do look similar ect.
Reminds me of the time I saw this broad I knew from high school like 10 years later. I was like oh hey (insert government name here) and she was like no not me with a confused look.
In my mind at first I was like I know that’s you but she was so convincing that I was mistaken that I started questioning myself.
Idk maybe she was in witness protection program or something or she had reinvented herself or something
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-13-2019, 08:17 PM
Reminds me of the time I saw this broad I knew from high school like 10 years later. I was like oh hey (insert government name here) and she was like no not me with a confused look.
In my mind at first I was like I know that’s you but she was so convincing that I was mistaken that I started questioning myself.
Idk maybe she was in witness protection program or something or she had reinvented herself or something
She must have had understandable reasons.
Random thought- looking forward to bed.
miss.a.p1600
06-13-2019, 08:20 PM
Yeah I ran into her at the grocery store
And it took me a while to process why she denied being herself
But I just left it alone and quit trying to figure it out
Once I started working in adult industry and having double life I could relate to people who like privacy regarding their identity
AChildOfBoredom
06-13-2019, 08:27 PM
Is it wrong of give to give a hard ‘no’ to any prospects who have children? This triggered a bit of debate between a friend and I, where she pointed out, “but you have a 17 year-old”.
I don’t really see that as being the same thing, though. I took her in when she was 15, because the shelter really wasn’t a place for minors, and obtaining custody of her vs. getting her emancipated was more a matter of being able to put her on my health insurance than me needing to ‘raise’ her in any way.
carmen_b
06-13-2019, 08:56 PM
^ It's NOT wrong. Having kids takes SO MUCH.
Full time kids are a hard no for me ( always has been ). Honestly, kid at all was a no until recently.
Now I'm open to considering a situation such as half time with REALLY good organization ( is there ever though haha ).
Hypothetically .
That is speaking from a point of being open minded and trying it ( back in 2010 ). I STILL want to claw my eyes out even thinking of that person referencing kids movies.
Don't even get me started on the shit-show organization ( you can't really use that word even ) he had with the ex.
AChildOfBoredom
06-14-2019, 03:18 AM
It seems to be a touchy issue. Just leaves me feeling a little divided, I guess. My friend has two, and she’ll need some time, I’m sure… it wasn’t that long ago that she lost her husband, but I don’t expect that she’ll stay single or celibate forever (and she’s already been asked out), and I feel kinda hypocritical because I don’t want the fact that she had two children to impede her when she’s ready to move on, yet I have absolutely zero interest in dating anyone who has them.
Between my younger sister and my ‘refugee’, I feel like I’ve already gotten a taste at least of the emotional labor which goes into it… regardless their background story, they’re still teenage girls. And that’s with two mostly self-sufficient people who contribute. Really don’t want to deal with children, especially someone else’s.
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-14-2019, 07:41 AM
It seems to be a touchy issue. Just leaves me feeling a little divided, I guess. My friend has two, and she’ll need some time, I’m sure… it wasn’t that long ago that she lost her husband, but I don’t expect that she’ll stay single or celibate forever (and she’s already been asked out), and I feel kinda hypocritical because I don’t want the fact that she had two children to impede her when she’s ready to move on, yet I have absolutely zero interest in dating anyone who has them.
Between my younger sister and my ‘refugee’, I feel like I’ve already gotten a taste at least of the emotional labor which goes into it… regardless their background story, they’re still teenage girls. And that’s with two mostly self-sufficient people who contribute. Really don’t want to deal with children, especially someone else’s.
Very occasionally you'll meet parents who push their teens to be extra independent (learning how to drive early, afterschool jobs, building a resume on summer break.) In those cases the teens have little bearing on their parent's LTRs because they pretty much start life on their own at 18. (Or sooner.)
I can totally see how someone opts out of dating someone with kids and I avoided it for my own reasons. My personal view is I would find it messed up if a parent put me ahead of their own kids. BUT this is my personal view from my own life experiences.
JessaJade
06-14-2019, 08:05 AM
I made vegan chocolate mousse with aquafaba for the first time and it is really good.
WendiStarr
06-14-2019, 03:57 PM
I'm glad my boyfriend left to visit his nephew for a few hours because we went on a spontaneous 2 hour road trip today. He got distracted and wanted to stop at all these places on the way. Sometimes I am convinced that he must be half human and half dog.
AChildOfBoredom
06-15-2019, 05:55 AM
Very occasionally you'll meet parents who push their teens to be extra independent (learning how to drive early, afterschool jobs, building a resume on summer break.) In those cases the teens have little bearing on their parent's LTRs because they pretty much start life on their own at 18. (Or sooner.)
I can totally see how someone opts out of dating someone with kids and I avoided it for my own reasons. My personal view is I would find it messed up if a parent put me ahead of their own kids. BUT this is my personal view from my own life experiences.
Yeah, I’d feel weird about it, as well. I think even “my” 17 y/o, I would always prioritize much higher. Between my commitments elsewhere, dark humor, generally cynical state of mind, plus my failure to find interest in anyone I’ve been on dates with so far, I really should give the dating game a pause.
Elektra Luxx
06-15-2019, 01:08 PM
I'm so glad it's the weekend.
JenniferNorth
06-15-2019, 03:27 PM
I'm glad I re-committed to focusing on myself, my work and my family, because I feel a lot better and happier now.
I am feeling bummed because there is a hot air balloon company out here, and so far it has been too cold/rainy/dangerous for them to have balloon tours. When they do, we always see tons near our home.
carmen_b
06-15-2019, 03:44 PM
Damn. I think the house keeper flaked.
Double damn it. She told me 3:30 - 4:30 arrival and it's 4:44. Bummer. Oh well, $60-$80 saved I guess .
Due to being lazy about making social plans I have none, so I can do this myself I guess. I was looking forward to that awesome pro level scrub though .
whirlerz
06-15-2019, 04:38 PM
I love to annoy some of the blues. :)
AChildOfBoredom
06-16-2019, 04:55 AM
So the bicycle shop my friend’s been working at has been participating in pride events and such. Well, when you come from a community where it’s a subject so taboo as to not be mentioned, I feel like it might be overwhelming for her. She’s trying to keep an open mind about it, but I feel like it’s too much exposure too fast for her. The very thought of having a pass made at her by another woman had never occurred to her, and now it’s happening.
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-16-2019, 06:08 AM
Yeah, I’d feel weird about it, as well. I think even “my” 17 y/o, I would always prioritize much higher. Between my commitments elsewhere, dark humor, generally cynical state of mind, plus my failure to find interest in anyone I’ve been on dates with so far, I really should give the dating game a pause.
This is a cliché saying about finding love but it never happens when you're seeking it out.
Or "a watched pot never boils." Focusing too hard on making something natural happen will hurt the outcome.
My random thought- CNN did a multi-part series on the rock band The Eagles recently. I had four decade overdue realization that their song "Life In The Fast Lane" gets played constantly on radio stations in California because driving on highways is an essential part of living in California. Basically the DJs are being clever lol....
(This is remarkable b/c due to popularity The Eagles are part of American culture now. There's even a scene in the movie "The Big Lebowski" that refers to this.)
JenniferNorth
06-16-2019, 08:49 AM
I'm reminding myself that right after the storms of life we experience, something wonderful is about to happen.
AChildOfBoredom
06-17-2019, 01:33 PM
Today on “leave that out of your Tinder bio and all conversations from here on out”…
When my former roommate left to go work for the city, he stayed on part-time at his old job to help his supervisor there out. So I was talking to him today, and he was telling me how they got a new supervisor who screwed all the part-timers over, first by cutting their pay and then finding excuses to fire them.
So when it happened to him, he went home, then came back after the supervisor had left for the weekend, to turn his uniforms in and get his tools. So he found two dead birds while he was out. He laid them out on the supervisor’s desk, cut them open with a razor blade, and left them sitting on his desk over the weekend.
whirlerz
06-17-2019, 02:00 PM
Eew, but yeah she deserved it
JGB2009
06-17-2019, 11:03 PM
Its 2 am and I have to be up in 3 hours!!!
WendiStarr
06-18-2019, 02:11 AM
Nightime nausea has struck and I can't fall back asleep.
Glamourmilf
06-18-2019, 08:10 AM
I saw both a bobcat AND a coyote roaming the streets near my house.
I reported it on the neighborhood app Nextdoor.
The response I got was, " Well, that's nature. You should embrace that they have every right to be here as we humans do."
Cut to yesterday, when a couple of people are posting about finding dead cats in their yard, dismembered.
Uh, ok.
carmen_b
06-18-2019, 02:53 PM
Anyone that brings me weed edibles, food, and a boner will be handsomely rewarded. Act now !
Update : Damn , the universe didn't hear my plea. Maybe this weekend ! I am hoping. ;)
WendiStarr
06-18-2019, 08:25 PM
It feels so good to be laying in my bed right now.
trustfundkiller
06-18-2019, 08:43 PM
So I bought a new convertible and spent the entire weekend enjoying it. I now have the weirdest seatbelt tan line. Not sure how I'm going to get around this at work. It's very noticeable. I guess a lot of bronzer over my chest and hoping the dark lights will be forgiving. Lesson learned. Long sleeves only if I'm going top down for an extended period of time. I don't know why I didn't foresee this happening. D'oh.
lilylilylily
06-18-2019, 08:54 PM
I'm coming down with a cold now , ( I went on a date on Saturday and he told me he had a cold, I told him let's reschedule then, but he didnt want to.. long story short, I now have a cold) I wanted some tea before going to bed but all I have left is the kind that makes you go poo, I drank it. Not a good idea lol
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-19-2019, 07:59 AM
...I noticed my boyfriend is way more receptive to conversations when we're on long drives. Not that he ignores me ever (his mind is like a steel trap) but he's noticeably more interested when he's driving.
carmen_b
06-19-2019, 10:08 AM
Congrast on the new ride !
So I bought a new convertible and spent the entire weekend enjoying it. I now have the weirdest seatbelt tan line. Not sure how I'm going to get around this at work. It's very noticeable. I guess a lot of bronzer over my chest and hoping the dark lights will be forgiving. Lesson learned. Long sleeves only if I'm going top down for an extended period of time. I don't know why I didn't foresee this happening. D'oh.
Glamourmilf
06-19-2019, 10:54 AM
So I bought a new convertible and spent the entire weekend enjoying it. I now have the weirdest seatbelt tan line. Not sure how I'm going to get around this at work. It's very noticeable. I guess a lot of bronzer over my chest and hoping the dark lights will be forgiving. Lesson learned. Long sleeves only if I'm going top down for an extended period of time. I don't know why I didn't foresee this happening. D'oh.
Congratulations!!! I love love love my convertible!!
I know what you mean about the tan lines. I get them on my feet after driving mine ( I wear flip-flops).
I always wonder how the sun gets THERE?
But, then I realize that I live on the surface of the sun. Lol!:hot:
I have these furry seat belt covers, which might help you.
51498
trustfundkiller
06-19-2019, 01:51 PM
Congrast on the new ride !
Thank you!!!
trustfundkiller
06-19-2019, 01:53 PM
Congratulations!!! I love love love my convertible!!
I know what you mean about the tan lines. I get them on my feet after driving mine ( I wear flip-flops).
I always wonder how the sun gets THERE?
But, then I realize that I live on the surface of the sun. Lol!:hot:
I have these furry seat belt covers, which might help you.
51498
Oooh thank you! That's awesome -- I'll have to order some and hopefully they help! Come to think about it I think I have some slight flip flop tan lines too lol. Oh well, it's worth the fun!
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-19-2019, 07:19 PM
We should do a new Pick Up Artist thread in this section. I feel bad threadjacking another thread with the topic.