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Glamourmilf
08-14-2019, 07:37 AM
Is this for real? Like in the US or some other country? Sorry. It's early, I'm brain dead. I constantly get suggested YT vids that lead to Illuminati type stuff and I feel that for some reason or another, conspiracy things always find me.
Yes, in the US.
YouTube is heavily censoring, and taking down channels that talk about conspiracies.
Just look at Richie from Boston channel, and you'll get all the information on that, and more.
Or Many Fish channel.

carmen_b
08-14-2019, 08:53 AM
I can’t seem to blend stripper life and camping out of the car anymore .
They are at such odds with each other.
Currently I'm the ugly girl car camping. Even getting club ready would take a serious beauty stop / maybe a hotel room, haha.
75 minutes outside glacier now !!!!
Yessssss
Any Montana SW girls want to do an epic scenic adventure tomorrow ( going to the sun road ).
This is a serious offer !

lurkingtitties
08-14-2019, 09:47 AM
Yeaaa I can’t even imagine going into the club for shifts while car camping. Maybe when I was 21 and more focused on adventuring than bringing home the big bucks...

It’s not unheard of for people in my field to do tent or 5th wheel/RV camping during clinical rotations or travel contracts. Perhaps a little more compatible since the medical field has you getting up at the asscrack of dawn anyway for work. Definitely takes a certain personality type though. I may look into it after I graduate and get some experience at a permanent job for a bit first!

baer45
08-14-2019, 09:50 AM
It's kinda cool how even the president is admitting to believing in certain conspiracy theories.


He’s not admitting. He’s deflecting. Trump is a POS. He’s with Jeffrey Epstein as many times as Clinton might have been. He failed trade deal, healthcare, and he’s racist or either too stupid to realize he’s a racist. He’s also anti all immigrants. So it’s a deflection from any discussion about his failures. Not to discuss the politics here. Just not a fan of trump this person.

carmen_b
08-14-2019, 04:37 PM
There are some serious road warrior girls on here who gave me tips ( like using truck stop bathroom rented showers .... you can be in there forever and they won't say anything ) but for now I've just got to keep it separate. I'd rather just SEE things now and then go back to my home club and usual routine.
I feel a sadness about it because I LOVE trying new clubs but I just feel like this is what the right thing is right now.

I've done well the last few days ..... sleeping till 9a.m. with earplugs and a mask on my face.
I had into Glacier early tomorrow . I'm nervous haha. ;/ It's 50 miles and I'll be totally prepared of course ( water / food / bear spray ). It's even cool enough to leave my dog in the car so going with him isn't as limiting in this area as places sometimes are . I'm excited !


Yeaaa I can’t even imagine going into the club for shifts while car camping. Maybe when I was 21 and more focused on adventuring than bringing home the big bucks...

It’s not unheard of for people in my field to do tent or 5th wheel/RV camping during clinical rotations or travel contracts. Perhaps a little more compatible since the medical field has you getting up at the asscrack of dawn anyway for work. Definitely takes a certain personality type though. I may look into it after I graduate and get some experience at a permanent job for a bit first!

WendiStarr
08-14-2019, 04:57 PM
Must stay awake. I've been wanting to fall asleep since 5pm.

Glamourmilf
08-15-2019, 07:10 AM
I posted this over in CC too.
I have Jeffrey Epstein's Black Book. One of the conspiracy theorist posted it. Big balls on that guy.
It's on a PDF file, which i now have on my computer.
Lots of surprising and not so surprising names in it.
Not just names and phone numbers.
Addresses, emails, even passwords.
Sadly, the list of underage ' massage' girls are listed too. Not all, but some.
Ivanka, Ivana, Naomi Campbell, Janice Dickenson, ghiselle Maxwell ( and her entire family).
Lots of people in LA, which is no surprise to me.
Hello Courtney Love.
Ugh!
So disgusting​.51732

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-15-2019, 07:14 AM
I posted this over in CC too.
I have Jeffrey Epstein's Black Book. One of the conspiracy theorist posted it. Big balls on that guy.
It's on a PDF file, which i now have on my computer.
Lots of surprising and not so surprising names in it.
Not just names and phone numbers.
Addresses, emails, even passwords.
Sadly, the list of underage ' massage' girls are listed too. Not all, but some.
Ivanka, Ivana, Naomi Campbell, Janice Dickenson, ghiselle Maxwell ( and her entire family).
Lots of people in LA, which is no surprise to me.
Hello Courtney Love.
Ugh!
So disgusting​.51732

There was talk on reddit about this...…


Keep in mind Jeff and "pals" were also using people to get info for blackmail, aside from the other awful things they'd do. This whole mess sounds like "Dangerous Liasons" on steroids and high grade coke...lol...

Side note- there have been loud whispers about this stuff for decades, now it's all blowing up. Also some Hollywood elite are getting outed as rapists- social media is making it easier to report and share info about these guys.

lurkingtitties
08-15-2019, 10:10 AM
It's even cool enough to leave my dog in the car so going with him isn't as limiting in this area as places sometimes are . I'm excited !

That is something I really appreciate about where I currently live! There's maybe 25 days total in the summer where I have to leave the car running with AC if I bring him somewhere. The rest of the time I leave him in there with the windows open. (My area is extremely safe and even if it wasn't he's big and would fuck up anyone who tried to put their hands in the car)

WendiStarr
08-15-2019, 07:07 PM
2 more weeks until I find out for sure what gender is in there. So far I have 10 boy votes and 2 girl votes. My intuition is saying boy. I wonder if it'll be right.

JGB2009
08-15-2019, 10:30 PM
I so wish I could snuggle and fall asleep with you right now.....instead I am watching scandal and waiting for cams shows!!! What a trade!!!!

WendiStarr
08-16-2019, 09:16 AM
Today is moving day!! I just picked up the keys to my new place. I'm excited!!

Aurora_Sunset
08-16-2019, 11:59 AM
You're not a psychopath, but if you're musing on the best time to beat someone to death, it might be an indicator of your current mindset. Not that you're considering hurting someone or yourself, but maybe reflecting some anger or frustrations. I do believe you need a couple of drinks or some weed and relax. Also, you might need a few hours away from hubby. I love my bf, but he drives me crazy sometimes and just being in another room by myself helps.

You're not wrong. I picked up a lot of shifts at my part-time job this month, to the point where I'm practically there full-time again. And there's a reason I quit... I can handle one day at a time there - 1 and a half max. By the time I hit halfway through a second day in a row, I lose my shit, without fail. I hate it there so much, and I'm so angry I had to pick up so much this month. But the new vanilla job is still dragging their feet on giving me a start date any time soon and I really need the solid paycheck around worrying about Uber-ing enough to pay all the bills.

I was just thinking last night too about how badly I wanted a night to myself. I love my husband, but I used to have this specific line-up of stupid music videos, youtube videos, and shows I would watch on late nights to myself with some wine and weed. Having the day to myself is one thing, but it feels weird never having a night to just lie around and do silly "me" things. It's not the end of the world, but I do think a couple days away from ALL people would do wonders for my current patience levels. Just feels like there's always something else that has to be done with free time.

carmen_b
08-16-2019, 04:22 PM
He doesn’t ever work late or a boys night ? ^
That’s tricky.

carmen_b
08-16-2019, 10:23 PM
Car camping has ended!
Got a hotel last night.
Best money I’ve spent all year !!
I'm proud of myself for saving $300-$400 I guess. Hotels in this area were all $150-$200 a night. I just looked again and the motel 6 is still $148!

I think in a way I wanted to prove to myself I could just throw my little set up together and go ( a spot to sleep in my SUV with the seats folded down ) . The experience grossed me out and I see I have clearly grown up and changed. Lol.

Glamourmilf
08-17-2019, 08:05 AM
Car camping has ended!
Got a hotel last night.
Best money I’ve spent all year !!
I'm proud of myself for saving $300-$400 I guess. Hotels in this area were all $150-$200 a night. I just looked again and the motel 6 is still $148!

I think in a way I wanted to prove to myself I could just throw my little set up together and go ( a spot to sleep in my SUV with the seats folded down ) . The experience grossed me out and I see I have clearly grown up and changed. Lol.
Wow, motel 6 is $148? Where? Dubai? OMG that's crazy!
I have flashbacks reading about sleeping in your SUV.
When I was homeless, a guy I knew let me sleep in his nonworking van.
The hatchback didn't close.
It was so cold and dirty, that I literally was praying for death. Or for some wild animal to eat me.
No shower, no bathroom. Completely grossed me out.
When I got into the guesthouse at the Airbnb, I wanted to cry tears of joy!

carmen_b
08-17-2019, 09:06 AM
^ It was in Kalispell Montana. Tourist season for Glacier National Park.
So ..... I did see it ( the first night sleeping in the SUV didn't bother me ..... I was over it by night #2 ... i found a hot spring ..... shower included which made it easy ).
I ended up going south ( and leaving a few things I wanted to see undone ) in order to get to more affordable hotels .
I am finding the towns of Helena and Butte really charming anyway ( lots of mining history ) .

AirBnB in Kalispell was a ghost town with NO openings. Next time ( there will be a next time as I loved Glacier ), I'll get the AirBnB thing done well ahead of time, I did see some $50-$70 rooms ( in shared houses which is fine for me ) but they were all taken.

Aurora_Sunset
08-17-2019, 09:27 AM
Memoirs of a Geisha always tugs really hard at my heartstrings. It's such a story of people's lives being dictated by circumstance. I've watched it multiple times, and I think it hit me hardest on this go-round because I realized the ending really isn't all that happy. The main character gets what she always wanted, but no one else does. Multiple people's dreams and lives torn away from them. The man who was in love with her having his heart crushed after all the years that she played in to seducing him. I even feel bad for Hatsumomo, despite her bitchiness, because the only reason she was so angry was because she couldn't live her life the way she wanted. Beautifully told story, but so sad.

carmen_b
08-17-2019, 09:48 AM
I'm have been extremely food obsessed the last couple days.
This is my plan today....
I'll go to the farmers market and get fresh corn then to the store for a ribeye and maybe potato salad.

^ DONE. Omg

lurkingtitties
08-17-2019, 12:55 PM
Post #7777. Eyyyyyyy

WendiStarr
08-17-2019, 06:14 PM
This is my first night at my new place alone. I feel sad. My daughter is with her grandparents for tonight. Even my fish isn't here. He's at my boyfriend's place. I listened to the baby's heartbeat with the Doppler. At least he or she is here with me.

xxxGothBarbie
08-17-2019, 06:35 PM
Trying to decide where to travel to outside California during this disgusting heat wave we're having. Im visiting a friend in the midwest the middle of next month & need a break from this place for a while. hmmm.... must be a place with dirt cheap lodging so I can finally cam again. Was thinking Texas bc they have awesome night clunbs for me to go drinking & dancing.

carmen_b
08-17-2019, 06:55 PM
^ Isn't TX hot AF right now too ?
I'd go North.

xxxGothBarbie
08-17-2019, 10:22 PM
^ Isn't TX hot AF right now too ?
I'd go North.


Yes :) LOL
However, I like how cheap Texas is in terms of airbnbs & the food is amazing. My friend is right near Chicago sorta , I dunno how much more north I could go. Hopefully by the time I leave here, the heatwave will be over. Dam global warming! :(

carmen_b
08-18-2019, 09:03 AM
Ugh.
Weird situation. My sister was after the " family " deal for something I do at my day job . Totally fine and she can have it.
Then ...... the request came in for a Sat. booking two hours away ...........
I didn't know the actual time involved is 6 hours ( the job plus 2 hours driving each way ).
Hopefully this won't cause issues .......... but I've got to protect my time ..... I'm short on cash. I need club time. ;/

Glamourmilf
08-18-2019, 11:06 AM
^ It was in Kalispell Montana. Tourist season for Glacier National Park.
So ..... I did see it ( the first night sleeping in the SUV didn't bother me ..... I was over it by night #2 ... i found a hot spring ..... shower included which made it easy ).
I ended up going south ( and leaving a few things I wanted to see undone ) in order to get to more affordable hotels .
I am finding the towns of Helena and Butte really charming anyway ( lots of mining history ) .

AirBnB in Kalispell was a ghost town with NO openings. Next time ( there will be a next time as I loved Glacier ), I'll get the AirBnB thing done well ahead of time, I did see some $50-$70 rooms ( in shared houses which is fine for me ) but they were all taken.

Oh, yes, that makes sense.
Montana is where a lot of our snowbirds live in the summer.
They speak so highly of it, that I've thought of moving there.
Or at least spend summer there.
The winters would kill me.
Too cold.
Enjoy.
Wish I was there now.

Elektra Luxx
08-18-2019, 02:15 PM
My brain locked up and I couldn't talk for about 10 seconds. I was talking to bf and he asked me about eating sandwiches and I was trying to say the words "cold cuts" and I knew what I wanted to say, but my brain kept searching and couldn't find the words. Even my jaw and mouth locked up. Such a strange feeling.

carmen_b
08-18-2019, 02:18 PM
Glam, you'd love it I think.

Provided you get the housing in place and don't do my gross car camp outs. Lol.

It was in the mid 50's in the mornings, the 60's most of the day, and barely into the 70's the afternoon / hottest.
I can see what it is an escape. Yes, there are tons of men with cash too. It is obvious. They are out everywhere having their steaks and booking their fishing trips. I feel like sugaring would be easy there . That place needs a club. Haha !

WendiStarr
08-18-2019, 02:21 PM
I took my first nap at my new place, woke up, and for like 2 seconds forgot where I was. Oops!

carmen_b
08-18-2019, 02:21 PM
So ....... I feel like the Universe is pushing me in a way towards more full service sex work. I'm not sure how to explain it.
I can't find sex on a regular basis in my civilian life.
It's almost like the world is just telling me to charge instead ( I strip in a rural area and the men here are not shy about asking " just to be sure " or " just because they don't want to miss the full menu " ) . They are overall respectful and drop it 95% of the time after a boundary assertion ( and will still spend somewhat in the club ).

On one hand ....... it seems pretty low risk when they are already in the club spending ( we know what cops look like with their barely spending a dime ways and asking a million questions vibe ). On the other ......... I was always happy keeping the boundaries where they were. Ugh. I'm not sure I want the stress or risk of a boundary transition PLUS the greatest risk of all ..... someone running their mouth.

JGB2009
08-18-2019, 05:28 PM
I just caught my cat watching YouTube.

Elektra Luxx
08-19-2019, 06:45 AM
So I hadn't seen McDonald's Guy in weeks. I see him this morning...and OH MY GOD! He's sooo damn goodlooking!. He's not wearing glasses, he's so nice and charming. I'm not kidding, I can't put together a coherent sentence when I'm around him. He asks me how I'm doing and I have to fight the urge to declare to the world "I love you and I want to have your children!" But I manage to say "...umm..good".

Glamourmilf
08-19-2019, 09:41 AM
Glam, you'd love it I think.

Provided you get the housing in place and don't do my gross car camp outs. Lol.

It was in the mid 50's in the mornings, the 60's most of the day, and barely into the 70's the afternoon / hottest.
I can see what it is an escape. Yes, there are tons of men with cash too. It is obvious. They are out everywhere having their steaks and booking their fishing trips. I feel like sugaring would be easy there . That place needs a club. Haha !

Thank You.
Those are my kind of temps.
Those are the men that are here in the winter.
Only here they play golf.
The sugaring definitely would be easy.
Are you considering it?
I just made up business cards. I'm so ready for them to return in a couple of months.:D

carmen_b
08-19-2019, 09:50 AM
^ I could actually easily do another up month up there. Yes, I am thinking of going back. ;)
I have returned to my home city for now ( I had two people I was interested in here ).

carmen_b
08-19-2019, 09:59 AM
Well ..... too much driving and too much caffeine made me an absolute wreck yesterday.
I was on the verge of an epic meltdown.

I had become obsessed with why these men were not CHOOSING me ( men I had dated in 2019 ).
The conclusion I've come to today is that I don't really know what the fuck is wrong with them.
I am talking about the whole batch here ( Aussie B Feb. - May , Mr. Disappointment June / early July , Mr. New York June / late July ).
The fact is ..... I am a good catch. My own $ ( multiple streams ) , rental property , college grad , live alone in a great area, NO kids , not a drama shit show.

I am so angry at each of them honestly. B for not inviting me to Oz ( because it was a slight challenge with visas wtf ?!? ), Mr. Disappointment LYING about being a good boyfriend candidate ( he was definitely not ) , and Mr. NY for brushing me off because he is in a " transitional" phase in his life ( starting this small business .... I have owed one for 19 years ...... I am a perfect resource ).

^ A big fuck you to all of you.

I met a couple new people last week.
Great dates that gave me HOPE and neither one SCHEDULED with me for early this week ( they knew I would be back in town yesterday .... I was only gone 5 days ).

My new plan is to just channel all this into taking $$$$$.
I hit the road again on Wednesday. I almost booked a therapy appointment ( or series ) to discuss my anger issues over these guys not " picking " me / making me their GF. Instead I will count hundreds / 20's into stacks and then see how I feel next week.

Glamourmilf
08-19-2019, 10:01 AM
^ I could actually easily do another up month up there. Yes, I am thinking of going back. ;)
I have returned to my home city for now ( I had two people I was interested in here ).
Keep me posted.
Would love to get your perspective, since all the people I know there are civilians, and don't know I'm a sexworker.

baer45
08-19-2019, 12:30 PM
My brain locked up and I couldn't talk for about 10 seconds. I was talking to bf and he asked me about eating sandwiches and I was trying to say the words "cold cuts" and I knew what I wanted to say, but my brain kept searching and couldn't find the words. Even my jaw and mouth locked up. Such a strange feeling.

“Checking for the latest software update....”
Your software is up to date.


It’s called brain fart. :D

carmen_b
08-19-2019, 12:40 PM
One down ? Haha.

I gave the youngin ' a text lashing .
It was deserved. Sorry dude.
Next time you meet a career lady you'll be better prepared. I laid it out .
The issue was related to scheduling ( which he should have been done Saturday or yesterday to see me today or tomorrow ).
I pulled a fun activity I suggested off the table for tonight. I will go alone or find some other company.

JessaJade
08-19-2019, 06:14 PM
Ah, such a relief when he falls asleep before the promised BJ. LOL

carmen_b
08-19-2019, 06:21 PM
^ Win !! ^

WendiStarr
08-19-2019, 06:57 PM
I shouldn't have ate those fried shrimp. My tummy feels yucky now. Maybe there was a reason that Chinese food place I went to earlier had no one sitting in there eating.

JGB2009
08-19-2019, 08:44 PM
Right now I feel like there is something you know that I don't.

Elle:)
08-19-2019, 09:12 PM
My face is burning.

baer45
08-19-2019, 09:47 PM
I ran into someone I didn’t want to see tonight. I ran away.

WendiStarr
08-20-2019, 11:30 AM
My rug finally arrived. It is a well traveled rug. It managed to travel from MD to PA, NY, OH, MI, OH again for some reason, and back to MI again. I think I have Aladdin's rug. I'm almost expecting that the mofo might suddenly lift up into the air on its own and go flying around my place. :rotfl:

Elektra Luxx
08-20-2019, 01:18 PM
I ran into someone I didn’t want to see tonight. I ran away.

I'm really interested in the details, but if you don't want to share that's okay too. :)

AChildOfBoredom
08-20-2019, 05:41 PM
So... Mennonite life drama in 3, 2, 1....

My friend from the community who moved here after her husband died... they didn't want her leaving, or if she was going to, they wanted her to go back to her own community (the one we both came from), rather than the 'English' world. So, they began subtly threatening her with shunning, which is a favored tool of their to force compliance. Well, they pulled the trigger on that, so her late husband's community is shunning her. Which, when you look at her situation being that this was the only way she could provide for herself and her two children and neither community left with her with any choice other than "have faith", seems outright fucking ridiculous. And as if that weren't enough, her late husband's family is outright refusing to shun her, so they in turn have also been shunned by their community. And I guess it's causing a pissing match between her late husband's community and the one we came from, because their community wants ours to partake in the shunning, and, surprisingly, the elders of the community where we came from pretty much said, "you're not our community, you're not our Congress. We'll continue to encourage her return, but we're not shunning her".

Why would I ever leave that life behind?

carmen_b
08-20-2019, 10:42 PM
I went an a "date " with a 51 year old.
Nice person. Good conversation.
Time for check and offered to split it ( just to be nice ) and he ....... let me. Lol.

Sometimes I do question my sanity.

Elektra Luxx
08-20-2019, 11:27 PM
I just stubbed my toe on the middle post on the side of the bed. If there's a something to stub my toe my feet will find it! That frickin hurt!

JGB2009
08-21-2019, 09:12 AM
You are being kind of distant with me. Understand if you pull away, I only pull away more. Is that what you really want...