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Glamourmilf
08-29-2019, 07:06 PM
^ I wouldn't count on it quite yet ............ the phrase BB is so frequently used .
How would they even find out ? Trolling cam pages ? Nah .... don't disclose until you are sure they know.
I hope you're right, and that I'm just being paranoid.
I really really do.
seashell
08-30-2019, 05:07 AM
Lana del Rey's new music video is totally a giantess fetish fantasy. XD
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qolmz4FlnZ0
carmen_b
08-30-2019, 01:27 PM
I may have lost my sexy pilot / plane salesman already.
It does make me want to cry but it was only one date and a few weeks of texting. ;/
He doesn't owe me anything. ; (
6'5'' , dark 1/4 inch beard with clean neck line ( the only style I like ! ) , blue eyes. Fuck me . He was straight out of " Carmens dream man " sketch book.
No reply ( 24 hours ) to my suggestion to get together Mon. or Tues.
He took me off Tinder matches ( I think, I was deleting a bunch ).
I’m tempted to offer a casual arrangement but it doesn’t seem to be what he wants.
Maybe he wasn't attracted ? I read him as gentlemanly / shy. He said he was introverted.
I don't think he gave me ONE compliment ( looks wise ) the entire time I've known him though.
I sent a text explaining that I wasn't looking for casual intimacy ( my profile said " relationship focused + high libido " .... I have been paranoid it scared him ). I just wanted to quickly the explain Mr. Disappointment story in a nutshell and did ( briefly ). It probably won't do anything but I tried.
I came up with a meditation / visualization trick to try to just let it go. I have been repeating it through the day.
Also .... just reminding myself that his fancy status played a part ( he is handsome as hell ...... but lets say he sold used cars instead of planes ..... probably would not have been so into the whole thing ).
GOT TO LET IT GO ......
carmen_b
08-30-2019, 05:05 PM
Got a great video of a moose with that motion camera Mr Dissapointment left.
I moved it to another location today.
Glamourmilf
08-31-2019, 08:50 AM
I feel like I'm being punked.
I moved out to the middle of nowhere to get some peace and quiet.
But, I've had anything but.:'(
I got an inquiry about a massage.
But, he lives an hour away in hillbilly central.
He wants me to come out after 8 pm, because that's when his 90 year old mother goes to sleep.:O
I tell him I don't go out after dark, and I give him an inflated travel fee.
He agrees to the fee, and now wants me to drive out there this morning.
What about his Mom?
He tells me that we can do the session in his trailer.
Yeah, THAT'S going to happen.::)
It's going to be 115 degrees today.
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JGB2009
08-31-2019, 08:54 AM
You would have to do something really fucked up to make me walk away and never come back.
carmen_b
08-31-2019, 10:47 AM
Someone decide for me .......... club ( 3 hours away ) or no club tonight ?
Ugh !
I feel like I can barely pull my shit together today ( day 2 of period ..... I feel so gross but better than yesterday ).
With money this month I'm kind of on the " line " where it's not critical ( or I'd already be there ) but I can always use it . ;/
I hate it when I can't decide. There are a couple massage guys who wrote but I will barely get there in time for the club .... maybe I can lure them over there if I go.
chanzep
08-31-2019, 01:34 PM
Ugh I hated working day 2 of period I feel like shit. I would only go if I had the money from massage guys. That's just me on beginning of period.
carmen_b
08-31-2019, 02:31 PM
I am leaning towards not going. I just feel the WORST I'll feel all month on day before, day 1, and day 2 .
It's a Saturday and it makes me a little sad to miss $$$ but they can wait for me ( hopefully ? ) ..... I will most likely go up Tues. - Thurs . evening and have time to be in town / settle in better while NOT bleeding all over than damn place. Lol.
There is NO guarantee weekends are better where I go anyway. The higher traffic balances with so many girls coming .
Aurora_Sunset
08-31-2019, 02:53 PM
The weather is very... nostalgic today, if that makes sense. The still warm, but with a cool summer breeze, birds chirping in the background when it's otherwise pretty quiet. It makes me feel like the summer days when I was a kid, lying around my bedroom with no responsibilities or cares about having to do anything later. Lying across a cool comforter, listening to the sounds and feeling the air from the open window. Everyone else in the house is either downstairs or outside working on something. In my own little world... Mind and life just kinda blissfully blank, and thinking about maybe calling up a friend and seeing if they wanted to wander around the park or walk to McDonald's or something.... I wonder if I'm the only one who associates summer weather with a nostalgic feeling of childhood?
baer45
08-31-2019, 10:54 PM
I danced 3 hours non stop tonight. Didn’t skip a song. My problem is, I sweat quite a bit when I dance. I looked like a drowned cat afterward
xxxGothBarbie
09-01-2019, 01:15 AM
The new reboot of BH90210 is fuckin cool so far :) I love that all the original cast is back together playing themselves again just with adult problems now haha <3
NitaBaby
09-01-2019, 02:25 AM
... I wonder if I'm the only one who associates summer weather with a nostalgic feeling of childhood?
I'm waiting for fall for this exact reason. Spring and summer hold few memories, it's just too damn hot. but the cool months make me want to burn dessert-scented candles like my mom and watch 101 Dalmatians. It's a very specific urge.
Glamourmilf
09-01-2019, 09:29 AM
The weather is very... nostalgic today, if that makes sense. The still warm, but with a cool summer breeze, birds chirping in the background when it's otherwise pretty quiet. It makes me feel like the summer days when I was a kid, lying around my bedroom with no responsibilities or cares about having to do anything later. Lying across a cool comforter, listening to the sounds and feeling the air from the open window. Everyone else in the house is either downstairs or outside working on something. In my own little world... Mind and life just kinda blissfully blank, and thinking about maybe calling up a friend and seeing if they wanted to wander around the park or walk to McDonald's or something.... I wonder if I'm the only one who associates summer weather with a nostalgic feeling of childhood?
I get super nostalgic when I hear a lawnmower. And crickets. Going to get an ice cream with my parents. Summer rain, and thunderstorms.:raincloud
Summer was very short growing up in a Boston subburb. I always took full advantage of them.
I abhor summer where I now live.
Inside for 4 solid months is pure torture for a nature lover like me.
My summer memories here? The sound of window AC units blaring in my ears 24/7. Burning my ass and hands every time I get into my car. Constant sweat dripping off of me. Under boob sweating. Yuck! It's all so gross.
carmen_b
09-01-2019, 11:12 AM
Ended the celibacy. I need time to process it I think because I'm half way on the fence of not seeing the person again ( the 6' 8" tall butcher from Alaska ).
I told him about dancing. It's always scary even though I was 90% sure he would be ok. He had been scouted for porn ( so he says haha ) ! He almost did it ( he sort of regrets not venturing into adult work but was scared of the forever element of video ).
He's very generous in bed. ;)
I didn't make it the full month like I intended but very close ( 28 days or so ).
Part of this will depend on what he does. I explained that I am big on having the guy plan dates / ask what my schedule is ect.
whirlerz
09-01-2019, 12:37 PM
Well, damn I'm jealous, cb.^
So.
Neighbor has something wrong w/old ass truck she bought, so she has her man ask me which unit 'Mark' lives in..
Except his name's Dave, lol.
He goes up there, & asks for a ride to get some shit to fix clunker..
Except, it's his girl's car he's driving (she allowed it) & he has NO License, + a holiday when the cops are very present. She was very worried cause he didn't come back right away, but then he did.
Annddd, she has a grandson living w/her, (for free, she told me, I didn't ask) w/a perfectly nice car, but doesn't ask him cause he's sleeping off last night's hangover??
All righty then!
carmen_b
09-01-2019, 03:30 PM
Feeling better .
Left over former Mormon guilt probably.
I want to see him again . :)
I get to go to the adult store for stuff for two now. Lol
I think they had me labeled a crazy cat lady .
“ I’m getting THIS today , not another solo toy !”
WendiStarr
09-01-2019, 03:36 PM
Someone broke into a friend's home down south(Georgia), trashed the living room and kitchen, and shit in a bucket that was in the kitchen. They didn't steal anything but they ate food and he caught them still in there when he got back, laying on the bed and couch as if they belonged there. He said he didn't recognize the people. They didn't even try to leave as he called LE. LE came and took them away. Who the heck randomly breaks in someone's home to trash the place and poo? There are 2 toilets in his home, for gosh sake! Dirty south crackhead squatters, I guess. I just found that so bizarre.
carmen_b
09-01-2019, 03:56 PM
^ Drugs or mental illness.
lilylilylily
09-02-2019, 12:07 AM
I need to get my own place
WendiStarr
09-02-2019, 12:25 AM
Up with heartburn. Old Wives' tales say that that means baby will have a lot of hair. Well, I think I'm going to give birth to a hairy Chewbacca then.
Elektra Luxx
09-02-2019, 02:01 PM
My cat Ripley escaped outside one too many times and hooked up with some smooth talking guy. She got caught up in the moment and forgot to use protection. The guy disappeared soon after. We've all been there at least once, so no shame.
Anywhoo, we love her 7 kittens. They're so cute and they're old enough to give away and I can't find anyone to take them. Bf says not to put conditions when giving them away, but they are indoor cats. That's all they've known and they're like my children and I have to make sure they go to a good home.
Meanwhile, the little darlings are tearing up the place. My furniture is ripped, the living room area is a disaster, my toilet paper is in shreds and the place smells like cats.
I never thought it would be so difficult to give cute kittens away.
Aurora_Sunset
09-02-2019, 04:51 PM
My cat Ripley escaped outside one too many times and hooked up with some smooth talking guy. She got caught up in the moment and forgot to use protection. The guy disappeared soon after. We've all been there at least once, so no shame.
Anywhoo, we love her 7 kittens. They're so cute and they're old enough to give away and I can't find anyone to take them. Bf says not to put conditions when giving them away, but they are indoor cats. That's all they've known and they're like my children and I have to make sure they go to a good home.
Meanwhile, the little darlings are tearing up the place. My furniture is ripped, the living room area is a disaster, my toilet paper is in shreds and the place smells like cats.
I never thought it would be so difficult to give cute kittens away.
I say stick to your guns in terms of having conditions on giving them away. There are sick people out there who specifically look for free or super cheap kittens, promise them a “good home” and that’s how they obtain animals for things like crushing videos, training fighting dogs, or just being general sickos to animals. Even if not that extreme, there’s also just a lot of people out there who would take nothing but a free/cheap pet because they’re also too cheap to take proper care of them, will not give them a good life, and would end up abandoning them instead of rehoming the second they decided they couldn’t take care of them anymore/just didn’t want them.
Not to be alarmist, but I would personally be very picky about making sure fur babies go to a good home.
Elektra Luxx
09-03-2019, 05:36 AM
^^^
OMG! crushing videos! I don't even want to think of such a terrible thing. I'll keep them all before I give them to someone who won't give them a good home.
Aurora, thank you for your post.
miss.a.p1600
09-03-2019, 05:51 AM
Someone broke into a friend's home down south(Georgia), trashed the living room and kitchen, and shit in a bucket that was in the kitchen. They didn't steal anything but they ate food and he caught them still in there when he got back, laying on the bed and couch as if they belonged there. He said he didn't recognize the people. They didn't even try to leave as he called LE. LE came and took them away. Who the heck randomly breaks in someone's home to trash the place and poo? There are 2 toilets in his home, for gosh sake! Dirty south crackhead squatters, I guess. I just found that so bizarre.
In the words of Whitney Houston “crack is whack!”
Only a crackhead would do some random dumb shit like that
miss.a.p1600
09-03-2019, 05:52 AM
^^^
OMG! crushing videos! I don't even want to think of such a terrible thing. I'll keep them all before I give them to someone who won't give them a good home.
Aurora, thank you for your post.
Now you have to have the birth control talk with her lol!
Elektra Luxx
09-03-2019, 06:00 AM
Now you have to have the birth control talk with her lol!
She's getting fixed. I just a bought a cat carrier for the occasion.
NitaBaby
09-03-2019, 07:05 AM
In the words of Whitney Houston “crack is whack!”
Only a crackhead would do some random dumb shit like that
I laughed so hard dude. Like "why would you play with Whitney like that lol" but i googled it! She really said that lmaoo
WendiStarr
09-03-2019, 12:00 PM
I'm about to just pull my sexyjobs account. All I've been getting lately are creeps messaging about pov blowjob or bareback g/b scenes. I'm not interested in sucking or fucking any stranger dicks! I'm super paranoid of STDs and the risk of them potentially causing birth defects.
NitaBaby
09-03-2019, 12:16 PM
Bf ordered burgers for us and the damn guy came during the ONE cam session I've had all day. And it was turning into a long fucking show. I'm camming in the living room so I had to ask the guy in my chat to hold on for one sec since someone was at the door. I'm just glad the guy has enough money to not be pressed by a few seconds. Bf answered the door while I hid in the bedroom and after he got the food I was able to run back to the computer and continue. Any other ending to that story would have ruined me.
Especially since it's back to dead now.
carmen_b
09-03-2019, 01:55 PM
The new dude M doesn't like his balls tickled during sex.
I thought every guy did ? Haha. I'm glad he spoke up . Now I don't have to worry about balls.
AChildOfBoredom
09-03-2019, 05:47 PM
Sometimes people tell me I’m not “wired right”, and it’s always things I read on here which remind me of the times people tell me that. I read on another thread about male escorts for $300/hr.… and right away my first thought was that for $300, I could find a group at workers outside of Home Depot and have my deck rebuilt.
It’s like I was programmed to be celibate.
yaya_cash
09-03-2019, 07:29 PM
Okay. I see why some men (prefer to) date/marry less attractive/normal/average women because they have lower expections/maintenance. For example my ex/"SD".
Glamourmilf
09-04-2019, 06:25 AM
Bf ordered burgers for us and the damn guy came during the ONE cam session I've had all day. And it was turning into a long fucking show. I'm camming in the living room so I had to ask the guy in my chat to hold on for one sec since someone was at the door. I'm just glad the guy has enough money to not be pressed by a few seconds. Bf answered the door while I hid in the bedroom and after he got the food I was able to run back to the computer and continue. Any other ending to that story would have ruined me.
Especially since it's back to dead now.
I call it, The Murphy's Law of camming.
I sit in a dead cam room.
As SOON as I'm in an exclusive session, someone knocks at my front door.
And the front door is next to where I'm camming.>:(
Random strangers too. I'm never expecting anyone.
Nobody even knows where I live. Lol!
I'm actually getting kicked out of my apt because of it, if you can believe it.
I had a loud knock at my door one night.
I was camming, and not expecting anyone. So, I didn't answer.
Turns out, it was the electric company, who was there to fix my neighbors power outage.
Their meter is in my yard.
Nobody told me that they were coming.
Now my landlord thinks I'm too AFRAID to live here, so she's not renewing my lease.
I explained to her that I get random strangers knocking at my door, and was even just broken into.
That I'm NOT afraid to live here.
But, to no avail.
Out on the street I go.
Bitch!!:toldoff:
NitaBaby
09-04-2019, 06:44 AM
I call it, The Murphy's Law of camming.
I sit in a dead cam room.
As SOON as I'm in an exclusive session, someone knocks at my front door.
And the front door is next to where I'm camming.>:(
Random strangers too. I'm never expecting anyone.
Nobody even knows where I live. Lol!
I'm actually getting kicked out of my apt because of it, if you can believe it.
I had a louder knock at my door one night.
I was camming, and not expecting anyone. So, I didn't answer.
Turns out, it was the electric company, who was there to fix my neighbors power outage.
There meter is in my yard.
Nobody told me that they were coming.
Now my landlord thinks I'm too AFRAID to live here, so she's not renewing my lease.
I explained to her that I get random strangers knocking at my door, and was even just broken into.
That I'm NOT afraid to live here.
But, to no avail.
Out on the street I go.
Bitch!!:toldoff:
Okay, first off, EXACTLY. The timing is so perfect that there's no way it's just happenstance. The cosmos knows what tf it's doing.
But, second, HUHH? If I got kicked out of every place that owned a door I didn't answer I'd be homeless right now. It's not too much to ask for a heads up. Especially if the visit is from the apt people themselves. It should be second nature in a professional setting to leave a note warning of any maintenance needs or required entry into your space. Even a voicemail, note in the mailbox, letter in a bottle. Something. Just tell people when you plan on stopping by! (And, to everyone else, stop being a weirdo knocking on strangers doors. No I don't want to change my internet provider. No, I don't want to hear the story of Jesus. No, I don't want some dry ass girl scout cookies.) It's either that or have fun standing outside. I feel like what your landlords are doing is against some sort of law. Like there's no way they can refuse to renew your contract because -of all things- they think you don't feel safe?
Imagine a job firing you over something like that. Or a grocery store refusing to sell to you over that....it's just...huh??? How is that grounds to turn away business?
WendiStarr
09-04-2019, 11:23 AM
^ What the hell?! How can you be evicted just because your landlord thinks that you're scared? Dang, that's messed up! When I was living in my first ever apartment, I tried to break the lease because I was scared and didn't feel safe anymore but the landlord wouldn't let me. Do you know where you're going to move to? That's so odd. If everybody who didn't answer the door to unexpected strangers was evicted, there would be a lot of homeless people.
lynn2009
09-04-2019, 10:43 PM
Emily Doe, from the Brock Turner case, has gone public and is releasing a memoir.
Glamourmilf
09-05-2019, 07:18 AM
^ What the hell?! How can you be evicted just because your landlord thinks that you're scared? Dang, that's messed up! When I was living in my first ever apartment, I tried to break the lease because I was scared and didn't feel safe anymore but the landlord wouldn't let me. Do you know where you're going to move to? That's so odd. If everybody who didn't answer the door to unexpected strangers was evicted, there would be a lot of homeless people.
It's not evicted, it's not having the lease renewed.
I immediately called the housing authority. They told me that as soon as my lease is up ( December), a landlord doesn't even need a reason not to renew it.
Welcome to California.
When I first tried to explain to my landlady that nobody called to tell me that the electric company was coming. That it was 9:30 pm too. After business hours.
Her reply was, "In this day and age, business hours don't exist. That everything is 24/7"
:O
She just kicked out another neighbor because her granddaughter was playing in the parking lot.
It's all about money.
She just bought the property, but probably realizes that she can get more for rent.
Who knows?
All I know is that nobody will rent to me, because of a prior eviction.
Even if they did, rents are too high here.
queenelayliah
09-05-2019, 08:27 AM
Lana del Rey's new music video is totally a giantess fetish fantasy. XD
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qolmz4FlnZ0
I just watched it yesterday and i was thinking the same damn thing when i saw it.
WendiStarr
09-05-2019, 11:20 AM
^^ Dang it, what are you going to do then? I only lived in Cali for 2 months and it was too expensive for me. Is there not any second chance programs or companies that are willing to overlook a prior eviction?
miss.a.p1600
09-05-2019, 12:15 PM
Sometimes people tell me I’m not “wired right”, and it’s always things I read on here which remind me of the times people tell me that. I read on another thread about male escorts for $300/hr.… and right away my first thought was that for $300, I could find a group at workers outside of Home Depot and have my deck rebuilt.
It’s like I was programmed to be celibate.
Oh that might have been us lol!
Girl me too. I mean dude has to be a bonafide pro clit licker and titty sucker. Most guys I’ve encountered have no clue what to do with dick. I refuse to waste my pussy on mediocre dick.
Id rather use 300 to get my hair done, wax my car, and shop on amazon. If I spend $300 on a male escort and the sex is wack I will be pissed.
Things ended between me and old dude because he started pressing me about sex. I’ve beem celibate for years so I’m not busting it open to acquiesce a needy dude who is trying to get his viagras worth
chanzep
09-05-2019, 12:59 PM
It's not evicted, it's not having the lease renewed.
I immediately called the housing authority. They told me that as soon as my lease is up ( December), a landlord doesn't even need a reason not to renew it.
Welcome to California.
When I first tried to explain to my landlady that nobody called to tell me that the electric company was coming. That it was 9:30 pm too. After business hours.
Her reply was, "In this day and age, business hours don't exist. That everything is 24/7"
:O
She just kicked out another neighbor because her granddaughter was playing in the parking lot.
It's all about money.
She just bought the property, but probably realizes that she can get more for rent.
Who knows?
All I know is that nobody will rent to me, because of a prior eviction.
Even if they did, rents are too high here.
Wow she is horrible. I hope no one rents your place from her after. I hope you do find a much better place.
Blah I'm sick of landlords.
carmen_b
09-05-2019, 01:49 PM
Glam : She's possibly onto you for adult work ( or just doesn't like people working from home which does happen ). I hope things work out with that.
It's illegal for sure .
Can they really refuse to renew just for a small issue ?
The excuse doesn't even make sense. What if you had been traveling ? You also would not have been there.
It really just depends how comfy you are there / if you want to fight it to save the hassle of moving .
carmen_b
09-05-2019, 01:51 PM
My thought is over dog mom GUILT .
We passed some areas I swear my dog recognized as fun play spots ( recreation areas on the way to this dancer town for my weekend ). We had turned into those area before to camp / hang out and it tripped me out like " he can't really recognize this stuff right ? ".
Ugh. He was excited and bouncing as soon as we came into the tree filled section. I stopped twice on the way here for him to run a little but I feel guilty because of his reaction and thinking he is in for a fun weekend ( he isn't ..... he will be alone for 8 hours a day in a hotel the next three days ). I will take him to a park in town each day mid day and do my best.
Sit tight little buddy. Momma's gonna try to get $1,000 out of this town and then we can move on to fun stuff and real adventure on Sunday ..........
carmen_b
09-05-2019, 02:16 PM
I kind of hope this massage guy flakes in 40 minutes.
I'm so desperate for a nap before the club. I should learn this time and not schedule a massage between the drive and the club.
It's just too much.
But then again walking into the club at 7p.m. $130 in the hole is also not fun ( $40 gas RT, $50 hotel , $40 house fee tonight ).
UPDATE - He didn't flake and I wasn't going to.
Brought a little more than the donation request , very nice. Trip out of the red already. Massaged me a bit too pre-club. Yes. ;)
10-15 min. Power Nap and off to club ........
AChildOfBoredom
09-05-2019, 04:16 PM
My thought is over dog mom GUILT .
We passed some areas I swear my dog recognized as fun play spots ( recreation areas on the way to this dancer town for my weekend ). We had turned into those area before to camp / hang out and it tripped me out like " he can't really recognize this stuff right ? ".
Ugh. He was excited and bouncing as soon as we came into the tree filled section. I stopped twice on the way here for him to run a little but I feel guilty because of his reaction and thinking he is in for a fun weekend ( he isn't ..... he will be alone for 8 hours a day in a hotel the next three days ). I will take him to a park in town each day mid day and do my best.
Sit tight little buddy. Momma's gonna try to get $1,000 out of this town and then we can move on to fun stuff and real adventure on Sunday ..........
Tell me about it. Ever since I got this Beagle, it’s been one big guilt trip. But, with the six of us living here, she’s never alone for more than a couple hours. So I shouldn’t feel guilty. Yet I still do.
carmen_b
09-05-2019, 04:40 PM
^ Yeah, that's a HUGE extended family. My angel has one too but I do feel guilty when I need to fly and can't take him.
He goes EVERYWHERE within driving distance with me. 7 states so far !
His company is amazing.
carmen_b
09-05-2019, 04:42 PM
Next random thought.
I'm not sure if the person I'm seeing actually knows what I'm here this state to do ( stripping ). He knows I'm in the place I strip but I am not sure if he put it together that this is an active dancer trip v.s. day job trip. Hopefully I won't get any drunk texts haha ( he's been nothing but positive and supportive towards sex work ....... but I've had men turn before ).
trustfundkiller
09-05-2019, 06:14 PM
My mom gave me a jar of CBD gummies as a birthday present and OMG they are a game changer for me. I'll never take a Xanax again. It actually reminds me a lot of Xanax but without the "high" feeling. I'll take one before bed and within an hour I'm sleeping like a baby, and it's deep, high-quality sleep. One gummy puts me to sleep, so I'm going to experiment with microdosing and see if I can find a balance where I'm relaxed but not tired. It would be nice if I can use them to ease my anxiety before work.
yaya_cash
09-05-2019, 07:04 PM
So they're potentially sleeping pills?