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JGB2009
12-08-2019, 07:57 PM
You bore me so..................yawn!!!!!
miss.a.p1600
12-09-2019, 07:04 AM
I’ve been cramping two days before my period, all during my period, and still feeling them. Wtf?!?
NitaBaby
12-09-2019, 07:28 AM
i was just thinking of how much i like not working a scheduled shift.
when i was with my ex he crashed in the middle of our bedroom floor because he was having an aneurysm. I was in the next room, still in training for this wah job I'd just gotten. I was crying as I interrupted the trainer and explained that I had to leave RIGHT NOW and take my bf to the hospital. at the end of it all he had to have brain surgery twice and was in the ICU for a month with a tube sticking out of his head.
when i came back, I'd incurred a "point" for leaving my shift early that day. reasoning be damned.
today, my current bf was running late for work and asked me to bring him lunch. thank god there is nothing wrong with him. but i like knowing that i can get up and walk away from what i'm doing without my money being affected. no manager to explain my situation to. no "points" accumulated that could threaten my employment. these jobs don't give a shit about people.
lurkingtitties
12-09-2019, 12:53 PM
Right before my alarm went off this morning the song Blue Monday was playing in my dream. 90 mins later at the start of my 8 am class, a classmate opens his computer behind me and Blue Monday plays for a second. What does it mean???
JGB2009
12-09-2019, 09:10 PM
My father passed away over 2 years ago. I still have his number programmed in my phone. I called the number recently and no one answered. LOL glad he didn't answer though.
SnuffleUffleGrass
12-10-2019, 09:21 AM
My father passed away over 2 years ago. I still have his number programmed in my phone. I called the number recently and no one answered. LOL glad he didn't answer though.
Related to this- my dad is sick and HE actually took it upon himself to comfort me and my brother when we called all panicky about his health. He did sound bad when he picked up the phone. I still can't believe I have such different parents (my mom harms anyone who crosses her path, my dad helps anyone who comes into his life.) I can't really vent about this to people in my life (none of them have living dads or would want to listen.) Life is too short.
WendiStarr
12-10-2019, 11:04 AM
I don't know how much longer I can do this night shift thing. I end up waking up at a normal time for my older daughter to feed her and such but then once she's gone, I go back to sleep and don't wake up until noon. Then when she's home I cook dinner, spend time with her, and end up taking an hour nap in the evening. By 9pm I'm working until 2-2:30am, sometimes 3am. It's not a long shift but I don't have much energy these days. I wish I did not have to do this 7 days a week.
NitaBaby
12-10-2019, 02:21 PM
This cat has been crying outside since my girls and i left at 7am. i've been out and about for most of the day but when bf and i returned the same cat was still crying. loudly. Its a dreary, wet, cold day today and i'm irritated at whoever claims this cat because this is absolutely painful. its raining like hell and i can only imagine how horrible this day has been for kitty.
i gave it a can of tuna which it attacked hungrily. it looks well fed, its coat is even and healthy looking despite the rain. it just looks like someone's pet. i don't know what else to do.
JGB2009
12-10-2019, 04:08 PM
This cat has been crying outside since my girls and i left at 7am. i've been out and about for most of the day but when bf and i returned the same cat was still crying. loudly. Its a dreary, wet, cold day today and i'm irritated at whoever claims this cat because this is absolutely painful. its raining like hell and i can only imagine how horrible this day has been for kitty.
i gave it a can of tuna which it attacked hungrily. it looks well fed, its coat is even and healthy looking despite the rain. it just looks like someone's pet. i don't know what else to do.
Awwwwww poor kitty
AChildOfBoredom
12-10-2019, 07:57 PM
A couple years ago, I took a 15 year-old into my home who had been thrown out of hers by her parents. She'd initially lived in Raleigh with a sister, then the sister lost her job and ability to pay for a place to live, and had to move back home. They told this one (my 'refugee') that she could only come back if she agreed to go through "conversion therapy". The specific story of how we crossed paths is a bit of a long one, and it doesn't really matter for the intents and purposes of this post. Anyhow, she's been living with us since, she's wonderful to have here, and her parents are idiots. The one positive about their idiocy is that getting them to agree to sign custody of her to me in exchange for not reporting them to CPS was a rather painless (aside from having to travel to the sticks in Alabama) process.
So, the big heinous thing she did to get herself expelled was to come out as a lesbian. She stays out of trouble, she's almost a straight A student, she has a plan for the future, and she's become a pretty essential part of this household in the time since. So long as she doesn't get too excited about something - because then the inner redneck really comes out and forget about trying to understand a word she says at that point - she really is a pleasure to have here.
I just wish this thing would stop where her being a lesbian leads others to assume that I am one. Just had a rather awkward encounter with one of my yoga instructors, after she decided I wasn't responsive to subtle hints, so she went for a much less subtle approach.
And this isn't the first time something like this has happened. It doesn't offend me, but that's just something I simply cannot do. I don't understand what puts them on to me. Or is this something all women encounter at some point?
Aurora_Sunset
12-11-2019, 10:05 AM
If I could have any superpower, it would be the ability to travel back in time - not necessarily to change anything, but just to be able to live certain days/times again. I don't want to give up my current life, but there are things about my old life I miss. I wish I had a book of my life that I could just flip open to a certain page, jump into it, and disappear into a past day or adventure - get to experience it all over again, like a vacation, and then come back to today like no time has passed.
Ifyouseekamy
12-12-2019, 02:22 AM
Drain the clock not the cock. That’s a good one
Carmen Elixer
12-13-2019, 11:13 AM
"Research has found that shedding emotional tears releases oxytocin and endorphins. These chemicals make people feel good, and reduce pain"
just found out why i start laughing hard after every time I have a deep cry
carmen_b
12-13-2019, 02:54 PM
He wants to move me into this huge house and I just feel so " meh " about it.
I think it is the location . I hate fighting against winter weather. It takes SO much time and effort . Even 30 minutes west of here in the city is a better location / lower elevation. I was there yesterday with my dog at our fave park and there wasn't even snow on the ground other than a little dust. I am going to try to split my time between here and the city so that I don't just freak out and bail . I am worried ..... I did NOT sign up for 12 weeks of fighting against the weather and my dude is committed to this location . Damn it. I fee like I can't just be like " ok, i'll see you mid-March if you are still single ".
If I end up bailing on this whole thing everyone is going to question my choice. I need to set some boundaries such as only being here 50% of the time instead of more than 50%.
carmen_b
12-13-2019, 06:09 PM
Doing a little better here today.
I had my seasonal bright light lamp with me but hadn't pulled it out of the car. I need to remember not to skip days with it.
SnuffleUffleGrass
12-13-2019, 09:03 PM
And this isn't the first time something like this has happened. It doesn't offend me, but that's just something I simply cannot do. I don't understand what puts them on to me. Or is this something all women encounter at some point?
You reminded me, a door girl at my first strip bar was flirting with me BUT I didn't pick up on it because this club was terrible for money making so I was always fuming and stressing about making money there & not paying attention to anything else. I figured it out later when I thought about our conversations.
Random thought- I'm delighted that there are actually 2 movies I'd really like to see- the one about Richard Jewell, and the one about the sexual harassment scandal at FOX News ("Bombshell")….
AChildOfBoredom
12-14-2019, 08:42 AM
You reminded me, a door girl at my first strip bar was flirting with me BUT I didn't pick up on it because this club was terrible for money making so I was always fuming and stressing about making money there & not paying attention to anything else. I figured it out later when I thought about our conversations.
It probably didn’t help my case that she saw me at Pride… the bicycle shop my friend from the community works at had a booth there, so I went to bring her lunch. I just figured she was there to show support and didn’t really think anything of it.
Also, you can always tell who took the lead in making breakfast by how the eggs are done.
The Amish girl, always Sunny Side Up with just a little salt and pepper. My sister prefers to scramble them and add cheese and bits of ham. My ‘refugee’, it’s always scrambled with (canned) crushed fire roasted tomatoes and some diced (mild) green chilies with a touch of blackening seasoning.
WendiStarr
12-14-2019, 09:37 AM
I worked until 4am last night and was exhausted as hell, still woke up at god damn 8am on my own. I am alone this weekend(daughter at her grandparents') so I have the luxury of being able to sleep in but my body won't cooperate. Why can't I just sleep without worrying about a million things?
carmen_b
12-14-2019, 01:50 PM
Am I the only person left who gets a full std panel done before thinking of eliminating condoms?
This is the 2nd time in 6 months ( both Ms ) that seem averse to the idea ?!?
Isn’t this the right thing to do ?
There will be no condom free sex without an HIV test at a minimum ( I got mine a few days ago ).
WendiStarr
12-14-2019, 05:25 PM
^ Everybody should absolutely get a full std panel done before going condomless with anyone. I find it necessary to do an std test whenever you have unprotected sex with a new partner. I think anyone who refuses to get tested raises red flags. Maybe they have something that they don't want you to know about. People will lie too and tell you that they're clean when they're not. In my younger years, I once dated a guy who said that he had had an std test recently and all was good. I stupidly believed him and guess who had to be treated for chlamydia after unprotected sex with him? He refused to believe that it had come from him either, despite me having a clean test before him and being sexually exclusive with him. He didn't think that he had it and didn't see any reason to get tested or treated. That was 10 years ago now but I imagine one day he may try to have kids and find that he's rendered infertile because of being in denial with his stupidity and not getting treated. I have a friend who was a virgin and before doing the act, she wanted to make sure that her boyfriend was clean since he'd been around the block before. He refused to get tested and told her that he was clean. She ended up believing him and he gave her genital herpes. Now she's on meds for it for life. Some people rather live in denial and not know, while infecting others than to find out the truth.
AChildOfBoredom
12-14-2019, 09:15 PM
My parents arrive Thursday.
lynn2009
12-14-2019, 09:39 PM
God I want to move so bad, more than anything. I'm in Philadelphia area again this weekend for my cat clinic's holiday party tomorrow and after swiping on Bumble for less than 5 minutes, I have 4 viable matches. I almost never see anyone I like when I'm in Maryland and when I do, they never match with me. I think it's because I live too far outside DC. This is ridiculous. I could almost feel hopeful about dating again.
Glamourmilf
12-15-2019, 09:43 AM
My parents arrive Thursday.
So lucky. Enjoy every minute.
This time of year is pure hell for me. My family always did it up big-time.
I miss my parents so much, it actually makes my heart hurt. Especially my Mom, who was the most recent to pass. We were so close.
I read recently, that when a woman is pregnant, some of her tissue is passed on to her baby.
I think about that. So, I'm carrying her tissue, her mom's ( my grandmother's tissue), who I was also close with. And hers, and on and on.
carmen_b
12-15-2019, 10:14 AM
I’m glad my suggestion of spending more like 40%-50% of our time together was taken well.
It was too soon to live together ! Lol
( yes , total red flag I know but I will see how this goes since he was open to my adjustment of being there less )
JGB2009
12-15-2019, 11:51 AM
^ Everybody should absolutely get a full std panel done before going condomless with anyone. I find it necessary to do an std test whenever you have unprotected sex with a new partner. I think anyone who refuses to get tested raises red flags. Maybe they have something that they don't want you to know about. People will lie too and tell you that they're clean when they're not. In my younger years, I once dated a guy who said that he had had an std test recently and all was good. I stupidly believed him and guess who had to be treated for chlamydia after unprotected sex with him? He refused to believe that it had come from him either, despite me having a clean test before him and being sexually exclusive with him. He didn't think that he had it and didn't see any reason to get tested or treated. That was 10 years ago now but I imagine one day he may try to have kids and find that he's rendered infertile because of being in denial with his stupidity and not getting treated. I have a friend who was a virgin and before doing the act, she wanted to make sure that her boyfriend was clean since he'd been around the block before. He refused to get tested and told her that he was clean. She ended up believing him and he gave her genital herpes. Now she's on meds for it for life. Some people rather live in denial and not know, while infecting others than to find out the truth.
I know people around here like that too. I know someone who caught something from a guy and the doctor gave her medication for him to take as well. Guess what.....he refused to take the medication. Makes me so angry hearing stories like that.
Aurora_Sunset
12-15-2019, 12:11 PM
Hoping my transcription stuff clears asap cuz we're about to get hit with a huge winter storm, mucking up my plans to Uber.
carmen_b
12-15-2019, 12:19 PM
^ Thanks for your input. M was kind of like " no one worries about this stuff " and I'm just sitting there like ...... " I DO ! " ...... why would you NOT take the time to get a full panel done? It just makes zero sense to me. The last time I had it done ( due to just light suspicions that my partner cheated in Aug. 2018 ) , I think I was in and out of planned parenthood in UNDER one hour.
So ..... basically .... he is getting the full panel test or we are using condoms. I guess it's up to him what he would like to do. I will have my IUD installed in about a week giving me full assurance of remaining baby free.
JGB2009
12-15-2019, 03:38 PM
Sometimes knowing that its possible is what keeps me going.
carmen_b
12-15-2019, 04:08 PM
You changed the rules dude. Haha. Of course it was too good to be true.
I was hoping for the trophy girlfriend role not the co-runner of AirBnB role. Haha. I work full time already and can't adjust my hours without WEEKS of notice. I hope my hour or so of help a day is good ?
Keep the dates coming, reel back the tasks you need me to do, and I'll keep the sexy times coming.
;)
miss.a.p1600
12-15-2019, 09:18 PM
^You are very wise
I cringe thinking of the times I blindly trusted men sexually
I think the fact that I woke up one day and realized that if I kept playing Russian roulette with my body that eventually my luck would run out.
So I made sure to start taking it seriously using condoms. Have yet to get that far with a dude for the std tests but perhaps in very near future there will be a pleasant outcome
Aurora_Sunset
12-15-2019, 11:58 PM
Ummmmm
I think, in the middle of trying to figure out split-screen, 2-player mode for a game, hubby accidentally invited EX-bf to join an an online game... Ex messaged me that he doesn’t have that game but to have fun... Which is worse: pretending like I meant to initiate the game, or to tell ex that that invitation was a mistake?
Good god, I’ll never win with him...
AChildOfBoredom
12-16-2019, 02:38 PM
I got into a fight with a couple Canada Geese today.
Ifyouseekamy
12-16-2019, 07:40 PM
Eveytime I go to Victoria secret other customers think I work there because I’m decked out in Victoria secret and wearing all black like the workers.
lynn2009
12-16-2019, 07:45 PM
I know people around here like that too. I know someone who caught something from a guy and the doctor gave her medication for him to take as well. Guess what.....he refused to take the medication. Makes me so angry hearing stories like that.
Men are such asshats and women are far more suspectible to getting STDs than them based on the biology involved.
carmen_b
12-18-2019, 05:54 PM
I need $$
So of course I’m caught in this debate now of disclosing dancing to M, ugh.
Day job has just seemed a little lean last 7-10 days. Could use a boost.
WendiStarr
12-18-2019, 06:17 PM
I'm seriously considering getting an electric heater for my bedroom. I have my heat on and it's so freezing cold in here that I have on a t-shirt, hoodie and a blanket. I'm going to be camming in full on eskimo mode until I get a pvt show, I guess. I'm not about to sit here in a lingerie nightie or bikini. Brr!
miss.a.p1600
12-18-2019, 07:50 PM
You could have had a bad bitch
Non committal
Helped you with your career
Just a little
You posed to hold me down but u holdin me back
And that’s the sound of me not calling u back
WendiStarr
12-18-2019, 11:39 PM
A couple nights ago I heard all kinds of commotion and yelling going on outside at the start of my cam shift. Seeing as how there's a lot of businesses in the area, including bars I didn't think about it too much. It's winter time and some people like to get loud and drunk around this time of year. Come to find out it was a woman, who committed suicide by jumping off of a parking structure. That's just..omg! I can't believe that. Sad that someone felt that low that they resorted to that.
NitaBaby
12-19-2019, 04:59 AM
Just watched a video of Lizzo jumping onto a table via acrobatic split. That poor table turned into loose leaf paper. Why tf did she do that lmfao
Glamourmilf
12-19-2019, 05:37 AM
I'm seriously considering getting an electric heater for my bedroom. I have my heat on and it's so freezing cold in here that I have on a t-shirt, hoodie and a blanket. I'm going to be camming in full on eskimo mode until I get a pvt show, I guess. I'm not about to sit here in a lingerie nightie or bikini. Brr!
Do it.
It's so cold here too.
I had to shut my gas wall heater off last winter, because it was omitting carbon monoxide.
And, naturally, in true slumlord fashion, my landlady wouldn't replace it.
I've been using a small space heater for my lower body, while camming.
But, I'd like to be able to heat the entire room.
I have tile floors throughout, and they get really cold.
I watched a presentation on one of the home shopping channels for a portable electric heater.
It claims to heat up to 1000 square feet.
JGB2009
12-19-2019, 05:27 PM
I am irritated.
AChildOfBoredom
12-20-2019, 01:42 PM
Waiting at the airport for my parents to arrive. I should probably start drinking.
WendiStarr
12-20-2019, 02:03 PM
Today has not gone at all like I planned. How does a planned excursion to Walmart to buy chocolate covered cashews and the Polar Express dvd for my daughter turn into a mess involving BD accidentally locking keys in his truck, having to go pick him up, GPS issues with getting lost, my car breaking down, cell phone reception issues, and then having to Uber the rest of the way to where's he's at, Uber with him to go get his spare keys since I have the house key and I'm not willing to part with my key since he loses keys and I don't want him losing my key since it's the only one I have, Uber back to his truck and have him drop me off at home. I never even made it to Walmart and I don't feel like going out anywhere now because I'd have to Uber there since he went to work and I have no vehicle anymore since the bastard broke down. Frick! I hate winter! If I wasn't pregnant this would be the perfect time to smoke weed because I have a headache. I'm going to take a nap instead.
miss.a.p1600
12-20-2019, 02:20 PM
^Why did I smoke weed with a pregnant lady last New Years???
She was actually a dealer of weed. I assume she didn’t do that all the time. I hope.
Carmen Elixer
12-20-2019, 03:26 PM
Yes it's one of the reasons why sex is so expensive.
And harder to get sex out of women than men,
it's more of a risk for us, for many reasons, so we have to take it serious.
It's b/c our bodies are literally incubators of bacteria, and any types of germ or cell that we are exposed to.
One little exposure to something & our body goes into nurture mode. It starts harboring that germ, feeding it clothing it, etc.
Men on the other hand, are generally carriers.
Their gentals is on the outside of their body, (obvi duh)
so when they are exposed, it rarely lives, b/c it needs an incubator to live. It just dies
So men are constantly passing shit around to girls. Meanwhile, they never even know they had anything,
or were exposed to anything, or transmitting anything. They take germs straight from their mistress,
to their wife, and no one ever knows this is happening until WIFE comes down with something.
This means for her: taking time off work, losing money, having to get naked in front of a doctor, having that doc's cold
tools & hands inside your body, having to pay for meds, having to be on the meds for several days, being prohitibed
from having sex for several days/weeks, having to go back to doc sometimes to make sure it's gone, it could spread
and turn into something else, it could go into the kidneys, etc. The knowledge that I chlymidia or whatever is
spread all over the doctors office, its embarrassing. Then we have to be the bearers of bad news to all our partners,
and look like the buzzkill, for what he actually gave to us. I came here to say a random thought but I forget what it was.
carmen_b
12-21-2019, 11:29 PM
Leanings towards telling M about my occasional club work.
It's just too hard to explain where I am without disclosing. I hope it isn't a mistake.
I really was leaning towards full retirement at end of November 2019 ( and never talking about it again ! ) . After three weeks of not working I am just missing club $ too much.
Carmen Elixer
12-22-2019, 09:55 PM
Why are men .
WendiStarr
12-22-2019, 10:07 PM
I spent a half hour wrapping presents. I still have 20 more to wrap. I'm taking a break from that. On the plus side it did attract some interest from cam custies. One guy took me pvt to watch me continue wrapping presents except while naked in pvt. I wish I knew a licensed massage therapist that was trained in prenatal massage.
AChildOfBoredom
12-23-2019, 12:07 AM
How do you pick a gift for the guy who hates everything?
NitaBaby
12-23-2019, 06:05 AM
I have until 2 or 3 o'clock this afternoon to make whatever money I'm going to make for last minute Christmas gifts.