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carmen_b
05-04-2020, 10:04 AM
I am finding I just don't miss sex work very much. I had a few days in there where I missed the club so much. Maybe since it's been 6-7 weeks now and I was on the edge of retiring anyway ? I don't know. I'm not throwing away my stuff but I just don't see myself rushing back either. That's where I'm sitting with it for now. It could change when I find myself craving a trip or something haha !
carmen_b
05-04-2020, 10:15 AM
I am wondering if my Mom saw the receipt for my entertainer license. The reason I think so is that she hasn't returned a text for like 10-12 days .
The receipt was sitting on the bed in the AirBnB and my parents were there. It wasn't open ( it's an 8 by 11 paper folded like 6 times to fit in purse ). So ..... if it fell out of my purse onto the bed in my room ..... that's a best scenario . If it fell out somewhere in the house , got opened , and someone put it on the bed ..... not the best scenario.
WendiStarr
05-04-2020, 01:43 PM
I have been up since 5am, worked 6-4pm, and now I have 2 and a half hours of free time to do anything I want to before working OT. I should be napping or doing something productive but I'm sitting on here.
AChildOfBoredom
05-04-2020, 03:47 PM
One of my coworkers to me today;
Him: “If we have another company picnic in the future, you’ll probably meet my son. He’s about your age”
Me: “Thanks, but I’d rather you didn’t play matchmaker”
Him: “Oh, no. He already hates you. I keep telling his useless ass he should try to be more like you”
carmen_b
05-04-2020, 05:25 PM
Well I tried to solve the mystery 2 hours ago by asking if she was mad at me.
I want to convince myself her phone is broken lol like you do when you get ghosted.
I am wondering if my Mom saw the receipt for my entertainer license. The reason I think so is that she hasn't returned a text for like 10-12 days .
The receipt was sitting on the bed in the AirBnB and my parents were there. It wasn't open ( it's an 8 by 11 paper folded like 6 times to fit in purse ). So ..... if it fell out of my purse onto the bed in my room ..... that's a best scenario . If it fell out somewhere in the house , got opened , and someone put it on the bed ..... not the best scenario.
moneybags
05-05-2020, 06:50 AM
I’ve been watching all these people showing their support and gratitude to first responders. Maybe I need to show my gratitude. If pornhub is giving away free porn maybe we could do some type of charity? Handjobs maybe?
SnuffleUffleGrass
05-05-2020, 07:02 AM
I’ve been watching all these people showing their support and gratitude to first responders. Maybe I need to show my gratitude. If pornhub is giving away free porn maybe we could do some type of charity? Handjobs maybe?
Just being nice to them....I smiled at a Nurse in scrubs at Wal Mart because a lot of people react negatively to them going out in public in scrubs. The medical community is collectively freaked out, for understandable reasons.
(Side note- my neighbor the doctor finally came home- I hadn't seen him for several days! Most are probably being housed near hospitals.)
My Random Thought...….leaning to not be a coffee snob is tough but I'm getting over being choosy about coffee.
carmen_b
05-05-2020, 09:32 AM
My mom didn't find my license !
That is what it was ( this very non-discreet 8 by 11 paper with HUGE font " You are licensed in a sexual way " ) !!
Yes !!
Somehow I had blocked her in her contact .......... SO weird !
I've got it safe in a zippered compartment in my purse.
Elektra Luxx
05-05-2020, 12:08 PM
Lynn2009 sweetie I've got these crystals to protect you from Covid19 that I want to sell to you at a great deal, but your PM inbox is full. I don't want you miss out on this great deal.
AChildOfBoredom
05-05-2020, 03:41 PM
When my friend from the community came here after being widowed, she was looking at getting back into bicycle repair as a means to make a living, but she had sold off all of her tools when she married, because the Mennonite community we came from was one where married women simply did not hold jobs. So my coworkers pitched in some surplus tools they had, but my former roommate dropped almost $3,500 completely unexpectedly to buy bicycle-specific tools for her. And I’d only asked if he maybe would be willing to pitch in a little… maybe $50 or $100 or whatever… I wasn’t expecting him to go all out like that.
So now my friend really wants to meet him and she has this idealized image of him in her mind as some happy, charming person, and I don’t know of it’s better to let her maintain the illusion, or tell her the truth that’s he really quite a sociopath who just isn’t completely void of empathy and somehow actually does mange to be a good person in spite of it. So she’s thinking he’s this “knight in shining armor” type while I know how it really is. I still have no idea why he did that. I’ve never known him to give a shit about making any sort of flex, and he doesn’t want anything in return and he’s not seeking to make himself a martyr of any sort for it. So I’d thought maybe he’d gone suicidal and was in that stage of just giving everything away. His only response when asked why was pretty much, “I dunno… just seemed the thing to do, I reckon”.
lynn2009
05-05-2020, 05:00 PM
Lynn2009 sweetie I've got these crystals to protect you from Covid19 that I want to sell to you at a great deal, but your PM inbox is full. I don't want you miss out on this great deal.
Do you have crystals that solve like... every problem? I could use those.
SnuffleUffleGrass
05-05-2020, 06:10 PM
When my friend from the community came here after being widowed, she was looking at getting back into bicycle repair as a means to make a living, but she had sold off all of her tools when she married, because the Mennonite community we came from was one where married women simply did not hold jobs. So my coworkers pitched in some surplus tools they had, but my former roommate dropped almost $3,500 completely unexpectedly to buy bicycle-specific tools for her. And I’d only asked if he maybe would be willing to pitch in a little… maybe $50 or $100 or whatever… I wasn’t expecting him to go all out like that.
So now my friend really wants to meet him and she has this idealized image of him in her mind as some happy, charming person, and I don’t know of it’s better to let her maintain the illusion, or tell her the truth that’s he really quite a sociopath who just isn’t completely void of empathy and somehow actually does mange to be a good person in spite of it. So she’s thinking he’s this “knight in shining armor” type while I know how it really is. I still have no idea why he did that. I’ve never known him to give a shit about making any sort of flex, and he doesn’t want anything in return and he’s not seeking to make himself a martyr of any sort for it. So I’d thought maybe he’d gone suicidal and was in that stage of just giving everything away. His only response when asked why was pretty much, “I dunno… just seemed the thing to do, I reckon”.
Sometimes weird guys make great long term partners. Sometimes.
Random Thought- watching the doc "The Last Dance" (about Michael Jordan) is blowing my mind. There's quite a bit of footage of Kobe Bryant and it's super surreal to see him "big as life" knowing he's not alive now. Life is so random.
Years ago I met someone who did business with Michael Jordan (NBA coaching related) and the guy told me he thought Mike was an allright guy. IMO Mike has had phases of tyrannical behavior, which is sad but unfortunately money and ego can go to people's heads.
lynn2009
05-05-2020, 09:11 PM
I ordered a minimalist desk to put in my bedroom so I can work in there comfortably. It's the only room with a door that shuts that guarantees the dog will stay quiet. I'm going to use it as a hallway plant stand or something in the house, if that ever actually happens.
WendiStarr
05-06-2020, 08:39 AM
I spend 8-10 hours in front of a computer, dealing with customer issues. I'm starting to have a hard time disconnecting because when I have issues with a company or service myself, I'm feeling aggravated. I don't want to bother calling their customer service because it'll feel like I'm working.
carmen_b
05-06-2020, 12:19 PM
My call for help getting dicked down worked. Haha.
After visiting with his daughter last night which was fun and pleasant ( she didn't like the food I made though haha ) , I left at 7:30 and circled round again at 9p.m.
:) He very much made the 90 minutes I had to kill bumming around town worth it.
I don't really know how dating 6-7 months post divorce works ( all I looked up was the initial best timing / way to act on a first meeting ).
I think we are doing things right.
I would dare say I *could* wait until tomorrow even but I will see him tonight for more. :)
moneybags
05-07-2020, 12:58 AM
Wow! I’m actually supper happy to be single! Society so fucks with our head about sex and romance. I get to do whatever I want whenever I want! I don’t have a lame ass dude I have to take care of...and I get paid to have cyber sex. This whole time i’ve been fed this BS crap it’s better to be in a relationship and sex work is shameful. It’s fucking BS I programming. It’s all bullshit!
carmen_b
05-07-2020, 08:36 PM
A letter to my brother :
Sorry bro ..... this weekend you will have to do something *drastic*.
You'll be caring for your own step kid throughout the day tomorrow ( Fri. ) AND on Sat. too !
I made mom and I salon appts. for tomorrow and then I am organizing something else for Sat. ( step kid also not invited ).
You've been given the times ...... enjoy !
My activities are in place so thank you in advance for your cooperation !
WendiStarr
05-08-2020, 08:55 AM
Work sent me a text about an employee at an Amazon warehouse testing positive for Covid-19 and a bunch of stuff on symptoms and such. Then they sent a long ass apology text since I'm a remote worker, not warehouse. I'm so glad that I work from home.
JGB2009
05-08-2020, 08:52 PM
Honestly I have enjoyed all my time with you. Truthfully I am my happiest when I am with you, but as time goes on I kind of want more than what we have together. Hopefully that will be a possibility in the future.
Elektra Luxx
05-09-2020, 10:51 AM
I stopped drinking sodas about 2 weeks ago and have been drinking just water or water with Crystal Light and I feel so much better.
WendiStarr
05-09-2020, 04:34 PM
I needed to make something for dinner so I pulled out what I thought was steak from the freezer. It turned out to be fucking pork. I never ate pork. I looked up a recipe to try to make it appetizing but it grosses me out. I cooked I and it looks like a lung and makes me feel nauseous. I checked the freezer and it's full of this disgusting shit. BD bought it and I'm going to end up vegan if he doesn't get this crap out of here.
AChildOfBoredom
05-09-2020, 04:49 PM
I dodged a bullet with this wedding I was supposed to be a bridesmaid at, but I’m not out of the woods just yet.
Aurora_Sunset
05-10-2020, 08:17 AM
Work sent me a text about an employee at an Amazon warehouse testing positive for Covid-19 and a bunch of stuff on symptoms and such. Then they sent a long ass apology text since I'm a remote worker, not warehouse. I'm so glad that I work from home.
Yeah, I keep getting texts about the employees at our warehouse that are testing positive and the last time they were in the building. I'm not too worried though... Everyone distances, we have to have masks on at all times, and gloves while we work, and they sanitize the shit out of everything. Honestly, I think these workers are catching it from elsewhere, not work. Guess it's nice they're at least letting us know though.
WendiStarr
05-10-2020, 09:01 AM
Happy Mother's day to all the other mommies out there!!
Aurora_Sunset
05-10-2020, 11:26 AM
I keep waffling back and forth on having the basic Netflix plan vs upgrading to 2 screens. It’s just a $4 difference so I should just commit to it and leave it alone, but we’ll have such long periods of time where we never watch from different places that that extra money just seems stupid and pointless. So I’ll downgrade and then have to upgrade again when we hit a day where we have 2 screens going. I should just leave it alone, like I said.
carmen_b
05-10-2020, 01:45 PM
Should I tell the person I'm seeing that I need to check out of the house sit tomorrow?
I've known him 6.5 weeks.
I don't know if that's long enough to have a " you should put me up if my house sit isn't open" type of expectation.
I worry it will make him nervous. It's just 4 nights.
Thoughts ? Most likely he would want me there Mon / Tues . anyway ( his non- kid days ) then I could get the cheapie hotel ( $32 a night ) without disrupting his kid days or even needing to say anything.
At a certain point ..... I should not be needing hotel rooms. He would ( I hope ) just put me up smoothly since we are south in his area . My cabin is just sitting open North with no one in it.
carmen_b
05-10-2020, 01:59 PM
I waited until the last minute.
With my family in town, I just didn't want to create an info overwhelm situation.
moneybags
05-10-2020, 03:15 PM
I cancel my account when I’m too busy to watch it then like a month later I reactivate it.
I get my Netflix log in from my cousin Greg.
https://youtu.be/yvHYWD29ZNY
I keep waffling back and forth on having the basic Netflix plan vs upgrading to 2 screens. It’s just a $4 difference so I should just commit to it and leave it alone, but we’ll have such long periods of time where we never watch from different places that that extra money just seems stupid and pointless. So I’ll downgrade and then have to upgrade again when we hit a day where we have 2 screens going. I should just leave it alone, like I said.
carmen_b
05-10-2020, 03:26 PM
^ HA ! It's funny. Aurora is obsessing over $4 a month and I'm obsessing over $64 Wed. and Thurs. !
It must be a sign of the damn times. $ is just so tight !
Two months ago on a stripper site no one would have mentioned this shit !
JGB2009
05-10-2020, 06:12 PM
Since this corona virus stuff happened I have been shopping at this grocery store in another county. Its a nice place. Its not over crowded and they are nicely stocked with everything. The down side is that they are very expensive. I went to the Walmart website to see if I could place a order but it said I could only purchase items at the store. I wonder if that is just at that store or is that like that at every Walmart. Any who I can't wait to place an order with them again.
carmen_b
05-10-2020, 08:20 PM
I'm used to counting on just myself.
It's hard to ask the man I'm seeing for anything.
Sometimes I forget that he is a pleaser. I asked for a table reservation for tomorrow just now and he agreed in minutes. Maybe I can begin to count on J . He has never flaked or let me down in nearly 7 weeks.
miss.a.p1600
05-10-2020, 08:36 PM
Since this corona virus stuff happened I have been shopping at this grocery store in another county. Its a nice place. Its not over crowded and they are nicely stocked with everything. The down side is that they are very expensive. I went to the Walmart website to see if I could place a order but it said I could only purchase items at the store. I wonder if that is just at that store or is that like that at every Walmart. Any who I can't wait to place an order with them again.
I've been doing the same.
I notice the experience is better at the less crowded 'upscale' grocery stores.
Walmart (and other places) are restricting the limited quantity items to in-store purchase only. My guess is it's harder to hoard if you have to trek out every time and only get 2 or 3 of an item.
baer45
05-11-2020, 07:41 PM
https://youtu.be/dBGbPYIcnQw
Ladycaxe
05-12-2020, 04:37 AM
Okay yall i love my titties. i have B cups, super perky, all the good stuff. customers always tell me never get surgery (well of course theyll say that lols) BUT , i cant seem to stop envisioning myself w some juicy bolt ons xD I'm pretty petite (5'5 abt 120lbs), I feel like a D cup would look super good on me.
I've always said i'll never get fake titties but idk. Maybe it's just cuz i had a dream about it the other night ? I can't stop thinking that i want some.
It's not somethin i'll plan to do soon, but like 6 years from now if i still want em imma get em lols. My natural tits would have had a good run by then.
My tits are so perky though i feel like my implants would be perky too-- personally love a more natural look when they drop a bit, but i notice that phenomena mostly when women have had kids b4 so they already have a natural stretch/ drop. Too bad i dont want kids.
Anyways. Theres' my random thought.
Anyone else had (close 2) perfect boobies and got implants anyway? =D
Aurora_Sunset
05-12-2020, 05:56 AM
Okay yall i love my titties. i have B cups, super perky, all the good stuff. customers always tell me never get surgery (well of course theyll say that lols) BUT , i cant seem to stop envisioning myself w some juicy bolt ons xD I'm pretty petite (5'5 abt 120lbs), I feel like a D cup would look super good on me.
I've always said i'll never get fake titties but idk. Maybe it's just cuz i had a dream about it the other night ? I can't stop thinking that i want some.
It's not somethin i'll plan to do soon, but like 6 years from now if i still want em imma get em lols. My natural tits would have had a good run by then.
My tits are so perky though i feel like my implants would be perky too-- personally love a more natural look when they drop a bit, but i notice that phenomena mostly when women have had kids b4 so they already have a natural stretch/ drop. Too bad i dont want kids.
Anyways. Theres' my random thought.
Anyone else had (close 2) perfect boobies and got implants anyway? =D
I used to think my boobs were perfect. Great shape, perky, just big enough. Always said the same thing - that I would love implants, but also wanted to appreciate how naturally great my boobs were. Well, about 7-9 years later... My boobs aren't bad, but I would consider implants more seriously in the future. I've never had kids, but just general aging, plus some non-kid related weight gain and then loss, and titties just don't stay the same lol So yeah, enjoy the perfect boobs while you have them, but you may want to revisit the idea of implants in a few years.
carmen_b
05-12-2020, 04:04 PM
Bleh. What a week. Lost the house sit to paying guests. Haha.
A couple nights at J's / a couple in cheapie motel and then I'll have my house sit location back.
lynn2009
05-12-2020, 09:05 PM
I've been looking for something different to get for myself lately and decided on the Singles Swag monthly subscription box. FitFabFun looked good too but a woman I hate because she mansplains all the time recommended it to me.
carmen_b
05-14-2020, 03:49 PM
Maybe I've met my match haha.
He wants to know :
a. my arrival time
b. my food choice ( he wants to order it early to time it right )
c. my choice of activity for evening
^ This is 3-4 hours ahead with a level of OCD precision that only another busy person can understand.
He might have " got me " . ;/
carmen_b
05-14-2020, 09:37 PM
I have to admit I'm pretty charmed by J's daughter.
I wasn't planning to go there today but she had asked about the dog / me ( I'm a by product of dog delivery haha ).
I got there to eat and he had the food ready minutes later ( see above ).
She picked to sit by me and doggie for the movie ( I picked the lazy activity option as I'd driven 5 hours the day before) and leaned into me / held my hand.
She is 7. She had also made this present ..... a large rainbow colored paper flower.
JGB2009
05-15-2020, 09:54 PM
Just cause you clicked the like button on numerous pictures doesn't mean I will accept your friend request. I am not looking for no one and I am HAPPY who I am with.
AChildOfBoredom
05-15-2020, 11:12 PM
I think one of the dancers from my last club is driving an Amazon delivery van. I stopped at a gas station today on my way home from towing, and this Amazon van was parked in front of the C-Store. This girl in uniform looked 100% like one of the dancers from the club and she stared at me as if she recognized me as she was driving out while I was getting gas.
WendiStarr
05-16-2020, 04:27 AM
^ It probably was her. Amazon is paying people $17/hour right now and $30/hour for OT. It's probably one of the highest paying vanilla jobs that anyone can do without any experience or degree right now.
Random, I want to find one of those big inflatable pools but I waited too long and now it's out of stock everywhere. I'm trying to avoid buying it from Amazon because I don't want to be waiting 2-3 months for it to come from China and probably be junk.
lynn2009
05-16-2020, 09:33 PM
It was supposed to rain all weekend, then it was sunny and warm today. I hope it rains tomorrow. I love rain, I find the noise very calming. Plus when I'm walking the dog we never see anyone else.
AChildOfBoredom
05-17-2020, 04:03 PM
I really hate forming attachments. There will come a point where I become fully conscious of what has happened. Then it’ll be 2010 again and the story will finally come to a close. Forming attachments can only make that more difficult. I wish I had the ability to just disconnect from everyone and everything. I just can’t seem to do it, though.
Elektra Luxx
05-18-2020, 10:56 AM
Things are tight in my living room because bf has a desk and office chair setup for working from home. So sometimes I'm turning sideways to scoot by stacks of our stuff and my thunder thighs and big ass are always knocking everything over. Sheesh!!
carmen_b
05-18-2020, 08:47 PM
I definitely like structure and boundaries.
We are chatting about it and J definitely wants no involvement with other dicks ( for either of us lol ).
Women ( for me ) is still on the table which I find fun .
We are monogamous now .
AChildOfBoredom
05-19-2020, 01:24 PM
When you’re single and all your friends aren’t…
One of my friends was all giddy because her boyfriend bought her a large bouquet of flowers. Which is a bit of a paradox for me. I don’t really need adoration, I don’t really want a relationship, and I don’t really feel like I need anyone but me. But, dammit, I do want flowers. I mean, I want to be given flowers.
I don’t ask for much… share the responsibilities of upkeep, don’t be a lazy ass or parasite, get me flowers on occasion, and have a bulldozer and give me a little free reign to demolish some shit. Why is that so hard to find?
carmen_b
05-19-2020, 01:38 PM
^ Would you actually date the dude / dudette or be sexual though if he / she was holding that bouquet and the keys to the bulldozer ?
I'd recommend a general contractor or housing developer for this haha , access to all the those large toys and also usually good with $ so definitely not parasitic.
They are also really busy so out of your face and doing their own thing often.
AChildOfBoredom
05-19-2020, 06:45 PM
^ Would you actually date the dude / dudette or be sexual though if he / she was holding that bouquet and the keys to the bulldozer ?
I'd recommend a general contractor or housing developer for this haha , access to all the those large toys and also usually good with $ so definitely not parasitic.
They are also really busy so out of your face and doing their own thing often.
“Dudettes”. A lesson I’ve learned… you take someone into your home who happens to be a lesbian while being single and maybe not showing much interest in dating, and holy shit do they come out of the woodwork. And you never know who they are. One second, everything’s normal, then they make a move on you. And the last time it happened, I didn’t even see it coming. Before I knew it she was sucking on my face and had her hand up my shirt before I could even process what the fuck was going on. And I’m in two mind over it… on the one hand, there’s always the thought of collecting their fucking head whenever something like that happens. On the other, I was really amazed at how smooth she was pulling it off and maybe I’m not even mad at her. Especially when I realize that she has an idea of what she’s be getting herself into if I actually went for it, because she actually has seen some of the worse sides of me.
Guys, on the other hand… they’re squeamish as fuck.
53143
Or there’s this one I got earlier today…
53144
I mean, come on… “The Grizz”?! I haven’t even said or done anything that bad.
For fuck’s sake… the dykes are the only ones with the ball to try dating me. And I’m not even taking about the butch, bull types. It’s like life(?) is just trolling the fuck out of me sometimes. When I had my annual day of manic depression and self loathing, she’s the one who stayed with me through it, though. Kinda hard to stay bitter about her feeling up on my tits when I weigh and measure everything.
As for sex… I think I’m my own worst enemy there. Getting horny doesn’t happen at anyone else’s behest - only when it wants to happen. I haven’t even gotten myself off since last June. And this wasn’t something that changed from the war. It was always that way, even when I was still alive. I just don’t have a sex drive at all. I still want flowers.
AChildOfBoredom
05-19-2020, 07:49 PM
I shouldn’t have said dykes. I don’t think of them disparagingly that way. It’s just something I simply cannot do.