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lynn2009
08-25-2020, 07:03 PM
Sorry to hear.

Thanks. I wish I could post a link to the house. It's a gorgeous 1930s bungalow with a renovated attic, so there's a second floor with living space. So many of these older homes are renovated so shitty but whoever updated this house did it perfectly. It's modern but in such an understated, classy way to maintain the original beauty and integrity of the house. But I can't even imagine what it took to beat 16 other offers. At least it wasn't close.

JGB2009
08-25-2020, 09:26 PM
Usually we chat before I go to sleep. I hope I hear from you soon or we might not chat tonight.

moneybags
08-25-2020, 09:46 PM
I’ve have gotten thick since Coronavirus. I’m glad i can carry the weight well.

trustfundkiller
08-25-2020, 10:22 PM
I really miss the club. But I don't think it will go back to it's pre-coronavirus state for at least another year.

WendiStarr
08-26-2020, 11:38 AM
OF has me feeling salty right now. I have a screen name that I created specifically for that site. It's not any screen name that I've used before. Now I'm getting random spam and phishing attempts to my work phone addressing me by my OF screen name and saying stuff along the lines of my account being locked, verify my account at this link, and even stranger fake Fedex deliveries(not clicking any of that because it's obviously a phishing attempt). I've been reading recently about some ladies not being paid out. I'm still waiting on payout too. This is making me think that they're up to some shady shit.

AChildOfBoredom
08-26-2020, 11:59 AM
Sounds like they may have sold your contact info to whoever wanted it.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-26-2020, 12:38 PM
Sounds like they may have sold your contact info to whoever wanted it.


This ^^^^ most likely.


Random thought- need to buy kim chee at the store, probiotics are awesome....

Selina M
08-26-2020, 11:22 PM
My spouse is from New Mexico, so we celebrate 'green chile season'. He makes stew out of them that's awesome.

The only problem is it's a pain in the ass - the chiles gotta be roasted & peeled & the seeds removed first and the stew takes an hour itself. It's a process. He bought 2 lbs of chiles last week and had me roast them while he was at work, then didn't feel like cooking the stew. He didn't feel like doing it the last 2 days while he was off either. Now he's grumpily cooking at 11:30 pm so they don't go bad and get wasted.

It's not really an 'annoyance', so it goes in this thread... but I'm just like... why did you make me roast them and put yourself in this situation? :confused:

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-27-2020, 05:07 AM
My spouse is from New Mexico, so we celebrate 'green chile season'. He makes stew out of them that's awesome.

The only problem is it's a pain in the ass - the chiles gotta be roasted & peeled & the seeds removed first and the stew takes an hour itself. It's a process. He bought 2 lbs of chiles last week and had me roast them while he was at work, then didn't feel like cooking the stew. He didn't feel like doing it the last 2 days while he was off either. Now he's grumpily cooking at 11:30 pm so they don't go bad and get wasted.

It's not really an 'annoyance', so it goes in this thread... but I'm just like... why did you make me roast them and put yourself in this situation? :confused:

A fast way to peel a chili (frozen or fresh) is cut it in half and then scrape out the seeds according to how hot you want the dish to be.

Buy him a crockpot? That's how I do stews and soups when I can't spare the time to cook on the stovetop.

carmen_b
08-27-2020, 02:09 PM
^ Also consider buying the roasted Chilis.

Damn I love green chili everything. I rarely have it unless my partner eats it too as it's so fragrant . Hahaha. I need to find us some!

carmen_b
08-27-2020, 02:11 PM
My day job is sending me up to Montana. I'm looking forward to it. I'm trying to get my partner to fly in mid trip so I can *stretch* the travel budget offered ( longer trip but less luxe places to stay ) . Id like to DRIVE it and just keep the budgeted $ for the flight and rental car!

I've got time to burn. This isn't the old days of maximum efficiency . This is coronatimes haha.
I think I'm gonna take my sweet time and take the drive over 3 days ( which is still 4-5 hours each day ).
What the hell though right ? I haven't been anywhere in like a million years .

Any Vegas ladies want to catch a lift NORTH mid Sept. ? hahaha
Does anyone even travel dance anymore or is this now a thing of the past ?
I have no idea if Montana clubs are open but I'd totally do like a night somewhere along the way !

:)

Kinda thinking of making a 9 day trip out of this one for sure but I have a hard time going that long without sex so if my partner doesn't join I might have to fly. I'm really crossing my fingers for this ! I'd love to bang it out with him at a lakeside cabin or something , get steaks, and explore Glacier National Park . Yes, this is phrasing I'll use selling the trip to him !

kimbe
08-27-2020, 02:21 PM
Does anyone even travel dance anymore or is this now a thing of the past ?
:)

I'd look at it more like a temporary pause..

carmen_b
08-27-2020, 02:29 PM
Yeah. I've only worked TWO nights in Montana and I like an outdoorsy type of crowd so I'd love to do 1-2 nights along the way BUT there is still some germ caution to keep in mind.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-28-2020, 06:35 AM
I'd look at it more like a temporary pause..

Depends on what region you live in....in some parts of the States you have to.

Random thought- the social media furor over the band Smashmouth playing Sturgis during the Covid 19 pandemic is hilarious. I have no opinion either way. I DID NOT know they went Platinum in album sales 12 times. Holy shit. I thought they were popular but not that popular. Extra dumb trivia- Smashmouth's "All Star" was the Graduating Class song chosen by my sister's high school for her graduating year. For a Northern Californian high school, it was wildly appropriate.

WendiStarr
08-28-2020, 10:41 AM
What forces a period to start? I hate the damn thing but I'm a week late(no, not pregnant) and have been cramping every day this week. Today I have the cramps, lower back pain, and nausea since this morning. I've tried parsley tea, ginger tea, and sex to try to start it. I need the fucker to just start already.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-28-2020, 12:44 PM
I can't link to it but Rose MacGowan gave a very interesting interview regarding her rape by Harvey Weinstein. & I think it's sweet she is forgiving towards Marilyn Manson. I did not expect her to say that.....

AChildOfBoredom
08-28-2020, 05:48 PM
I agreed to a photo shoot. Nothing erotic. My coworker who did the Photoshop for the background when I had the photo taken with the knife, the infant resuscitation doll, and the face of the adult resuscitation doll over my face… he does photography as a hobby, and he was showing various photos to a friend of his who does it professionally. I guess some photos from in the shop were included in that… just candid photos… and he saw me in a couple of them and wanted to work with me. Everything I read about him indicates he’s reputable, the feedback from those who’ve worked with him is all positive, and… I don’t know. He came to the shop to talk to me, and I guess it was that he asked questions which looked for depth and he seems to use that to put a theme for his shoots together and tell a story rather than just take photos for the sake of taking photos. So, I’m supposed to meet with him Sunday and meet his makeup person, stylist, and another woman I’ll be working with in the shoot.
I’m having second thoughts. I never did photo shoots before. Never really liked the idea. Aside from being a fairly private person, I’ve always felt they were too vain. But, maybe I need to get out of my comfort zone a little.

Carmen Elixer
08-28-2020, 06:52 PM
I agreed to a photo shoot. Nothing erotic. My coworker who did the Photoshop for the background when I had the photo taken with the knife, the infant resuscitation doll, and the face of the adult resuscitation doll over my face… he does photography as a hobby, and he was showing various photos to a friend of his who does it professionally. I guess some photos from in the shop were included in that… just candid photos… and he saw me in a couple of them and wanted to work with me. Everything I read about him indicates he’s reputable, the feedback from those who’ve worked with him is all positive, and… I don’t know. He came to the shop to talk to me, and I guess it was that he asked questions which looked for depth and he seems to use that to put a theme for his shoots together and tell a story rather than just take photos for the sake of taking photos. So, I’m supposed to meet with him Sunday and meet his makeup person, stylist, and another woman I’ll be working with in the shoot.
I’m having second thoughts. I never did photo shoots before. Never really liked the idea. Aside from being a fairly private person, I’ve always felt they were too vain. But, maybe I need to get out of my comfort zone a little.

I hear ya. I felt that exact same way before I did my first shoot. I feel under a microscope when somebody zooms in on me like that too. The only reason I did mine was bc a SD wanted me to do a photo shoot for him, paid for it, really meant a lot to him. So I did it. Well it did get me out of my comfort zone big time. It was slightly uncomfortable at first, but then it was just like dancing on stage the first time. After the first couple dances, I opened up and started having a great time. It gives you a chance to see how you show up on camera. You might get excited and start thinking about what you want out of your next shoot. Consider trying it, esp. if he's doing it for free. But if your gut tells you you're uncomfortable with the guy, or just don't like him, then don't do it. There's no reason to put yourself through that. If you're not sure, then maybe tell him you need to reschedule bc something came up, then put it off for a while while you think about it. I’m excited for you if you do it tho.

AChildOfBoredom
08-28-2020, 09:34 PM
The guy seems pretty reputable, and what he proposed is reasonable. The manner of dress is a little more showy than my norm, but that’s not the point of the theme he had in mind. And I like his work, as well. And maybe curiosity got the better of me,, as well. He told me had “a sense of darkness and mystery” that he’d been looking for. Not the first time those words have been used to describe me, but I never really thought too much about it, so I never asked what exactly they meant by that. But.. I dunno. I’m curious to see his interpretation of that.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-29-2020, 04:55 AM
I agreed to a photo shoot. Nothing erotic. My coworker who did the Photoshop for the background when I had the photo taken with the knife, the infant resuscitation doll, and the face of the adult resuscitation doll over my face… he does photography as a hobby, and he was showing various photos to a friend of his who does it professionally. I guess some photos from in the shop were included in that… just candid photos… and he saw me in a couple of them and wanted to work with me. Everything I read about him indicates he’s reputable, the feedback from those who’ve worked with him is all positive, and… I don’t know. He came to the shop to talk to me, and I guess it was that he asked questions which looked for depth and he seems to use that to put a theme for his shoots together and tell a story rather than just take photos for the sake of taking photos. So, I’m supposed to meet with him Sunday and meet his makeup person, stylist, and another woman I’ll be working with in the shoot.
I’m having second thoughts. I never did photo shoots before. Never really liked the idea. Aside from being a fairly private person, I’ve always felt they were too vain. But, maybe I need to get out of my comfort zone a little.


Oh girllll, photo shoots are a combo of boring and fun.

The first time I did photos for work, I understood what the famous model Paulina Porizkova said about modeling (it's boring but great money.) You spend 5-20 minutes posing, standing still, trusting the photographer, etc.

The reason people in general are so leery of photographer is, a LOT of male ones get into it mostly to meet attractive women. I've known 2 in my lifetime who were great at appearing nice at first, but later turned out to be creepy.

Message me if you have any questions. I learned a lot of the old school tricks for posing and setting up shots, this was before Photoshop was everywhere/ filters were common.

JGB2009
08-29-2020, 10:42 AM
The guy I have been seeing for a while was almost in a serious car accident yesterday. The person behind him broke his brake light, over corrected herself, hit the guard rail, and flipped numerous times. She died within 15 minutes. She was going over 100 mph and my guess is that it was alcohol related. I am just very thankfull he is ok.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-29-2020, 12:13 PM
Splurging on a 3 wick scented candle was so worth it.

moneybags
08-30-2020, 12:32 AM
Splurging on a 3 wick scented candle was so worth it.

It’s the little things isn’t it? That’s good. Now n days it’s important to find happiness in the little things.

I really wanted to get my pro card. I’m getting older and I figured I’ll probably be in the plus 40 category soon.
But I think it’s more impressive to get a pro card later in life. I’m gonna stop obsessing about it. Lots of people lost everything during coronavirus-including their life. I’ll just try to be happy now instead of waiting for “someday”. I have to learn to not attach to the outcome-that gets me every frickin’ time.

AChildOfBoredom
08-30-2020, 02:21 AM
Oh girllll, photo shoots are a combo of boring and fun.

The first time I did photos for work, I understood what the famous model Paulina Porizkova said about modeling (it's boring but great money.) You spend 5-20 minutes posing, standing still, trusting the photographer, etc.

The reason people in general are so leery of photographer is, a LOT of male ones get into it mostly to meet attractive women. I've known 2 in my lifetime who were great at appearing nice at first, but later turned out to be creepy.

Message me if you have any questions. I learned a lot of the old school tricks for posing and setting up shots, this was before Photoshop was everywhere/ filters were common.

We’ll see how it goes. It’s not really something I expect I’ll do more than once. I guess I just want to try it one time. I’ve never cammed, never done photo shoots, never really made much of an online presence for myself... all in all, I really never needed to. But I suppose I always held at least a small degree of envy towards those who could be so uninhibited, whether it be something like simple non-erotic photo shoots or things much less inhibited. Growing up, I was always taught to approach physical attractiveness as a double edge sword... of course, my mother wanted it for the sake of marrying “well”, but not so much when English boys began to take notice of me. And perhaps it’s one of those things which I never really shook off. My sister and the Amish girl both have the same problem, and as much as I like to claim that I’m simply not cut from the correct cloth to lead that manner of life, I still seem to allow many aspects of it to continue holding me back. So maybe this photo shoot might be good for me. Or maybe it’ll drive me further away from doing such things in the future. I don’t know. If the other person whose going to be in the shoot is substantially taller than me (which I know I’m not setting a particularly high bar, but still) I think I’ll be quite fucked off about it.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-30-2020, 06:10 AM
We’ll see how it goes. It’s not really something I expect I’ll do more than once. I guess I just want to try it one time. I’ve never cammed, never done photo shoots, never really made much of an online presence for myself... all in all, I really never needed to. But I suppose I always held at least a small degree of envy towards those who could be so uninhibited, whether it be something like simple non-erotic photo shoots or things much less inhibited. Growing up, I was always taught to approach physical attractiveness as a double edge sword... of course, my mother wanted it for the sake of marrying “well”, but not so much when English boys began to take notice of me. And perhaps it’s one of those things which I never really shook off. My sister and the Amish girl both have the same problem, and as much as I like to claim that I’m simply not cut from the correct cloth to lead that manner of life, I still seem to allow many aspects of it to continue holding me back. So maybe this photo shoot might be good for me. Or maybe it’ll drive me further away from doing such things in the future. I don’t know. If the other person whose going to be in the shoot is substantially taller than me (which I know I’m not setting a particularly high bar, but still) I think I’ll be quite fucked off about it.

It's an entirely different discussion but I found great beauty was often a curse to young women. It attracted all kinds, most with misguided or bad intentions.

There's nothing wrong with enjoying one's looks and using the looks to get ahead. Life is tough and attractiveness can be a handy tool.

Back on topic, lighting is CRUICIAL!!!!!! It's the photographer's job to get this all correct, hence why shoots take forever. Are you doing your own makeup? Might wanna jump online and get some ideas of what you wanna do.

Jucie
08-30-2020, 06:12 AM
I agreed to a photo shoot. Nothing erotic. My coworker who did the Photoshop for the background when I had the photo taken with the knife, the infant resuscitation doll, and the face of the adult resuscitation doll over my face… he does photography as a hobby, and he was showing various photos to a friend of his who does it professionally. I guess some photos from in the shop were included in that… just candid photos… and he saw me in a couple of them and wanted to work with me. Everything I read about him indicates he’s reputable, the feedback from those who’ve worked with him is all positive, and… I don’t know. He came to the shop to talk to me, and I guess it was that he asked questions which looked for depth and he seems to use that to put a theme for his shoots together and tell a story rather than just take photos for the sake of taking photos. So, I’m supposed to meet with him Sunday and meet his makeup person, stylist, and another woman I’ll be working with in the shoot.
I’m having second thoughts. I never did photo shoots before. Never really liked the idea. Aside from being a fairly private person, I’ve always felt they were too vain. But, maybe I need to get out of my comfort zone a little.

I’ve had quite some shoots done (mostly semi-nude/fitness style), while it sure can feel weird, especially the first times, a good photographer will always make you feel comfortable regardless of the nature of the shoot :)
It seems to me you have done your job to be sure he’s someone you can trust. However, if there’s anything that gives you a bad feeling when you meet up, don’t hesitate to call it a day.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-30-2020, 06:18 AM
I’ve had quite some shoots done (mostly semi-nude/fitness style), while it sure can feel weird, especially the first times, a good photographer will always make you feel comfortable regardless of the nature of the shoot :)
It seems to me you have done your job to be sure he’s someone you can trust. However, if there’s anything that gives you a bad feeling when you meet up, don’t hesitate to call it a day.


OP, you can go on YouTube and see videos of photos shoots done by professionals to get an idea of what is supposed to happen.

For fidgety/ADD type people, the boredom on sitting/standing still and posing is the hard part.

& YEAH everyone can laugh at me but modeling well is an art too, knowing how to "make art" out of an image is something not everyone can do. Photos communicate life to others.

Jucie
08-30-2020, 06:31 AM
^ Waiting cat be a pain in the ass, you just wanna get those pics taken and move on. But there always something that needs to be adjusted on the camera, re-taken, different light etc etc. It’s truly a work of patience!

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-30-2020, 06:34 AM
Random but important thought- yesterday I was reading (on another forum) about a woman who was so upset by her mammogram that she wanted to figure out ways to never do one again.

F*ck. I'm gonna come out and say it, breast cancer is way more terrible than about 10 minutes of discomfort during a mammogram. Trust me on this. & I'm fairly sure less painful ones are being developed.

Get your annual health checkups done. Regret is expensive when you end up dying of a preventable cause. I'm so tapped out on mortality this year. It took A LOT to remind my stubborn moody ass that life is very fragile and finite.

lurkingtitties
08-30-2020, 06:55 AM
Random but important thought- yesterday I was reading (on another forum) about a woman who was so upset by her mammogram that she wanted to figure out ways to never do one again.

F*ck. I'm gonna come out and say it, breast cancer is way more terrible than about 10 minutes of discomfort during a mammogram. Trust me on this. & I'm fairly sure less painful ones are being developed.

Get your annual health checkups done. Regret is expensive when you end up dying of a preventable cause. I'm so tapped out on mortality this year. It took A LOT to remind my stubborn moody ass that life is very fragile and finite.

Agreed. I'm a cervical cancer survivor and used to I get soooo frustrated when women in the support group I joined on FB would say they were too traumatized to go back for regular Pap tests, or that they refused to get the LEEP thinking they could treat pre-cancerous cells on their own with supplements, or most annoyingly, when they would say that they were refusing to get their children vaccinated for HPV.

These days I just don't go on FB and life is much less annoying.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-30-2020, 08:18 AM
Agreed. I'm a cervical cancer survivor and used to I get soooo frustrated when women in the support group I joined on FB would say they were too traumatized to go back for regular Pap tests, or that they refused to get the LEEP thinking they could treat pre-cancerous cells on their own with supplements, or most annoyingly, when they would say that they were refusing to get their children vaccinated for HPV.

These days I just don't go on FB and life is much less annoying.

Oh this wasn't Facebook.

Still there is a culture of doctor avoidance with women, ranging from "too expensive" to "don't want bad news" to "ow the visit will hurt."


Trust me death by cancer is a world of hurt, spread out over months or years. I'll leave it at that.

BTW MANY states in the US have programs for low cost or free checkups for many issues. Some places even do health fairs.

Random thought- need to wash hair, ugh.

carmen_b
08-30-2020, 08:23 AM
^ Good reminder for me . I'm at the age I need to start them and tend to procrastinate health things ( which I'm trying to get better about overall ).
Health organization is really up to you . It's important self care. I mean, what could be more important ?

( hides face over not going to dentist for two years and wearing glasses five years old )

I need to get more on top of it all .

miss.a.p1600
08-30-2020, 08:26 AM
Random but important thought- yesterday I was reading (on another forum) about a woman who was so upset by her mammogram that she wanted to figure out ways to never do one again.

F*ck. I'm gonna come out and say it, breast cancer is way more terrible than about 10 minutes of discomfort during a mammogram. Trust me on this. & I'm fairly sure less painful ones are being developed.

Get your annual health checkups done. Regret is expensive when you end up dying of a preventable cause. I'm so tapped out on mortality this year. It took A LOT to remind my stubborn moody ass that life is very fragile and finite.

My family member is this way.

She said she rather just die of breast cancer if she had it then to be probed n have her tits manipulated in a machine.

Idk what kind of logic that is

carmen_b
08-30-2020, 08:29 AM
Child, I hope the shoot goes well ! You should post one in pic thread ( even if face blurred ect. ) so we can check one out !

:)

I LOVE pro shoots! I have done a few and it's so nice to get make up done perfectly and just have that experience ! Like others mentioned decide on " hard lines " before. I don't expect you would get scammed by a photographer with sex work experience but more naive girls fall for " show a litte more ...... a little more ..... " lines of bullshit for various reasons .
That is what can make a shoot so sketch ! Avoid the skeezy energy if it's there and just promptly end the shoot ( which I don't think yours would be ) ! It sounds like the person is someone you know .

If you show any " bits " at all lol you should receive your money THAT DAY and review the modeling release ( there should be a document to review and sign agreeing to how the images are used ) . So important !
( that sound not relevant to you but this is my overall opinion on this matter )

miss.a.p1600
08-30-2020, 08:35 AM
Agreed. I'm a cervical cancer survivor and used to I get soooo frustrated when women in the support group I joined on FB would say they were too traumatized to go back for regular Pap tests, or that they refused to get the LEEP thinking they could treat pre-cancerous cells on their own with supplements, or most annoyingly, when they would say that they were refusing to get their children vaccinated for HPV.

These days I just don't go on FB and life is much less annoying.

People are dumb.

It’s not till stuff like this hits home that people start to wake up.

My first time have sex it did so foolishly without a condom and was later diagnosed with hpv.

I was in denial.

But thankfully I got regular paps which every now and then would come back abnormal but didn’t require treatment

Until one came back abnormal and the doctor recommended freezing the area off. I was reluctant but agreed.

Thankfully my paps have been coming back normal again.

But I know how hpv can lead to cancer so I didn’t want any part of that

The guy who gave it to me reached out to me years later, apologized for being a narcissistic jerk (probably fake), and tried to reconnect with me. NOPE! I didn’t want any part of that either.

The vaccine wasn’t available when I was first sexually active but I wish it were so I could have taken it and maybe not had to go through getting part of my cervix chopped off. That and I should have been wiser about my sexual activity

kimbe
08-30-2020, 11:57 AM
We’ll see how it goes. It’s not really something I expect I’ll do more than once.

We'll see, you never know.. Maybe he manage to undress the hidden exhibitionist in you ;)

lurkingtitties
08-30-2020, 12:15 PM
People are dumb.

It’s not till stuff like this hits home that people start to wake up.

My first time have sex it did so foolishly without a condom and was later diagnosed with hpv.

I was in denial.

But thankfully I got regular paps which every now and then would come back abnormal but didn’t require treatment

Until one came back abnormal and the doctor recommended freezing the area off. I was reluctant but agreed.

Thankfully my paps have been coming back normal again.

But I know how hpv can lead to cancer so I didn’t want any part of that

The guy who gave it to me reached out to me years later, apologized for being a narcissistic jerk (probably fake), and tried to reconnect with me. NOPE! I didn’t want any part of that either.

The vaccine wasn’t available when I was first sexually active but I wish it were so I could have taken it and maybe not had to go through getting part of my cervix chopped off. That and I should have been wiser about my sexual activity

My high school was pretty up front with us about STD education-inner city school so they had to be-and we learned about all the big ones and could even get free condoms from the school nurse. But for whatever reason they never educated us about HPV! Weird because it's the most common STD by far. My first gyno never educated me about it either, even after my first abnormal Pap he just told me it would probably clear up on it's own. It wasn't until several years later when I was having symptoms and went to a clinic in a different state that the providers explained everything to me.

I got the vaccines when I was 21 (my mom told me to get them sooner but I was a dumb teen and again, not really educated about HPV). My first bad pap was a few years later. The first HPV vaccines only protected against 2 of the cancer-causing strains. I hear there is a newer one now that protects against 9 of the cancer-causing strains.

I just hope that as our scientific understanding of HPV increases it becomes a standard part of sex ed. I totally would have kept up with my Pap smears if I had known what they were for!

AChildOfBoredom
08-30-2020, 01:17 PM
It's an entirely different discussion but I found great beauty was often a curse to young women. It attracted all kinds, most with misguided or bad intentions.

It seems to cut both ways, though. You also get a lot of guys who won’t talk to women they find attractive, and there’s a number of reasons for that. And also my manner of dress really draws some characters out of the woodwork. I seem to get a number of these MGTOW sorts who approach me. Then they get pissed off when they realize I’m as equally uninterested in them.


There's nothing wrong with enjoying one's looks and using the looks to get ahead. Life is tough and attractiveness can be a handy tool.

It’s not that I’m unaware of it... it’s.... maybe a little more complicated. Even if I had shaken off fully my inhibitions about it, I never wanted my worth to be based on it. I know the process by which roadways are engineered. I can operate, diagnose, and repair vehicles. I’m fluent in ASL. I can set up two way radio networks and do things with radios a lot of people don’t realize are possible. I can play multiple musical instruments. I feel that’s worth something. Stripping wasn’t my idea.... never would’ve been. But at the time I was dealing with seasonal layoffs in the Winter and having to deal with wage attached UP, and, regardless of my inhibitions, I’m always going to swim rather than sink. I’m not above using my looks for gain, of course… I’ve worked at Tilted Kilt and Hooters, I’ve done promo work, I’ve been a stripper… I just never wanted to be reliant on them and I don’t delude myself about limitations they have.


Are you doing your own makeup? Might wanna jump online and get some ideas of what you wanna do.

I’m not sure. He has a stylist, but at the same time, I have ‘S‘, who kinda feels she has dominion in that area with everyone in this house, and she wouldn’t raise a stink about me doing it myself, but to let someone else do that? And she is incredibly talented, and perhaps that’s why we ended up allowing things to become that way. And he had some suggestions for things his stylist could do with my hair, and I had to tell him, “no, I have someone who’ll do it, just let me know what you want”, because she would really be upset over that. My sister - who really is quite opposed to styling her hair - will let S and nobody else do it to her, if that gives adequate testament to this girl’s abilities. But, the catch is that she sees everyone in this house as her territory insofar as that goes.


I’ve had quite some shoots done (mostly semi-nude/fitness style), while it sure can feel weird, especially the first times, a good photographer will always make you feel comfortable regardless of the nature of the shoot
It seems to me you have done your job to be sure he’s someone you can trust. However, if there’s anything that gives you a bad feeling when you meet up, don’t hesitate to call it a day.

The meeting went well. The other person I’ll be doing the shoot with was a bit of a surprise, though not necessarily in a bad way.


Child, I hope the shoot goes well ! You should post one in pic thread ( even if face blurred ect. ) so we can check one out !



I LOVE pro shoots! I have done a few and it's so nice to get make up done perfectly and just have that experience ! Like others mentioned decide on " hard lines " before. I don't expect you would get scammed by a photographer with sex work experience but more naive girls fall for " show a litte more ...... a little more ..... " lines of bullshit for various reasons .
That is what can make a shoot so sketch ! Avoid the skeezy energy if it's there and just promptly end the shoot ( which I don't think yours would be ) ! It sounds like the person is someone you know .

If you show any " bits " at all lol you should receive your money THAT DAY and review the modeling release ( there should be a document to review and sign agreeing to how the images are used ) . So important !
( that sound not relevant to you but this is my overall opinion on this matter )

No bits being shown. Clothing won’t be quite as conservative as my norm, but not anything borderline either. Stuff that people would wear in public still. Especially since I found out the other person in the shoot is only 16. Which, I knew she looked young, but I thought maybe she was like me where people assumed her to be younger than she actually was. So I feel kinda weird about that, but it’s not a photo shoot which is in any way erotic. Got to see some of the shoots he’d done with her and others, and this guy does really good work.

I ended up offering the other girl a ride home, as she was dropped off and expected to ride her bike back home. So we’re walking out to the car, and she’s fretting over whether or not her bike would fit because she thought my car was the Prius, rather than the large diesel pickup parked next to it. She had a million questions, I swear. Even ended up having to show her my driver’s license because she refused to believe I’m 30. I see what the photographer meant when he said it would be “someone who contrasts me”. She’s happy and light and kinda airy. But not in an irritating way.


We'll see, you never know.. Maybe he manage to undress the hidden exhibitionist in you ;)

I don’t know about all that, but I really am impressed by his work, how well thought out his themes are, the way he looks for actual depth with his photo subjects and seems to find a way to convey it in his photos. That’s what swayed me towards agreeing to it. If it were a matter of simply wearing skimpy clothing and thrusting my tits towards the camera, I would’ve declined. But I’m kinda excited to see what the end result is.

kimbe
08-30-2020, 01:53 PM
I ended up offering the other girl a ride home, as she was dropped off and expected to ride her bike back home. So we’re walking out to the car, and she’s fretting over whether or not her bike would fit because she thought my car was the Prius, rather than the large diesel pickup parked next to it. She had a million questions, I swear. Even ended up having to show her my driver’s license because she refused to believe I’m 30. I see what the photographer meant when he said it would be “someone who contrasts me”. She’s happy and light and kinda airy. But not in an irritating way.
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Lol, that's kind of funny.. :)

AChildOfBoredom
08-30-2020, 04:16 PM
Lol, that's kind of funny.. :)

Oh, that wasn't the end of it. It got weird. I stopped at the dry cleaners before they closed because the equestrian center has an event coming up, so the uniforms were sent for dry cleaning. So she began asking what those were, and she got kinda wide eyed at the mention of horses and asked if she could come with. I was going to wait until tomorrow to bring them in, but I didn't have anything else planned and the Irish woman was there to give a couple classes, so I called her over the radio net to see if Lucky Charms wanted or needed anything before I came in, and I ended up spending most of the day with this girl. So when I finally did take her back home, her parents were home, and that Duramax is pretty loud... I don't drive it daily, but I did today and pulled up blasting some Taake over the radio to try driving a message home to this photographer. Anyhow, we see her parents glance out the window at us, and she asks me if I'll come in. So I told her I kinda need to get home, then she says to me, "You really should come in... they're probably thinking I hitchhiked with some old man now that they see this (referring to my pickup) and I'll be in trouble if they don't see who I was with". Which I suppose makes sense. So we go inside, her parents are right there, she says to them, "This is [my name], she's the one I'm doing the photo shoot with, and that's her truck". Then I watched her parents' expressions go from anger to relief to confusion. And I also found out her mother works at a BMW dealership, because she began probing, asking if I drove that every day, and I told her I normally drive an Impala. So her mother's standing there shaking her head and she says, "No, those aren't a match for you" then she hands me her business card from the BMW dealership and tells me to call her sometime and she'll help me get set up with a "proper" car. What the fuck is wrong with the ones I have? By the time I left, she had handed me five of her business cards... she seemed pretty hell bent on making sure I didn't lose them.

yaya_cash
08-30-2020, 04:56 PM
I miss being able to socialize with men and them giving up their money, for me. I have plans for this upcoming month. New month, new men to spend new money n with.

baer45
08-30-2020, 05:22 PM
To the adventurer, to all who stray from the beaten track, life is an extravaganza in which laughter and luck and love come in odd ways, unexpectedly-but they are none the less sweet for that.

lynn2009
08-30-2020, 08:44 PM
I bought a new hair dryer that came with a diffuser attachment and I can't believe what a difference it makes. I have been feeling like a troll lately because I needed a haircut back when coronavirus started and the split ends are so bad but with the diffuser my hair actually looks half way decent and smooth.

WendiStarr
08-31-2020, 12:33 PM
I left a friend a positive review on his vitamin outlet store and he sent me an Amazon gift card. I loathe Amazon ever since I was an employee there so I've avoided shopping there but since it was a gift card/free money, I went shopping. I was trying to figure out what the heck I could even buy with $15 because I'm not a Prime member, nor did I want to sign up just for free shipping. I knew that $5.99 of that $15 would be eaten up by shipping fees alone. Anyways I'm a lip gloss addict so I was searching for that when I had a moment of nostalgia at the search results. Does anyone remember those Bonne Bell lip smacker lip glosses, the clear ones that came in the long tube with the wand? The strawberry flavor was my favorite. I remember all through out junior high and high school those being popular. They mysteriously disappeared from stores around here one day, shortly after graduation. Guess who's going to be sportin' Bonne Bell lip gloss? This girl right here!

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-31-2020, 01:59 PM
I bought a new hair dryer that came with a diffuser attachment and I can't believe what a difference it makes. I have been feeling like a troll lately because I needed a haircut back when coronavirus started and the split ends are so bad but with the diffuser my hair actually looks half way decent and smooth.

Oh cool. I had a cheap diffuser that came with my hair dryer so I never bothered with it. I should upgrade my hair dryer.

Random- I had a giggling fit due to Twitter (NOOOO it was not any Presidental Tweets.) I really need to work out tonight and burn off some energy.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-31-2020, 02:03 PM
My family member is this way.

She said she rather just die of breast cancer if she had it then to be probed n have her tits manipulated in a machine.

Idk what kind of logic that is


It's "Fatalism."

From my own firsthand witness experience I can say death from metastisized (spelling?) .....cancer is terrible, painful and disgusting. Basically the body just gives out over weeks and months of illness. Terrible to witness, worse to experience.

//Trust science and medicine, folks.

AChildOfBoredom
09-01-2020, 02:31 AM
“She thinks pickups are low class and you’re too classy to be driving one”.

I’m not really sure how I’m supposed to take that,

WendiStarr
09-01-2020, 11:02 AM
Pickups are for awesome badass ladies and you are one so that's what you drive.

I'm about to sit here for a mandatory 2 hour lecture on HIPAA. I already took and passed the exam for the required 1 hour training last Friday but apparently they think we need 2 more hours of it. T_T

AChildOfBoredom
09-01-2020, 01:05 PM
I don’t know about all that, and while I’m not trashy, I think classy might be a bit of a stretch. The girl I’m doing the shoot with called yesterday and led off with, “Sorry about my mom”. I also found out they’re from southern Switzerland… I couldn’t place their accents because I just don’t possess that skill… and their first language is Italian. Now I wonder if they fell into the same folly so many others have, where the accent I have makes them assume my origins are outside the US.

I get the impression her parents are a bit restrictive. The Irish woman and I asked if she’d ever done equestrianism, and she told us they’d never let her, they’d think it was too dangerous, they wouldn’t even approve of her being in close proximity to them like she was at the time. I also get the impression she doesn’t have a particularly large circle of friends, especially when she asked if we could spend more time together. If someone wants to hang out with me, that’s probably not a good sign. We planned on a day trip to the beach again this Sunday, so I invited her to come with. Perhaps with three others in her age range being there, it’ll be good for her? I’m not sure if it was a good idea though, because I have doubts about her parents giving their blessing to it, especially since we’re leaving Saturday after I finish my tow truck shift and getting a hotel for the night. So now I’m a little worried that I got her hopes up just to leave her disappointed.

moneybags
09-01-2020, 02:14 PM
“She thinks pickups are low class and you’re too classy to be driving one”.

I’m not really sure how I’m supposed to take that,

I really can’t stand negativity. I just absorb people’s negative energy like a sponge. I feel like if you don’t have anything nice to say don’t say anything at all.

I didn’t get my scholarship. I’m kinda upset because a spent a whole weekend on it. I got $1400 over the summer. Maybe they had a lot more students apply with the pandemic and maybe they don’t want to give the same students the awards. Oh well. I guess I’m better off camming rather than investing my time in writing essays.

This pandemic is stressing me out. I’m just gonna focus on school and cam this weekend after all my homework is done. Our state count is so fricking high it’s scary. Came back down today a bit. Exponential growth is nothing to mess with! I guess most of it is from the universities, but I live in a urban area and it’s a bit high here too. I guess all
I can do is control the controllables. There’s just so much insanity in the world. I said the serenity prayer this morning and prayed. I think the only thing I can do is mitigate the risk as much as possible and keep on keeping on. I have to have faith over fear that everything will be okay.