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carmen_b
03-25-2021, 09:19 AM
^ I know a few medical folks with sex work history !
carmen_b
03-25-2021, 09:20 AM
Last night was sooooo wonderful .
Steak and Dick Wednesday ! omg so nice
kimbe
03-25-2021, 01:05 PM
^^
Can it be any better... ;)
AChildOfBoredom
03-25-2021, 02:59 PM
I seem to have come up on conversation between the bouncer turned tow truck owner and some of my coworkers from the tow company today. I suppose my annoyance so much isn’t with him as it is knowing I’ll never live this down.
54490
54491
Meh.
Aurora_Sunset
03-25-2021, 03:20 PM
I get annoyed and judgmental whenever someone is driving like a dick and then I see major damage to their car. I always think, “Yeah, that’s probably from the last time you were driving like a reckless idiot, and, like an idiot, you apparently didn’t learn your fucking lesson.” The damage might not have even been their fault, but I always think it.
Genoveve
03-25-2021, 03:46 PM
I seem to have come up on conversation between the bouncer turned tow truck owner and some of my coworkers from the tow company today. I suppose my annoyance so much isn’t with him as it is knowing I’ll never live this down.
54490
54491
Meh.
Wow they are gossiping harder than schoolgirls. I would have been like "Wow I didn't know men gossiped!" Like pretending to be genuinely surprised.
AChildOfBoredom
03-25-2021, 03:56 PM
I’ve already witnessed them gossiping enough they’d know I was being facetious if I said something like that.
LoveyDovey
03-25-2021, 09:39 PM
I need to go on a run on the beach tomorrow. I hope that the tide isn't too high tomorrow morning but I have a feeling it might be because it rained.
indiegirl
03-26-2021, 11:34 AM
So random of a thought I wanted to deposit 7000 cash yesterday for my bill coverages since it's end of month and the lady at the bank made a joke about "what a large tip you got" to me lol. I think she had no clue. It's too funny when they are spot on with what they're thinking. I once paid 2000 in cash for facial filler in Beverly Hills and the secretary said "oh did you just make that?" jokingly...looking back I shoulda said "YAH!" lol.
kimbe
03-26-2021, 12:35 PM
^^
Remember once I visited a CVS on my way home, dressed too much like a dancer, pulling up something like 2 grand to pay for some Tylenol. Won't forget his look when he probably realized I did the same for a night as he did for a month... :D
indiegirl
03-26-2021, 01:25 PM
^^
Remember once I visited a CVS on my way home, dressed too much like a dancer, pulling up something like 2 grand to pay for some Tylenol. Won't forget his look when he probably realized I did the same for a night as he did for a month... :D
Oh it feels so weird standing there like "Yepppp" let's push this moment along.
I'm not a purse type of person (only a mini wallet for cards or else it feels like I'm carrying unnecessary luggage) so I walk in with a handful of cash wrapped in a rubber band. I can't do a purse..I'm too tomboyish in public.
carmen_b
03-26-2021, 01:59 PM
I feel frazzled wondering what to do haha.
I have just a few ( 3 days ! ) left of real estate classes so I could test in 4-5 days but I feel so fried and edgy. ;/
I just got the 2nd vacinne shot yesterday so I think in a few days I'm GOOD to live life again including club dancing OMG !!!
I am SO eager for the immediacy element of dancing cash but also scared to waste ANY time .
I would road trip just 2 hours to clubs haha ( my current town doesn't have any ).
I even have friends I can stay with in that town.
^ My fear is that my " windows" to work are Sun - Tues and what if they are weird or slow days ?
BUT isn't ANY extra $ something to at least try for ? Ha.
I feel frozen in these these " what the hell to DO " vibes !
Like ..... I guess the knowledge won't just leave my mind in 3-4 days if I do a small dancing trip starting Sunday but then again I should just PUSH to get done.
One thing I don't need to factor in is the day job as it is only taking about 3-4 hours a day ( still slow ).
I want it ALL lol day job to be fully back, club money back, and real estate deals.
I need a clone.
I think after 12 months of under earning I am just STARVING for $$$.
lurkingtitties
03-26-2021, 03:05 PM
^^Even if it’s slow, it’s still better than nothing. You will feel sooo good getting back to work! I bet you can cultivate some regulars too.
^^
Remember once I visited a CVS on my way home, dressed too much like a dancer, pulling up something like 2 grand to pay for some Tylenol. Won't forget his look when he probably realized I did the same for a night as he did for a month... :D
Omg... the first couple years I danced I had this terrible habit of carrying my cash around with me the day after a shift. I thought it was edgy or something. I’m SO lucky I never got mugged.
carmen_b
03-26-2021, 03:46 PM
^ That's the spirit !
yaya_cash
03-26-2021, 05:40 PM
My ex contacted me and wanted me to move or move in and offered to pay my expenses. And he already has a woman staying him, with her three children, I found by seeing his Facebook - her liking and commenting on his photos... I guess he's trying to move them out ?
WendiStarr
03-26-2021, 05:45 PM
Fuck it, I applied to an online bachelor's degree program. It's either rack up more student loan debt to be able to hopefully get a good paying job or sit here in these times of uncertainty. Every entry level cybersecurity job posting I'm seeing lately is requiring at minimum a Bachelor degree or 4+ years of work experience in the field. I have at least 3 years of IT experience with the side business I had and independent contractor work for companies. At least with a bachelors degree, if all else fails I can teach. Substitute teachers in my area need nothing other than a bachelor degree in any field.
indiegirl
03-26-2021, 09:39 PM
Fuck it, I applied to an online bachelor's degree program. It's either rack up more student loan debt to be able to hopefully get a good paying job or sit here in these times of uncertainty. Every entry level cybersecurity job posting I'm seeing lately is requiring at minimum a Bachelor degree or 4+ years of work experience in the field. I have at least 3 years of IT experience with the side business I had and independent contractor work for companies. At least with a bachelors degree, if all else fails I can teach. Substitute teachers in my area need nothing other than a bachelor degree in any field.
Everyone wants a fucking bachelors degree nowadays....even for entry level shit. I'm so tired of it. A degree doesn't define what you're naturally capable of doing. Just to be someone's personal assistant aka their personal bitch they require a bachelors. Who can't do that job? Sorry I sound jaded lol.
charlie61
03-26-2021, 09:48 PM
^I agree. My degree feels like a high school diploma in this job culture.
indiegirl
03-26-2021, 09:59 PM
^^Even if it’s slow, it’s still better than nothing. You will feel sooo good getting back to work! I bet you can cultivate some regulars too.
Omg... the first couple years I danced I had this terrible habit of carrying my cash around with me the day after a shift. I thought it was edgy or something. I’m SO lucky I never got mugged.
Hahaha.
I'm more embarrassed because I think people will think "this ho!" ...but I'm not carrying around a damn purse for other people. I've had only a wallet for so long. I only use the purse my mom purchased for me when I need to pretend I'm a business lady LOL.
moneybags
03-26-2021, 11:29 PM
@CharlieStar61 I totally feel the same.
Lol...I just got my associates in science. I think I’ll be camming throughout my midlife-which I’m honestly okay with camming for another 10 years. I do want to quit some day. The worst part of sex work is the stigma not the actual work. I’m praying I get into an RN program, but even with that most hospitals want a BSN.
@ wendistarr good for you girl. We all are working for the man unfortunately. Hooking and crooking seems to be the only way to get around the system
I’m reading this awesome book about patriarchal trauma.
When she designs, and then lives, her own destiny, a woman naturally sets right everything wrong in our world. —Regena Thomashauer, Pussy: A Reclamation
indiegirl
03-26-2021, 11:51 PM
My returning customer is fucking crazy right now. I re-booked him so he could have me do my bitcoin situation on the website LOL. Here we go lord. He's talking to himself in the shower currently.
kimbe
03-27-2021, 01:05 AM
Taking good care of yourself takes so much time doesn't it ?
I want to go work out today so that's an hour and then I noticed the outdoor hot tub at gym is open so I need like 30 min. out there haha.
It all adds up in the schedule but emotionally it is so vital.
Time is one thing, the cost is another, self care easily can cost you a fortune, there's so many treatments etc etc available and when you start, I notice many tend to get caught by the industry believing they would deteriorate rapidly if the quit.
indiegirl
03-27-2021, 01:27 AM
I'm over this appointment. He's high as fuck on meth and dropped 6 drops of sweat on my face during sex and doesn't have the money so he's heading to an atm...His FUCKING bank account has 330 bucks in it aka What the hell is he doing seeing hookers? (I can't even believe he's driving around like that) I can't even believe this happened. This has been a horrible day and I'm realizing I'm dealing with an addict. *UGHHH* I told him to go get the money from the bank and hoped he'd just drive off and go away. I know he's not coming back. Plus he doesn't have the money!!!
"Don't worry...I got money" *proceeds to give me 38 dollars.
What happened to this man within a week. He could pay last time. JESUS. I reached the point of babysitting. I confess I let him wipe off in my previous customers towel and not ordering another after being treated like this. This was beyond bizarre. I hate meth customers that surprise me. I shouldn't be treated like shit and given 38 bucks BAHAHA...he thinks he's walking away from this. Enjoy your towel.
Update: he came back with all of the money left in his account. Of course I felt like shit (I saw what was in it)....I took 300 and let him keep the rest. FUCK. I feel bad. But I dunno what to do at that point (charity fuck after enduring that BS)...don't see me if you can't afford it. I have no clue what he was thinking. I feel bad still for taking anything or even less than what was owed to me. I dunno FUCK. I thought this was gonna be a semi-decent hour based on his texts and helping me with bitcoin....until he arrived like a shit show. I had to press buttons on his phone for him and other things to help him out. Not my style.
yaya_cash
03-27-2021, 04:34 PM
My ex contacted me and wanted me to move or move in and offered to pay my expenses. And he already has a woman staying him, with her three children, I found by seeing his Facebook - her liking and commenting on his photos... I guess he's trying to move them out ?
It's like I can't trust him, he said he wasn't talking with anyone besides me and her Facebook photos beg to differ. I think I will play dumb, and see what he's actions say..?
WendiStarr
03-27-2021, 04:41 PM
^^ Yes, you are so right! As a matter of fact, I just saw a personal assistant job posting that required a Bachelor's degree and the pay offered was only $10/hour and no benefits. Employers are ridiculous with their high requirements. I hope I get accepted into this school or else I'm just gonna be camming and doing fbsm until I'm a granny.
lurkingtitties
03-28-2021, 04:35 AM
Time is one thing, the cost is another, self care easily can cost you a fortune, there's so many treatments etc etc available and when you start, I notice many tend to get caught by the industry believing they would deteriorate rapidly if the quit.
I’ve held off on getting cosmetic procedures for that exact reason-I know that stuff can be a slippery slope where you start with one or two small treatments and end up getting more and more.
lurkingtitties
03-28-2021, 04:36 AM
Hahaha.
I'm more embarrassed because I think people will think "this ho!" ...but I'm not carrying around a damn purse for other people. I've had only a wallet for so long. I only use the purse my mom purchased for me when I need to pretend I'm a business lady LOL.
I hate purses! Always have since I was a little girl. Give me a tiny backpack over a purse any day.
indiegirl
03-28-2021, 05:43 AM
I'm super hesitant to see any early morning customers now after that man on meth incident. Have a request now but I'm not sure because that was nuts to see Friday in person. Meth heads never sleep but I'm money motivated and a night owl so I'm up at this time. I blocked that customers number.
Also, I cheated on my beloved patchouli oil and used bergamot essential oil in my diffuser. I think I found my new true love. It smells amazing.
Genoveve
03-28-2021, 09:25 AM
I hate purses! Always have since I was a little girl. Give me a tiny backpack over a purse any day.
I also cannot stand purses. I have a black mini backpack purse for the rare occasion when I need one.
WendiStarr
03-28-2021, 09:38 AM
It's like I can't trust him, he said he wasn't talking with anyone besides me and her Facebook photos beg to differ. I think I will play dumb, and see what he's actions say..?
If he's trying to move you in with all that going on, he's probably either looking to have some polygamy shit going on or he's trying to use you to make her jealous, hoping it'll make her move out. SMH..men!
WendiStarr
03-28-2021, 04:01 PM
I had an unexpected talk with some woman that BD was cheating on me with. I told her that she could have his emotionally abusive, cheating ass. It turned out that she's a survival escort and she told me that he had been paying her "generously" for bareback sex for several months. She apologized and said she was ashamed, not that it made a difference to me. I don't understand what's going on lately. How and why would she even contact me? He must have asked her to contact me, as if that will somehow patch things between us. It's just fuel to the fire at this point. BD is a very mentally ill man and needs professional help from a therapist. It makes me sad when I think about how sweet, loving and caring he was in the beginning. At least I have my beautiful little girl out of this mess.
indiegirl
03-28-2021, 06:22 PM
https://www.tmz.com/2021/03/28/maryland-cops-scream-detain-5-year-old-bodycam-video-montgomery-county/
Hahaha sometimes you have to learn the hard way as a kid. I got spanked in front of everyone in church on Easter when I decided church was over when I left the pew at that age LOL.
carmen_b
03-28-2021, 06:31 PM
I thought I had this down to a science . My issue is that my partner is not *quite* ready to have me stay there ( or him come to me ) more than 5 nights a week currently. I thought I had nailed it but today is such a lapse. I just am feeling that it is a bit unfair and realizing I might have to circle on this issue *again*. We don't disagree on anything ELSE !
Here is a quirky thing too. I'm finally fully vaccinated ( last shot last Thurs ) so I feel good about club dancing now but this schedule ( where I'm at his place every day except Sun and Tues ) is throwing me off a bit. I need two days in a ROW to travel a couple hours over to clubs. There are not any in our immediate area.
The stress today is tied less to club work and more just this feeling of frustration. :(
I know 5 days a week is substantial. When I have an off day like this I'm just like .......... " ugh " !
I know he is trying to balance needs of daughter ( who is there 3 nights a week ) and I am trying to keep that in mind. At some point ..... life goes ON ..... please be normal ! I think Sunday bothers me in particular too because my family always had big meals together on Sundays . It's a weird day to be solo ( at least today )! I felt like today felt awkward. I left after 10 min. of his daughter arriving because my feelings get hurt worse when we all hang out and THEN later in the day I need to leave.
carmen_b
03-28-2021, 06:41 PM
He checked in just now via text and I mentioned I was having a hard time.
Up north, I was used to big family get togethers on Sundays. ;/
We had a great 4 days recently ( Wed through this morning ).
Driving down the road today I had thoughts about seeing another man once a week.
I guess 7 solo nights of success in March minus this dud today.
Of course I can't just have an easy full month. :(
For TUES I'm getting ahead of it !
I picked out exactly where to eat and where to pop in for a 7 p.m. yoga class IF I'm not busy stripping a town over.
AChildOfBoredom
03-28-2021, 08:27 PM
Spent the last two days playing chauffeur for desk jockeys. The tow company is owned by the regional AAA affiliated auto club, and they’ve been doing ride alongs with tow techs all week. So I came in Friday, one of them decided he wanted to do his ride along with me. They normally have me take the wrecker out, but the adhesives had to cure because they just replaced the windshield, so I took a flatbed and ran Copart all day. So no AAA calls for that one. Guy asked some basic questions, seemed a little disappointed he didn’t get to see me do any AAA calls, but had some interest in understanding a bit about what we did on the commercial side.
The second day, it was a different guy riding with me, and this one was annoying as fuck. I was running our 15 ton underreach that day, which is basically a scaled down version of what they tow tractor-trailers with. So the
Guy riding with me Saturday apparently thought he was a comedian and asked if I could see over the steering wheel (as if I hadn’t heard that countless times already). He also asked if he could pick the music and he ended up getting the evil eye from me for that one. And one of my calls that day was for an accident, so I’m on site getting my vehicle hooked up and getting everything cleaned up and this guy keeps badgering me with questions, so I told him, “Look, I’ll answer all your questions after the fact, but for right now we have to get this scene cleared and get traffic moving, and I need you to not be in my way while I’m doing this. So do me a favor and watch from a distance”. I think he felt kinda dressed down after that. The second guy didn’t necessarily cross any boundaries, but was a little on the flirty side, so I did my normal “turn to stone” response.
indiegirl
03-28-2021, 08:35 PM
I'm so tired. Ughh. I feel bad for doing these appointments. I'm trying to wake up in 20 minutes lol. One guy is bringing his food truck (aka his business in the parking lot) ....I really would prefer not. Interesting sort of business though. I just don't want to stand out. I shouldn't even be worrying though about standing out. I'm right near the emergency exit yet again which means this new hotel thinks I'm a ho.
The second guy backed out after I went full blown Karen on him. "You're too good to be true." Sent the requested photo he wanted and proceeded to ask if I was real. He's also asked if I was law enforcement. HUNNNNYYY. I kinda blew up and said what I would say on this site to him LOL. "Should I charge more since you think I'm too good?" I'm so irritated with him. He completely stopped responding after I bitched at him. Stop asking if I'm real or law enforcement!!! You'll get arrested either way. I sent you a photo what more do you want. I never interact with customers like this but this is yet another day of his BS.
"Don't worry, I won't be contacting you again." .....Home boy, it's super simple. I have more reviews than you have. Show up and that's it. What more proof do you need?! I sent the photo you wanted does he want me standing with my birth certificate and ID too? LOL.
WendiStarr
03-29-2021, 06:52 AM
^ I feel for you and I don't miss dealing with that bullshit. Those types are usually 99% time wasting losers who get off on any interaction with you that doesn't cost money. He'd probably keep asking for more and more pictures.
Random, I want to plant a tree and tall ornamental grass in my front yard. I need to find a fast growing species of tree. I hate my annoying neighbor across the street and so not interested in seeing her dumbass all summer, after last year's nasty ass and crotch exhibition crap.
carmen_b
03-29-2021, 07:39 AM
I'm really trying to not threaten to break up if we don't go to 6 nights a week together when we already do 5 .
It IS what I want though.
It's been a year and if he isn't offering me a more full partnership ( setting up a home together ect ) I feel justified in leaving.
I feel like at least 80% of women would feel the same way .
I'm trying to learn to be happy with 5 though and keep some peace for now.
I don't plan on saying anything at this point.
With the world opening up again at least we will have more interesting separations ( each traveling for work ) .
I'm talking about normal calendar stuff in these rants ( when neither person is traveling ).
I also seem to be fighting the urge daily to just leave town for a week straight and go dance which is the complete opposite of the spectrum lol.
lurkingtitties
03-29-2021, 12:58 PM
I realized yesterday that I haven’t thought about missing the club in a little while. Maybe it’s because I’m about to start getting paid well to travel?
carmen_b
03-29-2021, 02:35 PM
^ Plus I’m sure there’s clubs in or near your new location. You can pop in for the hell of it maybe!
lurkingtitties
03-29-2021, 02:38 PM
^^I don’t really want to until I can work without a mask on, and it’s pretty strict still where I am...but maybe if I travel somewhere more lax later in the year. Last fall when I first got licensed I interviewed for a travel job out in WY and was eager to work at the nearby clubs there. (The job didn’t work out though obvs)
carmen_b
03-29-2021, 03:49 PM
I feel like I talked myself out of dancing in the last 12 hours haha.
I’ll be in the area with clubs Thursday so I can go scout / audition .
I tanned today and found outfits / thongs. I don’t want to visit a store.
I’ll just use whatever I have on hand.
I think getting PUA is a huge factor. :/
Is it throwing off anyone else that is normally highly $$ motivated ?
I get 2k a month so it isn't really enough to LIVE on that well and it would be enhanced with cash income for sure.
I couldn’t find self tanner .
I looked at the map and opening times of clubs and I’m like “ doesn’t anyone open at 4-5p.m.?”
At some point I want to !
carmen_b
03-29-2021, 03:55 PM
My partner will be traveling with me Thurs / Fri and I also want to look for a club solo.
yaya_cash
03-29-2021, 05:38 PM
If he's trying to move you in with all that going on, he's probably either looking to have some polygamy shit going on or he's trying to use you to make her jealous, hoping it'll make her move out. SMH..men!
Hey thanks for the response. I'm like, what is going? And he has a teenage son living with him...
And he got upset that I told him that I wouldn't move in with any man without at least a ring/engagement... he has been talking about marriage and having children. And he was like if you're not moving in can you at least move back and spend 5 days a week with me?
carmen_b
03-29-2021, 06:06 PM
^ How well do you know him ? He might be abusive / narcissist personality type.
That is often a tactic ( they do it to isolate ).
It probably doesn't matter. You don't seem interested in his offer really anyway, ha !
Probably for the best !
yaya_cash
03-29-2021, 06:59 PM
^ How well do you know him ? He might be abusive / narcissist personality type.
That is often a tactic ( they do it to isolate ).
It probably doesn't matter. You don't seem interested in his offer really anyway, ha !
Probably for the best !
I dated him for a year and a half. And I got tired of him, lefted him and found another guy that was much more eager to do things for me, make me happy and seemed like they cared for me. I just got out of that relationship because it seemed like he was lovebombing, manipulating me and sleeping with other people. I learned my lesson, and I'm aware of other signs of manipulation. Some of these guys will waste your time, make real efforts to sabotage your life and discard you.
I wouldn't move entirely for somebody else. I would move because of better job opportunities, connections and dating prospects. I mentioned to him that I'm interested in moving back and want to see what's true and if he's really willing to help... I don't take him so serious as a boyfriend or marriage prospect. I will possibly play dumb and try to use him as he insists being in my life while lying and trying to use me.
Probably can get more out of him by playing dumb or it cool, focusing more on myself and my goals, and make sure he serves me with his presence - otherwise I have nothing else to speak him about.
JGB2009
03-30-2021, 07:08 AM
Finally prepared the meatloaf and put it in the oven.
AChildOfBoredom
03-30-2021, 01:14 PM
meatloaf
Perhaps because it’s something I’ve never had until living ‘English’ and so I don’t associate it with food, but every time I hear or see the word “meatloaf”, my mind automatically goes to that “Like A Bat Out of Hell” song and I often have to stop myself because J get this urge to sing aloud the one verse…
“ Well I know that I'm damned if I never get out,
And maybe I'm damned if I do,
But with every other beat I've got left in my heart,
You know I want to be damned with you
If I gotta be damned, you know I want to be damned
Dancing through the night with you/
Well if I gotta be damned, you know I want to be damned,
Gotta be damned, you know I want to be damned
Gotta be damned, you know I want to be damned
DANCING THROUGH THE NIGHT,
DANCING THROUGH THE NIGHT,
DANCING THROUGH THE NIGHT WITH YOUUUUUUU…”
I blame a former coworker we used to refer to as “Cowboy Bebop”… I think he’d be 27 or 28 now, but had music taste which matched my (now 40 y/o) former roommate’s stepfather’s musical tastes, and he’d play that one pretty frequently. Also listened to a lot of “hick hop” shit… country music… rapped. Yeah, that exists. Yeah, it’s every bit as bad as it sounds. But yeah, I think we all know the sort… from the suburbs, but insists they’re “country”. Also likes to wear a lot of those Grunt Style shirts and make posts about the military and the troops on FB, but never was in the military.
indiegirl
03-30-2021, 01:20 PM
I put my dress on inside-out and owned it like a queen in my hotel room. LOL. Time to pretend this never happened and not get changed in the dark ever again hahaha
kimbe
03-30-2021, 03:29 PM
^^That's a bummer :-[