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indiegirl
07-19-2021, 06:02 AM
some of those old Mfs can be manipulative n petty too. They know you depend on them and they be playing games to keep you around. Some of them are slick n will change the will (without you knowing).
remind me Anna Nicole. That old dude strung her along about leaving her as the heir to his fortune. She had to come up with all kids of tactics like hiding voice recorder in her cleavage n getting him to verbally agree to take care of her even after he passed away. He knew his family was going to fight her on it n didn’t care. In the end, I don’t think she gained much wealth from being his widow because the courts overturned the decision.
I will always remember a photo of her carting him down the aisle in his wheelchair. The honeymoon should've been a trip to the bank bahaha.
lilylilylily
07-19-2021, 01:51 PM
I really want to insult my ex's manhood next time he texts. He said something kind of mean to me when I saw him and he played it off, saying 'I'm only teasing you'. I gave him shit but it bothers me that he thinks he can still do that. Hes the one trying to see me and I agreed but only as friends. He's texted and called since, but I haven't responded. I wanna say "hey, your dick got even smaller" and when he responds, tell him "I'm only teasing haha, you cant take a joke"? see how he likes it. He deserves it because there were times he's treated me bad before I broke up with him and he pretty much got away with it.
A lot of people have done that in my past, including my mother, playing off their hate as "a joke" then saying I'm too sensitive. I'm so done with that
WendiStarr
07-19-2021, 04:54 PM
^ Do it! Haha. That will be a major blow to his ego. Men seem to place a lot of importance on the length and thickness of their junk. Tell him that he has a tiny pencil dick.
lilylilylily
07-19-2021, 05:11 PM
Oh I'll definitely do it. I'm in such a mood I feel like doing it now but I'll wait to see if he texts again loll
carmen_b
07-19-2021, 05:25 PM
I am finding myself struggling with the 6-8p.m. time frame sometimes in our household when his daughter is visiting.
It's nothing huge ..... I just find this time frame a bit of a struggle if I just want to be lazy and have a quiet house.
Then again ..... I sometimes struggle in this time frame when it's just me and him lately. :/
I guess I'm just a weird phase where I feel so pulled at energetically .
I know it's a luxury to just zone out in shows or something 6:30 - 9:30 . I just want to haha.
I think I will *most likely* stay at my unsold AirBnB tomorrow night . It seems odd on one hand to drive 30 minutes for a completely quiet house / vegging out and the other hand it doesn't seem odd ! It’s a luxury lol ! Of course I won't say that .... I will be over there doing " inventory + restocking items ect." !
AChildOfBoredom
07-20-2021, 02:22 AM
Been reviewing videos. Sunday, we’re doing a livestream concert with two other grindcore bands at a record shop. One of the bands is from Baltimore, and their singer is a woman whose a bit notorious for getting confrontational at her shows, especially with other women. She definitely looks the part, with all her tattoos and such. So I’m kinda concerned because I typically wear just thrift store dresses to those, and she might think I’m an easy target. Saw her get into fights in a couple of those videos. I’m not worried about her fighting abilities, I’m just not in the mood for that shit.
JGB2009
07-20-2021, 09:07 AM
I wonder why you shut off your ringer when your friend is over at the house..............comes off funny.
WendiStarr
07-20-2021, 01:31 PM
^ Is it his female "friend"? Sounds shady, either way but I think you already know that.
JGB2009
07-20-2021, 01:43 PM
^ Is it his female "friend"? Sounds shady, either way but I think you already know that.
No a guy,
LoveyD
07-20-2021, 02:44 PM
These weed gummiest are so tasty!
Genoveve
07-20-2021, 04:45 PM
I always thought I was just really introverted but now I think I'm officially extremely antisocial. I need SO much recovery time from being around people and can pretty much tolerate no one outside of my inner circle and even them I can only handle in small doses. I don't think I could ever be married or have kids. I LOVE my alone time and have zero desire to change.
carmen_b
07-20-2021, 05:00 PM
^ I’m honestly struggling a bit too.
J says we are hosting a get together Sat.!
I wish the venue wasn’t our home and the time frame was 2 hours FLAT ( it won’t be ).
I hate outings that don’t have a pre-agreed time cap which is probably out there in behavior lol.
charlie61
07-20-2021, 07:13 PM
I think I'll chop some of my hair off tonight.
charlie61
07-20-2021, 07:14 PM
I wonder why you shut off your ringer when your friend is over at the house..............comes off funny.
I feel like my ex used to do this while he was using. His phone would always go straight to voicemail.
indiegirl
07-20-2021, 07:37 PM
Should've ask my newest customer who manages a 5 star restaurant in LA to bring me some food.
I confess I'm still unvaccinated and having people coming from the LA area to me makes me nervous. This delta variant sounds like a game changer and I'm nervous to get vaccinated. I don't know how my body will handle the side effects.
Edit: I'm laughing my ass off. He manages a 5 star hotel not a restaurant.......LOLLLL It is so expensive you have to contact the hotel in order to receive the prices. Thank god I didn't pick a shithole hotel today hahaha. I would've been so embarrassed.
lurkingtitties
07-21-2021, 05:23 AM
These weed gummiest are so tasty!
One of my brothers had a low key wedding in the park and a bunch of their hippie/burner scene friends showed up with thc laced hummus and other snacks…the hummus was so delicious I kept eating it even though I knew it would be a mistake!
Another time when we were much younger the same brother came to my house to cook weed brownies bc he was living in a dorm at the time. We ate a bunch of the leftover batter bc it tasted so good, ended up getting wayyyy too baked and sat in my backyard for a couple hours staring at a patch of bamboo.
I don’t really care for edibles but on the off chance I do take one I need it to be flavorless so I’m not tempted to eat too much!
lurkingtitties
07-21-2021, 05:27 AM
Should've ask my newest customer who manages a 5 star restaurant in LA to bring me some food.
I confess I'm still unvaccinated and having people coming from the LA area to me makes me nervous. This delta variant sounds like a game changer and I'm nervous to get vaccinated. I don't know how my body will handle the side effects.
Edit: I'm laughing my ass off. He manages a 5 star hotel not a restaurant.......LOLLLL It is so expensive you have to contact the hotel in order to receive the prices. Thank god I didn't pick a shithole hotel today hahaha. I would've been so embarrassed.
How was the food???
roseforarose
07-21-2021, 06:20 AM
I always thought I was just really introverted but now I think I'm officially extremely antisocial. I need SO much recovery time from being around people and can pretty much tolerate no one outside of my inner circle and even them I can only handle in small doses. I don't think I could ever be married or have kids. I LOVE my alone time and have zero desire to change.
I'm honestly realising this too lol! With things being a bit more normal 'post'-pandemic people are socialising again....yeah, no thanks! A lot of people I know are acting as if I'm weird for not wanting to socialise more, I truly don't know how they find it so fun :D I only like socialising with very close friends, and not often. Oddly I never get tired of socialising with romantic partners though!
indiegirl
07-21-2021, 06:23 AM
I'm crying watching movies that aren't even sad. You know what time of the month it is for me LOLLL.
In my head: "She looked so happy for her friend!" *crying tears of joy before my period starts soon*
charlie61
07-21-2021, 07:21 AM
I always thought I was just really introverted but now I think I'm officially extremely antisocial. I need SO much recovery time from being around people and can pretty much tolerate no one outside of my inner circle and even them I can only handle in small doses. I don't think I could ever be married or have kids. I LOVE my alone time and have zero desire to change.
Same. I feel like most people are getting something out of socializing (neurochemical, maybe, like oxytocin/dopamine??) that I'm just not getting. And i honestly question if i have the energy, long-term, to be in a cohabitation situation with my partner. I suspect I'll eventually run out of energy to keep my partner entertained / maintained (every relationship requires you to expend some energy on engaging with your partner and helping to meet their needs). I know that sounds bad. I think it's generally very healthy for me to be with someone, personally, because i legit turn into a hermit when I'm alone. But there are parts of that loner lifestyle that i miss.
carmen_b
07-21-2021, 08:25 AM
^ I noticed a couple post of your relationship and really you just never know !
In reference to the one thing ( like feeling emotionally disconnected and not talking a bunch after the get together ) your partner could even feel the same way. Maybe it's time to just " re-spark " that conversational side you know ? AND if you need some time to yourself it's ok to ask partner for that too. :)
Just one persons take on it.
A relationship is definitely a balance . It can definitely take energy out of you . Even my partner pretty much letting me run my / our schedule ( being here as much as I want or leaving for time solo as much as I want ) is hard sometimes !
carmen_b
07-21-2021, 08:28 AM
Wish me luck.
In like 30 minutes I will have a conversation with J about how I may want to give the next two weekends to the club .
OR at least one full weekend , ha.
I am somewhat scared to tell him because he is used to my only working like 1 day every 10 or so.
He is wanting that party here Sat. ( barf ). I just want to focus on money and get July fixed in earnings terms. What happened was in July we got weekends together ( every Fri - Sun ) and I feel like we used the first two of them pretty well but I just did NOT expect my vanilla business to be so lean. Popping into the club on Mon - Wed. ( the days he has his daughter ) could potentially be a huge waste of time and I feel like the two weekends might be safer. :/
I don't want to cause a bunch of dramatic non-sense BUT he has told me for months that I " didn't really need to worry about money " but when I'm lean this month ...... he didn't give me any . So ..... I am worried about it. Duh. I am not really sure what he thought it would look like.
No joke I will be headed into the desert into a secluded spot today to do an abundance type of spell or meditation.
indiegirl
07-21-2021, 08:47 AM
How was the food???
Haha no he was manager of a very expensive 5 star hotel not a restaurant. I know a luxury restaurant chain that has a similar name and got confused. I ordered sushi after he left lol.
carmen_b
07-21-2021, 08:48 AM
^ He seems like he could be a good customer. I think hospitality people are good customers usually .
carmen_b
07-21-2021, 08:59 AM
I also need to make this un-comfy call to a club owner and I HATE asking for anything.
I don't want to remove the club from my travel list but allowing photos ( security not even watching for phones at all ) has gotten out of control there.
charlie61
07-21-2021, 10:51 AM
^ I noticed a couple post of your relationship and really you just never know !
In reference to the one thing ( like feeling emotionally disconnected and not talking a bunch after the get together ) your partner could even feel the same way. Maybe it's time to just " re-spark " that conversational side you know ? AND if you need some time to yourself it's ok to ask partner for that too. :)
Just one persons take on it.
A relationship is definitely a balance . It can definitely take energy out of you . Even my partner pretty much letting me run my / our schedule ( being here as much as I want or leaving for time solo as much as I want ) is hard sometimes !
It's a good theory, but it's not something he and i have ever had together. It's not something that he enjoys (deep, long conversations). He very much has an engineer's brain. He could talk for an hour about the merits of a certain tool or motor part, but anything emotional (even just like talking about fun stuff from his childhood) is a very short conversation. Not in a bad-energy way. He's just more stereotypically male / logical in that way. I don't want him to change, because i know it isn't his thing. But I've had other relationships, with both men and women, that are really focused on those great conversational connections.
It does make me vulnerable to catching feelings for other people, i won't lie. I'm asexual, so i don't have partnered sexual needs. My desires are almost exclusively emotional. My partner has a friend who asks me questions about myself and really engages with me conversationally, and I'm so starved for that kind of connection that i immediately start catching feelings. I'm obviously keeping a close eye on that.
I'm stuck in a weird place with it, and I'm not sure what to do, to be honest. Not looking for advice. The happiness he brings me significantly outweighs this issue, currently, but my post was more about the long, long-term projections i have for the relationship. There are always trade-offs. And really, no one is perfect. I just needed to get it out of my head.
I also get plenty of alone time in the relationship - that isn't an issue. I just meant the needs / maintenance that come with any coupled relationship. I could definitely see myself wanting to go back to only thinking about my needs at some point, way down the road.
carmen_b
07-21-2021, 11:02 AM
^ J is the same.
He is an engineer too / left brained for sure.
( don’t quote please as I might remove for privacy )
charlie61
07-21-2021, 11:08 AM
Yeah, he and i are VERY different in many ways, which has been so healthy for me. I went from rarely leaving my apartment in the PNW to experiencing everything that this area has to offer, buying a home, really living my life fully compared to before. And truly, we have so much laughter and happiness in our relationship. But I'm not naive... I'm just very aware of significant differences we have that will likely cause us to eventually part ways. I know that sounds bad to a lot of people, because it's like we should ALWAYS think that we'll be with our partners forever, and if we don't think that, then we shouldn't be with them at all. But I'm just too aware of these major differences, like our orientations, for example, lol.
miss.a.p1600
07-21-2021, 11:21 AM
I also need to make this un-comfy call to a club owner and I HATE asking for anything.
I don't want to remove the club from my travel list but allowing photos ( security not even watching for phones at all ) has gotten out of control there.
That’s important! Back in the day just a couple years ago probably not as big of a deal but the new camera phones are even better at taking clear pictures in the dark.
carmen_b
07-21-2021, 11:23 AM
^ I totally DON'T want that reputation as a club whiner but I have literally not ever asked them for anything and have been there working since early 2019.
charlie61
07-21-2021, 11:25 AM
Good for you, carmen!! I've never called an owner like that before, really respect your approach.
moneybags
07-21-2021, 11:48 AM
I got cat called and I just laughed…lol…usually that shit makes me mad. But I could tell it was “harmless.” I was crossing the street, “they can wait mama citia…LOL. I just busted up laughing
WendiStarr
07-21-2021, 12:22 PM
The landlord wants to sell the house. I'm looking at renting a room until I'm able to get my own place again. I specifically put women only. I don't want any more men trying to use me for sex and I don't want to be worrying about if any men are secretly a pedophile, looking to prey on my young daughters.
carmen_b
07-21-2021, 12:29 PM
^ Smart .
carmen_b
07-21-2021, 12:31 PM
I will make good money this week.
YOU will make good money this week.
We will ALL make good money this week.
LoveyD
07-21-2021, 01:34 PM
The landlord wants to sell the house. I'm looking at renting a room until I'm able to get my own place again. I specifically put women only. I don't want any more men trying to use me for sex and I don't want to be worrying about if any men are secretly a pedophile, looking to prey on my young daughters.
Good call.
miss.a.p1600
07-21-2021, 02:41 PM
The landlord wants to sell the house. I'm looking at renting a room until I'm able to get my own place again. I specifically put women only. I don't want any more men trying to use me for sex and I don't want to be worrying about if any men are secretly a pedophile, looking to prey on my young daughters.
When I dated that dude who turned out to be a classic textbook narcissist (I left his ass of course)
But this dust mite started talking about how he saw some young teens at the gym and how “fit” they were I was creeped out. He made sure to say their ages (underaged) and I was disturbed.
If a dude is a pedophile, sometimes they’ll talk about it to see your reaction and if you’ll plot with them. Otherwise I’d never leave an adult male with female children especially. And really I don’t trust men with young kids anyways. If they’re not pedophiles then they’re just borderline negligent like letting babies roll off the changing table, ice skating with a baby on their shoulders, spanking them excessively hard, and lots of other dumb shit that most moms would never do.
AChildOfBoredom
07-21-2021, 05:29 PM
I remember reading about a survey where a group of middle aged and elderly men were interviewed, and the respondents mostly said the ideal age for a woman they’d want to date was 20 - 22. Tbh, I’d bet even money they only chose that age range so they wouldn’t be called pedophiles. And I think such inclinations are common in men, but what differs between them is their control over it and how stuck in that zone they are. This really could be its own topic, but with that in mind, plus the number of “cherry hound” men out there, I have to say that was the right call. You never really know someone’s true colors usually until it’s too late.
indiegirl
07-21-2021, 06:20 PM
That’s important! Back in the day just a couple years ago probably not as big of a deal but the new camera phones are even better at taking clear pictures in the dark.
One club I worked at had the girls complain about it to the bouncers and anytime people brought their phones out they came up to them to check their phones or straight up kicked the customer out.
moneybags
07-21-2021, 10:15 PM
I will make good money this week.
YOU will make good money this week.
We will ALL make good money this week.
I affirm. I need to make car repair money in 3 days!
LoveyD
07-22-2021, 07:32 AM
My annual mammogram is today. Hopefullay my tatas are just fine.
carmen_b
07-22-2021, 10:07 AM
Hmmmm
Not sure I totally agree with where things landed on my " dance until my money is right " plan lol.
I *guess* it's kind of mean to take off on ALL Friday and Saturdays the next 3 weeks ( with no notice to partner other than telling him the plan yesterday ).
Grrrrr. It'll have to be some sort of a " meet in the middle " type plan I think to keep us both happy.
I don't want to neglect him but I just hate waiting for $.
The reason I feel I have to target Friday and Saturday is that it just seems like clubs are too risky for being dead Sun - Thurs. lately . Is anyone else finding these days super super risky .... more than even the times working like 15-17 months ago pre-covid?
WendiStarr
07-22-2021, 11:24 AM
So far it looks like I may have to put all our stuff in storage and live in a motel. The amount of stupid men who've contacted me about the roommate thing has been overwhelming. Not even one woman, although I put women only. The cost of rent is insane now in the area I live. I can't afford to stay out here and I really don't want to live anywhere cheap and unsafe like Detroit. I have until August 30th to find a new place to live. I'm getting frustrated already.
carmen_b
07-22-2021, 11:25 AM
^ Maybe write the ad as a man and if a women reaches you recommend " your friend " lol ?
LoveyD
07-22-2021, 12:32 PM
So far it looks like I may have to put all our stuff in storage and live in a motel. The amount of stupid men who've contacted me about the roommate thing has been overwhelming. Not even one woman, although I put women only. The cost of rent is insane now in the area I live. I can't afford to stay out here and I really don't want to live anywhere cheap and unsafe like Detroit. I have until August 30th to find a new place to live. I'm getting frustrated already.
Girrrl, last time I put an ad on craigslist looking for a room/home, I had to specifically state in my ad "NO I am not interested in performing sexual favors of any kind in exchange for a rental, so please don't even ask." And of course I got a bunch of idiot predator responses Other folks thought it was funny though. How sad is it that you can't run an ad without this BS happening?
AChildOfBoredom
07-22-2021, 01:21 PM
Things are weird. Not necessarily in a bad way. It would be a good confessions thread post, but I’m a little embarrassed to post about it. But things are weird. I feel like it’s alright though.
That aside, really looking forward to Sunday. Even if it’s a livestream event, I miss live music. Going to shows, performing at shows. It’s always kinda helped ,e find balance, even if the music I enjoy and perform doesn’t seem particularly balanced to most.
carmen_b
07-22-2021, 01:23 PM
Weird is good.
Now we have to know, ha.
AChildOfBoredom
07-22-2021, 01:52 PM
Now we have to know, ha.
So do I. I mean, of course I know what transpires, but I don’t really understand the how and the why of it.
TheBrownFox
07-22-2021, 02:44 PM
I miss live music. Going to shows, performing at shows. It’s always kinda helped ,e find balance, even if the music I enjoy and perform doesn’t seem particularly balanced to most.
It's pretty cool seeing the list of all these things happening in August (My birthday month). Alanis Morissette is coming to Maryland at the end of August, SWV and Dru Hill will be in Philly at the beginning of August, etc. Brian McKnight will be in Georgia in the future, but that's too damn far for me. But I did see that he, Faith Evans, Lil' Kim, etc. are also having an online concert event on Facebook in August.
AChildOfBoredom
07-22-2021, 03:06 PM
It's pretty cool seeing the list of all these things happening in August (My birthday month). Alanis Morissette is coming to Maryland at the end of August, SWV and Dru Hill will be in Philly at the beginning of August, etc. Brian McKnight will be in Georgia in the future, but that's too damn far for me. But I did see that he, Faith Evans, Lil' Kim, etc. are also having an online concert event on Facebook in August.
The shows I go to are smaller name, and the music I get into… not exactly the smooth sounds of Kenny G. It’s three grindcore bands this Sunday. It’s aggressive, it’s angry, it’s violent, and it just lets me drift off into my own little world where I find some semblance of peace, even if everything on the outside looks the complete opposite of it. It’s not really something I can explain well, it’s just what moves me.