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kimbe
09-12-2021, 12:10 AM
It's his birthday today so we're going out, properly. God knows how long since last time..Tomorrow's not going to be a good day :'(
We went home after a nice dinner and had sex :) . Wearing a mask, the constant debate with yourself wether it should be on or off all the time isn't actually something we enjoy..
Marina Starr
09-12-2021, 05:25 AM
Thank you, sis!
We "falter" because we're humans. It's not possible to numb what we feel by people, things and circumstances that negatively affect us.
Sometimes we're caught off guard by people who we thought were decent. It's important to always beware that sometimes it's the people giving us the medicines that are making us sick.
Body language and facial expressions are extremely powerful. There's so much in that 'GLARE' that screams batshit fucking crazy without a single word., lmao
This is something I have been working on too. I love your comparison to athletes. The more you train, the better you are at it.
We should not beat ourselves up if we falter. Life is a learning experience.
Body language and facial expressions can say it all.
You are incredibly smart, sis.
JGB2009
09-12-2021, 02:48 PM
I already won't allow you to be my friend on social media and if you keep at it you won't exist in my world at all......is that really what you want? Seems like it!!!!!
carmen_b
09-12-2021, 04:29 PM
I’ll make about $1019 from day job Sept 1-13 but who is counting obsessively lol as if they are relying on every damn dime.
carmen_b
09-12-2021, 04:31 PM
Attitude of gratitude.
None of this “ well I made xyz Sept 2019 “.
That was pre-apocalypse.
Aurora_Sunset
09-12-2021, 07:21 PM
I just read some wacky shit that make think people are crazy af. And it actually was not political at all lol
AChildOfBoredom
09-12-2021, 11:05 PM
One of our shop helpers promoted to FT1 and that left a shop helper position open, so I’m taking the boy from the community with me tomorrow to be evaluated. He’s from a farming family, so he has some mechanical knowledge. One of the questions they’ll ask is if he has tools, so I just told him to say yes. It looks better for him to have his own, especially if he tries promoting to a fleet tech position. Being an FT4 gave me enough influence that I could get him in and evaluated before the job was posted, and if they hire him, then we’ll have to make a run to Harbor Freight and it’ll help to get him enrolled into trade school, so it’s probably gonna be on me to get student aid and FAFSA and such sorted out for him. He and my sister both better fucking appreciate this. I don’t really care to expend my time and energy for the sake of men. The fact that I am… perhaps subconsciously I believe he might be worth something. But I’m not about to lead him to believe that I’m warming up to him in any way. Though my mother gave me a little bitching out because she had talked to him and my sister on the phone and when she asked how he was getting along with me, they both dodged the question. “You weren’t raised to terrorize others”, she tells me.
indiegirl
09-13-2021, 09:45 AM
Customer wants to pay 40 dollars less negotiating with me which is a no but then he said "I also have a puppy. I don't know if I should bring him?" .....this motherfucker. I love dogs....especially puppies. Don't mention them around me. I will let things slide LOL.*sigh*
Edit: He got a sitter and is paying full price. My puppy dreams have been ruined. They don't even know I would put the majority of my focus on the dog compared to them LOLLL.
lilylilylily
09-13-2021, 11:59 AM
Uh oh I think I've put on a couple pounds, no more vegan cheesecakes for me..after I finish what I have left lol
indiegirl
09-13-2021, 02:29 PM
Interesting quote I read today:
"A man's loyalty is tested when he has everything and a woman's loyalty is tested when her man has nothing."
TheBrownFox
09-13-2021, 04:50 PM
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This was me today trying to be brave, and walk past a bunch of fucking mouse traps to throw away my trash in the kitchen trash can. :rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:
AChildOfBoredom
09-14-2021, 02:14 AM
My mother baffles me sometimes, with her “selective anachronism”. When my parents came for Thanksgiving, it was clear she didn’t approve of my use of a food processor, though she didn’t actually say anything to me about it. My sister picked up on that vibe also, and while she previously had no issue with using kitchen appliances, she suddenly decided to follow my mother in her approach. Thing of it is, there is absolutely nothing in the community we came from or from the corresponding church which prohibits or even scorns the use of kitchen appliances - this is all my mother, and her having come from an Amish family. Yet, she will drive a car and she has a smartphone. And I just can’t seem to get the message across to her of, “Kitchen appliances good”. It gets pretty frustrating.
JGB2009
09-14-2021, 02:14 PM
IDK, in some ways I feel like I need to set some boundaries. This is why being by yourself is so much easier. At least I know what to expect from myself.
TheBrownFox
09-14-2021, 06:16 PM
I've got an October 6th consultation with a doctor who does the endometrial ablation surgeries. PLEASE let this be the doctor who can finally help end my suffering after all these years.
AChildOfBoredom
09-15-2021, 02:18 AM
That was surprisingly easy. The tow company called me earlier this week and said we had trucks down and they wouldn’t have one available for me this weekend. So, I was curious what it’s like now so I contacted the club and asked if I could come in, or if that wasn’t doable. They said yes. I mean, yes I hung up my heels and all, but there is a certain I’m going back after a long hiatus.
WendiStarr
09-15-2021, 11:21 AM
A dragonfly landed on my hand. My grandma said in Japanese culture it's supposed to mean very good luck. I sure hope so!
LoveyD
09-15-2021, 11:28 AM
I have an appointment to check out a place next Tuesday. It's 5 min from where I'm at now, still in an upscale area, only $150 more per month than what I am paying now. Has a reasonable deposit as well. I hope this place is nice. From what the owner says, it's exactly what I'm looking for. Was hoping to find a cheaper place but I put an ad on craigslist. We'll see what my options are I guess. Hope to find a peaceful home soon. Over the last 2 years I've had to deal with toxic housemates who bully me because they feel like I outshine them and I am fucking over it.
~Carmen~
09-15-2021, 08:49 PM
I have an appointment to check out a place next Tuesday. It's 5 min from where I'm at now, still in an upscale area, only $150 more per month than what I am paying now. Has a reasonable deposit as well. I hope this place is nice. From what the owner says, it's exactly what I'm looking for. Was hoping to find a cheaper place but I put an ad on craigslist. We'll see what my options are I guess. Hope to find a peaceful home soon. Over the last 2 years I've had to deal with toxic housemates who bully me because they feel like I outshine them and I am fucking over it.
Good luck with securing your new place! I hope it's just what you are looking for.
I put my 60 days notice in today. Can't wait to view them in my rearview mirror and bye bye forever.
LoveyD
09-15-2021, 09:07 PM
"Bye forever!" Love that!!
JGB2009
09-16-2021, 11:50 AM
Funny how you can not care about something but at the same time you do. Odd feeling.....
lurkingtitties
09-16-2021, 01:29 PM
Funny how you can not care about something but at the same time you do. Odd feeling.....
Ooooh definitely struggling with this right now myself!!
carmen_b
09-16-2021, 02:56 PM
Is anyone following that missing #vanlife woman Gabby P.?
I am just so heart broken for her family ugh.
A story to be watching .
carmen_b
09-16-2021, 03:00 PM
I have a theory that many in that lifestyle do some sex work on the side to fund it ( so many very pretty girls doing those kinds of trips ) which isn’t to say it’s the case here but man ... everyone look at her picture and see if she was in your club by even a *tiny* chance. Utah is the most recent known locations but they were headed to WY .
The bf returned from trip and won’t give police any info.
The family is so desperate for info and this guy won’t even release where she last was.
whirlerz
09-16-2021, 03:12 PM
Is anyone following that missing #vanlife woman Gabby P.?
I am just so heart broken for her family ugh.
A story to be watching .
Yes, somewhat, it is sad..
Honestly, I can't bear to read it, I've recently read a few cold cases though, so many women & children, coming up missing, murdered.
I do hope they find her alive & safe
carmen_b
09-16-2021, 03:15 PM
^ Same but she had a habit of a few calls or video calls with family per week. :(
whirlerz
09-16-2021, 03:15 PM
. Over the last 2 years I've had to deal with toxic housemates who bully me because they feel like I outshine them and I am fucking over it.
I heard that! ^
Good luck!
whirlerz
09-16-2021, 03:31 PM
Lol, today I was walking around the house, everyone gone to work..
I heard someone calling my name, it freaked me out!
The one roomie left for 2 months, he has a camera in front of his door, & was talking to me thru it..
He asked if I'd take pics of his mail & send it to him, I said I would..
He said he missed me & I told him the same, he could be a PIA, but at least he cleaned sometimes & cleaned well. He also fixed the kitchen faucet before he left.
He could be cool sometimes as well
LoveyD
09-16-2021, 07:03 PM
I was really hoping Shipt would be more hoppin' tonight. I am well-rested, well-fed, car gassed up, and it's like every area far away from me is receiving orders but my area is totally lame.
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
09-17-2021, 08:06 AM
I don't care what anyone says but that Kim Kardashian Met Gala look was fire.
indiegirl
09-17-2021, 08:10 AM
I don't care what anyone says but that Kim Kardashian Met Gala look was fire.
I agree. One person who I thought was very creative was Grimes at the met gala as well as Kendall Jenners stunning dress! At first I thought it was odd seeing Grimes dating Elon Musk but the more I followed her recently on instagram the more I love her individuality and music. They seem like a good fit with their space obsession and quirkiness lol. But damn it must be tough to date Elon Musk....he's very self-centered. She even mentioned she had to put her career to the side for him and expected to have platinum blonde hair and his career comes first.
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
09-17-2021, 08:22 AM
I agree. One person who I thought was very creative was Grimes at the met gala as well as Kendall Jenners stunning dress! At first I thought it was odd seeing Grimes dating Elon Musk but the more I followed her recently on instagram the more I love her individuality and music. They seem like a good fit with their space obsession and quirkiness lol. But damn it must be tough to date Elon Musk....he's very self-centered. She even mentioned she had to put her career to the side for him and expected to have platinum blonde hair and his career comes first.
Grimes is the shit and she has been for a very long time now. I really hope that megalomaniac isn't stunting her growth? I honestly stopped paying attention to what she was up to outside of music when I realized she married him.
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-17-2021, 01:11 PM
Grimes is the shit and she has been for a very long time now. I really hope that megalomaniac isn't stunting her growth? I honestly stopped paying attention to what she was up to outside of music when I realized she married him.
I'm sure she'll be OK.
Random Rave- say what you will about Jessica Simpson's public image, but her clothing line is damned awesome. I got myself a fancy long sweater from her line of clothing at TJ Maxx and I am in love with it. For the pricing (especially at discount stores) it's very high quality clothing. & If you're petite sized it's even better. My clothing options are kind of slim seeing as petite sizes are not common where I live now.
Genoveve
09-17-2021, 02:14 PM
I don't care what anyone says but that Kim Kardashian Met Gala look was fire.
Completely agree, I am OBSESSED. I have been loving all of her recent all-black outfits.
JessaJade
09-17-2021, 06:47 PM
I agree. One person who I thought was very creative was Grimes at the met gala as well as Kendall Jenners stunning dress!
Yeah I loved KJs gown. Grimes was by Iris van Herpen, who also dressed Gabrielle Union and Tessa Thompson - I loved both of those too.
kamiliam
09-17-2021, 07:34 PM
I am officially an “orphan” in my 30’s, my mother passed. I just thought it would happen later in life then this. Other then siblings I have no family left in the USA. It’s hella weird and sad.
I hate phone calls and I have already had my fill today alone.
TheBrownFox
09-17-2021, 07:38 PM
I am officially an “orphan” in my 30’s, my mother passed. I just thought it would happen later in life then this. Other then siblings I have no family left in the USA. It’s hella weird and sad.
I hate phone calls and I have already had my fill today alone.
I'm sorry to hear about your mom's passing, kamiliam. :(
JGB2009
09-18-2021, 06:37 AM
When we are talking on the phone and you mention how bored you are. I then wonder why bother talking to me if you feel that way. Maybe you should go do something where you will be more entertained smh!!!!
indiegirl
09-18-2021, 06:49 AM
Did anyone feel that earthquake in Southern California? I was taking a nap and thought I was back at home with my dog running in place sleeping on my bed until I got a text about it LOL. It was around 8pm yesterday.
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
09-18-2021, 09:32 AM
I am officially an “orphan” in my 30’s, my mother passed. I just thought it would happen later in life then this. Other then siblings I have no family left in the USA. It’s hella weird and sad.
I hate phone calls and I have already had my fill today alone.
I am so sorry hun. Losing a parent is hella weird because it forces you to think about your own mortality and whatnot. Grief is so personal and I know from other post this isn't the first time you've experienced it. Just remember it's your grief and you deal with it however you choose. ❤️
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
09-18-2021, 09:35 AM
Completely agree, I am OBSESSED. I have been loving all of her recent all-black outfits.
Yessss! I'm also loving the all black looks from Megan Fox too! It's spooky season y'all!!!!
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
09-18-2021, 09:39 AM
Did anyone feel that earthquake in Southern California? I was taking a nap and thought I was back at home with my dog running in place sleeping on my bed until I got a text about it LOL. It was around 8pm yesterday.
At least in Florida we get at least a weeks notice before a hurricane hits. But in California y'all just be minding your business and...
*Boom boom boom rrrrrrrunbkefdd @#*
[email protected]$#*BOOOOOOOMMMMMM*
I love Cali tho.
lurkingtitties
09-18-2021, 09:51 AM
I have a theory that many in that lifestyle do some sex work on the side to fund it ( so many very pretty girls doing those kinds of trips ) which isn’t to say it’s the case here but man ... everyone look at her picture and see if she was in your club by even a *tiny* chance. Utah is the most recent known locations but they were headed to WY .
The bf returned from trip and won’t give police any info.
The family is so desperate for info and this guy won’t even release where she last was.
I was just writing a post about how hooked I am on this case!!!
I don't get a sex worker vibe from her at all. They lived with his parents to save money and I read somewhere that she had been working at a grocery co-op in Utah where the lesbian couple was last seen before being murdered.
The police finally entered the bf's parent's house last night and he wasn't there, the parents said he has been missing since Tuesday. I hope he didn't kill himself. (Because we need answers, not because of concern for his welfare)
One sad thing I can't help but think about though, every time I check for updates...how many non-white women go missing under similar circumstances and nobody gives a crap? This case is all over the media because a skinny young blond white woman sells.
carmen_b
09-18-2021, 09:56 AM
^ Yes the racism bias is just shining here and it's fascinating just from that aspect as well.
When you look at their social media no joke I have been standing in 50% of those exact spots also at one point or another.
I am 99% sure this guy is a Narc / Abusive BUT you don't really know until ALL info comes out.
When you view that cop body cam video she is crying and he is just fine driving along . I feel like this is so typical as abusers love to pick at and upset the victim constantly.
I don't really get the sex work vibe either but I know on MY trips how I paid for them at times. I know where that thought came from. When I saw most of their travel taking place in CO in July it was just like " she must have been at a club " somewhere along the way.
It is just all not adding up. I try to only search for updates every 4-5 hours.
lurkingtitties
09-18-2021, 10:03 AM
I am 99% sure this guy is a Narc / Abusive BUT you don't really know until ALL info comes out.
Yes, I watched some of the bodycam footage from Utah and seeing how suspiciously calm he is while she's hysterically upset gave me the creeps!
AChildOfBoredom
09-18-2021, 12:33 PM
Yes, I watched some of the bodycam footage from Utah and seeing how suspiciously calm he is while she's hysterically upset gave me the creeps!
I‘ve been following the story, as well. I certainly find him suspect, but that video doesn’t really do much for me. I can stay calm and collected when others are wigging out, and it doesn’t really surprise me with as long of a history as they have together, so he’s probably become a bit desensitized to that. It’s the part about him just showing up in Florida without her and not having read anything about him having tried to locate her before leaving Utah which gives me the, “WTF!?”reaction.
whirlerz
09-18-2021, 04:01 PM
Lmao, the one electrician guy upstairs just backed his car into a pizza oven he's had sitting outside for months..it went through several heavy rains, he did some welding on it.. (he got it at some place he was doing work at) if I could (it's super heavy) it would have gone w/my scrap metal stuff. :rotfl:
He also had sitting in the hall a box w/dirty speakers, til I dragged it upstairs by his door::)
I guess he didn't care, he didn't stop to look at his car, he knocked open the door of the oven & bent it.::)
LoveyD
09-18-2021, 09:59 PM
Yes, I watched some of the bodycam footage from Utah and seeing how suspiciously calm he is while she's hysterically upset gave me the creeps!
This means the guy is a narc. They stay calm while they emotionally abuse their target.
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-19-2021, 05:55 AM
I am officially an “orphan” in my 30’s, my mother passed. I just thought it would happen later in life then this. Other then siblings I have no family left in the USA. It’s hella weird and sad.
I hate phone calls and I have already had my fill today alone.
Sorry to hear about that, kamiliam.
carmen_b
09-19-2021, 01:57 PM
That's a bit what I was thinking too. Narcs LOVE to terrorize their partner so if he started becoming more abusive ( since they rarely START that way ) it could lead to emotional melt downs
The victim is often confused and thinking " oh my person is going nuts , how do I help them , how do I fix this ? " You tend to assume your lover is a normal person . It is quite possible she was at the phase of just discovering his personality disorder ( possibly even got caught looking up info and starting to plan how to get away ).
The fact that he would just drive back is very bizarre. You " lose " your partner in a wilderness area and then don't mention it other than to send out a fake text to their parents ( attempting to place her in another national park ). Um ..... ok. Technology follows all of us closely though . I think the only reason it's taken this long to make headway is that there is such limited cell service in that park making locations difficult to see with phone records. I have spent a lot of time in that park. You do get a bar of service here and there . If she has the " find my I-phone " app they will pretty much have at least some dots and some sense of where she was.
This means the guy is a narc. They stay calm while they emotionally abuse their target.
carmen_b
09-19-2021, 02:01 PM
^ I honestly hope the reason he " disappeared " is because her family banded together and has him in a basement doing various torture routines for withholding info. BUT it's a 99% chance he is hiding in that damn swamp where they are looking.