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lynn2009
01-25-2022, 03:42 PM
.......

Marina Starr
01-25-2022, 03:59 PM
I'll get it in black too if I love them. Gotta wait til Friday to find out!


Marina, those shoes are super cute, love the lower heel.

carmen_b
01-25-2022, 04:25 PM
I’ve done a lot of work to hide the fact my 7 year ex 2011-2018 was 6’6” from J ( who is 5’7” ).

It’s silly but men ya know ?

~Carmen~
01-25-2022, 06:58 PM
Ordered these shoes on Amazon in pink and lavender. I love the colors, style and heel height. I hope I like them when they arrive. The heels are good for everyday use.

https://i.ibb.co/BVNmGHW/Screenshot-2022-01-25-9-46-49-AM.png (https://ibb.co/bgJxFjw)

https://i.ibb.co/F3PyNS7/Screenshot-2022-01-25-9-46-58-AM.png (https://ibb.co/kBdwkRc)

So cute! I hope they work for you. I love kitten heels.

Marina Starr
01-25-2022, 07:33 PM
Perfect for sex kittens. I want to have a variety of kitten, hoe and stripper heels. From 2 to 5 inches.


So cute! I hope they work for you. I love kitten heels.

indiegirl
01-25-2022, 10:40 PM
I could literally poop in this guys car right now. I knew I wasn’t done! My stomach hurts so bad lol. Then I started laughing about this situation underneath my mask which caused me to laugh even more. Hahaha! I have 30 minutes to wait to get there and check in and blow that toilet up!!!! Hahahahaha

We are in a state of emergency over here lolllll!

Update: My key didn't work for the room and I started panicking from the rage my butt was ready to release. Oh man I almost went to poo with my backpack on because I was freaking out LOL. I need to become a mod of the poop thread hahahahaha. It would basically be just me posting my poop stories hahahaha.

Second Update: Salad is being delivered super early and I am happy as ever watching a movie!!!

JGB2009
01-26-2022, 08:58 AM
Today it is raining and all I wanna do is sleep. Not gonna happen but I wish.

kimbe
01-26-2022, 09:40 AM
I already have my jewelry etc in his safe, there’s no obvious reason for another one. Neither am I in the position to install a big heavy safe at his place.



I’ll do some research one the bank deposit box, that could be the safest solution.

Yes, I strongly recommend you to get a safe deposit box in a bank! As I see it, it's safe, maybe the safest way to keep money you don't want to be taxed. I've read that certain banks don't allow cash deposits in the box, but that's never been an issue and frankly I can't see how it could be as I'm alone when I open my box.
I got mine when I got into dancing and have kept it ever after, and still keep emergency cash in addition to some other stuff. Most of my money I was able to put into circulation when I got my own business running. :)


I’m considering to take the two hour drive (each way) to pick up my two new posing bikinis. I need to use some of the cash money I get from PT..
I’m probably too careful, but I don’t want to deposit them in the bank.. Appreciate any tips on how to make use of such money without rising suspicion from the IRS.

I'd take the trip, it's a no brainer to me :)
Definitely use cash whenever possible, that's the best way spending that kind of $$$. Then you can save/invest more of your vanilla salary :)

Marina Starr
01-26-2022, 11:24 AM
Hoemade Salmon Scampi is what's up!

https://i.ibb.co/KmT8vz8/20220126-125022.jpg (https://ibb.co/R7RJw4J)

kimbe
01-26-2022, 11:27 AM
^ Looks delicious!

baer45
01-26-2022, 11:34 AM
What is that?

Looks like a dickie? A collar that you tuck under a sweater or shirt, to make it look like you're wearing a shirt under whatever your overshirt is

It's a Ribbed Hood. They actually wear it over a t-shirt. It cost $675. lol

chanzep
01-26-2022, 07:11 PM
That salmon dish does look delicious.

Secret Shelly
01-26-2022, 08:12 PM
I've been just staring at the screen trying to make a wordpress webpage for escorting...and I do mean just staring....I have no idea how it should look, what i should say, what info to put...i just need to get a f-ton of customers so I can afford my own IT department lol

indiegirl
01-27-2022, 01:21 AM
I've been just staring at the screen trying to make a wordpress webpage for escorting...and I do mean just staring....I have no idea how it should look, what i should say, what info to put...i just need to get a f-ton of customers so I can afford my own IT department lol

There are escort content writers as well as those that set up your website. Lol I remember my escort content writer and we had a conversation for like 45 minutes about me so she could write about me in the past for my website/ad. Lolll I sounded like I walked out of a sexed up romance novel with what she had to say hahaha!!

I now just keep it simple and wrote what most ladies write after seeing their ads. I don't even have a website now. It's a waste of time/money nowadays and many guys don't read them. All they care about is the donation, photos, reviews, selfies, and face-timing nowadays.

GlamLifter
01-27-2022, 07:44 AM
I’m going to take the trip and pick up the posing bikinis tomorrow.

Secret Shelly
01-27-2022, 09:11 AM
I now just keep it simple and wrote what most ladies write after seeing their ads. I don't even have a website now. It's a waste of time/money nowadays and many guys don't read them. All they care about is the donation, photos, reviews, selfies, and face-timing nowadays.


that's what i'm seeing too...i'm just thinking to have somewhere to point them for the basic faq's...before i'd had a tumblr page with all of that but it got locked when tumblr started going around and deleting anything close to adult content.

Jucie
01-27-2022, 09:51 AM
I’m going to take the trip and pick up the posing bikinis tomorrow.

I’ve heard those are super expensive!?

GlamLifter
01-27-2022, 02:49 PM
I’ve heard those are super expensive!?

Appx a grand or so..

Aurora_Sunset
01-27-2022, 05:59 PM
Sometimes when I can't sleep I think of people I could've had sex with but didn't for different reasons, and kind of regret not doing it. Like once when I went to visit a friend in another country I (foolishly) assumed I'd be staying at my friend's place because I'd done that before, but when I got there it turned out my friend had moved and didn't live there anymore. The former flat mates who knew me a bit still lived there though and let me stay the night. I went out with one of them for a drink, we were at a pub where part of it looked a bit like a ruin, like a house with parts of the roof missing, it was pretty beautiful. Especially with a starry sky. He was funny and nice, I gt pretty drunk. When I was in his bed later we both wanted it but none of us had a condom so I said no. Then he just touched me, he didn't want me doing anything for him which suited me well because I was too drunk to make any effort anyway. Now he lives with wife and kid(s?) on another continent and I'll probably never see him again.

Sometimes, I end up thinking about a few guys that I definitely could've dated but wasn't attracted to them. I know they would've been good providers and pretty much kissed my ass though... sometimes I wonder what would've happened if I'd just done it.

Then again, I would probably put my ex in this category back then, and I DID try dating him, and he was a completely different person as a bf than a guy-friend pining after me, so... who knows?

indiegirl
01-27-2022, 06:34 PM
I like going shopping for things I could never afford in this lifetime. Ya'll like my new window shopping house? God the backyard is nice!! The only issue is that I'd have to have a housekeeper and a pool guy! LOLLLL. Now it's time to step back into reality LOLLLLL!

https://www.zillow.com/homedetails/4113-Murfreesboro-Rd-Franklin-TN-37067/81351129_zpid/?

DonaDiabla
01-27-2022, 09:37 PM
I guess I have to jazzed up my cam shows. Camming is just dryer than phone sex to me.:D Time to work on my shows at bit more.

WendiStarr
01-28-2022, 09:17 AM
My condom taped to the work laptop worked. BD was at work and sent me an angry text about,"Thanks for embarrassing me in front of my co-workers". I don't feel bad at all. I'm hoping he will get sick of me and go away to a more compliant target.

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
01-28-2022, 09:28 AM
This morning I had a doctor's appointment and got there super early. I went to the cafeteria and ordered biscuits and gravy. I haven't eaten anything like that in months!!! It was so good and I can't wait for my next appointment.

indiegirl
01-28-2022, 09:52 AM
My condom taped to the work laptop worked. BD was at work and sent me an angry text about,"Thanks for embarrassing me in front of my co-workers". I don't feel bad at all. I'm hoping he will get sick of me and go away to a more compliant target.

Wish you knew someone there so they got it on video to share LOLLLL ;D. Would be fun to annoy him a lot to see if he would bounce....set the deadbolt on the door and feign you were napping while he is stuck outside pounding on the door, just simple annoying things to set him off to where he is done. Make his living conditions not worth it. Some men aren't worth saving...kinda like Tristan and Khloe Kardashian.

Jucie
01-28-2022, 10:21 AM
I’m considering to take the two hour drive (each way) to pick up my two new posing bikinis. I need to use some of the cash money I get from PT..
I’m probably too careful, but I don’t want to deposit them in the bank.. Appreciate any tips on how to make use of such money without rising suspicion from the IRS.

I doubt that it would be an issue with the numbers you’ve mentioned.

A deposit box is still a good idea, you can use it for your personal paperwork and jewelry as well.

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 11:34 AM
Up and down here ..... bleh.

We had a nice date night ( Indian food which was my idea ) .
I think I ate too much cauliflower ( that dish aloo gobi ).
I felt like I had to hide in other sections of the house to fart.

Then he wanted to go down on me ( I'd recently shaved ) so that sounded nice.
I was stressed during trying not to fart under our huge puffy bedspread haha.

kimbe
01-28-2022, 11:37 AM
^^ I can relate, I've got IBS, mild though..

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 11:40 AM
^ I think I successfully got away with it but it took a lot of work haha.

GlamLifter
01-28-2022, 12:11 PM
I’m going to take the trip and pick up the posing bikinis tomorrow.

Back again, heading for the gym for a leg session, a PT session (;)) followed by quality time with BF :)

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 12:33 PM
I wanted to put the fun element up first haha.

We got into it AGAIN about dancing.
The context was that this conversation occured after this really great sexual experience.
We did my oral for me, then my toy, then sex, then bj. I think that was the order lol.
Like ...... above and beyond. He very stupidly mentioned this comment after I was all fired up and high energy from this sex. He said something about trading an extra 30 minutes of TV ( we limit ourselves to 45-60 min. daily ) for something more visual tomorrow.
At the time it made me feel like he complained AFTER this great sexy experience.

EDIT TO ADD:
Ok, we talked. I realize now I had made him frustrated in the car because I turned down his idea of a dance at home ( stomach ! ). I was trying to hide the fact I wasn't feeling well and just trying not to fart in his Tesla.

I am trying to figure this out. I just HATE being constricted even though I don't even want to dance that often MYSELF ( literally just pop in 3 nights a month with a low goal and make around 1k -$1200 a month extra in cash from it ).

I think I have some post covid ptsd surrounding all financial things .
I often feel like I can't relax at all.
I always feel like I need to make " extra " in order to feel ok since I was so restricted for two years.

WendiStarr
01-28-2022, 12:33 PM
Wish you knew someone there so they got it on video to share LOLLLL ;D. Would be fun to annoy him a lot to see if he would bounce....set the deadbolt on the door and feign you were napping while he is stuck outside pounding on the door, just simple annoying things to set him off to where he is done. Make his living conditions not worth it. Some men aren't worth saving...kinda like Tristan and Khloe Kardashian.

Oh, for sure! I would've laughed so hard at his and his co-workers faces. He's a Network Engineer so they're probably all a bunch of computer nerds sitting around and then look up to see the shiny, "golden ticket" Magnums that caught their eyes. He reminds me of Kanye West song "Runaway".

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 12:46 PM
How do you guys handle this ?
Have you ever had someone do this ?

I just feel so odd ..... like .... why in the world would you try to guilt me into not working and take away my extra 1k - $1200 ish.
It takes barely any time to get it !
I can get my little extra spending money amount in just three days out of town.

I don't particularly dislike dancing for him or anything like that.
I out right told him too that it was the longer time frames when he has his daughter ( these rare Sun - Wed. ones every few weeks ) that were the ONLY times I intended to work at the club.

I just can't seem to decide what to do because on one level life is so easy right now in certain ways. :/
My bills are so low but I feel like I am underutilizing my money making skills and I'm not sure how I'm feeling.

I think it's still just hitting me badly that he seemed to totally accept my past and then even was encouraging of going BACK to work in summer and fall. Then a month ago ..... his mind randomly changes.

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 12:56 PM
J : What if I magically felt 100% ok with dancing but then I wanted you to contribute $1500 a month to the house ?

ME : You realize I would come out WAY ahead right if I worked 6-8 days ? I can make 1k in two days.

lol

Why can't I just have the magic that I thought I had ? I swore I had it just 2-3 months ago !!
I think I WANT our normal suburban life but just this *taste* of my old life as a hustler.
At times I don't understand why he isn't on board. I'm totally ok with him coming to the club and enjoying all the scenery too ( he is schooled on tipping every girl on stage and good club behavior ) !

charlie61
01-28-2022, 01:14 PM
Carmen, the whole thing icks me out. It seems like he wants you to dance for him here and there while he gives you some funds to assist... he doesn't want you to dance. It just has this weird SD vibe to me. You'd rather make your own money, like you said. I don't like it.

I would be more cool with it if he were clearly just wanting to take the money stress off of you, but i do not get that vibe based on what you've shared with us.

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 01:21 PM
^ I'd say he isn't even really helping me enough to make a BIG difference.
It's a more " even " vibe really than SD.

The fact that I'm not a financial burden ( like his ex was ) honestly makes a huge difference to him I imagine. I pay for my own car, insurances ( car and health ) , phone , vacation contributions, and many other things v.s. him paying for it ALL .

He has a large home and just feels fine paying all the home expenses. I greatly appreciate it. I have another home and rent it out currently. Starting in March that property will being to make a surplus of $800 a month which will be part of my monthly income . I can survive just fine ( around that time ) making only $1200 a month in addition to it but I just can't relax it seems. I want to THRIVE . That to me looks like 1k a week MINIMUM . I think I just like bringing part of it in as cash too ( it can off set the slow and aggravating sales process of my other business ). I HATE dancing full time ..... I would never want to again . I've only danced full time for one year and that was plenty.

I wouldn't say it is SD vibes . Maybe last fall when I *also* had an allowance but I really think he was just helping me when my business didn't rebound as quickly as I expected. I don't currently " need " any dancing money. It is more like I just want to have this *option* and not be fighting with a dude over it especially when he was supposedly fine with it and even encouraged me with it. : /

I'm just talking some thoughts out.

It is just SO different than the vibe I had with my 7 year ex . That ex NEVER wanted dancing or to hear anything about it ! He wanted to pretend like it didn't happen which was fine after an adjustment period.

I'm struggling here because I don't think he realizes trauma could " pop " up in these situations. Like .... it is literally a living nightmare to dance and not get paid . I have lived through actual hours of this horror. :/

Maybe I mistook our open communication style as something that meant we didn't need therapy. We do seem to need it and probably should not have gone off track ( we have only done two sessions and we need consistency ).

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 01:24 PM
I think I am just having a hard adjustment period because this is the first time in my life I could actually work part time if I wanted to. Instead of it being " fun " or relaxing it seems like I can't relax at ALL .

I guess I probably just need to admit that I am really after 4-5k a month v.s. just " having more time " .

From November to now I'd say I really tried that " having more time " experiment and it has not exactly been a success.
Maybe I'm just a personality type that needs to work full time.

charlie61
01-28-2022, 01:29 PM
Yes, exactly. You want independence and self-made financial freedom, not to dance for free for your man at home with free room / board. You aren't a stay at home stripper, lol

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 01:40 PM
^ Haha ! Yes ! Maybe I will use this term with him !

I think we can expect people to be " like " our exes.
In my very brief 2-4 month experiment with it , I am quickly finding out I HATE being " stay at home " anything even part time !

Like ..... I'm out in the world with my own purse of cash dude.
Join if you'd like. Haha.

I feel like when it comes to sex workers ( even former ) the guys attitude MUST be at some level " omg I'm honored you'd pick me " . Like ..... if it is ANYTHING else ( complaining about working at a club for 3 nights for example ) it just feels whoomp whooomp ( insert that movie sound here ) !

GO BACK to your amazing former attitude of last summer and fall and lets have a blast !
Maybe I'm the " off " one. I think it is fun to have this little secret and extra money ( and he is in on the secret ).

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 02:14 PM
Ok .... the crux I think it this ......

If you want a partner that isn't boring THEN fully accept a parter who isn't boring !!

You can not pick and choose the pieces ( only leaving the self serving ones ).
THAT ( the " picking " ) is a dick move.
I feel like I'm caught in the middle of fighting for a principal since I actually want to work so little anyway.

I feel like we are at risk of talking in circles over this which I DON'T want to do.
If you say you are ok dating a dancer ..... then be ok with it.

charlie61
01-28-2022, 02:39 PM
Ok .... the crux I think it this ......

If you want a partner that isn't boring THEN fully accept a parter who isn't boring !!

You can not pick and choose the pieces ( only leaving the self serving ones ).
THAT ( the " picking " ) is a dick move.
I feel like I'm caught in the middle of fighting for a principal since I actually want to work so little anyway.

I don't think you're fighting for the principle of the matter anymore. It's about control, independence, and having the money you want and need to make your own choices. These are big issues.

Have you asked him what changed between when he was fine with you dancing and when he started to object?

I also agree 1000% that you cannot pick and choose what you want in a sexy, free, exciting partner. Is he trying to mold you into the perfect stay at home stripper girlfriend who is always up for sexy times, travel, whatever he wants?

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 02:56 PM
^ I have asked him and he has referenced being upset I didn't bring things in " just for us " .

It didn't occur to me to dance at home duh !
I'm a paid / trained performer. I've worked in 15-17 states !
My dancer career and impact it has had isn't small.
The overall amounts I've made were more substantial than I thought when I started.
Ultimately ...... he will probably cause this to implode if he is doing this needy " it's just for us " thing.
I probably WON'T dance for him ( at all ) if he does not accept club dancing.

Um .... it's not just for us.
I've preformed for hundred and thousands of people at this point.
Dancing does NOT work that way.
Enjoy being with a skilled performer OR enjoy being with someone who has an interesting PAST and is fully retired from performing.
It could probably be either at this point and I'd be fine with it.

miss.a.p1600
01-28-2022, 02:57 PM
Carmen I think men can be huge hypocrites.

The men who expect women to contribute financially but then they control / have limitations on how you can get the money. Sir it doesn’t work like that.

I remember joking with L about sex work and his hatin ass was like “Is that all you can do?”

theA lot of men think like this and it’s completely hypocritical because they’re jealous that women can quickly n easily make money off other men and think that women should have to “work hard”, fuck them for free, and grind it out like they do. I. Reality 90% of men would be sex workers of the tables turned.

Most men (especially the 50/50 types) don’t want women to depend on them but they secretly enjoy women depending on them because then they have leverage

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 03:02 PM
^ Yes, I think it bothers him that one day in Dec. he was like " oh please don't go work " and I was wheels up ( in his sports car ) headed to the club lol. I thought he was having a weird day last month and would be fine !

Like ..... just ACCEPT that you have an awesome deal.
If I'm dipping the toes in dancing ( giving YOU the deal of having someone who looks like a stripper ) then accept the benefits it gives ME. I'm totally happy with the three shifts or so a month and just 1k . Just a little boost. I'm busy with other things and there is a zero percent chance of me being at the club more than that. I think maybe he thinks I will turn into a money hungry monster but I think the chance of me wanting to be at the club more than a few nights a month is super super slim.

We probably DO need to bring a therapist in ( for this subject ).
I feel we could circle this endlessly left to our own devices.

miss.a.p1600
01-28-2022, 03:14 PM
Also you want to be careful that he doesn’t take advantage of you by limiting your income.

Because unlike his ex wife who was married to him and came up financially once she divorced him you have nothing to gain financially / no assets if he dies or if you leave him so this is even more important for you to stack your own paper especially if you are just cohabitating.

If you marry THEN you can stop dancing. Because you’ll be more financially secure in a marriage (social security benefits after x amount of years if he died, assets you’d have 50% ownership of, alimony, etc).

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 03:16 PM
I think there is something to this. I never gave up my leverage. When I started saving the $1300 or so a month ( from living with him ) I just aimed to make a touch less and relax a little more. I never really gave up much in terms of earnings goals. A savings of that amount means I can work 10 hours less a week IF I want . I'm still working the other 30 and aiming to be making at least 3k or so. Honestly a 30 hour week over a 40 hour one is HUGE enough lifestyle difference. I have zero interest in working less than this. :)




Most men (especially the 50/50 types) don’t want women to depend on them but they secretly enjoy women depending on them because then they have leverage

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 03:20 PM
Agreed. She only got about 100k from what I understand anyway ( 2 k a month or so for 4 years ).
That is NOT much when you think about it. In my opinion it isn't ENOUGH ( though I'm glad that's all she got for my own bias obviously ).

^ In the last 10 years I've invested at least triple that from my own income streams and have it just sitting pretty.
80% is "stuck" in a property but you get the gist.

I caught him complaining one time about alimony. I pointed out that if 2 k a month stings him THEN she was actually living on less than 2 k a month during their time together 2008 - 2018 which is poverty.
I'm not just making jokes, I think the gov. considers less than 24 k poverty line .


Also you want to be careful that he doesn’t take advantage of you by limiting your income.

Because unlike his ex wife who was married to him and came up financially once she divorced him you have nothing to gain financially

charlie61
01-28-2022, 03:20 PM
Also you want to be careful that he doesn’t take advantage of you by limiting your income.

Because unlike his ex wife who was married to him and came up financially once she divorced him you have nothing to gain financially / no assets if he dies or if you leave him so this is even more important for you to stack your own paper especially if you are just cohabitating.

If you marry THEN you can stop dancing. Because you’ll be more financially secure in a marriage (social security benefits after x amount of years if he died, assets you’d have 50% ownership of, alimony, etc).

Exactly!!! Money now isn't worth much. By contrast, invested money / assets and financial freedom for your future are priceless.

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 03:24 PM
He only seems to struggle with dancing.
On a good month ( it would mean I travel a lot and work a lot ) my vanilla business can make 4-5 K a month.
Those are the times I wouldn't be going to the club at all anyway ( too busy ).
He has displayed zero problems during busy times for my other work which is good but they have not be frequent enough in the last 6 months to really gauge ! I'd obviously leave him in the dust immediately if he even suggested I didn't work my other gig if it infringed on time for us or something. It would be RARE that it would not leave a couple days for us a week anyway even on the busiest weeks.


Also you want to be careful that he doesn’t take advantage of you by limiting your income.

lynn2009
01-28-2022, 03:30 PM
I usually get called ma'am these days but a very nice woman at the coffee shop today called me miss.

carmen_b
01-28-2022, 03:33 PM
I think I hold more in real estate equity than he does right now though he is close. :)
It's not a contest but if it was I would win currently lol.


Because you’ll be more financially secure in a marriage (social security benefits after x amount of years if he died, assets you’d have 50% ownership of, alimony, etc).