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chanzep
07-13-2022, 06:53 PM
The internet is full of weirdos . I like to read stuff and communicate with people with same lifestyles and interests.
Some people think the internet is the real world and put sic importance on social media.
I think a lot of men are extra toxic from following weirdos online and try to incorporate the nonsense they spew into real life.
Then some people are complete catfishes living fake lives pretending they live a certain way etc. It's so weird.

kamiliam
07-13-2022, 07:01 PM
The internet is full of weirdos . I like to read stuff and communicate with people with same lifestyles and interests.
Some people think the internet is the real world and put sic importance on social media.
I think a lot of men are extra toxic from following weirdos online and try to incorporate the nonsense they spew into real life.
Then some people are complete catfishes living fake lives pretending they live a certain way etc. It's so weird.

And they are never convincing liars! You should hear the lala land stuff dudes try to con me with in my cam room. I am just busting their logical flaws left and right.

carmen_b
07-13-2022, 08:04 PM
Omg Lynn, congrats !

carmen_b
07-13-2022, 08:10 PM
Send some good vibes please !
I'm feeling blah and depressed over the last couple of days ugh .

I tried to get my negative energy broken up by doing some yoga and floor work moves to music at the house and I think it helped a little.
I am starting to procrastinate everything except work goals. I feel like it's a depression sign in me. Like .... I'll hold it together for work and then everything else just kind of slides .
I need to be responsible and take ownership of a few things.
I listed what they were but I'm deleting it now .

I honestly feel so weighed down by these things.
Like .... I can't just put it off *forever* even though I managed to put all of them off 6 months or more. Ugh.

I'm kind of sitting with myself going " ok you could just do these things OR spend time and money with a Therapist talking about why you find them impossible " .

indiegirl
07-14-2022, 05:03 AM
When my instacart driver delivered one single banana yesterday for grocery delivery instead of 1 entire thing of banana's.....https://i.ibb.co/yf0WxNf/Screen-Shot-2022-07-14-at-5-02-15-AM.png (https://imgbb.com/)

Didn't know they do that?

Aurora_Sunset
07-14-2022, 06:13 AM
It happened today! Their recruiter called me this morning with the official verbal offer and they met me at the top of my salary request, and had to up-level the role to do it. So instead of a XYZ Staff I'm going to be a Senior XYZ Staff! :) I am so flattered, I hire and you have to really like and want someone to actually meet their salary requirement and to change the level of the role is huge.

That's awesome!

JGB2009
07-14-2022, 07:43 AM
Sunday night I accidentally put on Christmas nails. No one has noticed yet accept my family.

AChildOfBoredom
07-14-2022, 09:02 AM
I put some investment money into a company shortly after I got back from Afghanistan. They went public in 2015, so they ended the profit sharing and we became shareholders. Now someone’s looking to buy the entire company and what was offered for my shares… it’s going to make for a very nice payday. As in, more than enough to pay the remaining balance of my home loan. Really glad that one worked out.

whirlerz
07-14-2022, 05:06 PM
There's currently another little toad chilling on my porch.. He (or she) is in one of my plastic containers for recycling, w/rainwater in it.
So cute.57482

Marina Starr
07-14-2022, 06:22 PM
Being Trans, I get asked a lot of questions. I don't mind if they're well intended and respectful. The majority of people haven't met a Trans person or that they know of so I try to give some wiggle room because first impressions are not always correct. I do appreciate when people go the extra mile to be thoughtful because they don't want to offend.
I'm not like a lot of Trans people. I'm very open and comfortable being Trans.

Some of my most asked questions:

Do you tell men you're Trans and when?

Yes. Right away.

Are you bothered by people calling you a man?

Never to my face but No. I Know I'm not a man.

Are you physically attracted to women?

No. I only like men.

What is one thing you wish people knew about Trans people?

Trans people are people too.

carmen_b
07-14-2022, 07:24 PM
I feel like my spirits are coming up again.
I had this VIVID survival themed dream. It was awesome and gave me confidence.
I was in a severe state of anxiety yesterday with the combo of things I procrastinated , the two back to back 12 hour work days coming up ( today’s is done now ) , and admittedly the physical separation from my partner ( my mind got into trauma land from my partner abandoning me 4 years ago ).

This dream was incredible .
Quick sand and water got my car and all my work stuff but I kicked myself out !
I woke up feeling so much more calm.
I could the car sitting at the lake bottom but I survived .

carmen_b
07-14-2022, 07:32 PM
^ I had procrastinated this tax bill resolution ( in a long debate over if I should try to ask for help with late fees ) .
I knew I owed it and I have the money for it but who wants to pay extra ugh ?
I still don’t know what to do with it. I will face it though !
Also the Dentist for me and dog.
Also the dmv to renew license.
I was really panicking over this stuff in a way.
It was feeling like I was just sliding into letting problems compound.

Dreamqueen
07-15-2022, 01:19 AM
There's currently another little toad chilling on my porch.. He (or she) is in one of my plastic containers for recycling, w/rainwater in it.
So cute.57482
Omg I LOVE him!! :lovestruc
Toads bring good luck and money.

There were lots of toads and frogs right outside of an apt I used to live at here in the desert.
I made soooo much money (doing sensual massages), and I had the BEST sex partners when I lived there too. Lol

whirlerz
07-15-2022, 02:17 AM
Omg I LOVE him!! :lovestruc
Toads bring good luck and money.

There were lots of toads and frogs right outside of an apt I used to live at here in the desert.
I made soooo much money (doing sensual massages), and I had the BEST sex partners when I lived there too. Lol

Nice!^ It was the toadies/frogs!
Love hearing them sing too.
His little gleaming eye, I kept peeking at him, "What, you back again"?

carmen_b
07-15-2022, 07:55 AM
Well ..... I am getting what I want this month.
I want 4k this month from rental + day job + club ( if needed ) !
I hope the club doesn't have to be factored in BUT if needed I will get the $$ that way !!
Get ready to see this bum again boys ( if my day job customers dally ).

I'm still hoping for a FAT transaction in the next 4-5 days. :)

I'm up to $1875 with a pending $575 transaction sent today.
If that one buys today it'll bump to $2450.

I'll shine these cheeks up just case.
I've been doing some pretty good lifting and the butt is going to be a big factor in the club haha.

carmen_b
07-15-2022, 08:56 AM
Whirl : That toad is awesome ! I hope he stays around your place !

indiegirl
07-15-2022, 11:44 AM
My Uber driver looks like one of those guys that you’d see on a Vice episode disclosing secrets of drug dealing. He has a hat on, big glasses where you can’t see his eyes, one of those long masks that cover down to your neck, compression white long sleeve shirt to cover tattoos, white T-shirt and white long pants. Hasn’t spoken a word to me. So weird!!! It’s hot out too. Creepy!

whirlerz
07-15-2022, 11:44 AM
Whirl : That toad is awesome ! I hope he stays around your place !

TY! He does seem to like it here.. :)

Here's today's snap of him! 57485

whirlerz
07-15-2022, 11:48 AM
My Uber driver looks like one of those guys that you’d see on a Vice episode disclosing secrets of drug dealing. He has a hat on, big glasses where you can’t see his eyes, one of those long masks that cover down to your neck, compression white long sleeve shirt to cover tattoos, white T-shirt and white long pants. Hasn’t spoken a word to me. So weird!!! It’s hot out too. Creepy!

Ooh, too weird!

Yipes, I rarely deal with those guys..
Hope you have something w/you, I keep in my car a mini hair spray, (instead of pepper spray)

whirlerz
07-15-2022, 12:46 PM
Well, I shopped on Urban Outfitters today..
Bought a air cleaner, a pr of black rope sandals, some fancy eyebrow stuff, & a cute halter top. Bc 75.00 order= free shipping
They've Juucy Couture on there too! Some reviews said it was crap quality.

Update : 1 pr rubber leggings, THAT'S IT, NOW! :(
30., tho gd price. :)

Marina Starr
07-15-2022, 01:18 PM
It's been my experience that the nicer and kinder I try to be to those who aren't, the harder and meaner they come at me. The reason I'm trying a new way to be is because I'm in therapy.

It seems I'm treated so much better when I'm being a cunt. I guess I'll find a balance in being a cunt and a saint.
This is proof that many people don't like niceness or kindness. When you give an inch, they'll take a mile and take advantage of you.

Aurora_Sunset
07-15-2022, 01:51 PM
I'm so used to not paying shipping that I ordered something off a site other than Amazon today and physically recoiled when I saw the cheapest shipping option for a $10 item. It almost doubled what I was paying. Ugh

AChildOfBoredom
07-15-2022, 02:15 PM
The Amish girl learned how to use connections. She pulled some strings to help the new girl get a job with her at the airport and ensure they were on the same shift so they could carpool there together.

JGB2009
07-16-2022, 04:27 AM
Most nights I am ready to go to sleep at 9pm. I miss staying up late. On a side note someone text me at 2am. I have no idea who it was so I am not even gonna reply back.

whirlerz
07-16-2022, 05:43 AM
Ugh, people are PIGSS..
Short walk, 4 water bottles thrown on ground.

WendiStarr
07-16-2022, 10:13 AM
I think I've said this here before but I'll say it again. I wish I could win the lottery. I'd buy a mansion and turn it to a safe place for abused women to stay. Living in a hotel with my 3 kids is bad enough. The shelters are full and the more kids you have, the harder it is to get any dv shelter to have room for you. There was a woman here last night, 9 months pregnant with 5 kids who said she and her kids had been living in her car to escape her abusive husband. She left today and I don't know where she went but I hope she is safe.

whirlerz
07-16-2022, 10:23 AM
I Love you, Wendi! ^

Marina Starr
07-16-2022, 12:05 PM
I love being a Starbucks Hoe. I love Starbucks and their wonderful baristas but there are a few that need to be reminded that their job is not to only serve coffee.
They are paid to be nice and friendly to customers.

They make the moment right real quick when I started schooling them on what Starbucks policy and core values are.
Love the look on their faces that says 'oh shit, this is really THE undisputed Starbucks Hoe', lmao.

chanzep
07-16-2022, 01:34 PM
Wendi I hope you are given suitable housing soon. You are very brave. I agree there needs to be more support for women being abused.

WendiStarr
07-16-2022, 04:37 PM
I wonder if there's a spiritual significance to dragonflies landing on your hand? 2nd day in a row that I've been outside with the kids and a dragonfly randomly appeared and landed on my hand.

carmen_b
07-17-2022, 07:27 AM
My AirBnB is sitting open for three days.
J invites someone to stay here tonight ( at our home ).
Um... before doing that ASK me for fucks sakes.
I’m shoving the keys at them. :)

LoveyD
07-17-2022, 07:39 AM
I think I've said this here before but I'll say it again. I wish I could win the lottery. I'd buy a mansion and turn it to a safe place for abused women to stay. Living in a hotel with my 3 kids is bad enough. The shelters are full and the more kids you have, the harder it is to get any dv shelter to have room for you. There was a woman here last night, 9 months pregnant with 5 kids who said she and her kids had been living in her car to escape her abusive husband. She left today and I don't know where she went but I hope she is safe.

I think it's a great idea. When I'm a rich lady I want to donate to the safe parking program in my city. So many women with kids and pets wind up in the lot I'm staying in. I like the mansion idea. A luxurious place to escape!

AChildOfBoredom
07-17-2022, 11:51 AM
Hotel or apartment building would be more practical. Problem with mansions is that they tend to be in the vicinity of other mansions, and people who own mansions are some of the biggest NIMBY motherfuckers out there. Plus I’m sure zoning comes into play.

The emotional labor is huge. Even just with the people I’ve taken into my home… the girl who’d been living in a storage unit and ended up joining the Navy, the one who ended up moving into a place with my friend from the community, S, and the new girl… it’s been a lot. Worth it - don’t get me wrong - but in the case of the new girl, it was especially emotionally draining, as I tried to get approved to foster her before she turned 18, went through that whole process, and was denied. Even if I hadn’t been, that group care center was a dreary place, and the others… just seeing the changes in her once she was out of that place, how vibrant she is now vs. how she somber she always was then. They’re provided with basic needs, but there’s no question the system absolutely doesn’t give a fuck about them. It’s rough especially thinking about the others who I couldn’t do this for.

It’s been a wild weekend. Friday, I spent most of the day atop a 130 ft. repeater tower, then went to a party that night which was very, very uncomfortable for me… I wasn’t worried about anything happening to me, it just was a bit of an awkward and uneasy setting for me. Then played a show Saturday night, which K decided to attend and figured she’d get right by the stage. She’s not one who attends metal shows, and she was completely caught off guard because those crowds get wild.

whirlerz
07-17-2022, 01:23 PM
I want to do that too, be supportive of women /kids that way, hell I'm used to all kinds of stuff going on where I now live..

We're not exactly treasured by neighbors, but, as long as we're quiet (& we are) it's been good.

Except the the lawn mowing, that's so far been kept up.

whirlerz
07-17-2022, 01:27 PM
I wonder if there's a spiritual significance to dragonflies landing on your hand? 2nd day in a row that I've been outside with the kids and a dragonfly randomly appeared and landed on my hand.

It means it's all gonna be all right, darling! ^
I get a fair amount of em too, I try to take their pic.

Lots of baby bunnies around now, so tiny.

Marina Starr
07-17-2022, 03:51 PM
https://i.ibb.co/QQCgmmL/white4.jpg (https://ibb.co/4tYqNNz)

lilylilylily
07-17-2022, 07:33 PM
I haven't blocked my ex because I like it when he texts every few months or so without identifying himself thinking I'm gonna know it's him.. I do know it's him lol.. usually I say who is this or just a ?. Then he says who he is, and I give him such an indifferent response.I'm like, "oh ok hello". He didn't respond to that lol guess he thought I'd be happy to hear from him this time

lilylilylily
07-17-2022, 07:39 PM
My mother has always done this to me..no wonder I'm so self conscious when I go out. QUOTE=Marina Starr;3293216]https://i.ibb.co/QQCgmmL/white4.jpg (https://ibb.co/4tYqNNz)[/QUOTE]

carmen_b
07-17-2022, 07:49 PM
I do really love my partner. There is also this side of me thought that just kind of knows if it goes bust for some reason I am NOT waiting on the travel thing. I've got a bit saved. Basically ..... it would be immediate.

Now that I think about it I wish SO MUCH that I would have just left my ex after he declined to travel with me in 2017.
I sort of white knuckle held onto the relationship even though I just could NOT see his logic on that subject for the life of me.
Ugh ..... I am just *feeling* the travel bug and the regret. Had I KNOWN my partnership wouldn't last ( he ended it in summer 2018 ) then I would have hit the road in 2017 without him, duh.

DAMN IT. I'm kind of feeling the call of the road. I wish I could just magically take J with me !
Did you see the news that the Euro now matches the dollar ! Europe is on sale omg !!

Aurora_Sunset
07-18-2022, 03:03 AM
I haven't blocked my ex because I like it when he texts every few months or so without identifying himself thinking I'm gonna know it's him.. I do know it's him lol.. usually I say who is this or just a ?. Then he says who he is, and I give him such an indifferent response.I'm like, "oh ok hello". He didn't respond to that lol guess he thought I'd be happy to hear from him this time

This made me cackle. Love it.

Marina Starr
07-18-2022, 05:01 AM
I feel for you. Growing up my mother was very critical and emotionally abusive. That can really affects us so much into adulthood. Children start out as loving their bodies. I’ve never heard a young child saying ‘my thighs are so big’ or ‘I’m too fat’. They’re happy to have a body until they’re judge and put down.

I used to be very conscious with my body but sex work changed that in positive ways. I now love my body flaws and all. There’s no such thing as a bad body because there are many kinds of men and different men like different body.

I don’t let anyone shame my body. I give it right back if they dare try, lol!


My mother has always done this to me..no wonder I'm so self conscious when I go out. QUOTE=Marina Starr;3293216https://i.ibb.co/QQCgmmL/white4.jpg (https://ibb.co/4tYqNNz)

Marina Starr
07-18-2022, 05:22 AM
So the new Starbucks that I’m started going to because I wanted to rotate between my old one. That started out as friendly then become unfriendly. It then became selective and individualized so I wrote the manager to remind her of Starbucks policy and core values.

Bullshit almost always start with management. I wrote her that the niceness and good treatment is required for all Starbucks customers and it’s important that it’s promoted and maintained and given them an opportunity to improve. If I experience no changes then I’ll escalate it to district manager and will keep squeaking the wheel til I get the grease.

The pass two days they have been friendly and much better. Even go as far as getting all my usual shit as I’m walking from my car into the store. I appreciate that but I’m not expecting all of that.

I’m just saying ‘be nice, be friendly!’ I have no problem being more assertive and a complete bitch!

lilylilylily
07-18-2022, 11:17 AM
Oh gawd my ex texted back asking me how life is treating me, I told him my grandmother passed away last month..he wrote back that he went on a nice vacation and sorry about your grandfather. I wrote back thx, my grandfather died in 1997 😂😂 what an idiot..he wrote back, my bad,I meant grandmother..yep I set my self up to be annoyed by not blocking him

Dreamqueen
07-18-2022, 11:38 AM
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What renting is like in San Diego theses days.
Long lines to see apts and a converted shopping cart?
Oh, boy.:O

carmen_b
07-18-2022, 12:02 PM
^ Depart for country life !

Overpriced living can suck my dick .

Also admittedly I get a little bored sometimes not living in a bigger city, ha.

Marina Starr
07-18-2022, 01:08 PM
I love Starbucks and will continue to go every morning but I'm always so sleepy around 9pm and I don't like that. They're closed at that time, lol so I wanted to brew some at home.

Coffee makers are cheap. I'll get one and some Starbucks already grind coffee beans.

I always wanted to ask Baristas what do they find most tacky? People that consistently bring their coffee to Starbucks taking up seats and tables or those that come in asking for refills even when they're not qualified?

Let me say this, if you are a regular Starbucks Hoe, there's no problem with asking for refills even if you left and come back as long as you're not abusing it.
I do it sometimes but I'm such a good regular that I can get away with it. I get away with so much stunts at Starbucks, lmao.

carmen_b
07-18-2022, 01:46 PM
After not having time with just my partner for one million years ( ok it was actually 11 days )......... we finally have a date night for just us TONIGHT !!

kimbe
07-19-2022, 12:12 AM
^ I'd say that's about time after 11 days... :thumbsup:

Dreamqueen
07-19-2022, 12:52 AM
^ Depart for country life !

Overpriced living can suck my dick .

Also admittedly I get a little bored sometimes not living in a bigger city, ha.

Ikr? The nerve of those greedy landlords.
I saw this same scenario play out in 2008, and back in the late 80's.
I'm going to sit back and watch these landlords crash and burn.

I'm stacking so I can do what I did during the last 2 recessions. Sweep in and get a high end apt for 1/4th of the price that they are currently wanting for them.
And that converted shopping cart?
No words.
Despicable.

carmen_b
07-19-2022, 07:30 AM
He used a lot of that time to talk shit about his weird family ( it always throws us off when they are here haha ).
Oh well . His Dad is just getting weirder but I am seeing HUGE depression signs.
I told J to talk to his family about getting his mental health evaluated.
He is doing the standard depression stuff ( hiding out in his house and not having a life ).
Since I have been stuck IN it myself I wanted to explain to J how important it is to have help getting out .

So we are out eating and I don't think he asked me a single questions about my day , if I looked forward to the weekend, ect. !
^ That said ( with J being distracted and not being the *best* date ) it was still nice to have some time to ourselves.


After not having time with just my partner for one million years ( ok it was actually 11 days )......... we finally have a date night for just us TONIGHT !!