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carmen_b
08-02-2022, 07:49 PM
I interview for a job that is a STEP UP on Thursday. :)
SnuffleUffleGrass
08-03-2022, 06:12 AM
This morning I was thinking of a really weird guy I befriended when I was in my early 20s. I'm glad enough time has passed that I can appreciate how he helped me at the time.
Also thinking of a much better friend today. Sigh.
kimbe
08-04-2022, 06:19 AM
It feels fine for once not to be the one spending longest time in the bathroom..
SnuffleUffleGrass
08-04-2022, 09:16 AM
I shoulda bought more spices at Costco. Grrr
smeca
08-04-2022, 09:59 AM
Bf is watching No Time To Die at home today. I've popped in and out of the room a few times but omg Daniel Craig acts the fuck out of it. Every scene I glimpse he is saying SO MUCH with just an expression. Also I never really warmed to madeleine particularly but this one is too emotional for me. He gets me with every pained look
carmen_b
08-04-2022, 01:00 PM
PLEASE DON'T QUOTE
LONG " trying to move ahead at work " post ahead ......
^ Im interviewing soon for another position.
It is just transferring some of my skills to the Tech area and developing software and apps instead ( I currently manage a retail product / service ). I'm really excited. This is the " idea bubble " that J and I had started to chat about 6 months ago. He had noticed what I was doing and told me he thought the skills I had could have some transferability with larger scale Tech projects. He mentioned what a step up it could be and the idea was planted.
I had been asking him about how to launch in the field quite a bit over the last 2-3 months.
He knew my interest was there.
He wasn't being insulting like " hun you don't make enough $ " haha.
Basically it was HIM who gave me the idea to get some more training and try to " jump up " .
:)
I have learned TWO project management software platforms in the meantime.
J and I ( he is a software engineer ) talk back and forth on these programs about ideas / things to work on ect. so I can have fluency in them.
We also may be faking a project ( an app ) to talk about being in the " initial phases " with.
I will run through the interview and see how I do.
lilylilylily
08-04-2022, 01:23 PM
I've been bike riding a lot to this beautiful nature park with a lake lately. I used to hang out there sometimes with an old friend when we were in highschool and nothings changed. It also makes me miss her. Been through a lot with her lol
AChildOfBoredom
08-04-2022, 02:37 PM
The kid got Employee of the Quarter and got promoted to FT2C. He’s worked hard and come a long way. Not to toot my own horn, but I think I get some credit for that also.
Aurora_Sunset
08-05-2022, 11:02 AM
Truly random, but every year on this date, a "Facebook memory" pops up of me saying how excited I am and JUST CAN'T WAIT for the Alice in Wonderland movie with Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter, because I had just seen the trailer.
That movie is now 12 years old, and I've never seen it lol
Aurora_Sunset
08-05-2022, 12:14 PM
I have the option next week of either driving myself halfway to my relatives' vacation house on Thursday, leaving my car at someone's house and getting picked up by my parents for the rest of the drive, but then not getting home until they leave on Wednesday - or I can wait until Friday afternoon to drive down together with my husband, but we'd have to leave on Monday. I was hoping to split the difference and leave Friday morning and return Tuesday, but neither of these other options is super appealing. I don't want to cut the vacation super short, but I don't want to sacrifice that much work or stay that long either. My husband truly doesn't seem to care if I drive with him or not, or stay longer without him, so that doesn't factor in. Hmm
carmen_b
08-05-2022, 12:35 PM
^ I would take my own car but I have a touch of OCD .
I need to *know* I can get away from everyone and go grab a coffee or break off and do my own thing a couple hours on shared trips.
Genoveve
08-05-2022, 12:50 PM
Truly random, but every year on this date, a "Facebook memory" pops up of me saying how excited I am and JUST CAN'T WAIT for the Alice in Wonderland movie with Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter, because I had just seen the trailer.
That movie is now 12 years old, and I've never seen it lol
I have been meaning to see Disney's the Princess and the Frog since '09 lol.
WendiStarr
08-05-2022, 06:26 PM
Sometimes I think back to childhood years, only the good memories, and wish that life could be that simple again.
AChildOfBoredom
08-05-2022, 09:24 PM
Did a live show with K tonight. My sister’s face turned SO fucking red when she realized the song “Potato Cats” was making fun of her. The kid thought it was hilarious. I enjoy making and performing music too much to even think of going back to stripping.
kimbe
08-06-2022, 12:52 AM
I should be at sleep now..
Marina Starr
08-06-2022, 07:15 AM
Not feeling like cooking today so debating if I should get McDonald’s quarter cheese burger and 20 nuggets or chick fil a delicious and homophobic chicken sandwich.
carmen_b
08-06-2022, 11:05 AM
2nd round interview is next week !
Marina Starr
08-06-2022, 01:44 PM
This shirt though... it triggers so much, lmfao!
https://i.ibb.co/bdZmXfx/Screenshot-2022-08-06-4-41-33-PM.png (https://imgbb.com/)
lynn2009
08-06-2022, 03:52 PM
I wish I knew how to find a sugar daddy for real. But not one who is all needy and clingy and thinks I actually need to be treated like a baby.
indiegirl
08-06-2022, 07:52 PM
I've been whined at by my dog for the past hour. Mister needy dog wants extra attention today. Gahhh!
JGB2009
08-07-2022, 09:59 AM
The other night I felt like I was gonna suffocate when I was snuggling with you. I wondering if I am turning into a non snuggling type of person. I hope not but then again I love laying in the bed by myself.
lilylilylily
08-07-2022, 12:41 PM
I love cutting and coloring my own hair. I died it a dark honey blonde last night instead of my usual ashy toned blonde and it makes my eyes stand out more and I layered it by following an easy YouTube video..my hair is easy because i don't have much, it's always been thin. I'll never step foot in a hair salon again
indiegirl
08-07-2022, 05:41 PM
I'm cranky and don't want to study. *SIGH* I've given myself the deadline to start studying at 8:30pm. I've already taken this course anyways *eyeroll*...I'm gonna just suck it up and get it over with.
chanzep
08-07-2022, 08:38 PM
I'm going to decorate for Fall. Sick of summer .
carmen_b
08-08-2022, 08:10 AM
I did SUCH a binge of job applications thinking that my business was just NEVER going to get busy enough again to keep me happy.
Then of course it's been consistently busy at the same time ( the last 6-8 weeks ) . :/
I have another interview today. I'll prep for it and take it seriously but I think if I don't get either of these that I'm interviewing for this week ..... I want to pull back and have my " regular life " another couple of months. I don't think I estimated the energy output of doing this process correctly. So now I've worked my gig AND had this extra project. I think it will be worth it IF I get something even part time in the Tech world ( the pay is so good ) . I'm at a phase today where I'm ready to pull back in effort though . I need to remind myself to hang in and that EVERY interview gives me valuable practice and information anyway.
This interview is on video which feels so intrusive but straight to video probably is actually a good idea from their side.
carmen_b
08-08-2022, 10:25 AM
^ I'm starting to see how good I have it *when* my business is busy enough.
I'm remote 80-90% of the time and only have to show up to work ( and get ready for that whole process ) 2-3 days per month.
I'm just not sure if I'm ready for the process of getting video ready *most* days.
I could be tempted by a GOOD offer.
I OFTEN feel like it's a good idea to grow up and not be afraid of the " bigger " projects but part of me doesn't feel *quite* ready yet .
I think I'm just in a super jealous phase of my partners Tech paycheck and I want my own.
I work less than I used to because of changes in my rental property and the changes of having a partner pay for everything house related haha. I can't just enjoy the fewer hours thing I guess. I feel like I have a compulsion to continue poking around for "what's next ". In a way I kind of feel stupid I didn't just focus on ENJOYING the summer . I had to pick at projects ect. and currently have not received a dime ( yet ) ! I think I'm about ready to call of the "Search" process and re-group on this idea in 2 months or so.
I might take some of this down ! Now I'm embarrassed because I thought was ready for this big change and it gets " close " ...... then I'm not sure !
AChildOfBoredom
08-08-2022, 12:48 PM
One of K’s friends was playing Saturday night at a brewery where K knew the owners, so L and the Irish woman came with us and we did that. It was pretty neat.… I can’t comment on their beer because I don’t drink beer, but they had a high emphasis on hiring people with disabilities for their staff, so one staff member who was mute, she was just tickled pink that I’m fluent in ASL, and we were able to communicate that way, rather than her being spoken to and then having to write down anything she needs to say back.
They had a bunch of mac and cheese plates on the menu, so we each ordered a different one so we could try each other’s. New girl was kinda upset she wasn’t there, but she was at work when we left, so I’ll have to take her there.
In other news, the band where I subbed in for their vocalist when he was out with the Rona, they all came from bigger name bands then what I’m accustomed to. Not huge rock stars or anything, but they’re signed to an international label and they have a worldwide audience, and now that the album has been released, I’ve been getting a lot of attention, and I wish I’d thought of this before agreeing to do that album. I don’t really want to be any sort of big name. And there’ve been requests for interviews. I’ll do interviews, but not about me… I’ve always insisted the rest of the band be present and that the interview be about releases, live shows, etc. Especially regarding this band, as I’m not a member. And I’m a lot less open about what my story is there then I have been on here… and I don’t really want to tell my story to then, especially as I feel it would be seen as a gimmick. So I’ve been declining interviews, and instead of just taking no for an answer, they’re badgering the rest of that band, and I think those guys are getting annoyed.
Marina Starr
08-08-2022, 01:07 PM
Olivia New John just passed away at 73.
https://i.ibb.co/CKkF0b0/Olivia-Newton-John-2018-billboard-1548.webp (https://ibb.co/v478z3z)
carmen_b
08-08-2022, 02:46 PM
I need to schedule self care and just feel so damn lost. lol
What to DO ? Massage ? Pedi ?
lynn2009
08-08-2022, 03:21 PM
I need to schedule self care and just feel so damn lost. lol
What to DO ? Massage ? Pedi ?
Both! I also got my first professional facial during my week off work and it was nice, I think I will start doing them regularly.
carmen_b
08-08-2022, 03:43 PM
^ I think I'll agree with you !
I feel so tired and run down ha. At least one but probably BOTH would be good to schedule.
chanzep
08-08-2022, 09:04 PM
Tonight's my Friday plus I have taken some of my PTO. I'm not sure about my future with this company so might as Well use. My period came today so tomorrow I will not do much. I'm glad I have some time to get some stuff done not feeling stressed going back to work.
WendiStarr
08-10-2022, 03:53 AM
I absolutely believe that someone spiritual presence was there at the hospital with me when I was transferred from the ER to a room. The door to my room kept opening and closing on its own. Even the nurse and the 2 nurse aides noticed it. When the patient transporter came to get me for surgery even he got freaked out on e the door opened when he was outside it and he realized that no person had opened the door because the nurse was standing over by my bed near the window. No one else was in the room. The door closed behind him when he brought the wheeled bed over to my bed. He was like,"Oh my god. That's freaky! Did that door open and close on its own?" The nurse and I told him that it had been doing that all morning. As I was being wheeled in to the OR, there was a man standing in the hallway, near the door to it. I figured it was probably the surgeon or something but when I looked again, he had disappeared seemingly into thin air. When I was brought to my room again, there was a chair sitting by my bed. I was on restrictions after surgery and told not to leave my bed without calling the nurse and the nurse asked me if I had moved that chair and told me that I should've called her before getting out of the bed alone. I hadn't. I hadn't left my bed at all on my own because I was still dizzy and drugged up feeling from the anesthesia . That was all bizarre and then my mom showed up.
whirlerz
08-10-2022, 07:05 AM
Hi Wendi!
Yes, I've had many spiritual things happening, I was praying hard & thinking of you..
That man that disappeared was angel darling
Once I was climbing a tall flight of stairs, (which I'm afraid of, I previously had a stroke & almost fell, luckily a girl saved me from far, that was spiritual too)
Anyway, climbing those stairs, my foot slipped, I got so scared, I was high up, & I swear something lifted my foot up & put it on the stair, there was no one around me.
Anyway, I'm so glad you came through everything, it will only get better honey!
Huggies
chanzep
08-10-2022, 08:43 PM
You probably have a spirit watching over you. They are making sure you get through these hard times.
Dreamqueen
08-11-2022, 02:07 AM
Definitely a guardian angel @Wendi Starr :meditate:
JGB2009
08-11-2022, 04:42 AM
I love waking up to everything clean.
indiegirl
08-11-2022, 06:29 AM
I love waking up to everything clean.
AMEN! It's the best feeling ever!
Random thought: I want to get car tint on my car because of the sleek look and to avoid creeps or predator-like men looking in my car at me but I heard it is hard to see car lights at night :(. I wish there was an option of test-driving a tinted vehicle before making the choice?
AChildOfBoredom
08-11-2022, 02:59 PM
After a text conversation with one of the co-owners of the brewery I went to the night after my show with K, I feel kinda flattered and kinda not at the same time. The show I did with K was supposed to be a one off thing, but he and the woman he co-owns the brewery with want us to do shows at their place.
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I think “coming unhinged” is a bit unfair… I’m in a grindcore band, and that’s just the kind of energy you get at those shows. It’s gritty, it’s violent… we’re not playing for people who come to see Mumford & Sons. That’s more K’s thing.
carmen_b
08-11-2022, 06:00 PM
Tell me your thoughts :
I need to talk to him about some of these travel ideas.
I am considering reducing my Montana trip to 16-21 or so instead.
I was planning roughly Aug. 14-21.
:/
There were some reasons I was departing the 14th. I can land 2 hours south of the AirBnB my family is staying at and someone in a car will be RIGHT THERE at that time moving North already . I wouldn't feel right asking them to back track on the 16th so I'd have to take a bus for 2-3 hours haha.
THE REASON I'm considering this is that my partner traveled solo 5 days Aug. 4-8 and then we have had his child here Aug. 9-11 , and we only have two days to ourselves ( 12th and 13th ) until my trip. I hope we can keep our shit together lol ! We are not used to being this restricted for time. We are both feeling a little agitated.
I'm *leaning* towards just leaving it alone. Maybe I'll consider a change if he wants to do the leg work and most of the expenses for the change. I think we might just need to make the best of these very limited two days we have.
EDIT : I looked and it's only $60 more for me to fly out the 16th. BUT then someone isn't easily picking me up SO he would have to get me a direct shuttle or something to consider doing this. I don't want to take a bus lol !
I'm feeling a lot of stress about this but we both planned solo trips during Aug. :/
I should probably just leave it alone. It was just bad planning I guess to each do different solo trips within one month.
LoveyD
08-11-2022, 10:15 PM
@Wendi yes, spirits from the higher realms may give you signs that everything is okay. It was saying hello and protecting you.
I think I am on the verge of getting a really good gig that could change my life. Please think good thoughts.
JGB2009
08-12-2022, 04:45 AM
One of my favorite things to do is take a nap when nobody is home.
indiegirl
08-12-2022, 08:26 AM
I'm thinking of upping my rate again. I was told by a few customers I need to raise them and one yesterday said "To be honest, I was not expecting you to show up. You do not realize how many women use filters on their photos. You should be charging 700-800." I still got it ya'll at 33!
I guess the site changing the rates to 350 for no reason has me contemplating raising mine lol.
carmen_b
08-12-2022, 09:51 AM
Indie : That price increase ( even the contemplation of bumping it to that ) is impressive !
carmen_b
08-12-2022, 10:02 AM
Whew. I am having some mental health STRUGGLES !
This whole restricted for time thing with my partner got me I think .
We survived the kid is here three days , then he traveled for 5 , then his kid was here for 3 thing !
That entire 11 days I should have been somewhere else ! Ha.
I am doing the work outs, doing the self care, and doing the therapy !
The time adds up but I'm pushing for improvement !
smeca
08-12-2022, 11:09 AM
I get so much damn stuff done in a day. Wine for me
indiegirl
08-12-2022, 11:43 AM
Indie : That price increase ( even the contemplation of bumping it to that ) is impressive !
I've kept mine at a stable 500 for 2 years now. But hmm I'm thinking 600 :)?
carmen_b
08-12-2022, 11:56 AM
^ Everything has gone up really .
I raised prices very slightly in my vanilla business.
I’ll probably do another small bump in 1-2 months.
WendiStarr
08-12-2022, 12:42 PM
I have been grieving hard. I probably need to hide my credit card because I have wasted money on a psychic reading that only 2 things made sense to me. I contacted a different one who claims to be able to communicate with spirit babies. I'm waiting to see what she's going to say. I need to not spend any more money on this. It just sucks. I've had so many miscarriages but this is the hardest one I've had to go through because I knew the gender, he had a name, I was further along than the others, and I had to have surgery to remove instead of coming out on their own as the others did.
miss.a.p1600
08-12-2022, 01:02 PM
Whew. I am having some mental health STRUGGLES !
This whole restricted for time thing with my partner got me I think .
We survived the kid is here three days , then he traveled for 5 , then his kid was here for 3 thing !
That entire 11 days I should have been somewhere else ! Ha.
I am doing the work outs, doing the self care, and doing the therapy !
The time adds up but I'm pushing for improvement !
I feel ya on the mental health.
Felt depressed af for multiple reasons. Those kids and their mom forcing more time/resources, my partners codependency/lose boundaries/sloppy schedule, my career suffering as a result of his nonstop nasty pushiness, having to rush and try to find a second job to get away from it all and secure a better move on out of here if this doesnÂ’t work.