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indiegirl
08-12-2022, 01:22 PM
I have been grieving hard. I probably need to hide my credit card because I have wasted money on a psychic reading that only 2 things made sense to me. I contacted a different one who claims to be able to communicate with spirit babies. I'm waiting to see what she's going to say. I need to not spend any more money on this. It just sucks. I've had so many miscarriages but this is the hardest one I've had to go through because I knew the gender, he had a name, I was further along than the others, and I had to have surgery to remove instead of coming out on their own as the others did.
I can’t even imagine. I have heard from someone who does regressive hypnotherapy that the aborted soul was too much power/energy for that soul in your womb to handle. And sometimes it takes extra time for another soul to acclimate to this world on this energy level. I agree with whoever said to not get your tubes tied if you want a son. See what happens. :)
whirlerz
08-12-2022, 03:30 PM
I'm so sorry Wendi my love, hugs to you
WendiStarr
08-12-2022, 05:58 PM
So, interesting..the psychic said that my spirit baby told her that it wasn't my fault that he left and not to blame myself because there's nothing I could've done to stop what happened. He's supposed to come back to me in Spring of next year. That is allegedly supposed to be a safe and successful pregnancy and birth. I don't know how accurate these readings are because I've never heard of such a thing before today. I haven't cried anymore today since hearing that.
LoveyD
08-12-2022, 06:13 PM
^^DMed you, girl. I got the same "he'll come back" feeling. When you're on the other side you can see and experience everything your loved ones on earth feel. I think he saw that later would be a better time and not to worry. I think he thinks he will get more attention if he waits lol "It's too crowded now Mom." He may be waiting for a different father too.
Don't blame yourself at all, girl. This is not your fault. Take it one day at a time.
Marina Starr
08-13-2022, 12:42 PM
There's a fine line between common sense and stupidity. I swear the stupid is strong in a lot of people in this country.
Dreamqueen
08-13-2022, 01:01 PM
There's a fine line between common sense and stupidity. I swear the stupid is strong in a lot of people in this country.
So true.
Have you ever watched those 'man on the street ' type videos on YouTube?
I'm talking about the ones where the host asks random people questions like, "Who is the vice President?"
"What country is Utah in?", etc
It's sad.
smeca
08-13-2022, 01:38 PM
There be some buff 60 year old men out at the beach 0.0
carmen_b
08-13-2022, 02:17 PM
I didn't get either Tech job I interviewed for but I consider it a positive I was at least getting to the interview stage instead of just resume pushed aside !
I am feeling a little better and more settled.
I'm ready to go back to my working 30 hours a week life and not complain lol !
I might pick up this project in 2-3 months again but I'm easing off it for now.
I felt kind of terrified when I was considering this BIG change. It's not off the table but it's not at the front right now.
Marina Starr
08-13-2022, 02:50 PM
I am a Trans woman and wholeheartedly approve and cosign this. A MUST watch.
https://youtu.be/y_-FtyKZVQo
LoveyD
08-13-2022, 03:45 PM
I'm hoping to get hired for this gig I interviewed for. Hopefully I'll get a happy phone call this week.
Selina M
08-13-2022, 07:21 PM
Do any of us even still go in Dollar Den, or is everyone like me and avoids it because it’s ALWAYS just two blues arguing with long walls of text?
AChildOfBoredom
08-13-2022, 10:19 PM
New girl never had her ears pierced, but wanted it done, so none of this mall kiosk shit - I took her to a pro. But she got really scared when it was time to sit on the chair. I already have two lobule and one helix piercing in each ear, so I ended up getting the antihelix in each ear pierced to show her it’s not so bad. Won’t my mother be thrilled, as she’s already had plenty to say about what I’ve already had.
carmen_b
08-14-2022, 09:23 AM
Flying to Montana was absurdly expensive.
I threw down to make it easier than driving.
No regrets ha.
There will be other opportunities to be trapped in a car for 14-15 hours.
I did that each way two years ago and swore “ never again “.
Dreamqueen
08-14-2022, 12:22 PM
I did a search on a hair colorist that I used 20 years ago to see if she was still around.
When I typed in her name, the first thing that came up was a PPE loan she took out during Covid.
It said the amount, etc.
Then when I looked at the address of the salon, it said that it was permanently closed.
I didn't know that info (the loan), was so easily accessible.
Hmm.:thinking:
SnuffleUffleGrass
08-14-2022, 01:49 PM
I should have bought wine today but my boyfriend was being weird while we were out so it didn't happen. I could really go for some Merlot.
lilylilylily
08-14-2022, 03:32 PM
I woke up feeling dizzy, room was spinning and a bit nauseous..I hope it's just pms, period is due this week. Last time I felt like this was back in December ugh, I went out to get some sunlight, hope that helps
Marina Starr
08-14-2022, 05:38 PM
I woke up feeling dizzy, room was spinning and a bit nauseous..I hope it's just pms, period is due this week. Last time I felt like this was back in December ugh, I went out to get some sunlight, hope that helps
I hope you feel better. I was at Publix deli today and thought of you. I debated going to my car and call the manager as you would because I was the only one at deli and got ignored.
I was standing right in front of them and they avoided eye contact, acting like I was invisible. So I asked 'is everyone off today?'. Funny how quickly they offered to help, lmao.
I also want to say this, if you're a service worker, especially in sales, you work for the public. That means you work for every customer that spends money because if people stop spending then you wouldn't have a job.
Let's break that down: Publix Super Market would have to close if they're not making money. If they have to close then all employees wouldn't have a job.
lilylilylily
08-14-2022, 06:02 PM
Thanks Marina! Feeling a bit better, took a long bike ride and headed to the grocery store.. Glad you spoke up and woke them up..I think of you too when I go to the grocery store and I'm more on my guard now so funny enough customer service has been better towards me lately. Like you I now use my cart as a shield for those damn customers who act like I'm invisible and want to walk into me lol Also, I usually go when its off peak hours so less customers but it never fails, I'll walk into an empty aisle, I'll go to look at something and 10 seconds later, here comes a customer standing shoulder to shoulder with me, needs to look at the same thing. Usually I turn and give them a dirty look and a big sigh and I walk away. I can't stand people always needing to get close to me in an otherwise empty aisle. It's like they are oblivious, I'm not even sure.
indiegirl
08-14-2022, 06:28 PM
Gahh I found two of the most perfect roommates but both of them have a pet. One works in aerospace with a dog I would love to cuddle with lol. It's too bad one of my dogs is problematic and causes dog fights. He behaves like he's 2 years old minus the fact he turns 13 in two months bahaha.
Update: New roomie interview commences this Friday. I'm having my mom help do the interview to ensure we get a very nice tenant this time :D! Wahoo!
WendiStarr
08-15-2022, 07:06 AM
I started composing a text today and before I could type anything, my phone started freaking out, auto putting my deceased son's name over and over again. Today is the 1 week anniversary.
Dreamqueen
08-15-2022, 12:49 PM
There's a fine line between common sense and stupidity. I swear the stupid is strong in a lot of people in this country.
https://youtu.be/Ufmcubp2szg
This is the video ( one of many) that I was referring to.
Sad.
Marina Starr
08-15-2022, 01:14 PM
They look to be Gen Z, age 10-25. I don't do well with a lot of gen z.
https://youtu.be/Ufmcubp2szg
This is the video ( one of many) that I was referring to.
Sad.
indiegirl
08-15-2022, 01:36 PM
I hate how slow time moves when it is something I don't want to do.
buttonpop
08-15-2022, 02:15 PM
I'm so sad that The Wilds was cancelled. I tried watching Yellowjackets but it was too campy for my taste. But I just started watching Mosquito Coast and I think it'll satisfy the hole left in my life after Ozark ended. rip.
buttonpop
08-15-2022, 02:24 PM
I started composing a text today and before I could type anything, my phone started freaking out, auto putting my deceased son's name over and over again. Today is the 1 week anniversary.
It seems like you are sensitive to the other side of the veil. I'm sure it freaks you out sometimes (I still remember your post about seeing ghosts of the founding fathers at independence hall or the capitol, I can't recall exactly, but that story has haunted me ever since!) Sometimes that can be a good thing though, like the signs you've been getting about your son. He wants to say that he's still present with you. I wonder if you've ever considered channeling your abilities as a medium.
AChildOfBoredom
08-15-2022, 05:38 PM
Second week of September is going to be rough. Guy I used to be in a band with, he wants to take the trip to Virginia to see Deicide playing on the 8th. So I committed to going to that one. My own bandmates bought tickets for their show in NC on the 9th, including buying one for me.
Don’t care much for the content of their lyrics, but I like the overall energy of the band. Great way to work out some aggression, but those shows go hard. I just took the whole week off because I know I’ll be hurting for a few days after. The pits at those shows completely lack any sort of compassion
SnuffleUffleGrass
08-15-2022, 07:24 PM
Second week of September is going to be rough. Guy I used to be in a band with, he wants to take the trip to Virginia to see Deicide playing on the 8th. So I committed to going to that one. My own bandmates bought tickets for their show in NC on the 9th, including buying one for me.
Don’t care much for the content of their lyrics, but I like the overall energy of the band. Great way to work out some aggression, but those shows go hard. I just took the whole week off because I know I’ll be hurting for a few days after. The pits at those shows completely lack any sort of compassion
I'm experiencing an intense ache of envy that you get to see Deicide.
Random Thought- ginger ale
whirlerz
08-16-2022, 09:50 AM
My newest baby, the last one got eaten by the bunny outside. :((57579
whirlerz
08-16-2022, 09:53 AM
I'm so sorry for your loss, Wendi.
Dreamqueen
08-16-2022, 12:10 PM
They look to be Gen Z, age 10-25. I don't do well with a lot of gen z.
Neither do I.
Sadly most of my cam customers are 18-25. Blah:(
They're such pains in the asses. Entitled little pricks who can't carry a conversation.
If they will be running the world, (our future), let me out!
Genoveve
08-16-2022, 02:39 PM
I woke up feeling dizzy, room was spinning and a bit nauseous..I hope it's just pms, period is due this week. Last time I felt like this was back in December ugh, I went out to get some sunlight, hope that helps
You might have positional vertigo, (accidentally) sleeping with my neck in a weird position has caused me to wake up with vertigo.
TheBrownFox
08-16-2022, 03:23 PM
I used my Redbox free rental birthday offer to rent a horror movie called...*Wait for it...*...'MEN'. :laughing: I read that it's a horror film about misogyny, and I'm gonna watch it later tonight.
whirlerz
08-16-2022, 03:54 PM
I used my Redbox free rental birthday offer to rent a horror movie called...*Wait for it...*...'MEN'. :laughing: I read that it's a horror film about misogyny, and I'm gonna watch it later tonight.
Wow, sounds interesting!
Btw, happy belated birthday!!!!
chanzep
08-16-2022, 06:15 PM
Happy birthday.
lilylilylily
08-16-2022, 06:45 PM
Genoveve, yes my neck and upper back has been unusually sore. I have been sleeping in weird positions lately mainly because my cat loves to snuggle against me at night and try to accommodate her by not moving too much lol. I woke up yesterday with dizziness again but thankfully not today. Thanks for mentioning that because I'd never heard of positional vertigo before
WendiStarr
08-17-2022, 06:58 AM
It seems like you are sensitive to the other side of the veil. I'm sure it freaks you out sometimes (I still remember your post about seeing ghosts of the founding fathers at independence hall or the capitol, I can't recall exactly, but that story has haunted me ever since!) Sometimes that can be a good thing though, like the signs you've been getting about your son. He wants to say that he's still present with you. I wonder if you've ever considered channeling your abilities as a medium.
Maybe some day but right now I feel like I'm too stuck in my own head with sadness to possibly help anyone.
Aurora_Sunset
08-17-2022, 09:45 AM
I'm super excited about starting an OF. I've been spending all morning researching, planning, talking to friends who want to help me out with things. I'm probably getting way ahead of myself mentally in terms of all the things I want to do with it. But see how MOTIVATED I am when it's something I'm interested in and actually feel like will produce money in tandem with my effort? That's why I enjoyed escorting and felt I was good at it. I really liked treating sex work as a business. I haven't even created anything yet and I'm already feeling happier and hopeful.
Dreamqueen
08-17-2022, 12:55 PM
I started taking Testosterone again yesterday, because I'm so tired and lethargic when I'm off of it.
TMI but I stopped taking it after I was R*ped, and haven't even felt like masturbating.
It's already working, because I had sex dreams last night, ( a threesome with 2 gay friends of mine) lol, and was able to work 2 cam shifts.
:dance:
indiegirl
08-18-2022, 05:56 AM
I whined on the phone yesterday for getting an 86% on my anatomy and physiology midterm at the new school. We didn't even get tested on any of the chapters each week, it was just a full-blown midterm!! I was expecting an A because I was up all night studying with only an hour of sleep. MEANWHILE certain people were googling all the answers and got a nice A with a full night of sleep. Pisses me the hell off now they make it so easy to cheat in these online classes BUTTTT these are the same individuals who won't be passing the CST exam which is required for them to be employed. They won't be googling in the operating room and they will have wasted all their time plus a $40k tuition when they repeatedly get kicked out of the room by the surgeon. I still have a 97%in the class though.
SnuffleUffleGrass
08-18-2022, 07:10 AM
Some Israeli guys came into my workplace yesterday and they were fucking awesome. They were HOT too.
L'chaim.
Dreamqueen
08-18-2022, 11:04 AM
Some Israeli guys came into my workplace yesterday and they were fucking awesome. They were HOT too.
L'chaim.
My weakness (one of them) is Israeli men.
They're so intense and I love their accent.
Last week I found an old phone of mine that had a photo of an Israeli guy who a 'married' Israeli friend of mine set me up with.
He just happens to be a car dealer, and with my current car situation I need help with selling/buying.
I texted my friend the photo and asked him to pass it on to his buddy.
Added my request to speak with him for car advice.
It's been a week, and I haven't heard from him.
Hmmm.
My intuition tells me that he never got the message, because my buddy has always talked about fucking me, even though I told him that I don't fuck married men.
lilylilylily
08-18-2022, 08:20 PM
I bought some kimchee sauerkraut yesterday and wow it totally cleaned me out today, I wasn't even constipated. I would tell my mother about it cause she's always constipated, but she'd rather take meds for it..I heard sauerkraut is a very good probiotic so decided to try it
LoveyD
08-20-2022, 07:11 AM
Dear Starbucks, I love you but it's 7 am and I really dont want to listen to KC and the Sunshine band while i wake up with my coffee and breakfast
indiegirl
08-20-2022, 10:33 AM
I’m beyond frustrated. The past two hotels I’ve been at the Wi-Fi internet absolutely won’t work and it’s been screwing up my appointment requests. I have to work an extra day because of how little money I have made. I even had the tech-support physically show up and they couldn’t figure out what was wrong with the Internet. As you can tell I’m not staying at a motel so this internet issue is so fucked up!
Jucie
08-20-2022, 11:31 AM
Weekend getaway with SD. Keep the money coming, I’ve got room for more ;)
carmen_b
08-20-2022, 11:46 AM
I’m approaching butte Montana and I remembered this tiny strip club on the edge of town on my “ travel list “.
I think I drove by it one time and it looked like a little house !
I hate when I leave a club unscratched ha!
Maybe I’ll go as a customer later.
Tell me your recent Sagebrush Sams stories lol !
It's the ONLY Montana club I haven't worked in at some point.
carmen_b
08-20-2022, 11:48 AM
^ Indie : Your Phone as a hot spot ?
indiegirl
08-20-2022, 11:53 PM
Hot man is back!!!! He is ready for another round of LOVIN' bahaha.
Aurora_Sunset
08-23-2022, 08:06 AM
Tried using my juicer for the first time today. I went with celery juice because it's super simple, and I've seen a lot of people talk about how great it is in the morning.
All this effort for 8oz, I took one sip, and went, "Oh, I don't like that."
SnuffleUffleGrass
08-23-2022, 08:20 AM
I’m approaching butte Montana and I remembered this tiny strip club on the edge of town on my “ travel list “.
I think I drove by it one time and it looked like a little house !
I hate when I leave a club unscratched ha!
Maybe I’ll go as a customer later.
Tell me your recent Sagebrush Sams stories lol !
It's the ONLY Montana club I haven't worked in at some point.
Not a recent story, but- I was warned not to work there when I worked in Missoula.
Sam's is a dive, by all defintions.
Random- fack I want coffee