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lynn2009
05-28-2016, 07:19 PM
"[. It's stunning how naive men are in believing the idea that women's lives revolve 100% around pleasing them. Omg I can't
Not just women but strippers. The stripper doesn't really like me! Men are so whiny .
xStacey
05-29-2016, 11:02 AM
Sandwich ice cream, so good <3
charlie61
05-29-2016, 10:28 PM
I hate it when I'm in a posting mood and SW is dead. Like, we have a million members on here...why is nothing happening? Get it together betches. Entertain meh.
<3
Velveteen.Rabbit
05-30-2016, 05:52 PM
I wish I could be basic AF and only care about how hot a guy is... Like just generic guys with muscles who watch sports or whatever is stereotyped to be masculine. I wish specific characteristics didn't matter to me. Like ones the average girl would care less about. This would make my life a whole lot easier.
xStacey
05-30-2016, 07:34 PM
When it comes to networking with men in the legal field, I am never sure when they invite me out to lunch or for a drink, if they think it's a date or business. lol
kaninchen
06-01-2016, 12:45 PM
Yesterday as I was leaving my doctor's office, I walked past a man talking on the phone next to his car. His car was a Maserati. It took a lot of effort to calm my feral stripper instincts and not try to get money out of him then and there in the parking lot.
Aurora_Sunset
06-01-2016, 01:44 PM
I feel like I see penises in things way more than other people. Like, looking at clouds or signs or random shapes on things, I see dicks all the time. But whenever I laugh and point it out, other people just give me weird looks like "uh... ok? I don't really see it."
Can't tell if they're lying or if I'm just super immature. Or look at penises way too often.
Vyanka
06-03-2016, 01:37 AM
I find it odd that a girl that works at my club walked in with her dad. She introduced me to him. Was so weird. And yes, it was her dad. They look alike.
baer45
06-03-2016, 02:44 AM
Heading to UK now :)
Aurora_Sunset
06-03-2016, 08:55 AM
Any time one of my cats sneaks up behind me and I accidentally elbow them/kick them/step on them and they run away in terror with that little shocked face:
45095
JGB2009
06-03-2016, 09:27 PM
Tuesday I finally get to do the DNA test for my daughter. I probably would have still been waiting for the DNA facility to contact me for my appointment, but luckily my lawyer called and got the ball rolling.
JGB2009
06-04-2016, 12:49 AM
Working at night is lonely...no one around for a conversation :(
Aurora_Sunset
06-04-2016, 06:10 PM
I have so much class stuff to do, but I'm just gonna have a "me" night. Watch some silly movies that have been on my Netflix queue for awhile, do my nails, eat good food, and chill out.
Velveteen.Rabbit
06-04-2016, 10:54 PM
Why is every guy I've ever had a really deep emotional relationship with, a Pisces? Like, the guys who really get me. I've been dating one this year. I'm a Scorpio (of course lol) and we are supposed to be the best match in the zodiac. I don't actively seek out Pisces and in fact, I often don't even know someone's sign for a long time. But I always end up with Pisces. I believe in astrology, in many ways, but others do not. It's just so weird to me because I swear so much of it is real. I love astrology, even if just for the folklore and historic element.
It's funny because the other guy I'm dating is also a Scorpio and I see so much of myself in him lol
lynn2009
06-05-2016, 02:42 PM
you'd think at some point I would learn how to plan for coffee withdraw migraines and plan accordingly, but no.
Vyanka
06-05-2016, 08:40 PM
Ok, my guilty pleasure. Reality tv show, "The Bachelorette". This Chad guy makes things interesting.
baer45
06-06-2016, 12:41 AM
I am in Naples Italy right now. Sitting on the top of tour bus. It's very interesting to see the clothes people hang outside of Windows. I can see how our lives are different by looking at their clothes.
22lligm
06-06-2016, 11:19 AM
I want to go back to working dayshifts. Even though it's obviously slower I just miss getting off early and feeling like a normal person lol. Nights get too crazy and I'm tired of waking up at 12 or later I feel like such a bum!
chanzep
06-06-2016, 12:29 PM
So happy its my day off and not raining but I wish cousin kid would go to the pool so I can watch the tv. Im happy today tho chilling.
Aurora_Sunset
06-06-2016, 12:41 PM
I think one of the reasons that sex work is so dear to me is because... it's the one thing in my life that I can 100% say for certain was just for ME, and all about me. There was no underlying reason of childhood expectations, doing it "for a boy," societal pressure, or even worrying about if it would make other people like me. There was no conditioning, no one talking about it, no one encouraging it, and it's something that is mostly a secret and doesn't bring me any social attention or status. It's just purely a "me" decision that makes me happy and fulfilled in certain ways. That's pretty awesome.
AnoniCat
06-06-2016, 07:05 PM
My cat tried to bring a bird in the house today. I started screaming and he set it down on the porch and laid down next to it. I sprayed him (my cat) with water and he just looked at me like dude, WTF?
Genoveve
06-06-2016, 07:17 PM
^^My cat has successfully brought so many birds and lizards into my house.
Genoveve
06-08-2016, 05:28 PM
So because facebook shows you the things that your friends have liked there's always a ton of political stuff coming up under my mom's name. She recently posted this rant about how she wants people to stop posting BS political articles and memes and stuff or else she'll unfriend....but I don't think she realizes that because everyone sees the stuff that she 'likes' she's still spraying her own political BS all over everyone's feed lol. I should probably tell her.
Velveteen.Rabbit
06-09-2016, 06:34 PM
Oh man so this guys adds me on Facebook and I accept because we have a lot of mutual friends, and then we chat until he asks me on a date. I say yes because we have a lot in common and clearly I'm his type (I lurked old exes photos) but I can't shake the fact that he looks EXACTLY like this athlete crush this girl I used to be friends with was so obsessed with. It just feels so weird, and I'm not normally into the athletic build but I don't even think he plays sports or is a gym person. Obviously I'm still going to go, but I can't help but laugh lol
DonaDiabla
06-10-2016, 11:30 AM
My mother thinks that my cam career is so cute and she is always telling me to get cute outfits. I guess since I am non-nude that she believes that my shows are more like sensual theater or even a series of faux queen drag shows. Oh well, she is supportive to say the least :)
Aurora_Sunset
06-17-2016, 07:00 AM
I've normally never had a moment where I get all facebook-hatey and "Ugh, I need a break from facebook/want to delete my account." But this week...
I have deliberately only been liking people's funny memes and posting silly animal videos, because I just can't anymore with the cynical, angry, hating, fearful ranting from either side of any issue.
SimoneGray
06-17-2016, 07:46 AM
This year has been a testament to the fact that if you really WANT to do something, you'll find a way to get it done. If not, you won't.
It's made me very unsympathetic towards people who moan and complain all the time about not being able to do things, so I'm working on regaining the softness because I do understand that not everyone has the same chances and circumstances etc. Somehow though it still manages to rub me the wrong way.
Velveteen.Rabbit
06-17-2016, 09:17 PM
This year has been a testament to the fact that if you really WANT to do something, you'll find a way to get it done. If not, you won't.
It's made me very unsympathetic towards people who moan and complain all the time about not being able to do things, so I'm working on regaining the softness because I do understand that not everyone has the same chances and circumstances etc. Somehow though it still manages to rub me the wrong way.
In actuality, you can have whatever you want once your basic needs are met. Like, very basic needs as in food, shelter, and health. There's always ways to do things cheaply and creatively. Aside from that, it just takes effort.
Of course it's easier for some but the golden rule is that if you look the part of the stereotyped role or the antithesis of it and you make that your thing, then no one will question you. If no ones questioning you, then you'll be successful. Hence the blonde big boobed strippers doing well stripping, and the Barbie alt girls, for example.
baer45
06-17-2016, 10:09 PM
Churches in Florence are huge. I am in awe.
xStacey
06-18-2016, 07:34 PM
Just renewed my gym membership for 2 years and paid all cash. The young receptionist quickly asks me where do you work? I replied oh I don't really work he's like oh really? I said I'm in school full-time. I think he had suspicions lol he looks like a guy who knows a lot of girls in the industry lol
xStacey
06-19-2016, 12:21 PM
“At some point you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not your life”.
Velveteen.Rabbit
06-21-2016, 09:06 AM
“At some point you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not your life”.
See idk how I feel about this. On one hand we used to live in a toxic let's-work-it-out world where people tried hard to fix their broken marriages and strained family relationships. It was kind of romantic and a sign of determination and devotion.
Now, we live in a that's-toxic-so-cut-it-off culture where people cut anyone and everyone off for the most minuscule understandings, deeming them toxic. Sometimes it's necessary, but I feel like it's to the point now, in our society, where it's almost become a caricature. Sometimes I feel like I'm living in a walking Portlandia episode lol.
There's toxic things on both sides, but in this new cut-them-off model, you don't even get a chance to redeem yourself in the stupidest misunderstanding. It has also bred a new version of selfish takers and narcissists who openly use people for things. I hate it lol.
xStacey
06-21-2016, 10:22 AM
See idk how I feel about this. On one hand we used to live in a toxic let's-work-it-out world where people tried hard to fix their broken marriages and strained family relationships. It was kind of romantic and a sign of determination and devotion.
Now, we live in a that's-toxic-so-cut-it-off culture where people cut anyone and everyone off for the most minuscule understandings, deeming them toxic. Sometimes it's necessary, but I feel like it's to the point now, in our society, where it's almost become a caricature. Sometimes I feel like I'm living in a walking Portlandia episode lol.
There's toxic things on both sides, but in this new cut-them-off model, you don't even get a chance to redeem yourself in the stupidest misunderstanding. It has also bred a new version of selfish takers and narcissists who openly use people for things. I hate it lol.
Lol I was actually talking about my ex, a very toxic on and off relationship for the last four years. He had plenty of chances to redeem himself, and it wasn't about tiny misunderstandings.
I understand what you mean though.
xStacey
06-21-2016, 10:30 AM
Lol I received an e-mail about an internship offer at the International Bureau for Children's Rights, you have the choice to work full-time 5 days per week or part-time 3 days per week for the whole summer, and a symbolic $25 per day of work will be offered. Reminds me of how only rich kids can afford to volunteer in Africa to save children.
Aurora_Sunset
06-21-2016, 07:38 PM
Finally starting the new season of OTNB. I'm not religious, but please god, let it be better than the 3rd. *fingers crossed*
Vyanka
06-22-2016, 01:28 AM
Ugh. Why do some ppl have a certain smell at a certain age? I had 2 mid-age customers, have that 90 yr old smell. I wanted to gag in their face. Ugh. I know ppl pushing 70 and don't have that smell. Must be a genetic thing. Ugh. Why??? What is that??? Why is my nose picking up customers' natural bad scents now, after dancing for a very long time??? Lol. Ugh
DonaDiabla
06-22-2016, 06:54 AM
I still do not understand romance from different viewpoints but I pretend for customers. While on the job; I pretend to be romantic and hyper-sentimental for my GFE clients.Actually, I had to study how to be romantic for Caribbean, Asian, Western and African clients. Why, do I have to study romance? Because, my family does not teach romance nor romantic love at all.
Velveteen.Rabbit
06-25-2016, 12:56 PM
So the guy I'm dating more seriously, whose also my age, was talking to me about how he refuses to date or become close with people significantly older or younger than him because things never mesh well. He was so happy that when we met he found out I was the same age. He started talking about how young people are too reckless (or are too rigid and despise any form of non-rigidity), and how women who are older like latter 30s always push exclusivity and marriage on him for all the wrong reasons (wanting to fill the slot of "husband" versus seeing if it works out between them) or that they move on to only wanting to be around parents and things people their age are actively involved with. It doesn't mesh. He's just so right.
I was thinking about things and every time there's drama in my life, which was a lot the past couple years, it came from someone younger. I don't have a lot of close friends who are much older than me so I can't really confirm the older hypothesis, but I can definitely confirm the younger one.
I can't with most people under 25 or most sexworkers who only have sexwork going on in their life. It's almost always drama. My life has been so peaceful recently and it's really a breath of fresh air because I had forgot how good this feels. I'm so incredibly happy and more opportunities for the things I want keep pouring in, probably because of my authentic happiness.
SimoneGray
06-25-2016, 04:15 PM
I'm at that point in life where everyone is just annoying me needlessly...I'm not sure why it is. Maybe because I am in the process of wanting to make big changes...not sure though
Aurora_Sunset
06-25-2016, 04:25 PM
I'm at that point in life where everyone is just annoying me needlessly...I'm not sure why it is. Maybe because I am in the process of wanting to make big changes...not sure though
I think this is accurate. When I'm in the middle of trying to make big changes, I get unduly annoyed at everyone around me. I feel like all my energy has to go to my life and the things I'm trying to do, and anything that anyone asks of me in the middle of that just triggers this "fuck off" reaction, like they're getting in the way.
Aurora_Sunset
06-26-2016, 09:48 AM
I was struck last night about how weird my generation is with porn. I accidentally started watching a porno last night. And I say "accidentally" because I literally didn't realize I was watching a straight-up porno until about 20 minutes in. I thought it was just a silly movie with a sexual innuendo plotline and gratuitous boobs. It wasn't until the first sex scene KEPT going that I was like "oh... I think this is... a real porno."
And it seems so silly to not have realized that, but... my generation didn't grow up with porn that way. We understand the concept of "pornos" but how many of us actually ever went to an adult video store and rented a full length film with a "story line?" No, we have google which brings up websites with thousands of 5 minute clips that are just straight-up porn. No acting, no dialogue, no costumes or "characters." Like... I know they exist but it's just not something we were super exposed to with the advent of the internet.
I find that kind of fascinating.
charlie61
06-26-2016, 01:04 PM
I was struck last night about how weird my generation is with porn. I accidentally started watching a porno last night. And I say "accidentally" because I literally didn't realize I was watching a straight-up porno until about 20 minutes in. I thought it was just a silly movie with a sexual innuendo plotline and gratuitous boobs. It wasn't until the first sex scene KEPT going that I was like "oh... I think this is... a real porno."
And it seems so silly to not have realized that, but... my generation didn't grow up with porn that way. We understand the concept of "pornos" but how many of us actually ever went to an adult video store and rented a full length film with a "story line?" No, we have google which brings up websites with thousands of 5 minute clips that are just straight-up porn. No acting, no dialogue, no costumes or "characters." Like... I know they exist but it's just not something we were super exposed to with the advent of the internet.
I find that kind of fascinating.
Right! I bought Blue Movie when I first started dancing (Jenna's book inspired me to start dancing). Porn used to be a full-on production with budgets, scripts, perfect hair/makeup, etc. So different.
Velveteen.Rabbit
06-26-2016, 01:17 PM
^^^ I feel like porn is just over. I feel like most sexwork is just over. Only the top 1% makes worthwhile money that they couldn't make at a well-paid vanilla job, and no one even knows what the formula to get to the 1% is anymore since eveything has been done.
I feel like the "new" lucrative way to make money in the adult industry is to seem to be a normal girl with a normal job who takes impeccable care of herself, and then seduces a wealthy man into giving her money. Like a sugar baby I guess, but organically and not through a website. I just read about this over and over.
charlie61
06-26-2016, 07:24 PM
^^^ I feel like porn is just over. I feel like most sexwork is just over. Only the top 1% makes worthwhile money that they couldn't make at a well-paid vanilla job, and no one even knows what the formula to get to the 1% is anymore since everything has been done.
I agree. As a side note, when I calculate the bottom line for my dancing career, I never made a ton of money dancing. I made an incredible amount of money for the amount of time I put into it ($$$/hour), but my yearly 'salary' was very modest, and that was before taxes, health insurance, etc. And there's no way to calculate the other downsides: not being able to be promoted in dancing, damage to your body, the fact that I never used my free time for anything productive, blah blah blah. That was just my experience. Dancing was/is ideal as side income or student income, but it was/is a horrible option for me to have as a full-time occupation.
baer45
06-27-2016, 05:09 PM
I was struck last night about how weird my generation is with porn. I accidentally started watching a porno last night. And I say "accidentally" because I literally didn't realize I was watching a straight-up porno until about 20 minutes in. I thought it was just a silly movie with a sexual innuendo plotline and gratuitous boobs. It wasn't until the first sex scene KEPT going that I was like "oh... I think this is... a real porno."
And it seems so silly to not have realized that, but... my generation didn't grow up with porn that way. We understand the concept of "pornos" but how many of us actually ever went to an adult video store and rented a full length film with a "story line?" No, we have google which brings up websites with thousands of 5 minute clips that are just straight-up porn. No acting, no dialogue, no costumes or "characters." Like... I know they exist but it's just not something we were super exposed to with the advent of the internet.
I find that kind of fascinating.
I love those retro-porn movies. they are like HBO late night special in the 70s.
Velveteen.Rabbit
06-27-2016, 05:45 PM
I agree. As a side note, when I calculate the bottom line for my dancing career, I never made a ton of money dancing. I made an incredible amount of money for the amount of time I put into it ($$$/hour), but my yearly 'salary' was very modest, and that was before taxes, health insurance, etc. And there's no way to calculate the other downsides: not being able to be promoted in dancing, damage to your body, the fact that I never used my free time for anything productive, blah blah blah. That was just my experience. Dancing was/is ideal as side income or student income, but it was/is a horrible option for me to have as a full-time occupation.
I feel that way in general. That dancing is a good side income hustle or job for a student, but is otherwise pointless. Every stripper I've ever met and worked with seemed to either blow all their money on stupid shit, burnout out of no where which fucked them over, or take off lots of time and accomplish little to nothing lol
xStacey
06-28-2016, 11:01 AM
I am obsessed with the new song "This is what you came for".
Vyanka
06-28-2016, 01:33 PM
Ugh. So embarrassing. Last night my vip regular came to see me. I had no idea he was going to show up so early. He came in 2 minutes right after I was done eating. Sunday night, I ate pasta with a shit ton of garlic.... so after yesterday's meal, I kept burping the garlic from the night before. Yes, gross...I know.
We were in vip and one burp just slipped out in his face. Lmao. He told me I was the first girl to ever burp in his face and he actually liked it. Omg. I wanted to die. Hahahaha.
Never eating that much garlic the night before work. Ugh.
SimoneGray
06-28-2016, 03:37 PM
Did my first ever all vegan meal prep today, curious to see how it goes...if I like it, I'll make the change I think. Lately I've eaten hardly any dairy or eggs so I figured I may give it a go for real now.
xStacey
06-28-2016, 08:19 PM
Oh god there's a body rub customer I had for a few times already. I decided to search him on Facebook out of curiosity, I had his first name and he said he's a med student. He knows wayyy too many people I know ugh. He's friend with my ex boyfriend's brother who goes to the same med school, knows a guy I slept with, some people I went to high school with and some of my law classmates!!!! So happy I am not active on Facebook, I have no profile pictures and only 84 friends (closed my account with hundred of friends years ago), everything is private and I am so glad I never told him my real name (a stupid mistake I did when I was a newbie with nice regulars).