View Full Version : a few quick questions about camming
sadexcammer
11-11-2015, 04:59 PM
Update : went to get professional help today. giving in blood work tomorrow so I can hopefully get medication by Monday. The people I told my story too said I will be fine and I made a foolish mistake and that was that. I'm in therapy. I'm still a bit worried about people finding out but I'm not telling any of my friends or family.
I'm mostly just updating for myself but wanted to let you guys know I'm getting professional help.
sadexcammer
11-12-2015, 03:48 PM
Still having thoughts like.... I can't get married because then my picture will be in the newspaper and somebody has GOT to piece that together, can't ever win the lottery (this is a big one for some reason, I don't even know why I think I'm going to win the lottery) because my face will be on all the newspapers.
However I am feeling better about no one finding out right now. I think I'll feel better after tax season because then I know that I won't be connected to background checks at all. I'm motivated to do so well in my classes to get into a nursing program. It will happen.
getting my blood work done tomorrow because I needed my insurance card and couldn't get it today. Then therapy weekly from there. And hopefully medication for my intrusive thoughts.
Also on a completely different note - the guy I'm with right now is so sweet. Last night around midnight he took me to this lake and we sat and kissed on the rock. When I'm with him I don't think about what I did. Then we had sex in the field, granted it was freezing out and he didn't last very long it was still a great night. I don't know how I can be so happy with him and obsessed about this cam thing at the same time.
SimoneGray
11-12-2015, 04:14 PM
I'm glad you are getting help.
Sam38g
11-13-2015, 02:34 PM
A couple of times on cam, didn't make money. You cant find any images or videos from it. Great, now move on.
Continue camming & go to school upping the risk of being found out doesn't make sense to me.
Sam38g
11-13-2015, 02:37 PM
Still having thoughts like.... I can't get married because then my picture will be in the newspaper and somebody has GOT to piece that together, can't ever win the lottery (this is a big one for some reason, I don't even know why I think I'm going to win the lottery) because my face will be on all the newspapers.
However I am feeling better about no one finding out right now. I think I'll feel better after tax season because then I know that I won't be connected to background checks at all. I'm motivated to do so well in my classes to get into a nursing program. It will happen.
getting my blood work done tomorrow because I needed my insurance card and couldn't get it today. Then therapy weekly from there. And hopefully medication for my intrusive thoughts.
Also on a completely different note - the guy I'm with right now is so sweet. Last night around midnight he took me to this lake and we sat and kissed on the rock. When I'm with him I don't think about what I did. Then we had sex in the field, granted it was freezing out and he didn't last very long it was still a great night. I don't know how I can be so happy with him and obsessed about this cam thing at the same time.
People still put notices in newspapers & pics when they get married?
Face or pic in the news paper doesn't make you lucky or famous. It was a big deal 50 years ago to have a pic even for a wedding announcement in the newspaper but not now. Are you 70 years old?
$600 or more before income is recorded to the IRS for 1099.
sadexcammer
11-13-2015, 04:14 PM
I cammed twice two months ago two times and shut down my account. I'm not continuing to cam. I have a few screen shots out there I'm worried about. Never got enough to get a pay out on MFC.
loveshooks
11-13-2015, 06:29 PM
I received a report about this thread from a very caring member here who is concerned about you and feels that this thread is doing more harm than good at this point. I'm inclined to agree. As one of the challenges you face is persistent anxiety about what are very remote chances of being outed down the line, this thread serves as a daily reminder of something you're striving to overcome. At this point all you can do is move forward, revisting a central fear every day in this thread isn't going to help. As a result I'm going to lock this thread.
I hope you're able to access the supports you need to move forward in your life as a confident, happy chica. You deserve that. sw can also be a great resource and fun space, and there's far more to it than just the camming section.
the Lounge for general ish, Music Mix, for support there's Life Support and Ladies Only (can only be viewed by logged in female members) and Picture Post. PP is pretty wicked, the thread is hella relaxing (to me, anyways) if you're having a stressful day. Try Customer Conversation for the laughs
welcome to sw and keep ya head up =)