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moneybags
09-14-2020, 12:53 PM
I have tendinitis in my right wrist. I’m taking it easy. I’m sure it will heal if I take care of it. I’m gonna switch the phone sex to give my hands a break.
Anyways, I was at the doctor. He’s like, “it’s really weird it’s only your right wrist ...lol.” He’s trying so hard to figure out why I only have problems with my right hand. I bet that’s gonna mess with his head for a few days. He’s really smart, so I’m sure he’ll figure it out. I kinda wanted to tell him because he feels like a bad doctor cause he doesn’t know what the fuck is causing it.
Moral of story. If you’re working a lot of hours on one week make sure you do hand stretches.
Esixxx
09-15-2020, 11:53 AM
The kiddo just got a mini donkey! I'm a proud grandfurmother :D
Get to meet her tomorrow
EmPea
09-17-2020, 09:39 AM
I don't know if it's too late to respond to you, but you shouldn't feel uncomfortable telling your Dr you do sex work. My Drs all know.
I have tendinitis in my right wrist. I’m taking it easy. I’m sure it will heal if I take care of it. I’m gonna switch the phone sex to give my hands a break.
Anyways, I was at the doctor. He’s like, “it’s really weird it’s only your right wrist ...lol.” He’s trying so hard to figure out why I only have problems with my right hand. I bet that’s gonna mess with his head for a few days. He’s really smart, so I’m sure he’ll figure it out. I kinda wanted to tell him because he feels like a bad doctor cause he doesn’t know what the fuck is causing it.
Moral of story. If you’re working a lot of hours on one week make sure you do hand stretches.
izshadow
09-17-2020, 12:35 PM
I'm soooo tired lately and I really need to get my butt in gear and start decorating for Halloween!!!! But with my OCD that also means dusting/wiping/cleaning the areas the decorations go and its making me so unmotivated!!!! Ugh.
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
09-17-2020, 01:12 PM
I'm soooo tired lately and I really need to get my butt in gear and start decorating for Halloween!!!! But with my OCD that also means dusting/wiping/cleaning the areas the decorations go and its making me so unmotivated!!!! Ugh.
Do you have a theme yet? I havent felt well so I too have been dragging my feet. But I have most every thing I need and hopefully my friend with set it up for me this weekend. Im making a new goth camroom and I cant wait to get it all out of my head and bring it to life.
AriaSunset
09-18-2020, 12:38 AM
I have tendinitis in my right wrist. I’m taking it easy. I’m sure it will heal if I take care of it. I’m gonna switch the phone sex to give my hands a break.
Anyways, I was at the doctor. He’s like, “it’s really weird it’s only your right wrist ...lol.” He’s trying so hard to figure out why I only have problems with my right hand. I bet that’s gonna mess with his head for a few days. He’s really smart, so I’m sure he’ll figure it out. I kinda wanted to tell him because he feels like a bad doctor cause he doesn’t know what the fuck is causing it.
Moral of story. If you’re working a lot of hours on one week make sure you do hand stretches.
Did you try increasing your prices? Toy play and masturbation is taxing on the body, so I charge the max. This results in fewer shows and more time in free chat, but I am making triple the amount of money now. The ones who can't afford it fill my gold shows up and I never make less than $100 each gold show earnings.
izshadow
09-18-2020, 02:53 PM
Do you have a theme yet? I havent felt well so I too have been dragging my feet. But I have most every thing I need and hopefully my friend with set it up for me this weekend. Im making a new goth camroom and I cant wait to get it all out of my head and bring it to life.
I'm very much in to bats and skulls so will have a ton of that type of decor. Even though a lot of that I keep out year round, I have extra more Halloween style packed away and pumpkins and such. As well as garland and stuff for outside on my little apartment entranceway. This is the first time I think in forever I actually bought some stuff from Walgreens and Michaels. Usually I just overload on dollar store decor so I'm super excited to display those new items. Lowes has a halloween tree, a few different styles and I've been thinking about going to get one but not sure where to stick it. Camming motivated me to spoil myself a little but I will admit it was a bit addicting and I had to stop myself from grabbing it all haha!
Setting up a goth cam room sounds amazing!!!!!!! I bet its going to look kick ass for sure!!!!
EmPea
09-18-2020, 08:01 PM
Omg y'all I am going to have to call it a night early. My heart is more than broken. It's ashes.
US Supreme Court Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg has died. Article Below.
https://www.npr.org/2020/09/18/100306972/justice-ruth-bader-ginsburg-champion-of-gender-equality-dies-at-87?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=twitter
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
09-18-2020, 08:14 PM
Omg y'all I am going to have to call it a night early. My heart is more than broken. It's ashes.
US Supreme Court Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg has died. Article Below.
https://www.npr.org/2020/09/18/100306972/justice-ruth-bader-ginsburg-champion-of-gender-equality-dies-at-87?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=twitter
This woman was amazing. I had more things I wanted to say but I had to backspace too many times. Tomorrow the fight continues. ❤️
EmPea
09-18-2020, 08:55 PM
This was the strategy I was thinking of doing. I just got approved for Gold Shows.
Did you try increasing your prices? Toy play and masturbation is taxing on the body, so I charge the max. This results in fewer shows and more time in free chat, but I am making triple the amount of money now. The ones who can't afford it fill my gold shows up and I never make less than $100 each gold show earnings.
Esixxx
09-19-2020, 08:11 AM
Fall is officially nearing and I am feeling in 110%
This song popped in my head today. I am feeling myself today and life is good.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bFv_6s4_olc
izshadow
09-19-2020, 09:54 AM
I still need to make rent but its Saturday and I know there is going to be a lot of girls on. I think I really need to take this day and push to get the home cleaned, Halloween decorations out and then try to do a camathon of sorts Monday/Tuesday to reset myself. I've been on a two month downwards spiral and have barely cammed. Its nothing in the industry that got me that way but it was one sick pet after another, almost losing a couple of them due to a reaction to the medication they were on and it just drained me. My pso lines kept me afloat during it but now its time to put it back in to high gear before I fall behind.
After I decorate....
EmPea
09-19-2020, 01:54 PM
I am so tired today, no idea why. Trying to drink a red bull to get some motivation.
TheBrownFox
09-23-2020, 05:29 PM
That time we learned that Blanche has a brother (an adult) with special needs, who she kept a secret from her friends because she was embarrassed by him..... :'(
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4wImgRdTDg
EmPea
09-23-2020, 08:38 PM
Anyone else can't do more than one or two things in a day? Like I went to my garndmother's house, then got my nails done, then wanted to make some clips but now I am all tired from eating dinner. I am home all day so should be no issues tomorrow, but still kinda irritating. I am super jealous of people who can wake early and stay up late, and do multiple things in a day.
caramelcraze
09-24-2020, 02:13 AM
Anyone else can't do more than one or two things in a day? Like I went to my garndmother's house, then got my nails done, then wanted to make some clips but now I am all tired from eating dinner. I am home all day so should be no issues tomorrow, but still kinda irritating. I am super jealous of people who can wake early and stay up late, and do multiple things in a day.
I feel you. I have severe fatigue and don’t have much fuel in the tank most days. I miss the days of endless energy... it’s hard knowing you can only do so much and pacing yourself so you don’t burn out early.
izshadow
09-24-2020, 01:03 PM
Anyone else can't do more than one or two things in a day? Like I went to my garndmother's house, then got my nails done, then wanted to make some clips but now I am all tired from eating dinner. I am home all day so should be no issues tomorrow, but still kinda irritating. I am super jealous of people who can wake early and stay up late, and do multiple things in a day.
Same and my health continues to decline steadily. Even a shower can knock me out for the rest of the day. Its awful. I'm grateful for PSO work cause its a struggle to get on cam. I do get on cam but its not as often as I would like because something around the house had to get done or I had to run out somewhere real quick and it did me in completely.
EmPea
09-24-2020, 02:49 PM
At least I know I'm not alone. I am not chronically ill, at least physically, but I have ADD/Depression and other MIs so I have huge issues with executive dysfunction and anxiety. It creates it own kind of exhaustion that originates mentally and manifest physically. It blows. You're right about the phone sex too. Why I am looking into to doing that more, cause I am not good at being "show ready" day in and day out, but I will always answer my phone lol. I am also looking at indy camming more too, no waiting in free chat sounds like a dream.
Gonna smash this red bull, and talk nasty for the rest of the evening. My goal is 5 10-minute clips, a couple of good photosets and getting my IndieBill setup, by Sunday, when the Streamate contest starts.
Same and my health continues to decline steadily. Even a shower can knock me out for the rest of the day. Its awful. I'm grateful for PSO work cause its a struggle to get on cam. I do get on cam but its not as often as I would like because something around the house had to get done or I had to run out somewhere real quick and it did me in completely.
EmPea
09-25-2020, 12:09 AM
Ended up cleaning and organizing my room, but my hope is that by doing so it will be easier to do clips and shows cause it will be less work to setup and get dressed.
TheBrownFox
09-29-2020, 07:14 PM
This debate is funny as fuck!!! HAHAHA!!!
gbjenna
09-30-2020, 09:46 AM
I just had lash extensions today for the first time ever. I looked at a half empty pack of stick on lashes earlier and thought what a pleasure it will be to not have to spend 5-10mins every morning sticking them on before work. I’m excited
sexysusie
09-30-2020, 10:26 AM
I just had lash extensions today for the first time ever. I looked at a half empty pack of stick on lashes earlier and thought what a pleasure it will be to not have to spend 5-10mins every morning sticking them on before work. I’m excited ��
Lash extensions are amazing and save SO much time. The only annoying thing is it's difficult to use liquid eyeliner with them.
gbjenna
09-30-2020, 11:26 AM
Lash extensions are amazing and save SO much time. The only annoying thing is it's difficult to use liquid eyeliner with them.
I’ve not worn a full face of make up with them yet, but they’re quite full, so I’m hoping I won’t really feel the need to wear liquid eyeliner with them.
I’ve lost count of the amount of times I’ve been getting ready and thought that I couldn’t be arsed to work, only to sit at my desk, pumped to log on and realise I actually couldn’t be arsed to get ready. It bores the living daylights out of me! Microbladed brows are next on the list now!
kamiliam
09-30-2020, 11:34 AM
I have had lash extensions for 5 years and use liquid liner maybe one a month. I do wear dramatic eye looks though, this does lead to more lash fallout and a longer and more careful night clean. Luckily my lash lady understands and likes me.
sexysusie
09-30-2020, 02:58 PM
I have had lash extensions for 5 years and use liquid liner maybe one a month. I do wear dramatic eye looks though, this does lead to more lash fallout and a longer and more careful night clean. Luckily my lash lady understands and likes me.
Haha I always end up getting annoyed cause i like to just wash my face at the end of the day and can't with lashes. So i have them for a couple of months, get annoyed and let them go, then have them again a few months later!
Arwen25
10-02-2020, 02:01 AM
Oh man, I miss my lash extensions! I'd never looked better than when I had them. But I developed a hideous allergy to them - not uncommon, apparently - and won't have them again. It's a shame as they were amazing and cut down on getting ready time. I'm a scratcher though and I do so in my sleep, even if I don't in the day time so I needed infills like every 10 days lol - it was just ridiculous. Back to false lashes sadly!
TheBrownFox
10-05-2020, 07:48 AM
I see these guys on Twitter talking about "I buy feet pics! DM me a sample!," and I wonder how many of them actually buy feet pics...and aren't just looking to have women flock to their DMs ready to send them a "sample." It's frustrating that I went and bought a mini pedicure kit over the summer for the purpose of doing a pretty feet pic set (Which I posted in early-July), and I haven't gotten a single sale.....
everythingiscake
10-09-2020, 07:20 AM
My nephew has been in the system/foster care for 5 years and I was the only family member that was involved with him. Drove 9 hours to visit him for holidays and birthdays, phone calls every week, letters, presents, even buying his school supplies and socks. Out of nowhere I was cut off.
My sister refused to take my calls and I was no longer on the approved callers list at my nephew's group home. I asked my other sister about it and she told me she wasn't at liberty to say and I needed to speak to my nephew's mother. That was 6 months ago. I was checking voicemail today and my nephew had called me yesterday! He was whispering and left no forwarding number. I will assume his mother has no idea he called me as he is finally living back with his family. I cried and cried! He is my little buddy and I missed him so much. So happy he reached out (even if he wasn't allowed to).
I fear that my sister cut me off because of my choice of work. I totally understand that but it isn't fair to my nephew who didn't have anyone but me for 5 years. I really hope I am able to speak to him soon. I think he was using a burner number to call me. I have no one to share this with as my family can't know he called me against his mother's wishes. My heart is so full and I had to share this with someone :)
sexysusie
10-09-2020, 12:55 PM
Had my brows, lashes, and lips done. Now I just have to make the most of them and actually do some work;D
PixiieGirl
10-09-2020, 04:35 PM
theres something nice about having money and being able to treat people, hospitality, my partners industry is about to shut again and hes unemployed, and treating him to lunch has really perked him up with it all
ty sex work <3
izshadow
10-15-2020, 12:45 PM
Just had to move my horse the other day after being at that farm for 8 years. I'm so heartbroken having to leave my friends and people I considered family behind and even the farm pig and farm cat that I cared for. Both my horse and pony are buried on that property and I'm just ugh this sucks so bad. Lots of things had started happening that would take an essay to write but the three main factors were telling me I had to get rid of the chickens while my pony lay dead beside me. Like she couldnt even wait a week for me to process losing my pony she is that cold of a person. Then a couple months later finding out my current horse hadnt eaten in 24 hours and nonchalantly mentioned it in passing when I opened the stall door and saw food still in her pan. Or all of us receiving a text the other day that a person at our farm tested positive but would still be feeding since they are out of state at a horse show and they couldnt be bothered figuring out how we could help to replace her while they were gone. That broke the back and I literally was walking my horse down the street 12 hours later to a friends farm.
I'm crushed I had to leave that pig behind but my friends there will still look out for her and maybe when I get my own place, I can have one of them offer the owner money for me from me so I can rescue her from a pretty sad situation. But I had to look out for me. Something I never ever do but I'm high risk and I couldnt be around people who didnt care about their boarders and were more concerned with their horse show.
Anyways, I still have my chickens, they are now at a sanctuary in a foster program where I send them money for their food and I drive up once a month to visit and when I get my own place, I can take them back home with me. But for now they are safe and cared for till I'm ready for them. My horse seems super happy where she is at, even though she lost acreage for being turned out at night, I'm hoping she doesnt even care because she seems so happy. Even my friend mentioned she has never seen her ears as forward as much as they have been since being there. At the other farm she was nicknamed resting bitch face. I'm going to be paying a lot more where I moved her and I'm scared cause camming and phone sex has been so slow but at the same time I have the opportunity to push hours when I need to. I'm insanely sore today but that is also a plus of being here doing camming and pso work. I can heal myself and not lose my job! Just get grinding as soon as I'm able!
TheBrownFox
10-19-2020, 08:02 PM
https://i.imgur.com/fzPPS9Z.jpg?1
I bought these months ago because I'm obsessed with stars, and now I don't know wtf to do with them. Lmao.
~Carmen~
10-20-2020, 12:00 AM
You could punch little holes in the top and string them :)
gbjenna
10-20-2020, 11:19 AM
Haha I always end up getting annoyed cause i like to just wash my face at the end of the day and can't with lashes. So i have them for a couple of months, get annoyed and let them go, then have them again a few months later!
I'm here just to say that I lasted a grand total of.... 3 weeks before getting sick of them. I put vaseline on my eyelids before bed the other night and got most of them out!
I'd already had an infill after 10days and they were looking nice for around, 5-6 days then they just looked a bit naff! I think one side looked worse cause I sleep on one side. 2hrs in a chair and 48 hours without getting them wet twice a month, plus the maintenance. Too much hassle!
I also didn't realise how much I love simply washing my face at the end of the day either. It's a part of my routine before bed that I didn't realise I missed so much haha. Back to stick on eyelashes for me haha.
sexysusie
10-20-2020, 01:38 PM
I'm here just to say that I lasted a grand total of.... 3 weeks before getting sick of them. I put vaseline on my eyelids before bed the other night and got most of them out!
I'd already had an infill after 10days and they were looking nice for around, 5-6 days then they just looked a bit naff! I think one side looked worse cause I sleep on one side. 2hrs in a chair and 48 hours without getting them wet twice a month, plus the maintenance. Too much hassle!
I also didn't realise how much I love simply washing my face at the end of the day either. It's a part of my routine before bed that I didn't realise I missed so much haha. Back to stick on eyelashes for me haha.
Lol I'm in that phase right now. Infill on Thurs as they look shit. By about day 5 at least a couple of mine are hanging down and look a bit spidery. Still nice to not have to worry about mascara though!
gbjenna
10-20-2020, 01:46 PM
Lol I'm in that phase right now. Infill on Thurs as they look shit. By about day 5 at least a couple of mine are hanging down and look a bit spidery. Still nice to not have to worry about mascara though!
If they looked good for the entire 2 weeks inbetween infills, it would so be worth the time, effort and money. I was looking at them when I was on cam and they were annoying me that much how wonky they looked that I decided enough was enough haha. I think I was told they'd last longer if I had russians, but I don't think I'd like how full they are for day to day wear.
Juliette25
10-22-2020, 01:33 PM
I am fucking 35 years old in my 10th year of this business. It’s time for me to make at least $7200 a month. That’s what I need to live right godamnit. Especially since my (new, mind you) husband refuses to budget and combine our finances. I’m not putting up with that shit so I need to be able to hold my own in case I eventually walk. I make such incredible life choices.
PixiieGirl
10-22-2020, 04:13 PM
whales who want nothing, are nice and repesctful, like the same interests as you, and just, yesss
sexysusie
10-22-2020, 06:23 PM
I am fucking 35 years old in my 10th year of this business. It’s time for me to make at least $7200 a month. That’s what I need to live right godamnit. Especially since my (new, mind you) husband refuses to budget and combine our finances. I’m not putting up with that shit so I need to be able to hold my own in case I eventually walk. I make such incredible life choices.
Nearly my 10th year too and I feel like a total noob and out of my depth with all these young, new top earning TikTok gen most of the time! Hope you got your target and slay :)
BambiCutie
10-22-2020, 07:23 PM
I got a very good opportunity that could help me, but of course my Husband (Soon to ex) shattered my positive emotions, what was there anyways.
My Family is aware about the way he treats me and they offered for me to live with them, but it stings. It hurts unbelievably bad and I am trying to hang on, just like healing from a close death.
I have learned that I am stronger than I give myself credit for and that when I am needing to do something, I really do have the power to change that outcome.
The doorway to ending my marriage is opening, guess that is what is on my mind.
bigbum
10-22-2020, 08:45 PM
does anyone bleach their ass? i am really fair skinned and mine looks dark and it really bothers me.
i already have a fugly girlie bits that clients dont expect from me which i hate and feel bad about.
but if i could maybe start bleaching my ass it might help me to feel more confident and distract from my girlie bits.
i dont know where i would get that done or if there is a safe non cancer causing product to order?
i know it can be done...
i often see russian girls and a lot of Colombians with what seemed to be bleached butts.
any butt bleachers out there? LOL
bigbum
10-22-2020, 08:48 PM
I am fucking 35 years old in my 10th year of this business. It’s time for me to make at least $7200 a month. That’s what I need to live right godamnit. Especially since my (new, mind you) husband refuses to budget and combine our finances. I’m not putting up with that shit so I need to be able to hold my own in case I eventually walk. I make such incredible life choices.
does he stop you from buying things or try to control how you spend your money?
or he just keeps his own income and doesnt share?
bigbum
10-22-2020, 09:02 PM
i dont want to give anyone false hope here about their marriage. but i do want to share that people can change.
ive been married for 11 years now (since i was 21) .
and my husband started out with the latino macho thing with trying to control what i wore , being really jealous ect.
i couldnt even wear a crop top without a huge fight. i wasnt allowed to spend time with my friends ect. ect. he never trusted me!
but over time we grew closer and closer.
he made the decision to change as a person and followed through with it.
he did a complete 180!
so much so that,
last year it was his idea for me to even start camming.
before that ( we worked together him and I as a team in real estate) it taught us to be a team. and we really enjoy being together.
however we had issues with builders not paying our commissions and it got really bad. we spent through our savings waiting for commissions that never were paid...
and we new we had to come up with a plan.
i was doing online marketing and we heard about camming that way.
i never thought this was something i would do. nor did i think my husband that it would be his idea .
now we just spend all of our time hanging out together, having fun.
he gets my cam room ready each day, does the laundry, and spoils me rotten.
we have fun spending my pay pigs money going on shopping trips, traveling (before covid we went to london, france ect.)
for us we do not spend any time apart , not a single day apart. and we love it.
he works a bit online, but most of our money comes from my camming. and its enough for us to live happy.
he worked hard for many years in a physical job, so i honestly dont mind.
so you can get a guy who was completely controlling, very much a bit of an asshole and he changed completely!! we are talking like.. abusive asshole type.
i havent had a single argument or disagreement with him in YEARS. i would say at least 5 years with any sort of even voice raising fight.
but it also helps that we see eye to eye on everything, money, how to spend it, time , what to do, life goals ect.
sometimes it can take time, and if someone is willing to change. that is the key.
my advise is, spend all your time with your partner, dont let friends, family or anyone else get in between your relationship.
BambiCutie
10-23-2020, 08:25 AM
This relationship feels long gone and to be honest, I am tired of feeling a constant fight or flight in my marriage. (Feels like my marriage has turned into a game of Whac-A-Mole)
I use to have shit things said to me in the past out of random and during fights that anyone in their right mind would have never tolerated. I cannot spend half the remaining years of my life trying to make him change.
I refuse to stay in a one sided marriage, with the same reoccurring issues at age 50. If he does manage to change on his part, then I wish him the best in wherever life takes him.
Juliette25
10-23-2020, 08:35 AM
does he stop you from buying things or try to control how you spend your money?
or he just keeps his own income and doesnt share?
He doesn’t control how I spend my money. And he doesn’t keep all of his money to himself either. He just is a complete asshole about getting organized and planning what we do with our money together. We make about 80k between the two of us and we don’t live lavishly. He doesn’t even keep a fucking check register and I’m the “money nerd” so I can contribute those budgeting skills to our finances. I don’t think we would be struggling while making 80k if we actually budgeted. That’s what’s a dealbreaker for me. Living like a poor person while making more than enough just because he’s an asshole about talking about money. I’m at the end of my rope trying.
Juliette25
10-23-2020, 09:55 AM
He also said last night that I talked to him like I talk to my ex, who I hate. We haven’t been to counseling yet but I’m worried we’re way past that at this point. I’m usually really adamant about taking the marriage seriously and keeping the family together and stable. (No kids between us luckily). But now I’m just done. I’m already scouting out houses and apts online and barely interested in talking to work things out because this is what happens. Why the fuck did I get married?
bigbum
10-23-2020, 11:02 AM
This relationship feels long gone and to be honest, I am tired of feeling a constant fight or flight in my marriage. (Feels like my marriage has turned into a game of Whac-A-Mole)
I use to have shit things said to me in the past out of random and during fights that anyone in their right mind would have never tolerated. I cannot spend half the remaining years of my life trying to make him change.
I refuse to stay in a one sided marriage, with the same reoccurring issues at age 50. If he does manage to change on his part, then I wish him the best in wherever life takes him.
yeah if its been that long and he never changed. you are right,. you are wasting the time you have left.
life is so short. you should do what makes you happy.
ravenskyy
10-23-2020, 06:20 PM
I did some vanilla work this week, mostly today. I signed up for instacart, doordash and uber eats. I worked all 3 today and didn't even break $100. I worked 5 freaking hours, used gas and put miles on my car. I was quickly reminded of why I cam.
The contest weeks on SM aren't worth it for me, but I need to get back to working 20+ hours a week. I've gotten so depressed and lazy lately. I've stopped pushing myself to get online and I'm paying for it now. I was hoping that vanilla gig work would be a good temporary solution, but it definitely isn't worth it for me.
Fuck vanilla work. I'll be back to showing ass and titties on Monday lol
izshadow
10-24-2020, 12:10 PM
Every single time I go to cam my PSO lines blow up. Every time I'm unable to cam... my phone sounds like crickets. What do you want from me universe!?!?!
Freaking games. I swear.
LoraDoll
10-24-2020, 07:39 PM
I wondering, why am i sitting alone in my room all night long during my shift?
it s so dead, like i cant make money anymore.