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LizzyMe
09-25-2017, 10:54 PM
Glamourmilf, I am sorry to hear that your mom passed away. I just lost a close family member recently, and it takes a lot of time to just get through it. Surround yourself with people who care and love you.

TheBrownFox
09-25-2017, 11:49 PM
My mommy passed away.
I'm beside myself with grief.
Just stopping by to thank my cam, and stripper girlfriends who have been here for me.
I really don't know how I'm going to be able to cam.
I'm so lost right now.
I want my mommy.
I can't even think about being mommy to anyone else right now.
If anyone has gone through the loss of their mother, please p.m. me on how to get through it.
Thank You.

I am so sorry, Glam! :(

kamiliam
09-26-2017, 01:03 AM
I lost my father not too long ago, I recommend therapy, and this is coming from someone who is usually not big on that kinda stuff. It really helps to talk that process through with a trained professional. It also takes time. My condolences to you, I know how you feel.

thatgingercamgirl
09-26-2017, 03:20 PM
I'm so sorry Glam ((hugs))

bbwbrianna
09-26-2017, 04:53 PM
My mommy passed away.
I'm beside myself with grief.
Just stopping by to thank my cam, and stripper girlfriends who have been here for me.
I really don't know how I'm going to be able to cam.
I'm so lost right now.
I want my mommy.
I can't even think about being mommy to anyone else right now.
If anyone has gone through the loss of their mother, please p.m. me on how to get through it.
Thank You.

Having recently lost my younger brother I can say for sure it doesn't get better, but it does get easier. Being told my brother was clinically brain dead and he would probably not wake up again was one of the worst days of my life. I couldn't accept the fact that he was gone until I received his ashes even now in my brain he still exists. You're going to need a strong support system even if you usually deal with things on your own. Whether it's friends or counseling you're going to need someone to help you come to terms with what happened. I know day by day will get easier but you will always miss her and have her in your heart. It's one hell of a shock losing a loved one and you're going to need all the support you can get.

caramelcraze
09-27-2017, 06:55 AM
Some guy thought I was giving the performance of a lifetime because I started crying midway through a bj/deep throating show. like mascara running down my face realness. Left me a tip and everything! Little did he know I stubbed my toe about half way through the show on my hardwood floor & was in excruciating pain, but didn't want to lose the show on such a slow morning.

coco789
09-27-2017, 07:15 AM
Some guy thought I was giving the performance of a lifetime because I started crying midway through a bj/deep throating show. like mascara running down my face realness. Left me a tip and everything! Little did he know I stubbed my toe about half way through the show on my hardwood floor & was in excruciating pain, but didn't want to lose the show on such a slow morning.

Hahahahahaha https://media3.giphy.com/media/OPfJi2WQENKGA/giphy.gif

hyori
09-27-2017, 11:15 AM
My mommy passed away.
I'm beside myself with grief.
Just stopping by to thank my cam, and stripper girlfriends who have been here for me.
I really don't know how I'm going to be able to cam.
I'm so lost right now.
I want my mommy.
I can't even think about being mommy to anyone else right now.
If anyone has gone through the loss of their mother, please p.m. me on how to get through it.
Thank You.

So sorry to hear this, Glam. I'm praying for you.

Nikki_BBW
09-29-2017, 03:25 PM
I need a way for a custie to send me money that isn't tips or paypal - dude wants to pay my cellphone bill and I want to let him, but I don't know how to get the $$ to me...

Splendid
09-29-2017, 03:47 PM
I need a way for a custie to send me money that isn't tips or paypal - dude wants to pay my cellphone bill and I want to let him, but I don't know how to get the $$ to me...

If you have cash app he can just slap his debit card # into the site and put in a dollar amount to pay you. That's really the site I go to when getting random $$ just because custies are too lazy to sign up for a 3rd party site and this way it's literally just like them sliding their card and sending you money

MissRoxxxie
09-29-2017, 03:58 PM
My mommy passed away.
I'm beside myself with grief.
Just stopping by to thank my cam, and stripper girlfriends who have been here for me.
I really don't know how I'm going to be able to cam.
I'm so lost right now.
I want my mommy.
I can't even think about being mommy to anyone else right now.
If anyone has gone through the loss of their mother, please p.m. me on how to get through it.
Thank You.

I'm so sorry :( sending you so much love xx

christylive
09-30-2017, 01:34 AM
My mommy passed away.
I'm beside myself with grief.
Just stopping by to thank my cam, and stripper girlfriends who have been here for me.
I really don't know how I'm going to be able to cam.
I'm so lost right now.
I want my mommy.
I can't even think about being mommy to anyone else right now.
If anyone has gone through the loss of their mother, please p.m. me on how to get through it.
Thank You.


I’m so very sorry for your loss my dear sweety, sending you my warmest prayers and wishes. You are loved and I am here for you dear! Please stay strong

Glamourmilf
09-30-2017, 03:35 AM
Thank You everyone for the well wishes.:hug:
This week has been a blur, and the toughest week I've had in my life.
I just wanted to say, that sadly, it took the death of my mother to see who my friends/ family are.
It would take a small novel to go into detail about the appalling behavior of the humans I have chosen to let into my life.
One thing I realized, is that I let it happen, and I take full responsibility for it.
This is a time of mourning. But, most people I've associated myself with could give 2 shits, and have been asking me for favors. (Things I have offered to do for them, prior to my mom's passing.)
No! The answer is NO! The answer from now on will always be no. So don't ever ask me for a goddamn thing.
I've had to put my phone on do not disturb, and am changing my number.
I know that some of you know what I'm talking about, and have gone through something similar when you lost someone important in your life.
Ironically, the only salvation has been camming.
The first 2 days of being on cam, were pure torture, and I couldn't even speak. I ended up making more money than ever. Go figure THAT one out. *Scratches head*
The last couple of days, I see camming as an outlet. A distraction. None of my guys know about losing my mom. If they did, I just know it would push me over the edge that I'm standing on right now. They really don't give a shit anyway.

anonymous camgirl
09-30-2017, 06:50 AM
I am sorry to hear Glam, I was thinking about you and how your mom was doing not long ago.. wondering how she was.. as we talked about her privately in the past.. Sorry to hear of your loss and I hope you can find peace with it.. We always miss our loved ones every second of the day til we can see them again..


Thank You everyone for the well wishes.:hug:
This week has been a blur, and the toughest week I've had in my life.
I just wanted to say, that sadly, it took the death of my mother to see who my friends/ family are.
It would take a small novel to go into detail about the appalling behavior of the humans I have chosen to let into my life.
One thing I realized, is that I let it happen, and I take full responsibility for it.
This is a time of mourning. But, most people I've associated myself with could give 2 shits, and have been asking me for favors. (Things I have offered to do for them, prior to my mom's passing.)
No! The answer is NO! The answer from now on will always be no. So don't ever ask me for a goddamn thing.
I've had to put my phone on do not disturb, and am changing my number.
I know that some of you know what I'm talking about, and have gone through something similar when you lost someone important in your life.
Ironically, the only salvation has been camming.
The first 2 days of being on cam, were pure torture, and I couldn't even speak. I ended up making more money than ever. Go figure THAT one out. *Scratches head*
The last couple of days, I see camming as an outlet. A distraction. None of my guys know about losing my mom. If they did, I just know it would push me over the edge that I'm standing on right now. They really don't give a shit anyway.

Mare
09-30-2017, 10:56 AM
My mommy passed away.
I'm beside myself with grief.
Just stopping by to thank my cam, and stripper girlfriends who have been here for me.
I really don't know how I'm going to be able to cam.
I'm so lost right now.
I want my mommy.
I can't even think about being mommy to anyone else right now.
If anyone has gone through the loss of their mother, please p.m. me on how to get through it.
Thank You.
So sorry Glam!!

Glamourmilf
09-30-2017, 12:23 PM
I am sorry to hear Glam, I was thinking about you and how your mom was doing not long ago.. wondering how she was.. as we talked about her privately in the past.. Sorry to hear of your loss and I hope you can find peace with it.. We always miss our loved ones every second of the day til we can see them again..


So sorry Glam!!
Thank You ladies.
Yeah, we had the wake (closed casket), and the coroner ( medical examiner) hasn't even finished his exam yet . She still needs to be cremated, and a separate service will be set up for that.
The anxiety is beyond.
I just want it all to be over, so she can rest next to my Dad. They were married 53 years, right up until his death on my birthday 10 years ago.
Yeah. There's that too.

heavymetalgirl
09-30-2017, 12:55 PM
So very sorry for your loss Glam :( Can't even begin to imagine what you're going through right now. Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way

DancesWithSloths
10-01-2017, 05:52 AM
So terribly sorry for your loss, Glam.

Glamourmilf
10-01-2017, 06:32 AM
So very sorry for your loss Glam :( Can't even begin to imagine what you're going through right now. Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way


So terribly sorry for your loss, Glam.

Thank You. I appreciate that.:hug:

DonaDiabla
10-01-2017, 09:16 AM
I am very sorry for your loss, Glamourmilf :(


Thank You. I appreciate that.:hug:

Elektra Luxx
10-01-2017, 11:41 AM
My mommy passed away.
I'm beside myself with grief.
Just stopping by to thank my cam, and stripper girlfriends who have been here for me.
I really don't know how I'm going to be able to cam.
I'm so lost right now.
I want my mommy.
I can't even think about being mommy to anyone else right now.
If anyone has gone through the loss of their mother, please p.m. me on how to get through it.
Thank You.

I'm so very sorry for your loss Glam. Hugs.

Teddy_Bear
10-01-2017, 12:48 PM
Just seen this and wanted to offer my condolences. I've only lost my grandparents but I worry about my parents and whole family every day (sometimes to the point of insanity) now I am getting older, so are they and sicker, it's on my mind constantly. I can't imagine what you are going through but so sorry to hear your sad news.

People try and tell you time heals all wounds but it doesn't you just somehow manage to go on living. However it does get better with each passing day so just remember today is one step closer to recovery from this awful shock. We are all here for you.

ETA: The quote didn't show up for some reason but obvs this post is for you Glam.

LoraDoll
10-02-2017, 07:13 AM
Thank You everyone for the well wishes.:hug:
This week has been a blur, and the toughest week I've had in my life.
I just wanted to say, that sadly, it took the death of my mother to see who my friends/ family are.


I also wanted to say something. Sorry for your loss.
Me, I lost nearly all my family members. Just it happened long time ago, when I was a child. It was like time stopped and everything was frozen. It s crazy, and I think one of the biggest trauma someone can experience.
Trauma is something what always change us, and our life.
Give urself time.. A lot. And let us hear about u later, when u feel like!

Glamourmilf
10-03-2017, 07:48 AM
I agreed to let a 70 year old ' church lady' that I met ( at church) take me out for lunch on Sunday.
I explained to her that it was the first time I was going out socially since my mom's passing.
Also prewarned her not to talk about the death of my mom, and ONLY talk about happy and uplifting things.
She agreed.
However, when we got to the restaurant, she spent the entire THREE hours complaining about her boyfriend that she recently broke up with, who is now stalking her.. Pulled out his texts messages from the last few months, and read every one of them.. Never let me even say, uh huh, or add anything to the conversation.
She admitted to marrying a pimp when she was 18, and talked about how he turned her out and made her strip. That he had 8 girls working for him, and on and on. How she had 3 children with him, and on and on. About her drug problem, current abusive bf, yada yada.
Omfg! Shoot me now!
When the check came, she said that she wanted to treat me as planned, but was low on cash.
She doesn't know that I'm a former stripper, or cam girl. So she didn't realize that I can spot a hustler when I see one.
I would have left her ass in the restaurant during hour 1, but I was the one who picked her up and had to drop her off, and we were far from where both of us live.
I see that she didn't really want to have a fun girl's day out. She wanted free therapy.
I woke up yesterday to her usual 12 messages to me.
Ugh! Block and delete.
* The GOOD news is that I learned how to get by when you're older​ and can't/don't want to hustle anymore.
She told me how. Get into a low income senior apartment, paid by your social security. The government pays for her phone, utilities, health insurance, food. There's a special bus that only charges a dollar. Even her new puppy gets a pass, because he's a ' service' animal.
From now on, I'm changing my phone number, and will be more discerning with who gets it, and who I let into my life.
I'm going to a grief counseling meeting held at my church tonight.
Because waking up yesterday, hearing about the Vegas massacre, has pushed me over the edge.
I'm retreating, for as long as it takes.
Glam out.

anonymous camgirl
10-03-2017, 08:57 AM
I agreed to let a 70 year old ' church lady' that I met ( at church) take me out for lunch on Sunday.
I explained to her that it was the first time I was going out socially since my mom's passing.
Also prewarned her not to talk about the death of my mom, and ONLY talk about happy and uplifting things.
She agreed.
However, when we got to the restaurant, she spent the entire THREE hours complaining about her boyfriend that she recently broke up with, who is now stalking her.. Pulled out his texts messages from the last few months, and read every one of them.. Never let me even say, uh huh, or add anything to the conversation.
She admitted to marrying a pimp when she was 18, and talked about how he turned her out and made her strip. That he had 8 girls working for him, and on and on. How she had 3 children with him, and on and on. About her drug problem, current abusive bf, yada yada.
Omfg! Shoot me now!
When the check came, she said that she wanted to treat me as planned, but was low on cash.
She doesn't know that I'm a former stripper, or cam girl. So she didn't realize that I can spot a hustler when I see one.
I would have left her ass in the restaurant during hour 1, but I was the one who picked her up and had to drop her off, and we were far from where both of us live.
I see that she didn't really want to have a fun girl's day out. She wanted free therapy.
I woke up yesterday to her usual 12 messages to me.
Ugh! Block and delete.
* The GOOD news is that I learned how to get by when you're older​ and can't/don't want to hustle anymore.
She told me how. Get into a low income senior apartment, paid by your social security. The government pays for her phone, utilities, health insurance, food. There's a special bus that only charges a dollar. Even her new puppy gets a pass, because he's a ' service' animal.
From now on, I'm changing my phone number, and will be more discerning with who gets it, and who I let into my life.
I'm going to a grief counseling meeting held at my church tonight.
Because waking up yesterday, hearing about the Vegas massacre, has pushed me over the edge.
I'm retreating, for as long as it takes.
Glam out.

I am again so sorry to hear this, The last thing you need was that, You need fun and Consoling and nurturing... WOW .. I dunno how these crackpot people keep finding you.. and this was a lady at church even sheesh.. This is why I don't bother with anyone because all of that was always happening to me also for the most part.

TheBrownFox
10-03-2017, 04:13 PM
So ya just bring a new dude into my world who has a sexy ass beard and mustache...can sing his ass off (Sang Stevie Wonder's "Superstition" and KILLED IT!)...is a good cuddler, and throws the idea at you of bringing his guitar by sometime so we could sing together.

*Looks up at the sky/Heavens* Well played, dear Heavenly father. WELL...PLAYED.....

LoraDoll
10-03-2017, 05:31 PM
I m always troubled with lipsticks. Looking for the lipstick with perfect shade / texture is just a never ending issue for me.
I picked up a new one just in the days from the store. Aint really showed attention how the shade is called, just now when i started my shift.

https://images-na.ssl-images-amazon.com/images/I/41MwK4%2B7cgL.jpg

I m surprised. Wondering, how they figured out this name. "mai BillsBePaid". Anyway, it helps. In this slowness, when sometimes i forget why I even logged on, every little funny thing / little motivation helps, while on cam. :D I think I ll keep this product.

However, it have exactly the same shade, as shiseido lacquer gloss. In BE102.

whirlerz
10-03-2017, 05:45 PM
I'm always looking for lippies too, Ive found a couple..one thing I hate is this very matte glosses, looks terrible on me

LoraDoll
10-03-2017, 06:58 PM
what s on my mind anyway. Something is going on. I started my shift, as usually it s dead. However, I checked. None of the top models are online on jasmin.
I just opened the site, to see if anything happening on first pages. Basically nothing changes, like it s frozen. A few girl get pv, rarely but I think they are lucky with regulars. Started it 1am in eu, eu trafick completely broke, us trafic non existent. It seems like. What is this thing? :D

I go to cook something. There is nothing to wait for.

whirlerz
10-03-2017, 07:47 PM
Marinaaaahhh, I want Marina!
:)

Bananabunny
10-03-2017, 08:41 PM
I honestly don't give a fuck anymore. One year ago I used to make games in my shows, forced myself to talk all the time and still had a silence after awhile even if I literally did so fucking much to keep everyone entertained. Now I just don't really bother talking a lot on cam anymore. I'm burnt out after two years in this industry. I also don't make any games anymore, not to entertain these freeloader losers. I also sometimes put my camera a bit more below so I don't have to show my face and can rest my face muscles again from that permanent fake smiling (it hurts my jaw so much ughh!)
I'm barely making 1,3k a month anymore and it just sucks!! For my country that's 3k underpaid. Even my parents want me to finally quit this but they know I will remain jobless if I don't continue to work as a camgirl. I want to leave this industry so bad but I'm kinda stuck being not capable to work in a real life job due to my depression and concentrating problems. And I don't want to produce videos since I feel pretty insecure about myself and my phone is jackshit to film them but i can't afford a new one. Also my previous videos got sold pretty badly.

LoraDoll
10-03-2017, 10:19 PM
U know what s funny. I cam full time, 7 yrs ago. from the start I used to work 100 hours / period. (2 week)
Soon well like 2 yrs ago, I experienced a weird fallback on trafic - Quality and quantity. I cut back my hours, let s say to 60 / 2 week.
Things aint got better.
I contacted to customer service, if they dumped my room down to nowhere by any reason. Ofc I can t get a straight answer.
They blamed me, I spend too little time online. That 60 is nothing, must do 80 at least.
(Or they could say: we have a good weave of brand new, and clueless studio girls in every half year who sit here 0-24 untill their "short lifetime on cam" expires... try to keep up with that!)
Now, a few months ago I force myself to do the fucking 80 hours no matter what, and u know what? It was better, when I cut time down , to 50-60 hours. Plus I had a life.

coco789
10-03-2017, 11:05 PM
fairytale or nah? I dream of the day when I can make 3k a week off of indie alone *sigh*

Glamourmilf
10-04-2017, 08:09 AM
I am again so sorry to hear this, The last thing you need was that, You need fun and Consoling and nurturing... WOW .. I dunno how these crackpot people keep finding you.. and this was a lady at church even sheesh.. This is why I don't bother with anyone because all of that was always happening to me also for the most part.

These crackpots are drawn to me, because I'm an empath. I'm also the ' secret keeper', and energy vampires know it, and can smell it. But, no more.
I went to the grief counseling meeting last night.
We all had to go around the room, state our name, and tell who we were grieving over.
Later, on break, I was telling the minister that I was cold, and was going to go get my coat from my car.
One big mouthed nosy bitch commented that maybe I'm cold because my mother is trying to contact me.
She went to touch my arm, but when she did she got a big shock ( you know the kind you get when you rub your feet on carpet and touch something metal) :shocking:
I KNEW it was my mother warning her to "BACK OFF My daughter bitch!"
Ha ha!
I'm good. I have protection from everyone who has ill will now. There's nothing like a mother's protection. Nothing.

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
10-04-2017, 12:06 PM
Walmart now has all of their Christmas decorations up on display. An entire section filled with trees in every thinkable color. Meanwhile there was only one aisle for Halloween. They need to get their priorities straight.

anonymous camgirl
10-04-2017, 12:10 PM
Just saw some pictures of my ex boyfriend who put me through hell from 6 yrs ago..... get wrecked.. what the fuck happened to him .. nope , ugly don't want you no more.. for some reason these men I have relationships with ? when they are no longer with me they seem to go off the rails!... completely wild and hippy, or camo red necks? WTF??... nope he's not for me.. I saw the pics and said oh ok!.. Now I know why we didn't work out.. gotcha.. not the man for me... whew!

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
10-04-2017, 12:24 PM
Just saw some pictures of my ex boyfriend who put me through from 6 yrs ago..... get wrecked.. what the fuck happened to him .. nope , ugly don't want you no more.. for some reason these men I have relationships with ? when they are no longer with me they seem to go off the rails!... completely wild and hippy, or camo red necks? WTF??... nope he's not for me.. I saw the pics and said oh ok!.. Now I know why we didn't work out.. gotcha.. not the man for me... whew!

I recently googled an ex and boy oh boy does he look rough!!! It was a mugshot and it made me so sad. It wasnt a bad breakup. The right elements just weren't there. I told myself I wasn't going to google him anymore because to see how much he's deteriorated was too much.

anonymous camgirl
10-04-2017, 01:00 PM
I recently googled an ex and boy oh boy does he look rough!!! It was a mugshot and it made me so sad. It wasnt a bad breakup. The right elements just weren't there. I told myself I wasn't going to google him anymore because to see how much he's deteriorated was too much.

well probably cuz that was his true self maybe and he wasn't for you? that's what I am thinking happened to these guys.. and they are HAPPY about it.. having the times of their lives.

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
10-04-2017, 01:32 PM
IDK lol I dont think my ex is happy. But you never know? Meanwhile I also googled my old best friend and she is definitely not happy. She's been arrested 10 times in the last ten years. In her most recent mugshot she looks like she's in her 60's. She's 33 years old. Nothing against people in their 60's but some people don't age well. Meth is one hell of a drug. I haven't seen her in years due to her wrecking an apartment that we shared while I was out of the country for a month. And when I got back she'd stolen all of my stuff and abandoned my cat. Luckily the neighbor realized that no one was around and took my cat in. I knew that girl for years but the moment we became roomates who she really was started to show for me. I really need to stop googling people.

lilmerry
10-04-2017, 01:34 PM
My mum woke me up this morning ringing my phone right in the middle of a dream I was having. It's almost the end of the day and I'm still in a confused state.

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
10-04-2017, 03:36 PM
What A Day! My neighbor knocked on my door thirty minutes ago asking to use my phone. So we're standing on the porch and she says to the person on the other end Hurry! Get here quick I'm about to give birth on this ladies front porch!!! And then she said thank you and started walking back to her house. I didn't even know she was pregnant? She's kinda a bigger girl so it's hard to tell. The ambulance came and got her.

Bananabunny
10-04-2017, 09:44 PM
I swearrrrrr I'm so drunk tonight and lost my shit, only one creature on this planet can make me lose my shit when I'm drunk (which never happens I'm usually happy when I'm drunk): M E N!
Last conversation I had where I lost my shit:

Gready asshole: pm :)
Me: lol
Me: hahahahha
Me: good one
Gready asshole: what :p
Me: omg tell me more jokes please
Me: you're sooo funny
Me: thinking im a cheap bitch wanting a pm for free
Me:literally so funny
Me: i bow to you

I have only received such messages tonight and almost no money, I want to quit this job already agh;;;; I can't with these cheapos I need to start indie camming. Can anyone tell me a good indie cam site that doesn't records your shit and puts it on porn websites? I mean the website maker not the members...I'm so sick of freechat camming. I have considered suicide lately I'm not joking, I know that without camming I'm nothing and can't make money.

bbwbrianna
10-05-2017, 11:56 AM
OMFG I wonder if I'm going insane sometimes. I have my brothers ashes, still blindly holding onto hope that he is not gone and I will hear his voice again because I can't accept it. When I first picked up the box with his ashes, I couldn't see temporarily and I saw a dark shadow. Maybe it was him? And whenever I start crying over him I feel feelings of joy and peace soon after. Maybe I'm deteriorating or he is really trying to let me know hes okay? Don't know if I believe in an afterlife or not. Anyone else have weird experiences after having someone they know die? I am keeping him with me because I'd rather keep him close by than bury him in the ground.

whirlerz
10-05-2017, 12:42 PM
I believe in afterlife, I'm posting a poem on here (not atm) called Death is Nothing @All..
Part of it:

Title
It doesn't count.
I have only slipped away into the next room..
Whatever we were to each other, we are still..
Why should I be out of mind because I'm out of sight, I'm waiting for you, just around the corner
All is well

Genoveve
10-05-2017, 07:19 PM
And whenever I start crying over him I feel feelings of joy and peace soon after. Maybe I'm deteriorating or he is really trying to let me know hes okay? Don't know if I believe in an afterlife or not. Anyone else have weird experiences after having someone they know die? I am keeping him with me because I'd rather keep him close by than bury him in the ground.

I think the feeling of well-being that 'randomly' washes over you after you despair is maybe him letting you know that he's okay and that he's not those ashes.

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
10-05-2017, 07:30 PM
OMFG I wonder if I'm going insane sometimes. I have my brothers ashes, still blindly holding onto hope that he is not gone and I will hear his voice again because I can't accept it. When I first picked up the box with his ashes, I couldn't see temporarily and I saw a dark shadow. Maybe it was him? And whenever I start crying over him I feel feelings of joy and peace soon after. Maybe I'm deteriorating or he is really trying to let me know hes okay? Don't know if I believe in an afterlife or not. Anyone else have weird experiences after having someone they know die? I am keeping him with me because I'd rather keep him close by than bury him in the ground.

For the first year after my father passed, I would hear him say my name. And the tone in which I heard my name was the same way he'd walk in the house and call out to me. I was a practical joker and loved to scare him when he came into the house. I did it so much that whenever he came in he'd take one step look around to see where I was and then say my name with a question mark on the end.

I talked to my siblings and they experienced the same thing. Except the tone was always different. My brother would hear his name called out like he was about to get a butt whipping, my younger sister (the sweetheart) would hear her name with tenderness.

I'm not ready to completely rule out the afterlife due to other things that happened but some things I just explain it with the psychological effects related to mourning.

heyho
10-05-2017, 11:55 PM
I am shamefully really attracted to Rick's voice from Rick and Morty. I don't know what it is about that gravelly, petulant, sassy, highly-charged voice but whenever Rick whines or yells I just about cream my undies.

This comment has been brought to you by my ovulation period extra-horniness.

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
10-06-2017, 06:46 AM
Shoutout to that Broccoli Cheddar Soup from Operah Winfrey's new foodline, that someone in my house finished off over night. I miss you girl!

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
10-06-2017, 06:54 AM
I am shamefully really attracted to Rick's voice from Rick and Morty. I don't know what it is about that gravelly, petulant, sassy, highly-charged voice but whenever Rick whines or yells I just about cream my undies.

This comment has been brought to you by my ovulation period extra-horniness.

He sounds like Bob Odenkirk and a little like Will Arnett. So if you ever run out of wank material with Rick And Morty....

ravenskyy
10-06-2017, 12:29 PM
^^ Haha, I can't stand cats because I find them disgusting when they poop in their litter box and then jump up on your kitchen table. The thought of toxoplasmosis bacteria all over the place just creeps me out too. They can be such assholes pretending to like your affection and then biting/scratching you. Cats are loud fuckers too in the morning when they demand to be fed. They knock random things off shelves, they scratch up and destroy furniture--just as destructive as the most neurotic dogs yet, cats are neurotic all the time, LOL. They are way more finicky about food, and have more health issues than dogs because they are more sensitive. And omg the shedding. I have a rescue cat, and after he passes, never again.

I also read that cats have no issues eating you if you were to die and they had no other source of food. Apparently dogs will not do the same indicating they actually do have the same neurological and emotional physiology as humans do when it comes to attachment love.

Glam, the dog you were thinking of rescuing was obviously stressed because of the change of environment so it's understandable he was freaking out, he thought he was supposed to be at his former owners house. I think you may have giving up too soon. With a few more days and building up a new routine for him, he would have come around since you have seen him when he was calm and sure about his surroundings. It's normal for a bit of anxiety when your entire environment changes.


Umm....you're fucking joking right??? I seriously want to know before I say anything else.